Should I simply let go my education?
When I got into college I started a degree in mathematics, which I drop after one year; then started another degree which I finished last year, and this year I started a master degree.
Now I'm 24, and at the start of this year I went back the mathematics, but since I have had many things to do (and I didn't care much about it to be honest) I didn't study a bit for the mathematics courses I took. I have tests in this week, but also presentations to do for courses in the master degree. I don't feel much attracted to the idea of studying mathematics right now, but it is something I still want to do - I think I would like to finish it, but everything else always seems more important than that.
I feel stupid for not being capable enough, and I will feel even more stupid after failing the tests, if I take them. I'm considering simply not going, or at least skipping one of them. I have one next thursday, and another next friday, so this leaves a few days to study, plus the presentation I have this week and the next.
I don't know what to do anymore. Do I have problems to simply let go? If I abandon the degree I will feel stupid, because I will do it because I wasn't smart enough for it - and I'm not, it is unlikely that I will ever produce any work in mathematics, but I've been attached to it for a long time, and if I stay in it I will fail often and I will be as hurt as I'd be if I drop it. It looks like a lose-lose situation.
>mathematics degree
For what purpose?
>>17301060
I don't know anymore.
Because I like mathematics, I think. But I feel I may have been more attracted to the idea of being a mathematician than doing mathematics.
>>17301024
b'bump...
