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What a boring morning.

I've thought about getting help but I end up doing nothing and just sit in my room wasting away

why not smile, step up and become the person you wish you were?

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>>674554837
Then you need to go get help more than anything.

>>674554908
I'm not depressed because I'm not the person I want to be. Also, forcing a smile isn't exactly pleasant.

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>>674554957
You're probably right but part of me doesn't want help. I just want to die. Pretty much everyday for at least a year or so now I've thought about suicide. Only thing keeping me around right now is my dog but even then shit gets worse each day. I've just slowly stopped caring, lost all motivation and want it all to turn off

>>674555317
Okay, but all of that means you need help even more.

It gets better with treatment; would you rather suffer a thousand days, or just one?

Hey op - How you doin?

>>674555423
In my shower, so cannot complain! You?

>>674553722
You need to change this mood or convert it in an interest for something that might be useless but that'll make you having the impression to do something with your life. Do it for you or for the ppl you care about. For the cheer up you're in the wrong place, you better mention this to someone who will help you taking care about your business. Nice dubs btw

>>674555655
Yeah, I don't have a "mood", I have "major depressive disorder". I'm diagnosed, I have a support network and therapist, and guess what? Treatment doesn't always work.

That's just life man, no peptalk is gonna change it.

>>674555781
Why make a thread about it then? Your disorder is not a physical disease, maybe some lack of melatonine and the pills messing with you even more than your thoughts. I'm not looking down on what you have but you should give it less importance if you want to move on.

>>674555506
Cool. Im on a shower "detox" lol otherwise i'd probarly be too. Anyhow, Try and find a partner, it helps alot

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>>674555957
You think the mental is not also the physical? I have a brain don't I, isn't that physical?

Your understanding of how mental disorders work is childish. One cannot simply ignore depression and move on; in my case, it is a genetic disorder. I will have it for my entire life.

How condescending of you to say such things.

>>674556003
Why do you assume I do not have a partner?

>>674553722
You can eventually enjoy the bright side of life. It's not there. Try anywhere else really. Good luck

>>674556220
I'm an anon, not a girl.

>>674556238
That was the most useless sentiment I've heard all week.

>>674556285
glad you perceived what's important then

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>>674553722
sup. been depressed 7+ years, suicidal for 2. How you gonna get out? I live 2 minutes away from a local welding supply so I can buy a 5ft cylander of helium/n2/argon and proper fittings no questions asked. Panning on going very soon

>>674556632
Stop wasting my time.

>>674556643
Seek medical attention

>>674556718
How you gonna get out?

>>674556929
I'm not.

>>674556961
So then what are your plans for the future? get better? sit alone with your suicidal thoughts?

>>674557077
There ain't no gettin' better for genetic disease.

Who said I was alone?

>>674556140
I think you're making a handicap out of your brain. Stop that victim shit it's boring, that's not a life. I might ignore the details but the situation is pretty clear here. You are crying on how unfortunate you life is, and thus are conviced that you'll never be "happy". Well guess what, happiness doesn't exist and /b/astards laugh about it.

>>674557275
Okay so you're gonna tough through it. I can respect that. Some of us are too deep in it to help ourselves. People kill themselves all the time. no biggie.

>>674557366
Yeah, first, no where did I say I was crying, and my life isn't unfortunate. I'm also not convinced of anything; I have a genetic disorder that results in major clinical depression.

It's amazing how condescending you are about things you clearly don't understand.

>>674557451
I'm not toughing it out. This is my life. Embracing it is the only logical response.

It's not the best life, but it's not the worst. I'd prefer having it with my skin on and not grafted, but eh.

>>674557528
Do you work for a living?

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>>674557528
so you have suicidal thoughts? have you planned a suicide that you know will succeed? if so, how?

