If I’m being completely honest, what is real?
The silent pause, the ticking of the clock. The sound of a train in the background.
These are real, because I perceive them to be. I hear them. If I traveled enough, I would be able to see the train. See the clock. I could touch it. Feel its vibrations as it rumbles down the tracks.
I understand now that my brain creates reality. I know that you do. I know that an entity that can be conceptualized as “God” exists within my mind.
However, I am not my mind. I am nothing. I am.
That’s all there is to it. A silent watcher, the ever present observer. This is my essence.
Now, we all know that time is not real. We get that. However, I still perceive it to be. I am bound in time, which ultimately is a good thing. It allows me to experience each thing individually. It keeps continuity in my life. It is really the spine which holds together the experience of my being.
Now I may ask, why?
This is the ever present question. Considering my brain has the ability to create an infinite number of experiences, why (and how) does it choose one experience over another?
Feelings are real. These are more real than sights and sounds. Those are the surface levels of reality. My body is real. I can feel my body.
Before we had eyes, before we had ears, what was perceived? Feelings. Tactile sensations in the darkness, in the silence. This was our navigation through the complex realm of the infinite.
We still possess these abilities. We can still feel. We just ignore it now, letting our visual and auditory systems run wild, acting like they are the most important part of this.
They’re not. In fact, in this moment, the only thing that is real is now. Now is real.
Memory is really something, huh?
Without this, where are you? You’d just be, here. You would, now be here. You would be nowhere.
I love you. What does that mean? It clearly means something deep, something profound. It’s clearly a feeling, some sort of higher geometry. Space, and time, are these structures. They are static and unchanging. So why do I see change?
Change is experience. Change is everything. I say I like changes. I say I want change. But do I really? You have to realize that everything you wanted is here, right in front of you. You would know that if you had the proper memories. But you don’t, and you wanted that too. You wanted to forget about what happened and how it used to be. Don’t you remember??????
Of course not. You’re bounded by your own biology. It’s nice, living in ignorance. You spend a lot of time thinking about the big questions. But as far out as you choose to go, you must go equally inward, otherwise your being will become unbalanced.
For each part of the truth you receive, you must also experience the complimentary part of the life. They go hand in hand. Each experience, each moment, that is the way.
I am not waiting, even if it feels like I am. There is no such thing as waiting.
I just want to touch you again. Feel you again. That’s all I ask. For right now, that’s all I can say.
I miss you.
I just want to know if anybody is listening.
Someone throw me a rope, this is too deep
>>17879358
Listening and agreeing with you anon
>>17879371
Gurdjeff is the answer to many questions.
>>17879371
What do with this?
>>17879365
They taught you that you must joke when you feel that you are in over your head. They did not do you a favour. Unlearn that. They should have taught you to hold your breath and try and dive deeper, as deep as your lungs will let you. You will not drown, you will just find that your limits can be pushed forward by learning something new. Your limits are not real.
>>17879339
>>17879346
>implying i'm gonna try and read 10 paragraphs of some kids shitty doodles
>>17879388
One of his teachings was that reality is an illusion. See his concept of the "21 idiots"...
>>17879396
Nobody is forcing you.
How do I proceed?
hello
just one more thing?
>>17879339
Reality is a simulation.
Now you habe the solution.
You only have to find the logical way to get there.
>>17879627
find the logical way?
>>17879631
My-big-toe.com
Stay open minded AND sceptical.
Try to not rush it. Start with the beginners lectures in calgary to start. If you dont get the basic ideas you will discard the lodical implications and then youll discard stuff because you dont fully get it.
Belief is bad. Patience is required.
>>17879392
water me, op.
