>>570688586
bamp

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>>570689976
oops img didn't attach. what's gotcha down op?

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>>570688586
you still here Op?

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>>570690665
any lurkers?

>>570691723
Yes

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I guess I'll dump my folder, I don't have much tho

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>>570691824

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>>570692191
never saw that one

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>>570692706

>>570692706
I used to think I was alone in this

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Just trying to fucking forget her. It feels impossible, but I have to do it.

>tfw I still love her more than anything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6u-8bGtAVpA

Yeah I'm doing my best.

I just found out I'm very close to losing my job over some nonsense I simply quite literally can not control.

I don't have any friends or family. I was looking for a job for years before I got this one, now im going to lose it again now that I'm getting life back in order.

I'm so tired of this shit /b/..... I can't do it anymore

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>>570692571

>>570693150
Responses to this are not the ones I'd expect from /b/. I'm almost sort of proud.

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>>570688586
god damnit dogs...

Requesting that feels image of that girl who kept texting this dude(lover) after he died.

Right in the feels man.

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>>570693884
This the one?

>>570692731
Holy shit...

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>>570693803

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>>570693378
I'm in a similar situation. i found a new job a career they retracted their offer a month after i had relocated from florida to california. its been 4 months since ive worked and im out of savings im about to lose my car too but i have an interview at pizza hut in 9 hrs if this falls thru i don't know what im doing... never thought id fall so low that my life depended upon me getting a job that pays 7.75/hr 28 yr old fucking loser

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>>570694198

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>>570692731
Holy shit, I read that entire thing. I am literally tearing up from the last words from him "You guys were the closest thing I had to real friends"

>>570694204
10/10 feelz mayn

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>>570694017

Yeah
Thanks.

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>>570694331

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>>570693504
It's because we hide ourselves in the rest that /b/ has to offer. But in these threads...we are only looking in mirrors, at our own reflections. So we try to help others, cause deep down, we'd want help, but we aren't able to fix ourselves, so why not try to help another, in the same situation you know?

cap = sacrifice

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>>570694204
I was in this thread when he told this story. I forgot about this but I told this story to someone once a few months back

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>>570694361
Yeah, I try to only post the ones that either made me cry or reminded me of myself.

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>>570694439

>>570694331
I don't have a dog, but if I did, I could never have them put down

I'd have to do it myself

>>570692614
nice way to fry a good laptop faggot

>>570693172
>>570692706
yeah same. I'm starting to think its bipolar disorder or something though because sometimes i just feel elated and then after about an hour its severe depression.

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>>570694198
I didn't leave my dog when she was put down..I couldn't.

The thing about it though, they don't tell you how fast they go, once the syringe is empty, they're already gone.

I cried in that room for a good half hour, before I was finally able to get myself to leave her side. I didn't care that the vet was fucking waiting...causeshe wasn't just a dog, she was family

>>570694331

Shit like this gets to me.

I'm probably going to be homeless again within the next few months. My pet miniature schnauzer is turning 13 years old this year. I can tell he's gotten so old. I'm 24, I've had him since he was a week old. He's all I got and I'm losing him

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I just arrived home.
I went on a walk instead of working on my lab. I just do it. No motivation to do any of my work at all. It's never been this bad before.

And I went out at 12:00 at night. And i went to the usual place I go. And I cried in the grass. It felt like a dream. I don't know.

And everyday I walk by the student mental health services centre. And I always think that maybe I should tell someone.

I don't know.

>>570692731
:'( I'm sad for him, but I'm happy /b/ is here for us.

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>>570693150
this sounds like bullshit to me: vet said "yea well ya know we can give him a tranquilizer and then a drug to stop his heart, or it'd be better if you'd go blow his brains out yourself"
umm nope.
I mean--it's YOUR pet, they can't tell you what to do--but they're not going to suggest that.

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>>570694804
at least it helps me feel better when I'm imagining being happy as i fall sleep. I gladly trade my lap top for relief from what i feel

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>>570695170
That pic sums up social anxiety pretty good.

Mine also has to do with, I literally think everytime I go anywhere, that someone's gonna fucking attack me and try to kill me.

>>570694659
This made me cry, and im glad it did. Ive pent up so much shit and needed to get it out, thank you for posting it

>>570692731
This got to me. He made his choice I suppose, though it's a shame he let someone so undeserving play a primary role.

I wish I could leave as well. I want to die, but have long since acknowledged that I irrationally can't. One day maybe something will break in me as well.

