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>>6189138
yeah I'm making great strides in scientific discovery here aren't I
>>6189140
Oh I know no one will say anything, I just get really paranoid sometimes and feel like people are silently judging me
Like at least of couple of times I've flat out skipped a class because I was a few minutes late and didn't want the awkward experience of finding a seat. pretty pathetic tbqhon
>>6189149
hiya Charlotte, how's it going?
>tfw overwhelmed by options online so you can't decide what to get
I spend literally tens of hours in games like Saints Row trying to create an outfit, but when there's real life money involved its like a whole new level
I walk in the Light.
>upload face pic to face++
>"99% male"
>upload another face pic
>"75% female"
reeeee make up your mind
>>6189209
>Like at least of couple of times I've flat out skipped a class because I was a few minutes late and didn't want the awkward experience of finding a seat.
I've failed classes because of this feeling.
we still doing forearm pics?
Help me choose which dresses to buy
>>6189196
>Getting my hair braided by girls is legitimately in my top 10.
So... I actually have a little bit of a confession to make. A little like Phien-chan I can have trust issues, and unless I know you and really trust you, I get really uncomfortable being touched. But for some reason this goes double for my hair. There are litteraly 3 people I allow to touch my hair. Me, my ex and my best friend (because I'm too weak to stop the bastard from pulling it. Oh, and because I trust him not to.)
>>6189198
I certainly hope there isn't a cure. It's who we are, I'd hate to change it in some vain attempt to cure someone's personality. It reminds me of the lobotomys of olden days.
I'm probably overthinking the moralistic side of this. I'll leave it at, "I don't think it needs to be cured"
>>6189206
>Not knowing who?
What are you talking about? Who do we not know?
>>6189211
>Identity politics are already too strong, it wouldn't be viable.
Thanks be for that.
>>6189222
I like the left one second from the bottom.
>>6189222
all of them
>>6189222
I really like top left
also second from the top in the middle
>>6189209
>Like at least of couple of times I've flat out skipped a class because I was a few minutes late and didn't want the awkward experience of finding a seat. pretty pathetic tbqhon
You sound like me, you should get checked for social anxiety. You shouldn't get treatment for it or anything, but it'd be useful to know if you have it or not.
>>6189222
I really like the top right one...
I wonder if I can just copy paste and the links will work...
>>6189189
>(2+ feet)
working on that but it's gonna take at least 4 or 5 years ;__;
>>6189194
natural selection is what slowed down all the science produced by autistic or troubled people. living to survive in the wilderness is something we don't need for the time being, you're promoting being useless.
>>6189206
I'm just someone that already passed all stages and reaches acceptance that I can't transition. I feel bad to trip when the point here is to show your progress and motivate others, I'd be a needless bad influence.
I might type weirdly because english is my second language.
>>6189216
shut up, millhouse
so close to getting this figure just a few more months
>>6189222
2nd row middle looks cute as heck
>>6189184
Like yeah don't go overboard or you'll piss other women off but everyone trades sex for attention at some point.
>>6189206
Az is wierd, its like really conservative on some things, but then we have medical weed and made laws specifically allowing transpeople into bathrooms of their preference.
>>6189222
I dont like any of these.
I hate sleeves.
>>6189222
>>6189178
>>6189197
youd be impressed, I was pretty good at being a guy. Agrade student in college, lots of friends, normal social life, made friends easily, girls hit on me etc. I guess I was kinda introverted and severely depressed and also more into selfharm than was good for me, but still. my social life was definitely better. that being sad, I am REALLY glad I am not a boy anymore.
>>6189184
>For all your flaws I find you to be a lovely person
thank you <3 :3
>>6189201
the psych said I should be institutionalized and detransition cause me transitioning was probably just a severe form of self harm.
if my parents wouldnt have disagreed Id probably have done what he said desu.
>I've always wanted to be a girl
>but I told myself it was just a fetish
>then i started lifting weights to make the thoughts go away
>and drinking
>and studying genetics so i can one day use it to turn into a girl
>and having sex with a lot of girls, but i need to imagine I'm in their position to get off
>AM
>I
>REPRESSING
Gee golly I don't know repression is a complex topic it's hard to say if you are or aren't transgender.
>>6189245
>shorts
but then you also gotta shop for tops, twice the hassle of buying a dress
>>6189222
THIS IS A POLEBOO POST!
DO NOT REPLY TO THIS POST!
I AM A POLEBOO EXPERT FROM /BRITFEEL/!
PLEASE LEAVE THE IMMEDIATE VICINITY IN AN ORDERLY MANNER AND DOES ANYONE WANT TO GO OUT SOME TIME?
>>6189245
my arms are hairless
too bad i'm a a major faggot who is too afraid to paint my fingernails
>>6189200
I'm sure you will. Depression isn't forever and I'm sure that you can take steps to make your life more comfortable.
>>6189206
This was what I did for a few months as well, I mean hell I even briefly said "maybe I'm gender queer, gender queer people can't repress". Or " I'm not trutrans because I don't feel that I am a girl right now, just that I want to be one"
Logic wasn't there the whole time, but certainly it was what pushed me to do what you're doing as well, taking it fast seemed like a good way to make up for lost time.
Part of me still hoped that hormones wouldn't help me, and that I could close the door and be done with it after knowing I wasn't trans. Instead they ended up being the single best decision of my life.
>>6189262
Yeah if you painted your fingernails people might start thinking you're a girl and we can't have that now can we.
>>6189222
These imo
>>6189268
naw, people would just think im a freak, but they probably already do because my tits poke out of all my guy shirts something fierce
>>6189261
No I don't wanna go out with you, I want to tease you until you give in and rape me. And then I want to find four more guys and do it to them too.
>>6189272
>tfw too ugly and manly to wear cute clothes
aaa
>>6189244
>sex for attention
I'm a bit of a prude actually. In part it's because I'm really uncomfortable in my body, but I'm also really easily embarrassed by anything remotely lewd.
>>6189256
Or you could just wear a sports bra and show off your midriff.
You know...
If your fit.
I need to loose weight :(
>>6189269
>I'm trusting to a fault.
I mean, that's the weird thing. I'll take your word for whatever you say, and I don't mind being manipulated, but try to come near me before I'm ready and you're going to end up bleeding out on the floor from multiple stab wounds...
