I have a problem edition
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previous >>6184956
better.
i wish to disappear
>>6185558
we're gonna use the diapers edition eventually flannel it's not going to go to waste
>inb4 not 1st
>>6185565
NEVER
>>6185540
>'express consent'
'you can touch them' is generally considered 'express consent', gunny :^)
if you want the kid gloves off, starting off with 'you're going to prettier than i will ever be' right after i've 'sexually assaulted' you is some next-level meme cringe motive material tbqh
>>6185556
so basically accepting that you're a trannu is the main difference? :/
it's always hard at first. it'll get better.
>>6185566
just a hunch, flannel......just a hunch...........
>>6185551
We all have have our nerdy quirks
How do I get over the crippling fear that I will end up looking like some agp hon and never convince anyone I don't have a dick
threadly reminder, some hips do lie
Well girls, I just lost my V-card c: I've been dating a boy for a little over a year, I came out as trans to him on month 2, he was cool with it, and we just fugged. It was awesome :3
>>6185574
>.>
<.<
(I once saw a whole bunch of these guys irl, it was pretty cool)
well, it's getting pretty late,
& my crotch hurts a bit.
i think i should call it a night.
see you later, everybody.
(can i also say that it's been fucking awesome to be reunited w/ other /b/read veterans? pretty fucking sweet-ass)
oh poop I just remembered I was gonna make it erect nipples edition
(yes it does sometimes get that cold here)
>>6185573
you're a fucking sexual predator
no meme
no anime girl
no winky faces
you're a monster
>>6185580
underrated post
>>6185584
tl; dr
>>6185574
Hmm, you might be onto something
I JUST FUCKING WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME THATs CUTE PERsoNALity WISE AND DOESNT LOOK LIKE CAITLYN JENNER
SCREEE
>>6185586
yeah that was pretty cool.
>>6185582
>>6185595
I KNEW IT!!!!!!!
POSTING ON UR PHONE WON'T HELP U NOW FLANNELPUS
>>6185578
By starting HRT ASAP to minimize the risk and maybe getting other people to critique your appearance.
Don't listen to the 18+ meme but do know thy genetics play a pretty big role.
Also remember that cis people don't clock trannies like trannies do.
Just dress, look, and sound appropriately.
>>6185596
>DOESNT LOOK LIKE CAITLYN JENNER
dang it so close
>>6185573
I don't remember expressing consent for you to grind against me
>>6185569
>try to take a full hour of your day to just sit and practice. that's the best and only way to get better. I'm 31 months in practicing by myself and whilst I've gotten decently far I'm still lacking direction in all this. The worst part is that my irl just is not going to be sustainable like this, something needs to change and fast and I don't know what I can really do. Feels like I'm in a dead end with no way out, no light at the end of the tunnel and all that shit.
I'm sort of new here, I wasn't when all this went down and I don't think I ever saw you posting with a trip.
When someone acuses you of a crime the right answer is telling them that you're sorry and discussing why you though it was alright understanding that it wasn't like that for them.
Tying to use their words to prove you didn't commit a crime is not only poorly seen socially but also reinforces the idea that you are aware of the damage you made and you don't care.
In the future it might be wiser to, if not truly felt, at least attempt to excercise some empathy.
>>6185596
I hope you get there Isla
Also that's a really cool trip
>>6185595
pfft everyone knows I don't use windows
also hi will
>>6185592
it's designed so the thumbnail is the tl;dr
>>6185604
that would imply that anyone who posts here could ever admit they've done something wrong, and could be held accountable for it.
>>6185608
>will
how do u know platypus' name if no one knows who they are...and after they admitted they're a grill...i feel a cotton conspiracy coming on, flannel
>>6185602
Yeah, it's a shitty place to be in. Do your parents have ill feelings towards you because of your transition or because of your NEETdom? If the later I'd say that showing an active effort to get better will make them feel good, if they are supporting you they have certain hopes for you and just getting a basic income job won't make them any happier. If it's the first one then you might want to go to the job market.
