This is a continuation due to nearly reaching the reply limit:
Anybody else on here abused as kids? Anybody else sexually abused or beaten? Do you think it fucked you up?
I was raped, myself.
>>27610045
bumping for anons
>>27610307
That kid in the middle dresses like a little faggot...
>>27610328
like most of >>>/r9k/ anons
>>27610399
True. Why the Hell is everybody staring at him, anyway? That picture's confusing.
Have any of you ever confronted the person that molested or raped you?
It wasn't the best scenario but overall it felt good to put that asshole in his place. It's like I was the one thing that managed to put fear back into his life and it worked.
From what I heard, he's a college dropout and practically homeless
>mfw
>>27610455
No, but my dad beat the shit out of the guy 5 years after it happened when he learned through the therapist I had just told. He's in jail now and my dad was never charged with assault despite nearly killing the guy.
>>27610161
>start walking around looking for an old hotel my dad used to go to as a kid and sleep there for the night, found it after we kept walking around for about an hour at 1am or something
>get a cheap room with 2 beds and try to immediately go to sleep but dad tells me i still could occupy myself with stuff he put in our bags
>grunt so he knows i acknowledged him
>he gets pissed instead because he doesn't wanna see me just sleep all the time
>throws my backpack at me
>just go brush teeth because didn't have much stuff in bag
>watch tv so he won't be mad at me for sleeping early
>wait for him to go to sleep
>after about 10 minutes he just tells me to turn the tv off and to sleep easier
>put my backpack on side of bed
>silence with us both lying down
>make no sound while i just cry silently because he thinks i'm enjoying when i don't even like breathing the air here
>listen to the sounds outside like cars n stuff to calm down and go to sleep but it didn't work
>just turn tv on after dad goes to sleep and Stacy tv on volume 1
>mostly news about weather for the whole night
>dad wakes up around 7am or something
>tells me if i wanna go eat
>"Yeah"
>take bags and backpacks then walk around till he finds a subway shop and asks what i want
>all the food looks like shit and i remember some of the stuff i hated in most of the sandwiches like ham
>say "Chicken nuggets or fries"
>"that's fo' speshul peepul anon, r u speshul, r u realli speshul? yea ur spesshullll so let's go mcdonalds nd get u a speshull boii foods"
>go mcdonalds
>best fucking coke, fries and chicken nuggets i had in my life
>after we eat we go to first hotel we went
>they say there's a room that opened up that could fit both of us
>really comfy and can finally settle
>hook up console to tv and buy then download bunch of games in playstation to play later in the day when they're done
>dad tells me we're going shopping for new clothes
>walk around and take a train
>everyone in the train is scared of us
>>27610519
>everyone in the train is scared of us
I wonder why.
>>27610519
Did/does your dad really talk like that, or is that an exaggeration? If so, you really are articulate for having such influences around.
this shit makes me want to adopt kids and give them a good home life and upbringing.
is adopting a cuck thing to do?
>>27610698
Good luck adopting kids if you're a single father.
It's next to impossible unless you're so well off financially it's not even an issue.
>>27610698
Breh dont listen to people memeing about adoption being a cuck thing, if you are actually willing and capable of adopting/fostering kids then it is really good of you to do. Don't make a kid miss out on a good life that you could give them just because someone on here says "lel cucked"
>>27610698
No, it's a great thing to do. My brother just adopted a 4 year old boy from Ukraine who's father died in the fighting and who's mother is a useless crack addict. He's already a part of the family and calls me "unca"
>>27610744
It's honestly not that difficult. My brother did it.
>>27610519
>thought it was because of dad
>they actually looked away every time i looked at someone too
>at every stop people try to run out because they thought we were gonna go chase them down and kill them by shoving our arms in their asses or something
>almost empty now and we arrive at our stop
>dad tells me to stand up and follow him
>keep walking till we go to a walmart
>start shopping for clothes
>keeps asking me if i like the clothes but i just say yes every time because i don't care, just gets me plain blue shirts i still wear today
>get other clothes pretty easily and without trouble but ends when he asks what my pants size are
>"don't know"
>he gets pissed and just takes pants that think will fit on me then we go to booth thingies for me to put on clothes
>all of them didn't fit
>gets pissed and asks for proof then watches me try to change pants in a booth then tries to help putting on pants on me but he can't either
>just tells me to take them off and use my normal pants
>go look for new pants, keep saying yes if he asks if i like them
>this time they're all his size or a bit bigger
>test them on and most of them fit
>i'm the same size as my dad now, just with much less muscle
>go to shoe store
>tells me to go look for pairs i like
>fuck
>start looking around but dad appears behind me at one point and says "theez r litl grill shooz anon, u r litl grill? no u not, u big boy, big boy shoes over ther" then points to a spot with more shoes
>pick shoes that are just black/gray and test them on, size 9.5 fits me
>go to dad and say i like those shoes
>"What size are they?"
>"Nine and a half"
>"There's no nine and a half anon, only nine and ten, which size are they"
>try to show him label thingy
>takes shoes from me instead and goes to a store worker
>asks them what size are the shoes after handing it to them
>"Nine and a half"
>dad just buys them
>get lunch, chicken nuggets and fries like before
>walk to hotel room
>put on new clothes, throw away old ones
>>27610519
My god... I went to the other thread, and you've written novels. Either you wallow in self pity, enjoy acting out a character that you've created, or are working on some sort of autobiography. I've had pain in my life, but I wouldn't go to such lengths to talk about it.
>>27610832
Have you just survived on water, biscuits, crackers, french fries and chicken nuggets your entire life?!
>>7610045
M
Been bomdaged and smacked like a toy, beaten to blood, bruised on face, had my hands burned
been told i that i am bastard worth of nothing, that my mom is whore every day that he will kill her/throw us out when she returns from work
had to knee with wood under my knees for hours after school
was not allowed contact with friends
had to stand in snow all night, with lights on when i tried contacting psychologist in school
been raped, by my grandfather twice month until 15
I hate being touched.
>>27610832
keep going ;-;
>>27610744
Fucking shill
>>27610946
Sorry to hear that, anon. It's the stories of inter-family abuse that really get to me.
I've been screencapping the entire thing and have 47 images, one per post, of this immense story. What should I do with them?
Yes I was. Lots of people were, in fact I would say everybody was they just do not remember.
Raped and humiliated as a child. Definitely fucked me up. I'm happy and on meds now, but sometimes I wish I wasn't a foreveralone.
>>27611033
Write them out in a text file until you can figure it out.
>>27611066
I'm not so sure about that.
>>27610873
He is inuit. They have a suicide rate higher than any other people in the world.
>>27611092
I am quite sure actually. Obviously some worse than others.
>>27611090
We can be foreveralone together, anon.
