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I'm 24 now and ever since I was around 16 I've had anxiety. All the general shit you'd associate with it like feeling dizzy in large crowds, being twitchy as fuck, lack of confidence, feel like you're boiling inside when trying to talk to people etc.

The worst however is any time I eat I get the sensation that I'm choking and can't breathe. This shit happens a lot especially when I try to eat meat or large meals. I went out with friends the other night for dinner and after eating only 2/3rds of the meal, which wasn't that large to begin with I felt like I couldn't breathe and was choking. The pressure then builds up and you panic and panic while trying to act like everything's normal and then make an excuse to run to the bathroom to freak out like you're dying in some stall, or you wake up in the middle of the night unable to catch a breath feeling like you're choking on phlegm.

It's honestly gotten to the point were I kinda just want to shoot myself. I literally cannot eat a fucking meal without this sensation of being unable to breathe, feeling like the food is caught in throat or chest or whatever. I've had camera tests, blood tests etc done and everything came back normal so multiple times the doc has just said it's in my head. I've tried anxiety medication and it just fucks with my head and makes me feel sick and shit.

Even when I'm sitting there telling myself it's all in my head and not real, it still fucking happens. I just had a cup of tea with a few biscuits, then spent the last half hour walking around my flat light headed to the point where I feel like fainting and any tiny amount of light feels like a flash of the sun and I get dizzy because I feel like I can't fucking breathe.

I wouldn't wish this shit on anyone but I fucking hope there's at least someone here that's had this who can offer any advice.