>>570695339
for me it was always similar... except every time, I had made plans with this girl I loved and every time she flaked and I could never admit it to my dad

>be me 15
>getting into the drug scene
> start doing ecstasy
>have a kick back at my place
>friend shows up with a few people and ecstasy
>friend brings a girl over to me
>'hey this is anon i want you to be paying attention to him tonight"
>don't care i have my arm around this other girl
>she sees
>gets together with my friend no big deal
>my girl leaves friend is playing guitar hero
>she looks bored, fuck it
>put my arm around her start making out
>not sure if ecstasy or just that she was a punker fucking fell in love with her
cont.

>>570696312

> mfw I first saw this episode while in high school around 2007
> my parents were going through a lengthy separation and the beginning of a long divorce proceeding that lasted like two years
> I knew from the beginning I'd always be staying with my mom but at some point it hit me that my dad wasn't just leaving my mom, he was willingly leaving my daily life
> the 'how come you don't want me man' line runs through my head in all the years since

I still can't watch that episode or anything else with overt "father-son" issues. Just too many feels.

im broke poor living with my parents no food no money no gas to drive no job
im hungry every day
my clothes dont fit, have holes doesnt work.
my family lost thier well paying jobs

im amazingly good with computers since i was 5 and trying to get my foot into the door. no call no interviews. run a part time mobile repair service for 5 years as experience. i dont even know if thats counts as experience to an employer now..

ashamed that i might have to work at minimum wage job again..afraid ill be stuck there forever...afraid nothing will happen with my life...time is ticking i just turned 23
im so down, i dont even get out of bed anymore. calls dont come in from repair buisness. bills are coming.
what am i doing

>>570690125
le edge

>>570688586
My father is dying on the couch right now

>>570688586
fake if dog was sit for 3 months dog would be kill

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This one didn't exactly make me cry, I guess it's more suitable for feels. I just wanted to share it.

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>>570696872
Yeah it's my biggest fear for my nephews, their dad chose drugs over them. Hell he made a whole nother family.

About you though, it was your dad's choice to leave, not a mutual thing. Your mom wasn't he one kicking him out or anything?

Either way I'm sorry man, that shits tough to go through for anyone, but especially a kid, and 15 years, is a child.

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>>570693434

I am simultaneously full of feels and full of fucking rage

Those fucking parents, I swear to God

cat died while Im away at school, apparently was skulking around the house looking for me the day before he passed... wasnt that old either

>feelsbadman.jpg

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>>570697008
maybe i've been watcing a lot of anime lately. it helps a ton. speaking of which >>570697356 always makes me think about the ending of Angel Beats. definitely a must watch if you're into subbed anime. The dubs not bad but that scene lost a lot of the original feels in the dubbed version

>>570696810
cont.
>after a month or so we break up
>start doing acid
>everyone hooking up around me
> frying my mind out all night
>i fucking miss danielle
>danielle danielle danielle danielle i should get back together with danielle
>obsess over her all night
>start a convo over facebook
>tell her i'm frying face and miss her
>she agrees to meet up with me
>no way to get to her
>after all day of begging my friends for a ride i eventually get my mom to give me a ride
>arive at her place one town over
>give her a braclet i made before i fried
>green (her) and blue mine favorite colors
>still no sleep
>we get back to my place
>friends there(always had friends at my place
>room's a shed seperated from the house, my own pad
>ask friend to front me some acid for me and her to fry together
cont.
>

>>570694979
Sorry that you feel so lost buddy. I've had moments when I wanted to tell. But I don't know where to begin.

>>570696872

That episode really messed with me, too. My mother was cool as hell, but my father was an absolute piece of shit. We lived on a farm when I was a kid; he was busy most of the time and when he wasn't, he was a loud, manipulative, abusive asshole. More than a few times, I just hid in my room whenever I heard him come into the house.

He and my mother worked out some of their issues over the years; eventually, they sold the farm and we all moved into a nearby town, which made things a bit better. Now I'm 31, living on my own and they're both retired, living a few provinces over.

So many of his words come back to haunt me so often now, though. The worst was that he told me he felt like he'd failed as a father. That always stuck with me. In the end though, I don't think he did. He succeeded, but maybe not in the way he wanted to. He never tried to show me a good example of a man, but he was very good at showing me a bad example over and over and over. I never wanted to be him and I've worked hard to be a better person than he ever was.

