Sometimes I close my eyes and block my ears. I hear my own thoughts taking a mind of its own. There is no god. God is you. You are your own goD. You make your own choice in life that creates your future. Sometimes you must learn to let go. And just be your self. Do what ever the duck you want to do. And see how you feel.

I'm almost 30 and have a vast musical taste. The other day my dad said "ever listen to alan parsons project?" I haven't. He said to check out I Robot.

Listen to this all the way through. Headphones are a must.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixjnq_noOQ8

>>596882815
that sounds kinda weird but very cool, think i'm gonna save the whole thing for tripping
thanks anon

>>596883372

No prob. I've probably listened to it all the way through about 8 times in the last week or so.

>>596883372
and when we're at it
did someone of you guys ever took any drugs?
psychoactives or psychedelics?

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>>596883658

yes. but, at least for me, it's not what you always hear. like when people say you see/hear things that aren't there. my trips are more philosophical. although I really don't anymore, I highly suggest it in your late teens, early twenties.

anyone else have the deepest thoughts while shitting?

>>596884239
yeah that's my about my age
just had my second time truffles a few days ago and it's really an experience you should have done somewhere in you're life i think. just the altering of your perception is insane and makes you think alot

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The absurdity of the fat acceptance movement is that it targets publications like Sports Illustrated which cater to people who care about their bodies, demanding representation and inclusion of people who clearly don't.

Sometimes I fantasize about sucking off another guy or otherwise having sex with one. But looking at gay porn does nothing to me, and I don't think I could ever bring myself to do it in real life.

>>596884989
Same here

>>596882815
Ooh shit this is really good stuff, thanks anon. Know anything else like this?

>>596881876

Realised after a few years of white quilting from my school and the majority of society that there will always be racism in one form or another until we are all the same race and colour - leaving out employment and other life stuff.

Feels bad a lot of the time to be honest cause most people haven't taken that step to understanding it.

I think Gene Roddenberry was from the future trying to warn us of the corruption in our century. But also assuring us that everything is going to work out.

>>596881876
I wonder if the fact that I have no previous employment will mean i will find it hard to get a job after completing my tertiary course. feels

Give me one minute, imma smoke, then I'll tell you guys something

I'm going to string you up under a tree and deck the branches with your intestines.

>>596881876
I don't know why I'm always average at anything, i mean i can do most of the things, like school, college, playing online games etc etc. But i never be the best.

>>596885518
are you me? its sucks hey. Even when you do your best its just average...

>>596885256
am i racist because i call black people black and not afro-american (etc) ? i think that's bullshit and people do not get the point of the real issue.
i think black people and white people ARE different "races", you can tell from the anatomy (of their skull for example) but I am not saying that those races are different in their "value"

I wonder why toilet seat warmers aren't popular. Also I wonder why I can instantly talk to someone on the other side of the world but my shit still smells like shit. Why isn't my right to have water that doesn't catch fire worth less than a few jobs that last a few months. Why can't they bring back pop-tarts cereal?

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>>596885227

Hard to say. When I listen to music, everything is distinct. Give Steely Dan a shot. Aja is a good start:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gPFZlw1dw0

>>596885634
Its because the "people" who are better than average arent human, they are a different breed, they are part of the reptilian bloodline

>>596885634
Yea m8, there's always some people gain higher achievements than me. Life sucks.

I involuntarily say suicidal things whenever I'm not in earshot of someone else. Somehow, I'm always able to keep it together in the presence of others, but I could be alone making a sandwich or some shit and start saying: "Fuck, fuck, fuck my life! I need to kill myself, fuck."

I think I should be worried about this but I'm really not. I dunno.

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>>596885917
>why can't they bring back pop-tarts cereal?

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>>596885883
Race totally exists, but it's mostly a social construct.

As an example, here in America, "asian" is usually considered a race. We don't (and often can't) differentiate between "Korean", "Chinese", or "Japanese", while in Asia those are three very distinct races. Different society, different races. You see?

>>596885883

Agreed, if you're a good person, you're a good person. The problem I have is specifically being told it's my fault they lost their country (apparently I'm 221 years old or something) and the children grow up in their little villages and realise they want something more, or they get kicked out by their own elders. Then the cultural difference is fucking massive and instead of being like 'fuck my tribe done goofed' they go 'fucking white people did this to me'.

