>>672450513
Were you in the last feels thread? I dumped most of the last hours worth of pics. I could start where I left off. I don't feel like starting over.

>>672450789
link thread plz

I was in the last thread.
I've been around here for the past 5ish years - I used to think these threads were gay and just skipped over them.
But now every night I look for them - for something to make me feel. To feel like maybe I'm not all alone after all. To feel like maybe one day I'll find someone.
I just don't want to be alone any more.

>>672451182
Thread is dead.

>>672450513
Do any of you guys ever feels sad/depressed and then never say anything because you know millions of other people feel the same?
You want to be the one person to your friends that doesn't feel that way...

>>672451182
It allready hit 404 like 15 min ago. I'll dump some though and if the other thread I'm in dies out literally or conversationally I'll dump everything

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>>672450513
this was from last thread, it really hit me hard in the feels.

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>>672451735
I said in the last thread that I find these to be a place where the community still lives. It was here 5 years ago but it has become a rarer and rarer sight. I've been here longer than I would like to admit, but these threads bring me back to the old days . not necessarily the good old days. B was never good.

I miss her. It's been about a little over a day since I last saw her, and I can't stand it.

https://www.youtube.com/user/VoiceAndCans/videos

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>>672452169
Yeah, I know what you mean. I usually post a little bit and then just cry before bed... One time a femanon responded. We talked for a couple weeks about our lives and became pretty good friends. She found her friend with his wrists slashed lying in his bathroom a couple of weeks ago; I haven't heard from her since.

Here's a pic that I've held on to since Valentine's day. My last relationship ended in October. I know I can't go back, I don't want to go back, but I read things like this and I can't get over really wishing that some day I'll actually find someone to hold.

I think most people have left from last thread...

To everybody other there, I'm still here.

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>>672450513

anyone feelin' over anything in particular tonight?

>>672453413
life in general i guess

>>672453413
feeling like I don't matter to the people that matter to me

>>672453413
the fact that he likes me, but we're still supposed to just be friends.

>>672450513
I write love poems to nobody in particular in hopes someone will come...

how bad is this/10

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Anon, I'm still looking for you.

>>672453668
it's fine, we're all lonely here

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=TyiQBGOI2FI

lets sing /b/ros

>>672453668

not bad/10

Just keep searching man. that's all we can do

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>>672452867
I feel you. Ended a relationship two weeks before Christmas, I was close to her daughter as well and I have no legal claim to her. The girl called me dad for the first time a month before the breakup. Haven't seen either since. It's hard I know, but we gotta keep on moving forward. Pursuit of happiness is just that, pursuit. If you were in the other thread you will possibly remember me saying this to another anon. You never know what life will do next. For every 99 miserable moments you might luck out and get that little nugget of joy that makes it worth it. Life is crazy and full of other humans. Surprisingly some of them arnt even shitty. Never know what could happen next.

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>>672453789
You have to be here somewhere

>>672453664
>>672453413
the fact that I like her, but we're still supposed to just be friends

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>>672450513
better

>>672454042
oh shit this is pretty trippy. It's probably not the case, but are you ollie?

>>672454251
nope
I guess that means you aren't Hannah

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>>672453901

I live with a family that hates me and wants me to fail, but I can't afford to live on my own while I'm in University.
I spend all of my time working on my studies in hopes that some day I'll find /something/. I've done a lot of volunteer work in my community, feeding the homeless, cleaning up trash, etc.
Right now is the closest I've ever felt to actually being happy, but every night I just feel alone.
As shitty as my last relationship was, at least I didn't feel so alone.
Because I've no-lifed my studies I get to go to Taiwan this Summer. Part of me wants to just stay out there and leave my life behind.
But I know I'll still feel this way, no matter where I am.

>>672454591
nah, I'm lauren. it's fine, we can be lonely together then

>>672453838
This. It's a really shitty feeling. I try to push it out of my thoughts but it's really hard. It takes up so much of everyday thinking that I'm starting to wonder if I need help.

>>672453668
its how we all feel man
not a big fan of poetry
but I would read those poems

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>>672450513
Why do the people around me make me feel more alone then when i'm by myself

>>672454688
Yeah we can.
What's the deal with you and ollie?
you are supposed to be friends
he likes you.
do you like him?

>>672451755
Yeah I feel you on that one. I always try to block my feelings because I know that there's always someone worse off. Not a good way of coping if you ask me.

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Worth the read, although it's shorter than it looks.
Last post for a bit, I am being asked to solve multiple captchas after the dump in the last thread.

If the anon who said he would sleep happily tonight ends up here please remember.

You deserve happiness and you will find it. It may not be at a time you expected or wanted it but remain open to life's twists and turns and it will be there. It may not come in a form you expected when it does so always be open to the potential joy life can offer, even when it seems like the misery is all you will ever find.
You are worth the happiness you will find. Don't ever stop looking.

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Hey, /b/. So, I've recently been hit with a bombshell the past few days. To do a quick recap: My friend completely fucked me over on a potential girlfriend. I had found out today that my mother is doing crystal meth and tearing the family apart. And the worst part is that it's killed me inside. But, I can't show my feelings to anyone or I'll breakdown.

Now, I know the first reason sounds faggy, but he knows I have a real bad time with women and don't have the charisma he has. If anyone wants more info, I'll spill.

All in all, what do I do?

>>672454864
yeah but he's in a relationship. it's with a guy named skylar. he's a mate of mine, but I know he doesn't love him. he's told me he doesn't love him but ollie thinks he does, and neither one of us knows why their still together but they are. he keeps saying he's gonna break up with him but he never does.

>>672455316
ITT weirdos pretending to be children.

>>672455495
oh, okay then.

>>672451932
Didn't play ps2 for 4 years?

>>672454042
The fact that I've told her I love her
But she just wants to be friends

>>672455495
way to be a dick, you fuckin fag

>>672455316
That must feel terrible.
Hannah doesn't seem like she wants to be in a relationship with any guy.
We are pretty much best friends.
She is a flirty girl by nature and sometimes it makes guys think she has a thing for them when that is just her being friendly.
I try to convince myself that that's all she is doing, because she said a few times she wouldn't date "guys from our group of friends" (about 6 guys in the group). Recently she has been even more flirty with me.
She always wants to hold my hand and I get really awkward and my hand starts to sweat a lot, but so do hers.
She does things I don't see her do with other guys. The problem is another guy from our group likes her. All the guys in our group know now that he is in love with hannah and truly believes she is the only girl for him. I can't tell any of them. They would think of me as an asshole. The other guy is super depressed and suicidal so of course he will get everyone's sympathy over me. Even though every week the whole lot of them come over to my house. I pay for food I let them make themselves at home and they take advantage of that constantly. It doesn't feel like I'm hanging out with friends, but babysitting children. They break, things throw things, and make a mess. I clean up their mess and they don't acknowledge it. Except for one of them. One of them isn't like that. One respects me and my house. Appreciates the things I do. That's Hannah. I try to convince myself to just let the whole thing go. To just stop liking her, but every time I see her I fall more and more in love with her.

