Early in life I fucked up. I dropped out of college for three years to persue a career in pro-gaming. Realizing at the age of 20 that it wasn't going to happen I went back to school again.
Being the competative person, with high ambitions I started working my ass off in university. Not only getting good grades but also working on extracurricular stuff which take up all my time. It takes all my time because I do try to make up for my lost early years. Though as a consequence I have barely had any vacation in the last few years but also never really had the time to socialize and do fun stuff, meet people, be with my family or get a girlfriend.
I have now been doing this for 5 years and the fruits of my all hard work are beginning to payoff, I have been given the oppertunity to do an internship at one of my dream companies.
Eventhough I just do not feel happy! I work I sleep I work I sleep. But I really have the feeling I cant slack off because I already slacked off for 3 years when I was a kid. I can take this job which I have been working so hard for but it is even more work sleep work sleep, and will be even further away from the people I know.
TLDR: Not taking the dreamjob will kill me, as I want to do meaningful stuff in life. I am not sure if I will get this oppertunity again when I slack off because of 3 wasted years. Though not having a social life also kills me.
Help! Before I just kill myself and get over with it. What do I do.
If you even consider a job your dreamjob you should hang in there until you get it since it wont be long until you do, right? Then you could do the social part when you get it! I think i am complete opposite of you at the moment, and as a result i'll be fucked in a couple of years. If i had my dreamjob before my eyes like that, i'd hang in there! You could also be a litte social and still work hard. Worked 8-5 + band practice (serious) everyday last fall and i still had a little time and weekends for social things.
