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bumpin'

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>>583308787
I don't have anything to share, but I'm lurkin'.

I'm sitting on a toilet with my phone looking at /b/. A turd is currently dilating my asshole. I farted a little. Its slowly coming out. Stuck a little so now I'm giving it a little push. Oh shit here it comes.. A little fart.. And.. Floosh! Its being followed by little turd nugglets.
Thanks for understanding.

Woah, im pissing out my ass. No wonder my farts were so stinky.

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My shit's all fucked dude.

Pic related, what I do instead of work for the future.

I have a very difficult time feeling any emotion. The only emotion that I generally can feel is anger/frustration. I have over the years learned how to emulate these emotional reactions during a very wide variety of social situations. I understand how most people would mentally/emotionally react to most things or situations, but I myself do not feel any of these.

>>583309624
does everything feel mundane?

>>583309624
And even anger is uncommon unless I am pushed very, very far

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bumping with feels

Have work party, i find it racist.

>>583308787
I hate my wife and wish every day to leave her

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>>583309609

feel like elaborating at all?

>>583309624

i'm sorry to hear that. i have Borderline Personality Disorder, which is the exact opposite of that. can't imagine what the other end of the spectrum feels like. hang in there.

>>583309803
Yes, to a extent. I believe its because everyday is the same as those preceding it but with little variance. I do not even care if I were to die. Only reason I attempt to live is so that my parents and family will not have to have the emotional trauma they would experience possibly obstructing the process of their daily life.

AI feels like I do.

wearied.

lel

Fuck this town and fuck the people in it I have like one person that i actually care about and i feel for but i'm pretty sure i'm just being used but it's better than having no one.

I want to kill myself.

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classic feels

>>583310572
>>583310557
>>583310428
I got your back bro, just keep on watching those markets.

Nothing like having a purpose in life.

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>>583310079
I literally cannot do well in school because of how much class I miss do to migraine headaches. I spend every waking hour just trying to catch up because I've been cursed with the inability to do normal shit 8 hours a week. I'm pretty dumb on top of that, which isn't helping.

Onetime I won breakfast for a shoe drawing contest so that was ok I guess.

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>>583310572

tried two weeks ago. neighbor heard ruckus and i ended up in hospital. college alerted their Crisis Team and now i have to go to fucking therapy all the time.

life is garbage. i haven't had sex since January and my last girlfriend dumped me after cheating. my mom died this year and my dad lives all the way in bumfuck Ireland.

i used to hate this place. now it's all i have.

how fucking pathetic is that?

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>>583311076
I'm sorry /b/ro. Hug?

Just got home from the club. Place was packed wall to wall with niggers so my girlfriend sucked my dick in the parking lot and we left.

Been seeing this girl for just over a month. First time I have ever been with a girl who I can relate to. thought it wasgoing places and I was happyfor once. today i stumbled across thefact she has been married for just over a year. I feel like a complete fool. I havnt talked to her about it yet, have no idea what to do.

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>>583311398

hug, man.

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I've drifted from this girl I extremely like a lot and we used to talk every day but recently we've grown apart help /b/ what should I do to fix it

Been trying to play guitar again, man I make mistakes all over the place. I'm missing something, yeah practice.

>>583310557
I'm in the middle of a divorce and i'm keeping the kid wife was a cheating coke whore and all my "friends" turned their backs on me I have a shitty job and have tried time and time again to get a better one but have failed at that. My ex best friends sister has started hanging out with me but i feel she's trying to use me but i just let it happen because I need someone right now and she's the only one there

I've been wondering about the afterlife too, I can't imagine nothingness.

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>>583311816

need more details.

>>583311820

i've been playing since my sophomore year of high school and only just got good enough to be in a band. keep at it, mang.

>>583311957

that's way fucking rough. sorry, /b/ro.

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Homeless Marine

Hitchhiking to Florida from Louisiana tomoro morning

>>583308787
Sometimes i find myself thinking about why we created a society where the sole purpose of every individual is to run around money. and the fact that people are losing their scientific faculty, Obsessing over material and sueperficial shit. Anyone feel the same ?

ive slowly developed depression and now i fantasize killing myself a lot and the only thing stopping me is my family

Thanks OP, i needed one of these. I've been trying to make my move on this girl for days and finally, I decided to do it today. Sadly she turned me down and said she was already going to get coffee with someone else. I feel like it's bullshit, but whatever I guess.

>>583309609
Your art is nice. Got a website yet ?

>>583312583
i feel u anon

>>583312803
Thank you.
Not for drawings. I'm mostly a musician.

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>>583312692

been there plenty of times. my disorder keeps me from moving on like an actual, non-stupid person, but it'll get better. fo real.

>>583312616

i often think of the same things. truly a curse, sorry /b/ro.

Holy fuck, guys. I started using 4chan last month, and the number of people who say they want to kill themselves is ridiculous. I hope suicide is some kind of inside joke here or that it's being said tongue in cheek. So much misery and lack of purpose.

>>583312290
Well I met her at this party around June while my best friend who recently moved out of state was visiting we hit off great at the party but didn't really get much time to talk because she got dragged into taking her friend home, went home that night super bummed nothing became of it untill she follwed me on Instagram, then a couple days later we and the visiting friend were at a local sporting event where we bump into her and her friend from the party we make plans to go on a double date were basicly to make a long story short all 4 of us came back to my place I began to make out with her then they had to leave before anything major could develop we continued to talk and she confessed she really like me and wished she could stay longer that one night but recently we've kind of fell

>>583310017
awww anon i know your feels

>>583312920
Lets just hope this will change in the future.

>>583313076
Well then you wont have to pay anyone for the cover art :D Good on you. Its nice, got any samples to share.

>>583312329
Where'd ye serve Marine ??

>>583311076
Therapy ?? AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT.

>>583313320
It aint. We are all the same.

>>583313320
welcome to 4chan.
thats not a joke.

>>583313320
i thought that too when i first came here but some are genuinely depressed fucks

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>>583311076

But you are still here, and surviving.

Life is very short, a blink and we are gone. there is a lot of pain, a lot of learning, but there is time to heal explore and love. Enjoy the journey you have anon.

>>583313320
>So much misery and lack of purpose.

RIGHT IN THE FEELS.

>>583313320
I think most of the people think of killing themselves all the time, they just don't talk about it irl.

>>583310079
Hey anon, if i say i love you, how does that make you feel??

