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Suicidal thoughts
2016-07-07 08:00:33 Post No. 17333107
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Suicidal thoughts
Anonymous
2016-07-07 08:00:33
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I'm a 18 years old male and i am waiting fo my A level results to be released in about a month. Honestly, I didn't think I did too bad and been stressing out because I want to apply for dental schools but I feel like I didn't do well enough. I am so afraid that I didn't do well enough and too scared to face the harsh reality. I have been having suicidal thoughts recently, well actually for a long time as long as I can remember... but it reaches its peak recently, i cannot stop thinking about death, like literally every single moment, for example, I would wish a car hit me whole crossing the road and I gotten to a point where I am too afraid to look out my balcony. I honestly feel like life is too hard to live, I have no friends or anyone I can trust and I hate everyone tha i see, recently I can't even stand my face in the mirror. The only thing that has been keeping me from committing suicide is my mom but I feel like I'm starting to lose my grip...i have been having the same dream of staring at myself sitting at the edge of a cliff and I would fall with just one touch. I have no ideas what to do anymore, I think it would be better for me to leave this world right now than growing up to become a burden on everyone,right? I swear that I am not looking for attention and all of these words I have said are the things I have been keeping in my heart for years, and this is the first time I have ever told anyone. I am so tired of pretending to be happy in front of everyone , I am just too tired to go on