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>>672208897
A hug for you Anon

>>672209899
Pretty much me since the 9th grade. Moving schools and OCD has fucked my shit up.

>>672208897
it's ok, I stole my brothers debit card and I'm about to go to the liquor store and use it. I need help. I woke up this morning with crazy dreams and my body felt like shaking. I've got some boxed wine to hold me over.

how do i fix a broken heart?

Here to feel.

>mom died 3 years ago
>dad is a monumental asshole
>the only people make me feel loved are my grandparents who are old as shit
>college is going into the shitter slowly but surely

I have a huge story to tell about my life that eats me up but I'm too lazy and drunk to do it.

Damn it, I never want to sound like whining bitch but this shit is overwhelming af.

>>672210503
Fuck anon, that's some shit. I'm not far off though, I feel ya. I've never had true, alcoholic "delirium tremens," but I wake up almost every morning with a trembling in my hands, after having had (like you said) crazy dreams. I don't get it. It also makes my blood sugar absolutely fucked. Still though, how the fuck do people function without alcohol?

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>>672208897
Here, have some dubs to make you feel better

>>672210858
Hey man, my heart goes out to you. That's rough. I can completely understand the college going into the shitter thing. That's my life. But hey, I'll listen to ya anon.

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>>672211078
Almost had it there anon. Have a thing.

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>>672210808
You don't fix it anon, you just learn to live with it and hide the pain

>>672210808
You don't bud. It's fucked up. I'm in a good relationship with a girl who really loves me, and I "love" her, but, in my darkest hour, I think of the one. The first one. I heard all the sex ed teachers tell me that you form a bond and shit with your first fuck, and never believed it, but it's true. I lovey current gf to death, but shit will never be the same.

The best thing you can do? Accept it. Grit your teeth, and acknowledge that lofe is shit. Make shit the best ya can.

>>672210858
Go on, at least I would listen to it

>>672209704
Thanks man.

>>672208897
Anyone have this photo without the text?

>>672208897
My dad's a failure , my mom is working as a horse to keep the other failures in the family. Me and my brother. She's getting older and older and I don't earn money , my brother is drinking with his rich friends ,yet my mom pays for his rent. I decided to stay with my father since I don't want to bother the only thing that I would give my life at any point to save her's ,my mom. Because of my failure I stopped going out ,I only get to see my own face in the morning every morning and that's pretty much all.

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>>672211995
No problem
I'll hug you anytime anon

Currently (probably, doctor hasen't given me a yes or no yet) suffering depression, if anyone was wondering, this is what it feels like:

I have a bear. It's a big bear, black as night.
He constantly follows me around, my bear. He sleeps next to me, walks with me and eats with me.
But he's a drowsy bear, my bear, and he doesn't like getting up. And that makes getting up difficult, because when he sleeps on top of me the weight makes it hard to sit up and awaken.
My bear really cares about everyone, he even tries to help the food back on the plate by standing in my stomach and pushing upwards, so I never eat as much as I used to.
My bear also helps me study, he sits there and moves the important parts around when something is difficult. Unfortunately it doesn't help, but he tries, my bear, he tries.
My bear also keeps me from losing water, whenever I'm about to cry he puts his paws on top of my eyes, and stops the tears from flowing.
Really, my bear is not healthy, but I've accepted that he will not leave, my bear, he will never leave.

>>672212269
google imagesearch.
But I'm not spoon feeding you, m8 :^)

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>>672212662
>>672212269
not first page, so here you go

>>672212662
can u spoon feed me instead fam

>>672212535
Jesus, anon. That's exactly how it feels. I went through a bad period of depression (still depressed, just not nearly as bad), and that's exactly how ot is. I'd wake up at noon, after 12 hours of sleep, and just sit there til 4:00PM. I just couldn't hack it. Please, though, don't be like me and resort to drugs or alcohol. That just complicates shit more.

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>>672212535
I've been there too anon... It's not easy.
I hope you'll get help and that you will defeat your depression

>>672212421
Damn. That's some shit man. Any chance you cpuld get out more?

>>672213395
I will resort to drugs, hopefully. The doctor-gave-me-these kind though, not narcotics.

>>672213172
spon-fedd u wit diggg, k? xxxxDDDDDDDDDD

>>672213615
Haha, yeah. Those'll help. I recently went on antidepressants, and those make a world of difference. Just don't lose yourself, alright?

>>672213835
I'll try to.

And thanks :)

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>>672212424
fuck that shy guy is me
I always get too nervous to make a move and then someone beats me to it

>>672211171
>>672211865
Thank you guys, really. But I just can't get my head together. Believe me, I tried.

I was just listening to this after I read about the David Higgs story:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJJ8hWDXWGs

Anyone wanna share some music?

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>>672214468
Yeah... Me too...