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1/7 Twentynine Palms
0341 Infantry Mortorman
Weapons Company
81's plt

too content to vent lol

I don't even know what's happening to me anymore, I've realized that I am addicted to jacking off but the thing is that once normal porn started getting boring I went and looked for something more interesting, it's happened to most of us but it got to the point where I'm jacking off to CP, I know this might not be a serious thing compared to some of you out there but I fucking hate myself for doing it.

>>583313818
>contradictions collapse
I like you.

>>583313689
Tits of GTFO maybe ?? Not Anon though

>>583310740
Fuck man, why you gotta do this shit to me

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>>583313320

i wish we were joking, but we aren't. i don't know how it worked out this way, but it seems like most of us (not all) use this place as a sanctuary from all of the bullshit that plagues us all the time.

we call each other faggots and niggers and kikes as much as we want here without any consequences because it's a reprieve from all the bottled up bullshit that we're constantly fed all the time.

i wish i didn't need this place. i wish i had a girl to text so that i could ask about her day and see if she wanted to come over. but i don't. so i come here and pop open a rekt thread and take all these drugs to numb it all.

honestly, i'd kill just to get my mom back.

>>583313320
Get out and never come back to this place, trust me there is no point in staying here

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Still running this thorugh my head

this isn't worth anyone's time compared to the other posts here but I'll go and say it anyway. The girl I like lost a shitton of notes for school so I was going to surprise her by typing up all the notes for her and giving them to her the next day. Well it took a shitton of time and I got barely any sleep so I ended up falling asleep in class and the teacher had to wake me up, and I finally see the girl and she tells me she found her notes. so thats my failure of the week

>>583309624
that feels like alexithymia

>>583314198
i dont want to die because im scared to leave my mom alone, she doesnt really have anyone anymore

when i troll online if the person is cool i talk for while then as soon as i feel a friendship or they ask for kik. i don't know why but i say "go fuck yourself /b/ bitch rekt" or something like that but it not even for the lulz i just cant have people getting close to me. even i really want them too.

>>583312329
no. you're a homeless guy who WAS a Marine. big difference.

>>583308787
Hi guys, this is gonna be a bit lengthy, so bear with me. I'd been pretty alone my entire life, growing up I never really made many friends, and I didn't date much (a few occasions, nothing serious until now). So, I met my girlfriend and she was the best thing to ever happen to me. I started to feel normal because I had her. She's so wonderful.

However, my girlfriend is way too attached to her ex-boyfriend. We've been dating for a little over three months now. Her parents have talked to me once, they don't know we spend time alone together, or that we're dating for that matter. She invites him to her family's dinners and shit and not me (they both went to each others thanksgiving dinners). I don't get it, I don't feel inferior to him in any way, he's really a fuck up. I just feel like shit because he spends a good amount of time with her when she knows for a fact that I do not want her to. Worries me that they do shit, bc they probably do. Says I won't be a secret forever, but we'll see how that plays out I guess. How're you guys doing tonight?

tldr:
>girlfriend 3 months
>still hangs out with exbf
>says I love you to him and shit
>knows i dont like it
>she feels bad about it but clings to him
>blah blah blah
>just really hope it doesn't keep going on

anyone have similar stories or experiences?

>>583314359
You did it though.
What matters is that you did it when nobody else did man.
Good job anon, not all failures are the end, they are learning experiences.

>>583314239
UNDER-RATED ADVICE.

>>583313818
My purpose for coming here is because i really cannot connect with other people on a normal basis. Plus the anonymity and everything, its like everyones connected.Hive mind or somesht but really guys these CD threads need to stop whatever happened to those 10/10 threads or /s/ type threads ? I thought the shit about SJW being mods was a joke but really it seems like we are being modded by SJWs after all.

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>>583313689

i appreciate the sentiment. really, i do.

>>583313859

you're a lucky man.

>>583314359

i'd recommend casually letting her know what you did anyway. try and bring it up organically into a conversation and see what happens.

i'm pulling for you, man.

>>583313554

thank you. sincerely.

I'm pissed off at myself for not making any move on this girl that I used to be friends with (who pretty clearly wanted my d) and getting in touch with her years later, only for her to be friendly but romantically cold to me like the little pussy faggot I used to be would act like. I also hate myself for not being somewhere better in my life at the moment due to unclaimed opportunities and me being an unambitious pussy faggot. I also am pissed off at the FAA for being so strict on their medical qualifications and stalling me from being a pilot. I'm also pissed off that I never fixed my relationship with my dad before he basically died of overstress. I'm also pissed off at Intel for making stupid Intel software that can't even communicate with Intel hardware

>>583314505
Show him respect you piece of shit. He served.

>>583314593
awkward, this wasn't as long as i expected it to be.

worth mentioning: she kissed him while we were dating, in front of me, and a bunch of other people. it's pretty scarring, i'm still figuring out if she's just using me or what. i really hope not.

>>583308787
I want to do something so badly it is starting to mark me crazy. but I don't want to do anything. I can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do.

I quit smoking after 10 years about 2 months ago, and I've been super depressed ever since.

>>583314804
Pull the lever that says EJECT.

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>>583314756
Yo. You'll make it.

>>583314804
however, this sounds worse than it was. she always puts herself down for it what she does, but doesn't seem to change. i mean eventually i'll man up and tell her she needs to pick one, right? just hope it's me.

man its the loneliness. especially when you dont have a partner. i got a few friends but fuck do i still feel alone. in the end, i think thats what gets to me

>>583314593

my ex-girlfriend cheated on me with a good friend of mine. she texted me while i was on vacation overseas to let me know that she was pregnant and moving back to her hometown with my friend to raise their son.

she associated with him a lot and i let her know that i didn't like it. she didn't understand why i didn't trust her.

we dated for three years. i wish the pain would stop.

>>583314505

once a marine, always a marine

>>583314794
So does every other jackass who's too stupid to go to college and/or is stupid enough to believe in the patriotism shoved down their throats

>>583309609
looks like a good art direction for 2d indie games

>>583314907
Know that feel, haven't smoked in 3 years. You can do it.

i'm pathetic, this girl i love can be really cold but im so whipped i dont want to be rude

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Once a Marine, always a Marine. That's a title I will take to the grave.

