She doesn't want me to touch the internet during the week. And will only let me get on the internet from 2 pm to 8 pm in weekends depending on how she feels
She wants it to stay the same when university starts again.
Thankfully, i still have access to internet, she doesn't know about it tho and she must never learn about it.
For my own good, i still need access to it. Not having access to it would force me to either stare at the wall all day long (when i'm at home) or talk to her (Which is a fucking bad idea,i don't want that,i'll explain next post)
As i started doing before she took the wi-fi, i'll be working and going out more often to stay away from home, and i'll browse the internet when i'll be home alone.
But,i need suggestions on what to do when i'm home while she's at home. Download movies and shows while i have access to internet so i can watch them when i dont?
>Very shortened Backstory on why i want to stay away from her and want muh internet next post
Long ass backstory summary:
>Be good disciplined straight A uni student pretty much sure to get in pharm or medschool
>Mom is a kunt always making HUGE dramas out of nothing,making up stuff and allienating my bros against me
>Don't ccare,focus on my stuff,as soon as i'm in a dorm,i'll be away from her constant bullshit
>Eventually get major health issues that wreck me for a whole year and wreck my gpa. Become a total mental wreck. Lost all discipline,habits,motivation,work ethic. I'm extremely depressed (You'd have to know all the shit that hapenned in that 1 year of living hell)
>getting in pharm is still possible,just need to take a semester off to get back on my feet mentally
>While dad and 2 brothers support the idea, mom opposes and doesn't want me to take a break
>Spend all the semester fucking suicidal,extremely depressed,social anxiety comes back,things are toxic at home and toxic at school
>instead of studying 4-10 hours a day like i used to, i study like 4-8 hours A MONTH
Don't you watch anime, faggot? I'm following 20+ shows this season.
And what about games? Or you can't use the computer period?
>>28606183
Kill yourself and blame her in your letter.
>>28606164
>>28606183
report her for domestic abuse
>>28606164
my dad tried to pull similar shit on me. I refused to leave my room and eat for two days and he gave in
>>28606296
not op but mine would get me institutionalized if I did that
>>28606164
What are you, fucking 12?
>>28606318
damn. Are they like religious or something?
>>28606208
my mum would literally take the modem and hide it in her closet
lucky i knew where shew ould put it so i would go and get it when she was at work hehehhehehe then ninja it back when i heard her car coming down the drive
>>28606340
No just dicks
>>28606164
You're non-white, right OP?
>>28606208
>>28606219
She takes away the router but i can still connect myself with a cable but i only do that when she's not at home.If she sees the cable, she will know that i don't need the router
Story continued
>Spend all my days in escapism, when i'm not browsing internet, i'm just thinking about suicide,feeling extremely empty inside
>Eventually start getting better (few weeks of school left) but out of habit,i still spend a shitload of time mindlessly browsing the internet.
>Fail every fucking classes.
>Become even more depressed
>She shits on me for spending all my time on the internet instead of studying. I tell her that i should have taken a semester off to recover,she doesn't want to listen to none of that
>Gpa fucking ruined,officially aimless,don't know what to do with life. Fucking depressed
>Bro makes me understand that i have to sttle down for something i'll dislike like nursing and accept that i can't become a doctor or pharmacist anymore
>The same night my mom...
>>28606164
Buy separate router?
Or just use a wired connection
>>28606394
Continue douche
When I first moved into my apartment, my housemate and I both had way too much anxiety to call for cable.
So we spent the entire summer renting books and movies from the Library, baking, having nighttime adventure walks through the streets.
Anon, it's shitty she took your webs away, but there is a world outside the internet, and it's beautiful.
get a smartphone and tether you incompetent fuckwad
>>28606183
>>28606394
Why do you let your mommy tell you whether you're able to take a semester off or not? You're an adult, aren't you? This seems like mostly your fault, anon.
Your mother is a shit tier person unable to let go
Her over intrusive and forceful parenting has lead to you being unable to correctly form your own choices with lack of experience
All smothered children from.strict parents go the same way, straight off the rails at college/uni
>>28606440
>When I first moved into my apartment, my housemate and I both had way too much anxiety to call for cable.
How the fuck did you live together?
>>28606401
i used wired
>>28606460
Right now i wouldn't but you don't understand how much of a mental wreck i was back then. I got easily pressured into it
>The same night My mom starts intense drama about me not finishing my meal and failing my classes and becoming a loser
>She then tries to hit me,keeps cussing me non-stop
>Calls my try to alienate them from me,make up stuff about me
>I snap out, go to my room, try to hang myself (While it was an impulse and an overreaction,there's way more to the story that would you make understand why i couldn't take any more shit)
>She opens my room to cuss me in my face, doesnt see me.So she opens the closet,see's me with a rope around my neck
>Spend the night on suicide watch
>Psychiatrist hears everything that has been going on,she gives me a paper to cancel my semester and tells me to try and see if i can cancel entire year
>mom stops being a kunt for a while, i can finally breathe..but
>continued next post
>>28606164
>Get job
>pay 40 a month for mobile hot spot
>use it during mom's non internet hours
Bonus
>Show it to your mom and tell her to get fucked
>>28606611
I have to stop you a moment, are you asian?