>>6185601
you didn't. you were consistently asking for the dick for a week beforehand, but you did not verbally consent to that specific act. sorry for dry humping you and stopping when it was obvious you weren't interested. thanks for clarifying dude
>>6185589
faye
you're a creepy old lady and i have no idea what's wrong with you. i don't know if you did this to fit in or if you legitimately have convinced yourself that i have wronged you in some way by either twisting the facts in your head or out of some other inscrutable motive. get a therapist, dude.
>>6185605
Thanks :3
made it myself after 2 weeks of genning with 150million trips per second
like ty on both aspects
i doubt i will fit one that im comfortable with though...
>>6185504
>anytime
?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubjvigZCdH4
>>6185611
I'm an elite hacker
I also know that she/he lives in canada
I'm gonna say the maritimes
>>6185611
I really don't like having people that made others feel bad not taking anything seriosuly and then Phiechen feeling guilty for existing. We need a middle ground here.
>>6185601
>>6185613
oh and i almost forgot - sorry for beginning to dry hump u in my fucking sleep and continuing once i woke up instead of discontinuing. i clearly wanted to nonconsensually sexually assault someone larger than me who had done me no wrong and who i was literally dependent on for a roof and transport for a significant period of time. intentionally antagonising that person would have been choice.
>>6185618
it's still dry humping if one of the parties was clothed, which i think i was.
>>6185623
did you tell her you were sorry for something you had no control over? because that sounds like a scenario that should be cleared with an explanation and a laugh.
>>6185617
flannel...how could u...I BELIEVED IN YOU, I WAS ROOTING FOR U, WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR U!!!!!
the cold front of truth is coming, and there's not a flannel button up in sight that will keep you cozy through it!!!
can you tell i'm bored af btw lmao
>>6185619
wait what happened with phien?
>>6185623
pretty sure you were awake hips. I've never heard of people just humping and grinding against people. I slept with kaylee for months at a time and not once has she done that. I've honestly never heard of people doing that in their sleep.
>>6185626
>WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR U
>there's not a flannel button up in sight that will keep you cozy through it
impossible
>>6185608
FUCK I legitimately thought I had put something that identified who I was and that you knew me in real life or something... then I noticed my name is right there
>>6185617
I don't know where you got that though, not that I do
>>6185612
>Do your parents have ill feelings towards you because of your transition or because of your NEETdom?
Both but more about the latter I think. Right now the biggest thing grinding their gears is that I've been tired, poor sleeping and vision/conciousness problems for close to 5 weeks for no apparent reason no matter how many tests they run on me, combined with a wirldcard system of new symptoms ranging from toes/fingers randomly going numb to morning sickness and vomiting. My mom blames it on me and my selfmedding even though it's pretty much impossible for that to be the reason after all those tests. She knows it and blames me anyway for it.
>getting a basic income job won't make them any happier
Getting a low-tier job here is not really an option. There's a huge demand for those kind of positions and I'm the least qualified person who could possibly apply for one having 0 work experience, recommendations or education beyond high school which basically everyone gets here. Even if I did manage to land a job I don't think I could hold it for a week in my current physical and mental state anyhow. I get my food money from welfare sometimes, sometimes they deny it because I haven't applied for enough jobs or something.
>>6185613
if you want to know why I'm doing this, I'll tell you, I was trained to deal with sexual assault cases, and one of the most important things you can do is stand up and admit it happens
if you don't the abuser will just keep abusing people, just like you have.
Red was brave to stand up, and I'm going to back her up by coming out with my story as well. Hopefully you'll have to move somewhere else to find your next victim.
