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2016-05-29 10:46:40 Post No. 17195345
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2016-05-29 10:46:40
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Hi /adv/ this might be strange,
I do not know how to start this, but I will jump right in and say I am a liar. I am extremely deceptive, I am extremely manipulative, and I am extremely, objectively, scary, to the point where I even scare myself to the point where I am thinking that therapy might be an intelligent option.
You might be asking why I am here, writing this, but it is because I do not want to be this person anymore. Over the last few years I have developed these extremely complex lying personality that it gets to the point where if I tell a truth, then I feel actual reward, I feel actually really good that I did that, and it feels unique, and you know that is a problem when you do feel that and realize it is because you rarely ever actually do not lie.
I have been trying to remove this persona that I've built up, and trying to revoke life of this disgusting vile being that arose in me but to raze something so powerful is an extremely difficult challenge.
So far I can honestly say I am doing well, I've only told one lie in the passed day where I could have easily done more, which is really good, but I never, NEVER want to do it again.
I have been thinking of suicide since that could help a lot, because I am afraid of hurting someone whom I might fall close with and raze their life.
I'm really not sure what to do, and to clarify about what I mean by lying, I do not mean anything small, or jsut typical shit that you might think is just a tiny histrionic, little lie, I am talking about actual constructive, literally genius, seriously complex lies with huge plans and whatever, I hope that clarifies.
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