Confess your biggest sins and secrets and possibly receive counselling.
I know you have stories you've never told anyone and want to get off from your chest.
there's nothing i haven't told anyone. give me absolution. i'm a whore
>>17346230
I fapped to bestiality porn, 3D, hentai and other disgusting things.
best friend basically raped other best friend while she was blackout drunk, don't know what to do.
>>17346284
This is kind of normal considering where you are.
When I was 6 or 7, I took a watermelon out of the fridge and threw it at my grandparent's then-14-year-old dog. The watermelon completely disintegrated on his head and he was stunned for a few seconds and ran back into the house. Always gave me the eye up until his death.
My girlfriend is super nice, but because of the Internet I'm always second-guessing she's going to cheat on me.
Everything seems like a "clue" or red flag despite how much I care about her, how much further In life she is than me and how much she tells me she loves me.
>>17346230
OP is a cowardly voyeur hoping to get his jollies from other people's experiences because he has none of his own.
>>17346230
Sometimes when I'm driving and there are no other cars around I don't signal before changing lanes.
>>17346325
I don't know if YOU need to do anything. In borderline rape cases cheer-squads and other people sticking their spoons in the soup only make matters more complicated and can even serve to twist the events by forcing your interpretation on others.
Even if the case isn't borderline rape but legitimate and serious situation, responsibility doesn't lie in you and mean that you're required to take action if the involved parties can solve the situation themselves.
I kind of feel rape has become the new cool drama crime.
>>17346230
I fuck my sister since I was 17. I'm 33 now.
I suck my mother when she get drunk, she literally asks for me to do it. Not often.
>>17346325
Get her to a hospital. The police.
I don't like sex and it makes me uncomfortable
my gf recently got on some medication that killed her sex drive and she's looking to fix it but I secretly don't want her to so I can keep not fucking her
wat do
>>17346461
How about you worry less about her faithfulness and worry more about being the best boyfriend for her.
I literally dream about cheating on my boyfriend with someone more thoughtful, smarter, skinnier, muscular and taller.
>>17346798
Tell her you're asexual.
>>17346808
>Tell her you're a meme.
Fixed for you.
>>17346808
>Tell her you're a hourly fapping porn addict with fucked up fetishes because the porn addiction desensitised your brain for normal sex.
Fixed for you.
>>17346804
Leave your boyfriend
>>17346230
If I admit my sin I'll be told to go loll myself by everyone who's not fucked in the head.
>>17346836
>>17346804
That's just either some netorare fetishist writing down his fantasy or some /r9k robot baiting
>>17346840
Whose kids have you fiddled?
>>17346844
It may not be. Adultery and feelings of wanting to cheat exist.
>>17346836
Don't a lot of people have this tho? As long as I don't actually cheat on him, what's the issue?
I was almost molested by some homeless African man on the bus at 4am in the morning.
>>17346230
I regularly visit strip clubs and get handjobs and blow jobs from the strippers there. Some of them know me on a first name basis and have offered to "meet" me outside of the club. I also have been strongly considering hiring a prostitute to lose my virginity since that's the only way an attractive woman will fuck a fat uggo like me. The thing is... I love it. I love the objectification of the women that work there, the wanton abuse of their bodies for my sexual pleasures, their abuse of me by preying on my loneliness and insecurities. It's fantastic.
I secretly hate every single aspect about myself. I pretend I'm happy with myself, but in reality I constantly think about killing myself.
>>17346230
I basically hate having to have a job. Sometimes i get fine with the idea of, but most of times i simply hate it and i've avoided having a job for a long period.
Although i don't go and fuck with economy of who's helping me.
I don't know what is my problem but i've never told this to anybody. Even my ex (who was the only person i truly opened my chest).
Loose lips sink ships. I will take my secrets and sins to the grave with me.
>>17347140
Yeah right pedophilic bastard. Or Muhammad.
^ Lol this tard tard
>>17346844
Newsflash everyone dreams of boning someone perfect, and it doesn't magically go away when you're in a relationship.
I don't fap to anything else than hentai anymore. It's not like it bothers me that much myself, but is one of those things I'm really planning to take to grave. I know many people would consider it pretty fucked up.
I don't really hate real people or find them disgusting, it's just that I'd rather fap to drawings. And this is something that makes my sex life incredibly difficult. I didn't really consider it a problem earlier, but lately I have to actually mentally focus on fucking anime girls to be able to perform. Kind of makes me wonder if it anything has a point anymore.
I would probably even refrain from anything sexual, but I'm still not so deep into neckbeards that I'd have abandoned my need for real physical contact to escape loneliness. I could also try to claim to be asexual, but society puts a huge pressure on having "normal sexuality" and I don't think I fit on any scale of ordinary sexuality anymore.
>>17346230
I masturbate every once in a while. Pretty crazy huh?
>>17346471
You're a fucking monster.
>>17346461
Stop using /r9k/.
In all seriousness, you have to remember everything said in internet about sexes is just generalizations usually based on nothing. Think how women view men and their general traits and mind, then consider if any of those things actually hold true. I'm guessing not many.
There's no way anyone who doesn't actually know her would be capable of making a prediction of her cheating.
>>17347111
Everybody hates it. We're economy slaves, so most of us don't have a choice.
I have to keep my spawn alive.
>>17347285
So what the fuck, am i normal?
>>17347512
Yes. Most people fucking hate their jobs. If I could I'd win the lottery and never work a day in my life again. Get fucking used to it. You think you're special but you're not. I know most people on this board like to think they're special but the reality is that you're going to spend most of your life as a wage slave, retire, and die like a normal fucking person. Sounds shitty? It is. The support group meets after work at the bar.
>>17347512
It's rare to meet a person that enjoys their work. It's a fantasy you outgrow pretty fast usually.
>>17347527
Does drinking really help more than it hurts?
>>17347590
No but it's helps in the interim.
I dumped my gf of 4 months because I found out that she wasn't a virgin, but lied and said that I'm moving out of the country. Hopefully I don't run into her again
>>17347610
Naturally I don't know all your circumstances but that's a pretty light reason to dump someone.
>>17346230
I'm into little girls, I think is ok and justifiable. Also, I'm not only into little girls, but I have a range of 2-35yo.
>>17346230
I've killed twice, once in self defense when I was 16, once for revenge when I was 21. Nobody every found out it was me. I don't feel much of anything about it. Its like this huge thing that should mean something but doesn't and I can't even talk to anyone about it.
>>17347730
>2
Want to believe you're trolling
>>17347751
I hope you don't mind the questions...
Who were the victims?
They were violent deaths?