>>6185625
>'haha im just feeling down bc of hormones, it's just the progesterone, it's cool haha'
yea dude good thing clearing that up worked in the long term haha
>>6185626
nothing really, I was talking with her in a previous thread and she was pretty adamant on a huge feeling of guilt for her past, present and future that seemed pretty out of control and didn't mesh with anything she has shown here. I don't know her personally, though, maybe she poped a cap on some poor dude.
>>6185627
this actualyl happens
chelsea humped me in her sleep
though i may be guilty for doing stuff with her before sleep but we cut it off.
HOWEVER
she did hump me in her sleep.
It does happen, from me i can confirm.
>>6185627
my dude
people have different sleeping habits
kaylee apparently facefucks people in her sleep, but that's besides the point :^)
>>6185623
I know most people don't get to experience multiple hours of recorded testimony and interviews of rapists and sexual abusers, but you can actually literally see how one acts right here. This might help you guys in the future.
>>6185631
elementary, my dear watson
(I just looked at the times and made an educated guess based on timezone - maritimes is pretty much the only place currently in utc-4 apparently)
(sorry btw, I can see how that might have been a bit concerning for you)
>>6185627
in all fairness my ex boyfriend used to do that constantly to the point that he would wake up WHILE we were having sex not fully knowing what was happening because we started fucking while he was still asleep. maybe hips is just a giant man.
>>6185629
it's not impossible...this is ur last warning flannel-chan
admit ur wrongdoings!!
>>6185637
oh :/ um no, i think she's just been through a lot because of her transition and stuff.
i don't know too much about her life prior to it though, so i don't wanna speak for her.
phin is a really good person. one of the few people here i genuinely admire t b h. it does suck that she feels that way.
>>6185639
don't fucking bring up kaylee, you know nothing about her besides the mail you opened and posted of her without her consent
>>6185642
I'm sorry it's all true!
uhh
whatever it all is
what are you accusing me of again?
>>6185633
Having a set goal is a great way to help non chemical depression. A job could do you good, even entry level jobs give more money than welfare but they usually include interacting with a lot of people and that's rough.
Huh?
'm 'wake I promise
5 more minutes mom, Please?
Zzzzzzzzz
>>6185645
YOU'RE THE PLATYPUS FLANNEL BANDIT!!!!
>>6185638
did she violently grab your breasts out of nowhere and keep trying to make out with you while you said no politely trying to salvage the situation so you could meet a trip you knew a long time ago?
I don't know shot in the dark there, trying to see if there is some intersectionality between us as well
>>6185639
Yea, she does this, also talks in her sleep and dreams about hearthstone.
She also stays up until 9 am screaming laughter into her mic so.....
>>6185636
If I had a friend sleeping in my bed for some wacky animu scenario and woke up with her touching me; as long as she stopped said she was sorry and it had no other repercusions it wouldn't be the coolest thing but it could be okay. This isn't how Red saw it, so I'm assuming it didn't go in a friendly way. I was just saying that if it was JUST that then it couldn't had been this much of a deal.
Making excuses is also not saying that your sorry and not doing it again.
>>6185627
Tbh my boyfriend does it when he sleeps spooning me and its very annoying.
>>6185641
Ah, but you missed one fatal clue: the times were in EST, placing me amongst literally the majority of the US and Canadian population!
>>6185649
Edie posting a flanneled platypus? what an interesting development! Is this all a conspiracy?!??!?!?
>>6185651
"but what if shia lebouf dies early" was the best one.
>>6185649
I surrender!
>>6185635
>>6185640
>im a navy seal comms expert marine hostage negotiator sexual assault specialist, what the fuck did u just fucking say about me you little bitch
the only reasons im not saying it was jealousy are because im ugly and because you apparently do the 'you're going to be prettier than i ever will be' bit to *everyone*; i just happen to be a convenient target for whatever it is ur extreme memes are.
this is legitimately a waste of time. the only reason im saying anything now is because parts of the truth are coming out from the horses' mouths themselves.