>>672214468
I used to be liked you anon. There's no shame in trying. Seriously, I know it's cliche, but "the worst that can happen is she says no" thing is real. Just go for it m8.

>>672212421
Focus on the things that you can change. The rest you must simply accept for now. Give your mother all the love and support you can, and shower her with gratitude. When you are older, and have independent financial means, you will pay her back with interest for all her kindness - you know that. So take solace from that fact and fuck the rest of 'em. But you will be no use to your mother if you don't finish school, get a job and get going in life. Take it one day at a time, and don't forget to breathe...

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>>672214678
>tfw she is 10x out of my league
>tfw she has a constant swarm of guys wanting to get with her
>tfw she is the only girl in class that talks to you and is nice to
>tfw you realise all of this and give up

>tfw she draws you back in every week

>>672214534
This song always makes me feel a bit of hope: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6XJBDX3Z0BY

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>>672214534
I can share some, although I know that my taste in music is maybe not that great...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_4cnUhQ6rs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNn4yWNLkz8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uffjii1hXzU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsTjI75uEUQ

>>672213588
My story is quite pathetic. All that I can say is that I'm on my last road .If this works ,I'm gonna be happy ,if not, I'll start to consider suicide as a good option.

>>672213026
The filename made my day.. /b/ros, my mom died today and I am considering an hero. Please help me grief

>>672215308
Good luck anon, I wish for you to be content with your choice, no matter where it leads you.

>>672215102
Hmm... I dunno anon, I went through the exact same thing my junior year of high school. Absolutely the coolest chick I ever met, and still is. After months and months of vying for her, we dated, and it wasn't that great. Like seriously not great. I don't know your full story, and don't wanna break your heart, but sometimes you just have to move on anon.

Have you tried taking a huge amount of LSD?

Hallucinogens can work wonders.

>>672214684
Well I've never been happy with whatever I did so I decided to take something that could eventually bring me money and make me a little less sad. It's a very risky thing, like ,the dream is something so big that I can't even think about it anymore. I won't give up on it .

Just stay in today. Today is all you can deal with. Don't think too far ahead. Don't focus on the booze. Listen to music that puts you in a good mood. If you think you can maybe ask your parents for help. Tell them how you're feeling. Eat healthy food that you enjoy. Plan to do things with your family you enjoy. Look at an old photo album. Don't expect anything from yourself other than to stay in the moment. Practice self love bra.

>>672215557
You forgot to reply to someone :)

>>672215308
Suicide isn't the way to go. Fuck, I've attempted it man. You have one shot at life. Why ruin the one thing you get to do?

>>672215497
Thanks anon
I could do with some tough love

>>672215419
That's not what she'd want, /b/ro. I'm sure of it. Keep on hangin' on.

>>672215699
I said that I will consider suicide when my dream ends. When there's no more hope of becoming what I want I'll start considering it.

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>have younger sister and elderly nan
>mother died 3 years ago
>father was never ther
>give up girlfriend of 4 years
>give up current job
>give up every friend of 20 years
>to move and protect younger sister and elder nan
>3 years later
>still dont think it was worth it
>wrapped in guilt
>im 24
>my youth is spent in defence in a far away land
.... Fuck my life /b/

>>672215557
True

>depression/psychosis and mild assburgers
>no one will hire me for any job. I've tried so many places
>no girl is interested because I'm so useless at talking to people
>just want a decent job, gf and a social life
>don't even care about money
>just want to feel like I'm worth something
>can't even get that
>been 6 years since I left school and I've done absolutely nothing
>starting to lose hope

None but our self can free our mind

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>>672215208

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPisDzhYrCg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zPQhmNG2aA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLrPBlmecJU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1bFr2SWP1I

>>672215557
I loaded up on high 2nd plateau levels of DXM for 4 months straight a year ago. It made me feel better, until I had some panic attacks on it, and stopped. Those 4 months were the best of my life. I actually ordered 40 15mg robo pills this weekend, and may try to get into it again. I only feel okay when I'm fucked up, fuck my life.

>>672215789
Thank you anon.. All you guys really cheer me up

>>672215664
Thanks. I was able to get by on shit like that for a while, until I relpased back into severe panic disorder. At least there's a hope, eh?

No DXM shit. Do LSD

Aspergers hate my life is time of year with school projects and I gotta fucking work with others to accomplish good grades, but it's so fucking cringeworthy the stupidity of my classmates, and my inability to interact with then

>>672216425
I dunno man, I've thought about it, but I'm worried about my mental state. What if I freak again?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=an4ySOlsUMY
Here's my song for this tread
It played at my step-brother's funeral
He was 30
Still don't know how he died
Good luck Dan
Wherever you are

Goodnight anons, thanks for the thread :3

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGHA9oO1Ybg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVTP0DOL_2Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBHcUv_42zI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uW4hwUVsGls

>>672208897
Kill yourself.