>>27610623
no exaggeration
>>27610832
>most games loaded
>all except one can be finished in single player
>planetside 2
>play it for the rest of the day and all night
>kicked unholy amount of ass and that was the greatest session i ever played of any game
>ends when dad tells me we're going to LaRonde
>dunno what that is but follow anyways
>walk to station again and people still get scared but confused why they're scared of me, i know french people are just short but height shouldn't make them that scared
>go to our stop
>get off, take a bus while dad tells me about what he remembers of Montreal, we see a long bridge high up and dad tells me it took forever for him to walk one end to the other
>see entrance for LaRonde and see all the rides in the distance
>dad pays $$$$$$ to get us both extreme super good boy vip tickets n stuff to make it more fun but it only made it worse for me, i don't like any amusement rides
>first thing we go to is "La Monstre", really big and old wooden rollercoaster, wait in line forever and dad notices two small french adults trying to pickpocket people
>tells me about them and tells me to keep my hands over my pockets and stare at them
>they keep peeking at my dad's pockets because they bulge a bunch from the stuff in them
>it's actually mostly insulin he brings around
>make the pickpocketers know what they're doing and just stare at them the entire time and stand right behind them the entire wait line
>they still took like 3 wallets from other people
>when we start going on the ride and we put stuff that might fly away in those box thingies
>i had nothing so i just sat and waited for others to go on
>dad sits beside me
>ride starts slow
>already scared
>my neck, ears and legs hurt already why am i here
>it speeds the fuck up and i just close my eyes and start humming a little time i always liked in my head that i don't know where i got it from
>wait till ride stops
>neck feels like it's gonna rip in half so i just crack it
>>27611205
>Planetside 2
You really aren't old, eh? How old are you now?
Got molested by my babysitter and his father and sometimes the brother pretty much every morning before school for 2 whole school years in a row. Sometimes it would happen again when I got to their place after school. This occurred when I was in first and second grade. Never told anyone, and I honestly don't think it really fucked me up that much. I'm 26 now and I turned out pretty normie.
>>27611291
maybe she started gaming a few years ago
>>27611338
he
lurk moar
>>27611338
It's a he.
>>27610045
My mother used to molest me in the bath tub when I was a toddler. She'd give me a hand-job and said it was a game called "got your dickybird." Then one day she went to answer the phone and left me in the tub my my little brother. She came back to find me playing "got your dickybird" with him and flipped out. She called me bad and evil, but wouldn't tell me what I had done. She just kept glaring at me and saying, "You know what you did!" I really didn't. All I knew was that I had done something horrible and unforgivable, but had no clue what it was.
She was always finding reasons to push her boobs into my face, or heft her boobs with her hands while wearing a sheer blouse and asking if I could see her nipples. When I was 13, she flat-out propositioned me. I had been mowing the lawn with my shirt off and came inside to cool off, all sweaty. She came and sat beside me, looked me up and down, and then asked me if I ever looked at her like a woman and not as my mother. I looked at her coldly and told her I barely saw her as human.
While snooping through my parents room one day, I found her stash of incest fetish porn.
I'm asexual and have no interest in either sex or romantic relationships. I don't know whether there's any connection.
>>27610698
Why guarantee my kids the same shitty genes? If i can i'm adopting.
>>27611338
are trip fags always tards or just the ones that come to other threads?
>>27611389
>>27611386
i'm sorry didn't read good
>>27610772
He is single? He is well off?
>>27610421
You seriously don't get it? Think harder.
>>27611094
Okay... so wallowing in self pity, then?
>>27610899
i think i ate other stuff when i was a toddler but don't really remember, like oatmeal
>>27611205
>everyone gets freaked the fuck out and think i just tried killing myself
>just feel really relieved that my neck feels sort of okay
>dad reminds me about the pickpocketers and we follow behind them again
>when we're going through the downwards stairs or whatever they run after throwing all the wallets they got in the garbage box at the middle of the stairs
>dad just laughs and i grin a bit because we did something good-ish
>next ride we go to is "The Demon" or whatever stupid name it had
>wait in line for a while and keep getting splashed with cold water
>enjoy every bit of the water because Montreal is fucking hot
>we get on
>i sit on the furthest right side of the ride with my dad to my left
>get scared again, close eyes and hum before it starts
>start going in the air
>hum my heart out
>it starts spinning us while we kept getting shot at with water
>get scared and open my eyes and keep thinking we're about to get thrown off and fly into the steel support thing for it
>get used to it a little bit then it ends
>back is sore this time but don't wanna arch it in public because it'll look dumb and lewd
>dad goes to store things around the park to buy candy and asks if i want any but keep saying no
>go to a little restaurant place, forgot the name
>just have water while dad eats, i look at the cute little birdies that keep moving around the restaurant
>he finishes then we try going to another rollercoaster
>he asks if i want to go on
>"no"
>he finally accepts me saying no for once then just go to a ferris wheel to get a good view and calm down
>asks me if i wanna go go-karting
>"Yeah"
>arch back while our Ferris wheel spot is highest in the air and feel amazing
>see go-karting place and looks like fun
>ferris wheel ends
>we start walking there after we stare at the other rides
reposting waifu pics
>>27611437
That's fucking disgusting. Creepy cunt.
>>27611454
Yes, he's single. He's average middle class, works at a Chrysler plant and makes around $62,000 per year. I'm only 18 and jobless attending high school so I babysit when he needs me to.
>>27611469
No, I honestly don't. Could you explain? Is the kid gay or something?
>>27611437
so what feelings do you have toward your mother now?
>>27611543
Nothing. She's dead.
> The evil that men do lives after them;
> The good is oft interred with their bones
>>27611521
This was the least depressing post you've made so far.
>>27611542
are you sure youre old enough to be on r9k?
>>27611523
Your brother is a great guy. He is living my dream. Why no gf though?
>>27611576
You realize she was molested too right? It is a cycle, if she is dead now she most likely lived a miserable life and died early.
>>27611542
You've never been to elementary school? If you act any way out of the norm, you're classified as "weirdo". Kids move away from you at the lunch table and shift away from you during gym attendance. This photo depicts said "weirdo" being excluded and targeted during an involuntary social activity (ie lunch or gym)
>>27611580
I'm 18, so yeah.
>>27611585
He just doesn't really have the time or inclination to go out and meet people. I've told him to on a few occasions, said I'd babysit, but he says he prefers to spend what time he can with Christian (my nephew).
>>27611580
Some other anon, and I'm not sure if you're a troll or just a dumbass. Any dumb kid can wear a Guy Fawkes shirt and not be stared at like an alien.
>>27611619
This was a very autistic explanation...
I just assumed there'd be a specific background to the photo, not just that he's a "weirdo".
>>27611646
>not sure if you're a troll or just a dumbass
>>27611612
I'm aware, yes. She was physically abused by her own mother, and raped by a janitor at her highschool.
>>27610698
nope, it's only cuckish if you date a single mom treat his son as yours
>>27611519
shut up, his story is actually interesting.
24/M
It has destroyed me. I had repressed those memories until I was 21. They all cam flooding back to me and ever since then I have slowly declined into someone who is not capable of functioning in society
I have never had a stable or healthy relationship. I have never had a relationship that was not online and long distance. I am deeply ashamed of myself and my genitals.
I find myself thinking about the things that happened. I get turned on and masturbate to the thoughts. I feel deep shame afterwards.