>>583315070
i feel horrible just hearing that man. sorry. my situation is way less dire. i'm convinced she loves me, but she's definitely still feeling emotions from her ex. they did date for years, so he's kind of a part of her at this point. the problem is, i love her for her, and her only. i didnt expect her to be a package deal.

>>583314941
god i wish it were that simple man.

>>583315250 ya thats my issue too man. feel u.

>>583314804
If you haven't figured it out yet, I'll break it down for you. She is using you for whatever fucked purpose she has, leave her, she will pick him, she wants him, sorry mate but she is a bitch if she's doing all this shit in front of you, and trust me she does not give two shits about what you have to say in the matter. Leave her.

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>>583315059

this feel. i know it far too well. hang in there, man.

I have my dog lying across my bed, head on my lap. he's 5, and he's a breed that doesn't live very long. but a great dog.

in six or so years, he's going to need to be put to sleep. not now, but knowing I'll have to say goodbye is heartbreaking sometimes.

I hope the atheists are wrong, because never being able to see him again would be completely unfair.

that's my rage against heaven and hell, and the reason I am who I am every day. I want to be the man my dog thinks I am.

Only reason why I'm homeless is because of choice bro.

Joined the carnival when I got out and been traveling with the show since.

>>583314794

fuck you. I served.

that doesn't mean shit.

>>583313419
https://www.dropbox.com/s/iy98gvj17i3smvc/%E3%82%B9%E3%82%AB%E3%82%A4%E3%83%A9%E3%82%A4%E3%83%B3.mp3?dl=0

None of my shit is all that great

I need a penis transplant

>>583315414
Ultimately I'm not going to change my thinking on the matter over posts on here. It's more of a place to vent out my issues. Shit sucks man.

>>583314593
grill i love has gay bestfriend and they're always hugging and crap and i told her i dont like it and dont want to hear about him but she still does it

>>583315486
>Leaning against my dog
>feeling slightly nervous

>>583315059
Lonliness isnt a feeling bruv, its a state of mind. Snap out of it.

>>583315128
URA URA URAA !!!

>>583315191
Any person who has served in the military deserves respect. Military service is about sacrifice. Sacrifice for your country.

>>583315301
Nice music choices man. Do you frequent /k/ ? Its my homeboard

"come on in sometime, it can be fun around here", really its like home to me.

>>583315662
LOL, where in BF3 ?

>>583315663
Worth a shot.

>>583315414
bomb ass sex tho

>>583315751 gay best friend wouldn't worry me in my situation. she texts like only guys, because the whole "girls are too much drama". 9/10 of the guys she texts have a thing for her, I know it, she knows it, but she denies it. meh. i'll get over it eventually whatever happens.

>>583315686
Hey man it's your choice in the end, I'm just saying.

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sorry to fuck up your feel vibes guys but i'm feeling really optimistic. i have a very bright future in the navy as a nuke and have just recently realized that i have far more motivation and drive than most people, which will help me get a commision and climb the ladder. the only thing that i really need to deal with is occasional vague and mild rage/deppression/regret flashes, which is really not that bad at all considering other people's problems. currently getting into shape and looking forward to grinding my way to the top.

some advice for you guys
>tell yourself what you want to feel, focus on what yuo want to be, act like the person you want to be, and you will slowly become that person. you will be surprised at how much your mind follows your actions

>>583313893
hey man. im sorry you gotten on this dangerous road. self-hate isnt the best motivation though. talking to someone can help.also, some drugs can be used as motivation and challeng you introspectively. i would suggest looking into this drug ibogaine, it is used to treat addictions of all types (usually heroin), but it could potentially be the catalyst you need. whether or not you do any of this, dont forget that you are not stuck like this man. i believe in you.

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>be 22
>don't know how to green text
>grunt Marine on a honorable discharge
>parents can't handle my anger when at home
>mindallsortsoffucked.jog
>fuck it
>travel with the carnival for two years making fat bank all over the US

>>583315929
https://www.dropbox.com/s/kjyokbq2fhl5w1d/Madeonish.mp3?dl=0

Here's one I really wish I finished

>>583315668
Why? Cosmetic or functional?

>>583316040
I know, I appreciate the input though. I apologize if I came off as angry.

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>>583312290
lol

Have this girl I've been really liking for some time now, for whatever reason I can't talk to her. I have her number and I sit with her in class sometimes. But I can't get past it. I'm like scared or someshit

The other night I have a dream we're dating and she actually came to visit me and met my mom and shit. Then I woke up. How gr8. Pic reminded me. Fuck it I'll text her tomorrow morning asking her out

>>583315479
>i feel miserable without being in real misery
damn do i feel that. thanks man, it feels good to see that from someone else

>>583316165
Idk bro :( I just woke up one day and it was gone left me a note saying that we had a blast together and that it's time for him to tug away. So now I'm in need of a penis

I miss having friends. I'm doing great at work and my family life is all solid but when I get home I'm just counting down the hours until it's time to go back to work.

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Its caturday

>>583316073
Thanks man, I really needed that.

>>583316198
No problem man after all we're all in some shitty situation.

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I feel that if I disappeared tomorrow, the only people who MIGHT look for me are my parents. I barely talk to anyone nowadays because I'm wasting their time. My roommates would miss me for my rent money and my coworkers would be upset because they would have to find time to cover my shifts.

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Fuckin faggots

Pvt Fucking Hill

>>583315543

>>583309624
are you me?

>>583316076
As long as your enjoying man.

>>583316591
/Thread

>>583316584
You have us.

>>583316160
What does the title translate to ? On the one you linked before.

>>583316073
Been there bruv, have faith, realize what your priority is in life and DO IT. Dont look back, ever.

>>583316763
Read up on the butterfly effect. Everyone matters.

>>583316575
Well, he is a dick after all.

Recently broke up with my gf. She deleted anything that showed any sign of us dating like pictures and shit. She won't even talk to me. Ah whatever. Fuck her.

The live of my life finally get things settled and im at the peak of happiness but her dad hates me and i dont care but what he wants to do is move her to hawaii.....FUCKING HAWAII. She cant do shit to stop him because he is a psycho and insists that im the source of all evil but im always there for her and of curse he decides this when im getting ready to put a ring on her finger

>>583308787
I'm 23 and not living up to my potential. I graduated from USC but I'm working a shitty job for 30K a year and living at home. I could easily get a better job, but I'm too much of a pussy.

>>583316763
i feel u /b/ro.