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Don't know if I already posted this one but I don't think I did.

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See threads like this are what shows /b/ and 4chan isn't filled with a bunch of heartless misogynists. We are normal people who wont hide from the pain and horror of the world. We will cry when its righteous. We will fight and tear down the ignorance and arrogance of others. Thank you /b/rothers, thank you.

Oh, look...
It's raining.

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>>570698770

Can anybody here me?

>>570696170
wow....

>>570698905

Oh wow, i'm unbanned. Hello again everyone

*hear

>>570698905
I can hear you anon

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>>570695493
aw shiiit that got me....

>>570692731
Was there ever an update on this bitch? Has /b/ bother to track her down and see if she even feels remotely bothered at all?

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>>570698147
As long as you remember. I too had a shitty bio dad, likes your manipulative. abusive, quick to anger, most of all loved to humiliate me.

I get angry sometimes at my nephews, lose my temper, but then i stop, remind myself 'you cant do that, you cant be like him' so i just stop, breathe, and talk calmly to em.

You just keep that shit in mind, when or if you do have kids. Stop, breathe...remember what it was like growing up with him, and don't repeat that shit, no one deserves it.

>he poisoned me against my stepdad, who was actually a great guy
>never gave him anything but anger and hate
>bio dad never taught me love, only that if I got too close to him, he would hurt me
>steapdad died when I was 15...I never realized how much he meant to me, until it was too late

I'm sorry

>>570697938
cont.
>friend gives me this look(bro don't do it)
>ignore him head over heels
>we take acid
>after about a hour or so of frying we go out to meet my friend
>dude that was playing guitar hero
>think nothing of it
>on the way we decide to stop at this bar with lazer lights
>in awh
>bar staff start yelling at us we're pissed
>friend stops awnsering phone
>we decide to go back
>on the way back she says
>"wouldn't that projector look nice in your room"
>fuck it ima steal that shit
>she gets ready across the street
> i grab that shit
>holy fuck it's stuck
>toss that shit in the bushes
>they're right behind me
>right about toget to the other side of the street where danielle is
>fuck too late they're right behind me
>lead them away from her
>if anything happend to her can't live with myself
>they chase me 5 blocks, jump me and burn me with ciggerettes
>on acid 2 days straight after five blocks my body cramped from dehydration and couldn't move
>as they burned me i couldn't stop laughing
>fucking enjoyed it
>wake up in hospital
>eventually give up name john doe so i can get my mom to pick me up at 5;58
cont.

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I once dated this guy in Massachusetts, keep in mind I live in California, so it was a long distance relationship. We've known each other since 2011, and he was actually the first guy I liked in that way, vice versa. My jealousy got the best of me one day in 2011 & that made me block & remove him.

>2014.
I broke up with my girlfriend on the 17th of May, and you know, heart broken. I re-added the guy from Mass & turns out his girlfriend broke up with him on the same day as I did.
We both knew we liked each other, so on May 20th, we began to date eachother, he asked me out in a Skype call. 2cute5me.

We used to play games & chat every single day after school. My jealousy kicked in one day because he brang our old friends in the calls & I just stood quiet because I wanted his attention. He knew about my jealousy & anger problems, which he understood. Back to the cute stuff, we would fall asleep together on the Skype call, say mushy stuff "I double wubble you!", silly things of that matter.

1st Day, he didn't reply to my message nor see it.
>ohokay
2nd Day, he still didn't see any messages.
>probablybusy
3rd Day, he finally messages me. "Sorry..I needed some time alone."
>whatsthematterbabe?
He tells me that he feels uninterested in a relationship at the moment. That he doesn't want me to give up because of my shitty relationship past. He promises me that he'd still be my friend & message/Skype with me everyday.

A few weeks pass, and he doesn't see a single message & when he does, he passes it off like nothing ever happened, like he didn't do it.
I get angry at this & overreact, deleting him.

>be now.
I've sent him 2 long apology messages to him, on Skype & Facebook, no reply. I still regret my own actions to this day, we all make mistakes & deal damage. I don't blame him for anything at all, just myself, because of my anger & jealousy I usually have when I'm in a relationship..

5/20/14 - 7/25/14.

Regret it everyday.
But try to be happy.

>>570699058

Thanks. I know that 4chan might be kinda fucked and ruined with cancer and rampant mods now, but it feels good to post again for some reason

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>>570699086
im sorry, but thanks for listening

>>570694204
fake

>>570699226
I've been gone for a while myself. I came back a few days ago and I've been hearing about stuff like this. What happened?