>>672208897
>PROBABLY alcoholic
are you fucking retarded, anon?

now, seriously, how much do you even drink a day, and how much do you drink a week

>>672217162
Handle in two-three days, you obnoxious faggot.

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>>672215419
>be 19
>mother has drink and drugged herself
>for 10 years
>watched my mother fade to heroin
>went form beautiful woman
>to a stick and shadow
>see her every 3 months or so when shes not chasing her fix
>shes in southend of england
>Mid work
>phonecall saying we found your mother its not good
>travel 200 miles
>hold my mothers hand as she dies
>as a kid she used to squeeze my hand for fun and id squeeze back
>19 years ld ... Squeeze her hand over and over willing to give anything to feel her squeeze back one more time.
>it never comes
>mothers partner is a heroin addict
>tell him in the hospital infront of 6 or 7 staff nurses I will paint my face with his blood
>he begs me for forgivness
>I walk away
>2 months later people tell me he ownes money
>they know he wont pay them
>offer to tell me where he is for £2000
>I accept
>Take me too him
>He was high as fuck on heroin defenceless
>Put a fucking massive overdose of heroin in him from those same guys
>watch him die and choke on his own vomit
>Dont even feel bad
>I got my revenge
>tell myself every day Im not a murderer, it was only justice.

>>672216334
come on, anon
we love you, im fucking serious about it
you're one of us, alone but always together

>>672208897
>alcoholic

Don't joke about that shit. You probably drink a few beers a night, but I used to drink half a bottle of whiskey a night. Don't joke, it fucking ruins your life.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9CzcOcBb_ms

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQ7oqmikZDQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhKjfnaDQBQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwWaCpXqIyE

>>672216334
No problem. You're one of our /b/ros. You've all been there for me, and we'll be here for you.

>>672217333
nice three trips
anyways, are u even OP, fucking fag? if you are you shoul have told me in your three-trips post.
anyways, you didnt even answear my question.

consider killing you're selfie.

>>672217342
>murder moms despicable ex
>profit
Ya done good, Anon. Sorry about your mom.

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So, this will take a while to read

I am not happy with myself. I have never been. But when I was younger, I didn't care about that much. After all, I had my vidya and friends to play with. I still have both. I just don't enjoy it anymore as I see how meaningless it is.
But I keep playing. It is my way to escape from the reality and forget how much of loser I am in real life.
I am getting sick of everything. I am sick of being single. I am sick of being virgin and having to hear jokes about that from my very own friends. I am sick of being such a pathetic loser, but I can´t break the circle alone. I tried many times, but I just can't do it alone and no one seems to care enough to help me with that.
And longer I stay in this circle of depression and sadness the more empty I feel.

I have nothing to help me keep going.
No interests. No hobbies. No talents. No one to tell me "I love you".I have never heard it from anyone. Hell, I have never even heard anyone saying "I like you, Anon". I can't even imagine anyone being interested in me. Why would any they be? I am not the most handsome. I am not smartest. I don't have any special skill. I am just a saracstical, cynical asshole. I tried to get a girlfiend /b/. I tried.

I have nothing. Only thing I have are my friends. But that makes me feel worse. I am getting pissed at them whenever I see how successful their lifes are.
How girls are hitting on Jake even tho he is same asshole as I am.
How Thomas and his girlfriend make that fucking perfect couple.
How Dan always gets out of every problem with luck.
How fucking succesfull they are while I am just pathetic virgin without talents or skills.
I am happy for them, sure I am, but in the end it always gets me more depressed.

I have been like this for months now and I feel like dying every day.
I am not suicidal. I don´t think I want to hang myself or anything. I just want to die. Every single day.
Call me beta, call me a faggot. I don't care anymore.

>>672217441
Hmmm. A handle in two, three days max. Alcoholic? Probably. I just don't know the actual parameters, because it's hard to quantify.

>>672216334
Shutup, nerd!

>>672215155
>>672215208
Those are some great tunes anons, thank you again!

Here is one I like to listen from time to time:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=578ueQC1xyM

>>672217777
dunno what is better, them feels or them quads

>>672217441
>a few beers
im not OP.
i drink 3000 ml of beer / night, the equivalent of 375 ml of whisky

on my way there
see you on the other side, b/rother

>>672217708
Haha, yeah, OP here. Seriously. Handle in 3 days. If not two. Is that alcoholism or not?

>>672217777
Checked hard

>>672217985
Actual OP here. I feel ya mate. I have about 500ml of gin a day. Fuck my life.

>>672217985
that feel when you got to the pub drink 8 pints and 6 straight rums and everyone looks at you in disgust, but acts like it never happned at work the next day.... Im fucking shameful every week.

>>672214439
My feels are taking over.

>>672213781
fucking nigger

y'all niggas gotta drop some ecstasy and feel some great music I tell ya

Honestly try it, if it doesn't become another addiction for you it will do wonders for your life.