>>6185647
yeah, better skip this edition
>>6185662
we are NOT going to use the diaper thread
>>6185657
that's quite hot tbqh
>>6185650
no
she did not do that.
listen, im talking about specifically reds situatino
>>6185644
im pretty sure ive seen her more than you have at this point, which is why i still het her fucking medicaid mail and have to forward it to her
pretty sad when u think about it tbqh fampai
>>6185655
>>6185661
>tfw i'm EST
a....am i platypus?
also platypus be my husbando
>>6185657
STOP
IN THE N A M E OF LOVE
>>6185663
no, I meant the "all the shit hips did comes up and people scream at each other" edition
>>6185664
you people make me sick
>>6185623
i cant really comment on what did or didnt happen, because i dont know. But you have to be a bit of a cunt to have soured all of the relations you started this past year.
>>6185670
oh yeah that
it's kind of funny how me, edie and platypus have just been shitposting while some hardcore drama's going on in the background that we're just ignoring completely
>>6185667
now, you see, when people accuse you of something you don't say that part of it was tangentially okay. you either refute in a solid way or you accept what they say.
saying that you know her is not related to posting her personal information in any way. i get my neighbors mail and I don't open it nor post it here so we can laugh at how much electricity she uses.
>>6185667
i....have you both beat
;)
>>6185675
i'm not anon ;_;
at least not when I'm in a good mood
pssst don't mention the diaper thread and maybe it'll go away
>>6185677
I was talking with Puru, but this isn't really the ambient that helps you focus on your life...
>>6185676
im sorry that happeend :(
I'm disengaging from this conversation for now. I'm too stressed from finals rn
>>6185681
's 'k flannel
I'm just up 20 minutes early due to a very mean maternal authority figure, so I'm still only semi-concious
Besides, the less is mentioned of padding right now, the saner I'm going to be.
>>6185669
yes, that is pretty much the only requirement to being a platypus.
And I can't be your husbando, I can be your waifu tho
How's sonic doing?
>>6185682
well I haven't slept for ages so I can't really focus on anything now
it's actually pretty chill this way honestly
highly recommended
ps is it literally impossible to not look adorable in one of these?
im pretty gay but you guys are fucking faggots you know that
>>6185660
yah I had to look after and take care of a lot of people, and held a lot of jobs in the process. If you hadn't ran away from the military, you'd understand what it's like. Certain stuff doesn't come up but you can add customs agent, range safety, food safety inspector, Hazmat officer, all certified by the US government
most of the rest of this is incomprehensible
also you're a sexual predator who has committed sexual assault, and has multiple people talking about you also assaulting and Raping them.
I sometimes feel as if the world wasn't real, like... I just can't feel like anything has reason or meaning, like I'm just watching stuff happen. I think it's why I don't get sad over stuff that happens around me, and why I don't do shit to fix my problems even if I know quite a few ways to solve them. Nothing really feels "authentic" so why bother.
Anyone else feel like that.
>>6185696
It's called depression and there are pills that fix it.
>>6185690
Come visit me again in Knoxville, Neeners <3
>>6185698
good to hear :3
>>6185690
hi neeners!
>>6185702
you get to come to me this time, lol.
actually, no, texas is ugly, i miss the appalacians
>>6185698
oh... do you
>>6185699
>padded bras
Please, I just had one of the cringiest conversations with my mother about girlmode and I really don't want to think about it.
(The bitch got me up early for a 10 minute conversation about hiding myself. Ain't happening. My appearance is my appearance, and while I don't like it, and I am ashamed, it's not changing for a while yet)
>>6185701
I love my prozac...
>>6185707
hi butte
Is Neens actually Nyanners?