>>570692314
not gonna lie, If they made this comic into a series, it would be interesting.

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>>570698905
loud and clear. welcome anon, do you have a story to tell?

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>>570699640
those cartoon theories are all really crazy

>>570693434
Jesus... I don't even know what to say...

>>570699616

I guess zoe quinn got her revenge in a way, I think there's a bunch of new corrupted mods who are censoring and banning a bunch of people for speaking out against gamergate and posting celeb nudes and shit

Take that with a grain of salt, I haven't researched the situation completely. /b/ has been fucked anyway already.

>>570688586
Fuck you man... that really got me.

>>570699640
They did. The comic was based on the ending of some sitcom. It pissed a lot of people off.

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>>570699206
cont.
>get back home
>see group of friends
>my girl and the dude
>just walk to my bed lay down and hold her hand
>they ask what happend why i'm so fucked up
>tell them
>break down crying i didn't realise what happend until i tried explaining it
>holding her hand as she is looking down
>lookin down at the dude
>giving the dude googley eyes
>when i woke up i never saw her again

>>570699131

Sorry to hear about your experience too, man. I always hoped my parents would divorce and they nearly ended up doing just that a few times. There was a long period of time where I just stopped giving a damn about myself, with respect to the situation. He told me I was worthless so often that I eventually started to believe it; I never stopped believing in my mother though. I always thought she deserved so much better.

I did have a daughter a few years ago, with the woman I'm engaged to now. We're happy together and every time I do start becoming annoyed at something, I sit down and give myself a few seconds to calm down. Remembering what that can do to a person, well...it really does work to calm me down every time.

Funny thing though, is that my dad has now moved on from what he used to be. He's adopted new hobbies and made new friends since retirement. He tries to treat me like we're close, like there have never been any problems between us; even though he's never apologized, never admitted he did anything wrong. It's sad, how deluded people can become.

>>570688586
SOB... I lost man. Reminds me of my pup storm.

>>570688586
I don't like these threads.. They make me feel human.

>>570699956
Yeah I know that Emma Watson has been trying to shut down this place, couldn't help but chuckle at it. But I also heard that jewt sold this place, so what do I know.

>>570700076
so you didnt even have sex? puppy love youll get over it

also from experience it is the ecstasy. dont do it with girls you like.

>>570700449
you need self pity circle jerks to feel human?

go ride a bike or something

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>>570700076
this story confused me. fucking druggos

I was going to send this to her tonight, but i was too afraid.

Anon, im fucking mad at myself. This morning i was ready to tell you to fuck off and never talk to me again. I was act as tho i never talked to you. I was gonna try to be the biggest jackass to you as i could be. I wanted to yell at you and put all my anger on you. But i cant, because your too good of a person to deserve that. And you dont need another one treating you like shit. I wasnt so much angry at the fact you called me an alcoholic, its that when i was drunk i finally accepted that i was friendzoned by you. Ive given up trying to be more than friends with you, because just like every other person ive tried to be with, it wont and never works. I dont deserve to try to be with you, let alone be friends with you. Im sorry if i made it seem worse than this actually is. But its been tearing me up not telling someone this. Im done, and i wont bother you with shit about liking you anymore. Im sorry, and ill leave you alone..

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>>570700076
that sux trips sometimes are good for the pain

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Haven't has sex for over eight years.

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>>570700571
>fucking druggos
>druggos

Dad?
Is that you?

>>570700554
we had sex we've been together for a month we broke up and she faked getting back together to use me for drugs then had the nerve to bring the guy she cheated on me with to my place

>>570691723
MOAR OF THIS im so close to cummin

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>>570700627

>>570693434
I dare you fuckers to say the men on this site are just racist women haters. There was more love in that mans heart then there ever will be in a million SJW hearts. His race and gender did not matter. In fact he was seen as a pedophile and everything our man hating white hating culture can throw at him. Yet he still showed true compassion.

>>570688586
damn, dogs are fukken stupid

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>>570700125
Oh I get that man I get that real fucking good. My bio dad has changed since then, I know he has. I have not talked to him in over 13 years though. Cause no matter how much he has changed since then...the scars he left were deep as fuck, they still have me fucked up in the head to this day. I know he's changed, I just, if he came to my house I'd beat the shit out of him, the same way he used to beat me, the only thing is I'd probably take it too far.

