How come I can jack off to the though of getting blown/blowing a guy but I feel super mega gross and guilty after doing it? I cant watch gay porn. I can get off to straight porn without the guilt.
what gives?
You're excited by the idea of having sexual activity with a man, but you didn't accept this as part of your identity.
Unless you accept it as part of yourself, you'll keep feeling guilty.
btw, this doesnt mean you're "gay".
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heterosexual%E2%80%93homosexual_continuum
as people become aroused their disgust response becomes less sensitive. this can explain feelings of shame and disgust that may follow certain sexual experiences.
>>16907672
yeah but idk if its me or just derived from lonely and desperateness