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>>672456299

Kill yourself feels thread faggot.

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>>672455495
You sure showed us!
Well played, Anon!

>>672455495
I came to this thread because I was upset and looking for the comfort of sadness. I gave the honest shit happening in my life, knowing other people were out there dealing with similar shit, and trying to find them so that I could at least feel the comfort of having someone I could relate to. I was already fucking depressed as shit before I came here, I don't even know what that insult meant but it still hurt. I don't know why I'm saying this other than I feel I have to. fuck I'm emo.

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>>672455495
>>672456583

Being this salty.

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>>672456583

>>672456085
at least you had the courage to tell her.
what I would give for even that

>>672456550
does she know you like her?

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>>672456764
You seriously typed that shit out you fucking loser?
I'm glad it Hurt, I really am, Nobody cares about you faggot just off yourself already it is what they would want, you are only an annoying distraction to people.

Jesus Christ just kill yourself now

>>672450513
Man it's not the one woman that left me, it's the women who keep leaving me. In the end it isn't about them, it's about my undending desire to run away with someone, and my desire to be the missing piece of someones life. My first killed herself. I will always wish she was still alive, here with me, but no one had a chance to help save her. My second was just a whore in the end, who even cares. It's the third man, i could write you a book about how she turned my world upside-fucking down, and then one day jsut stopped loving me. see its that piece, i need to be the piece to finish someones life or i swear ill never find happiness. I want to propegate joy for someone every day and watch them grow old.
But that's not who i am

She was a really touchy-feely person to start with, but she was more touchy with me than other people. She would sit on my lap, hug me, play with my hair, the whole nine yards. So much that other people started to notice.
She would joke that I loved her, and I called her my teacher, older sister, little apple, etc.

Then she just stopped talking to me.

I don't know if I should pursue her, or if I just took it all the wrong way.

She was the first person to hug me in weeks.
She was the first person to show any attention or affection in months.

Now I just feel cold again.

>>672450513
that guy and his friend are fuckin morons the song of storms is amazing

>>672457089
no
and I wouldn't dare tell her
we are in high school and she is emotionally very immature
If she even thinks someone likes her she will avoid them.
When she gets a compliment like "I like your eyes" she gets creeped out.
If I told her I liked her. She wouldn't want to be around me at all. At least this way I can be with her. Even if it isn't exactly the way I want to be with her.

>>672457151
For some reason I don't want to kill myself. I'm unhappy with life, yet I don't envy death. It interests me, yet in a a way it is sort of a bother. It would be much easier if I wanted death, but no I must lust for the harder route and wish to make my life better.

>>672457268
you have my sympathy, anon

>>672457537

I don't want to feel cold and alone any more, anon.
Should I try to talk to her again?

>>672457454
Don't care.
Nobody cares.

>>672457429
shit, that's rough. I don't know how to help though I feel as if I must. the only thing I can suggest is try to really connect with her, because it would, well, connect you two. Who knows, if you really get to know each other deeply and emotionally, she might end up liking you.

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>>672456583
Noice

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;________;

>>672457429
I am a horny teenage boy.
I jack off all the time.
Of course i see her sometimes in my head while I'm jacking off, but I don't really have any sexual fantasy about her. I just want to hold her. Sometimes I'll be lying there in my bed at night. Squeezing a pillow. Hugging it. Wishing it was her.

>>672457764
yes, you should

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Who pic related

>>672457799
yeah, I know. I'm posting more for me than anyone else. I don't search for sympathy, I search for comfort, and who else but me could give it to me, if no one cares?

>>672456764
Hey man, don't worry about it. Just because some autist needs to take his own insecurities out on people, doesn't mean listen to any of the shit he says. There are there people in your position. Everything will be ok

>>672458041
that's actually really adorable

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>>672458111
Right here, except it's not really a depression, just schizophrenia that manifests as a depression.
Fun times.

I'm only on this site because I'm Lonely

I'm good looking, I'm smart, I'm tall
I never talk to girls because I tell myself they are a waste of time I'm christian and I tell myself they are just a temptation I need to avoid, when the truth is I waste more time feeling lonely on this site than I would with a girl
I can never bring myself to try agai with anything
I have probably acted like such a faggot in front of so many people tbh .....

The only thing that ever motivated me was helping others or helping kill off niggers from the world but it does not last
I feel like I should just sign up for the Military in a couple months and just end it there, that way I will have meant or done something at least...

>>672458120
Don't you get it?
You are nobody.

>>672458111
that picture is me in a nutshell. nice trips btw.

>>672458094

I don't know what I would say, really. I'm a boring person.

So I'm living with my parents. I'm 24. I'm paying all their bills, food, everything. I really enjoy living with my parents. The bottom floor and the top floor have front door locks so that it would seem that we live apart. They have their own kitchen and stuff.. My father damaged his back at work and my mom's arms are paralyzed. People criticize me and tell me that I should move out even though they don't know what I'm doing. Like the other day, some random neighbor came up to me and started calling me: lazy, selfish, your parents should kick you out, you don't work etc. and has happened so many times. My parents cry when this happen because they can;t stand up on their own and talk and my mom can't speak properly because of the paralyses. I just feel depressed because of their condition. I've told the bastard neighbors about my situation and they don't believe me. They knock on our door and I don't answer so they think I prevent my parents from answering the door. They just yell at me until they get tired outside.

