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2016-03-22 13:52:23 Post No. 16945306
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2016-03-22 13:52:23
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I kinda need serious advice on this one, because it's killing me.
>be me
>move out of country at 13
>dad's an alcoholic, mom finds another guy, moves to him and takes me with her
>have trouble settling in
>start isolating myself
>virtually no friends
>get diagnosed with depression at 14
>refuse treatment
>mom supports me on it
>isolation becomes overwhelming
>life goes on somehow
>4 years pass
>i drop out of high school due to isolation
>find this distance high school tuition place
>keep signing up but never going due to fear
>be me, 24
>i overcame depression, anxiety, fear of socializing, etc.
>did it all by myself; kinda proud of that
>found an amazing job
>still no high school
>planning on finishing it and going to college
>actually get to have dreams about my future
>still lonely as shit
>want to change
>final step to full recovery
And here's the issue: I am not sure if I am simply making it up, I am definitely unsure if it's lack of communication skills, and I do not know if it's because I am merely out of practice, but I am literally incapable of establishing any form of lasting, "quality" contacts with people. The most I've gotten thus far, are some dates with girls that I never saw again.
Back in the days, I used to overly analyze everything. I'd pay attention to what I say, how I say it, the general flow of the conversations, where things would start falling out, etc. Now, I try to do the same thing, but I am actually unable to find where I am fucking up, and due to my history, I am kind of obligated to assume that it is my fault.
I've met an INSANE amount of people, and it simply does not happen. Small talk goes fine, I balance out between asking reasonably interesting questions, making simple jokes here and there, and paying attention to the other person, but that's just it. It ends miserably and forever.
I am not overweight, I look good, I've been told that I am very intelligent, I can talk about anything thrown at me.
Help me out, adv.
