What's your secret, /soc/?
I had several opportunities, and because of my retardation i didn't, i'm 18.
Cheated on my ex-girlfriend with both her brother and sister.
>>23844119
>brother and sister
What the fuck, how does that even happen.
I want to fuck my friends gf, nothing turns me on anymore unless I get to fuck someone elses woman.
>>23844096
I want to go on hrt and become a pretty girl even though I don't think I am one.
>>23844128
We all hung out with the same clique in high school. I ended up dating said girlfriend when I was around 17 or 18 and that continued for about two years. Her sister was pretty much the neighborhood slut so it wasn't exactly difficult. We went to a party, got drunk, and hooked up. Simple as that. Never really planned on fucking her brother though, it just kinda happened.
I fall in love with american boys who sing lo-fi songs in videos. I genuinely feel like I am in love with them and I know i'm too far away and i'm fat and ugly so they'd never love me anyway. There is no hope for me, so why do i keep loving them. It hurts. I don't tell people because they don't understand.
27 M straight
Used to suck my friends dick and jack eachother off when we were kids. We never finished eachother off though, I guess it was just about getting my dick sucked.
>>23844096
maybelline
>>23844096
20 F Bi here.
I participated in a gangbang with my sisters and some guys from university. There were 24 of us. 21 guys, 3 girls.
>>23844429
Was it what you expected? Was it a good experience?
>>23844245
Dude we all did...
>>23844447
At first it felt like I bit off more than I could chew, but once I found a good rhythm I really enjoyed it. It was a great experience, though the clean up afterward was hilariously frustrating.
I wasn't joking when I said I would pay for the "deformed" girl from the last thread to snuggle up with me and watch a movie.
I'm in love.
It's never good.
I want my gf to ride me until I cum inside her then for her to sit on my face and force me to lick it up then lick it off me lips and mouth. I had an ex that was into it, but it never happened.
I want a ddlg relationship.
I've been sexting/flirting with a girl and I think I'm falling in love like a chump
I'm catfishing my own younger brother and I cum so hard masturbating about it
>>23844971
Detaills ?
>>23844985
Wish you luck
23>>23844971
How old? And are you fem?
>>23844096
I have sever autism even tho i make fun of autism regurarly in front of my friends
I truly wish that someone who calls himself my friend would die in a car fire and would do it myself if I thought he was worth the jail time.
>>23845041
they know, dude
>>23844654
that seems like such a "normal" thing?!
i mean idk i guess people never realise how kinky they are but that sounds pretty sexy to me
>>23844532
I went to bed after posting and the thread was dead when I came back to see what was posted.
I didn't think you were joking, but I'm pretty sure we're too far apart for snuggling action.
>>23845501
That all depends on distance and dedication.
One's snuggling capabilities are only limited by one's resolve.
I'll start I'm in the US.
>>23845521
I suppose that's true pff!
It's at least something since I thought you were going to be across the world. I live in the midwestern part of the US myself.
I am in love with my sister.
I'm a former child actor with the sex drive of a breeding bull, but I just hide that side of me because I can't get over the social stigma of having a kinky side.
>>23844467
Yeah... so true
>>23845748
In what did you act?
>>23845763
A movie, and a few tv shows. That's as specific as I'll get.
I had sex with my cat once.
She didn't enjoyed it, I had never thought a cat could scream like that.
She kept bleeding, I didn't know what to do, I was scared. The vet would surely find out what I had done, so I drowned her in the tub and burried in my garden.
I felt so bad.
I am still emotionally stalled because of my failed marriage. I miss my ex wife to the extent that I can not fathom even attempting to have another relationship.
>>23845677
See now we're making progress.
I live in the south south so probably only a 12 to 15-hour drive.
25/f I love my boyfriend (we've been together for 6 years) but I really want to have a fling with my coworker. It's not going to happen, but I think about it way more than I should.