I'm kidding, but seriously, don't try to hug me if we meet in person. Wait until I ask if I can hug you.
>>6189222
Umm, depends on you bodytype, tho.
>>6189223
>I hope there isn't a cure
SCP 500 Panacea
Pimozides big brother.
>>6189277
You should tell people that you're a boy but you have tits because of a medical condition.
It's technically not a lie.
>>6189217
yeah, pretty much the same here. I missed a couple classes because they were early morning and I stay up really late, so I just stopped going entirely because the imagined awkwardness of returning back was too much for me
>>6189222
I like most of these a lot but the ones that most stand out to me are top left and second row middle
>>6189233
yeah I'm pretty sure I have that. I was taking zoloft for anxiety for a while, then I went in for a refill and apparently I needed to contact my doctor because there were no more refills. But since I hadn't taken any meds my anxiety of actually calling the doctor was really high, so it became a feedback loop. I'm kinda pathetic
>>6189252
>Agrade student in college,
oh god I used school as repression. if it weren't for this one grad level class I took my junior year I would've had a 4.0 in college :\
people liked being my friend and I was pretty boyish around my swim team friends in high school but outside than that I was very bad at boy
>>6189255
you might be repressing anon..
>>6189209
pretty good, pretty good
>tens of hours
lol, is that like, months in game-time?
just go impulse shopping!
>>6189222
I like top-left, but I could never pull it off. It would accentuate my shoulders too much.
>>6189244
Someone was telling me about weapon laws; that actually sounds kinda liberal to me, since it was originally anti-patriot act.
>>6189263
I told myself I was gender-fluid, because there were just some days where I could repress easier than others, but that died off like a month or two later when I noticed that almost 5 weeks had gone by when it was hard to repress. Basically the same thing, and it helped me get comfortable with not repressing anymore.
>hoping they wouldn't help
I wish my dad was that tolerant of "perment decisions", but I need to talk to him with conviction about shit like that, so I had to wait before talking with anyone. Because of this super-strong opinion, tattoos are still one of his favorite things to complain about when he's drunk.
>>6189287
Go take a long walk off a short pier.
>>6189288
last 4 people who asked me flat out my gender (3 of which was at college) I told them I was intersex
>>6189279
Okay.
Wait, no. Not okay.
>>6189242
I can't wait >w< You already have the cutest personality, it'll be adorable when your body matches :3
>>6189252
>if my parents wouldnt have disagreed Id probably have done what he said desu.
What the fuck, your parents have a million times the sense that you do, Jesus. Why would you ever want to go along with that???
>>6189255
Definitely repressing v.v
>>6189256
Lazy!
>>6189262
This is making me want to paint mine, but I'm in guymode permanently ;~;
we posting arms huh?
>>6189222
You can't just throw a bunch of instas together and call it a day. What are you going for?
All I am getting from this collage is the desire to hide the lack of hips.
>>6189307
how tall are you?
>>6189261
Why is there are crossover between /britfeel/ and /mtfg/?
>>6189252
I maintain that it's impossible to imagine you as a guy, it just doesn't fit and I'm sort of surprised you were able to be as alpha as you were. Again, more trutrans than I, I was painfully beta. Wore baggy jeans and hoodies to hide my body, was really really shy etc. :(
>>6189279
Oh sweet Jesus..
>>6189252
Maybe that kind of agresive attitude helped some people, even if that were the worst possible road for you. As I said, there are shitty psychs like there are people horrible at any job. One or even a few bad experiences shouldn't spook you out of ever seeking help for tangential issues. Being trans doesn't mean you can't medicate bpd or depression.
>>6189255
It's not really all that hard. Cis people don't want to change their sex, they might be okay thinking about that or even think it would be better or more fun, but they don't get complex feelings out of that thought exercise.
>>6189276
>tfw you're the first in a list thanking recs
anon feels
>>6189284
Really, who would go for that horribly hon pink bed sheet?
>>6189302
While I get that asking if you're a boy or a girl might feel like their nossing in your life, it's really better than people calling you a faggot.
>>6189302
Ok that's a fucking lie.
Actually maybe your a male to intersex transgender lel.
>>6189307
The homo general is on /fit.
>>6189300
Description: SCP-500 is a small plastic can which at the time of writing contains forty-seven (47) red pills. One pill, when taken orally, effectively cures the subject of all diseases within two hours, exact time depending on the severity and amount of the subject's conditions. Despite extensive trials, all attempts at synthesizing more of what is thought to be the active ingredient of the pills have been unsuccessful.
Oh look at that.../pol/ was right again...
>>6189290
>second row middle
It's boring af
>>6189307
...
>////< I'm really sorry... but these are the type of arms I dream of being hugged by. I don't care if you're a girl and you have those arms, they look safe...
(pls? I want a strong guy/girl to hug me and keep me safe...)
>>6189302
But you don't leave your house. Heck your chicken tendies are brought right to your room.
>>6189314
Oh I have been called a faggot in public about 3 times and had one guy sarcastically say to me "nice hair"
has it made me stronger? no, I have retreated even more into my room
>>6189316
Cosmo did and he was totally a male. Right? Right???
>>6189319
My life would be easy if I was just homo.
SPARTHON. Seriously though. I want out...
>>6189311
5" 11"
>>6189307
a lot of girls are really hot men
>>6189252
I was sure I was transgendered when I was 16, I told my psych this.
My psych said I had an unresolved oedipal complex.
google.com
HOLY SHIT! I'm a fucking degenerate!!! :( Repress for12 years.
>>6189325
>But you don't leave your house
I do only for class and essential things like chores, groceries, and doctors. I just was at 3 different doctors earlier today and had my hormone levels checked at a fucking "womens clinic"
>>6189310
>What are you going for?
I want something I can wear with tights and looks sufficiently girly/feminine
>All I am getting from this collage is the desire to hide the lack of hips.
Only requirement is long sleeves to hide arms, though skinny might still be seen as too manly
>>6189328
>tfw Narcissa was a big inspiration in my life and got me started painting my nails
>and then she turned out to be trans
>>6189337
>>6189324
Wait a minute that's genius. I can just hug myself...
