I just feel like I can't do it anymore, /adv/ I hate to

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2016-03-08 19:55:55 Post No. 16891922
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Anonymous 2016-03-08 19:55:55 Post No. 16891922 [Report]

I just feel like I can't do it anymore, /adv/

I hate to be another one of those suicidal threads but nothing seems worth it and my Pure-O OCD is controlling my whole life. I'm on 100mg of Zoloft and go to therapy but it's still there and it never goes away

When I was 13 I was coerced by a 20 year old online to make child pornography of myself by manipulating me with compliments and it's ruined my ability to be intimate forever and I have vaginismus but my boyfriend needs sex in his life so much that I feel like he'll never be happy with me and we won't last

Everyone leaves me the moment I do one thing wrong and even now someone I thought was a good friend of mine seems to be talking about how the only reason they're not breaking it off with me is because they'd feel bad because I recently bought them an expensive gift

The only thing keeping me going is I love my family and I don't want them to be sad

I don't think my life is going to go anywhere, I have a job and I go to university but I still feel worthless

I just want to start over and be okay but that's impossible, so how does life get better when nothing goes right, /adv/

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Anonymous 2016-03-08 20:12:41 Post No.16891983
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Anonymous 2016-03-08 20:12:41 Post No.16891983 [Report]

>The only thing keeping me going is I love my family and I don't want them to be sad
Me, too!
It takes a lot to maintain some semblance of control in front of others, but we do it because we don't want to hurt them, even if we hurt.
I am sorry you had bad experience when young. Wish I could hug now. You need a good hug.
When I feel bad, I thin how thankful I am. Life could be a lot horrible, but, even if the hurt never stop, we can keep going! People are like wind, one come and one goes away. You remain

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Flyceratops (ID: !!rfJeG2FgBGb) 2016-03-08 20:13:44 Post No.16891986
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Flyceratops (ID: !!rfJeG2FgBGb) 2016-03-08 20:13:44 Post No.16891986 [Report]

please tell me you're seeing a psychiatrist for your obvious psychiatric issues.

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Anonymous 2016-03-08 20:16:00 Post No.16891995
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Anonymous 2016-03-08 20:16:00 Post No.16891995 [Report]

>>16891986
I am but I've only been able to open up about the more serious stuff a few times

Mostly I just talk about how I have online checking-up on people who hate me issues from my OCD

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Pegasus 2.0 (ID: !!38R9kMvWubS) 2016-03-08 20:18:08 Post No.16892001
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Pegasus 2.0 (ID: !!38R9kMvWubS) 2016-03-08 20:18:08 Post No.16892001 [Report]

>>16891922
>manipulated

You're just a slut

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Anonymous 2016-03-08 23:46:09 Post No.16892835
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Anonymous 2016-03-08 23:46:09 Post No.16892835 [Report]

>>16892001
Don't be an insensitive prick. Obviously OP is troubled by this. Fuck she was 13.

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Pegasus 2.0 (ID: !!38R9kMvWubS) 2016-03-08 23:48:03 Post No.16892839
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Pegasus 2.0 (ID: !!38R9kMvWubS) 2016-03-08 23:48:03 Post No.16892839 [Report]

>>16892835
You're saying it like its an excuse

If you killed someone at 13 they would try you as an adult. At 13 you have the capacity to not be a stupid slut on the internet. I'm not going to give a grown up slut sympathy when it was her choice.