That's really good man that really is, I'm happy you can do that. That you can calm yourself, not only for yourself, but for your daughter, and even your fiance. I'm happy for you man,, bet that complete stranger is happy for you, but I really am, keep up the good work anon :)

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>>570700821
Yes son, it's me.

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>>570692706
this is me...

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>>570701159

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>>570700909
That wasn't articulated well in your story.

>>570699120
No idea, I doubt it though. She probably wouldn't be too hard to track down if somebody wanted to talk to her though.

>>570694465
I am actually tearing up from this

>>570701329
well do you want a baw story or do you want a story about sex

>>570701340
can we please track her down

Well looks like its my turn to post something here:

This wasn't too long ago either just a couple weeks ago.

My best friends all were accepted to amazing colleges around the state and I was extremely happy for all of them. One goes to one Up state another south and one is in the middle. Except for me I get to go to community college which is fine for me.

Anyway, couple weeks before they all leave I begin to get this feeling "oh shit im going to be alone" I have never really had no one to hang out with before because these guys were the best friends I could have especially , lets call him Dan, I dont wanna say his real name. Dan was the kind of guy who wanted to do things all the time and I loved hanging out with him but he is the one who is going to be going away the farthest and longest as well. We did everything talk about games, listen to music, play games, watch anime. I started thinking that I dont wanna be alone and that its going to suck.

So the night before he was going to leave I text him saying "hey i got some stuff for ya" he texts me 4 hours later saying okay, I knock on his door he opens up and I smile and he smiles and he comes outside we talk for a minute and I give him something , now Dan can draw really really well and I cant so I tried my best to draw him something from a show he liked and it came out great and he loved it ans then I gave him my 1st edition Charizard because he likes charizard I know its worth alot of money but I thought he should have it. After I give them to him I smile and he smiles too I try not to cry because I dont want him to see me cry before he goes I cant hold it in I start crying in front of the dude, He hugs me and I hug back I cant stop I apologize and try to keep talking but I cant. Driving home and what comes on of course a song we enjoy together. Oh well hope to get to see him one day again.Miss ya Dan.

>>570701592
pretty bad a baww story. no feels

>>570694198
i just cried for the first time in probably 2 years. thank you?

writing my story now, don't let this thread die

>>570693378
sorry man tough it out there will be a better time im in the same boat but im loosing my home...

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I'm retiring /b/ im going to try and dream that im happy

>>570694198
oh my fucking god

>>570702075
keep smiling right?? Fucking fuck this world

>>570692731
Is it me, or do the dates not match up?

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>>570694659

I guess it's time to stop lurking and contribute.
Last summer (of 2013) I recived a call from my cousin. She had been on suicide watch for around 3 years, and was one of my best friends. She would call me every week, to tell me about her amazing boyfriend, Austin. Austin was a typical skater kid, long hair, stupid shirts and hats, shallow. I never understood why she dated him, despised him for his assholish nature, but he seemed to be the only thing keeping her around. Anyway, I received a call from her, obviously bawling. After a little bit of coaxing, she told me that Austin broke up with her. She said the reason was because she was "too depressing to be around". After an hour long conversation, she decided that she needed some sleep (it was 12 AM over there), and we make a plan for me to fly out there and visit her.... Around 5 hours later as I'm about to head over to my girlfriends house, I get a call. My cousin suicided by OD. Needless to say I was crushed, how do you take a call telling you one of your best friends just killed themselves?

Skipping to last month, 3 days from the anniversary of her dying, I get a call from my girlfriend. She wants to break up with me. The reason? I'm "too depressed" and have "changed over the last year"

>>570700627
Sounds kind of manipulative, that may not be your intent, but it does. Take out the parts that say it happens all the time and the parts that say you deserve better.

It's better to be alone than to have a girl stick around because she pities you

>>570696985
please go out and live. strive for more

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>>570703079
I'll bump for till I'm out.

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>>570692731
Fuuuuccckkkk man..

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>>570703156
Im not gonna send it to her, its not worth causing more shit

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>>570704395

I gave up on happiness a long time ago.

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>>570704073
What happened anon?

Also the reason I told you what I did is because I did it in the past, it honestly will just make you feel worse.

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>>570694979
I could have posted this, I cried today in my room. I had to make sure not to make noise because people in the dorm would hear. Also i used that image as facebook banner for a while.