Who spooky skeletal here?
>>6189262
I've seen plenty of faggots and non faggots paint at least some of their fingernails. It's not as bad as you think
>>6189280
Maybe medical science figures out how to polymorph hons some day to save us
>>6189263
>I'm sure that you can take steps to make your life more comfortable
I'm not sure if I can ever live the life I want to live or have the experiences that I'd wish to have, that feeling is so crushing and just sucks out whatever will to live I have managed to muster with blind optimism. Time is working against me and I feel like I'm going to miss out on all of the young adult experiences and that everyone will have settled down by the time I can get out of finland. Feels pretty bad, hon and lonely
>>6189337
>little miss sunshine
Nice
>>6189280
A lot of it is finding the clothes that flatter you. If you look so manly that its just impossible.. i dunno.
>>6189331
It's so hard not to troll you.
>>6189334
>oedipal complex
This reads like badly written porn.
>ctrl+f the the threads i missed
>5000000000000000 mentions
well, then. good evening! i'm glad i'm not sensitive, or anything.
how are you doing, mtfg?
>>6189342
You know, untensed muscle is actually softer than fat! It's like hugging a marshmallow.
I don't know how I know this.
>>6189299
Honestly, I've thought this a few times, but you remind me a lot of me when I was your age, it's actually kind of spooky how similar you are..
>>6189339
Well so did you tbf.
>>6189345
yep, I found it ironic when I bought it too
>>6189346
I look like Chris-chan according to /mtfg/
>>6189349
Fine. Parents are retarded, anons have been lovely all night, and I'm still crushing on my best friend.
>>6189355
minus all the drugs, but aside from that and living in different parts of the same continent, yeah.
You might even be able to attribute my lack of drugs directly to living where I am though. Kind-of a conservative, rich fucking bastard area. My neighbor is running for congress, if that says anything.
>random
elanna, look what we've done
>>6189297
>>6189307
>>6189343
>>6189313
>Wore baggy jeans and hoodies to hide my body, was really really shy etc. :(
saaaaaaaaaaaaame
>>6189334
even though freud made breakthroughs in shit, he's a bit of a quack when it comes to gender issues.
like
he said that all girls envied male genitals
>>6189351
>I'm literally sorry I asked
Constant vigilance our greatest asset.
So how do you translate your boy measurements into girl measurements?
Do you just take your waist size and compare it?
>>6189287
Pimozide works in the same way lobotomies do. Most psychoactive prescriptives are effectively less-permanent lobotomies.
>>6189290
I don't get it treated, I just force myself to deal with regular, day-to-day stuff. I guess that's technically exposure therapy, but yeah. Get somebody to force you to call your doctor dummeh >~<
>>6189297
*headpats*
Don't bully yourself sheen
>>6189302
What the fug liar xD
>>6189299
I guess I can try being impulsive, hopefully I got accepted for this bakery job and can work soon so I can spend money more freely
And no lol I can spend like 6 hours in a row depending on the game
>>6189322
fitting for me then
>>6189307
hi if you are cis be my bf
if not be my gf ok thanks hope to hear back from you soon
>>6189360
Ohhh you.
>>6189305
>>called millhouse
>this one hurt. :(
Just because you'll never be a meme, no similarity besides that.
>>6189316
>>6189304
the worst part is that it takes a shit ton of practice to get your nails really right.
>>6189321
>cures the subject of all diseases within two hours
what if the disease is being born a boy?
>>6189327
>and had one guy sarcastically say to me "nice hair"
only one? I've gotten more of those than I can count since my early teens.
the bad part is that I just have very straight hair, I can't do anything besides letting it grow or completely cutting it down. If I tie it it just flows out of whatever I used to tie it, and if it's too short I can't take it out of my eyes...
>>6189334
You wanted to have sex with your mom?
I'm assuming he meant that you wanted to be your mom, which is a variation on it.
I always fear that I just want to be my sister since she had the more maternal role in my life. Sometimes it's hard to look at her face when I see her.
>>6189282
How long have you been on hormones if you dont mind my asking? Its probably just a matter of time.
>>6189299
Like AZ weapons laws? Yeah they're pretty awesome. I wanna go to a gun show and get a rifle soon.
>>6189304
>Why would you ever want to go along with that???
I had that conversation with the psych like a day after I tried to suicide by overdosing, I didnt care about anything at that point and I wasnt sober anyway. my dad (also a psych) was present though.
>>6189313
I was still short and light, and kinda touchy feely, I used to sit on my friend's laps and stuff all the time. I was aggressive in public tho and talked shit occasionaly, Idk. it was weird.
>>6189314
I took 80mg prozac at the time, did nothing. and I really didnt wanna try something new. after I survived, I got suicide watched, my bf moved in essentially, and stabilized me. I was better until srs, after which I was on strong painkillers for 11 months. and after that I started to deteriorate again slowly, Idk.
>>6189314
its really hard here to get a psych here without waiting 6 months.
>>6189334
oh god, that sounds even more awful than my story ;~; I am sorry
>>6189336
We are on the cusp of summer. The time for tights and sleeves has almost passed.
That being said, solid, neutral colored thighs are not going to detract too much from whatever you choose. I would actually rather combine something with jeans.
If I have to choose from the outfits offered I would go for the upper left. Everything else is just annoying Insta crap or puts too much emphasis on the midsection.
>>6189361
what happened with the parents?
i mean i expected the crush thing. that doesn't tend to go away very easily, unfortunately.
>>6189366
wait...what?
they're the same thing.
>>6189370
Omg im at hair in mouth stage, straight hair sucks.
>>6189349
>anonpost about yourself constantly
>brag about lots of mentions
tell me about your father
>>6189349
Hey Edie. You missed lots of shitposting and a pale arm contest.
I've actually been waiting all day to ask you something, because I quite didn't understand something about the HRT advice you gave me...
one month on spiro, and after that month start on E or should I start on Spiro and E simultaniously?
Also vote in my attentionwhore poll!!!!
http://www.strawpoll.me/10202830
>>6189348
Why resist Anon? I can take it. Being on T means I don't take things to heart. You can troll me.
And besides. Half of me still hopes that I see myself as unpassable when I reach my lowest weight at the end of my muscle burning and get to go build it back up again.