We don't need to breed them out or anything but fuck me it's hard to deal with a conquered race that doesn't want to change.

ever wonder what position your parents were in when you were conceived?

The gist was that every human's life occurs with the sole purpose of organizing the inherent entropy in the universe into two categories which can be viewed as "good" and "evil", "black" and "white", "yin" and "yang", or whichever ideology you choose to use, and that we as living creatures, through to choices we make, exist to sort entropy into one of these two categories. It's not inherently tied to morality. But morality is a perception anyway. Like all concepts, it's real as long as one person believes that it is. If anything I'd say it's the other way around. Morality is defined by this, not the other way around. For example, something "bad" that you do would result in an amount of entropy being sorted as "evil" or "black", and vice versa‏.

I get mad at people that do not understand when i say that I hate niggers but not black people.
there's a difference man

How many interstellar,super-intelligent species have spied on our planet and just said "Fuck that" and simply left us alone?

>>596886564
I've only ever walked into my parents having sex once.

It makes me wonder wonder how often they actually have had sex.

>>596886382

Eh... Well I'm an Ausfag and my race is whites. Same as most Americans, Brits, Canadians, majority of Europe etc. Might be different countries/cultures but we're all white (or at least the majority are associated with it).

Also mfw all Asians fucking hate each other.

>>596886080
can't let it get to us bro but its life. We will always be better than some people tho, just depends if you've found what that is in yet.

>>596886446
>The problem I have is specifically being told it's my fault they lost their country
dude i'm german... you get the point

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fucking shit, why do faggots have to be so close minded about everything? Like seriously, nobody can even consider anyone else's opinion, they all get fucking shot down. Anyways, anybody here make a tulpa before? Saw a post awhile back, researched and now I'm curious.

>>596887074

Didn't the majority of whatever countries you fucked over get their land back though?

I got told one day that I should feel shit for my ancestors history but in the same breath told to forgive Japan for WWII. Just seems to be the white countries that people seem to want to keep the guilt flowing.

>>596885438
everything is a pool, a huge, huge pool
Every action that happens ever, is a wave
>shitting
A small wave
> the holocaust
Slightly bigger than shitting
> star dying
Now we're noticing those waves

But sometimes, the event is so astronomically big, that it halts all the other waves
I think that the big bang was one of those halting waves
Perhaps, there was a universe before this one, and in the blink of an eye, *poof
A huge explosion happens, perhaps from a black hole that got so dense, reality couldn't hold it together
And blows the old universe away
And we are the aftermath of that
Cont.?

Lately I'm wondering why a godly person like Bill Gates is so underrated?! I mean he still surprises the world with his works and yet people like Kim Kardashian and her circle managed to steal the spotlight. Like, hey, Bill Gates fed African children and they have no reason to not worship him. God.

>>596886382
I see europe is white people and I think whole europe should unite as one country like USA but have their own borders as states and presidents in them basically a better EU but more united if that makes sense, also bomb the fuck out of russia, nuke that whole place

>>596886382

there is no such thing as race
the closest is genetic clusters which contain similar haplotypes, but the variation isn't strong or wide enough to make it a race

>>596887441
Until we get peer reviewed papers on it, it's just people roleplaying with a couple legitimately delusional folks.

Like /x/, basically.

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>>596887561
That's what I'm saying. There's no real scientific basis for the "black" and "white" races. They're just there because society decided so.

I have a dream, when i graduated from college and finally have my own income, i will stop pirating games. I'll start buying the original one and give my best review on Steam.

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They found a way to hurt me /b/. Making me feel wanted and giving me a little hope. I was less miserable when they would toy with me with clear malicious intent.

>>596887917

this is the dumbest shit I've ever heard.

>>596887917
lol brainwashed

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>>596887917

I'm not the same as an Aboriginal. White skin, green eyes, blonde hair, nose is thing, high cheek bones, and my brow isn't pronounced and I'm able to walk in a straight line, back also held correctly. Gonna be honest, after living in Darwin and seeing some of them, I can see the gap between apes and what the majority of us are now.