All I can think of is suicide. I can't keep living this way.
you guys should stop arguing
>>27611521
arrive at go-kart line
>just two blonde French kids that act like thugs and try to scare me but i just stared at them with my dad behind me then they stopped talking around us
>go-karts are ready now and some guy tells us to put on helmets and how to use the karts
>they barely for me or my dad but still fun
>ask guy for help to put my helmet on and he tries to make smalltalk with me and about who i am then have a little conversation about inuit before race starts
>it's obvious my dad will win from the start
>almost keep passing the french kids but they're teaming up to leave me no room so ifor just stay behind them while my dad laps me and them even if they made a little barrier
>i was pretty shit and kept hitting the tire piles that stop us from going off-road but still fun
>race ends and guy tells us to slow down but i didn't hear him because still feel deaf and accidentally hit one of the French kid's karts
>doesn't matter, no one mentions it
>don't wanna go on anymore rides and dad is a bit tired too
>i feel like death after all the rides
>start walking to hotel
>immediately take off all uncomfortable clothes and just start playing planetside 2 again
>dad gets me nuggets and fries while i play again
>tells me to go shower because i smell like shit
>end up using shower for 2 hours because it felt amazing and dad kept knocking on the door thinking i died but i thought it was a stranger every time
>bathroom was like a sauna when i was done
>dry self, blow nose, pee n other stuff then put on clothes and look at myself in the mirror
>oh
>that's why everyone was scared
>eyes look like they're bleeding because they drooped really low and it looks like i have black eyes from the lack of sleep
>go to room and dad makes fun of me for showering long but don't listen
>just finally feel all the fatigue from the past days i didn't sleep
>lie down on the couch after i take one of the bed's blankets and some pillows
>sleep on couch
>>27611745
care to elaborate what happened?
>>27611745
You're not alone, buddy. I've often found my thoughts drifting back to when I was raped as a little boy during masturbation. It can really fuck you up, but know that you're not the only one with that problem.
>>27611761
So it was fatigue that made you look so scary to others?
Five years old, forced to have my first sexual experience with a woman. She made me hard and instructed me on how to fuck her. She made me suck on her breasts and call her mommy. This continued for months. She would make me fuck her. She would hurt me physically. Choke me, punch me, spank me. That ended when my family moved to a new state.
from the ages of 7 to 10 there was an older boy who forced me to have sex with his two younger brothers. anal sex, oral sex, everything. around 8 years old is when he started fucking me. He was not gentle.
>>27611699
I find it quite interesting. I got started and can't stop now, but I'm concerned about his mental safety. I guess I kind of remember him saying that it gets better, but I don't remember where. Either this guy is going to become a national bestselling novelist or dead in the shower. I really hope that it's the former.
>>27611761
>wake up after very long sleep
>dad shows me around the hotel and goes to the top floor with a pool
>tells me about how he used to go here as a kid and dropped water balloons down on people or dropped pepsi cans onto the car that was parked illegally in an alley beside the hotel
>dad asks me if i want to go buy shorts or something to swim in the pool but keep shaking my head because don't know how to swim and public pools are disgusting
>start walking back to room but dad shoes me little gym room thing near it and talks about how bullshit treadmills are and never help
>don't care, just wanna keep playing planetside 2
>walk to room
>spend rest of time in Montreal inside my room while dad gets me nuggets and fries while i play vydia
>5mbps is amazing
>a m a z i n g
>eventually each top ranks of global leaderboards because already have godly reaction time and thousands of hours of fps experience
>feel pride so i feel cocky enough to tell it in this story
>trip finally ends
>plane ride back to village was shit but still a bit better than last time, feel dead again
>go home
>hug doggy
>go to sleep on couch and he goes to sleep using my butt as a pillow
>>27611933
How long ago was all this?
>>27611933
>>27611761
What the fuck have you literally been typing this out all day?
Why not just pastebin this shit already?
Here's another anime girl.
>>27612011
He's enjoying the venting. Leave him be.
>>27610485
You have a good dad how bad did he beat him up? Like knocked out teeth? Blunt objects?
>>27611933
> just wanna keep playing planetside 2
this came out only 3 years ago.
>>27611832
bloodshot eyes from lack of sleep and black skin around them, looked like a spooky skeletal
>>27611933
>not much else happens, just get an ipad from dad because he started learning everyone stared getting them and knew i liked technology a bunch
>got shaved once after we arrived, same thing as before
>pretty boring from then on, barely any violence other than my brothers always having tantrums like normal while i ignore them and dad stopped venting his frustration at me
>life stays normal with everyone ignoring me and i just go to school to work then home to pass time online
>been months since my dad shaved me and he's okay with my long hair now
>can make sound without him getting mad now
>feel comfortable wearing boxers when i sleep on the couch now
>don't bother with having a room so been on the couch every day and night on my iPad or playing on consoles
>dads been trying to improve himself, getting more food i like, Doritos, kitkats, salty crackers, bunch of kinds of chips but i still vomit from 99% of things i eat
>doggy getting treated better but brothers still use him sometimes
>everything gets more quiet and nice
>much less fights, arguments and general bullshittery
>still got great grades, just waiting to finish school
>got nothing to do other than go to school or pass time at home
>today
>wake up at 12am and finish telling life story in 6 hours
>>27612096
No he hasn't.
>>27612096
It was all just with his fists. My dad's a factory worker and he's pretty strong. The guy was bleeding from his nose and ear.
my dad used to sit me in a chair in the living room and beat me for my failures while he was drunk and then cry about it later
one night he beat me so badly that he covered an entire blanket in my blood, and that was just before I had to walk to school to sign up for the next school year
I don't know why, but I still love him
>>27612140
Yes, I do.
>>27612139
Are you a high school senior like me, or are you in college?
>>27611933
Im still reading. Montreal isnt that amazing. Youre right its mostly lame.
>>27612139
started getting them*
abuse him sometimes*
>>27612139
how old are you?
you never told us
>>27612167
Was he a good father beyond that?
mum was crazy when i was a kid and choked me bart simpson style a few times, used to get into fights with me and shit when i was like 12. she went to a mental hospital and shes normal now so i still love her more than my dad, he just yelled at me for being a failure and kept threatening to beat me although he never did. he had a girlfriend that would tell him lies about things id done or said to get him to yell at me until i cried. fucking hated that cunt
>>27612219
when he wasn't drunk out of his mind, most of the time
but he was almost always drunk out of his mind
>>27612237
>but i'm 15
wow. you've had a rough childhood.
>>27612205
>>27612237extremely original content the robot cannot outsmart me with my original posts
>>27612237
Holy shit, you're young! You really made me feel grateful for what I've had in my life, despite being raped and molested...
reminds me, who /foster care/ here?
I kind of think it would have been better to stay with my somewhat abusive family than the hell that was foster care
>>27612237
mods ban this cuck immediately
>>27612285
still have some years of childhood left, could be shittier, could be better, depends on what my dad or sister do
>>27612308
The really long greentext guy has stories of foster care Hell.
>>27612311
Mods, ban this faggot for being a faggot.
>>27612237
so young
>>27612299
you're welcome i guess?
>>27612334
i'm about the average age of posters on 4chan now anon
>>27612336
How are you doing now, anyway? Would you say that you're a decently-well-adjusted person? Ever had any crushes or boyfriends/girlfriends?
>>27612327
well, might as well share mine then
I was a naive white kid at age 13, and I got sent into a black foster family
she had 11 kids in that house, she was basically running a business instead of giving any of us proper lives
we didn't have pillows, I didn't have a blanket, and I lived in the shittiest run-down ghetto imaginable
I ran away several times just to get away from that mess, though the cops kept sending me back and eventually the lady threatened sending me to one of those boys homes
I came really close just to ending my life on the train tracks a few times
the only thing that saved me from that was getting calls to some of my family
>>27612365
On all boards except /pol/, maybe. They're a bit older there.