>>23845769
damn now I'm so curious
>>23845851
Chances are he thinks about it too
>>23845893
I know for a fact that he wants to fuck. If anything, that makes it more difficult. >.>
>>23845856
I doubt I'm anyone you'd know. The movie came out almost 30 years ago.
>>23845898
Why not do it? One time, nobody else would know.
>>23845899
Aw dang. I'm 25. Still curious tho
>>23845905
You make a valid point, but I'd know. I'm terrible at keeping secrets from my boyfriend, and I'd feel super shitty about it. I don't want to ruin my relationship over something frivolous.
>>23845851
You'd hate yourself for it, believe me.
>>23845914
I've been there before. And at least going for the fling means that you stop obsessing about it
>>23845919
Right? I don't even need to take your word, five years ago I kissed a guy while I was overseas and I was miserable until I came clean and told my boyfriend. We've had enough shit to muck through in the past, I don't want to fuck up again.
>>23845777
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>>23844096
I regularly have sex with an chineese couple I met on adult friend finder 4 years ago (his english is bad but hers is ok). These days shes 42 and he's 53. I really enjoy fucking her brains out while he watches (except when he bites my cock when I'm on bottom) makes me feel better about the fact that I rarely get laid (once every 9 months or so otherwise). I go on other social media like okc, tinder, I used to have this and was on aff and eharmoney. I feel like girls aren't interested in me other than as friends and out of fear of making them uncomfortable with romantic or sexual interest, I don't try. Once in a blue moon I do but, for the most part I don't. I'm 23, it hurts still to not have someone I've regularly dated since highschool. O well
i've been fantasising about fucking other guys but i'd never cheat on my boyfriend, thing is to make things harder, we are long distance and he doesn't have much of a sex drive and i do.
it's really hard sometimes cause i'm really horny and try to be pervy with him and send him sexy pics but it's always bad timing somehow and i just idk porn doesn't do anything for me, masturbating by imagination without him is a very arduous task and just i find myself fantasising about old sexual encounters *sigh*
>>23846297
>we are long distance and he doesn't have much of a sex drive and i do
recipe for disaster from my experience
>>23844096
Nothing gives me a thrill anymore
>>23846297
Just end it. There's no point in denying what you want just to please some guy who doesn't sound like he's that interested in making you happy. You'll eventually just end up cheating on him and that'll be even worse for everybody. A clean break and you could be having fun this time next week.
>>23846320
if you're implying he's cheating, i can assure it's not the case, not only do i trust him but he wouldn't have the time to deal or be with another girl when constantly texting me.
if you mean the sex drive differences, then yes i can see that and it worries me cause intimacy for him ain't as important as it is to me, i start to feel rather "unconnected" if we don't sext for weeks and no matter how much i've expressed that it's not something he can force it would seem.
which then leaves me in this uncomfortable state
>>23846337
It would be as easy as that if i didn't love him, which sounds really cliché but i do, not to mention that after 2 years of waiting, we're moving together in 2 months (if things go right which hopefully but regardless i will be studying there so we'll be at least in the same country) so i wouldn't want to compromise what could be a nice long lasting relationship for an impulse of being thirsty for dick.
it is getting hard to suppress it by the day though
>>23846352
Just wait the two months and jump his bones anon.
I keep them in the basement.
>>23846402
this was the simplest yet most motivational, thanks anon
My girlfriend is chronically depressed, with severe anxiety and paranoia due to an abusive relationship in her past. I love her like crazy, and I'm slowly helping her work through her issues, but I'm pretty sure if I left her, she'd kill herself. She told me she had plans to do it that she abandoned after meeting me, and she has been hospitalized for two previous attempts.
And despite this, I have a huge crush on this girl at work (who also has a boyfriend) and I'm pretty sure I'd fuck her in an instant given the opportunity.
Stupid monogamous society putting innocent girls' lives at risk. (not at all my own douchebaggery, no sir)
>>23846345
I was implying the sex drive differences, but also the distance playing a role, seems kind of like you have sexual needs that aren't being met (not implying anything here, just trying to empathize)
I made out with my Ex two weeks after I asked my current wife to marry me. Tried to fuck her too, but we didn't have time.