>>6189369
I am the hon king.
>>6189365
...
...
I just can't agree. I wouldn't be me for all my flaws. I'd rather have the option to fix these problems that to prevent them, but I can understand your perspective. I would hate for other people to continue suffering from, say, disphoria, but then, I /want/ to be a girl. So yeah, if there is a prevention method for disphoria, I don't think it's bad per-say, I just wouldn't have wanted it used on me.
>>6189371
:p I'm still waiting on circumstances to change so that I can order them.
>>6189377
Hang on, I'll track down the post.
>>6189356
I didn't mean it disparagingly.
>>6189370
>the worst part is that it takes a shit ton of practice to get your nails really right.
I do my toes
>>6189334
I want to smash your psych's face.
-flex-
>>6189377
A womans waist is supposedly 3 inches higher than a mans
>>6189368
if you know the look you wanna go for, just buy stuff that fits that look. If you don't, then just buy random shit and wear it around the house to decide if you like it or not.
>>6189371
I've always been more into knives. Guns don't excite me that much tbqh. They're not as flashy unless they're some beautiful high-caliber revolver.
>>6189384
>>6189377
*Ahem*
Pet peeve of the day:
Family members trying to instill doubt in you after you took 4 years to reach a satisfactory answer to an existential question
In other news: my mother has decided that I must seek the opinions of at least 3 mental health professionals before I can be sure that I want to transition.
YAY FAMILY!
And
The funniest thing she said to me today?
"I'm not saying this to dishearten you, but you have really handsome strong male features."
>>6189391
spartan? <3 <3 <3
>>6189398
guh....
you know that if you're over 18 you no longer have to care about their opinions, right?
>>6189396
>Guns don't excite me that much tbqh. They're not as flashy unless they're some beautiful high-caliber revolver.
Allow you to introduce you to "Unique", my baby.
I mean, technically she's my dad's, but I'm the only one who ever shoots her anymore.
>>6189363
>minus all the drugs
Yeah, that's basically the main difference. BTW if you're going to do drugs don't be as dumb as I was, I just know during that first year they're tempting, way too tempting. Also, my parents weren't in a rich area but they were pretty hardassed.
>>6189372
Awee were you twinky and effeminate with a tough exterior? That actually sounds super adorable, not gonna lie..
>>6189370
>the worst part is that it takes a shit ton of practice to get your nails really right.
I can't even cut my fingernails right lmao, I paint toes instead.
>>6189372
>I had that conversation with the psych like a day after I tried to suicide by overdosing
Oh, I get it then. Glad you listened to your parents instead of going to hell on earth.
>>6189382
Take ur skittles lmao
>>6189383
https://youtu.be/qlwtCkUnZHU
>>6189370
SCP 500 would cure your dysporia.
But if you want...
Description: SCP-113 resembles a small, polished piece of red jasper. Analysis shows that SCP-113 is not composed of jasper, but [REDACTED] composition similar to that of other recovered objects.
When SCP-113 comes in direct contact with the flesh of an organism possessing sex chromosomes, the organism's physical characteristics associated with gender and biological sex are transformed (including genetics and secondary sexual characteristic), either reversed or altered.
Also it kills you if you try to use it twice
>>6189398
Oh snap!
Maybe you should sperg so much on account of her being your mother. She wanted a son, not a tranny.
>>6189403
I mean. yes, and no. I'm dependent on them a while longer while I get a job and pay for college, but I'll try to get out of that rat-race soon.
>>6189399
Nah not my post. I am not feeling aggressive today. Starvation chills me out. Kinda wanna not go back to being ultra aggressive like I used to be when I was younger.
>>6189379
i was up until like...11 am. then slept till 30 mins ago.
i wish i could have stayed up to at least respond to some of it since it wasn't anons most of the time.
my father was Francs I, the Holy Roman Emperor. i was born in 1755, and became the Last Queen of France.
unfortunately i was blessed eternal life by a friend of Dorian Gray, and had to fake my death over 300 years ago.
>>6189381
i actually thought that might be confusing whilst re-reading it in my dazed stupor, but i was too tired to correct it ;_;
you'll want to be on 100mg the first month, then 150mg forever. 200mg at most. like...MOST girls don't need to go above 200mg.
since spiro is like a blood pressure medication and a diuretic, going above that caaaan have negative consequences for some people.
better to be safe about it.
>>6189384
>>6189398
try to be kind to your mother... she's just trying to accept it. it isn't fair of her really not to trust you, but....
this is a much better result than many have gotten. how old are you?
>>6189395
oh. idk. they're all the same measurements as far as i've ever known.
wow so I'm awake now
>>6189408
>tfw singer has a better jaw and chin than me
Biggest reason im insecure about my face tbhon.
>>6189399
No, just an anon who used to nicepost and has no skittles yet, so muscles to spare.
What bathrooms do you guys use in public?
Ever had an issue with using the ladies room?
All these drugs are goooood
>>6189405
>Awee were you twinky and effeminate with a tough exterior?
5'8 and 50kg
:3
defo not ripped.
>>6189406
yeah, still not a fan of psychs ._.
but it doesnt matter anyway. if I could get one Id probably have to wait 6-12 months for an initial appointment. and if I dont get out of this by myself after ffs I wont live long enough anyway, so no point in looking for one
>>6189422
I used the ladies room in UAE. get on my level :^)
>>6189422
I use the women's and so far haven't had any issues
>>6189404
I take back everything I said about rifles, but bolt-action is so much sexier.
>>6189405
I've had an itch for weed more than once in the past two weeks. I know that escapism isn't the answer, but I can't help it.
and... didn't you say you were addicted to angel dust for a while? ;~;
I don't wanna do any of the hard stuff, just psys and weed if anything.
>>6189420
You do not call bowie a "singer"
You've made an enemy this day. Not really but it sounded good.
>>6189422
nobody's ever said anything to me or reacted to me being there but I always end up panicking like crazy if someone else is in there
>>6189422
There are only gendered bathrooms at Ikea.
>>6189203
Tfw no kawoshin general
>>6189429
Please don't die though, I like you and don't want that at all :c
>>6189422
i've been using the women's restroom my entire life, even when i was a faggot. i've never once had an issue.
i've also never used a urinal.
