Can I get some perspective on this?
I feel/am nearly entirely alone. I live with my Dad and I've been a neet for 5 months and I've been relishing in it. Living and contributing to society sickens me and I enjoy being alone because everywhere I've been & worked has exposed me to the simplicity of the human mind and it upsets me that most people on this planet cant stand to look at themselves and question their own existence. No one is special or important, no one is better or worse, no one is destined for greatness because in the end we all pass away and turn to dust. Living on this planet has shown me that there could never be a singularity, there could never be a "greater good" and no one is willing to give things up for the benefit of someone else. I watch people work, talk, shop, eat and its all the same over and over and over. We all have the same superficial problems and concerns. We all have jobs and interests and hobbies that we think makes us special. People are so disgusting and I feel like I hate being alone but I hate people... and I just don't know what is best for me to do in this situation. I've been a whore most of my teens up till now, Ive drunk and done drugs because its better than being sober and having to hang out with people I hate. I don't value my body and I don't value most of the life around me. I see nothing but emotional blur. There is no meaning to life... but am I supposed to just get a job or kill myself at this point?
Thoughts?
Pic related, my ex's GF looks like her and I am extremely jealous. Lol Unrelated to this matter I guess though.
I guess this a shitty thing to ask on here.
You're perspective is selfish. You admitted you were a selfish person in your post. You would rather leech off of someone else than get out there and live your life like those that you criticize so harshly. Finding something that makes you want to experience life isn't something to be ashamed of. You're missing the bigger picture here. Yes consumerism is shit that's obvious but that isn't all there is to life only a small part of it. Step outside of your box. Pretend you were in someone else's place. Stop being so selfish and cynical.
how old are you
yes life is fucking garbage but what can you really do about it?
>>17111747
But there's nothing out there that I'd want to experience. Life is shit, and I don't want to be a part of society. I hate it all... Of course I am selfish, that's why I am here; I can't stop thinking about myself and how much I hate everyone else. Nothing compares to this obsession and it keeps me from wanting anything. But there's nothing else I want.
>>17111607
>I'm a typical nihilistic NEET who thinks my "Unique Thoughts™" somehow make me better than everyone else while still deflecting from this by standing by my statement that "DUDE EVERYTHING IS SHIT LMAO"
>I'm a mooch but it's okay because everyone is dumb for not being a fucked up, depressed slacker like me
>I'M A GIRL BTW TEEHEE GIVE ME ATTENTION :^)
Literally end your life
>>17111753
I am 21,. I can drink my life away and live in the middle of nowhere on govt cheques till I die. Is that a good plan? At least that way, I don't need to mooch off my dad or deal with people I hate.
>>17111769
I mean... I get these responses plenty of times.. it's not like you're really giving me anything to work with here. I see that femanons are more open about actually revealing they are females on /adv/ so I wasn't afraid to do the same... I mean, we all want attention don't we? Like.. I posted here for advice regardless of whether or not I'm a girl..
And I never came off as if I was better than anyone else... I put myself down in this whole speil (sorry if you couldn't remember since being a girl is all you could point out, I guess I got your attention) Is there a reason you're still on here wasting your time on such a shit part of the internet that makes you so much better? I wanted thoughts on my situation, that reconciles any assumption that you have of me just thinking I'm so self involved to that extent.
OP, you sound exactly like me except I live with my girlfriend. I'm very lucky to have someone as patient as her who lets me shitpost all day instead of getting a job. My family don't approve though, obviously, but I don't give a shit frankly. I have absolutely no desire to ever work and am perfectly happy living this way until I die.
Fortunately for you, there's a very easy solution: get married. Being a housewife is like being a NEET but socially acceptable.
>>17111793
As long as your girlfriend can deal with it. I can see parents managing it.. but someone who's even a worse enabler; Partners. I see the value in working, and I see how I am being a complete shit head for sitting on my ass...
But god is it ever good to just not have to be a part of society man.
I wouldn't want to get married though, my excuse to be totally useless in the real world would have to be to stay home and look after messes... and without kids; there aren't much.
>>17111790
You are extremely self obsessed if you give your warped rationale that much importance. There are two sides of ego and you're on the loathing end. You need to humble yourself and realize the entire world doesn't revolve around your philosophical loathing and low image of yourself.
>>17111808
Okay, now I'm really confused. Do you want to be a NEET or not? What's the problem here?
>>17111822
I think I am quite the opposite though... I know the entire world does not revolve around my opinions and myself... that's why I am at home and others are alive out in the world doing things and experiencing the most. I don't want to be a part of that and that doesn't make me self obsessed. I have a reason to have a low image of myself, I am not a good person and my previous attempts to belong to society have all failed. I've had 6 jobs in the past 2 years, I dropped out of uni and I have abandoned all my friends. I have no persuable interests and the ones that do only scratch the surface of what I could possibly further understand of that particular hobby/interest. I've sold my body for $$ on numerous occasions, Ive abandoned people who care about me out of sheer fear and distrust. I want to be alone, that doesn't make me self obsessed, My life has been meaningless and I can't find a meaning to stay a part of a society that doesn't like/want/need me.
