I hate my mother as a person with a passion, but love her because she's my mother.
She fucks her boyfriend for money, does drugs, is promiscuous, can't control her spending, always victimizes herself and is generally a disgusting person.
But then she comes to me with all this motherly love and "I'm proud of you" sentimental nonsense and I can't bring myself to completely lash out at her.
I've sat her down and talked about how I hate what I hate about her, but she usually just says things that suggest she's going to change, then never does.
A large part of me wants to leave her forever and forget about it, but what stops me is the feeling of how much I'll regret it when she passes.
I seriously don't know how to deal with this.
Leave.
Once your mother notices you'll move on without her, it may ignite something in her.
>>16614697
No matter how much regret you think you'll feel when she passes if you leave now, the amount of turmoil and hatred she'll put you through until she does pass if you stay will be even worse. She's your mother, yes, but it's time for you do everything you can to get the hell out of there until she can actually straighten up herself.
She is a person with her own life. Live your own life too.