>>6189419
GOOD EVENING FLANNEL BB
or should i say....platypus
>>6189426
i read the adopted passage :( i didn't know that. what exactly has she done? i need specific details.
my shitposting multi-tasking profession can only handle so much at a time.
from the passages about college and living with her etc it just sounds like she sets impossible standards and doesn't try to empathize?
>>6189440
I live in red neck land as well but no one mocks me :)
>>6189406
>Take ur skittles lmao
No way. I've got a plan that keeps me from making big mistake and throwing myself to the mercy of transition.
>stage one, burn off muscle and achieve minimum safe bmi
>stage two, measure proportions
>stage three, if proportions are good. (IE acceptable for cis female sizes) Take hrt.
If proportions are not good. Then back to repression knowing that I've missed out on nothing. Hondom must be averted at all costs. Repression wouldn't feel as bad if I always knew I was never going to pass.
Tfw won the genetic lottery with body. Tiny hands, tiny feet, almost no body hair, small shoulders, giant hips.
Pity my brow and nose are the stuff of neanderthal wet dreams
>>6189303
We can just skip the rapey stuff if you want, whatever you want. I exist only to please.
>>6189313
Im so depraved.
>>6189422
I avoid public bathrooms like the plague tbhon
>>6189447
These drugs are amazing, Edie.
Caught up on so much sleep
>>6189422
usually I end up spending a few hours looking for those single person assisted restrooms or I hold it till I get home. I don't want to get beat up by a man in the men's room and I don't want to make women uncomfortable until I get srs
>>6189435
Yeah, that's just what makes me worry because that temptation to tune out under those kinds of circumstances is strong ;_;
Also, the stuff I was hooked on is called mephedrone, it's a designer drug that feels like a hybrid of MDMA and amphetamines and is a bit like cocaine in that you snort it and it doesn't last very long. I also did a lot of mdpv, it's the stuff commonly known as bath salts.
>>6189447
it's clearly morning, gosh
>grilled pizza
W H A T A T I M E T O B E A L I V E
>>6189435
Ah, but you don't understand. She's front cocked. You pull down on her mechanism and there's a satisfying *Chunk-lic" as she engages. And she fires without a sound other than a *click* as the refire-mechanism comes into effect, and then you're ready to fire again.
Bolt action is sexy powerful, but nothing compares to putting out 5 rounds in 3 seconds, and putting them all withing a mm of each other completely silently. That makes me feel really good.
>>6189447
You pretty much got it.
I mean you can keep checking in on that as you go, I'll be updating it as stories pop up, and I'll intersperse them with ones from other trips/anons, such as Valq.
>>6189451
You lucky, lucky bastard.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5i1cJIwE7M
>>6189449
>acceptable for cis female sizes
That just isn't happening. You do understand that?
>>6189422
I used to go into the girls dorm and showers all the time with gf, never had any problems. Go into them at the bars and clubs, np. Otherwise i go into the corresponding bathrooms depending how i dress.
>>6189451
>tfw almost everything on my body is average male and the only good thing is no visible adams apple
>tfw even manly eyes
plsssss
>>6189454
>stupid spartan not paying attention to me :(
But I don't know how to talk to girls. My high school prom date was achieved purely because I was muscular kek
>>6189471
Spartan I have weak wrists and it's stopping me from making progress in my deadlift
wat do?
fuck dudes why is it so hot
>mfw wearing jeans in 90° weather
JUST
>>6189468
>tfw giant adam's apple
>>6189429
You were and are still so tiny ;~;
I sort of suspect that you would have set off my transdar though, it sounds like you were actually not convincingly masculine :P
>>6189452
Teach me senpai..
I can only dream of being that depraved, and I often do
>>6189448
I'm serious, everyone drives a lifted truck with jesus bumper stickers
>>6189384
Oh, haha. Don't worry, you'll find yourself succing for steak dinners in good time.
>>6189396
Knives are nice tools but as a weapon they arent my things. Ive got an eye for them big long rifles, and swords, and spears, and roosters, and other phallic things.
>>6189451
>tfw beautiful concave nose
>>6189449
Uh, hrt is necessary to get cis female proportions, what are you gonna do measure skelly? Your skelly isn't female baka, but that doesn't mean it's impossible to pass.
>>6189481
oh kayla
why won't you let me shove my tongue up your arsehole
who else knows that feel when
>>6189454
Always the best
>>6189451
it's easier to change your face than your body though. take your blessings where you can get them ;3;
>>6189454
noo, just spiro for the first month. by slowly ramping up your dosage you'll hopefully throw yourself into female puberty.
that's the goal.
>>6189456
d'aw i'm glad!! are you feeling any better?
>>6189461
b-but it's 8pm
>>6189462
woah. that looks...ungodly...
>>6189463
that doesn't always mean that she's a horrible person though. it just means she's probably hard on everyone, and even harder on herself.
i only say this because my grandmother has been the same way my entire life (to the point that i would be scared of her hitting me whenever she raised her hand despite never laying a finger on me) and i didn't really realize the good things about her until....this past year. she wanted to do conversion therapy and told me i was going to hell when i came out at 13, and then didn't really talk to me when i transitioned at 18ish.....but idk. i'm js. if she has helped raise you she obviously cares about you. it's good to have that connection.
>>6189444
Next general I make will be an Asuka x Shinji thread, just for you.
>>6189478
>tfw faggot voice but still can't make my female voice sound female at all no matter what I do with it.
>>6189481
I didn't say you were lying
>>6189493
I made a request for that album you're looking for. Perhaps someone will upload it.
>>6189465
That's good tho Anon. If that's the case when I'm skeleton mode. Then it concretes and validates my repression. And removes that "what if I had potential regret"
Basically. If I have shoulders above 14" as a Skeleton. I get a free pass to repress.
Why transition if the proportions are all wrong. It's my stop check that means I will never take hrt unless I'm absolutely sure.
And To be truthful. I want it it to fail. So then in my mind I can rationalise "you did all you could. But your just too manly Spartan"
>>6189491
>ungodly
In a good way or a bad way?
Because the margherita pizzas that just came off were pure heaven
>>6189491
A little
I can at least move around with only a little pain
>>6189480
Im not this depraved in reality, Im too shy and scared of the consequences. That why I want a boy to force me into it. I like when boys force me around.
