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2015-12-29 19:21:49 Post No. 16617877
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2015-12-29 19:21:49
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Hey /adv/, I feel bad. I feel hurt
I can't grow a proper relation with no one because of myself and my fucked up situation,I feel like I'm not worth the time, the smile other people. I am a poor semi-orphan and my mother is a shitty brainless woman. She's insensitve, an old immigrant who can't even talk the language of the country, a stupid muslim old woman. I can't go against her since she's alone in this, and it would mess my brother, mys two sisters up. My big sis doesn't get shit, she's stupid, agressive, intuitive rather than thinking, she gets in the way, and right when I believed she's comprehensive, she shat on every thought I have about my mother, all about that "that's your mother" as if we couldn't imply she's done bad stuff in her life. She wouldn't even get it a lightyear after
This life's messing me up, I don't want to kill myself or anything, I want to enjoy it, I wanted a simple life, simple parents, the financial situation don't matter to me, I need(ed) real parents, how come I'm 20 and still getting sad over this stupid family. I don't to live now, it think about my little brother and my little sis, they need my joy and I need theirs...
I'm too poor to get off on my own, I'm in my study but I feel I'm going insane before the end of it, I don't want to be that depressed dude who pushes everyone away, I'm the sad clown of my friends and I can't tell them any of it. Too poor to get any psychiatrist, too poor to leave the house without ending up in the streets
How do I heal now, I can't get into real friends I've got this sweet lady who's into me and because of my family I don't want her involved, so I implicitly push her off while she's obviously trying to hook us up.
I had nightmares of her, when she enjoy saying that I'm stupid, ugly. I feel broken totally. The crying little guy in me is silenced by my current self because my troubles shouldn't be seen.
Cheers to anyone drinking alone in the night of new year's eve, have a happy new year