I have never practiced self harm but am seriously thinking to start because the resulting damage will give me enough time to achieve the goals I care for.
I know it sounds ridiculous, but if I swallow something I am allergic to or if I cut myself badly... this would give me enough time to get out of a professional predicament.
Of course this will make me a fake and a liar... because it is calculated goal-oriented action.
However therapy is kicking in and my mind is trying to slow me down in this.
I know 4chan is what it is. Seriously when you end up on 4chan asking advice about this... well... chances are anons will say "go.kill yourself and stop whining".
Apparently, I have succeded to talk myself out of this shit.
Don't be idiot. We live in a capitalism. If you need proof of not being able to do stuff, just go to doctor and use power of money to get a resolution you seek.
Hurting yourself sound like a bad idea.
>>16995808
>Don't be idiot. We live in a capitalism. If you need proof of not being able to do stuff, just go to doctor and use power of money to get a resolution you seek.
>Hurting yourself sound like a bad idea.
So should I use money to get time to earn money.
I need $ 9,000 which I don't have.
I need a reason to suspend my course, leave this country (suspension = no visa) earn the money and resume.
They don't let me do this 'for financial reasons'. They just let me do this 'on compassionate grounds'.
So I am pretty much fucked.
I can walk away of course. But this is tantamount to throwing in the bin my past 4 years of study.
>>16995817
Man I am glad I live in a country where you don't pay for uni.
Also your plan sounds like mission impossible plan.
>>16995835
Think I moved to this country to study! How a fool was I to think that?
I put myself in this situation.
My therapist said that I should stop blaming myself. My mental illness slowed my progress... and in the past year I have jad all sorts of bowel inflammations.
But I was so arrogant I thought I could endure it and not ask for sick leave. So I had to apply for an extension later. And here we go I have to pay.
But now I am too shattered to ask my family.
So I am obtaining what I wanted. Self defeat at all levels. Ain't I smart?