I have acknowledged that my opinion is probably an unfavorable one + I don't think I'm far from being humble in the first place, nothing would make me happier than just living in squalor in the middle of nowhere all by myself. 2nd to best is volunteering in a 3d world country I feel like that would be the absolute only thing that would give my life meaning... but that's a hard thing to arrange without a Bachelor's Degree in Canada.
>>17111834
I want to be a neet, but I recognize that morally it's wrong when you are an adult and still dependent on someone else's income. Of course I enjoy it... I don't have to work hard for something that most people struggle with every minute in some parts of this world. Its selfish and it makes me sick and ashamed. + I don't want to get married.
>>17111874
You should see a therapist then, there are no solutions that you can come by in a thread that will last 6 hours at best. A lot of people have had difficult lives yet they still make the best of them, I hope one day you can as well.
>>17111896
I don't want a "good life" to me its either work a shitty job then die or just die. I'm prepared to stay unhappy, I've dealt with that. It's really cliche, but I've been that shitty black widow female friend that's just slept and bounced. I cant maintain human connections.
I don't want to make the best of life.
So I guess the purpose of this thread is moot,
I'm alone and wanted to vent.
Done, problem solved.
>>17111874
just out of curiosity what kind of jobs have you had
>>17111880
>I want to be a neet, but I recognize that morally it's wrong when you are an adult and still dependent on someone else's income.
No, it's not morally wrong. That's capitalist thinking which has been ingrained in people from the day of their birth in order to get them to submit to wageslavery. People wouldn't keep the system running if they weren't guilted/shamed into spending 8 hours a day for the rest of their lives doing something they hate to line the pockets of the fat cats at the top.
If your Dad is happy to support you, then there's no moral issue. Equally true for your boyfriend/husband. You don't have to get married to be a housewife, though it's certainly in your interest to do so.
You should read "Notes from Underground" by Dostoevsky
OP, do you play vidya? You should post your steam or something. You sound like you could do with someone to talk to
>>17111924
Walmart, Dairy Queen, Babysitter, Subway, Kitchen Soux Assistant, McDonalds, File Archiver for a Dental Office, Cam Girl & Escort.
Any job that accepts entry level, which is the lot.
>>17111933
That's an interesting perspective. Thanks, I never usually think about it that way.
>>17111941
No vidya besides Overwatch right now which will close from the 9th-24th... Used to play League but no one's convincing me to get into that bullshit again.
+ Why do you think I have no friends? I am a user. I use people and then throw them away when I am done with them. What are we gonna do, flirt???
>>17111951
>Why do you think I have no friends?
I was thinking more along the lines that you wouldn't want to have these sorts of conversations with your friends, hence you posting here.
>I am a user. I use people and then throw them away when I am done with them.
Sounds more like you push people away because of your own personal issues. True sociopaths are pretty rare, although lots of people present themselves that way as a sort of defence mechanism.
>What are we gonna do, flirt???
No, we'd play video games and talk about shit. Not everything has to be sexual and not everybody has ulterior motives, although I can see why you would think that given the description you gave of yourself and your life so far.
>>17111973
I've had these conversations with my friends.. I just think the difference is that it seems to just sustain me temporarily. And I do have my own issues.. But I know that I am a user, I use people for my own benefit. And I'm sorry, I don't have any games on steam. You can give me your skype or blizzard account if you play overwatch.
Why is everyone taking OP seriously? He's an edgy fedora tipping little shit that's clearly underaged
>>17111993
I would timestamp with ID but I'm not taking the bait. Believe it or not? LOL.
>>17111607
I used to be like you, tried killing myself but pussied out in the end because I knew that it would ruin my Mums life. Having dramas with these sorts of thoughts again, same shit, hate society, hate people, don't like the structure of the modern world, angry or depressed all the time blah blah blah.
What I did learn though is that you're insignificant and no one really cares, you're a drop in an ocean. It's down to you to find what you think is good and try to preserve that, not harness it which is what lots of people do but preserve it for other people. I think that is the vast majority of the meaning of life. Drugs never help, they just help to blur things and make shit easier to deal with. If you don't want to deal with it then yeah, kill yourself. The planet doesn't need another person that will just ultimately destroy it. If you do want to find some measure of happiness get off your ass and do something that makes you feel alive. Not in the cliché sense or anything like travel, work with kids etc. but you said you want to work in a 3rd world country. That will give you perspective; you can do it without a degree. Jump on any website and do some research. You just sound too lazy to find the answers to the questions you're asking, hence venting on forums.
>>17112049
So then it's suicide or volunteer. Alright.
>>17112060
Yeah if that is how you took what I said you've got way more to learn about yourself and life. If you hate life and people so much, why would you want to be here? End it. But you don't because you actually know that you have the potential to be happy, you're just too fucking lazy to find it and you want it to find you. If society is your problem, go be self sufficient some place. But actually commit to it and do it, don't be a pussy.