>>672457901
thanks. It's enough help just to tell the story to someone. I can't talk to anyone else about it and the one place I know I can be honest is on here. In a few weeks me Her the other guy that likes her, another one of my friends, and one of her friends are going to her friends house to stay overnight cause they have a bunch of weed. Idk what will happen that night, but I'm hoping I can really talk with her. Like have a serious talk. There are times when I get in a way that when I speak people are surprised at the profoundness of what I'm saying, because usually I keep quiet or don't say anything worth listening to. But I want to really talk with her. I want to be able to tell her how I feel. I hope I find the courage someday soon

>>672457429
tell her anon. trust me, the limbo in-between is far worse than being upfront about it. its not worth it to be friends with someone youre in love with if they dont feel the same way. move on

>>672458583
Yeah, I understand that. I don't really care if I'm known, fame isn't something that seduces me, that being another thing that interests me. Idk, it's obvious that you're a troll, yet I still find entertainment from talking to you. You feel like a friend, however sad and fucked up that is.

>>672458591
she would disagree

>>672459046

?

>>672458651
how do I say it
do I just blurt out "I love you"?
do I explain to her that I feel weird around her?
I mean I've never been in love before. I have nothing to compare this to. How do I know if it really even it love?

>>672455770
green?

>>672459140
she saw something in you. She enjoyed being with you. YOU.
Just be your usual "boring" self and I bet she finds that "boring" personality to be one of the best parts about you.

>>672459387
yeah I thought it might have been just me, but that thing looks yellow.

>>672459231
from the things you've said about her in this thread, I would say you love her. Will you still love her in 10 years? I don't know, but it's good to try you know? btw, I'm not the one who told you to tell her, I'm the ollie loving fag (the one who's responded to all your other posts for some reason).

I looked my mom up in the obituary... 2003 doesn't feel so long ago... 13 years and I still miss her i feel like a fucking looser
even though I miss her so much I dont feel worthy of seeing her again even if i know she would be proud of me finding a gf, and graduating both HS and College... what the hell is wrong with me /b/? why cant i find happiness?

>>672459391

Thank you Anon. It's 3:30am, but I'll text her in the morning.
Seriously, Thank you.

>>672459590
I'm so sorry man. You have my sympathy

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>>672459675
anytime, pal

>>672459737
I just want something... i dont know what if its sympathy, empathy, an answer, someone to talk to, or just to be empty but nothing seems right...

>>672459590
I know the feel, my mom died too, 8 years ago. Try to just accept the loss, and focus your life and emotion on something else. I would bet you if she were still aware of what is happening on earth she wouldn't want you to mourn over her death for this long. shitty advice is shitty.

>>672460027
not even shitty advice though

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Anyone got good feels movies? Anything will do, just want to feel.

it's 3:35 am and I'm just sitting here spamming the update button hoping for something to show up and make me feel better.

>>672460027
its good advice whats shitty is that i know you're right but it hurts too much to even think of ever letting this go.... i just want to hurt... i want pain so bad people think im like a masochist when in reality I just feel like its what i deserve

>>672460332
I'm with you there, buddy

>>672458497
Anyone know anything about the American Military actually?

>>672460293
cyberbully, fat boy chronicals, bully, all shitty movies but I still love them.

>>672450513
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hf4IxNNiqbU

>>672460293
3 Idiots

it's foreign, and really long but so worth it

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>>672460332
fuck. me too.

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This might not be the best thing for some of you anons, but I'm trying, /b/ros...

>>672451755
>>672454934
are you both me holy shit anons ;-;

>>672460293
cloudburst is pretty good.

>>672452169
what is that quote from...

Feels thread man

>>672460293
i really liked Dennis by Mads Matthiesen
its Sequel Teddy Bear was also really good

>>672460510
>>672460666
>>672460794

Thanks anons, gonna watch a few of these. And nice trips fam.

>>672460389
A fair bit
>>672458497
tried getting my ass killed on second tour. it didn't work. shit's funny that way

>>672459231
dont just blurt it out. get a conversation started thatd be considered "deep", then say you have strongish feelings for her. if you dont wanna say you love her then dont. just make it clear you see her as more than a friend. itll then go 1 of 2 ways.. shell reciprocate it or she wont. live with either outcome

>>672451932
Holy fuck:(

>>672459540
Went to a psychologist for the first time this week
Talked to the head guy at the practice and then a girl who doesn't have a phd but now I'm meeting with once a week. Head guy I'm gonna see every six weeks.
Both of them
Have always dealt with stress and anxiety problems.
Never seriously thought I was depressed until recently. No one would have thought I was.
I started thinking I might be, but I convinced myself I wasn't.
For months I told myself every day
"You aren't depressed. Just man up and deal with the shit that you get"
Every day I got sadder and sadder.
It got to the point where I felt empty inside
I don't mean that in any sort of metaphorical way.
My legs and my arms feel light as a feather.
Yet.
I feel like there is a lack of muscle tissue in my limbs and even though they are light as a feather. There are times when I can barely lift them.
It took both psychologists no more than 20 mins to tell me there was a good chance I had depression.
I don't feel like I can talk about that with anyone I know irl.
I don't want to be known as depressed, but every time I think about her it just gets worse.
She is my best friend.
I don't know what to do about it.
I convinced myself that I have a purpose to fulfill in my life. I have a good idea of where I need to go to reach my gold. I know how I can get there. In no part of my plan includes her, or any girl for that matter. I always just assumed I would be barreling down the highway chasing after my dream and I would find a girl while I was driving. I can't get her out of my head. No matter what I try.
Should I slow down for this girl?
Should I slow down for any girl?
Should I let myself get distracted?

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>>672460715
And I'm getting pretty tired, so I got one more for all you anons. You're never alone... Goodnight everyone

>>672455250

oh god. this fucking wrecked me.

>>672461190
damn this is old, still fucks me up every time i read it

>>672450513
>>672450001 (OP)
I would love to live in my dreams. Collusus landscapes, beautiful scenery, and just the feeling of pure relaxation. I love it and the escapism feels way too real. It's honestly the happiest and the most pure thing that I have. It can be nature or some modern day building like a mall. I walk in and some things are spaced out and colored in memories that I've had as a child. I can't explain it. I'm just addicted to it. I want someone with a soft voice to be with me through it all instead of always going through it alone.

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>>672460332
tell comrade chesnokov your problems. will fix

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>ive never had anyone to hold
>found someone that i want to be with
>dont think i can, not soon
>have no motivation to try to get the things that i need to see her
>but all i want is to see her
>she loves me
>and i love her
>she says she wants to be with me
>all i want is to hold her hand, and kiss her lips
>all i want is to finally know what it feels like to hold someone you love and cherish
>all i want is her to be with me
>all those things, but i cant find the motivation to make myself work towards it.\
>pic related.

>>672460937
Which branch is the most fun?
Which branch is more likely to get you killed?