>>674557849
Yes I do

>>674558067
Yeah im not giving you suicide plans dude

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Have you ever have a plan for suicide?
Have you just ever been so mad you we're punching the walls so hard you have scars on your hand?
Do you ever feel excluded from your usual friends with whom you hang out?
Did you feel heartbroken after you found out the first person you fell in love cheated on you just 3 days before she said "I love you"?
How do you cope with the feeling of regret?
Why doesn't it feel good to get encouragment from few people that you can still relate to?
Why every day I feel like I'm loosing people from my life?
Just why does this keep happening?

>>674558162
Because depression. Seek medical help.

>>674558217
Also, coming to you live from an nyc bus, if anyone is wondering.

>>674557473
Well I guess that if your life isn't unfortunate and if your not crying because of the vision you have on it I might also add to the diagnosis a critical lack of objectivism ? I think you are stubborn to imagine that your recovery is impossible, it's a real distress. I'm not condescending, I think you are the one looking down on yourself because you understand so much what it's aaall about. Now I think I made my point. I wish you the best anon.

>>674558217
I don't know man, I want to keep on living, but shit's hard, for every 1 thing I do right there just 5 things that go badly

>>674558480
Let me look here sonny jim; doesn't seem to be any medical diagnosis for lack of objectivism, sorry!

As for the rest, ignored. Genetic disorders rarely respond to pep talks.

>>674558587
>>674558587
So start doing more things right.

getting some barbituates and sleep aids

and doing the bag over the head sleep trick

should be dead by tomorrow, a few things i need to clear up first

>>674558906
That'sa terribly painful way to die.

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>>674558731
>asking someone who believes they can't do anything right to "just start doing things right"

may as well shoot him yourself

>>674558935

no its not, ive researched it thoroughly

im in a phenobarbital coma before i know what happens,

>>674558906
whered you get the barbituates? Nembutal I assume? I don't trust online suppliers..

>>674558731
So I've been told, seems kinda funny now, when I ruined soo many relationships, even called a failure in life by my own parents, shit

>>674558940
Hey, its what he needs to do. One doesn't change ones opinion of themselves without some sort of trigger. Success is as good as any other.

>>674558993
No you really wont

>>674559009
You just have to try, anon.

>>674558997

on the street, actually. i was going to do a morphine OD, because its restricts breathing better than heroin. but my contact fell through

you could make due with mixing xanax and maybe soma, but take an anti emetic 25 minutes before hand. no point puking all over yourself.

>>674559096

> No you really wont

post a source

because a pheno coma puts you out, are you retarded?

itt privileged white 1st world kids who are ignorant to the world and real problems and use a diagnosis as a crutch.

>>674558906
don't forget to clear up your head as well!

>>674559224
Yeah that's me. Too bad im not white huh Freud?

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What's wrong?

>>674559359
Genetics.

>>674559224
Now that's the objectivism

>>674553722
Showing us your tits will probably make you feel better

>>674559096
I am trying, just doing it wrong it seems haha

>>674559452
Im an anon, not female.

>>674559482
Then try again till you get it right.

>>674559499
Did I say you have to be female?

>>674559123
ah, my main exit route was going to be a heroin OD which I was kind of excited for but industrial grade n2 will do me just fine.

>>674559546
They ain't tits on a man, dear. Just breasts.

>>674559499

youre a female you stupid cunt

show tits

Not quite sure how I climbed out of that hole, I mean I'm still depressed and suicidal but it's a lot more tolerable, even sometimes peaceful.

>Have epiphany
>Want friends, love, people I can trust
>Realize I'm an introvert
>They'd just take up time and cause shit
>More likely than not to find someone decent in this shitstain of a world
>Some people aren't supposed to be with people

Didn't want much, just a family and a few friends who I could trust, but shit happens I suppose.

Not sure if I finally gave up or what, but I've been a lot more okay than I have in the last decade. Not sure what to do now, don't like going outside due to agoraphobia; and I go to classes, but social phobia causes a cascading shit effect from even simple small talk.

>>674559695
Im as anon as you, anonymous.

>>674559529
I hope I'll get it right, thank for talking to me anon, was nice of you :)

>>674559839
My pleasure. Ill be back at 7pm tonight.