>>27612395
I'm surprised you didn't just choose to go to a boys' home over that Hell. I hate how many foster parents just do it for money...
>>27612395
oh yeah, one time I tried to choke myself with a wire, but instead of trying anything else the foster mother had her brother (who was a pastor) try to convince me there was a devil inside of me making me suicidal
>>27612439
like I said, the only reason I didn't kill myself or keep running away was getting to talk to my parents on the phone
she threatened to take that privilege away
>>27612378
would have lots of brain problems even if family was ok, mom drank, smoke and fucked other guys while she was pregnant with me but i think i could do ok in the future if my grades determine it
also had three crushes before, one was when i didn't know what vaginas were and she was was my cousin, second was when in the first group of friends that made me play games, third was really pretty classmate that i discovered was, and is a huge slut that always complains like the other niggers in class
have none now, i want wizardry instead
>>27612461
Couldn't you have just called your parents from a boys' home? Were you scared about the home, or something?
>>27612365
mosly on >>>/b/ anon
>>27612490
they (her and the other kids) kept telling me that I would be locked in a room 24/7 and would get beaten with rocks
>>27612479
I wouldn't just accept eternal virginity at such a young age, if I were you. Who knows what the future may bring. You may even move away from the North and maybe down here to Ontario or something and meet new, good people. Don't let that shit from the past ruin your future... at least not in ways that you can control.
>>27612145
>Bleeding from ear after a beating
Sounds like your pops gave him some brain damage. Nice.
i think the only reason i have sex with men is because i was molested by a man. like i want to have a stable relationship and kids with a woman but i cant stop fucking guys
>>27612524
The stupid cunt just wanted you to stay so that she could keep collecting her money..
I can't stand people who abuse kids. It makes my blood boil to think about it.
>>27612569
i know but i still have severe paranoia, likely literally autistic and bipolar so pretty much any relationship would turn into a trainwreck
>>27612139
What's up with your food problem? Why do you have it?
>>27612578
I hope. Maybe he knocked the paedophilic mental disorder out of him.
>>27612601
It perverted me too, anon. I can't have sex with anybody, but when I masturbate I often think about the rape.
>>27612602
yeah man, it fucking sucked and I fell for it because I was a dumb little kid
I don't really think about this stuff anymore but now that I've typed it out and I'm actually thinking about it and remembering stuff I'm shaking a bit
I guess I'm still not over it, even years later
>>27612613
There are sympathetic people out there who'd be willing to work through any demons from your past with you. Have you ever seen or thought about seeing a therapist or counsellor?
>>27612496
>Implying men on this site don't claim to be women
>>27612617
no sense of smell since birth and licked a metal flag pole in -30c weather when i was in first foster family that kept trying to feed me new things but i kept vomitn get from them and wanted my sense of taste to go away so i could eat healthy, tongue bled a bit for two days and it hurt to drink or eat anything for a while, probably ruined my taste further
also might have to do something with psychological trauma, just a guess though
>>27612659
if u put a space in therapist u get the rapist
>>27612647
Just don't blame yourself for falling for it.
A kid can be made to do and believe anything by an adult because of ignorance and naivety.
I know what that's like.
I don't really get angry when I think about it anymore, at least not shaken, but on one occasion I saw on the internet a man-boy cp video disguised as a regular lesbian porn video (it wasn't on purpose that I found it) and that shit literally had me bawling my eyes out. I broke my tablet.
>>27612715
Ehehehehehe.
>>27612715
>>27612659
and no, never did
>>27612751
You should. It really helped me. I don't know if services like that are even available in your small Nunavik village but you should see.
>>27612793
i know i could get one but don't wanna go unless i have some crippling mental illness and i feel pretty ok most of the time
My copypasta desu
>dad is a violent schizophrenic paedophile from a rough city
>my mum was also violent
>parents moved from Manchester to Taunton in 1981 because racist
>had my sister in '89 and me in '92
>used to beat me, lock me in cupboards and wash mouth out with soap when I was as young as 3
>had to watch and sometimes get caught inbetween parents physical fighting
>mum and dad divorced in '95
>mum took me and sister to Manchester women and childrens home
>met a guy called Frank
>he used to beat me and my sister, swung us by our ears until they bled
>dad was allowed to meet us but took us to Exeter
>sexually abused me, physically abused me, mentally abused me and verbally abused me
>used to go crazy a lot, heavy drinker. extremely violent
>dropped sister off at cop station in June of '97
>I'm with this crazy bastard until late '98
>go into care
>am withdrawn
>I molested kids when I was a kid (even living with my dad)
>my foster dad cheated on my foster mum so there were a lot of fights there
>foster dad has punched me on occasion
>I tried to fuck foster sister
>killed her hamsters and a dog
>pyromaniac
>thought about mass murder a lot
>thief
>vandal
>I attempted burglary once
>zoophillia
I won't demonise my foster carers (parents) since for the most part they are lovely people and only human.
To say more about me, I've been diagnosed with mixed personality disorder which seems very vague... Everyday is a struggle fighting between thoughts of killing normies and doing what is right.
It's torturous, angering and stressfultfw no local qt to relate to and end the normies with
>>27612843
You said you were paranoid and bipolar. How are those not good enough reasons to seek help?
>>27612601
>>27612636
I was also buttplundered as a kid.
I have only very recently been able to take steps and to force myself out of my comfort zone.
I met up with a dude on craigslist who literally worshiped my dick for 40 minutes and then made me come twice.
The idea of it sure was gross and I've been relying on the idea of sex instead of actually going out and getting over the depersonalization, guilt and self-loathing it caused all throughout puberty.
It's not bad, now that I'm making progress.
Still having issues with blocking out the sexual parts though. I'm literally struggling to remember something that happened 3 fucking days ago.
I've fucked guys mostly. Gonna try my hand at having a relationship with a girl and being intimate. Since just about every other one has failed in some way or another.
Pic unrelated.
>>27612847
So many who were molested by people they trust also did it to others. It's like an infection.
>>27612872
i like the paranoia and being bipolar won't matter unless i'm with other people, could switch from loving daddy to murderous rapist in an instant and don't usually be around anyone so it doesn't matter
>>27612675
go tell that to >>>/cgl/ anon
>>27612924
I only had one unsuccessful attempt at a relationship with a girl and never have had consensual sex with anybody. The idea of having sex with a man repulses me, but I often have shameful perverted thoughts about young boys that are around that age at which I was raped. I wish I could just go back in time and kill the guy.
>>27612928
>mfw I attempted molesting my younger cousin after my older cousin molested me
>him freaking the fuck out about it made me realize it was wrong
>drunkenly apologized years later and now we're on good terms
>>27612936
You really should, whether your content with how you are or not. It can only help, and if it doesn't, so what?
>>27613006
Damn, that's awful.
I rarely get those, and they are few and far between. However, I have fucked complete strangers from craigslist so I don't really have room to talk.
>never had consensual sex
Okay, this is gonna sound mean but you gotta try to. And if not, do what I did and start out with sex toys. Slowly work your way up. I had to get over my self-loathing by starting with body weight exercises and sleeping naked to get over the anxiety.