>weird falseto voice
>too tall for a girl
>hides faces
>only has meme clothing bought on-line
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0S0SLbyYNLo
>tfw portland friend is telling me about how i should sleep with our other friend's bf
>this is after her ex thought i was hot, and our other friend's bf, and their co-workers
H E L P
WHY AM I BEING FORCIBLY PASSED AROUND LIKE A SHEMALE WHORE
i want to be loved by a cute girl
oh well
>>6185691
What are these actually called? I've always really liked them on cis girls and I kinda want my own
>>6185698
darn, looks like its back to facing Faye in aquatic combat again
>>6185713
p lud
but i dont really have money for that stuff
i can barely afford laser
>>6185701
I'm already taking anti-depressives though, but I've only been on them for 6 days. So far, I still find myself stopping around and thinking about how everything is so meaningless and... empty.
>>6185708
>texas is ugly
You take that back. Maybe in the big city, but you gotta go to the country.
>>6185715
I'd be into that :3
But I understand that feeling.
>>6185718
Isla, maybe you should get some rest?
>>6185709
do i?
>>6185717
it's weird af!! portland is so strange to me. like everyone is poly i guess? or just very open. i'm really not used to people in relationships hitting on me or commenting on my looks etc lmao
it's flattering but weird
>>6185720
maybe not, apparently...
>>6185722
they take around two months to work, if you have the right ones.
>>6185717
Bleh, I'm being an asshole.
Time for pills and coffee
>>6185724
oh, so that's why you posted it????
>>6185723
true, but even then, i miss forests. and its a bit too hot here for me
I'm not going to get this job.
also the electrolysis place raised the price to $2.5 a minute up from $1.5 a minute so now an hour long session is going to cost $155 instead of $95 and I can't afford the extra $60 and I don't know where else I can go that isn't into the city so it will probably end up being one electrolysis session a month instead of two.
>>6185698
do you hate me?
>>6185724
>now, you see, when people accuse you of something you don't say that part of it was tangentially okay.
>>6185708
I would but it's sooooo far
>>6185724
and how about the allegations that I had hiv without anything in the letter to suggest I had that?
>>6185732
i love you
>>6185723
i can try....
>>6185720
I'd guess you could find them under 'knit beanie' or something
my one had 'beret beanie' on the tag
>>6185735
I don't mean to offend, but why did you even let her in your house in the first plce? is this a change that suddenly happened in a few months?
>>6185720
also wait you're trans? I thought you were a chaser lol
sorry I 'boy name'd you back there :(
ONE ASSIGNMENT SUBMITTED
TWO HOURS LEFT
THREE TO GO
>>6185741
I think shes just doing a birdy parody and got caught up with avatarfagging a platypus
>>6185729
months after i had given her the letter and she told me she had it, i mentioned in passing in a group chat that she had it and ur best response was
>i don't trust the words of a child rapist
believe it or not, my decision was very much a balance between 'do i want kaylee to like me' and 'do i care if red gets aids because kaylee hasn't discussed any of this with her'
too bad the latter won desu
im incredibly lonely
>>6185741
I mean...I did start avatarfagging with platypuses to parody Birdy because I was bored last night.
>>6185745
she disagrees, im more inclined to believe her, sorry
>>6185745
there was NOTHING in the letter that suggests kaylee had hiv.
>>6185723
it's really fucking weird to me desu. just because of the kinds of people i've normally interacted who are in relationships.
i don't think i'd ever want to have group sex ;__; seems scary
>>6185732
not at all.
>>6185741
>>6185748
>misgendering platypus
w o w
xir doesn't appreciate that
>>6185753
>i don't think i'd ever want to have group sex ;__; seems scary
Seconding that. I feel as if it would be more demanding than enjoyable, I would be caring to pay attention to everyone instead of letting things happen...
>>6185745
vindictiveness and paranoia wont get you anything but regret for time wasted
so like. how do i buy clothes and not look like a fuckin weirdo. the internet is cool but shipping is a lot of money when youre paying for an entire house, and im pre-mones and trying to slowly ease into it to prevent the emotional and mental shock of flipping the proverbial switch. my anxiety shits my ability to do things in public (i couldnt order my own food without almost having a panic until i was 16) but im determined to find a way to do it without drawing attention. or maybe i should stop being a pussy, meh, who knows
>>6185745
Also, Kaylee would tell me she had hiv, just like you argued, I have sheltered her, fed her, and transported her. WHY IN THE FUCK would she lie to me?