>>583316921
I have no fucking clue man. I don't speak Japanese I just thought it looked cyberpunk as fuck

>>583308787
>Tfw no piano
Anybody ever felt that feel?

I'll never live out that feel when piano. Here I thought I was finally getting a piano with the hours I put in, and now I've got college to look into and I will never have the time to juggle anything other than work. I was made to play piano, but I cannot do it. I was hoping to throw as many hours into it as possible to really live out my passion, and now I can't.

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Lcpl Hill to u! Lol who the fuck is that?!

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Motherfucking caturday!!! Biotech!!!faggots with big dicks!!
Niggggaaaaaa

>>583316949
I don't blame him he did have an asshole of a neighbor

>>583316985

at least you have the right mentality towards it. it's been a year and a half since my ex left and every day i still think about her. i admire your fortitude.

>>583317106

at least you were good enough to get into a four year. i'm stuck at SMC, haha.

My mom died 8 years ago, I'm 22, i haven't been taking care of myself the way i should, I'm unmotivated and I don't have friends,
All I do is Play video games and work at a job where I'm just trying to move up to management just so I can get some more money going because I have a baby on the way, but it kinda sucks not having anybody to talk to besides my gf, I can handle having some conversations with people but overall I'm still socially awkward and My self confidence is pretty shitty. I also frequently go on /b/ and hardly post, Mostly just to fap.

>>583316921
I don't see how this relates

>>583317129
NICE

Can I be perfectly honest? I really love you guys. People say that /b/ is where the worst members of society lurk, but actually most of you aren't that bad. I just wanted to say that. Thanks, guys. I love you all.

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>>583317270
Faggot

I'm in love with my friends younger sister. We grew up together. My best friend also is in love with her. She likes some other guy.

I am half-assing my way through college because i have no motivation to do well in my classes.

I have low self-esteem and hate myself. I always feel someone else is out to get me and that everyone is against me. I always assume that I'm the dumbest in the room.

Friends that I've grown up with seem to be moving ahead and I feel like I'm falling behind.

I hide my sadness behind sarcasm and being the mean/funny guy. Essentially I'm a douchbag.

My father has never been proud of me.

I have useless skills in music and arts.

I lurk both here and on reddit because I am a massive faggot.

i wish you guys all the best, this has been a really therapeutic thread for me. have a great night everyone

>>583308787

I can no longer tell reality from my dreams.

>>583317398

Sorry about your mom. My recommendation is work out and make a couple friend's. You sound depressed. I know how you feel.

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>>583317520

If i just had one person that i could open up to everything would be somewhat better, i have to put on this fucking fake smile and pretend that everything is ok when that's not the truth.

>>583317486
I google translated something

It just started raining and the sound is nice

>>583308787
>>583309084
daniellukebarth it

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>>583317520
Suck cock in hell faggot

>>583317759

welcome to every day of my life.

Pretty high again. Not sure if it's a good thing.

>at least I'm not depressed?

>>583309483
daniellukebarth it

My friends became friends with my brother, and went to go smoke weed without inviting me, yet they wondered why I wouldn't let them use my bong, my brother invited me, but if they wanted me there they would've invited me, and then they have the nerve to ask me why I don't let them borrow my bong? Are they fucking clueless or brain dead? Not done ranting, but if this gets a reply I'll continue..

>be me
>be 21, making a living, feels good
>working in maryland
>mom and sister are in minnesota
>due to complications I may lose my job
>totally stressed out, retreated from all friends I've made in the local area
>just sit at home on 4chan on nights off
>lost interest in both /v/ and /a/ which were my only hobbies
>thinking about how I don't have enough money to get home
>thinking about what I can do to fix anything
>can't
>think about suicide daily
>getting comfortable with the idea
>that idea causes even more stress and have regular breakdowns where I won't even leave the house unless I'm working
>complete shut in
>job is complete shit and going nowhere, it was a mistake to begin with
>haven't done anything to alarm others yet so I suffer alone in silence
>probably better this way
>maybe one day I'll wake up and take charge of my life and do something about this shit situation
>or get enough balls to off myself
I just want to know I'm not the only anon out there who doesn't have crazy stories to tell about their depression and not looking for attention through their disease but are actually scarily close to having that story soon enough

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Cats bitch

I hate my life entirely for reasons that are my own doing that I could fix but am too much of a bitch to do so.

>>583309624
Are you me?

>>583317398
Shit man I'm sorry for your loss but at least you have some motivation, why not try and focus it in different areas as well if anything try a to be a good example for your kid.

>>583317983

believe me, i'm with you man. i've told more about myself in this thread than i've ever told anyone.

you are NOT alone. none of us are alone.

>>583318032
Pls stop I'm allergic

>>583317335
Hope you find someone better to take your mind off her, anon

>>583309624
Are you me?

>>583317601
Yeah I've been this way for a while now, ever since her death its just been like this. Any time i'm stressed if I can help it I'll just seclude myself somewhere I can be alone and lose myself in video games.

>>583318158
Patrick Bateman?

>>583318216
we're not alone on here, yeah, but I feel pretty alone when I'm not here

and that sucks

>gf is autistic social retard
>takes everything literally
>everything's a fucking competition
>be tonight
>I'm busy at work
>she texts me all excited about some song she likes, asking if I've heard it
>tell her no I haven't heard it, but feel free to send it to me, I'll check it out
>she asks how she's supposed to send it to me
>annoyed she's asking dumb questions when I'm busy at work, but just say facebook is fine
>she gets indignant about how it'd be easier for me to just search for it rather than make her download it and send it
>I don't need her to download it, just give me a fucking youtube link
>I'm busy at work, I don't care about your fucking song, you're the one who apparently wants me to hear it
>but I hold my tongue and helpfully tell her a youtube link will suffice
>she's all find it yourself
>I can't right now and I won't remember later

If she didn't want me to listen to this song, why even make a deal about it? If she does want me to hear it, what's so fucking hard about sending a goddamn link? Fuck she gets on my nerves sometimes.

>>583317983

>lost interest in both /v/ and /a/ which were my only hobbies
>/v/ and /a/
>hobbies

>>583318206
I'll be real honest i know I'm not ready for a kid, but I'm gonna try my best to provide for him the best way I can, but I need to focus on growing up as well. The motivation is there though it's just not as strong as it should be. I got two months to go before he's born

>>583317398

my mom died three months ago. embolism. i know exactly how you feel.

please just tell me things eventually get better. anybody.

