how do you deal with being a short, ugly balding man with almost no money, no car, a shitty job, a family who's abandoned him and kicked him out of the house 5 years ago and friends who never call or reply?
I'm 24 and I find it really hard to stop thinking about suicide and self-harm every day. Biking through the city seeing people driving cars, seeing people with their friends, seeing couples holding hands, it all just reminds me of how much of a failure I am and how much I hate my life.
I've really tried to be a decent person. I guess I just wasn't good enough.
Well i think its your day. Theres gonna be a day when you laugh about it and start going on sprees then after each spree you will feel better.
>>17344865
I don't really want to kill people.
I love the human race.
I just hate myself for being a failure as a human.
>>17344834
Do u have a job?
>>17344885
I'm starting my last year of an engineering program, I've worked internships before. Right now I'm just working at an ATM assembling company. I'm sure when I graduate there will be more lucrative jobs available to me.
I've never had a job that paid much higher than minimum wage. Hopefully I'll get a better job when I graduate but for a very long time, I've been living alone and in poverty with little/no family support.
>>17344834
Try getting help. Sounds stupid, but is actually quite enjoyable if you get into it. It's the only thing keeping me together atm. I thought it was going nowhere, but now I paused for a week and realised how life ws before starting theray. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow's next session.
>>17345052
This too I'm thinking of doing. Or joining a church to volunteer or something. It'd be nice to help others.
>>17345075
Maybe both? Helping others can't replace a professional, and vice versa.
Actually, that's a really good idea, I don't have a job at the moment, so maybe I'll do some volunteer stuff. Thanks for the inspiration!