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>>672217846
Oooh, that's a nice one!
Thanks for sharing anon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hi0xyltOwc0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIF4_Sm-rgQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SORlV8qAuIs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAP9AF6DCu4

>>672218346
WE ARE NOT HERE TO TAKE PART,
WE ARE HERE TO TAKE OVER!!
-conor mcgregor is the shit
disagree? kill yourself.

>>672218334
everyone looks in disgust? hmm
i really think i could make them look in appreciation

but then again, im the good''''' kind of weird

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>>672218346

>>672218801
made me laugh, anon

thanks
have a good day, night, n stuff

>>672208897
Looooooooool this thread.

Try a real addiction /b/ro, like heroin or meth. It'd tear you apart

>>672219061
already did by proxy.
>>672217342

>>672219061
>says the guy who has never experienced an addiction to alcohol

>>672218801
Too bad JFK said it not FDR

>>672213000
trips for truth

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVyggTKDcOE

>>672217777
I like you, Anon. I'm sorry you won't believe me, but I like you. Keep trying. You might not care anymore, but believe me, I care.

>>672219061
Hmmmm... Months of addiction to DXM, including being loaded at least 5 days a week, and while in class, and drinking 500ml a day since quitting robo. How's about you fuck off?

this whole thread is sadness. atleast your friend for 15 years didnt kill themselves last year.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDHpkYI5_FY

>>672219277
Sorry was more an attack on the OP, I know alchohol is a debilitating addiction and can cause death when withdrawing. I just highly doubt OP has been drinking 2 fifths every night for the past 5 years to get to alchoholic status

>>672219584
where I live James blunt is slang for Cunt #London

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLVq0IAzh1A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qycqF1CWcXg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc

>>672212535
who the hell are you, anon?!
what the actual fuck
this is real fucking poetry, for fucks sake

what are you doing here, go write and leave this place

>>672219673
Lmao did you just use DXM cough syrup from any typical store as an example? getreal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcDuR9BF0Oc

Best song for /f/eeling/s/

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>>672219297
Are you sure anon?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EuAZsz_z_U

>>672209899
This makes me feel sad on a whole another level.

Really, think about it. You are almost 80 and you feel this way. I can't even imagine this right here.

>>672219951
I see your Sting and raise you an Eva cassidy , recorded this dying of cancer.
Makes me fucking bawl every time , thank you cunt for sharing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UVjjcOUJLE

>>672220050
Sure did. Ever heard of psychological addiction chief? Fuck, have you ever even robotripped?

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>>672220269
I'm sorry anon... I didn't mean to be a cunt...

>>672210858
my mother died at 19 anon , I live for my younger sister, maybe its not worth it to you but to me Id die just to see her smile, find something you love and do all within your power to make it yours.

>>672219772
Hence why I (OP) said "probably alcoholic." I don't know the quantifiers or whatever the fuck for alcoholism. Sorry to have offended any true alcoholics, but Jesus if I haven't gotten drunk every day for over 2 years.

>>672220325
Oohkk, sorry to come off so hasty. Psychological and psychological/deathly ill physical addictions are way different though, when you don't get your fix and you can't even get out of bed because you don't have the strength you're so dopesick that's a real withdrawal. I've been robotripping since before you were born lil guy, loved it too until I got into harder shit. All addictions are shitty though not downplaying yours

>>672214439
thanks for sharing this anon
this really hit me hard

>>672208897

I don't know , my life is great but I'm tired of all this shit

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>>672220669
Haha sorry OP, I gotcha. If you have to drink to escape your everyday life that's a bad addiction for sure, regardless if you get the shakes/seizures when you don't drink or not.

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>>672210808
you dont you fill voids, you lie awake at night begging yourself to not have feelings you hate to love them , you wish you were robotic enough to be devoid of emotion , you curse the earth for giving you the power to comprehend love, it will kill you it will form you, it is not your friend , love hurt, unless its for the right person.

Not all people who come into our lives are meant to stay.

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>>672220874
>>672218346

>>672220499
I know anon, I still love you all the same.

Friends are a illusion

>>672208897
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ZDRR9_1g6s&ebc=ANyPxKru4j9WeiUXhDgvwkNYV40JS-AZtoyf2_kwhCo5YgXSjB7LZRal1cco4fzSMs-lkqej0Ui9wjlo1OITGmWvpNFnh3PB0A

>>672216271
I used to be like that go to bed fucked up on a plethora of drugs. Wake up and before I would even think about eating or anything I would hit up all my shitty "Friends" looking for my next fix. I did this for about four years after I dropped out of HS sophomore year I had 0 ambition or real ideas for my future I was doing roxycodone like crazy, never got a a diced but I would sometimes just go on massive binges taking upwards of 100mg a day or more sometimes. I have had a good life and many would say I'm extremery spoiled. But I can't help but feel empty all the time it's almost as if I'm a robot. I'm 19 now I got clean off of everything for a while about 6 months stopped talking to all my friends and lost interest in even attempting to get pussy. I'm falling back into the cycle I'm so lost.....

