I'm a masturbation addict. It's not just that I feel guilty after I masturbation, but that I'm excessive in how frequently and roughly I do it. 2-3 times a day, first thing when I wake up, right before I go to sleep, and sometime in the middle of the day. 1.5-3 hours a day, and my pens is dry and covered in friction burns..
The masturbation in itself is painful, but what I cling on to is the fantasies in my head, where I'm a desirable man with desirable women. I used it to cope with my social isolation (abusive homelife that I'm no longer stuck in), but the habit is still there. I've let myself go, gained weight and lost hygiene.
I want to start taking care of myself. I want to be more self-aware. But I live alone, and when I feel the urge it's so easy to justify the act to myself, thinking that I'm not going to have actual sex anytime soon and my body is disgusting(skinnyfat, covered in skin lesions from psoriasis), so what's the point?
I'm going to mention this to my therapist Saturday, I just need somewhere to start. I need help.
>>17112954
Start fapping to your reflection until you find yourself attractive.
>>17112954
>filename
What?
>>17112954
Masturbation is the symptom, not the problem. BUT...
Your therapist probably won't tell you this, but honestly your logic about fapping for relief because you won't be getting sex any time soon is spot on. Unless you're willing to have no standards, chasing tail is just a train wreck when you don't have your life together.
The PROBLEM with this is that you won't be motivated to get your life together if you're fapping every day to a digital harem of 10/10s and tricking your body into thinking your sexual needs are beyond fulfilled.
I recommend you spend the rest of the day reading this: https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1ha8yk/how_to_succeed_at_nofap_a_definitive_guide_based/, and all the links it recommends. It will take you several hours to get through it all. When you're done, you'll have opened your eyes about the real harm you're doing to yourself by fapping (and its not fucking balding like your pic suggests. The damage is purely towards your mind.)
God speed OP.
>>17112979
I just google excessive masturbation to find a somewhat relevant picture.
>>17113007
Thank you for the input. I've read through the guide before, and attempted nofap quite a few times. Recently I make it about a week, sometimes two, though years ago I stopped entirely for the better part of the year.
I think the biggest reason I've failed is in my emotional perspective. I know how badly my lack of physical exercise is affecting my body because in the past I've had healthy physical goals(weightlifting and martial arts), but because I've never had a stable and healthy social/sexual life, I don't have the a realistic picture of how it's affecting my emotional health, even though I know it is. I guess it's sort of like having always been addicted to drugs, you can know that you're unhealthy, but you don't /feel/ that you are because you've been caught up in it so long. Or maybe like being hungry so you choose to eat the junk food immediately available to you, knowing its bad for you, instead of waiting to eat the healthier food available later, because you've never eaten it and frankly aren't sure it'll be available anyway.
>>17113103
What's stopping you from hitting the gym?
>>17113108
Nothing but my mental inhibition. I've been saying for months now I'll get back into martial arts tomorrow and haven't done it, even though it's on my mind so much. Day to day, it's "I want to be there, but I don't want to go".
>>17112954
have you quit porn? It is honestly so much easier to not jerk it when porn isn't an option. Obviously the desire to visit sites comes up but you can't give in, you have to think of what you are trying to achieve, the end goal.
>>17112954
>that filename
holy kek
Then why do I have a full fucking beard?
>>17112954
>2-3 times a day
>my pens is dry and covered in friction burns
I fap regularly 2 times a day for 10 something years and I have never, ever had that. Might have something to do with your skin condition though.
A lot of anons in this thread has pointed out the truth, masturbation is merely a symptom to a more deep-rooted problem, if you try to stamp it out it would only reappear as another negative part of your life further down the line.
Don't be one of those retarded ledditors who goes nofap, see a therapist and try to solve the real issue.