>>583309624
>>583309803
>>583309806
>>583309882
daniellukebarth it

I am leaving to the navy in a month and I can't wait to leave.
I want to get out of my house and away from my controlling mother.
I'm just going to be gone and forget everything.

>>583311623
:( hugs for ur feels

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Anyone thinking of suicide is a selfish pussy. Go murder someone who deserves it first. Do society a favor.

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>>583317983
Anon you're not alone. Literally going through the exact same shit only in a state north of you. Hang in there

>>583317457
>the butterfly effect.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect

See you think you dont matter, no one will care if you die, but inadvertently everyone will be effected in some way. Read up on it

>>583317706
>2014
>Listening to others.
>GIT OUT

>>583312329
Don't want to be mean but you gonna lose a lot off that in the way, don't pull dead weight, be smart

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>>583308787
I fucked up big time tonight.
I don't know what to say to fix this shit.

I'll keep it short and to the point:

>roommate comes back with his friend.
>roommate is stoned, so he's chill.
>he ask's me what I look at on the computer all the time
>I tell him it's 4chan, gore material to be more precise
>Show him a webms and gifs of people being murdered
>I actually fucking laugh.
>Now my roommate and his thread think I'm a psychotic maniac who get's off on murder.

What the hell am I supposed to do now? Please guys, I haven't had a social problem like this in months.

>>583309920
>>583310017
>>583310079
daniellukebarth it

I cant stand the town I live in, I cant stand these people and their social scene. Everyone knows somebody that knows you it sucks. Im 27 I had jobs good ones shitty jobs i have a college bachellor degree, I dont give a fuck about getting to know new people in this piece of shit town. I hit on chicks not because of friendship or trying to get something romantic out of it, I just want to fuck, yet they get into this hollier than thou attitude......Im moving next month srsly I hate this town

>>583317968
Relax, its not worth getting worked up about

>>583318472
That reminds me' IM SO FUCKING DEPRESSED MAN, I NEVER HAD A FATHER WHEN I WAS GROWING UP AND I ASKED MILLION DOLLAR EXTREME ON FACEBOOK TO BE MY FATHER, AND IN HIS Q&A HE SAID HE HATED 'SILLY' PEOPLE LIKE ME, TFW I WAS SERIOUS

>>583318541
It took me me a while man, There are gonna be days where you're just gonna feel like the world is shit because she's gone. I always feel that way about it. Holidays are also going to be especially rough. Especially Mother's day. My only advice is to keep a positive outlook. And think towards what she would want for you. It's easier said than done, its been 8 years and I still struggle with it. It's one of those things that one can't simply "get over".

>>583314198
I wish i had my mom back aswell.. she was my everything as a child and everyday i still miss her
I dont feel alive since i lost her, i dont feel safe or happy, i cant stop seeing her die

i wish i had friends
i'm tired of being sad for no reason
i wish my body wasn't so ugly and wrong
i don't want to kill myself but i don't know what else i can do

Post songs you want to hear as you die.
http://youtu.be/r6sZjpStFNY

although i've helped anons with earnest intentions before, i have to believe that on average, you're up shit creek without a paddle if you're hinging your last vestige of emotional resolve on /b/'s potential for altruism and genuine sympathetic care

for those of you requiring someone to truly sit down and listen, cognitive-behavioral talk therapy is the best thing going (more or less). seek out a therapist ASAP (if you don't have insurance because you're poor, get to your county's human services office and enroll into your state's medical assistance)

>>583308787
Im pretty sick of everything at the moment and have no motivation for anything not even to get up to eat anymore all i want to do is sleep, and ive pretty much forced it into my own mind that if im not dead by 30 ill kill myself because life is just way to long to be going through this

This is actually my first post on /b/ if actually been lurking for close to two years now

Honestly ive lost the drive to do anything for myself, and have thought of suicide almost daily for the past four years, the only thing keeping me from doing so is that i dont want to burden anyone like my roomate and i know it would crush my parents if i did so i keep going on, I do tech support from home for a living which i can barely bring myself to do it everyday, its at the point where i have been having to force myself to work just so i have the money to eat and pay the rest of my bills, the attendance policy is overly lenient and i take advantage of it and honestly ill probably be fired soon i have no clue how i havnt been so far and when i finally do lose it ill be fucked, i smoke weed so i cant just find another job, because of me living at home its not hard for me to not leave my house for 4-5 days and on average i spend over 22 hours in my room or more between working, sleeping and spending my free time in here

Maybe im just being a bitch and man the fuck up, i really dont know but the burdens been getting harder and harder lately and ive begun to grow ever more lonely, i have no plans for my life nothing im just going to waste away because i couldnt care less about myself

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she chose him over me

tonight i injected two shots of heroin and gave my sexy-ass girlfriend head.
>feelsgoodman.jpg

We're back, baby.

I've been talking to this girl at school who've I known since the fourth grade. I thought she was perfect, as we got along very well and I thought she was unlike the other slutty/addicts in my grade, as it seemed she had a very similar point of view. I was convinced to ask her out until today when I found out she was just like all the other girls in my school: drunks, druggies, hanging out with the varsity kids just to get high and drunk

>>583319068
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJqUN9TClM

missed my gf's mother's b-day dinner because of work, she's pissed the fuck off even though I left the flowers I bought for her mom on their porch while they were out after dinner bc it was too late and too far for me to get to in a reasonable time

now I'm drunk on bourbon at my best friend's

I cant believe this fucking bitch is acting like i dont exist now. She was begging to come suck my dick and get fucked for a month sstraigt and the moment her ex comes back in the picture she acts like i dont exist. Fuck you dope head bitch.

>>583314198
God I'm with you man. I feel the same was

Lel

>>583319127
how old are you anon?

>>583318709
>Now my roommate and his thread think
>thread
You need to take some time off from 4chan man. Gore is not socially acceptable to normal people. Too much 4chan will warp you perception of what's acceptable

>>583319068
or this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MK6TXMsvgQg

I think I have friends. But I really I only have acquaintances. They never ask me to hang out, I'm never invited to gatherings. I feel as if I just don't belong with the few people I get along with. They're there when they need something and on and off when I need them to be. My girlfriend lives hours away and the distance has made me feel as if I don't need her anymore. It's nice to see her but I could really live with out her now. It is becoming more and more clear that I am and will be alone. It terrifies me.