Can you live with the "what if they catch me?"
>>17347761
No. See the following vid. She started being attractive/cute to me at 2.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Plk7TLNmsU
Normally I don't pay too much attention to girls this young when there are 6-8yo around.
Also, it's fun to pay attention to little girls while there are women around who want to flirt with you. Sooner or later they put that "Am I that ugly?" face...
>>17347768
I won't talk about the first one because the victim was kind of a special class, it doesn't matter how many years have passed, an agent of the state is an agent of the state. It was violent, but it was desperate and fast. I spent a couple of years sure that every cop car I saw was there for me.
The second guy was someone who had raped me as a kid. By chance I saw him, followed him home, and shot him. Took his wallet and dumped it in a bad neighborhood to make it look like a mugging.
Its been more than a decade and there was no real evidence either time, so I'm not that worried.
>>17347777
>Took his wallet and dumped it in a bad neighborhood to make it look like a mugging.
Pretty wise for an improvised actuation. Not sure if I'd be able to do that.
>>17347785
I had a little bit of time to think when I was following him. To be fair, I was living a life that was pretty routinely criminal at the time. Just another secret from the people who know me now, I guess.
I've never asked for a non trim haircut in my life. I want to chsnge styles but I have no fucking clue.
By changing styles I mean actually having one.
>>17346230
Had sex with a dude in Tribecca when I was 19 and never got checked. Have had sex with multiple men/women after that incident. I've thought about killing/raping girls. I thin k i'd be okay with killing somebody just for the thrill of it.
>>17348062
Theres not much of a thrill. Just the adrenaline of something dangerous happening, the crash, and the fear of getting caught even when you know you're in the clear. Nothing happens when you kill someone, there is no great revelation, its a myth.
>>17346461
Based on the posts I've seen you make here, she'll likely cuck you because you're a faggot.
>>17347675
She likely lied to him. Dishonesty is a perfectly justifiable reason to dump someone.
>Dark time in my life.
>shitfaced as fuck.
>allready had Black outs.
>stayed with a childhoodfriend and his mom.
>try to force myself onto his mother.
>snapped out of it when she called my name and reminded me of Who she was.
>broke down left the next day. Never seen them again.
>move to the other side of the country.
>don't know how to feel about myself sometimes.
>>17346468
Actually I just like to look down on people.
>>17346230
I came to grips that I'm a very horny bisexual that loves big titty futa/traps. Before that, I TRIED fapping to any straight cartoon porn to compensate my homosexual desires, even TRIED fapping to loli, but didn't like it at all. (Still feel guilt about doing it tho. Can't believe I thought pedos had it better than us bisexuals)
> inb4 you might like little boys instead
I accepted that I'm a bisexual and there's nothing I can do about it. (At least I'm not pedo or zoophile)
>>17348212
I think it's fun how people with horrible fetishes like to look down on a certain set of other fetishes as more disgusting and inferior, maybe out of some need to prove yourself you're still okay.
It's more than a few times I've noticed that for example people that like futa or loli look down on furries as if that was more harmful fetish in any way. Makes me smile a bit every time.
>>17348237
No I'm not a lolifag. Like i memtioned, i didnt enjoy it. And furries aren't zoophiles. I'm actually a bit of a furry myself. We furries like anthro animals. ZOOOPHILES want to fuck real animals.
>>17348264
I wasn't strictly referring to you though, as you didn't even mention furries in your post, but unarguably a similar and absurd division to terrible and less terrible fetishes exists in your post.
>>17346230
Wanted to be dead so badly.
Have a strong urge to jump off the fence from somewhere high every time i pass by one.
>Like the urge to suddenly throw your phone out the window of a bus
Only thing keeping me from killing myself is afraid of the pain while doing so & because of my parents.
probably would had killed myself if i have access to helium gas and mask and an empty room for a day.
Don't wanna get help from a doctor.
Don't really care about anything much anymore.
My motto to life is "waiting for life to end".
If i tell someone about these, i will feel better from all the pity and attentions given to me.
And this make me hate myself more.
Doesn't plan to tell anybody i know about this problem except some strangers online.
Honestly, what's there to live for?
I had consider every options, live for dream? live to travel? live for someone? etc?
but no, none had convinced me living is truly matters.
And i just wanted to be dead.
Hopefully it's an easy death where i died i my sleep and never woke up in the morning.
Got into an argument with my twin sister when we were in middle school.
It got heated, and things started to get physical. I grabbed her by the back of the head and slammed her forehead into a one of our den chairs multiple times She started bleeding from the head and I was immediately filled with immense guilt. Called 911 to make sure she was ok. She decided we'd lie to them and tell them it was an accident, that she slipped and fell and hit her head. We haven't talked about it since.
I still feel awful about it, even though I'm now 20. In retrospect, I was dealing with depression and an awful addiction to video games at the time but that doesn't excuse what I did. She is has chronic migraines that no doctor can seem to find the cure for. I wonder sometimes if I might have caused that, but I try to convince myself that isn't the truth.
>>17348306
Everybody has a divide. What's your fetish anon?
>>17346233
The cum may never completely wash off your face, but you can still warn potential whores against the whorish way.
>>17348332
Abon you remind me of myself. I tried asking on /x/ if I can self hypnotize myself into suicide.
>>17348332
>>17348442
You know, besides of being dead,
I also wish that
>I'm not exist at the first place
>Lost my memory in accident so i might get a fresh start
>Leave society and start anew in a jungle
>>17346230
Ok you want sins, I'll give you sins
I was molested repeated by my brother when I was 12 and now I have a fucked up sense of sexuality. I fuck strangers, I am bisexual, I have a porn addiction, I have even masturbated pedo shit. I have had fantasy of raping other people and when I jack off I frequently think about my abuse and I want to act it out. I secretly want someone to fuck me in the ass hard and cum in my face just like before. I miss it, I missed it the moment it stopped. I started touching myself after the abuse but it wasn't the same. I long for it because I was so manipulated, I thought it was normal and now my mind is made sick. I also borderline raped a women, she was high and I fucked her and she never spoke to me again. When I have sex I don't feel like making love or even sharing an act, I feel like I am punishing someone and I get off on the power. Likewise when a man fucks me in the ass, I feel like I am giving him power over me. I have a completely disturbed view of sex and I am lonely, I want a long term relationship but I can't fuck someone I love.
I have a downward bent penis. I used to think nothing of it but recently realized it's pretty dramatic. It's about an 80 degree curve from tip to base. I'm a Virgin and have no idea how it will effect my sex life, so I've been stressing out over it lately. Not much can be said for sure until I get to try, but it's safe to say traditional face-eachother positions are a no go. I'd only be poking her with 2 of my 7 inches, and it'd probably be >>17346902
uncomfortable for me anyways.