It sounds really fucking stupid but it worked. It's all about forcing yourself to do something in an environment you won't be harmed in and slowly getting used to the changes. Because there were times in my life where I was legitimately afraid of having sex. I even freaked the fuck out from something as tame as handjobs.
inb4 normie.
Far from it.
>>27612237
oh wow, thought you'd be around 17-18 years old anon.
Since you like anime, who's your waifu and whats your favorite anime series? pic related is my favorite anime.
>>27613039
will think about it and try to force myself to go at some point if i have nothing to do but i don't wanna go for some reason right now even if you try to convince me, it's not narcissism or closemindedness but just feel tired thinking about having to talk and interact with someone again especially emotionally, never told anyone irl about this and want to keep it that way for now
just got blocked from posting for 15 minutes, sorry
Well, I remember this slightly older boy used to suck my dick and I would piss in his mouth when I was like 2-3 years old, maybe 5. He brought it up to a group and I was the only one that let him do it. I completely forgot about it until my brother brought it up a few months ago. We always suspected that their father used to rape both their kids because their daughter was also overtly sexual at a young age.
How it affected me? I'm not exactly sure. I remember at some point later that I was babysitting two younger kids and I got really upset and stuffed their mouths with my socks. I didn't touch their genitals but I was being sadistic and cruel in a sexual way. I started crying about it and told them not to tell anyone.
Worst of all is that I'm on /r9k/ right now, which should tell you all that you need to know.
>>27613112
I've tried. I'm not overweight nor self-conscious about my looks so that plays no part in it.
I've made out with a girl on my bed, but it's getting beyond that that's difficult.
>>27613158
I think the Nazi mods banned him. Shame when he seemed so mature for his age.
>>27613158
my waifu is Suzumi but she isn't from any manga or animu, but make up lots of daily scenarios with her in my head
also hard to pick a favourite but for now i'd say Claymore
>>27613297
the mods still have a hint of mercy and only blocked me for 15 minutes
>>27613257
Do you have any sexual abuse memories that you never mentioned? I think with all of the time I've talked to my therapist about it that I could help you talk about them now.
>>27613274
Being on /r9k/ really is the arbiter of whether or not you are fucked up, eh?
>>27610045
Not really but kinda. Grew up in hood being white so fought every day, thought its normal. Now getting into cage fighting and looking to go pro just for bragging rights. It gave me a kind of prison mentality. Im comfy as fuck in prison.
>>27613358
Tht's nice to hear. You just spent 20-or-so hours typing out your shitty life story, I think you deserve that second chance.
>>27613297
Yeah, everyone's different.
I thought I had gotten over all of my issues until I walked in on a kid getting molested one day and I couldn't even comprehend what was happening. I separated the two and informed the parents. After that I got a little too comfortable with some vodka.
Just sitting there realizing someone is going to go through the same shit you did growing up and there's nothing you could have done about it really fucked with me.
>>27613387
dunno, just my brothers friends making me suck their dicks at the beach at night, my foster brother in my first foster family also used to try to get me do sexual things with his younger sister but i could tell it was bad and never participated, in second foster family my foster brothers just joked about porn n stuf sometimes, one time we found out our parents bought porn on PPV but left the house and we kept quickly sketching to that channel and back to an innocent one while laughing, don't remember anything else that was sexual
>>27613558
switching*
>>27613550
You saw another kid being abused? If I ever saw that, I don't know what I'd do. The molester's life would be over, that's for sure.
>>27613558
It's good to know that it's nothing that you think really disturbed or perverted you.
I don't remember very much of my childhood and what I do remember feels like it happened to someone else
I do remember having my teeth pulled out with pliers
and being pushed down some stairs, I hitchhiked to the hospital because it broke my collarbone
I remember being choked out for a bad grade on a math test. This one was weird because he had never cared about my grades or education before this
I remember being fucked on a mattress covered in cum and tears, over and over again
I guess I was pretty depressed for a while. but I'm doing alright now
>>27613676
It sounds like you've repressed and de-personalized much of your memories. You should seek counsel to bring them out and confront them with help.
>>27613619
i still am sort of pure, i think? don't really know how to tell so i'll just give you my bdsmtest results
https://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=1090212
but i do still have some fucked up fetishes not listed in there, like guro
>be 7
>my older brother is friends with a kid, Alex, a block away
>they're both 12-13 I can't remember
>we'd hang at his place sometimes and play NES or Atari
>sometimes we'd look at this soft core vintage porn his grandpa left that was from the 50's
>I remember once he took his cat and put it in a large brown paper bag
>he swung it around at furniture
>kicked it and shook it
>then told me to look inside when he opened it
>cat jumped out and clawed my face
>one of it's claws stuck in and the cat dangled from my cheek as it stared into my soul hissing
another time
>Alex calls and tells me to come over his house
>I just got out from school and so did he
>his parents aren't home so that lets us play NES on his moms tv
>I get there and he tells me to go to his room
>"get in the corner"
>"pull your pants down"
>then he starts punching me in the nuts
>he wouldn't let me leave and kept punching me
>balling my eyes out
>I don't know how long that went on for
>then he freezes
>I hear his garage door opening
>fuck yes his moms home!
>I book it for the room door
>hear him yell "don't tell my mom!!" when I'm in his living room
>I'm at the garage door when it opens and his moms confused as fuck as to why I'm crying so hard
>I tell her Alex kept punching me in the balls and wouldn't let me go
>I never stop moving towards the front door
>make it home and never play with him again
He killed cats so I assume he was a psycho. Good thing he died a few years later in a car wreck. The damage he did to my testicles wasn't apparent till years later when my puberty didn't go well. My dick barely grew and I got gyno and couldn't hold onto muscle well.
ff
I'm 31 now and have to take roids to make up for my incredibly low testosterone. Had surgery to get rid of the gyno.
>>27613734
It seems like all of that abuse made you really submissive and regressed when it comes to your sexuality. Are you straight, gay or bi? You should really be careful in the future because people like to take advantage of people like you with submissive fetishes like that.
>>27613735
What did his mom do?
>>27613550
stoped the act and saved the kid,good on you anon
>>27613798
pretty sure it's just mommy issues, still love it anytime she makes me feel five and hugs me while giving me eskimo kisses
also don't really care but think i'm mostly straight, only been gay for one kid before that i didn't include in the story because we never did much, he was in my same class for a year but had to leave, miss him a bunch
also know that already, i like to go troll the sub and dom tags on omegle for laughs, i can choose when to be submissive or dominant still but just like being submissive more, still feel pretty predator-ial? and fatherly anytime i'm with my dog and tease him a lot by kissing him on the nose but jump back anytime he tried to go for a full kiss so i could hear him whine and stuff which is really cute
>>27613918
tries*
Is it abuse if your older brother constantly reminds of your failure on stage that everybody saw and makes fun of you by constantly bringing it up and tries to tell all people about it so that they'd laugh at you?
>>27613918
Yeah, you just enjoy feeling like a little kid again. I do too, but it doesn't affect me sexually like it does with you. The reason I love babysitting my nephew so much is because I just act like his little kid friend with him.
So you're bi then? I'd say I'm slightly the same. It really is an environmental thing that's shaped by childhood experiences, you're not just born with sexuality.
Trolling the horny dudes on omegle is pretty fun. I've reported the IP's of people on the "pedo" tag before. It's a nice little revenge against paedo creeps.