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http://www.youtubemultiplier.com/51a351050ce79-ptsd-simulation-for-sorrowful-nights.php

Senior in Hs here

been dating a girl for about 9 months now
well call her A

have other friend, well call her E

A has some pretty bad anxiety but shes a great person when fine. just when its bad it gets really bad

Found out the reason for all this is becuase E got A drunk in 7th grade and raped her in her basement. Then started a rumor that she was a lesbian. this kind of fucked A's life over and still is fucking it


Theres so much anger but i can't do anything about it really becuase if A find out I know it will be hell on her family

what do?

>>672217342
That's fucked up anon, I kinda feel ya. I just wish I had someone other than myself to blame for my mother's death.

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scenekids com/FilthyValentine

Open it. I double fucking dare you. Also, cringe thread.

Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. Until I accept life and reality on it's terms I will never be happy. What I need to change my attitude!

>>672221648
>be me
>ketamine everyday
>look at speakers
>see faces in ym speakers
>dip in and out of other galaxies in K holes
>2 years later the ride ends
>Ive destroyed myself
> its not worth it , drugs are never worth it.

not much more to say other than its not worth it in any form legal or otherwise.

>>672220746
Sorry for jumping yer shit mate. I feel ya. Fortunately, DXM, while psychologically addictive, didn't cause that. Addiction is addiction, but physical addiction has to suck. Again, assuming you've been through that, sorry mate. Get better man.

>>672210808
How to fix not having a heart in the first place?

>>672222591
be donald trump.

>>672220962
Thanks mate. Yeah, I have no delirium tremens and such, but I do have bad alcohol-seeking behavior. It sucks. Like I said, it's a bitch to define alcoholism. But thanks for the understanding. I hate arguing with fellow /b/ros.

>>672222188
Yea I know I was doing so well when I got clean... I'm just weak. It's the same cycle. Intense motivation to do well for a while and to apply myself at everything I try to do then it just all falls to fucking shit.

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>>672222769
Mah Nigga

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQNmu1Q9NzA

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>>672208897
I was in that mental state, hearing voices, serious thoughts that everyone in the world was out to get me. So I became an alcoholic... now I can add chronic hallucinations, anxiety, and bleeding-handed-OCD to that list.

Seriously bro kick the alcoholism thing unless you want things to get way worse, and they really can.

>>672222876
I know exactly what you mean my friend i have bursts of will and then pitfalls of absolute revulsion where I binge and become a failure, im fucking sick of it, but people are too worn out of my shit to support me I really want to get clean but people have given up on me. im lost.

Hey its probably my own fault for not listening sooner and forcing them to give up on me, I just wish I had the strength to do it without them or others.

>>672221648
I've been there, especially with the "friends" aspect. I had so many "friends" try and pressure me into this drug and that. It's not worth it, anon. They're not friends. They just want someone to bring down with them. Do yourself a favor and stay away from them. They can only make it worse. Get yourself clean, and your life will get better, I promise.

>>672222188
I love ket! my hallucinations would love some too

>>672216495
Are u still there anon.
I have asperger too but managed to deal with it quite well at least

>>672221932
I have a friend with terrible anxiety issues, he's noided all of the time.
Like, one day he's normal, happy, smart, whatever. The next day he calls you at an unorderly hour of the day, saying he's scared because he knows someone will kill him.
Then you discover those people were just some guys messing with or mocking him, just for the fuck of it.

You should be careful in the way you approach the situation. Remember: you can't stop rumors. You can only make A not worried about them.
Rejoicing A with E would be useless. Talk with A and say nothing will happen anymore and that her fears are irrational. Take her out sometimes, make sure people see her and notice she's not a lesbian maybe.

>>672223209
I know man. Shit gets way bad with alcoholism. But it's my one escape. Like I said, my own mind is out to get me. If anything starts my anxiety up, it's 0-60 til a panic attack. No escape from my own subconscious. I wish it wasn't this way, but it is. My antidepressants made me feel shitty, so I stopped taking them, and I abused the xanax. Just fuck my life.

>>672223300
Couldn't have said it better myself its so incredibly hard to fight the good fight alone being the social animals we are. One thing I have noticed in my limited time in existence is that people (including family) feed off of your failures.Consciously or sub-consciously. I suppose it's just human nature..?

>>672208897
I gots the panic disorder and OCD, too.
I quit drinking a few months ago. It helped but it definteliy didn't make the problems go away.

tomorrow i will go to a party and my ex gf that broke my heart will be there..how should i act (b)ros?