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>>596887729
I've checked out the subreddit, I've checked out other websites too. As you said, many of them seem like role players (your tulpa named themselves fucking twilight sparkle twinkle toes? Are you fucking kidding me?) And some actually seem genuine, it makes me mad that there hasn't been more research done.

>>596887459
> you fucked over
see that's actually what i mean, prob just didn't think about that right now but just sayin
also, yes they did get it back and germany is still paying and with germany i mean ME and every other german citizen
i can't put the fucking tv on and not see 20 different documentations about ADOLF HITLER UND SEINE NAZI-SPIESSGESELLEN: DAS ULTIMATIVE BÖSE, i know it's important to educate about the terrible things that happened back then but i can't stand it anymore
also many foreigners instantly relate germans to nazis, isn't that racist too?

>>596881876
If a tree falls in the forest and doesn't make a sound, would anyone even have been so far as decided a to go want to do more like?

>>596888469
The obscurity of it is valuable though. The more research that's done the more popular it will be. And then it will be diluted and corrupted by popularity. Fuck research. Just pray it remains a strange internet concept.

>>596887477
how fucking old are you?

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>>596889103
If it could grow a bit more and stay a smaller, semi serious group I think that would be better. The current communities are super super small

>>596888393

that's called a phenotype, and by itself isn't enough to be conisdered a different race

>>596887481
>kim kardashian
main-stream media for the masses boy
keep the sheep dumb, so they can't ask their own questions why there is a war in the ukraine (just one example) but ask themselves whose dick miley cyrus sucked a few days ago

>>596889581
20.
What does it matter?
punk Nigga tryna sweat me

>>596888864

Oh, shit sorry dude by 'you' I really honestly did mean Germany back in WWII, not you specifically bro. That was an old slip of the... fingers there. I wouldn't hold essentially any of the current Germany responsible for the war crimes.

I know your feel bro, I had to put up with it all through schooling, same shit for dropping the bomb on Japan but no one had a clue about the Nanking Massacre.

My cash goes to a bunch of people that aren't interested in changing themselves or their children's future and that's just fucking them over.

mfw Year 12: You will read this novel about whites fucking over blacks, you will watch this movie about whites fucking over blacks and then you will write about whites fucking over blacks.

>>596888864
it would be if german was a race. it's not. you;re still white, sorry to break it to you.

nazis are the last big scary enemy. maybe they're being supplanted by the scary muslim terrorists. we;ll see.

>>596885983
>Aja
Made me instantly think of Aja West http://mackrosoft.bandcamp.com/album/total-recall-2012
Thanks for this anon. You have good taste :^)

>>596889679
Any time something grown it is cheapened by the ignorance of the people who discover it because of its new found "trendiness". If that happens to tulpas, it would be a sad fucking day. I'm sure there is some kind of exception and maybe it could become more known without being cheapened by the masses, but that hardly ever happens.

>>596889883
i know that, same just with the whole nazi stuff
maybe just some kind of coming to terms with the past "ordered" by the government to prevent from things happening again and sensitizing people?

>>596882370
very true, ive been dealing with ocd thoughts, distorded thoughts, an extreme case of bad self esteem and sometimes i let myself just go and that is when i realize how sad and tired i actuelly am, just tired of trying to fit in

>>596890335
I dont think this would happen with tulpas thoigh because of the actual effort involved, all though the people role-playing it.. That could become popular....

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>>596890335
Aight, fuck it, I'm hopping on the crazy train to tulpa town. Wish me luck /b/ros

>>596885372
can't answer you that buddy
my brother is actually 26, still lives at home and does nothing than basement-dwelling all day..
it breaks my fucking heart to see my brother wasting away his life, but I'm too much of a pussy to actually speak about it with him

>>596889858
keep going i want to hear moar

>>596882815
thanks, i was in the mood for some new music earlier, and this shit is really good

How is there enough time in the day to eat enough to get as fat as some people do? Did they never have a job?

Does the self-serving and materialistic nature of women mean there actually are no good ones? Can none of them be trusted?

How powerful must religious dogma be to persist so far into the age of the internet, where rational arguments are free to browse?