>>27613985
It's bullying, that's for sure. What failure has you this ashamed, anyway?
>>27613733
I'm in therapy for autism but we don't really talk about the abuse and I'm alright with that
feeling like it didn't happen to me makes it easier to deal with
My stepdad would rape me and beat me regularly when my mom was out of town. Being in the same room with him was awful, he would constantly make degrading comments and smack my head hard if I did or said anything that he didn't like, so my solution was to stay quiet, but of course that would piss him off too. At night when he would come in my room he would just immediately get on top of me and put his hand on my mouth and rape me. It was extremely painful but if I cried he would pull my hair or slap me, so I tried to be quiet.
My favorite times were when my mom was home, even though she didnt seem to care about me either. She was always so stressed out and distracted and seemed to only are about her own worries. I once asked her questions about my vagina that should have made it clear something wasn't right but she closed the topic and made me feel like I was being weird.
My mom and stepdad would also fuck loudly a lot, and I felt like my mom would abandon me if she knew what was happening between my stepdad and I.
I can't function at all and I've fucked over 50 men and am addicted to sex and will probably kill myself soon. I'm currently staying at some random rich guy's house who I know will kick me out soon. He really gets off on abusing me. I'm considering killing myself in his kitchen and making a big bloody mess
>>27614095
If you don't confront them then anger can end up coming out in the wrong ways from your subconscious.
>>27614054
Like I am going to tell you.
Also, same brother left me a scar on my forehead, but somehow that's the one thing that concerns me the least.
>>27614117
Don't do it, anon. Suicide fixes nothing, it's just giving up
>>27614033
it's still normal for my age for now i guess, because i technically am a shota
>>27614033
sorta', yeah, but force myself to never notice how attractive or ugly anyone looks and pretty sure i do it naturally by now so i'll just choose someone by their personality, and just match what sexual stuff they'd like after we got along good enough, wouldn't do anything sexual with anyone till i knew them for at least 3 years though so it's a big insurance for me
>>27614033
the people on sub/dom tags are so thirsty they will believe anything you say so it's really easy to troll there, people there believed it way too many times when i said i was 14/f/cali
>>27614170
It's anonymous, anon. Sorry, but I didn't think you'd mind saying whatever your "failure" was here.
>>27613735
That's so fucked up anon. I'm really sorry that happened to you.
>>27614117
>I can't function at all and I've fucked over 50 men
wew lad. you're a literal roastie.
hopefully you kill yourself, you disgusting slut.
>>27614199
It's honestly normal all throughout your life. Everybody, no matter now old, always has moments where they we want to feel safe and vulnerable.
I wouldn't go calling yourself a shota on 4chan. You're probably arousing a bunch of creeps.
That's some pretty impressive self-regulation you have there. I don't like to judge people by looks, but it's just human nature to do so.
Do you enjoy playing those roles or something, or do you just get a laugh from the people on the other end?
>>27614199
>>27614033
oh yeah, also look at that perfect 0% non-monogamous score, i'm really careful with anyone i pick to be with
>>27614265
That was pretty edgy, faggot. You don't know how vaginas work do you, you perma-virgin?
>>27614265
I know what a piece of shit I am. I'm probably the most disgusting person on the planet.
>>27614410
lol No you're not. Quit letting that faggot bully you.
>>27610045
Are you that leaf that keep bragging that you got it up the ass?
>>27614265
Anon, you are a little and sad psycho.
>>27613735
jesus christ mate that's terrible, alex sounds like a cunt im glad he got what was coming to him
>>27614321
You can't be safe and vulnerable at the same, silly.
also that's why i added the "technically", if you read back through the story you'll notice i added that i grew to the same size as my dad a while ago, and now i'm taller than him so i'm a giant even in a land of giants, he still has more muscle than me though
i value self-discipline a bit too much so i can change my way of thinking if i think if it'll help me in any way and force myself to do a lot of things i don't like even if i'm in pain or just uncomfortable, like how i readjusted my leg after it got bent and always walked around without asking for help but just trying to do things myself
varies, usually just convince them i'm a grill then lead them on for a bit then surprise them by suddenly acting like a dick or making myself sound plain disgusting so i shock them out of their horniness
>>27610045
>I was raped, myself.
more like you are faping to rape stories
>>27614150
I don't think so. I'm usually a really happy person. Never angry, just really really dumb. I don't even kill bugs, I just put them outside
>>27614480
i feel bad for everyone itt. and I felt bad reading her story, but then I got at the part about fucking 50 different men.
she's a disgusting slut and deserves to live alone the rest of her life.
>>27614460
You're a drifter from /pol/? Yeah.
>>27614518
You're safe with whoever you let yourself entrust, but also vulnerable with them. It's possible.
You're a very independent young man. It's impressive, really.
So it's mainly just for laughs? I pretend to be a 13/m/utah then report the pedos who pursue if they give me the information to do so. It's a fun little revenge.
>>27614532
I've been on nofap for 2 weeks. The last thing I want to do is look for stuff that would make me horny.
>>27614117
>over 50 men
that not alot, you can still find help anon
>>27614638
Yea leaf qt, you posted this link on my homeboard . It saddens me to see you posting on r9k m8.
Why always the threads leafy?
>>27614117
Forget about the 50 guys, you need help to heal from this.
>>27614798
I'm posting here because the subject fits in better here.
I do these threads because I like to vent.
>>27613842
She went after him I guess. I think I remember him trying to make up shit excuses to her as I left. I know he was really afraid of her when she showed up.
>>27614561
Do you go on /r9k/ and nowhere else? Did you read what happened to this person? She is obviously fucked in the head and I highly doubt this is your typical case of Stacy riding Chad's cock.
>>27614885
I've got to imagine how shit she felt knowing her kid was a little pyscho...
>>27614833
Sadface. Well, why do you let it control you. It seem like to me like you get off to the stories. Be honest with me. Me of all people would understand.
>>27614117
what is your age now woman?
>>27614638
i guess so
i want to be even more so and live by myself but too young and it's annoying how slow i have to advance through school just because everyone hates me
and yeah, i do most things just for laughs, have a pretty "flexible" morals too since i was raised without any and only times i feel like i did something good is when someone genuinely thanks me for doing something even if it was minor, so can't go hunting pedos alone because i'd feel like a self-righteous asshole instead
internet is spazzing a bit and dad is on my laptop so replies are slow
Thread like these make me feel bad for masturbating to lolicon
oh well.
>>27614942
Oh, you're that guy with all of the saved pics of cute little boys... The one that's always pushy and assumes I must be just as much of a creep as you. What happened to you that made you this way?
I don't let it control me, but in this past month more shit that he did to me has come back and I like to let it out rather than just wallow in self-pity.
I have a question for people:
Whenever my mother was upset/wanted to punish me, she would show me a scar on her arm or back. Then she would tell me a story about how her mother had given her that scar before promising that she would never hit or physically hurt me. She'd scream at me first sometimes, tell me how stupid I was, but then she would always apologize afterward and tell me that I was, "Very smart and special."
Does this count as abuse?
I wasn't going to post, but then decided to after thinking about it a bit. I never thought of it that way, but maybe it was emotional abuse. We definitely have a codependent relationship and share way more information with each other than is socially acceptable, even though I've done my best to move further away and set reasonable boundaries.