>>6189482
>succing for steak dinners in good time.
... I certainly hope not.
I mean, someone mentioned that "tiddy skittles" are going to give me insane cocklust, but I have both the patience of a chess grandmaster, and the willpower required to headbutt a brickwall till it falls down. I should be fine.
I also don't intend to sell my body.
>>6189491
>she obviously cares about you.
I mean... she does, I just can't find it in my heart to forgive her for how she treats me, and particularly others. My ex isn't from a particularly well off family, and when she found out (after they had met) the first thing she said was "you should pick your friends more carefully." I can forgive a lot of things, but an unrepentant, and continuous bigot? Not yet. Not until she improves herself.
>>6189499
>tfw 16" shoulders
>>6189436
>not really but it sounded good
this is my favorite reason to say anything tbqh
>>6189451
>mfw hairy femboi
>>6189460
I'll be careful. I promise. ;-;
I tend to mix up mdpv and pcp. I thought they were the same thing for a little while.
>reading wiki on it
"Reportedly, it has four times the potency of methylphenidate (Ritalin, Concerta),[9] although its pharmacology has only recently been studied in detail."
>ritalin, concerta
that's the shit I used to abuse in high school at max legal dosage ;~;
>mfw.
>>6189482
see, I just like the kind of weapons you can easily handle, but get really dangerous really fast
>>6189494
the spite
>>6189445
awww <3 youre so nice anon.
Ill stick around as long as Ive the strength to do so.
>>6189480
yep, about halfof my friends werent suprised AT ALL when I told them. I felt a little rused. I was doing this whole thing of 'I really need to tell you something important, its pretty disgusting though, if you hate me after I wont hold it over your head' then I told them in half ofthe cases they just looked at me and said 'yeah... ive known ( for up to 4 years)' the religious half was super suprised tho it was a weird time.
>>6189506
you say that, but you've already started acting like a little slut so you'll get your spankings from mistress, so...
>>6189507
>tfw 16" shoulders
Try 17-18''
>>6189495
Go to a therapist, gotta work on your prosody I think. It's a voice thingy
I think im going to get a PO box and self med.
It should help, ill stay boymode for a while. Then ill finally feel like im on the right track to being a cute girl.
Is this the right thing to do? I had gender dysphoria but repressed it hard due to religous parents, its only recently come back and its a lot stronger and more difficult to repress..i really thought i had gotten rid of it
isn't this basically just going out in a bra?
>>6189494
>tfw
;-;
>>6189501
in a bad way ;-; was it really tasty? it sounds good in theory but the pic... idk
>>6189503
that's good! did you go to the trans friend party thingy?
>>6189506
she'll probably improve herself in time once she realizes she'll have to do that or risk losing you.
some part of her probably still feels like she has power and influence over you, and she doesn't want you to make mistakes she feels she made.
i'm js. i've seen this happen a lot with cis people actually, and it's something a lot of people end up regretting.
you don't have to be nice to her or admire her or anything like that, but try to forgive her, and be above what she does.
it'll make living with her way easier, and once you move out things will prob change a lot.
i moved out at 19 and it changed a lot of things.
>>6189494
Asuka isn't into femboys
>tfw my mum has 17" shoulders
>tfw my sister has 18" shoulders
>tfw I have 15" shoulders
>>6189517
Literally the best pizza I've ever had
>>6189483
I don't mean in the sense "look female"
But small enough that it's acceptable size. Really really skinny and small.
>>6189476
Hmm. I had a wrist problem when I first started lifting. It went away though as I got stronger. Try focusing on arm exercises and perhaps use grip trainers.
I sometimes had moments where I felt a sharp pain in the tendon of my wrist. Just try to slowly increase the limits of it.
I really should go to sleep but all I want to do is shitpost
>>6189520
wut
>>6189520
Do you have a vagina?
>>6189506
Well, do remember that most of /mtfg/s cocklust is just them being teases; /mtfg/ villianizes any cock that actually offers itself for sucking. You start on hormones though and at some point youll do things to get things from boys, I promise.
>>6189508
I wanna get pepper spray honestly, I normally carry a pistol but I dont want to deal with the psychological impact of killing someone, or the legal implications of using a firearm to defend myself.
>>6189520
>mum
britbong?
>>6189343
>Who spooky skeletal here?
reporting in, 6f 130lb. am i good enough?
>I'm not sure if I can ever live the life I want to live or have the experiences that I'd wish to have
A lot of cis people have the same problem. You should try to get the best life you could get, not the one you dream of.
>>6189349
I never know if I should love you for your posts or dislike you for the general discomfort you generate on others...
>>6189360
CWC looks extremely bad out of horrible eating and higine habits, you can fix that.
If you're naturally fat a lot of cis people are too.
>>6189366
I thought the OP had a link for that...
>>6189378
that's long enough to put it in your ears, though.
but yeah, if I didn't enjoy long hair it would be hell.
>>6189372
>prozac
Prozac is probably the worst AD, barely works when compared to placebos. Very rarely the first AD works, you're supposed to try different ones two or three months at a time until you find the one that works.
>6 months
that really sucks, not every psych works with every case. you're supposed to look around...
>>6189373
45º here, my stove barely functions for this appartment and I can feel my fingers cramping down. enjoy the nature forced outing.
>>6189383
we should make a contest one of this days, I wanna rule something.
>>6189408
Bowie is always the right option.
What album is that from? I though I had the full discography...
>>6189409
That was clearly written by a repressed tranny.
Neil Gaiman has a short story about a pill meant to cure cancer that works on a celular level and as a side effect turns you into an adonis of the oposite gender, people turn it into a recreational drug and everyone switchs all the time. It's a series of very short chapters with time skips between each one and no main character, in the introduction he says that it was meant to be a novel but he never could really expand the plot. I would like to read that potential novel.
>>6189511
I'm sorry if I came off that way anon, but I'll remind you now.
I have a gun, a combat knife, 3 years of schoolyard fights, I can take a 16 newton punch to the head and come out completely unharmed (it was in the name of science, I swear) and I've got no concern for my own safety. Try it and die.