>>17112070
I dont think it's because I am lazy, but I really do appreciate your opinion.
>>17112090
If it's not you being lazy then what is stopping for you from completely detaching?
>>17112134
My dad told me he'd kill himself if I died.
>>17112161
What do you care? Nothing matters, right, little mister nihilist?
>>17112168
>mister, I see what you did there.
>>17112168
Yeah I kinda agree with this guy, of you really believed what you're preaching you wouldn't give a fuck about that. Kinda shoots your whole view down. Shows you actually do care about some things.
>>17112184
more that i feel sorry for him
>>17112190
Then you aren't a nihilist either, boy. You aren't a girl, you aren't 21, you aren't a nihilist, you're just lazy. Grow the fuck up.
>>17112198
Lol, why has this thread become filled with accusations? if you don't believe the facts I'm presenting then fuck off. Christ. Sorry im not fucking gullible enough to "show tits or gtfo" My god. So much for this fucking thread, I'm just getting attacked by stupid guys.
>>17112198
Yeah gotta agree, time to grow the fuck up.Thread is now redundant.
>>17112208
Bye bye then assholes. I ask for advice and get attacked. Fuck you.
I can relate. I was on and off homeless by the age of 17 and wanted nothing more than to live in a commune and drink myself to death at an early age. If you'd spoken to me at 20 or so you'd have seen an asshole afraid to take direction in a world which was fairly alienating and which had so far been bullshit to me.
I had a bit of musical talent though and I started playing in bands and touring and I got in with better people and better living environments and it became something worth showing up and switching on for. That then progressed into a scholarship to study music at university which pretty much sustained me throughout my 20's with on and off self employed work and bits and pieces. Moving cities was a big deal and fairly life changing for me as well, being prepared to change completely if needed.
I had a disastrous wedding and divorce during that decade as well though which was a bit of an eye opener both in relation to how needy I could be and some kind of complex trying to fix another in order to fix myself (she was equally nuts), but it was cool because she was multinational and I got to visit and spend time in a couple of different continents.
I'm in my early/mid 30's now and I own a house and a car, both are run down and pretty shit, but I own them they are mine and it represents something which I'm pouring my time and energy and attention into which is more positive.
Still trying to rationalise the nature of the absurd and our obsession with goals and tasks in the workplace in the face of such ceaseless absurdity, but you've got forward looking or backwards looking to make as a choice at all points. I can dwell upon the inequalities of the past or I can embrace the positive potential within the future.
I'm very happy to be alive right now. I'm glad I'm not dead.
>>17112210
What advice? "I'm a nihilist neet should I kill myself I can't lol?" If you like being useless then keep being useless. If you don't like it then stop being it. What the fuck else do you want to hear? I'm not gonna tell you that you've got a nice boipussy if you aren't gonna show it off.
>>17112230
I am really glad you're in a good place, your life sounded difficult. I guess I have the potential.. My ex bf said that I could pursue singing which I guess means that I also have a bit of a musical talent but I have zero confidence and to me my only option to pursue that is maybe some solo nights at bars downtown? But my dad wont let me go alone so that's kind of difficult without friends... Aside from that, I have no way out of this shit unless I go back to retail/cash and I really cant stand it... it's soul sucking and desu.. how could I live until my 30's without any school training? You're really lucky to get a scholarship for music... it's pretty damn hard here in Canada.. /:
Thanks for posting though, You put some things into perspective but I dont know.... I lose all hope when Im not living for someone else since I've dated since I was 14. This is the longest I've been single (4 months) and its scary... but what's scarier is that every guy I've been with has only been to make me feel better.. I ruin people's lives, I don't feel good enough to be alive and I dont want to be around others who can somehow "deal" with the world around them.
>>17112272
Well shit. I did have it fairly rough, sexually abused as a child, broken home, single parent who didn't cope and took a lot of shit out on me, violent/controlling/nuts manipulative home environment and I missed a lot of school. That is what pushed me into homelessness.
I can tell you about a friend of mine who grew up very insecure and needy. She slutted it big time growing up because she felt she needed someone in her life because she wasn't confident enough to handle it alone. She was a big drink and drug fiend and was pretty attracted to drug addicts and violent guys involved in crime who'd treat her badly. She hated herself for her weakness in needing these people and substances even though they basically ruined her self esteem and confidence.
She had enough when her fella was asking her to hide firearms. She went single for several years, got a job working in a school, turned out to be really good with problem inner city kids especially from poor backgrounds and she fast tracked into a teaching role followed by a academy management program.
Oh and she overcame her confidence issues and started singing with function band with regular paid gigs as well. She doesn't have a massive amount of creativity to desire to express herself musically, but she has a bitching singing voice so it was a perfect gig for her.
Her 30's are nothing like her 20's. Life does actually change as your perspective changes and you learn more about yourself.
>>17112293
That's really inspiring... Makes me sad :/
>>17112306
You should be sad. You're a parasite.
>>17112310
Fuck you nigger you can't talk to a girl like that. People like you make me sick to be a man in today's society