>>583319068
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSX13jgRxI4

>>583319231
And yes ive been fuckin her. I nutted in her mouth to. I dont understand why they ALWAYS fucking go back to the beta boyfriend

>>583319267
I turned 20 in august

Wife and I are splitting up. It's "mutual" but I can't believe all the shit she is saying about me behind my back. I still love her, and I'm still in love with her, but I know I can't stay with her, especially now that I've seen her true colors.

I wouldn't say it hurts, but it definitely feels "something". Maybe I just feel foolish for not realizing what she is after so many years.

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>tfw I know I'm starting to get depressed
>tfw can't admit it to myself and get help
why. why must it be like this

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>>583319061
do it

is /b/ frozen ?

>>583314593
i feel like you right now. you should try to clear it up with your girl. at least she likes you.

good luck

4chan was offline for awhile, right? Or was that just me?

It's my birthday and I'm sat alone in my house.

>>583314593
She kissed him in front of you and you let it happen. Bro grow some balls lose her or tell her to lose him. It's simple man take control be the male

>>583308787
OP is thypical amerifat that thinks all on /b/ has a friday night right now. As for a fact, europe is having saturday morning right now

Collegefag here

>never had a gf before
>not a virgin, fucked a slut from okcupid

Anyway

>meet freshman girl on Facebook (on a textbook buy/sell page)
>we click
>ask for her number
>we chat over the next month, more and more each day
>gets to the point where she texts me @ 6:00am even though she knows I'm asleep
>I clue in that she likes me
>meet for coffee once, see her at a social function another time
>finally ask her out
>dinner and movie
>she says yes, we agree on a day 3 weeks in advance
>she becomes a part of my life, comes to one of my classes and to my stupid student club meetings
>4 days before date she makes excuses that she can't go
>I finally ask if she wants to go at all and she says no
>says we don't share the same values and that our "connection wasn't great"
>Im heartbroken, don't feel anything for a week
>cry so hard on the way home from school that I have to circle the block before I can go inside and face my family

I struggled to figure out why she changed her mind. I narrowed it down to either she wasnt physically attracted to me (I'm a little fat but I'm working on it) or that she doesn't like that i smoke weed (she doesnt know how much, I do it once a week). It could also be that I called her “bb” sometimes, but she was the one who said it first.

Now 2 weeks ago
>start talking to her again
>its gotten to the point where she initiates the conversation
>she’ll send me pictures that she takes randomly throughout the day randomly like she used to
>it feels like it did before she rejected me

Has she changed her mind /b/? I mentioned that I'm going to get into shape and have not mentioned weed at all

Advice plz guys

>>583308787

i work a seasonal cashier job at sears because i quit my high-paying and make-my-own-schedule job doing jack shit for a cadillac dealership's website back in june. i quit because i got the job through nepotism and the make-my-own-hours aspect gave me anxiety about how much time to actually put in (i only needed to work a few hours a day to have enough to pay bills and still have money left over. it paid WELL). then i was unemployed from june to november, living off of my savings so i could stay in my apartment. my parents are super supportive and have always given me love, i'm an only child, and could move home any time i wanted. but fuck that, i'm a college graduate and i can never live at home again, you know? and i have a degree from one of the top liberal arts colleges in america. i live in alabama, and there's virtually nothing here for me to work in my field. i want to move, but i have ocd (technically anxiety NOS, but on ocd meds) about where i'd move to. i had a relatively good day at work today, sold a credit application, made some people happy. i just came back from walmart, where i get my instant gratification dinner almost every night now (my stove/oven is broken and i'm too ocd to get it fixed yet). all i want to do is eat my hot pocket and watch speedrunslive, but my internet is fucking up.

i hope you guys are all making it. i really want everyone to fulfill their potential and be a winner at life. i just needed to get that out there, because i don't know how much longer i want to keep fighting.

>>583308787
I got drunk.
Told the girl I like how I feel.
Called my ex (no answer)
Pissed off my housemates.
Punched things until my hands went numb.
Normal Friday nights.

>>583319341
im about to turn twenty-one this february. try and make it that far man. twenty and nineteen were fucking awful for me. i literally laid in my parents basement shooting up heroin doing nothing, hoping each shot would kill me, if it didn't i would load more up on the next one. it was terrible. if you pull through though, it'll get better.

>>583319370
What is she saying? You have my sympathy /b/ro

>>583314198
this place is a bastion for depressed individuals by design; it's self-selection

anonymity allows people to say what they want without fear of either getting people too close or having any long-term repercussion. the general lack of mores gives one a freedom of expression, and the fact no idea is explicitly verboten (only CP, in visual form) lends to that feeling

of course, since it is a place that attracts angry, depressed people, you often get a lot of people who're too cynical and self-involved to help. instead, they just lash out omni-directionally out of fear and bitterness

these places are better for the humor they bring; it's the best product of 4chan. it does allow you to take a quick pulse of various subcultures (anime, video games, etc.), but even that's a bit skewed based on the type of people most likely to respond (e.g. most reviews are negative because people who don't enjoy something take the time to complain, while those who enjoy what they have are too busy living their lives). a distinct parallel between image board culture and happy, well-adjusted individuals could me made

in short, yes, there is a mild psychological benefit to a feeling community amongst suffering. unfortunately, many are lost here because no one knows the answer for themselves (if they did, they likely wouldn't stay here long), and as such they end up getting worse due to the sheer negativity of this place

tl;dr: better to seek real help with real people than count on the chance encounter with a /b/tard who isn't totally warped by his own self-involved world of bias and pain

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>be me
>be 12, Australia, 2006
>In primary school,
>have a cool group of friends that i still chill with today
>massive Bros
>one kid tries to hang with us, we take him in
>at first he is pretty chill
>he gets into trouble now and then
>starts dumping it on us, getting us into trouble with him
>Starts copying our work and handing it in before us, blaming us for copying his
>Cut connections with him, avoiding him after ~2 weeks
>fast forward 3 months, late November, Christmas hype building
>Teacher gathers the class
>Big Announcement.mp3
>Turns out the little shit got leukemia
>one of the boys gets an idea
>start calling him luke
>he complains to teachers, nobody believes him, he is on and off school for a while

School ends for the year

>Come Back, chatting about what we got for Christmas to the bros
>Teacher has informed us that the faggot has been kill
>feel like shit
>in shock
>Class writes a card for his funeral
>mate writes before me, has a chuckle
>passes it to me, i glance at what he wrote
>Cya Luuuuke

I had to get it off my chest, i felt like i was the only one in the group who understood the severity of what happened, i still think about it today..