>>672461190
god dammit. Pierced trough the vain of feels

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>>672456583
Nigga please

this isn't even true....

>>672461135
I don't really know what slowing down means, but if you're struggling with some depressed state wether it be actual depression or not, I feel as if this girl who you appear to love could definitely help with that. Just do what I said before, try to connect with her, and see if she connects with you. I'm actually really hoping that you two end up together after being in this thread.

>>672451932
That ones spooky

The real feel of them all is the fact that we're all pathetic people living pathetic lives and we all come to 4 Chan even though if we we're popular and stuff we wouldn't be here

I don't want this thread to end
>>672461642
If I end up with her I'll post it on here I can guarantee you that

>>672461558
what isn't true?

>>672461190
I needed this.

>>672461135
I feel the exact same, Anon - I'm a Psychology Major and I refuse to let myself get checked out or anything like that. I don't want to find out how sick I am.

>>672461764
Every time I walk around my College Campus I get stopped by people. People I've had classes with, people I knew in High School, etc. etc.
I still come to here though, I still come to these threads. Because even though I say Hi to them, tell a few jokes, and act happy, I'm alone. I'm all alone. Most of us are.

>>672461891
hey, doing this might make me a faggot but if it does end and you ever need anyone to talk to, my skype is moorooster (skype being the only form of online communication I use). btw, if you were wondering who I was, I'm still that ollie loving faggot.

>>672453413
Put my Grandfather to rest today. Reflecting and all the things he used to say to me and the time we had together.

>>672461764
wrong. i was "popular" in the traditional sense in hs/college.. i still go out frequently, drive a corvette, have a solid group of friends and have a generally good life. we come here for the same reason, anon, because everyone feels like theyre worthless, like they need fixing, like their problems are world-ending.. and we all need assurance that everything is ok

Been living in a small town most of my life. I don't know if I got it rough or got it good. Life is just as is, no in between. I have type 1 diabetes, a brittle one. I eat one thing my glucose levels in my blood sky rocket to dangerous levels. I'm terrible at taking care of my self. My blood sugar constantly running in the high 200 - 500 range every day. My mother has chrones and I live with her to help take care of things for her and her sister because I appreciate them raising me and giving me a home to live in with food to eat. I feel terrible for her, she always helps as many people as she can and she's in constant pain every where in her body. I talk to my siblings about it sometimes, although they show no sympathy towards her because she gave them all a pretty hard upbringing. It hurts to hear all this on the inside, it makes me depressed to see my own family can't get along very much. My brother is doing meth and living with this stupid cunt bitch that is doing nothing but taking advantage of him and he doesn't treat me like my brother anymore. lifeiguess.png I do what I can to help any body in need and I ask for nothing material or useless in return, only their appreciation or gas money for the vehicle I use to drive. I try my hardest to be a respectful person, to do the right thing. I drive people where they need to go, I mend relationships, I give people advice and never negatively judge someone. I like to be friends with anyone who will be friends too. I have a lot of friends, but I'm not sure who is just using me or not, whatever I guess. It hurts, but I'd rather do something for someone than tell them to fuck off. I can't manage to get a job and I feel like I'm mooching off my mother because I can't happen to make any money. Everyone tells me I'm brilliant, smart. I would be getting my diploma here soon but I can't manage to because of how I take care of my diabetes, I can never be at school with my glucose levels.

>>672461483
Infantry was fun, never was part of any other MOS or branch other than army.

at this point suicide or getting fucked up by some random shit at home is probably the biggest killer of soldiers, what with not a lot of combat deployment outside of sof.

really though military might provide a sense of purpose. i'd join for that rather than to go die somewhere

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>>672451735

Severe adhd. Makes me get bad grades in school and I'm almost at the point of giving up on my dream of becoming a doctor. Insanely stressed for everything. Going through social problems. Fucking teenage drama man, I hate my life

>>672461474
you might as well anon, atleast you have someone like that

>>672450513
Blowin that hot brown wind into your salavating and expectant mouth, a lung full of my colon, you sputter an "I love you, anon..." and ask me to do it again.

I'm most likely going to die alone.

>>672462820

Thanks, anon.
I think it's been a month since I've had any physical contact with another human.

>>672463123
and that's okay

I hate that he pushes me away. I know he wants something more but he just keeps denying himself happiness out if the fear of something going wrong between us. After over 7 months of trying I give up...

>>672462847
Dont give up anon.
Life might seem like shit right now but the future is unpredictable.
If youre ever feeling down or lonely dont forget you have us /b/rother's!

...and that's when she demanded, I let go and release the entire load into her hair.
I miss her.

>>672462600
I struggle to get through at school, although most of the material is easy. Anything in school is easy, I'm just never there to understand the material. Every day is a new adventure, to see if I'm going to make it or if I'm just going to end up shooting myself because I realise how pointless life is. Becoming to aware that life is just to be born, learn, work, work, die. To live in a world where just about everyone is selfish and good people are shunned, frowned upon. All I truly want, which is probably what everyone wants, is to settle down with a nice girl and at least have someone to share my feelings with, but I don't think thats going to happen anytime soon. I've tried to get girlfriends, can't really seem to get it. I don't understand it. Being lonely is one of the worst things really, with my whole existence of experience. Hoping to find something more interesting to this lie we all live. I just don't get it sometimes, and I worry about my mother constantly, waiting for the moment one of us passes or if I'll actually pull the trigger. I dunno, I guess I'm really here because expressing my feeling anonymously feels good. It's like being able to take all the suppressed feelings and letting them out. Like I said, I don't know if I have it good or bad, probably neither. I know I don't have it worse than most people out there, but with all I do for people, I just want to know why? It's hard to be a good person.

>>672462907
but, i dont. she broke up with me because she couldnt do long distance. she says she still wants to be together if i was there in person, but i just cant muster up the energy to do the things i need to do.

>>672463135

I know what that's like. But don't worry, eventually the tide will turn.

i am slowly turning into an alcoholic at age 18.
when i'm drunk i feel something. or rather, feel nothing at all, and i just try to have a good time.
and then after i'm done with the hangover, i'm back to my miserable self.
it's been 3 years since i have had a girl worthy of calling "my girl" and even that i fucked up
just like i did anything else
just fucked up.
it's not even the sex i want anymore, i want to hold someone while falling asleep.

i want to die b.

>>672462613
>really though military might provide a sense of purpose. i'd join for that rather than to go die somewhere

Stupid question but... any girls in there ?
What if you join special forces Marines?