>>17348707
Disregard reply towards the end, I'm on phone and must have mis-tapped onto a post.
>>17348535
Come here, little brother, I'll make it all better ;^)
i'm in my early 20s and i live in a major city and get hit on by the average female on a regular basis, and checked out literally everywhere i go. i'm a regular, clean put together person. i just have a certain look by default.
- i have fucked 4 girls around my current age at the time.
- i have fucked 12 or so matured women in my life. 30s-50s.
- i don't know if this is a lot or not and i don't care, i'm just getting into details here.
- in order for me to bang a cougar they have to be curvy and thick. these women are the best fucks because i don't have to train them to take the dick.
- interaction with cougars is always sexual and flows. girls in their early 20s are awkward or shy.
- if i had a kid i'd have it with a girl in her early 20s who is a stick figure type.
- i am a petting post for women in the workplace
- i mind my business at work and hook up with women i meet out in public.
i cannot explain this to people my age because the lifestyle sounds unrealistic but it's not, most guys are just autistic or choose to be tied down.
>>17348963
teach me senpai
>>17346230
In 2011, I beat the man who raped my ex while we were together nearly to death. I smashed his skull in with a piece of concrete in a parking garage and wrote RAPIST in permanent marker on his drivers license, for whoever to find.
I don't feel the least bit bad about it, and I'm the kind of guy who worries all day whether he offends somebody by using the wrong tone of voice in passing.
I just want to solve fusion, build a warp drive, and get the fuck off earth.
this feeling has been there for years. I'm tired of all this crazy shit, I want off the ride, I want to see the universe.
I have lied about my age to almost everybody I know online, and in real life, and I think I may have fucked myself over a little bit.
I'm actually only a 20 year old lad, but people think I'm 30, and this is causin me some panic, because I fear the day everybody finds out.
>>17349067
thats really fucked up man. not agreeing or disagreeing with what you did but fuck, thats gotta affect someone. does he know who you are?
>>17349099
Fuck off, faggot. The only thing he should have done differently is sent that fucker to hell.
>>17349107
nice edge retard. all i said is that it must have had an affect on him since hes not normally that type of person.
back2b redditor
>>17348332
I'd slap your face right now. Seems that you didn't lived enough to find something worth. Just keep searching until you find it. With little changes you could see the world from a very different point of view. Start changing your routines right now, start doing sport, don't fall for religions (that's the easy way for a sheep)...
Study about the immensity of the known universe, mate, and you'll realise that there's no real meaning of life. Just spend your time the best you can before you die. All of us will die, but not today.
im a kleptomaniac. I steal everything that isnt nailed down, even if its not somthing i want, i just like to steal
I cheat on my gf even though she's by far the best one I've ever had. I actually whish we could move in together but we live around 100 miles apart.
She's really good looking and we always have great fun having sex, yet when I'm away from her I still end up hitting on other girls and getting with them...
>>17349125
i constantly make bait threads on /adv/ /r9k/ for a fetishm i get really horny when guys tell how pathetic they are
>>17349128
meh, everything is a social experiment anyhow, right
>>17346230
i regularly engage in consensual heterosexual intercourse in the missionary position for the sole purpose of procreation.
i know. im a monster. but i just cant stop.............
>>17349128
What does this have to do with my problem?
>>17347207
>I have to actually mentally focus on fucking anime girls to be able to perform.
Stop watching hentai and fappig to it daily, or altogether. Problem solved.
I'm extremely manipulative but never in a malignant manner, and i am such a doormat that no one would suspect me to lie. I have never desired to hurt others.
Once, I did everything i could to convince the guy I was with I was crazy because I was ashamed to be with him and even disgusted by him after spending enough time with him. Now he lives his life thinking he dodged a final bullet and pursues no further relationships. If he were half as smart as he imagined himself to be he would have realized easily that I did not like him. He already has such low self esteem combined with this weird arbitrary narcissistic streak that is common with this type of manchild when they think they have won you over.
Sometimes I want to tell him that his attitude filled me with unreasonable contempt even early on, but I can't. I was open about it and he assumed I was playing hard to get. And how can you even justify that, anyway? I'm sure some people would see autism and crushing loneliness becoming a realization that I don't have to put up with bullshit as being a flip floppity psycho.
I am lonely and a select few people on the planet now think I am some tripped out psycho with control issues. And I'm sure being manipulative is seen as a red flag. But I tried to correct my mistake by convincing him he was right about women being crazy and selfish and getting him to skip out of his own accord so he wouldn't feel like a loser and could feel secure and triumphant in his path of... whatever.
Now I understand that being a frumpy old cat lady would be preferable to continuing some farce of a relationship where I am an emotional cumrag for people who have never had the opportunity to be honest with themselves. That's all I seem to attract, so the problem is obviously me, but I don't know how to fix it. I'm sure even this post sounds crazy. Oh well.
>>17347512
Yes.
You don't have much of interaction with other people, do you? What about your parents? Didn't the raise you? Probably you were pretty much neglected.
Sometimes I shitpost mindlessly. Sometimes I study Anon a bit and shitpost with the intent of being as hurtful as I can.
>>17349166
>Just pretending to be crazy hahahah no srs
>>17349166
I used to think the same about myself, but it's because I was partially blinded by my own ego. We all are manipulative in some way, consciously or not, but is not that easy to use it like a severe psycopath.
You might be an interesting partner for those who want a real active relationship, not just a dominant-dominated one. In fact, once I met a girl like the one you describe, but she was a bit too weird for me, with a huge ego, and she was also fat (I'm not going to deny it, that's a strong no-no for me, that's why I regularly do sport to keep fit, otherwise I'd hate myself).
We have things in common. I like loneliness, and I prefer to have a few friends (the kind of friends who would die for you) instead of being a friend collector.
I'm the guy of this thread, btw >>17347730. This might explain some things. If not, pic related is what goes through my mind.
>>17348347
>She is has chronic migraines that no doctor can seem to find the cure for.
Because doctors are shit people in a shit world which revolves only around one and only thing: money
If they "find" a cure for her, and believe me, there is, they can't milk her for money for pain killers and doctor visits. >I wonder sometimes if I might have caused that, but I try to convince myself that isn't the truth.
You are not the cause and I am 100% sure. You both grew up in shit environments as I take it. Now as adults you are not healthy functioning, are stressed, nervous and depression probably.
I'll tell you how you can help her cure her headaches. Be a good brother and make up to her by telling her yourself.