>>583319006
dude why would you do that

Hey /b/. Been with this girl for 3 years, she's recently started with this infuriating nonsense of focusing on every delusion of her inadequacy and berating the shit out of me with it; begging me to break up with her.

She's either lamenting the fact she's dumb, fat, ugly, unsupportive or just a "bad girlfriend". In reality? She's a very smart young woman in decent shape who's cared a fuck tonne more about me than my own mother at times, and it's just fucking exhausting and stressful having her with this perpetual pessimism and self berating tendency.

I miss just hanging out with her and knowing it won't wind up with her crying over yet another newly-imagined personal failure. She keeps going on how I love her less and should break up with her, when honestly her tendency towards doing this shit is the only thing that could possibly drive me to do so.

The problem is I'm working a full time job to try and pay for the rest of my degree, and I don't have the flexibility to just sit up with her for hours and talk her through this stuff everytime. I do so anyway, because I care about her a lot...but trying to work full shifts when I'm exhausted and stressed from this stuff is really taking it out of me.

I just want her to accept I'm over the moon she's in my life, and *enjoy* the fact I adore her instead of inventing reason after reason why I shouldn't.

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> be me, two years ago
> start falling into a dark depression
> stopped eating healthy
> not exercising
> sabotaging my own career
> most cherished friendships falling apart

> be me, now
> a physical and mental wreck
> abusing hard drugs
> unemployed, no friends, can't meet anyone new who likes me
> only core emotions remaining are varying degrees of contempt and remorse
> start to realize im slowly destroying myself but am not compelled to do anything about it

> on second thought, don't be me, ever

>>583319328
>wanting to die while listening to sad shit
I never got this. Wouldn't you want to listen to something happy but still signifigant? No point in ending your life on a low note.

i got a gf recently, she was a virgin when we met... hooking up for the first time and she was really tight.. fingering her and getting her wet... tried to penetrate but way too tight... she pushing me away saying it hurts.. im losing my patience and getting irritated.. i just said FUCK IT and just shove it in...(crazy tight) she than kicks me off of her and starts crying... she runs back to her dorm room.. im scared she might report me for rape or some shit...

>>583319127
stop smoking weed, it does not help with depression

when i was feeling like shit it just made me feel worse the next day

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>>583308787
I just spent $700 on computer parts, waited patiently for the case which arrived in the maximum number of days free shipping obliges. I received every other piece in 2 days, the case after 7. It arrived broken, so I sent it back, ordered a better one made of steel which arrived on Thursday, and then waited until the weekend to build so that a friend could help me. After 2 hours of configuration and finding a working disc drive to download Windows (got it through my sisters school because cheap so its on disc) I get the download going and the fucking product key won't work. According to Windows support, it's a valid key, but the disk and the key do not match or something. I will not be able to play games tonight. I don't even know if I can get another disc tomorrow, I might have to wait until Monday.

I am a very tired ball of rage. Worked all day, came home, skipped going out drinking with a couple hot girls, and now I'm at home, sober, and exhausted. Contemptuous is probably the right word for me right now.

captcha: pic related

>>583308787
My whore of an ex wife only ever talks to me when she needs money. I hate her so fucking much

>>583319559
i would just put the bullet through when he says 'yeah' the first time. that song has always just given me that vibe. its ironic too because the song is about being strong and continuing on.

>>583319628
Lol pcfag Console Master Race

sdasdasdasda

>>583319379
>tfw no one cares

I can't grow the balls to talk to the girl I like and its ripping me apart with stress

>>583319006
i know guys who didn't have a dad growing up and they're doing fine. Nothing wrong with them mentally/physically and they have their shit together, somewhat. I don't understand peoples man-child like obsession of needing a dad. Sure having a dad is great, he can buy you shit and impose his values on you and shit. But the real men are the ones who grew up without one and found their own way

>>583319628
why does your phone have a higher resolution than my monitor

>>583314198
I watched my mother get raped and killed when i was a kid. The only girl I have ever loved abandoned me and self harm and suicide attempts are a daily occurrence. I hear about death on the news and feel a genuine sense of envy.

>>583316076
Holy shit my home town is about an hour from Shreveport. Good ole louisiana

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I'm stuck in this thread cause fortune won't reload.

>>583319563
Nice.

>>583319379
if you're ashamed speak to someone anonymously like a help line or something, you need to talk to somebody

>>583319727
truth

>>583319783
Bruh... Holy shit

Hey Mike, how's it going? Did you know you forgot you own birthday this year? You've must have been pretty busy lately huh? You know, life can be really difficult sometimes but when that happens we're there for you. I remember when you were young and your mother to you to all those counseling sessions to help try and figure out why you weren't able to make friends and why you didn't like social situations. I know you didn't like it, but she was just doing it because she loved you and wanted to help you. That's sort of the same reason I'm talking to you now. We all love you and just want you to get better, I know you don't trust anyone or anything but it's true. We need you here with us, please don't go. Please stop all of this, come back to us, I'm so sorry. I can't .

>finally meet the girl of my dreams
>start talking and get to know each other
>interests almost identical. "edgy" humor and all
>talk for months
>she always wants to chat or hang out in a call
>tells me she wants to leave her boyfriend
>tells me she begged for her ex back and he straight up ignored her
>both admit to enjoying spending time with each other
>tfw "just friends. right?"

why do I even fucking try

>>583319516
Nothing that isn't too far from the truth sometimes, but some of it is just nonsense. What we agreed to is mutual, and we are working together to try to rid ourselves of each other, but she makes it sound like I'm doing nothing.

I think one of the most confusing things is that she hints to her friend that I'm out with another woman when I'm actually working overtime so we can both have money to escape each other.

Just realised the highlight of my day is talking to you faggots in such threads. sigh.

>>583317983
Been there. Have faith and en-fucking-joy the ride.

>>583318496
"Yeah gf its nice, but Rammstein is better"
Thats a standard response

>>583316160
Finish it already.

Shit be cray

>>583319798
... Nice

>>583314662
Anyone else feel like the end is fake? Such a heartfelt and believable story till the dumbass coma part. Hell the whole thing is probably fake. As you were.