>>672223673
ive done enough ket to last me a lifetime, sitting on metal walkways with clouds running benetah my feet, clutching and touching my head with the feeling of wearing a hard hat.


and another time being so high I walked down a corridor felt like 5 years.. in a student bathroom , smallest bathroom ever... seeing that room as big as an opera hall rwching my arms out to feel the space... my finger tips touch the wall the whole room rushes towards me in a second like it was going to crush me , I curl up on the floor and piss myself in fear of death of being crushed 4 walls charging at you is no fun drugs or not, fuck that I quit.

>>672224113
Damn. Not often I encounter someone with the exact issues as me. How'd you do it, and how is life now? You on meds? How are the panic attacks? Any advice?

>>672223602
Thanks anon you guys definitely made my day significantly better it means alot.
I just wish I would have really thought about who I was surrounding myself with . I have had so many failures it's seems I am never happy with myself anymore even when I start on the right direction.

>>672224080
Just because its "human" nature doe sent mean its humane, we murder one another everyday , feelings are selective if youve already given up on some I guilty of it probably so are you, so I dont hold it against them for hating me for my failures, I just want forgiveness But I know I cant make them give me it no matter how much I want it, they have given up on me and I accept that.

>there are great people who have, have had, or made problems
>these people could carry on with normal lives because they're good like everybody else
>yet society will not forget what they have done
>a man could cure cancer, but he could also beat his wife, and even if he'd regret so, people would kno
>a man could have distorted views, be homophobic or nasty, yet be a great friend or dedicated person
>but people will only focus on the bad when judging them
>but this man will never have a chance at life again.

we have to understand that nobody is perfect. little spots on their reputatios shouldn't get in the way.
nobody is truly evil.

>>672221932
Break up with her and be a loner
ft. badass anon
oh and don't forget to get a badass coat and wear all black.

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>>672223098
My favorite quote by him.

>>672224609
Hey anon. So long as you get in the right direction, it's only up from there. Like I said, I was the same way. I was surrounded by drug addicts all through high school. It fucked me up for a bit, but I put distance between me and them and persevered. The road out of it has been rocky, but it's also been better.

>>672224619
Well said anon. The cold hard truth of it and I fully accept that I am no better than anyone else we are truly equal when it comes to emotions and social interactions. We are quite fragile In my opinion, some people are just better at hiding it.

>>672224705
Much like the prison system is meant to reform offenders and place them into society with a wanting to do better, but instead we lock away men for30 years of their formative lives and leave them with no understanding of the world , men imprisoned in the 70's wo get otu ad see people walking around talking to themselves with their ear pieces... to see 30 years of transport change... system of society and structural change , how the fuck can you reform someone into society if you remove them from it for 30 years, the only place that is doing reformation of offenders right Is Norway.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gO7uemm6Yo

>>672221117

Checked :(

>>672225422
The ending of this series was seen by 100 million people at the same time. Yet nobody talks about it today, it completely blows my mind.
Talk about fads.
>>672225303
This, yet that asshole Breivik is in a comfy cell after killing dozens of people.

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>>672225229
you speak the words of my heart friend.

>>672225168
Yea I just need to work on my self esteem and maybe I should talk to someone I tried that before but I was younger and more immature. Do you have experience with a psychologist?

>get perfect boyfriend
>so sweet
>buys gifts every anniversary, birthday, holiday...
>cant hold back my inner sadist
>cheat on him with his brother and let him catch me
>try to make him think its my fault

One of these days im scared i'll be too mean and lose him forever

but i cant resist hurting him

>>672225979
and this is why I avoid women entirely on everything but a mind friendship. Fuck anything that feeds off hurting me.

>>672226246
>MILD friendship

derp

>>672225979
1.- tits or gtfo
2.- do what you deeply need and want to do. Whatever it is. if you end up cheating, you'll loose him cause you never deserved him ya slut

>>672225979
literally no sympathy for you, you deserve to get caught and shot in your bed dude to jealousy,and Id hope he gets quitted for crimes of passion.

Its people like you that make life harder for others because of your own selfish desires, scum. Yes , I mad.

>>672225968
Naw, sorry friend. Just a VA therapist. He's definitely not as qualified as I'd like. He didn't do me much good. However, I also talked out of my ass the whole time. If you want real help, you've got to be sincere, and get that shit out. My gf has a full-on psychologist, and it's helped her lots. It's also (again) a lot about how you choose to use the experience.

>>672212535
10/10

>>672223946
that shit happened in middle school. were both seniors now. The rumors and what not stopped a long time ago but it started a chain reaction that fucked her up real bad.

>>672208897
Ezekiel cried, "Dem dry bones!"
Ezekiel cried, "Dem dry bones!"
Ezekiel cried, "Dem dry bones!"
"Oh, hear the word of the Lord."

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>>672208897
I feel ya.