>>672463123
everybody dies alone. but know you're not alone in that.

>>672463549
hold on
a girl who would be proud to be yours is out there. You have to keep yourself alive for her sake. She and you will find each other, but you need to grit your teeth and pull through till you reach her.

>>672463549

If there was anyway I could help, I would anon.

>>672463589
if you want girls go air force.
you cant just "join" MARSOC, its a bit of a process. dont really know why youd want to either

>>672463849
I don't want to die in a fucking plane though anon.

It sounds fun.

>>672453413
she makes me want to drink until i literally die.

>>672462847
Im goin through the exact same thing man. Adhd = depression/social anxiety/learning disability/inconsistencies etc etc etc

feels nice to just sit back and read these posts. see you people connect. it's also depressing, depressing to see how sad eveyone really is on the inside, how mny of us are lost in our paths. what is the point though anons?

anyone have the caps of anon and his homeless waifu?

>>672464230
Killing niggers.

>>672463770
i sure do have to try that
and can't really tell, it may be because i am ugly. or i think i am ugly
my self esteem isn't even low, it's below that of low.
the only thing i have going for me is that i'm rich
literally the only thing

>>672464230
the point of what?

>>672463932
Still probably not the best idea to join just so some other fucker in some foreign shithole has to kill you.

There's women in all branches although some tend towards being disgusting swamp donkeys.

>>672464357
living...

>>672463549
>it's not even the sex i want anymore, i want to hold someone while falling asleep.
same anon.

>>672464278
gta v niqqa

>>672463932
highly unlikely youll be anywhere near an aircraft unless you go through the academy or a good rotc program. just saying the AF has the highest number of decently attractive women

>>672463474
Meh. I never really seem to find comfort on 4chan because I don't really have people I can keep talking to because everyone is anonymous and there's always different people in these threads

>>672464487
There is none. We live, we die. Then we must ask, why do we want to live? We simply do, and we keep going just to feel that dopamine hit that is happiness or that certain kind of sadness. Yes it would be easier to want to die, and then die, but you know you're given this life, and why fuck it up if you could try to make it good?

>>672464357
life. existence. all we do as humans is work for money, learn for a job for work for money just to get a house and die around bills. entertainment? k, games? k women? can't even get a fucking girl. never had sex, or just someone to hold so i dont know what that feels like. just, whatis the point in general? for anything?

God, I am so in love with her to the point it pisses me off.

>>672458111
what up fam

>>672464774
a good life is difficult to maintain. i find it hard to go with without someone to share feelings with by your side. all I can find that helps is helping everyone around me, seeing them benefit from the effort I give them to be happier, i may not be happy. but at least they are at that small moment in time. thats what matters to me

>Last year in High School
>Have anxiety and depression
>Have friends but they aren't the ones who are the comforting type
>Have abusive dad who hits mum and me
>I frequently want to end my life
>Mum had cancer twice
>Lost my Best friend recently
>Both my Grandfathers died, they were my somewhat fathers

I don't know anymore /b/, what to do?

>>672465114
disappear and start somewhere new. orwork harder to become someone who can buy their happiness. idk its all a cruel joke

>>672465081
Are you me?

>>672464448
Ugh I guess you are right.... I really wanted to be a ground unit.....O well I guess I will just fly some planes

Honest question: Why the fuck are women allowed in the Military again anyways?

>>672465328
probably.

>>672465347
Fucking gender equality man.

They shouldnt be allowed tbh

>>672465114
Get the guts to hit your dad the fuck out of himself and tell him how finished you are and beg your mom to take you and her to a hotel for a few days or something
I have kik if you want, I've been doing this shit with people on Insta and i've been frineds with some for a long time but I'm thousands of miles from them
Hope you're algood anon, can talk on kik if you want, I'll give you my contact if you do agree
Heard the same thing from a friend so yeah

You know I haven't felt sadness in a while and after reading mostly everything on this thread I feel somewhat cheerful .

>>672465347
I really don't think this should turn into a political debate, but they must meet the same qualifications as men do, and we're all people anyway. some of them are less qualified than some men, and some are more. gender doesn't really matter.

>>672465455
>Fucking gender equality man.
You are fucking kidding right?

I get their little tantrums about their little office jobs and shit
But the Military actually matters..... Wtf.... They are quite literally risking lives.

>>672465565
Man, I don't know what to do anymore. I hate fighting everyone and everything.

>>672465114
Speaking from experience, wait till the fucker goes to bed, toss a blanket over his head and beat him with something. As hard as you can. Dont stop until you're sure he isnt going to, or isnt capable of a fight. No one will convict you for it, not if they know what he does.

He wont stop until you stop him.

I've got a long story about me and a friend growing apart. Anyone willing to listen?

>>672465771
fire away anon

>>672465771
Shoot anon

>>672465725
He is also cheating on my mother, she knows about it

I want him to move the fuck away from me but I have nowhere to go.

>>672465702
Well I mean, last year in hs, you're going to have to come up with something and i don't want to be cliche and tell you "suicide isnt the answer"
Your dad needs to fucking learn
You have to save your mother at some point, and maybe get your friends along
Maybe call the cops for /domestic abuse/

>>672465771
go for it

>>672464448
although what the fuck do I know. I just relapsed and nearly OD'd yesterday.

After joining the army in the first place the dumbest thing you can do is get out.

>>672465858
>>672465853
Alright. Getting on pc, typing on phone is slow.

>>672465771
go for it

>>672465771
I'm down buddy

>>672457268
That there is a seasoned cock tease my friend. Girls like that just want attention and know how to get it physically.

If you'd wanted to get somewhere with her your best bet would've been adopting an attitude of slightly disdainful amusement, and pushing her off if she got a bit too touchy feely. That would have marked you out to her as different, not easily manipulated like other guys, not desperate for her affection.

>>672465906
Teach the guy a fucking lesson
You and your mother deserve better
You'll have to fucking show him!!

>>672465614
I'm starting to have second thoughts about fighting for a country that values SJW lives over my own tbh, Gays should be lynched along side niggers yesterday anyways.

O well whatever I will just kill some muslims in my plane.

If Trump wins I might actually have a reason to live too.

>>672465906
She's mentally ruined from fear of him, it happens all the time in abuse. If you did just leave, his wrath about it would probably fall on her, happens all the time as well. If you dont have the balls to cripple him, call the cops and get them to deal with it.