Also I'm playing up my flirtiness for fun. Calm the jets.
>>6189517
You sound like my Councillor. You're right of course. I've forgiven her for most of the things she's done in the past. It's what she continues to do that I can't excuse. I just don't have it in me. Not yet anyway.
>>6189512
I'd rather not, 16" is already terrible.
>tfw tonight is the last night i sleep in the rape dungeon
>>6189529
>please try to borrow it from friends
I dont have friends irl though.
>>6189532
>that really sucks, not every psych works with every case. you're supposed to look around...
I called about 6-10 in my general area in 2012. waiting time of 6 months was the lowest. highest was 1 year waiting time to get on a waiting list. also 90% dont want to work with trannies at all.
>>6189519
Shinji is manliest man ever.
>>6189504
I know the feeling. I suspect some of these things I wouldn't actually like in reality, but dear lord stuff like rape fantasy or just being used and abused and treated like shit, that's the good stuff to think about..
>>6189508
There are some things that I am glad are illegal, mdpv is one of them. Habit forming, sketchy feeling, tends to cause psychosis. I remember having a psychotic episode on it and thinking there were church bells ringing outside and having paranoid delusions about people in the edge of my vision, there were cop cars all over outside. I had to hide all my knives ;_;
>>6189516
looks kinda like my new black one
>>6189532
>naturally fat
I don't think that's a thing and no i'm not, all men in my family are skinny or normal.
>>6189542
It looks terrible and big though, I feel like my shoulders are massive and way bigger than most people even if that's not the case.
>>6189520
me mam has 16" shoulders. my sister has 16" shoulders. I have 16" shoulders. mum is 5'6", sister is 5'8", I'm 5'10"
it doesn't have to make sense. deal with it
>>6189523
Thanks for the advice! I'll be back to report/moan with my progress, or lack thereof later
>>6189530
... We'll see. If you want to start a betting pool, you can bet that I'll post about it here if I do. I might even make a storytime of it.
>>6189541
>I dont have friends irl though.
You can find us here. If you ever need me, Just throw an email my way at [email protected]
Or add me on skype!
I go by Cpl_Punishm3nt
Because I'm a gamer. Sorry about the cringy name.
>>6189546
Ah, no. Go hunt somewhere else child.
>>6189529
>Where do you measure shoulders from, the outsides of them or those little pointy bones inside them?
I measured from the pointy bones. 41'' circumference.
>>6189532
>reporting in, 6f 130lb. am i good enough?
I'm 6 pounds above you, same height. Spooky sekeltals unite
>>6189534
>I'd rather not
Me neither but I wasn't given the choice ;__;
Fuck transition for being a gene lottery and fuck some people being able to roll GD with shit genes. Life is too unfair.
>>6189523
Not all girls are skinny and small, there's room for bigger girls too, it doesn't make you an automatic hon or anything.
>>6189526
I should be writing my term paper but fuck that - /mtfg/ is interesting tonight :3
>>6189532
Nice longpost ^.^
>>6189533
>being threatening
You should probably be spanked for real v.v
>>6189548
>I feel like my shoulders are massive and way bigger than most people
well the good news is that they aren't :)
>>6189520
>tfw mom flexes to show she has bigger arms than me but i still feel dysphoric af about them
trannies are weird.
>>6189522
hm.
i now may or may not order a grilled pizza tonight to see what you mean. it's my night off, so.
i'm gonna watch Easy A again.
>>6189526
you have a shitposting addiction...i'm sorry. anon.
same tho. we need a 12 step program.
>>6189532
;__;
what do i do that causes the general discomfort though?
>>6189533
tfw i've worked with trans people/youngin's and been a counselor off and on for the better half of a decade lmao
that's totally fine tho. i probably wouldn't either, and i can't imagine what living with her and having to deal with that shit all the time must be like.
do you have plans to move out anytime soon, or is it more of a financial benefit not to?
>>6189537
make sure you go back and wash the chains every once in awhile
>>6189547
Kayla there's something in the way of the photo
what's that weird black thing? Can you move it out the way and put another shot up?
>>6189559
BLUEBOARD
I don't need anymore 3day bans
>>6189530
also, the cost of maintenance on a pistol. You need to keep it in perfect working order if you want it to not fuck up on you.
pepper spray is good, stun guns are good too. Por que no los dos? Tasers kinda electrocute you if they're touching you, so not very good self-defense.
>>6189542
... fair enough...
>>6189545
... jesus... I'm glad you're not hurt or anything from episodes like that, that sounds scary af...
>>6189543
He's best girl. Would probably just pull the hrt Femboy thing irl.
>>6189558
it's kinda sad leaving a house i've lived in my entire life though, to be honest
>>6189557
I dunno, I have no hips so they look big anyway.
>>6189555
>You should probably be spanked for real v.v
Sorry, I only respond with threats when I feel threatened. Spankings are not on my list of fetishes.
>>6189558
>more of a financial benefit not to?
Yeah... Unfortunately. Property prices in Ireland have jumped through the roof since we came out of recession, and there's actually a shortage of rental properties. Not to mention that I'm still job searching., and most of the cash from that is going to go into paying for college.
It'll work out in the end. These things always do.
>>6189561
>because i'm not clear on when I should start taking E :(
what do you mean, not clear.
start the second you have it
>>6189552
Ill add you, but I wouldnt put my burdens on a transperson. this has backfired a few times REALLY badly.
>>6189537
Where are you going?
>>6189541
I exist someplace irl, I'll be your friend!
>>6189546
Take your skittles then dummeh~
>>6189547
Kayla I'm sorry to say but there's no possible way your boymode isnt failing.
>>6189552
OH, IT'S YOU! THE ONE WHO SANG A SONG!
Hi <3
Tell ur mum she has no place being "concerned" for you now when she nearly let you get paralyzed and die.
>>6189567
You could always have wider with same amount of nohips so count your blessings anon.
>>6189562
I'd NEVER report you....
also why don't you put it on something like unsee?
>>6189572
i'm going to go live with my bf because i need to keep going further through my transition and i can't do it around my parents
it's kind of upsetting that i can't tell them anything and i have to basically leave my entire life behind but i think that's what's necessary to progress
>>6189570
Do you have skype? can I add you? I'm OCDing on this,
>>6189510
Yeah, I mean stuff like getting all touchy feely, sitting on friends laps, that's pretty telling. Come to think of it I did stuff like that too but oddly enough there wasn't really any people that suspected. A lot of people did say "oh, yeah come to think of it that does sort of fit."