>be me, 23
>college dropout
>lots of debt, terrible credit
>work a dead end job
>cant get on a lease so i bounce around random friends houses
>literally no stability in my life
>constantly stressed out
>because of this i've had liquid diarrhea for about a year now
>not to mention im a struggling on again off again heroin addict
>currently using
>i just want to kill myself

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>>672226944

>>672226790
You should just really try to get her over paranoia. I don't know how though. At this point I'm afraid I don't know what to tell you.

>>672227163
i appreciate the concern mate. ill just keep with her; she's gotten better since we started dating.

>>672216421
There is always hope. Because hope is no physical reality. So there can be infinite or none at all. It depends on you. Let yourself be carried away. Just do what you deeply want. And booze CANNOT be such a deep desire.
My personal desire, deep down, is to be completely alone in nature forever, until i die, be a close friend to death.
that's my desire, and i will chase it. I will let myself be carried away by solitude. I will not swim against the current. They tell me to be social. But they are envious. Because they a re weak and they need each other.
I will lie and get carried away by the soft current,
and only calmness shall remain within myself. I will not fight. I will remain serene, just like what surrounds me.
And if one day i wake up lonely and sad, i will kill myself.

>>672221932

I feel for you and your girl /b/ro. My gf has severe anxiety sometimes cause of rape when she was 13.

But I agree with other anon. Put her needs for comfort in front of your needs for revenge. Otherwise you are just selfish and unworthy of her trust and love. Take her out and show her that life with you is different. It's beautiful and caring. Unlike anything else.

>>672227035
Damn... I feel ya. I am close to, essentially, failing out of college. I also haven't had a half-decent shit for almost six years, due to stress. Fuck, I feel your pain man. Though heroin is some serious stuff mate. Please be careful.

>>672227115
Dem bones, dem bones gonna walk aroun'
Dem bones, dem bones, gonna walk aroun'
Dem bones, dem bones, gonna walk aroun'
Oh, hear the word of the Lord.

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>>672222412
Damn that's really beautiful to me

>>672227377
Damn man. Heavy. I feel the same feelings for nature as you (I love the wilderness). Maybe that can help.

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Wife asked for a divorce after 11 years. I tried everything, she doesn't want to try to make things work. Moved out of my house two months ago at first to "give her time and space". Two weeks ago she told me she has filed for divorce online. She kept the car I bought her with money from selling my sports car, our three bedroom house and my two dogs. I don't know how to get through this. Been drinking myself to sleep every night. Worst part is I still love her despite how she's acting. Tried to pick up a few things from the house and see my dogs a few days ago and she won't let me. She said she'd split our tax refund (joint filed as married) and then only gave me half of my share and refuses to give me the rest. I'm too defeated to even care at this point. What the fuck do I do guys? I can't keep drinking myself to sleep and I feel like a pathetic doormat, but i'm too depressed to give a damn.

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>>672227586
Thanks. I try not to do too much heroin, really only on weekends, but honestly its the only thing i look forward to throughout the week. It gives me something to live for. Which is so sad. But nothing else interests me anymore. I'm either stressing out about where the fuck i'm gonna live or what im gonna eat or where i'm gonna get money for X or Y reasons. Or im spending money to get so fucked up i cant think about any of my problems. But the more i do that the worse my problems get. My life is seriously just a fucked up self-perpetuating circle of misery

>>672228254
Kill yourself maggot!

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>>672228701

>>672228701
Women first.

>>672228366
Nice dubs. I was the same way last year. Though not as powerfully addictive as heroin, I was addicted to DXM for months. I was the same way: nothing to live for but my next fix. You have to escape that cycle. Once you focus your mind on something else, you can break away. I rekindled my love for the outdoors, and put that behind me.

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"...and shattered , lies my world
Hopelessly forever lost, burnt , by flames consumed
from the ashes you go, reborn, and now...
Now you are free"

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>>672228366
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cDMyIfuTpBc
Listen to me, alright? I hate humanity, and part of the reason is because of people like you. Not because you are evil. But because you are not human.

But i want ot make you a human again.
After today, you'll be a human again.
A human.

Your entire life is the problem. Not heroin. Heroin addiction is just a symptom. You do heroin because life sucks. the problem is life. Change it. Change it 100%.

Stopping your addiction is not enough. Move somewhere else. Be someone else. Dunno if you play RPGs. But you have got to respec. Start anew. From the beginning. Be a baby again. Be a human child.

Nature gave you life.
Go back to nature
Go back home.
Home. Go back where you come from.
Where you belong.

Go to a deep forest as far as macrosociety as possible. And feel. Just feel. Be human again. Be Earth's son again.
Be who you really are.
Don't worry. You're not lost.
You still have a human soul who is aching to go back home.
Home...

>>672208897
>>probably alcoholic
>I'm drunk on an Amtrak

probably alcoholic.

don't worry. some burglar will steal everything you have (starting with booze).