There are just three types of headaches, first is when you got the flu. Everything swells up (nose, throat, ear canals ) this causes pressure to the blood flow around your head causing headaches. Not much cure for this other than resting and recovering from the flu.
The second type is a sharp, very short pain, like someone is stabbing your brain with a knife or needle.
As I really have this kind very rarely I don't know much about it and how to cure it. Usually it's over within a minute and only occurs once or twice a year maybe with me.
Then there's the last and curable type of headache. This is the headache most people get most often and talk about. The continuing dull pain in your head, sometimes even that worse, that it blocked your eyesight. The pain and eyesight thing is because of the cut off/lowered blood flow and increasing pressure due to this to your head. It's all located at your neck and shoulders and if you take care of those muscles, like with massages and stretching moves and warmth (hot water bottle or hot bathtub) your headaches will be cured within 15 minutes.
(1/2)
>>17349259
You always need to mind your neck and shoulder muscles. If it gets to cold they are hardening, if you're too stressed the same, if you sit in an uncomfortable position too long, the same. Sometimes even having the flu causes you to sweat and your shoulders/neck hardens, in that case do what I've mentioned before.
Overall, a little bit of general stretching will do very good for you body in case of migraine. Look up with googling the words anti migraine stretches how to do it.
Good luck anon.
(2/2)
>>17349243
>>17349256
I am aware of myself and my surroundings. I don't want to make people feel negative things, but being around people makes this impossible. I do finagle my way out of difficult situations. I'm no edgy teen claiming sociopathy, but I have an understanding of most things as they happen and how I can be of influence.
I'm not a lunatic, I understand people and their motivations and feelings. I just can't relate to them. I want to be close to others but I hold people to the standards I hold myself to, which are ludicrously high because I raised myself on books and fictional stories with grand friendships. I'm not the standard for 10/10 friend or partner but I have much affection and thoughtfulness to offer... that nobody cares for. Should I really care less because others can't be asked to care more?
I'm okay with being alone. I have been solitary for as long as I can remember. I can entertain myself. But people are always so keen to tell you what you need to do or what should be important, who you are or what you should be. There are social norms and I understand why they exist.
I just want to be left alone. If you were always alone without others to say that it's strange or ask why, would you think anything of it? I don't think I would. I'm certain of who I am and what I can do when I am alone.
>>17348465
It's so startling how similar you are to me. I wanted to live in the woods. Or get abducted by ayy lmaos
>>17348535
Holy shit man. I hope you don't fap to cp.
I feel sorry for you, but did you really need to take advantage of her?
>>17348922
Is that joke towards him really necessary?
>>17348963
I'm 18 and I always wanted to impregnate or at least pump semen into a thick milf. How?
>>17349118
I simply don't see anything worthy in life.
I'm all ready for death.
It can come anytime.
Whatever you just said had been told to me countless times.
But it's pointless words because it doesn't help at all.
I found out about a month that my mom has a slow mental incurable disease and I study so fucking far away from home that I can only afford to come back once every year. And I think that coming back would make her feel even worse for stopping me.
While I believe i had a bit of a rough past I never before considered myself depressed until now. Every day feels dull and the night just turned in countless hours of trying to avoid thinking and no sleeping.
The bad symptoms are not showing up or too bad right now, but it is supposed to only get worse with time. I will do my best to show her my support and spend time with her when I can, but I feel like that is not enough, especially when the time is so short.
I cant even begin to imagine all that she is going through, when I cant even handle myself.
>>17349286
Wait until you're 21, hang out at old people bars around last call, sooner or later some thick milf will proposition you. Most have their tubes tied and will let you cum inside their flappy gash
>>17349274
Perhaps I'm wrong, but I feel that you overestimate people. Of course there's the special people you're asking for, but it's not the most usual.
Two questions. How old are you? Are you going through something painful right now?
I felt pretty identified with that "but I have much affection and thoughtfulness to offer". Now we must find someone who would accept that feelings. This is the hard part.
Anyway, like to the other guy of this thread, I'd slap you, and say you to cease to rejoice in your own agony. You'll not get anything doing this.
Be more positive or you'll soon start listening to "Sun Kil Moon".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MtV3d-6Aps
Look at him. Even surrounded by people, he is alone.
>>17349294
In fact the slap is essential, nothing else will work without it. The human contact makes the difference.
Anyway, what happened in your life to have this kind of feelings? Even the poorest kid in a 3rd world country, surrounded by death, can be happy.
>>17346230
I hump the floor to masturbate. Dead serious. Been doing it since HS.
I once attempted to kill my nephew when he was a newborn out of jealousy. I was 7 at the time.
>>17349365
Same person.
I've also fucked around with black magic during a bad time in my life and ended up with 6 of my paternal relatives dying on the same year, youngest was 4.
>>17349317
>Anyway, what happened in your life to have this kind of feelings? Even the poorest kid in a 3rd world country, surrounded by death, can be happy.
Because the kid knows no better.
Also, nothing special happened in my life, if u r expecting some grand tragedies.
I simply seek death more than life.
Is it so hard to believe because i'm one of the very minority that possesses such thought?
or is it so hard to accept sometimes, being dead is actually better and desirable for somebody?
When I was little (10-12yr) I let the family dog lick me on my penis until I came.
I have been terrified that I have contracted an std since then.
>>17349377
What kind of black magic
>>17349422
The kind that makes people get into terrible accidents.
>>17349432
Magic is fake bullshit. The only evil sick thing yiu did was here >>17349365
>>17349435
Well, we're discussing "sins" and that usually denotes religion and occult stuff, so... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>17349155
Trust me, I've tried. It only serves to make things slightly easier in bed, if any at all. Up to the point where I stopped masturbating completely for a long period of time. Even if the act itself is easier, I still get the strange feeling that "I'm doing something wrong" and are really not into it mentally. I know this might sound strange.
>>17349166
>>17349274
That sounds pretty much like me honestly. The surprise twist is that you most likely are kind of hard person to be close to and it isn't just pretense.
>>17349256
Geralt in suit would look just ridiculous.
>>17349398
Wanting to disappear slowly, without pain and without trace, like in a sleep is the most common thing that unites all depressed people. This post only serves to showcase you for some reason believe to be special snowflake. This is just a baseless assumption, but the way you write makes you seem really young. I've been where you are, and sometimes still feel am.
If you consider this attitude a problem, either seek professional help or simply escape your comfort-zone and you might find something you want to live for. I understand you think it's all meaningless and that you've seen enough to know none of it helps, but then again, existential melancholy is a really common thing in western world and a great majority of people "pull trough it", so to say.