Me and her have a bond that's really amazing.
ladies, this is why you don't all pile into some gigantic tranny stash and all fuck each other
the drama is NOT worth it
>>6185751
>hiv something or the other foundation
>please come over for immediate treatment right now
>someone from the aids health foundation showing up at our front fucking door and asking to see 'Mr. ****'
>kaylee responding with 'oh well, there's nothing i can do about it, there's no way for me to get treatment out here'
ok dude
just finished my 10 page essay :3
>>6185763
Pretty much. God damn whores
>>6185758
yeah.....i'm more of a one-on-one kind of bitch myself.
>>6185760
just man up, idk. i always just went and tried whatever i wanted on. who cares. you don't know everyone you pass by at the mall lol
no one cares what you buy desu
>>6185763
AGREED
>>6185763
im not into girls for the most part, they dont smell good.
>>6185763
no, im gross, lol
>>6185771
Wow, wrong as fuck.
>>6185771
>tfw i'm constantly moisturized and wearing chanel perfume and soft etc
unfortunately musky man smell has a certain allure that's hard to beat...
>>6185771
>>6185774
Babeoo detected from the front page
>>6185776
I may have kept kaylee's little pink loofah she bought while living with me in order to smell it...
she has a nice musk :3
>>6185771
>tfw you don't know what girls smell like
Apparently I smell like one though, so that's good
>>6185777
GET THE FUCK OUT, CHASER
>>6185780
But you are a g--
oh
>>6185771
I have had several people describe me as smelling 'delicious'
I super do not get it
>just used 100mg spiro + empty stomach + naturally shitty blood pressure + 4 cups of water at once at 90 lbs to induce myself into a near-fainting, shaking puking spree and blamed it on 'food poisoning' just so my boyfriend would leave me alone and not whine at me to go to class
who here /doingretardedshitwithHRT/
>>6185782
ps that oh is because I noticed that you beat me to saying "you are a girl", not for any other reason in case it sounded like that
>>6185768
shit i didnt think about that. ill just go to walmart at like 3:30 in the morning when its so empty its spooky
>>6185770
my anxiety is fucking terrible really, i cant even go to the mall. i have friends and do stuff but theres absolutely some things that (hah) trigger it, especially crowds and cute girls
>>6185784
Sounds exactly like something I'd do. I like you anon
>>6185779
some girls smell nice desu, but idkk. it's like apples and oranges to me. kinda literally lol
>>6185784
iktf
>>6185787
o......
well... then idk what to tell you. ;-; i'm sorry
>>6185788
>>6185792
why'd you throw kaylee out
>>6185792
....yea....hips....that dastardly bitch.....
I cant either, i got stomped when i got home then i cried and lewded and then tried to sleep but no.
>>6185558
>good job flannel
this reminds me, I need to try my big boots, not w flannel though, sorry
>>6185796
>not w flannel
shhhhhh, she'll hear u and then hack ur life away
>>6185793
its fine really, my life has been a 22 year long coping mechanism, how do you think i repressed it for a decade lmao
>>6185794
for fucking you on his bed......
>>6185794
I booted her from my room, then told her if she caused trouble again id make sure she was removed from the apartment by general consensus.
She then chose to leave rather than live in the living room of an apartment in which 3 people despised her
>>6185782
Wait now I'm confused
>>6185804
jinx
>>6185801
youre going to die
>>6185813
good riddance if so, I guess?
I feel fine.
>>6185809
>idk what girls smell like
>but you are a girl!
is where I was going with that
>>6185798
it's true! not 2 hours ago I was a happy platypus, now looked what she's done to me!