It's sad to know that we are not alone, and its sad to know theres no honest way out.

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Heading to sleep, thanks for always being here /b/, letting me vent whenever I need to.

Goodnight hope everything gets better for all of you I really do. Hope your tomorrow is better than your today, I love you guys, payce.

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>>570705102

Tonight I decide to check out. It's a good a time as any. Nobody will notice. I won't be a burden anymore.

Already on my way. Just wanted somebody to know.

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>>570694198
...after reading this i had to come downstairs and sleep next to my dog on the couch

>>570699120
I think there was a news article about it. guy looked like your typical neckbeard, but that made it a bit more depressing

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>>570701728
Dammit this one got to me.

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>>570705282
you no fucken idea of how much this hurts right now, i fucking sobbing
I miss my dad

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>>570706553

I'm actually crying. It's been so long I didn't know I was still capable of this.

I realize now that I have suppressed myself. I hardened and walled myself off, it was the only way to keep going and survive my hell. I'm full of disjointed and jumbled idea that I cannot reconcile, and I'm still there in hell. And I'm alone, I have always been alone. The few people that seemed to like to like me to be around, maybe even like me, I cut ties with. I already knew I regretted that, some part of me.

I feel vulnerable, exposed, and unfortunately, very familiar to myself. I feel somewhat scared. I don't know what to do. I can't go back to this, I can't be this thing. At least, not yet. I could probably change back, but... the choice is not so clear.

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>>570704817
We started talking a while ago. Her friends told me she would use me, but i ignored it. I shouldve listened, because literally every girl i tried to be with has. We hung out, she was my first kiss. But after that she acted like it was nothing to her. She says she doesnt try to lead people on, but the way she acts does. I thought she would want to be with me, but i was wrong. I feel regret for talking to her, and i drink to keep it off my mind. But today she texts me asking whats wrong, saying she doesnt like seeing me sad. And right now i feel totally manipulated and i cant tell her the truth because it will make me looks worse. So i told her i am mad at myself. And i am mad, mad that every day i get up knowing i will go home alone, and that in the end it never works.

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>>570706754
i know how you feel bro.
that's why I save these.

>>570705262
Well... goodight /b/

I'm pretty sure there is plenty of people out there who have had it way worse then me, however I think my life has been complete shit since I was born. I've tried to kill myself multiple times and I can't even succeed at that. My long fucking life story short

Dad was abusive/on drugs. Molested me and my brother and sister when I was a kid and tried to kill me a couple times.He left when I was about 10 and that bastard tried to get custody of me.

Mother was a fucking drug addict/drunk until a year ago. She duck taped me and my sister together when I was a kid over a doll. She pretty much stopped feeding me when I was 13-17 so I had to find money to feed myself/sister.

Pretty much had to raise my sister and now she's turned into a suicidal whore. She lost her v-card at 13 to a guy she's been dating for a month. Broke my fucking heart to see the girl I tried so hard to help fuck herself over like that.

Brother molested me when I was younger as well, tried to have sex with me. He also beat me up until a few years ago, once he did it with a metal bat and I screamed i was going to call the cops. My mom ran out of her room and said she saw everything and that he didn't touch me. Bitch.

No real friends, every friend I've had has either lost touch with me or been fake.

Dated a bunch of pedophiles starting when I was 13 idk why. Probably have a lot of cp of me out there somewhere, but that's all on me.

Tried to kill myself multiple times from depression, nothing worked. Last night I took pills and tried to hang myself in the woods.

If you've ever tried it and failed, it's not going out that hurts. It's coming back to. All I remember was screaming from everywhere and so many colors. I'm pretty sure hell is real. I came back to my eyesight spinning as I struggled to get the chord from my neck. All I got was a really sore throat.I went to a different tree after recovering and tried to do it again but pussy'd out. I ended up throwing up for 7 hours because of the pills.

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>>570692706
get a dog or 2

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>>570688586
These threads.....

Haven't been to one in a while. Emma Watson stated that men can't feel or they're not men or some kinda stigma like that.

This shit proves her feminist speech so wrong. Men don't give a fuck about what anyone else thinks. Only women are so self centered enough to worry about how they'll be perceived. My friends will talk feels with me.

Just kinda wanted to bring that up, I know we're anons here but we're still feeling in front of others.

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>>570706874
Was it the constant on/off thing? That happened to me once, she couldn't make up her mind avout me and I couldn't take it.