This was 5 years ago.
Does it bother me? No, but you asked, and that's the best secret I had to give.
I fuck a lot of women I meet online. Mostly Craigslist and tinder. It's turned me into a sex addict, I obviously go for the hottest I can get but I've fucked some trolls too. It's honestly getting out of control, I fucked 3 different women today
>>23847110
Also, I'm rolling super hard right now, first time, fucking awesome
>>23846572
In that case you're completely right, and i honestly do not know what to do about that. I just hope we don't end up being like an old married couple where stereotypically he goes "not tonight i have a headache" and on and on it goes
Don't let this thread die, let's confess.
>>23847959
What troubles you anon
>>23847959
previous replies have been deleted?! wtf
>>23847110
I can understand tinder but Craigslist? Didn't even realise people still use Craigslist.
>>23845501
How many threads must go by before you take action?
Cuddling comes to those who seize it, you must take cuddling by the horns and make it yours!
Do not let your fears or inhibitions impede you.
Do not let the fear of failure stop you from getting your cuddling, for if there's no possibility of failure there is no chance of success.
Cuddling favors the bold, and that is what you must be right now.
So now fight for your dream of cuddling with every last bit of your energy, blood, sweat and Tears, or sit idly by and watch you dream wither away.
Just remember your greatest adversary in this is self doubt, and who is better equipped with the knowledge to overcome that adversary then oneself?
I've been selling nudes and videos for the past year.
Been in love with my straight best friend since I met him 5 years ago. Pretty generic secret but hey, points for persistence?
I'm cheating on my bf with a dude who tells me every time that I see him that he doesn't want anything serious. Yet I'm falling hard for him. He doesn't know I have a bf.
>>23848247
fuck you so much
I hope you get caught and he tells everyone and no one will ever date you again
You are every meme about female brains. You want him simply because you can't have him, you're throwing away something good because you don't want what you CAN have
Either break up with your bf or quit cheating
go to hell slut
>>23848259
Thanks but I'm a guy. I know what I'm doing is dead wrong and I know it makes me a shirty person, too. The topic of this thread is secrets, not things you're happy to be getting away with.
>>23848247
Not gonna judge you or get mad but you should probably break up with your bf before shit hits the fan. Make good choices, anon <3
>>23848247
Fuck whoever you want to fuck, but stop the lies and the bullshit. You're probably just a plate for chad, but boyfriend doesn't have time for you bullshit.
I convinced my wife I don't want kids. Once she can no longer have kids I plan on leaving her and having kids with a younger woman.
>>23848282
Why not just leave her now and let her have kids with another man and go do the same?
Why are you even with her?
Out of all the gross and evil secrets on here, if you're not trolling, this is by far the worst.
>>23848282
I know this isn't an advice thread but wow, guys. You're making it really hard.
>>23848287
>>23848289
She cheated on me with a guy who used to bully me in high school, with complete knowledge of his and my history.
I was on love with her once but now I hate her.
>>23848310
So leave her instead if doing your whole weird revenge routine
>>23848310
And because of that, you're getting down to her level, literally waste both of your time, for some petty revenge???
dump her man, why be with someone you hate, life's too short for that shit jfc
>>23848282
Thanks for making what I'm doing boring.
I'm a serial cheat. I can't stop, I try and try but presented the opportunity I give in.
>>23848321
Revenge is better
>>23848322
I'd like to think that what I'm doing is worse. She really wanted kids but she's giving that up for me.
This is year 10 of my plan, too late to turn back now.
>>23844096
Borderline personality disorder, the cracks are showing though.
>>23848338
I also have BPD. This shit is a nightmare that you don't really even want to leave.
>>23848330
time wasted for some revenge that when down to it, won't feel nearly as good as you're thinking it will, y'all cray
>>23848342
My biggest weakness and my biggest strength. It's an abstract feel.