>>6185799
i don't like the sounds of this ~__~ have you been to a psych?
>>6185801
stop hurting urself
>>6185804
tough decisions desu
>>6185806
I'M FUCKING SCREAMING
>>6185816
PLATYPUS NO!!! HELPP!! SOMEONE, ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;_____;
>>6185815
I think the point is everyone smells nasty 'till you learn to appreciate them
>>6185815
But whether I'm a girl or not isn't really relevant, I can't exactly smell myself
>>6185817
>>6185816
made you extremely cute?
>>6185822
Smh i keep telljng you how to avoid that in gg.
Also you better be keeping your taser in your hand
>>6185828
And highly venomous! Those elbow barbs are nasty!
>>6185831
i was taking out the trash...
>>6185827
Portland sounds like a wrerched hive of hipsters and bernouts
>>6185806
>>6185817
>>6185827
>tfw I've wanted to go to Portland for the longest time
I guess every dream ends sometime
>>6185828
No! She stole my identity
>>6185832
pls only males have those, I am pre op and you are triggering me
>>6185837
yea, so lets go whydoncha
>>6185837
pffff
>not feeling the johnson
they're gonna win this time, I can feel it!
>>6185831
detransisition for better neutral?
hrmmmmmm
>>6185836
Im sorry babbu, make those lazy cunts in the other room do some things
Also make a new skype
>>6185846
there was a whole bunch of drama about it
turns out everyone fucked everyone and then the drama reached critical mass
I've never been, thankfully
>>6185835
i honestly had so much fun while i was there, and i have a lot of really great friends there now. that's why i've been planning to move there.
there was a lot of sexual stuff tho... and poly people... and i'm not really into that? so idk. it's definitely different.
>>6185837
i mean yes
>>6185846
idk. i mean i still have money put aside to move there. but the sexual stuff makes me uncertain at times.
>>6185818
well i grew up very poor thanks to my parents fervor for smoking crack, and ive been homeless since i was 15 up until last month, medical attention in general was not really a priority in my life (ive got pretty serious back/spine problems) because i was more concerned about having food to eat. my mental health was never really a problem though, aside from anxiety (which id probably just get a script for xanax or something for) but ive been working on it for the past few years and ive made some serious progress, even been able to keep a job lately. the usual depression comes and goes but that happens, other than that im a fully functioning and capable human adult, no reason to worry about me dear :)
>>6185840
Never
I like the city we are going to
>>6185843
I miss rand
>>6185844
No this
morning peeps
when you're crying so badly your neighbor knocks on the door asking if everything is okay and if anyone is being killed
>>6185827
...he's the towns founder....it was funnier in my head
>>6185854
Hey-oh fellow celt!
>>6185857
he looks like a chaser.
>>6185850
...well now i'm even more worried about you. do you have health insurance?
>>6185854
gm basic hru
>>6185856
r u ok
>>6185806
can someone tl;dr me on this?
did something happen between yume and gem?
>>6185859
same
>>6185857
that repression beard tho
>>6185861
I just put gem there because I thought she was the one who started the whole portland thing - idk if she actually was I'm not really up with the history
basically just scroll up to the start of this thread and the end of the last and read
>>6185864
I got awoken early and I'm kinda grumpy because of it. Oh, and the prozac's not kicked in yet.
>>6185865
he looks kind of like robin williams but like really, really in character
actually no I think I'm imagining things
>>6185864
wait what fallout from yesterday
wtf is happening to everyone lately omg
>>6185863
lol. reminds me of the screen shot pic of the greentext with the tranny that keeps putting her roommates personal items up her ass.
>didn't bother to save it.