>>672212421
>working as a horse

I guess that's one way to keep things stable

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- Solid Snake

>>672229765
Too late mate, finished it all. Only problem is I don't have more, and the cafe closed at 6.

>>672230134
>>672229579

>>672230058
knew its was MGS before I even finished Fuck yeah!

>>672230266
damn
what the fuck did I just read

>>672212535

I think your diagnosis is going to come back as you're a fag.

>>672230058

Oh god. This faggot thinks his yelp reviews are the same as having a legacy.

>>672220045
Thanks, but I'm awful at writing most of the time.

Appreciate your compliment though :)

>>672208897

You're the sad kind of alcholic. I drink too much every day, but I became a comedian, so it's fine.

>>672208897
why the fuck are you taking amtrak? Planes are faster and busses are cheaper

>>672231025
My penis disagrees.

As do my lungs.

>>672208897
Nigga don't back off that path! I just got busted at work with booze, fired then was kicked out of parents house to live in a house where I can never sleep because FUCKING kids I will Kill them

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I've read this a million times before but it never meant anything to me until recently. And now it's constantly in my head reminding me that maybe I'm wasting my time. And then she does something sweet that reminds me she cares. And then I remember this shit again. Who knows where it's going, but the journey to wherever we end up is excruciating.

>>672208897
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQwgOHyv4TE

>>672217342
>tell myself every day Im not a murderer, it was only justice.
You're no different than him you fucking psycho, you took a living person and you killed them, you took a mothers son and killed him, you paid money to murder a man, who murdered your mum, that's not justice, that's disgusting revenge, you filthy fucking animal.

>>672232186

huh?

>>672233020
I'm making the assumption you meant fag as in homosexual male, and to that I say, my penis disagrees.

In the unlikely event that you meant fag as in cigar I also included the line of "as do my lungs" to show that that too is a false accusation.

>>672212535
Reminded me of this
https://youtu.be/IoLs5KdeLQg

>>672210808
live with it

>>672210808
Drugs have always worked for me.

>>672234678
Anyone has that "I'm fine" image?

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>>672235289
Here

>>672235537
Thank you blessed anon :3

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>>672235660
No need to thank me anon...

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>>672232939
The difference between a nigger and the rest of the humanity. You make a great example for kids to see and learn to how one can see the difference. I can say a thousand things about you, but I won't. Instead, I will tell you this, "before you judge someone, put yourself in their shoes".

>>672211371
>>672211758
>>672221113
>>672222591
>>672234439
>>672234537
....sigh. thats what life is,i guess

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>>672236525
yeah.... sorry anon

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>>672236525
It could be worst ,anon.

hey , no one says- life will be easy catch.

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>>672217342
>>tell myself every day Im not a murderer, it was only justice.
You're quite literally a hero.
I'm actually proud of you Anon, good job. More than just justice of served the day you killed him.

>>672217777
I actually feeled. keep strong anon you know most of us are in the same boat. we all find our passion sometime, somewhere. try to start being more active and social if that helps.
tell your friends you need some time alone, hit the gym, start accepting yourself first, be positive. go find a teamsport or talk groups or maybe a job if you don't have one. those little things will keep you positive and make you remember what life is about. having fun with what you're doing :)

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>>672237111 (trips)
this

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>>672232459
At least it sounds like she cares and you have (even a slight) chance of a future with her.

I got fucked.
>be depressed for years
>terrible socially
>barely able to hold up a conversation
>meet a girl
>for some reason I'm able to talk for hours at a time with her
>she's kind, intelligent and caring
>I fall for her
>she doesn't feel the same way
>she moves to a different country
It's been 4 months since I saw her last and it still kills me. I still dream about her and she still haunts my idle thoughts.

I want off this ride.

>>672238926
it will get better mate, trust me.

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>>672208897
It'll get better.

>>672236525
Pretty much...Now go get fucked up! Waitin' on a taxi to go to the bar, myself =)

Protip: avoid women, you'll be much happier

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>>672239223
Here's to hoping it does.

Thanks man.

>>672212535
But thats wrong anon.

Everyone leaves.

One hundred percent

>>672238926
If it makes you feel any better, I have no idea if this girl feels even remotely similar to how I do. We're both dating other people and only met a month ago when she started working at the same company as me, but it was one of those things where everything just clicked. First it was just being friendly, then it got vaguely flirty, then we started going out for lunch together constantly, and now I'm fucked in the head because I'm torn between staying with the girl I've been with for years or throw it all away and explore the possibilities here. I don't know that it'll ever happen, but I know that I never questioned the way I felt about my girlfriend until I met this girl. And now I realize that I never looked at her the way I see this girl. I'm sick of not acting on my own desires and only doing what makes other people happy.

Have you considered Alcoholics Anonymous?

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> captcha : happy days kate

Have a nice time kate whatever you are ...

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>>672242030