>>23846427
As someone with a "lower" sex drive (I'm almost 30 and also work a lot, so I'm tired often), what somewhat puts me off is when a girl is really horny she literally "jumps on the bone", i.e. gets on to it way too fast and than does everything too fast while I would prefer things to go more slower and with more teasing (as I like do that to my partner too).
Not saying it's the same with you and your bf, just food for thought, maybe don't "jump on his bone" but make it a nice erotic session when you see him.
Was sexually frustrated and a girl bullied the shit/harassed the fuck out of me. I almost raped her. I stopped and just left.
>she hasn't bothered me since.
>>23844096
My biggest secrets that my family dosen't know are these:
I failed a few courses and have to take an extra year to complete uni (not that uncommon but still haven't told them)
Once had sex with a woman twice my age whom I met online.
I am an atheist since 4 years back.
>>23848330
I hope when the day comes and you tell her you both will cry in each others arms, fall in love again and live happily ever after as the cute childless couple ^^
>>23848358
Funny you should say that cause he's the one that usually "jumps on my bone" when we haven't seen each other in months. I get awkward cause well since we don't have much intimacy in between always feels like a first yet his thirst is so real there's barely any foreplay involved (first time, note)
I'm not one to jump and be like "GIVE ME DICK" i try to give subtle hints, flirt and all, when i see it's unrequited i just give up, but obviously i ain't happy about it cause i have needs to be fulfilled and i compromise about it much more than he does
>>23848369
So he is horny only when he sees you for the first time after a time and then later not? Strange..
And I didn't mean the flirting as much the sex, it's no fun with just jumping on the bone, I need passion :(
Still if you are moving together in two months, I would wait how things work then, you'll at least be certain then. Ruining it with cheating would be a stupid thing to do.
>>23848403
We usually stay together for 2/3 weeks at time, and for that entire time we have sex everyday and it's all lovely, then the sec we're apart it's like he doesn't care about intimacy at all. Idk i've been told it could be cause he doesn't handle well the "no physical" bit which could be since everytime we do engage in cybernaughty he gets really noticeably frustrated about the fact there's nothing we can do in the touching department but i still need some form of sexual connection and intimacy in order to feel closer to that person, and it being a LDR makes it even more important to me to establish that sort of bound.
>And I didn't mean the flirting as much the sex, it's no fun with just jumping on the bone, I need passion
i feel you but the problem here ain't def when we're together haha
>I would wait how things work then, you'll at least be certain then. Ruining it with cheating would be a stupid thing to do.
Yes you're 100% and it's what i'm trying my max to do. I've been in situations that seemed like tests, in the sense that attractive guys i know constantly hitting on me, but i kept my head cold and instantly cut convo cause i do care for him and would never hurt him like that.
Just wish he was moree easily sexually aroused haha
>>23848422
Well doesn't seem too bad then if it all works when you see each other, should be good then when you see each other more often after moving together, no?
Yeah I noticed from your earlier posts that you are not far away from rationalizing away cheating, so keep in there and good luck!
I know what happened the night my cousin killed himself
>>23848978
What happened?
I was in the shower once picking something off the floor when my dog came in and licked my ass.
I was shocked, and proceeded to let her. This turned into about a year whenever I would get really horny I would let my dog lick me.
To my grave this goes.
>>23847980
It's not the same thread, it has been archived >>23835536
I love my girlfriend but I really want to have sex with someone other than my girlfriend, we've been together for almost 5 years, I work in a nightclub and I am worried one day ill say to one of these girls.
>>23848259
>>23848270
yea, please show more empathy because he's more likely to consider and/or agree with your moral stance if you do and because it causes other people to not talk about it which they need - we wouldn't have a thread either if people didn't talk about this
I'm turning 24 and I want to kill myself so bad but don't have the fucking courage to ..I'm also a virgin with zero friends or family . I literally just sleep and cry all day when I don't work because I know I'll never have a husband or cute little babies to call me mommy
>>23849819
Where you from?
I hate my fiancee more than anyone else I know.