>>6185867
oh if its not between them i don't care really
im sure its just some other random silly drama
soup
am I the only person here with no drama going on rn?
nifty
>>6185860
not really no
my eyes are red
my neighbors thought that my crying was a legitimate crime scene and i woke them up
i just hate myself my existence and everything about my person.
i just
i
i dont know but im breaking down
i want to fucking disappear
it hurts
im crying and i just cant stop
there is literally a puddle of tears on my bed
i cant stop being sad
everyone says i need to be happier but i cant do it
i just talked to my therapist recently for 3 hours
three tiems longer than usual since i was just venting so much
i need help and i need some sort of friendship but there is no physical contact with anyone that is nice since nobody lives fucking close enough to me
sorry
that im posting this
i shouldn't be venting
>>6185877
My life is the best it has ever been and things are great.
>>6185880
I think we all know these feels here ;_;
>>6185876
I'm grumpy 'cause I got awoken early for a stupid conversation, People are arguing about the usual trips, and everyone sensible is just trying not to notice.
>>6185877
no, i'm with u
>>6185880
mtfg was made for venting. what has got you so sad? just the stuff with the girl?
>>6185883
>mfw
y-yes?
>>6185860
i really have no idea right now. the last year or two has been a paperwork filled hell because i had to completely replace basically everything that says i exist, birth certificate ss card id etc. i think i did end up applying for medicaid at one point but i have no idea if i still have it or even got it. poverty is pretty lame haha
>>6185875
>can not unsee
Robin Williams voice asking if he can dirty fondle your girly tinkles.
>>6185872
I know THAT feel
>>6185890
>>6185863
two per house
one per relationship tbqh
>>6185798
instead of flannel shirt, will try a military coat (a la faye) that might go w my boots
>>6185895
ouch
>>6185894
Ill never bring a magnum sharpie home from work again
>>6185887
i guess but
everything i guess
just
no physical contact
isolation
just
im lonely and alone with nobody but my therapist and my mom
no friends etc etc
>>6185885
how much prozac are you taking?
>>6185895
did you and edie break up? i was really hoping for at least one happy ending with mtfg hookups
So im two months into hormones and look basically the same except for some gross boy tits. Should I kill myself now or later?
>>6185896
>:/
What's insulting is that it was because my mother wanted to know if I wanted to start dressing as a girl. Because padding.
I'm rather the world didn't know about this just yet thank you very much.
>>6185902
20mg a day has been doing wonders so far... though I'm curious as to what a higher dose would do for me.
>>6185872
oooh for a second I thought I had that but the only lgbt cap I have is this
>>6185897
fuck yes, green military coat and brown boots is MY SHIT
>>6185904
>two months
you've got to give it a bit of time lol
if you've got tits in two months you're moving pretty quick desu
>>6185905
I was on 80mg for a while, but it didnt really do anything. I am suprised as little as 20mg has an effect on you. how long ago did you start?
>>6185888
:( i'm sorry. you have a home at least, right?
>>6185896
ooh, okie. well i mean i hope you're ok.
>>6185897
in all fairness tho military coats don't really go with as many things as flannel does
>>6185901
isla :/ you don't have any friends or anything?
>>6185903
hell if i know, but i'm not really about the drama regardless
>>6185904
two months is like... no time at all. give it time. way more time.
>>6185913
literally none.
nobody likes me in my area for what and who i am.
>>6185907
faye do you wanna hang out and play kiss chicken
we slowly move our faces close to each other and whoever pulls their face away first loses and has to kiss the other
>>6185907
I bet if you wore your old stuff it would be hanging off you like you were a little girl wearing her fathers uniform
>>6185903
it's kind of hard to tell, maybe?
>>6185912
3... no 5 weeks. It's taken about that long to kick in though, I've only been this chipper for a few days. And while I still have had a depressive episode two days ago, my mood in general has been much improved. Not quite the exuberant, hyperactive grinning of my youth, but much happier and calmer.
>>6185915
i find that hard to believe. have you lived there for awhile now?
>>6185920
i mean i texted you like 2 hours ago and you never responded, and now you're just making passive aggressive comments, so...
is it really that hard to tell?