>>17349432
It's pretty hard to believe as you cannot even go to specifics. Sorry.
>>17349485
That's alright. I know this thread is supposed to be a place where we spill out morally-questionable stuff we've done in the past, but I don't feel comfortable saying what I've done in case someone who knows me IRL sees it. There's a couple of people I know who lurk this board and I want to keep things smooth with them.
I have only couple of very good, super social friends, and I feel the need to pretend I too have a huge circle of friends, usually by lying while I actually sit indoors playing or watching shit cartoons
My roommate is disgusting but I don't want to tell him that as I'm stuck with him anyway
I like to tell about my travels and adventures but I have problems with my stomach so I actually rather stay indoors
I peed on my friends face when I was a child
I try to get into classical music in order to feel smart
I don't have a burning desire to do anything with my life and I fear I will melt away some day without achieving anything
I have developed some strange fetishes past years and am only capable of masturbating to 2D
I don't feel anything towards my current girlfriend and use her only to gather experience in bed
I feel very detached from everyone but try to act like drinking and going to parties is the best as I fear later on I will feel I've missed something crucial in life
My grandfather thought I was married and had a child but I never had time to correct the misunderstanding and now he's dead
My favorite book is Da Vinci Code
I'm a proud asexual woman who masturbates to erotica twice a week.
>>17349542
I don't think that's asexual behavior in case this wasn't some sort of high-level shitposting.
>>17349520
>My favorite book is Da Vinci Code
I don't mind about the other ones, but the last one triggered me.
>>17349551
Although I love touching myself I have no interest in doing any sexual things with anyone. It's confession material because it's too weird to admit to anyone in real life.
>>17347768
>She started being attractive/cute to me at 2.
Oh my god you made my stomach turn upside down. You're definitely fucked up to the max. Please seek help...
>>17349457
>for a long period of time. Even if the act itself is easier, I still get the strange feel
You know that two weeks are not a long period of time. It takes months, if not even up to almost a year.
How about you say fuck it to those "something's wrong" feelings of yours?
>>17349520
>but I have problems with my stomach
You most likely only have psychological issues churning your stomach.
I filmed foot fetish stuff for a while.
Now I really can't like a girl for anything else but her feet.
>>17349652
>psychological issues churning your stomach
Is this really a thing? How does one deal with it?
>>17349649
I've already tried a month, above that I don't know if it's actually possible. And if I really could just not care about my feelings then I wouldn't be having the problem in the first place.
>>17346448
Absolutely disgusting.
>>17349261
Jesus Christ go back to x
>>17346230
I pretended to be my ex girlfriend online and sent nudes to strangers and now it's my secret fetish and it messed with my sexuality
What do
>>17350024
Not that anon but as a person that suffers from headaches stretching is kind of scientifically proven to help as many cases are caused by tense muscles. It's of course very subjective, but as a tip the one in question is pretty helpful.
>>17350035
Embrace the fetish.
>>17350065
I can't get aroused during sex and question how I'm feeling
Also it's illegal
>>17350077
You can either try to force yourself out of the fetish and live an empty life lying to yourself OR you can embrace your sexuality and live a satisfying life. Maybe in some legal way.
>>17350084
I'd rather remove it and just have sex with girls
>>17349583
Doesn't that mean you aren't asexual though, if you can still get turned on by erotica?
>>17350045
I was referring to the part about doctors.
>>17350110
Then remove it, you already have your answer. Stop doing it and never go back. In a time you'll recover.
>>17350128
But I have anxiety ridden impulses to do it that are uncontrollable and I fap like a mother fucker
I have become my own worst enemy
And I don't even feel bad about it anymore, you deserve everything coming to you for not standing up for yourselves, you can't help people who won't help themselves and you can't save everyone I just didn't realize "everyone" would be most people.
GG everyone
See you in hell
>>17350145
>Forgot pic
>>17347527
>The support group meets after work at the bar.
But I don't drink, Drew.
For 8 years I let my male dog have sex with me nearly every day.
>>17348535
You should see a psychologist specialized in that kind of shit t-b-h dude (try to avoid greedy psychiatrists tho, they might give you those shitty antipsychotics that make you feel like a zombie if you aren't schizophrenic or bipolar).
Your post reminds me of those early Swans songs and those disturbing repetitive lyrics dealing with power and relationships, and while they can fun to listen to when you are a semi-normie that thinks life is fucked up, they are really creepy as fuck when you realize the kind of shit they talk about can be realistic.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkvvmahmZrc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKnUL4lfKps
>>17349769
>psychological issues churning your stomach
>Is this really a thing?
Of course. Never heard of PTSD kids complain about stomachache? I did. Had a psycho dad and my little sis couldn't handle the situation at home very well.
>How does one deal with it?
Are you kidding me? Go to the psychotherapist or self-helping groups or whatever works for you. You need to know what kind of psychological issues you have though. Neglecting/abusive parents? Traumatic incidents in childhood? Etc etc..
>>17349777
>I've already tried a month, above that I don't know if it's actually possible.
Why shouldn't it be? If you feel it's necessary to release, you go to the bathroom and relieve yourself very quickly. No watching porn. No extended pleasure fapping sessions. Once a every other week at max.
>>17350127
>I was referring to the part about doctors.
I don't browse /x. What I've written down is solely based on my own life experiences. I've lived long enough to know what I'm talking about, trust me. Also I live in Germany where going to the doctor/hospital and getting surgeries doesn't cost anyone anything. So I don't even have any reason to lie about this.
>>17350444
That's the thing, I have nothing of that. I have pretty average upbringing and cannot even begin to imagine what in my life would cause that huge amount of stress. That's why the thought of psychological issues causing stomach problems feels really strange in my case.
>>17350186
>But I don't drink, Drew.
Who cares. It's not about drinking it's about being together sharing fun times.
>>17350523
Well there can always be some repressed memories. Given you're here on 4chan means there IS/HAS been something wrong with you/your life.
Don't underestimate the affect of neglecting parents or emotional abuse of them. Even if it happened in childhood it is bound to affect your adult life. And thus your everyday life is too stressful for you to handle.
>>17350551
You actually might be right. I don't know about repressed traumas, but usually I have problems in situations that are somehow linked with some forms of tension. Up until now I haven't even considered it, as I usually tend just to get over even stressful situations just fine and even force myself to do things just to get over my biases, but now that you mention it, there can be found a certain patter.
I think this has actually been helpful. Thanks anon.
Once I killed a little duck by throwing him an apple. Then I hurled the corpse in a field.
Never told anyone.
>>17350599
>I think this has actually been helpful. Thanks anon.