Straight guy here. Fingered my ass once to see how it felt. It was awful. Tried it a few more times after that to see if I could get any good feeling. It never did anything for me.
i'm trans and wear diapers.
>>23849831
California
>>23849854
David, go to bed.
>>23849874
Want someone to talk to for a little while, i am from uk waiting for got
>>23849890
Got Snapchat?
>>23849915
Frapflap
Obsessed with GoT, waiting for it now in uk
I think I might be a sociopath. I just have no remorse when it comes to hurting people I care about.
>>23849964
Add me
>>23849924
>>23849924
Still waiting on add lonely cal girl
when I was 5 or so me and a friend 69'd under his bed, I only vaguely remember parts of it but I do clearly me being on the bottom and him being the one who suggested it, and his parents walked in while we were doing it but they never checked under the bed so I guess nobody knows but us
and later on at around 12 I sucked the dick of my cousin when he slept over, we took turns, he suggested it, we didn't really know how sex worked so we never sucked long enough for anything to happen but I sucked him more than he sucked me
>mfw life experience makes your stronger
>>23849989
Added u :)
>>23850054
Gotcha
>>23849819
>>23849874
I'm from California as well. I don't use snapchat. Do you use anything else?
If you wanna add my snap it's jjmwainwright
>>23848328
You sound like my ex, good riddance, I hope you suffer
I was a decently popular crossdresser on fetlife. even slept with a guy.
Then I realized what a faggot I was and quit.
Now my sex life remains a secret to everyone
>>23847986
I've probably fucked like 60-80 women off of CL, not quite as streamlined as tinder but definitely effective
As a child I was raped with my face in the toilet filled with shit. Now I want someone to poop and pee on me
>>23850635
I'm really sorry
I get buy. One day I'll meet someone as twisted as me lol
lost my virginity last year after putting an ad on craigslist
I don't know if my friends would judge but they must never know
>>23846563
Be straight up with her about it nigga, say that monogamy isn't for you or something
>>23848310
Be the bigger man. Dump her now. Eye for an eye will make you both blind.
I don't really care about my mother's love or anything but my dad is pretty bro tier and after she cheated on him, I only "accepted" her back not to get cut out of access to resources, money and future inheritance.
>>23850635
Story? Who raped you? How old are you and what gender?
Talk about a shitty situation..........
The one girl I regret letting go is now single and I haven't got the nerve to just say "hey, it's been 15 years, hope you're doing well."
Double regrets.
I'm so much of a pussy/retard I failed killing myself twice and backed out twice
because of one girl
>>23849819
If you feel like talking ad me on kik jose9146
>>23849819
I don't know how much it would cheer you up, but I could read your cards for you if you like. My kik is tarotbard
I was sexually assaulted from birth to about five years of age, and as a result I am fucked up sexually, I can't orgasm (except through masturbation and even then I feel disgusting afterwards) and a lot of the time I can't stand having my boyfriend touching my breasts. The worst part is I can't tell my boyfriend about it and as a result have been faking every single orgasm with him for the past 4 years, him thinking he's an amazing lover when really I was diddled when I was a toddler and can't have sex without feeling terrible.
>>23850740
She literally has nightmares about me telling her I want to see other people. Like she'll wake up in the middle of the night to text me and ask me if we're still together.
Telling her "hmm I might be interested in someone else enough to jeopardize this" is a recipe for disaster.
i fell in love with a boy from nepal on this website
>>23844096
My loneliness is causing me to miss my ex-gf. We broke up 2 years ago.
>>23851540
that's awful and I'm so sorry you had to go through that, my legitimate condolences anon
>>23851540
that's awful
have you talked to him about it/gotten therapy?
Used to have a penis, sexual partners don't know.
>>23846123
found the PETAfag
I've had sexual thoughts about children ever since my 20's when I saw, completely accidentally, a girl aged single digits completely naked and with her legs spread wide.
I'm also so lonely that I fantasize about being completely cucked and taken advantage of by some hot af white trash woman.
90% of my sexual fantasies revolve around dressing girly and giving blowjobs to my best friend.