>>27614993
have pretty*
>>27614995
if think about saving/helping them after, its fine
>>27614993
How does your Nunavik school system work? The teachers are able to hold you back just because they don't like you?
Do you feel detached and without empathy?
>>27615053
I like to fantasize about living in the candydoll mansion.
>>27614995
Keep it 2D.
>>27615018
It sounds like she suffered with parental issues and didn't really understand what is proper conduct in disciplining your child. It could be considered emotional abuse because she was basically making veiled threats under the guise of being kind.
>>27615082
I like to fantasize about your lifeless body being sprawled across the ground.
>>27614965
24. Damaged goods in every regard.
>>27615069
don't know, and very likely isn't legal but most of the village hates me and my family is full of criminals so it'll be useless, already tried telling people about it before
and nope, they just believe false assumptions that other people told them so it's normal how they a to me, but pretty sure they'd emphathize with me if they read everything i posted here, but you can give up that idea since it'd be reaaallyy hard to try and convince them to even speak to me normally let alone making them read novels worth of greentext about me
>>27615152
they act to me*
empathize*
>>27612847
Manchester is a hellhole.
This crap:
>>27613222
Happened to me there a few years before you. I think about all the ways I'd kill him quite a lot but I've never been diagnosed with anything. Then again I've never thought it was weird and spoken to anyone about it.
>>27615018
it emotional abuse,she put the fear of what could happen to you,and say how good mother she is for not hitting you
>>27615012
Yes. I know you are I can tell you are by reading though this thread. Pretending to 13 again to recreate a fantasy. But, in order to be posting here most of us don't fit in.
>What happened to you that made you this way
Nothing, I can remember at least .I grew up in Portugal upper class then moved to the U.S when I was 9. I was spoiled and got everything I wanted before I wanted it. Aside for exploring the neighbor girls body a lot when I was younger. Maybe that's it.
>>27615152
It sounds like the people in your village haven't made things very easy either. I hear rumours that there's a lot of violence and alcohol abuse in those Northern communities.
I meant not if others empathize with you, but if you find it possible to empathize with others. You said that you had "flexible morals", so I was wondering in what way you meant that.
>>27614995
Like the other anon said, keep it 2D, senpai.
>>27615202
Did you grow up in section 8 housing or a trailer park? (real question)
>>27614117
How did you even manage to sleep with a rich guy?
Are you really pretty?
Do you have anywhere to go if he kicks you out?
Sorry for all the questions,slut
>>27615103
>>27615219
I never saw it that way. The only way that I wonder about it now is something along the lines of, "This is what bad mothers are like. I'm the best mother in the world." I don't know. Probably just something that I'm making up in my head.
>>27615202
>Your mom treating you like that from such a young age.
Sounds like a cunt desu
If you're still living with themwhich you shouldn't be holy shityou should definitely move as far away as possible and then cut off contact. No e-mail, no returned mail, no voicemail, etc.
Also your dad sounds fucking whipped.
>>27615130
you not anon,some women got 200 men or lost count at 20yr,so chin up lady you not a sex slave or a drug whole ,so stop the self hate and get some help
Legit question:
Do any of you think being molested made your taste in porn any weirder than it would be otherwise?
>>27615053
Nothing wrong with loli bro
>>27615275
No, I didn't.
But we were definitely poor in real life. My Dad worked really hard to please my Mom but my Mom just didn't love my Mom so she was very clearly unhappy.
Still, it was pretty bad. I've excused most of their behavior though because they were the worst with me. At least, they spared my siblings...
I got to grow up with the knowledge that I was the useless one. My little sister gets cars for her birthday, a fancy sixteen party, and iPhones. I wonder what it's like to be her.
>>27615202
greentext more stories
>>27615202
Sounds like your parents are both a couple of cunts. Sorry.
>>27615246
I pretend I'm 13 on Omegle and then report the IP's of creeps like you. I don't do it for any sort of recreation, or else I'd pretend to be 10.
What the Hell do you mean you "can tell". You don't know me.
>>27615127
why
I'd feed them and stuff. I just want to cuddle with a bunch of lolis
>>27615291
That's the point, though. Why even bother with the "this is what bad mothers are like" part. It's emotional manipulation to make you value her even more, which it seems she didn't deserve.
>>27615275
>>27615103
what about 3d loli modelling like candydoll
>>27615321
It made me experiment with man-boy shotacon a couple of times. Never again.
I was an abuser.
I saw porn at a young age because my "dad" had a ton of it and even used to watch while i slept in his bed. He took me to his family in Detroit once and we stayed with his parents when I was six. My older cousin cousin(not really my cousin now) had me watch porn with her. She and her friends were pretty lewd, pretending that popsicles were dicks and shit like that.
>watch porn with her
>says that she'll flip a coin and if she gets the favorable result, I eat her out and if not, she'd suck me off
>don't remember seeing the result but of course I had to eat her out
>only vagina I've ever tasted and didn't really like it
I don't remember how old she was when this happened, but I distinctly remember her having hair on her pussy. I have been a pretty sexual person since, shame that I've been fat most of my life or else I might have been rolling in puss.
All before or during kindergarten:
>had sex with another "cousin" though she was the same age as me
>had sex with neighbor boy(I did him and then when it was his turn to do me, I remember him saying I had "brown stuff in my butt". I think someone came home before I got done, don't remember.)
>molested the family dog
>had a girl in kindergarten show me her vag on the first day during naptime
When I was older, the whole of third grade, about 9yo, my cousins stayed with us. They were about kindergarten/first.
>pretty much had sex with the girl almost every day after school
>had her hooked on it and begging to suck me off some days
>did the boy cousin a few times
I feel pretty bad about it. Despite what my older cousin did with me in Detroit, I don't consider it abuse. My cousins were with us because their mom was on drugs and they themselves had a history of having sex with one another before I did anything, but I still consider myself to have abused them.
Do any of you guys with family members that abused you or that you abuse but aren't on bad terms with talk about it? Counseling or whatever?
>>27615321
Needles and surgical MC fetishes. I can't see what else would have made me enjoy only extreme, permanent loss of control. Unless my job is just too stressful or something. But seriously, only really bad end stuff even does it for me any more. If I ever get over it and get married I'm going to have to have a really awkward conversation with my husband at some point. How do you even bring that up?
"So...uh, brain surgery is pretty fucking hot, right?"
>>27615321
Yes. Getting molested at a young age jump started my sexual curiosity and then I began looking for porn with kids my age. It made me strange because I can see the spectrum of sexual ages much wider than normies.
The incest also got me looking at sex strange. Now I read or watch fake incest porn on occasion.
>>27615349
>Eating dinner
>My older brother and I love are discussing whose going to have the cold soda
>My dad gets mad
>Grabs me
>Corners me
>Screams, "You want the fucking soda?!"
>Opens it and spills it on me
>Opens another and spills it on me
>Slamming the cans on me after there's nothing in them
>The twelve pack is gone
>No one got soda
...
>Be 5
>Can't keep my pony tail holders in the right place
>Can't find one
>Mom keeps me home from school
>Makes me be on all fours while I find the pony tail holders
>Afterwards, she grabs me by the hair and flings me around
>Says, "You're utter garbage."
>Yanks hair
>Yanks and yanks
>Hair is finally in a pony tail
...