You are basically it, and if you do nothing he wont stop. If you run, he may get worse. Call the cops or beat him half to death in his sleep, but do something for your sake and your mothers.

>>672465853
>>672465858
>>672465920
>>672465949
>>672465980

I'll be copying this from another guy I told the story though so the timeline will sometimes be a bit confusing.

Part 1:

Ok well. There's this girl. I've been in school with her for 4 years. I've considered her my best friend, and pretty much my only good friend in schook since a long time. She's always been pretty shy, but since last year, all of a sudden she got popular. She started hanging out with a lot of new people and since then, she's been talking to me less and less. We're still good friends and every time we talk is great, but she's been hanging out a lot more with others and less with me. She'll talk to me whenever I talk to her but she doesn't really make an effort to talk to me anymore. Lately it's all been coming from my side. Which is annoying. I want to stay friends, because she's great, but I don't want to stand in her way of being popular and having more friends. It's obvious that how she is right now is just a phase, but I feel like we're growing apart. I really want to stay friends but I'm not sure if it's still worth the effort to try

>>672466315
Later on I texted the girl

Part 2:

"Heeeey
I've been wanting to say this for a while now
You've been my best/only friend in school for a long time now and I love being around you
But lately you've gotten more friends and you've gotten pretty popular and I'm happy for you but I feel kind of replaced
You only talk to other people anymore, in school, bur also in the meeting (a group of teens that meet every thursday. Organized by church, but not really churchy. Just a group of friends.) you only talk to name because he's also in that group of friends.
I really want to stay good friends with you but lately it feels like everything's only coming from my side
We sometimes talk in school but you never take iniative anymore to talk to me or ask me to hang out with you or something
Also in the vacation when we were going to do something on friday and you said you had to ask your parents what time and you'd text back and then you never did
Lately I've tried seeking contact a bit less and noticed that nothing happens anymore
And I don't know if it's meant like this or not but it sucks because I want to keep you as a friend
So yeah
This is not a "hang out with me more" or a "it's because of you that I'm feeling this way"
This is a "I miss you"
Do with it what you want"

>>672466373
Her response

Part 3:

"I'm really happy you said it, because I also noticed we talked less and I was sad about it
Now I also understand why it felt like you were a bit mad at me when I talked to you the last few days and I understand why you would feel that way
And I am really sorry about it
Because I love hanging out wirh you too and I've missed you
Oh and by the way when I didn't react friday that was because I was home very late and had stuff to do the next morningso I had totally forgotten about it
Because it's mainly that u'm just really busy lately, not that I have new friends
Because I barely see them either
But I'd love to see you more! But I felt like you didn't really feel the need for that
And with that I don't mean it's your fault because it absolutely isn't
But it's really great and really sweet you said this because now we can work on it!"

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Okay, fuck it, I'll bite.

>Be 22
>Have friend called David.
>Known each other since school.
>We both loved the band Queen.
>Both Guitarists
>I have a Brian May Signature guitar.
>We hang out a lot and I found out details of his childhood that I was unaware of in school.
>Mother abusive alcoholic and crackhead.
>Father gone.
>David is the polar opposite of his parents.
>He likes the song Mother Love by Queen.
>Likes it's dark and weird tones
>We sit and learn the shit out of that song.
>nailedit.png
>Some time goes by and he's killed when his mother drives drunk, with him in the car.
>Bitch Survived.

>The day of the funeral comes around and I was asked, by his girlfriend, to play Mother Love at the funeral.
>Piano accompaniment instead of second guitar.
>It sounds wrong.
>It feels wrong.
>What am I even doing?
>Get through the intro and start singing.
>I barely make it through the song without throwing the amp at the fucked up cunt who took my friend.
>Reach solo.
>Harmonizer.
>No second player.
>This feels alien.
>Playing blind.
>"It looks like rain"
>Finish.
>Don't bother paying attention to the reception it gets.
>Sit back down
>After the service me and his GF leave in disgust.

That was 2 years ago. What I was satisfied to see, in a sick sort of way, was the sour looks the attendees gave his mother. Her family has now ostracised her. They say hell is other people. I hope it's the opposite.

>>672466421
Part 4:

So after that she acted really close for a while. Texting me out of the blue how I'm doing and stuff like that and constantly sitting on my lap in the meeting. Then after a week or so, that just... stopped. Everything went back to how it was before our conversation. I don't know what happened or what to do. To make it worse, last week, me and some friends had a drinking night. One of the friends was pretty drunk and entirely convinced I was in love with the girl. So he texted her. Of course, both of us have heard the "rumor" a billion times, but if you've heard it enough, all it really takes is one person to be completely sure of it to be convinced. He later cleared it up explaining he was drunk etc. but of course she still has the idea that I'm in love with her, and has been avoiding me even more because of that. Now, in the meeting she just talks to that 1 person that's also in the friend group and literally noone else. I don't know what to do anymore. I've already told her my story once, why would a second time work? Should I try again? What would I say this time? I don't know whether to give up or keep trying because if I gave up I wouldn't be able to move on and if I kept trying I'd probably just be back to nothing every time

>>672466490
So after this, of course, literally nothing was cleared up for either of us. A while later I texted her again

>>672466192
I actually fucking hate sjws, typically they just hate whites and men. personally, I give people an equal chance, and if their abilities and character fail them, then I judge. as I said before, I really don't want this to turn into a political discussion.

>>672466547
Another conversation

Part 5:

Me:
Heeeey
I'm happy with the conversation we had a while ago but I want to ask you something about it
After the conversation I noticed change for a while and I was very happy with that
But after a while that kind of just stopped and went back to nothing again
Is that because you thought that I was putting too little effort into it myself?
Or do you actually not want to be around me but you didn'y want to say that?
Because, to be honest I think its really unclear right now what you want
What do you honestly think of me and what do you want me to do?
I know this sounds whiny but I really care about this a lot and I want to know if you honestly feel the same.

Her:
I noticed it a bit but that wasn't because of you
I'm just so busy right now that I'm honestly not really being around anyone
And I really like you and just being around you so that's definitely not it
And to be honest it's also because name told you you were in love with me (he was mad at me for something and wanted to fuck me over by making stuff up) and I didn't want to hurt you by making you think I love you

Me:
You're just repeating what you said last time...
And whenever you do have time to talk to people in the meeting you spend all that time talking to another name
Also, you know what he said wasn't true, right?
He said that because he was mad, he later explained you the story

Her:
Yes, I know
And that isn't true, you just notice it a lot more when I talk to him so that makes you think I talk to him only instead of to you
Because sometimes when I talk to you it feels to me as if you'd rather I didn't
Like giving short answers and stuff like that

Me:
So you thought I was in love with me and that I didn't like talking to you?
I don't really see the logic in that

Her:
Well I thought you were in love with me but a bit mad at me for only talking to same name as before and that's why you acted like that
I just really didn't know what you wanted and thought

>>672465993

I did - and she kept doing it.
We talked a bit, hung out a few times, then just kind of stopped talking.