>>570706998
Also, if you're wondering why I think that heaven and hell exists, I've been strangled by my boyfriend multiple times when he was angry, and one time I was out for a while and I was somewhere, I can't really explain. It was so peaceful and light and there was three people there calling my name softly. It was the best feeling I've ever had, and I woke up from that and cried for so long afterwards. But last night when I tried to kill myself it was..different, it was horrible. I realize it sounds idiotic but to me I kind of believe in the whole heaven and hell concept now, even if it was all in my head, and even if it all comes from my head.

I just needed to let this all out.

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>>570699120
Yes there were she just replied the same way she talked to him.

>all you freaks need to stop messaging me he was a loser etc etc

Are there any femanons that share these feels?

>>570707431
I guess so, she started talking to me to make her ex mad, but then she seemed to care about me. But then i found out i was like one of 6 guys shes talking to, which makes me feel even worse.

what did he expect being an obese fuck lol

>>570693434
Blood only tells us who we're related to. Loyalty is the sign of family.

I'm sorry about your loss.

>>570707775

In this state, this sign takes on a whole new meaning... Holy Shit. Look who is going to bed with all the feels tonight.

>>570696637
Thank you so much anon. I've been looking for this for so long. I love

>>570694198
I just miss my cat, kept me company for 16years. Oh damn i miss her.

>>570707449
Why do you do that to yourself anon?

I said I was off to sleep but showered and now can't sleep. just thought I'd check in here, before I crash

>>570693803
I remember asking my dog why he loved me cuz no one else did

>>570694940
He's gonna be ok anon, All dogs go to bacon flavored heaven

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I know this feel all to well brother, I was s complete rebound for the first girl I ever dated. I felt like shit, someone finally noticed me and it was because they were used to dating someone. I got treated like shit but put up with it (to an extent) because I don't enjoy conflict. Eventually I broke up with her because I couldn't stand it anymore.

I think you may be similar in the way that you avoid conflict. You must also feel like you put your trust in someone who used it agsinst you, is that why you wanted to send her that text? Becsuse maybe somewhere derp down you still want to trust her?

I'm not going to tell you what you have to do, because you might just want to figure it out for your self (and I give shit advice).

Just know that you're not alone here

>>570702924
it's old and real...

>>570692706
uhhh yeah EVERYONE is unhappy in away so don't think /b/ros here have a special bond

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>>570708916
gonna dump a few rage inducing feels then I'll be out.

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3 weeks ago, I got a call from my mom saying my dad had a heart attack and that the doctors were trying to get him out of it.
I immediately started driving from the city I live to my parents ~2 hr away.
20 min before reaching the hospital my mom called and said.

"Your dad didn't make it"

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>>570709264
this kids face.
god damnit...

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>>570709341

>>570695339
this makes me laugh way more than sad

I've been guilty of this

>>570708949
I do want to trust her, tonight she sent me a text saying i could. She wanted to know what was wrong and why i wasnt happy. Thats when i wrote that text. I wanted to tell her evrything, spill my guts out to her and hope, just hope she would say something comforting. But because its about her, i cant tell her. I dont know what ill do, but thank you for listening. I feel better now that someone would listen and talk to me

>>570709442
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/thread

>>570709341
You can see it, he's trying not to cry. He is trying to be brave like his father, he is trying to maintain a face of strength in front of the officer. He's just trying to make his dad proud.

It fucking breaks my heart

>>570709442
well.. Image limit reached guys.
I guess this is it.
It was nice being with you tonight.
Have a good one.

>>570693327
I feel you /b/ro
I had someone who was so cold hearted, she put me through shit no guy should go through. I'd still do anything for her though.

>>570709626
Imagd limit reached man, here's where we part ways. Thanks for sharing your story with me. I know you'll make it.

>>570709760
Sorry to hear that. My robin is recently engaged. Had a convo the night I congratulated her, convo came easy, too easy. Gave her my new number cuase she said 'we should catch up sooner' that was on July 29th...still nothing.

Now that I look back I'm not sure she would do it on purpose, but she used me man, everytime she was down or something happened that she couldn't handle she'd get a hold of me. After I made her feel better, she'd disappear again. She's very nice and caring I don't want o think she'd do that, but it always crossed my mind now.


Fucked up thing like you said...I'd much rather be used by her than nothing at all. I know she doesn't give a fuck about me, she is engaged after all, but I can't stop feeling for her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sD-heIEr1wo