I'm sick of people asking what the 'meaning of life' is. There isn't one -asking what it is is a false assumption.

>>596890335
dude its just mental discipline. its a shame that most people arent into that. i remember as a kid i looked at my life as a movie, and had some dude like me as a director that would decide how to approach and solve problems. if people try to be literal all the time, they ignore their emotions and thats a bad way to live.

>>596887477
wrong on so many levels. you are getting warm though, most everything acts in oscillations. our universe is thought to have started with the big bang, and many more will come after that. its all theory based on thermodynamics and relativity.

>inb4 nuh uh
ive been studying the large universe since i was a kid, now im studying to be an engineer. shits starting to make some sense.

>>596892202
the meaning of life is something that everyone has to discover for himself I think
i love to philosophize about life and the role i will take in a bigger play
just the simple realization that there are more than 7 billion people and everyone has such a complex life like i do drives me insane

10 fallacies of race denial
Enjoy /b/ros, this literally dismantles every argument used by the race deniers.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4ZurClqPGLc

>>596888864
germans=/=nazis

i like my germanbros.

italian-amerifag here, grandpa worked on sherman tanks in the army.

>>596892202
you forgot your fedora

>>596890510

Difference being they seem to only not care about races that aren't white that's the thing.

>>596881876
After death I believe in a personal perceived consciousness existing in some manner. That death begins as a freeing experience from what our bodies are limited to, however it begins as nothing. Immediately after death there is no internal thought going on. The conscious must take time to grow into its capabilities. After a great amount of time in experiencing this nothingness, the conscious can grow and imagine things on its own. Over a huge amount of time from there it is able to branch out and form thoughts on its own, simply from the terrible ennui which has occurred for perceived eons. In this way we each create our own personal ideal afterlives. It is in this way that we can gain infinite knowledge over huge spans of time. We eventually will be able to gain the knowledge to influence our ways into others' personal eternities. Knowledge is the answer. We can experience the lives of people that have been or will be in our current day Earth eventually. As if the universe, (or what I can best describe as that which is more than the universe), was our personal simulations. In this manner we may become gods or mortals as we wish. In this way all religions are right and wrong, as are atheistic beliefs. Perhaps our earthly experiences are simply hints at what we come to realize first in this eternity that is to come. This also ties into the multiverse theory, only with the minds of the dead being their driving force.

Or, we simply die and have no consciousness of anything. As if sleeping.

I hope for the former theory of experiencing the infinite to be true, but I also sit comfortably with sleep. In either situation, I am at ease with the concept of death, and will be from the time I had come to these two conclusions for what possibly awaits us post-life.

>>596893112
cool, my grandpa is italian. it's not my biological granddad, but he raised my father since his father died in a coalmine accident.
also i do not know my actual ancestor-history which kinda sucks.

>>596893703
not like sleep but like before you were born
it will be just nothing (my opinion)

Holocaust hyocrisy: Nazis were evil because they justified their claim of racial superiority via genetics
Meanwhile in Israel: Jews are gods chosen people, and anyone who isnt a jew is a sub-human gentile! Make them all infentured servants to the banking systems which were invented in Jerusalem during the crusades.

>>596894438
thanks i was waiting for someone to post that

Why do almost all people have an innate desire to "succeed" in life? Why should that really matter? I feel that if more people lived their life trying simply to find happiness and contentment in the lot they've been dealt in life, rather than spending their life doing everything in their power to "one-up" their peers, society as a whole might not be in such constant turmoil.

Idk, it gets frustrating to me. People should try to be happy, not rich; too many are convinced that happiness and wealth are always mutually inclusive. They're not.

>>596894117
The difference here being that there is no destined time for life to occur. Nothing to life to infinity. The difference being that life is not going to be an awakening time for the consciousness. I would like to take time to develop this theory more, improve upon my haphazard thinking and get my points across a bit more clearly. I see potential in it, but maybe I am just being egotistic.

>>596881876
i still wonder if this is about a guy looking at himself as he contemplates the outside, or if he's looking at himself period.

>>596893718
its not too important to know ancestral stuff, but it is interesting. my moms side of the family had a few slave owners in the south, mississippi area. my dad (italian) side had stonemasons back in the old country that helped build cities in southern italy.

i think your interests are related to the work that your family has been mostly engaged in. id like to have a farm, and mine for minerals and build cool shit.