Religious people are clueless though, that much I noticed.
>>6189563
Not permanently at least, thankfully. There were a few incidents that I'm glad did not leave scars, and I'm thankful that my sister only thought it was self harm, not what it actually was.
>>6189570
>put my burdens on a transperson
Don't think of me that way. I'm used to listening to peoples problems, and helping in whatever way I can. And if I can't, or I'm not able to listen I'll give you fair warning. I've been through the worst of my own depression, and I've helped others with theirs. Just let me know whenever you need to talk.
Though, chances are, If I'm not online, I'll be in here.
>>6189572
Wait, wha? Who else would I be?
>>6189573
If only my face was okay too ;-;
>>6189567
how long on hrt? age?
even if they don't get wider with hrt, how you dress can do wonders for making your hips look wider
high waisted jeans with long-ish shirts that go wider at the hips (idk what they're called lol) are magic
lmao i love this movie so much. literally me in mtfg tho ;___;
>>6189561
of course! i'll add you in a sec. my username is qtwaifu btw. anyone is welcome to add me as long as they say who they are so i know lol
>>6189565
yes. i do that a lot.
>>6189566
i can't imagine :/ i've only lived in one place for longer than a few years and i still have dreams about it.
you're moving towards something better tho. proud of u.
>>6189568
yeahhh. everything will be fineee. how is the hrt stuff going btw?
>>6189569
;3; i don't really get riled up by her anymore because she's literally a sissy bimbo. it lowkey gives me great amusement.
Dysphoria be like
>>6189532
Reality album. It was supposed to be on a different one but got removed
>>6189558
Well it's like a smoker slow cooker thing but it's a grill
>>6189420
Bowie is the dream goal of every femboy and a great artist to boost.
>>6189436
Seconding the eneminity
>>6189456
was the night too rough or you got some sleep at least?
>>6189486
pretty much everyone here desu
>>6189541
>I called about 6-10 in my general area in 2012. waiting time of 6 months was the lowest. highest was 1 year waiting time to get on a waiting list.
>1 year waiting time to get on a waiting list.
what? are there extremely few or something? how much work do they get?
>I dont have friends irl though.
you sort of have us, which isn't really good enough. you can always get some. use your manipulation powers to get them close to you and fix their lives a little bit so they'll take you as their ruler.
>>6189555
>Nice longpost ^.^
I no longer chat on facebook because I bore people with huge messages ;__;
>>6189558
>what do i do that causes the general discomfort though?
I really don't know, I'm pretty new here. I like what I've seen of you, but there is so much people hating on you that it's weird.
>>6189553
>I'm 6 pounds above you, same height. Spooky sekeltals unite
I can get in that weight if I drop cigs and peek up weed, we could do the fusion dance.
>>6189584
flannel, what do you think of flannel on guys?
Ended up buying these 6
Black/white striped one was just too boring
>>6189508
Yes. The things i say because they sound good and the good things to say ratio is way off though.
>>6189586
>Dollface trying to play the bad bitch card
don't lie, I know you've cried yourself to sleep many a time over feefs throwing shade at you
>>6189593
>6
*5
>>6189584
3 years but I started at 20 so not like I got better hips.
>>6189486
I go between this and "FUCK YEAH ADONIS"
Adonis brain deserves to win. He's a winner
Bored
Ask/tell me stuff
>>6189583
Yeah I know that feeling too
>>6189590
>we could do the fusion dance.
The what now? You mean combine our bones to become something like skeleton beast from dark souls?
idk if hanging around tranny spaces is good for me, I might have to stop
it was useful for info when I wanted to start self-medding and stuff but now being here and seeing just how large a proportion of people pass so quickly and are destined to do so much better than me is getting depressing as hell
being reminded again and again of things I will literally never, ever have with 100% certainty hurts a lot
>>6189498
danke
>>6189586
>how is the hrt stuff going btw
Poorly. I'll be waiting a while longer to talk to a mental health professional (15 days, and I'll be forced to talk to another after that) but it's not so bad in the long run. I've been deliberating over this for the past 4 years, and I've known about it for longer. A few more weeks won't dissuade me. Though I will admit, I'm getting a little antsy with myself these past few days. Actually admitting to myself that I couldn't repress this has fucked with me big time. Like earlier, when I was crushing on my friend I noticed that he smelled amazing. I noticed it before that, but I'd been actively ignoring it.
>>6189602
-__-
>>6189581
what do you mean, "didn't leave scars"? ;~; what happened? holy shit
I can't tell if you're a bad influence on me now that I'm getting close, or if I would have ended up doing something like that if I hadn't met you.
>>6189595
for me, it's the ratio of good things I say to the total number of things I say that's way off.
>>6189603
poo goes in the loo, not on toast
Please attack this pasta hating person
>>6189591
uhhh well I think I pretty much got my love for flannel from seeing the guy I had a massive crush on in high school wearing one once so yeah I guess I'm into it
>>6189598
well if your ideas about your hips are anything like your ideas about your shoulders I'd say you probably have nothing to worry about
get out a measuring tape and see
worst comes to worst you can just wear ruffle skirts all the time
also you can find things like this http://midorilei.com/3-styles-that-give-the-appearance-of-wider-hips/
>>6189608
obviously
why do you feel the need to tell me that ?
is this a meme ?
>>6189603
how deep is ur vag?
>>6189602
>How do you circumference from those?
Naw circumference was just around the whole thing. Width was from the pointy bones. I'd have a decently slim body without the broad-as-fug shoulders so it irks the fuck outta me, almost as much as the lack of hips but I feel like I could forgive the latter if my shoulders didn't stick out as much.
>>6189580
You should really just get injections. You don't do them as often and they give you more stable estrogen levels.
Also Snorlax>all other Pokemon
Y la verdad no soy fresa, nadamas decia por que mis primas me decian que si soy, o sea yo digo que es mas que ellas son nacas y menos que yo soy fresa
>>6189586
Hey, how's your day going?