A couple weeks ago she got on me about not talking to her more often, but idk.

>>672466725
Still the same conversation

Part 6:

Me:
The few days after the last conversation I thought it was pretty clear I love being around you?
I was constantly with you in the meeting (she acted really close for a while, hugging, sitting on my lap etc.)
I thought I made it pretty clear what I thought, too
That I thought it sucked that nothing was coming from your side anymore and that I missed you

Her:
I know, and that was great, but I didn't know if you were in love with me or if you were mad at me and I was confused
But now we both do get it!

Me:
No, I don't
You're just repeating what you said before
Why would it be different this time if this is what you really think?

Her, at 2 am:
I'll respond to this tomorrow, I'm slightly drunk (Boy was that one hard to figure out)

Her, later:
I don't understand what you mean with why would things be different
I think we should have this conversation outside of whatsapp

>>672466490
Call her up or just ask her personally that you need to explain to her your side, again
Or a letter if that's the last resort, or if you're feeling like you're just bothering her
Pretty sad though

>>672466781
Anyone still reading? Trying to find the rest of the story

>>672466814
still keeping up

Let's end this thread her my story
> I have non
The world is a shitty place to late to kill yourself and to late to kill others
We drown in depression and hope that someone lends us a helping hand but they always fall short
We have forgotten how to swim
We are the boys who cried wolf and ended up dieing because no one helped hi after he tricked them countless times
We lose and have lost parts of ourselves and try to be whole instead of making with the best of it
We believe that it should be handed to us and remark on how other people are spoiled
The truth is /b/ I am the shadow that is always their and alway gone

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>>672466814
Part 7:

I'm actually doing pretty good :) The thing with the girl was After the 2nd conversation we hadn't spoken much. I tried 2 normal conversations about nothing but only got short uninterested replies and nothing to keep the conversation going, so I just kind of gave up again. Then a few days later, in the morning, she texts me "hey you're taking the bus to school too right? We can go together, I get in there etc." Then when I get on the bus, she's already in the back talking to a group of people I don't know. I smile at her from the front, as a way of saying hi, she looks at me, and with completely no reaction she just continues talking to the group. I thought "well alright, fuck you then, not even going to try to join the conversation." I saw it as the same thing she does every time, just in small scale. She gives me attention, pretends to care about me, gives me hope and then completely ignores me again. We didn't talk to each other again for a while and I was honestly just fucking done with her and about to tell her that. Then there was a ball with the meeting. She was going to be there. At that point I was still very angry at her. Luckily though, that day, I stopped taking concerta, since the vacation started, so I was in a very good mood, a mood I hadn't been in since the vacation before, since concerta makes me kind of depressed. Because of my mood I decided "Hey, instead of acting like a whiny 5-year old because she has friends and ignoring her all night, I could also just go over there and have a great fucking night."

>>672466781
OKAY FROM PART 6
It's a good time to meet up???

>>672466585
Yeah yeah I get it it just cheaper and saves time to not let them in anyways give an inch take a mile is always relevant tbh

Sometimes I feel like I should get a gf just to teach her a woman's place in society so then I create one more part of a functioning social class and hopefully her life style changes her friends.

>>672466994
Part 7 was too long, continuing it:

So that's what I did. I was in the best mood I had been in in months, smiling all night. I had a lot of fun, took a lot of awesome pictures (I can show you them if you want, when the pictures are online :)) and slow danced with the girl. I had a fuckton of fun. Now is the first week of vacation, so I can finally stop taking concerta and rest for a while. Also asked the girl if she could chill, but she pissed off her parents so they won't ler her until next week :P I'm really looking forward to next week. Celebrating 2 birthdays and 4 parties. I'm also probably going to see the girl every single day. Maybe I van finally finish my conversation with her. I am pretty stressed though. I'll get very drunk at most parties, but I've never been drunk around her before. What if I do or say something stupid?

>>672466814
Still here anon

>>672466893
this is not true for everybody. its just nice to see thats you

>>672467057
Then after a while I had vacation and sent this:

Last week was probably the best week of this year. It was awesome. 28th, I had a birthday party of 2 of my best friends. 29th, I had another party of 2 great friends, the girls who I always talk to whenever I'm feeling down about the girl. After that party, I went to another party that my friend group in school was having. One of them had the house for himself for 3 days, so it was 3 days of partying there. That night I got very pissed at someone though. The girl was there too, and we were having a great time, until she had to go home. Around that time, I had to go home too, so I thought, well, I'll take her home. I was looking forward to it. The first private conversation I was going to have with her in literally months. We could talk about our feelings, finish the conversation we had earlier or maybe just a normal conversation, that'd be great too. Then there's this jackass. He's like "Nah that guy's way too drunk (I wasn't) I'll take her home and make sure he can't come too" He knew all about me and the girl and how much I wanted this. The entire group was telling him not to go but he's a stubborn asshole. I still don't know why he did it. The 30th I went to them again. The first few hours were kind of awkward, because both the girl and the dick were there. Eventually they both left. (Both got picked up by their parents, so no bringing anyone home). That's when I thought "Well, now that I no longer have to worry about saying stupid stuff to the girl or hitting the guy, I can get as drunk as I want". That ended up with me passed out for an hour in the backyard. It was fun though.

i'm pretty sure i ran into her at walmart today. that was fucking weird. all those thoughts running through my head at once. what happened? before i hung out with her two weeks ago, we were inseparable. she literally texted me every day, and even told me she loved me. it just stopped after we saw eachother again. i'm so fucking confused.