She found a new man, one that's better than me at everything. Nice job, nice car, good looking. It's amazing how you spend thousands of hours living with someone, learning everything about them, being by their side in their worst of times. And in a moment it's just gone. I tell her I'm happy for her, but inside i wish she'd come back.

>>583319674
>being this much of an edgy faggot
If you're gonna talk about killing yourself, then fucking do it you pussy. Otherwise, stop being such a faggot and die like a respectable member of society.

>>583319920
I waited for quite sometime to post that, Music master Anon, best read what i wrote and work harder. Your work is awesome.

I'm such a socially awkward god damn moron that i put my all into relationships online that are so one sided that it is a joke. I find myself talking to people who don't reply all the time. I was supposed to meet a girl who i called my girlfriend, we talked all day every day and we both bought each other christmas presents (idk if she bought mine) she liked star wars so i bought the whole damn set in blu-ray. Cost me around $100 and i hate star wars... it's unopened on my shelf.I feel like a ghost, i've never had friends, girlfriends or anything like that. I feel like a ghost and an empty shell. Sometimes i wonder if i'd be as much of a disappointment in death as i was in life.

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hey /b/
>be me
>all of my friends are hanging out
>i wasn't invited
>nomegusta.jpg
>check my instagram
> all of my friends have a post about them hanging out
>some random guy i dont even know got invited and not me
>nothing to do
>sit alone at home on 4chan

>>583317815
I love this place

>>583319962
I gave up. They will always leave u anyways no matter what. I quit.

>>583319973
sir yes sir you cocksucking bitch.
its actually a decent song you fucking fucktard

>>583317759
Speak anon, someone is here to listen

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really want to get some of this stuff going faster than it's going to go and can't stand all this waiting. this idea is solid and floating around my head and i want to pitch it so bad, but it's not the right time. i can't fuck up the timing, it's the most important thing. i think she'd dig the idea and probably give me a shot. hopefully it's a good horse to bet on.

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I've always been "that guy". The weird loner who doesn't have friends, if any at the time. No matter what, I've only had my place in being the jackass of the group. It's the only place I feel comfortable being. It's part of why hate being complimented or having somebody even saying something too positive about me. Apparently I'm good looking, but I've never even had a gf. The only place I feel I can admit it is here where I'm just another pathetic faceless loser. I don't want pity, I just want someone who understands.

>>583319438
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAGGOT. BUY YOURSELF SOMETHING NICE.

>>583320008
>instagram
underage b&

>>583308787
I had a girlfriend for about 1.5 years. I never loved her, I just thought at the time I probably couldn't get anyone else. We had sex awkwardly, she was kinda psychotic. Part of me stuck with her though was because I knew she was bad for me and somehow I wanted that, even though I didn't really like her. I told her I loved her to her face, and sometimes I'd feel fluttery saying it but in actuality I really didn't feel anything for her. I let her mentally and physically torture me and I didn't care. She truly was stupid though.

Later, I joined a humanitarian group and was super productive in it and was doing a lot of things in it, it was hard and tough and didn't pay squat but I was helping people I suppose. They expected me to be there for awhile, but I got accepted to a really high university for something I love, full scholarship. Maybe I'll help more through this, I don't know, but it required I leave this group. Ever since I've left though, I've been very frenzied and audacious, actively taking part in things that could kill me and almost not caring, for nothing in it practically. Sometimes I'll just walk into busy intersections and not care if something hits me, It's not suicidal just... a little crazy and sociopathic. I feel anxious all the time, and whats worse is I don't really feel anything for others anymore. Before I used to get butterflys talking to girls, or daydream about a crush but now... I don't feel anything for anyone. I feel so damn lonely but I don't feel anything for anyone, and so continue to be lonely. It's paradoxical. It's moronic. My life is a flicker of images all stacked on top of each other and a breeze is blowing them all over the place and nothing makes any sense anymore.

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i bought a sweatshirt for this girl's birthday and she turned me down before i gave it to her. now it's just sitting in my closet as a symbol of my regret.

fuck memes

>>583318496
She wants to feel like you are intrested in her. By not being willing to look it up, it makes her feel like you won't take the time for her

>>583308787
I'm fed up with my piece of shit mother.
>inb4 underage blah blah I'm 18 suck my dick
Since my unlucky ass is still in high school and I get paid a shit wage at my shit tier courtesy job at a local grocery store, I still have to rely on my mother for a roof to live under. I got sick and tired of her threatening me about how she's gonna send me away or kick me out or do what the fuck ever. So I just kept walking up to her and kept asking what she's gonna do about it. I got sick of her acting like she can walk all over me. So she ended up calling the police. I stood right there listening to her give her story of how I was sooo intimidating and scary n shit. Okay whatever. I wasn't even yelling or doing anything. I was just calling her a piece of shit mother and that she deserves whatever hell she'll be put through. The police came and they didn't do shit. They were nice to me and were respectful. I wasn't capable of talking since by now I was choking on my own breath since I was outside and it was kinda cold at the time. Anyway the police left but they said I had to go to my room and stay there. Okay whatever bye. I start packing a bag to take to my grandma's since she said I could always crash there if I needed an out for a bit. My mom is on the phone with my grandma sayin how she'd fuck me up if I tried anything.
>oh looks like we got ourselves a badass over here.jpg
So now I'm laying on the basement floor in the family room since it's the only room with a working tv and I got my xbox hooked up and I'm probably gonna fuck around until I have to work tomorrow. Screw sleeping. Btw I walked here which was 3 or so miles carrying 2 bags full of school shit plus my xbox and my laptop and some clothes. Can't afford a car and apparently I suck ass at saving my money considering I have a new xbox and a new laptop.

>>583319516
And she makes it sound like I already found my own place and left. I haven't done shit yet. I'm waiting for her to get her shit in order before I even try. I can't leave her hanging. I've done enough damage to this relationship as it is by being awful with money. Might as well try to work my way out of this hole.

But, why should I care about damage that I do to the relationship? It isn't a relationship. I'm just trying to keep the peace and reach a point where we can both get away from each other comfortably but all she does is spread half-truths and outright lies.

But, I can't NOT be the good guy - or at least I can't NOT try to be. I don't think I would feel very good about myself if I left her hanging, even though she has left me hanging for the last three months by neglecting me, forcing me to snoop all of her emails instead of read her mind, and figure out from there that she's as done with this shit as I am.