I'd like to be there as an easy outlet for his release, nothing romantic.
>>23852175
petafag???
you think people have to be for "animal rights" (which lol peta) to think thats fucking degenerate and sociopathic?
kill yourself
1. My girlfriend and I lost our son in sept 14, still born.
2. My girlfriend and I immediately got back on heroin after 3 years sober.
3. She died on new years 14.
4. I'm still on heroin.
5 I lie to my family , my coworkers, even strangers about all of it because I can't process it. For all anyone knows , I go home to a loving girlfriend and a toddler every night.
In reality , however, I go home to an empty apartment. I drink till I can't anymore. I rig up. I sleep on her pictures. I'm a gigantic pussy because I bought a pistol and every night it goes under my chin, I just lack the balls to join them.
>>23852228
>I'm also so lonely that I fantasize about being completely cucked and taken advantage of by some hot af white trash woman.
Same. I had an abusive relationship with a yandere girl who cucked me but i miss her so much.
>I crossdress from time to time
>I get naked to guys online, strip for them and masturbate
>I have a pee kink I am deeply ashamed of and I have wet myself before on purpose
>There's also the more somber confession that I string along my first love and his world hinges on me but I keep a distance because of various reasons, but that's less fun
>>23848310
Fucking based. You go man.
I wish I had the face to pull off a femboy look and get mad dick yo
>>23845426
Yeah, it's strange. A few years ago I would have never been into any of that, or a lot of other stuff I have done that's pretty kink or fetish. Have you ever done anything like that?
I have a bunch of FWB's and secretly try to make them fall in love with me.
My fetish is toying with other people's emotions. I feed off the drama, it's the only way I still feel anything.
>>23854650
what changed it for you like how did you grow to enjoy it ?
not precisely that but i've done similar and have always been on the kinky side which i explored a bit with a fwb, but am yet to find someone i really care about that is as kinky/has the same sexual desire as me. my current bf is so vanilla he doesn't even have a fetish
Parents are part of Scientology, I was into it until a year ago too. I've seen a lot of their fancy places including their epic (asbestos infected) flag ship.
Also have depression and can't tell them because they'll either force me on one of their bullshit programs or disown me.
I'm suicidal but won't tell anyone due to being seen as "weak" or "unstable"
Sadly, i have no CURRENT reason to be suicidal and it makes me feel worse, its just me being unhappy as a whole due to past experiences..
Everything just makes me feel worse about it.
>>23856893
are you me
i wanna see my cousin naked
I'm starting to really want a mail order bride from Russia or Ukraine.
I just don't know how to do it without getting ripped off.
>>23856893
>>23856908
Are you me?
>>23844096
jizzed on all of my sister's friends feet and no they don't know, also almost fucked my close cousin. she gave great footjobs though
>>23850067
No :(,only snap for now
Have a wonderful/loving relationship w/ my gf of 4 yrs
But I so badly want to fuck one of my coworkers. I think about it way more often than I'd like to admit
>>23849819
You can add me on snap: lr_4c
I'm forgetting about a guy I was (am? idek) in love with by being sexual and actually having phone sex with my two best online guy friends. Neither of them knows I'm doing lewd things with the other, I think. I hope, haha. I feel bad because I like one of them more but what can ya do, ya know?
Im in love with an asian boy that wont notice me ;_;
>>23844096
26 kissless virgin. Haven't even held hands now that I think about it lol.
People think I'm sort of ladies man though for unknown reasons. A few of my friends asked me for tips on picking up girls and I'm like "I dunno I've been too busy slaying dragons and leading my groups to glory". They think I'm joking when I'm 100% serious.
Jucier secret: When I was like 16 I found my mom's toys and decided to smear them with my cum for whatever reason while my parents were out. I put them away back where I found them after they dried. I considered her toothbrush too but decided nah.
>>23848282
That's truly awful. You've ruined my night, anon.
