I can no longer see a future where I don't end up killing myself.
I am, in all likelihood, about to drop out of college. My grades are good enough to pass, most of the time, but nowhere near good enough to maintain my scholarship, which I really can't afford to go to school without. If I drop out, I don't think my family will disown me, but they definitely won't want me moving back home. That leaves me with no idea what to do or where to turn.
I've been diagnosed with clinical depression and have frequent vivid fantasies about murdering the homeless people that sleep on campus. Most people I meet think I'm a creep, and even my friends think I'm, and I quote, "the most likely to snap and shoot up the school." I'm on a couple different medications, but they haven't done much beyond ease things for a week or two.
I don't want to die.
Help.
start drinking and have a good cry about your problems. then move on the day after and continue your fucked up life
>>16997060
>start drinking
Honestly considered it. But I'm 20 and don't have any connections through which to get alcohol.
>>16997066
ask mommy or daddy to buy u some. if not just ask someone. you said youre in school, are u really that shut in.
>>16997090
>are u really that shut in.
Yes. I have some friends, but they're all hyperreligious. I don't know how that happened.
>>16997101
if ur in school and cant ask someone to pick up a bottle for u im gone. good luck bud wait til next year before u start drinking alone and sobbing out your problems.
>>16997056
>vivid fantasies about murdering the homeless people that sleep on campus.
Future Patrick Bateman confirmed
Murder a homeless
Atleast it will be a statisfying end to your normal life