You're welcome. Feels good to hear your thanks and makes me really happy to help :) Thats the reason why I am "wasting" my little spare time on my mobile phone browsing /adv ;)
I have always had thoughts of killing my parents and brothers because of how they treat my grandmother.i have killed a dog out of anger because of my mother and i didnt feel the least bit sad.
>>17347107
related
>>17349309
I've had a premonition of my own death. years ago when i was 15, i woke up with an overwhelming sensation that i was going to die on march 26th, 2018. I wake up everyday with that sensation.
for the past 8 years, my life has basically been a shit box. I'm terrified of my future. im terrified that i'll have lived the last moments of my life in the shit box im in now. You would think that knowing my supposed death date would give me the confidence to go kick life in the balls, but my fear is too crippling. I have confidence problems in general, partly stemming from my emotionally abusive father. Over the course of my life, he has always had a temper, and his profession involves a lot of physical labor, of which he asks me to help sometimes. I want to help him and be useful, but every time i always fail and he yells at me and makes me feel like an idiot. Sometimes i just cant take it so when im alone I curl up into a ball and start crying while calling myself a worthless loser that deserves to die.
I was molested when I was 12 and it has left with me with crippling guilt and insecurity. I break down and cry in social gatherings often because of how terrible I feel about myself. What do?
>>17346230
I lied compulsively about anything until I was in college because I know I wouldn't have people to hang out with if I didn't do that. And I was right.
Doing this during my formative years probably spoilt me from forming any genuine relationships with anyone. I don't have a way to actually connect with people outside if I told the truth, so I've completely stopped talking about myself.
As of now, I have absolutely no friends, and those people who shunned me for those lies I've made in high school keep trying to contact me. I never answered back because I know they're still the kind of people to go talking behind my back. I honestly think being this way is much better, even if it's screwing my job opportunities over.
>>17350952
if you have really bad confidence problems seek a psychiatrist. I don't know if I can help besides that. Try distancing yourself from your dad, and get out more. Don't go on 4chan anymore.
>>17349464
>Geralt in suit would look just ridiculous.
No, believe me.
>>17350967
I cry during social gatherings pretty regularly (when I approach mental instability) but I try to be around understanding people, people that, instead of being confused when I rush out of a restaurant in the middle of a conversation with someone, are supportive and respectful and greet me with smiles when I return.
>>17346230
I took a shit on the grounds of a church. Is that a sin?
>>17351495
I pissed while sitting down on a bench near my campuses garden at 11:00 at night. completely sober.
>>17351504
Were your pants still on?
>>17351625
yes, zipper down though. Sitting on the edge of the bench acting like I was reading my kindle. Nobody passed by but it was near a street where cars could see me but I was just reading my kindle.
>>17346230
>>17346230
I was third in a train of about six guys who were supposed to fuck a passed out girl that they had gotten shitfaced as some sort of gang initiation 20 or so years ago. I sat in the room with her on the bed and was scared that if I didn't do anything they would've fucked me up (they would've) but I felt bad about fucking her so I fingered her pussy and ass and jacked off on her. Don't particularly feel bad about it now but at the time it freaked me the fuck out. Was in said gang for 3 years before moving away and did tons of illegal shit (mostly selling/packaging/transporting meth and weed).
Had a cousin a couple years younger than me (her 13 me 15) and we were home alone for a night and ended up playing truth or dare which ended with lots of oral, and eventually me fucking her from behind. Even though we were both underage I felt really predatory afterwards and eventually cut off all contact with her. Still worry to this day that she told someone in the family. Pretty sure she didn't cause my family are a bunch of fucked up gossip whores.
Shot at some guys that shot at us during the whole gang thing. Car to car then took off. They didn't follow so always assumed I hit one. Never know. They were mexican drug dealers from cali/border area.
Cheated on a couple of girlfriends including the current one. Don't feel bad about it because she moved away and was wishy/washy on the relationship for a while and told me I could fuck who I wanted. I told her I didn't fuck anyone. I honestly don't think she fucked anyone so somehow I think I was in the wrong. Maybe it's the lie.
Pretty sure I was molested or something at a very young age due to the shit I have done sexually.
Think every day about killing myself but don't because of my son.
>>17346230
I've always dated girls who my friends agree are not good enough for me. Despite that, I'm always the one to be broken up with. Regardless of the circumstances, I'll always blame myself and I'll usually apologize to them (I actually counseled one through breaking up with me, once). I don't know why this happens, but it's this way with every single relationship. I think I might just get off on feeling like the better person.
>>17346230
Hi, OP.
>>17351985
>>17350952
You're not going to die on march 2018. You're not. It is an irrational fear.
I pushed away all my friends away to be cool. I was popular for a year. Now im here.
>>17346230
I'm still kind of in love with my cousin even though there's nothing between us anymore and it feels like shit
I have an eating disorder - that's not the secret, but I routinely masturbate to feederism/gaining fetish.
There is nothing more in life that I want than to have a relatively thin boy grow pudgy as I date him. Not to the point of being overweight or obese, just slightly chubby.
I feel so fucking ashamed of this, and I wish there was a way to get rid of this obsession of mine.
>>17352003
But what if?
>>17350808
What is this image trying to convey
>>17346230
ok i need advice. im 22, took care of my dad for 4 years before he died last year.
i have social anxiety and shit. i met a really nice girl on CL, i was just trying to get laid but i feel a connection and idk what to do. my heart wants her my brain says shes not worth it. what do i do?
>>17353523
Why she's not "worth it"?
>>17346230
I know how bad my alcohol abuse has gotten in the last couple of years. And after several wake up calls I know that me accomplishing goals/finding happiness, and continuing to drink the way I have are mutually exclusive. I don't do God, and I don't like 12 step. I go to therapy but every couple weeks I KEEP, FUCKING, UP. And when I do I can't even be around friends and family because what I've seen so far is they mostly see substance abuse as some kind of moral failing, which ultimately just makes me want to retreat and do it more. I don't have many friends around here who I can confide in that see it from my perspective without getting all "preachy." So far I've just been roughing it every night and going to therapy, but I don't know where I'd go about finding other fuckups like me who aren't in the cult of AA. What do?
>>17353541
shes a 9/10 im like a 5 or 6/10. shes got pircings and tattoos. i dont feel good enough. bad self esteem.
Every once in awhile, I flip the toilet paper roll in the opposite direction.
>>17353555
Then I'd say she's definitely worth the effort. It's like you've yourself already realized that your worst problems are your own esteem issues. You already have a clear point where to start improving.
