This is probably gonna seem really fucking dumb but bare with me if you will.
Broke up with my first long term girlfriend last year, took some time to do some soul searching and lived a little.
I started thinking of all the things I liked about my ex. She had some serious issues which is why the relationship dissolved but there was quite a bit that I liked about the relationship. First and foremost was the feeling that I could just let loose around her and not worry about offending her. I'm sure it sounds childish but it was actually quite liberating to be able to curse freely and have her do the same. I could essentially just be myself and not worry about anything.
Now, I started seeing another girl a few months ago, and she's great. She's in a much more stable position, emotionally and otherwise than my ex. But I'm not feeling the same level of freedom around her that I was with my ex. I don't know if it's just a matter of time; to be honest I don't remember how long it took for my ex and I to reach that level. But it worries me a bit. Maybe I'm just desperate to get that back and it's clouding my judgment a bit.
Anyway, how do I handle this? Should I just wait and see if I eventually reach this level with the new girl? Do I talk to her about it directly?
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