I asked out a man because I am lonely and now he is taking advantage of me and I

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I asked out a man because I am lonely and now he is taking advantage of me and I can't leave. I asked him out out of loneliness. I want someone who I connect emotionally to but have up after years of not finding one and I decided to ask out this guy who thinks I look good but he isn't that emotionally connected to me. I think he's schizophrenic or some craziness in his mind. So when he rambles on I always just put up with it but I don't enjoy talking to him . I even asked him to stop rambling cause he usually makes no sense but he doesn't get it and keeps on. It's actually frustrating and head hurting to listen to him. Anyway he is only with me cause I have a lot more access to money and cause he likes very skinny tall girls and he is with me for sex obviously. I like sex a lot so I never turn him down and we used to make love like 5 times a day for 6 months now I started refusing him idk why but lately I do not want sex and he has been coercing and raping me every day. An example is today when I was napping he tied my hands behind my back and I woke up to him with his fingers in me, of course I told him stop fucking me and kicked him and he just has to hold me down since I'm weaker. It's sad but this relatiinship seems parasitic and he's making it worse cause not only is he unintentionally abusive with his blabbering as if I was his diary all the time but he also uses me for sex. It feels pretty bad and desu I'm desperate for any type of affection so I dint want to leave him.