In the end it's a question if it's "worth it" to change yourself and fight against issues you have. I don't think anyone else can give you an answer to that.
>>17353560
what i mean is shes the type of girl that has guys wanting her all the time, for good reason. ive been cheated on before, im shy and quiet and shes not. i dont have the balls, how do i get them?
>>17353573
I hear that for example in body building eating muscle builds actual muscle, so you could try eating balls of the different animals in effort to grow a pair. In a seriousness, you already have a very decent answer, figure out if she's a girl you want to change yourself for. If yes, and you're clearly aware of your own low points, start seeking advice somewhere else than on an imageboard. I cannot tell you how to "grow balls" as the process is absolutely subjective and all about confronting your own fears, which only you know.
>>17353594
ok what i really need help with is, how do you build confidence? its like the only time i feel like a man is when i make her cum, the rest of the time i feel like a kid. wtf?
I'm a female typically I'm attracted to guys on the thinner side who aren't too overly muscular. But for a while I've really wanted to hook up with a fat guy like someone who's maybe 100+ pounds over weight. I'm kinda shallow though I couldn't date someone who looks like that cuz I wouldn't be attracted to them. I don't know where this desire comes from.
>>17353623
Once again, it's subjective, as it's a mental thing. Google is your friend.
>>17353648
i cant find shit on google, asshole
>>17353667
Here's a helpful link.
http://lmgtfy.com/?q=how+to+be+more+confident
I think I'm beginning to understand where your problems come from.
>>17347107
Pretend to be the person you envision as an ideal personality
>>17348073
That's why you kill someone who means something to you
I regularly have sex with prostitutes.
>>17349166
I'm the male counterpart of your stpry who hasn't gotten as far as you have, thanks for the insight
>>17349787
True. I don't know why I did it, and I felt disgusted with me after I had done it and started crying. A few years earlier I had picked up another dog and threw it down a flight of stairs, but she was still chill with me after that.
7 years ago when I was 11 this girl who was around 16 forced herself on me then raped me
>>17354799
Any trauma?
>>17354799
But girls cannot be rapists, you silly anon!b
>>17354813
It definitely made dating and anything sexual hard because I think that shaped me in what I look for in a relationship both dating and sexual
>>17354832
True true I'm sorry
>>17354918
I understand, good luck anon.
I have been sexually molested by two relatives and beaten in my early childhood years by another. One who sexually molested got charged and so much shit went down that I stayed quiet about the other one. It eats at me every day however, he stopped guilt tripping (or scaring) me into sex until I was 22. After the fact he actually helped get me medical care for my mental Issues brought on by the actual rape from the first relative, help get me into school and helped with other bills. Not to keep me quiet (he stated he understood if I blabbed) how ever I chose not to tell because he is well respected and I don't want my husband (who well respects him) to think I am disgusting for having sex with someone who forced me to. I would rather kill myself then go through the mess I had to live with as a child again.
The one who beat me during my childhood was removed from the house when it was figured out he was beating all three of my siblings. I have an irrational fear of men because of him. I start shaking if I hear a man raise his voice at me and he in particular tends to have anger problems.
>>17354975
I want to add on, My job is really supportive. If a male raises his voice and starts yelling at me for no reason, the Manger will step in and tell me to go to the break room to calm down
>>17354563
It's pretty bad you did that lol but you're just a typical cruel human... that behavior is of the slightest deviance.
Show me a 6 or 7 year old that didn't have thoughts or do things like that and you have someone that is actually noteworthy.
>>17346230
Nice try FBI you won't get me that easily.
I don't have normal people emotions.
I think my parents know a bit, but not fully.
I remember when my parents bought me a game console when I was a kid, I had to fake being happy for them so that it looked like they expected.
I've never really "wanted" anything.
I have no plans or dreams.
Every day is just "Oh ok".
>>17353720
To what end? The only gain in killing is what it gets you, killing some random person gets you nothing other than an almost worthless experience and massive exposure.
You're either an edgy kid trying to be cool or a future guest of whatever state you live in.
>>17354975
I wish we had the technology to prove 100% the crimes people commit so we could kill people like your relatives.
>>17346804
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>>17355008
Apparently the Relative who beat me has had anger management issues since he was a child. So when he got angry as a teen he just took it out on us. Parents were working all the damn time and never saw us to school so it was the relatives job to do so. When we started coming to school with bruises, they called CPS and parents were given a choice of removing him or all three of us. They thankfully chose us.
He's back in our lives now and still has anger management issues. The last time he threatened me, my husband stepped in and Told him if he even THINKS about touching me in harm, He would beat the living shit out of him and would smile for the mug shot. My husband is a training Mui Thai fighter so I feel safe with him.
I feel immense guilt for putting my dog down and not being able to help him.
>>17355058
Sometimes it's for the best. It's hard to come to terms with it but it would be a lot better than watching your baby suffer.
I tried to kill myself twice but couldn't go through with it all the way. I act like a goof all the time and i'll never tell anyone I know because I dont want to be pitied.
>>17355058
nothing you could have done buddy.
I'm sure that you would have done anything in your hands if you knew he would get better for a longer time. But as it was I'm sure that you were only prolonging his suffering.
>>17355047
I talking more about the one you don't want to denounce because lf the shit you have been through.
I would try to get him killed, since you don't want to tell the world who he is.
Put my penis in an elderly dogs mouth for like 2 seconds. Fucking an engaged chick currently (though seriously considering ending it). sometimes look up things like 'teens nudist beaches' . Understand it's wrong at least, I hope and am trying to move on
>>17355072
I lost an entire side of the family because of the first one, Everyone believes him and I would be outcasted by the other half of my family if I came out.
My mental health is more important, and while I keep quiet I have turned it into a positive thing to help people get away from emotionally abusing partners.
While I am a hypocrite, I want to try to help others who might be in worse situations than I am.
>>17355083
hope you are using tor for those searches anon.
>>17355087
Doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to die a very painful death.
>>17355083
>>17346230
I spent my entire childhood on the computer, and I don't know how to leave it, how to stop wasting time on it when I feel tired or confused or want entertainment
>>17355440
Goet into IT you spend most of your day slacking off on a computer until something goes wrong then you work your ass off until its fixed then go back to slacking.
>>17355111
lol
>>17347730
>2
>>17354975
When you say "sexually molested" you mean you didn't liked or asked for it, right? I'm sorry for the violent one, btw.
>>17355691
That's cute.
>>17355810
I never made advances nor liked it. He always guilt tripped and got mad at me if I tried turning down his advances knowing I would comply out of fear. I started sleeping at friends houses to avoid him and eventually he just stopped trying to press me into it.
