I met this girl through a hookup service... Ended up being pretty cool and have been on many dates since. This girl is in my mind a lot.
The only thing is, I have these thoughts that I'm being played and it won't work out in the end so why try hard. You'll get hurt in the end.
I'm a realistic person so I feel these thoughts are accurate but they're bringing me down lol. Sort of worried it might be a negative way to be thinking of a relationship like this (as something serious, or in a way as if it's doomed).
youre afraid of failure and rejection so you attempt to rationalize that you are being played by this girl to mitigate the pain if it ever ends badly
you need to understand that rejection is a normal aspect of life