>Stay up late
>Mom comes into my room
>Screams at my Dad
>Dad comes in
>Dad begins to question why I'm awake
>Explain that I can't sleep
>Calls me a horrid whore
>Beats me with the cable from the vacuum
>Am on floor
>Tells me to stay there and sleep
>Sleep on floor
...
>Mom has holy water
>Holy water has salt
>Pours it over my body
>It burns cause the psoriasis is open scars
>Tells me to remember the pain is just evil leaving my body
>Creates a ritual till I turn 12
...
Should I really go on?
>>27615270
The rumours are true, very true.
Oh, yup, but scared of getting attached to people so usually don't.
Also meant that as in I could be a really unfair and annoying prick if I was in any sort of power and don't care much when people say they were raped, abused or humiliated because I fantasize them a lot and would likely enjoy it instead.
Doesn't mean I can't empathize with them at all though, still could feel really sorry for people if they seem sad or broken enough to me like the grill in the thread that got raped by her stepdad.
>>27615370
Fucking weirdo.
>>27615410
It's sexual abuse to have made that shit in the first place. Don't support it.
>>27615449
Why they're so cute. I just want to cuddle and love them. Not rape them you ok with that.
>>27615449
I dont see how it causes harm in any way tho
>>27615321
>made your taste in porn any weirder
Yes.Mostly vanilla though.
Because of my inability to cope growing up as a child, all I did was play vidya growing up as a minor but effective form of escapism.
And then I found out about pokemon porn and everything went downhill from there.
But the other weird thing is I actually prefer lit erotica over actual porn. I'm more comfortable with the idea of sex and being able to alter it in my head than watching an actual sex act. I'm also more fond of the very basic idea of arousal and consent. This probably has to do with me reading so often as a child to cope with getting my dick+balls fondled repeatedly and my asshole fingered.
On top of that I find it really hard to have sex or even masturbate in the dark. But I still have problems being naked around other people, even if it's only for 20 seconds in a locker room
>>27615327
>I got to grow up with the knowledge that I was the useless one. My little sister gets cars for her birthday, a fancy sixteen party, and iPhones. I wonder what it's like to be her.
Jesus christ. And i thought I was the one prenatally neglected for younger siblings.
>>27615327
I remember being that scared and confused kid again after posting my story and wish I could hug you, anon.
That goes for everyone else in this thread.
>>27615130
Have any stdss?
>>27615510
I have an older who my Mom constantly touches and praises his beauty. He is definitely the most generically beautiful of all her children and she goes on and on how we could never be like him.
We all had difficult upbringings though. I think I just got the blunt end of it.
>>27615513
I haven't stopped thinking about getting a hug for like a few weeks now. It would be very nice to be honest.
>>27615278
I'm pretty much homeless and I dunno I just attract certain types of people I guess. I'm attractive yes. But very disgusting on the inside, and it's pretty obvious I would say. I attract a lot of abuse; I think it's just who I am.
>>27615449
>Fucking weirdo.
says the fag that was molested lmao
>>27615359
How the hell do you manage that without looking 13 isn't that a video chat website. Don't you have to 13 in order to fool people.
I almost went for a psychiatry when I applied for Med-School this year but, I decided to stick to Surgeon. I've taken enough courses in psychology to know how this works.
>>27615443
Though so. Have you ever thought of the idea of moving South once you're old enough and capable? It sounds like you could really use change like that.
You really just want to be submissive to somebody, don't you? You really want that childhood of innocence that you missed? you really need to be careful in that in your future.
>>27615518
Probably, though I haven't noticed symptoms.
>>27615430
I talk to my brother sometimes still. He was like 18-19 and still molesting me but now, we're all 30's, he talks about it like he didn't know it was wrong. He was a bully. Now he's got a victim complex.
I don't know. I just want to forget it all and so I don't bring it up.
>>27615449
Ay son, nothing fucken wrong with loli or shota bro
>>27615471
"Hey, why are there lewd pictures of you on the internet as a little girl?"
"Some creepy japanese man made me a sexual model back when I was too young to understand it all."
>>27615430
While I do feel bad about your story, I might as well respond to your question.
>Do any of you guys with family members that abused you or that you abuse but aren't on bad terms with talk about it? Counseling or whatever?
Nope.
I confronted him about it when I was 17. Merely mentioning something that he did to me a decade ago was more than enough to have him running scared. Apparently I wasn't the first kid he diddled and he was scared about being charged with something since he turned 21.
He's tried to crash multiple occasions, just showing up uninvited, and I can't stand being in the same room with him. That smug condescending fucker had the nerve to sit with me at the dinner table one time and act like nothing happened. He even assumed I didn't remember and tried to come back and start something sexual again.
Needless to say we don't talk.
He's dead to me, as far as I'm concerned.
damn canada is fucked up for most anons
>>27615432
Actually, if my wife told me that, I'd be pretty interested. But then, I'm a total sub and would probably be interested/willing to do anything my Queen/Master told me was hot.
where where you when women failed at everything
>>27615614
how does this cause harm? these are ukranians we're talking about
>>27615577
Of course, almost the entirely reason of why I wanna be great at school and independent is to leave this shithole as quick as possible.
I didn't say I'd be on the receiving end, anon.
I sometimes just feel like suddenly smashing or beating the crap out of something just so I could hear it scream but also get annoyed by the scream anyways then keep telling it to shut up till it stops making noise.
I hate these thoughts but it's better confronting them then just keeping them in the back of my head all the time.
>>27615650
I think it's alright to shut out people from our lives. Not that you asked.
6 Billion humans on the planet. We can let a few bridges stay burnt.
>>27615655
>biased info gives extreme results
"omg! the place i live is terrible!"
>>27615560
Hardyhar a little helpless kid is a fag for being raped..
>>27615569
There's a text chat aspect to it. That's where I do that.
>>27615655
How the fuck could you even know about the remaining 967 that aren't reported.
Fake as fuck.
>>27615655
Indeed. My (OP) and the Inuit kid are examples of this.
Parents used to beat me up
Parents used to threaten to kick me out/dragged me out the door, still do this
Mom threw a glass at me once and could of killed me
Dad calls me every name in the book
Mom does the same, knows every way to put me down
Both call me a loser and consider me one
It's good they didn't rape me but they really fucked up my life a lot. All of my friends hate them. Funny thing is they say I'm a poor reflection on them, but they're a poor reflection on me.
>>27615740
Mm-n, Canada was literally built on immigration by undesirables, people who didn't want to be in prison and orphans were sent to first populate Quebec too.
>>27615706
>anonymous interviews
not that I actually believe those statistics. as anon said, biased info.
>>27615703
Does your ass still hurt from getting BTFO by a big strong man you still fantasize about?
>>27615754
Exactly.
Don't let those people stop you.
If they don't realize that they're worse off than you that's there loss.
>still do this
Move out. Cut off contact.
No matter the circumstances. Let them see the error of their ways.
>>27615672
True. Probably 50% of Ukrainian children were child porn stars...
>>27615691
I hope you do well enough to maybe even get a scholarship. It seems like you could use that bonus.
You sound like you have a lot of pent up anger. You really should seek counsel like I suggested earlier. You may be confident that you won't do anything, but don't be overconfident.
>>27615794
I'm gunna still talk to them, I won't abandon them like they've abandoned each other.
But yeah, I'm moving out.