>>23844096
Every once in awhile if im single and lonely and in the mood i like to let black guys take me home and sleep with me, i'm not even white trash really i'd consider myself a normal upper middle class hipster. Idk why i like to do this exactly but i think its probably because im a little racist and its "taboo and naughty" and for a "pretty white girl" to do something so wrong. That said i dont like to do it after a break up or all the time. I only do it every once in awhile.
i dont even know if this is really a secret but it feels like a secret and i feel bad about it.
>>23850601
I want to do this. How do you avoid STDs?
>>23856146
Have you been to Gold Base?
At a point when I was heavily medicated for severe depression and suicidal tendencies I was sexually abused/raped by a woman and ever since I havent been able to have a meaningful relationship or enjoy sex and kissing etc
>>23854035
Please get help man. Please. This honestly hits pretty hard and it's even got me feeling depressed.
>>23854684
I dunno I think I've always been partial to kink stuff bc when I was younger I had some situations where I suppose you could say I was taken advantage of by a a girl. I didn't really know what we were doing but she was older and Def did. I think that and some other things set me up to be more prone to kinks and fetishes. There were several things that happened when I was younger that shaped who I am today, college graduate with a good job just like most of Americans, just with a lot of kinks and fantasies haha.
I've had a crush on my boyfriend's brother for 3-4 years. I've been in this relationship for 5-6 years, for reference.
It doesn't help that they are really similar, since I honestly see myself being happier with his brother.
20/M here
My friends and family think I'm straight (and I mostly am) but sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night craving for a dick
>>23854684
I understand how that can be. I have had a few gf that I could share with and it felt so liberating. Esp bc I got to live out some of them. If you want my kik let me know and we can talk more.
>>23857886
No, you only get to go there if you're super indoctrinated. I've seen David Miscavige though
>>23857776
someone should turn your story into some wincest copypasta, haha.
I'm psychologically fucked. I still love my ex girlfriend from years ago even though I have had several gf inbetween. I always act as if I'd care or love them but I'm just using them for my pleasure.
I haven't had sex in almost 5 years.
I started seeing a prostitute and pleasure her without penetration, I feel so unloved that I just want someone to enjoy time with me. It sort of helps when she pulls on my hair, pushes my head on her vulva and moans all the way up until she cums. Talking to my therapist, I am realizing I have unfulfilled mother issues and I need some form of affection from women
My other secret is that I have psychosis NOS. I am sure I had schizophrenia, but I also suffered a traumatic brain injury and I no longer fit the bill. I'm in a limbo of diagnosis so I'm not really get help at the moment until they find what is wrong with me.
>>23844096
I want to die because I'm simply bored. Not like I want to kill myself but I have this sort of death wish.
I've spent the last two years planning a wedding. We broke up today and all I feel is relief.
I met a girl on here, we spent hours and hours together, had some great sexy times, some great gaming times.
But then she moved and then she started a course and with the eight hour time difference between us, there was no space, no time for me in her life anymore.
I miss her. But I'm also kinda glad. Was never going to really go anywhere, even if under different circumstances (us being on the same side of the atlantic for example) it could have done.
Oh well. Such is life.
I want to be fucked by a fourteen or fifteen year old boy, but I'm not sure how to make it happen
>>23857850
>I let black guys take me home and sleep with me
>im a little racist
>pretty white girl
>not white trash
wtf am i reading? Are you the world's dirtiest white trash whore in denial?
>>23858385
can happen are u f ?
>>23858445
I am not
I want to fuck gfs mum
i was what they would consider a typical, run of the mill, east asian guy.
i had a shot at the good life. studied hard, worked hard. but i fucked myself so bad when i fucked a few exams. now i'm stuck with attempting to complete a trash degree.
i still have irl friends, male and female, but all of them are like...friends only because we were friends. the 'magic of friendship' and mutual respect is gone. honestly, i don't even respect myself.
/blog
>>23857850
This describes nearly every white girl I've slept with. Not a big deal.
>>23858475
also, i think way too much about the chicks in my life.
i hate that i lost my chad life.