>>596894827
I have thought this too. The extreme of this is known as "hedonism" and has been a lifestyle since the ancient Greeks being at their height of philosophical thinking.

>>596894698
you're welcome

>>596894827
being happy is important. but learning to sacrifice in order to advance our species is a little more important in my opinion. to most people, being happy means doing nothing productive. thats where the problem is.

and when it comes to being productive, there shouldnt be any personal competition. just the common goal of advancement and creation whether it be ideological or technological.

Sometimes I contemplate actually being a bad person/rude person. Don't get me wrong, I'm a /b/tard and I will put myself before others but I tend to be a nice person the majority of the time especially to strangers.

Just lately I've been noticing how much people are just... miserable and willing to spread that to others. If someone wishes me a good day I thank them and I'll always end up smiling. I love to make people laugh, it's an excellent feeling but yeah seems to be more assholes and rude people outweigh the nice ones so I'm just wondering - should I even bother anymore?

>>596895347
continued further, i believe the only reason we are so competitive with each other is because we seek happiness and pleasure through capital. our motivations are ultimately pleasure, and we will fuck over anyone else in our way of that. until we learn to love ourselves and reflect that unto others, we will always be weighing our wants against others. we need to create together. not to make life easier, but to make life more engaging and fulfilling.

>>596895502
You'll quickly notice that a big reason why you're nice now is that your niceness reflects from those close to you. Destroying that may destroy yourself. It's not worth it in my opinion. Be kind to others and psychology research says you'll be happier, even if the kindness is not reciprocated.

>>596895502
dont give up. im assuming youre young and youre just getting out into the real world. people suck and the system we have placed ourselves in is a draining one. everyones miserable half the time because we are picking up slack from others misbehavior. if youre nice to people, they will be nice back, and be more inclined to be warm to others. its like paying it forward, attitude edition.

>>596893703
Holy shit. I'm saving this.

Usually I've been in this depressive state, but then also I'm young and not even close to havjng staarted my life yet (22 so fuck ya) but I still get that weird feeling of depression every once in a while fuck

I been tweaking on adderall and buttloads of caffeine the past two days and today i was sober and felt good. I think my mindset changed idk.

I'm pretty drunk too, pretty enjoyabke. Not sure what to do, I was supposed to party but there was no party so I drank at home with a friend.

I think I'm happy just stuck in a negative thought loop. Any thoughts?

Sorry for non logic and shit I'm drunk

>>596896348
I'll make a better, more thought out version. Give me an email of some sort and I will send it once I get around to trying to give writing to what I'm thinking. Consider this in the alpha to beta stage haha

>>596893703
you either tripped too hard or got really into star trek next generation.

>>596895923

Well I am nice to my family and people who are close, I'll always be that way, I mean I'm not perfect but I'll never become an assehole to screw them over. It's more or less others that I see day to day, I have my smile on my face and try to make their day just that little bit brighter but they either take no notice or actually treat you poorly for it.

>>596896094

Youngish - 21 but yeah I just wish people could just be more happy you know and share that happiness with others. A lot of the time I'll see people being rude for their own personal reasons including to show off in front of their mates or partner and it's just... depressing.

>>596896558
misery loves company. but happiness is better. break the loop.

>>596896610
nebraxas @ y a h o o
d o t com

I recommend "Beyond Theology" by Alan Watts.

>>596897084
Please elaborate, I want to hear more

>>596896920
I tripped way too hard my first time on shrooms, and what this enlightened anon has said is basically what I came out thinking too...

I'm acutely aware of how unreal everything seems to me. Even when I'm talking to people or walking down the street. I find myself thinking I could just step into traffic without any real consequences. I don't necessarily feel invincible, I do however feel like it wouldn't really matter to anyone or even myself.

