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2016-06-01 03:41:28 Post No. 17206144
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2016-06-01 03:41:28
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Hey /adv/.
This is a long story and a hell of a mess, so here goes. Really looking for help or someone to talk to. I know that I'm shitty. So, don't bother with telling me. I know.
Some background information about me- I have long term depression 10+ years, moderate social anxiety and PTSD from physical and emotional abuse growing up. Dropped out of university around 2 and a half years ago.
So, I moved to a big city from my home town with a girl that I'm madly in love with around 2-3 years ago.
We've had our problems, but we've always worked things out until recently when she had an abortion and shit sort of built up and hit the fan. I had been out of work for a number of months due to my mental health conditions- I was on assistance but it was a really big stressor on our relationship.
We had a big fight, I broke up with her in the heat of the moment and she told me to move out. Been living in a house with strangers for a month.
During this time, me and my ex had been intimate and we talked every day because we're still in love with each other.
We had been making a lot of progress and I've been taking steps to find work and get my life together and fix the problems with us.
However in this time she has been meeting other people and hooking up to my knowledge.
We were hanging out tonight, went for dinner and just generally having a good time, until I noticed a set of keys that belong to some guy I know she's been seeing- so I lost it and tossed them as hard as I could into the street. She was mad as fuck and drove me home- on the way, there was a CD playing in the car of a band that this fucking guy is in so I tossed it out the window along with the case. She peeled the fuck out and told me to get out. So, I walked home and tried to message her but she blocked me.
I feel totally fucking garbage right now, and I know that what I did was jealous and immature but I'm not some cuck.
Really don't know what to do with myself, kind of want to kill myself.