>>672467167
Part 8 vacation continued:

I slept there, and the next day we played league and watched Brooklyn Nine Nine the whole day. Then at around 8 PM or so, we eat lasagna, which is fucking amazing, and then as desert, the mother of one of the friends had recommended lemon ice cream with vodka. That. Was. Awesome. Then, we realized we had way too much beer, so we went outside, sat with some homeless people we saw earlier while shopping, had some beers with them and listened to their life stories. That was fun too. We came back at around 11 PM or so, we all got high and ate like 8 pounds of french fries and more than a hundred chicken nuggets :P I hugged for like half an hour with one of the girls while she was talking about how great this group was and how glad she was that she's a part of it and how she loves us all. It felt great knowing I had a female friend that cares about me as much as I care about her. At 12 PM we were still all high, so we just laid down for an hour or so and watched the fireworks around us. For some reason, that was way more fun than having my own firework like the years before. Then we went inside and I wrote "Happy new year"-speeches to everyone while playing league and taking a shot for every death. Eventually I got to the girl, and at that point I was already very drunk so that's when feelings came out and stuff. I fucked up. It was still by far the best day of the year though.

>>672467057
Well shit, maybe she can really know how you feel when you're piss drunk

>>672467184
At least you go outside anon.........

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>>672466449
>They say hell is other people. I hope it's the opposite.

lol what does that even mean

I've been sitting in front of a computer screen since 12:31am. It's 4:43. I've eaten 8 bags of nacho cheese flavoured doritos, and 2 star crunches. I've had 2 glasses of water. I've watched 1 movie. I've been on 4 threads. Just now realizing how pathetic I am.

>>672467220
This is what I sent her on new year's eve. Warning, cringy as fuck

Part 9:

Me:
"Happy new year name
I know we haven't seen each other much this year
But still I'm so fucking glad you're my friend
I hope we get to talk more next year
You're amazing, name"
Her:
"So do I
*A bunch of hearts*
You're so sweet
You have a great new year too"
Me, a while later, very drunk:
"Ignore what I said
You don't have to feel forced to talk to me
I'm pretty drunk so I'm being an idiot
Don't ignore the "you're amazing" part"
Her:
"Hahaha it's okay I already thought you were a little drunk
I don't feel that way at all though, don't worry about that :)"
Me:
"name why do you not want to tell me what you really think and keep talking to me
Nevermind I shouldn't have said that"
Her:
"I don't understand
Why wouldn't I talk to you?"
Me: (this part is fucking cringe)
"Well eventually at one poinr you'll probably stop pretending you still care about me
Please block me I'm saying dumb stuff I shouldn't be saying"
Her:"I'm not pretending, you know that
I'm going to bed, you probably should, too
Goodnight my name"

>>672467284

I hope solitude is hell on her.

My apologies, it's late, here.

>>672467275
i'm afraid to because it means i might see her in more than just my dreams.

it's a risk i take though.

>>672467340
This is the last part I have copied. Will be a lot slower from here because I'll have to type it

>>672467471
We'll be here, waiting for the rest of the story anon

>>672467053
I see no reason to relate it to gender. From my personal experience, the effectiveness of someone's work is based on talent and experience and has little to do with gender or race, but it's hard to get rid of a mind set so I might be blinded by that.

Been three years and he still won't talk to me. I have made every effort to talk to him and he won't. He blocked me and removed me off everything all because his gf didn't like how close we were. . . I miss him so much /b/

>>672467471 still here buddy take your time

>>672467340
at least you somewhat get to have agirl to hang out with. still here though anon popcorn.jpg

>be me
>have money, good job
>Meer girl in Club
>look in her eyes
>have feeling knowing her complete live
>high on alc, weed and cane
>flirt with her, be GOD
>her boyfriend is with her
>flirt with her intensive, hold Handy, touch wach other next to him
>dont want bro to be fucked Zoo hard so say it a nicht
>call her next day says i Luke you but there is not Mord
Were did i fuck up? I love her and she is crazy about me. I really could feel it. Is she afraid oft letting go? I heard she and him had big fight on their way home.

I should have died. those five operations on my infected bone marrow, more than once they said i should have and was close to death. I was still happy then, still to young for the mental issues to have sprouted, still unaware of how awful my family was, and though i cant remember what it felt like, i was happy then.

But i survived, to drink, to smoke, and in the past do as many drugs as i could get hands on. None of it helped, none of it does. Im supposed to call a psychiatrist but i cant help but wonder what ill do if i get told there's nothing i can do to fix it.

my life was ruined by two people who should never have had kids, a brother with anger issues to put it mildly, and 10 years of abuse. Now, i just dont know anymore. Im not even close to the man i once was, ive got no friends left, and i havent had a job in three years.

I should have died. It would have been better for everyone, but mostly for myself.

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I'm in trouble but I feel good today.

>>672467661
Are you a femanon? I had a similar experience with a friend (female) and the shit she went through is exactly the same
You can tell us how you feel

>>672467471
Take time no rush

>>672467471
Then a whiel later I asked a friend of mine if he could maybe talk to her about our whole situation. Because I was curious if she would say something different to someone else than to me. So he talked to her about how I wanted to talk to her but she was always busy and stuff. He talked as if he was talking about me, not for me. And she thought that was bullshit. And she thought I was always making things awkward and I should've told her this myself. Even though I've tried that. A lot. But she was pretty mad.

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>>672467758
Fucking german auto correct
>yfw

>>672459539
lol it might be the guy who wore the dress who is color blind.. if so doesn't count kek

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>>672467640
>or race
I can believe the gender thing but holy shit on the race thing, no anon, niggers are literally not human, there is always a exception, take a look at Koko the Gorilla lol
Niggers are a parasite that needs to be removed from the face of the Earth to help all real humans in this world.

>>672459675
fucking bad idea don't do it. no one wants to be around a downer. be happy for yourself by yourself 1st.

>>672468007
Fuck the "part" thing, giving up on that :P

I texted her we can talk at school tomorrow in the break because I don't have much free time from school

Then after that "Actually nevermind, I'll make some time if I can"

She sent

Yeah, sure

Whichever works best for you, I can do both

I sent her

I'm not sure if I have time then, but I'll try to make some

I'm not sure if I have time then, but I'll try to make some

I hope you're not mad at me

I should've talked to you myself instead of letting someone else do it

I hope we can clear things up and not have to have awkward conversations again, because that's indeed also my fault.

I can't even tell which feeling is sadness and which is tiredness but it still hurts and it still gives me comfort.

>>672468314
So then we made plans to talk. Which she cancelled. Then a week later we both had a party and we made plans to chill at my house like 2 hours or so before the party so we could talk. She had some dumb reason to be late again and showed up about 5 minutes before the party.

>>672468288

I'm a pretty happy-go-lucky person when I'm around friends. Then when they're gone and I'm alone... I end up in places like this.