>>596896959
People notice even the slightest amounts of kindness, even something as simple as a smile. They may not show it outright, or may react adversely due to being jealous of your joy. I know this isn't the board for it, but fuck it. I'm tired of seeing nothing but porn and the misfortunes of others being the only places of joy for me on this site. This thread is quite out of the norm from what I've experienced on here for years. Very few other examples come to my mind where a thread wasn't simply some meme, someone naked, some drug, some roll thread, some thread about hurting people, or something that infringed upon the rights of others in some manner. I like this thread, and I can appreciate a person who tries to make the world happier. I truly appreciate you, and what you have done for people. Keep at it.

>>596896959
im roughly the same age, but have been through some shit. even my father admits hes tired of older people doing the same.

>hey guys im a douche
>i make 350k a year
>i just bought a maserati
>cost me 200k
>but the bank owns my house and fucks me out of the rest of my income
>but i got a maserati

im cool with a small house and shitty car that i OWN. if shit hits the fan, i will survive. if the economy sinks, i will survive. we should not invest in personal pursuits as much as we should in technology and engineering.

life is a bunch of dick waiving, which is usually reserved for those who will never reach their worldly desires.

thinking too hard made me become nihilistic for a while, so its important to remember that theres just these cons to being human.

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>>596897740

Thanks anon, I appreciate it.

>>596897550
it is not inconsequential, but it does not matter, if that makes sense. Nothing really matters.

>>596897286
when youre upset about anything, you tend to fall into the loop. you like to be miserable, and negative. you like to complain. and you get so used to this thought process that other peoples happiness becomes upsetting. that only deepens the hole that you are in. you have such an incredible conscious. you can act happy and actually start to become truly happy. thats breaking the loop.

>>596896920
I have never experienced any type of tripping. I smoked weed a few times, but not in the last two years, (and these thoughts came to me only a couple months ago). I'm not sure what Star Trek has to do with it, but if there's some hint at what I talked about in the Next Generation series I will give it a go. My dad's a huge trekkie, so I'll just borrow the seasons from him.

>>596897926
time relativity seems to be your issue. its matters short term.

when im in a public place ( like a train for example) i think about how easy it would be for a person near me to murder me in that place if they wanted to. i dont freak out or anything its just a thought thats in the back of my head often

>>596897196
I took your email down in the document I'm making for improvements and clarifications for the theory.

>>596898265
I get that too. Also, for you to do the same to someone else.

>>596898058
Q. Q is a dick, but he is basically an all knowing being who can change for and can travel time. he likes to fuck around with Picard and put him into some weird introspective situations.

one was about affecting the advancement of a civilization they happened to discover, that was just getting ready to get to space. not sure if Q was involved, but its possible.

>>596898058
>>596898422
forgot link
http://en.memory-alpha.org/wiki/Q_%28species%29

>>596893703
this seriously sounds like something a death cult leader would say right before he passes out the poison kool-aid

>>596882815
>>596882815
this shit is dope as fuck. thanks anon.

>>596898016
thats a rough outline, but no matter the specifics, the behavior seems to follow this pattern. find something that makes you happy. delve into it. share it with others. it helps break that loop when you can create and be happy. i found that doing absolutely nothing makes it way worse.

>>596897330
dont worry, i assumed that because i tripped shrooms hard once, and it helped me understand calculus. also took acid a couple times but i still feel kinda weird from it, even a year later.

like a super faint afterglow. its like i know what our reality is, but i also know that its only perceived, and can never be true reality. i used to trip, then the next day smoke a bunch of weed while watching star trek.

trippy shit mane

>>596898549
I would never condone anything like that haha. Life is precious. That ties into my theory some. I didn't have the time to think that part out well enough for the post.

>>596898216
I think I see what you're saying, but "matters" seems like a judgement call, where as consequence has a quantitative aspect. It would not matter if i die right now (to the universe, earth, my apartment, etc) but there would be consequence (butterfly effect and what not) impacting all kinds of things.

i watched trigun when i was in middle school and it really made me think about how important peoples lives are, and i developed this mindset where i felt fine with risking my life to save a person even if i didnt know them.

i dont think like that anymore really but for some reason gore pictrues or videos make me sick to my stomach more than others. that same year in middle school my friend showed me a picture of a woman getting her throat cut, and everybody else in the room were freaked out for a second but forgot about it the next day, but for some reason it haunted me for like 3 weeks and made me really depressed.
sounds pretty corny to be saying this stuff on /b/, not sure if others can relate