>>17356961
the first one or the second one? how did this go on till you were 22?
>>17354988
I agree. When I was a kid I did dumb shit like this all the time. I used to catch snails and use a cigar cutter to decapitate them; or I'd heat up a pan and fry them alive.
>>17357387
That's weird. I (the terrible pedo) never did anything like that. I hardly understand why somebody would hurt any other human or animal just for pleasure.
I'm not judging. It's just that I can't understand.
>>17356961
So (forgive me if this sounds disrespectful) if somebody that you liked back then would have tried to do that, and you had consented (with suggestive gestures and kisses)... Would you call it "abuse" now?
>>17357461
Read the whole thing bro
There's maybe a 50/50 chance that my husband is the biological father of our daughter.
When I was in 2nd grade my dad was dating some cunt with a lot if kids. The male child is two years younger than I am. One night my dad and I are staying at her house. I don't remember where her other children are but me and the younger male are in the children's bedroom alone.
The kid is hyper so idk why but I pretend to sleep so he will calm down or whatever.
I don't remember how it got to this point but he sticks his face in my asscheeks and does a "raspberry". Later that night my dad walked in and during that time I was touching his dick.
Around this time, I remember one of the other children (female) and I would scratch each other where we would ask. Eventually it got to both of us touching each other's genitals.
Years later I found out those children were molested by the woman's now ex boyfriend.
That man did stuff to those children, who in turn did stuff to me, and then I did stuff to them.
It's like a cycle.
Now I seek validation through sex and if someone isn't loving me physically, then I don't feel loved.
I remember telling my dad not to tell my mom after he came in to me touching that kids dick.
Hml
>>17357477
That's a very whorish thing to do.
>>17357477
You have to tell him.
>>17347111
Do you like adventure? Maybe you should "work" on the most irregular kind of job possible. Like staff for an Antártica mission
Its not a joke, search for those things
>>17346230
I like to get drunk and fight people, there's a fight club at my local bar after hours.
I accidentally roofied a girl. Well, not really an accident, I did it to save another girl. That story is more funny than anything else. I just left her on a bench with some money for a taxi.
I stole a snowman.
I used to break into people's homes when they're on vacation or not in for a long time. I usually had a bath in every house I broke into.
I nearly murdered a rapist.
I've never had a job for more than three months. I just need some extra cash because of my war pension.
I think I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Sometimes I black out for hours or days on end and wake up the next hour or maybe day with no recollection.
I haven't got a family, no friends either. I just do things for the sake of doing them. I don't get scared anymore.
>>17357589
>I nearly murdered a rapist
>nearly
Son, i am disapoint
I feel shallow, but can`t help feeling complete pride and happiness seeing how I am far more successful than my ex who took me for granted. Some kind of an equivalent feeling to ”Told you so!”
>>17346230
My ex was physically, emotionally and financially abusive, she would threaten to claim that I had raped her and kill herself if she didn't get her way, even after she cheated on me with other guys, I was the bad guy, any attempts to leave her were met with lies being spread about me to my family, violence and demands that I had to "make it up to her", usually by taking her away to cities in Europe (UKfag so it wasn't too expensive), or threats of harm, her cutting herself or threatening the already mentioned false rape claims and suicide.
When I did finally dump her by being a total cunt to her for 5 hours at midnight after she showed up at my work's xmas do accusing every woman of sleeping with me, she spread every lie possible, my family disowned me and I had to find a new job sharpish.
When I've told my closest friends that didn't believe her or disown me, they think it is funny, they simply don't believe what my ex was like.
It has been 2 years since I dumped her, now I'm 25 and I have a fear of women, even if I get over it, my only dating options will be the bottom of the barrel tier women (single mothers with nigger kids).
I broke up with my gf two years ago when I was going through an acid induced mental breakdown. Never told her anything or gave reasons why. She ended up dating someone else for a year. Long story short she cheated on him. I met with the guy at the bar cause he wanted to hear my story and he tells me that my ex said I raped her. I want to talk to her but I don't want to get into this bullshit especially with her mom working in law. I now see that trying to talk to her is a lost cause if she is just going to warp everything. She can be the queen of her own self destruction living a life of organized chaos. I gave up my part a long time ago.
>>17353547
Can you find a support group online? Then it's anonymous and also a continuous support system. I'm in the same position anon so I'm happy to share an email address if you need to chat I'm in Australia though. I'm going it alone at the moment and not too successfully as I live with a room mate that drinks a fair bit.
>>17357975
>She can be the queen of her own self destruction living a life of organized chaos.
Noice
I have a fat fetish. Like anything from a little fat on a skinny woman to my limit of probably 250 lbs. but my problem is I can't live it out in real life. My gf of one year was 110 lbs when we met. Now she weighs 122. The lbs look great on her but I fear that she may gain more. I love the way it looks on her, but I don't want her gaining weight for health reasons and my own psychological reasons I guess. She knows of my type and told me she doesn't plan on gaining weight it just happens.
>>17357991
Thanks anon. I have had a lot of time to reflect on the whole situation. I helps me to write about it and I convert the leftover pain into stories and poems. I am glad you enjoy it.
Smoked some spice in the basement at some party. Had really weird vibes so I went upstairs. There was a couple watching a show on the telly so I just stayed in the kitchen. My mind began to wander over to the knives and I began to wonder how many people I could kill at the party obviously starting with the two on the couch. It was really fucked up so I went outside for a walk to get ride of those crazy vibes.
>>17349413
Wtf....check yourself...poor animal...
>>17350697
Stay away from animals....you need help...
When I turn 21, I'm going to buy a handgun and kidnap my ex. I'll finally be able to feel happy once more in my life. Even if it's only for a brief moment before it all ends.
>>17358052
Um.. Don't do that bro
I think the idea of a dog fucking a woman is really hot. I dont want to have sex with animals personally, and women having sex with other animals doesnt appeal to me, but about 50% of what I jack off to is bestiality stories
Ive had 5 girlfriends, 3 of them long term. I told the most recent one and she wasnt into it, but didnt think it was that weird when I explained it was more of a fantasy than something Id actually try to get someone to do IRL
>>17358052
Yeah, about that, anon...
I don't think it's a good idea.
>>17358052
You won't feel happy once you get arrested for kidnapping. They'll fucking ride you like a Blackpool donkey.
>>17358064
I don't think he plans on living.
>>17358064
Can't arrest me if I'm dead.
She deserves do die in my arms, one way or another. The sad thing is I wouldn't even rape her. I'd just hold her and remember how my life used to have meaning before she ruined it. It could have been perfect
>>17358074
What did she do?