>>28606394
You can still be a pharmacist and maybe even a doctor (unless you're in Canada) You just have to drop your current program and start a second degree and not fuck it up. Or see if you can do a masters in something
>>28606611
Just murder the abusive cunt already, crazy freaks with no empathy need putting down
>>28606440
This is amazing. I want a fucking animu about this.
>>28606631
this OP. your mom sounds like a textbook narcissist of a cunt. they won't rehabilitate. they can't. they won't see your "side" ever and will always find you in the wrong.
i hate to say it anon, but the only surefire option is to GTFO, and even that will suck because she'll likely call you daily & try to guilt you into coming back home (so she can have you under her thumb again)
>>28606631
Nop, 4chan hates my race and gets triggered by it tho. They'd never believe it. Everyone in my family is extremely successful academically.That's not why i want to become a doctor or pharmacist tho
>So as she stopped being a kunt. I finally start "breathing" again. I start going out more often, hunt for a job, my semester might get cancelled so there's still hope
>Whenever we have to talk together, it smells like there's going to be some huge drama so i stay away from her as much as i can
>Gradually spend less and less time on internet,recover from depression, spend more and more time out. But i make sure to never interact with her,so i stay in my room whenever i'm at home. Talking with her is a fucking bad idea,it'll prevent me from recovering and progressing
>From the way things are going,soon i'll be back on my feet
>Then she pulls that shit.
>Unless i spend ALL MY FUCKING TIME out (which i can't obviously),i'm forced to interact with her or stare at my wall
>Continued
>>28606164
Just grab your laptop and go to a gas station or anywhere else with wi fi
>>28606638
i'm in canada bro
It's funny because an hour before she decided to take the router, i texted 2 of my bros and told them.
"Look ,things will never get better here. I just woke up extra early, cleaned rooom,washed dishes,made some extra-small talk with mom and she was already having an aggressive tone. I really need to get out of here or i won't get any better,staying at home is super toxic"
Then next thing i know, before going to work she took the rooter. She says that she's doing it for my sake cause "i spend all my time at home on internet and that's why i failed this semester". I try making her understand that i had a perfect gpa before health issues had a complete access to internet and barely touched it more than 2 hours a day.It's not about internet,it's about my mental state
She doesn't want to listen to anything i say
Now i thought about downloading a shitload of movies so i get something to do while i'm at home with her. What do you think?
my parents would never take my internet away
they know i have zero friends and nothing else
that winter storm a couple years ago? sat in silence doing nothing all day
i dont even go on vacations to the cottage because no internet/pc
>>28606827
Oh just fuck being a doctor Canadabro. It's not worth it and it's clearly not making you happy. Take out some more loans or if your parents make too much get emancipated and then take out loans and study something that'll actually make you happy
As it is now you'll always be living with mommy.
My mom is exactly the same, it will never get better I guarantee you. The only time it's okay is when you're living HOURS away and no-contact meaning never
It's not even about Internet man. It's about the constant yelling and belittling and calling you a loser - it's not mentally healthy for you at all.
>>28606740
I can go to a starbucks or secondcup but do i have to do that everytime she's at home??
Not only do i want to stay away from her as much as possible but I honnestly want to step out of my internet using habit by myself as i was doing before she decided to take the router. (that's the only way to do it. If i'm forced, it won't get better. I know because 2-3 years ago(before i started university), i could spend like 10 hours a day on internet.Then i greadually outgrew it and would often spend less than an hour a day on internet. If someone forces it, i won't outgrow it.
Anyway,thankfully i still have my internetz right now, i can grow out
>>28606930
Look honnestly, if it wasn't for the shit she did during my 3rd semester that fucked me up mentally (I would have been able to deal with it if i didnt have my major soul wrecking health issues), i'd either me in pharmacy or medschool in another town 2 (for pharm)or 4 (medschool) hours away from her living in a dorm. I
![pepe_x_reader__young_love_by_fallingteapots-d8vkhss[2].png](https://i.imgur.com/dIhlkSe.png "pepe_x_reader__young_love_by_fallingteapots-d8vkhss[2].png")
>My mom is taking away the wi-fi
>>28606930
Well i made a thread like 2 weeks ago with 5x more details about the whole story, you'll understand better if you see it. There's still important stuff missing but the essential stuff is there
I still don't have any news for school, i've been waiting for 10 fucking days (the dean came back 10 days ago). The thought of calling at school to know if my semester has been cancelled and learning that "nah..we just threw out the medical paper the psychiatrist gave you" scares me man.
If it wasnt for her bullshit. I'd be fucking happy right now as i used to be in the fucking past.Tell me if you want the link to my archived thread
I honestly think having my internet taken away would be the best thing that ever happened to me
>>28606997
If you want to stay away from her then the best thing you can do is you know not spend all day at home
Plus browsing the net in your room and outside surrounded by people is not the same thing
For starters you can't do it in your underwear, you can't masturbate, you can't browse 4 Chan unless the place is empty (hell you can't browse 4 Chan at all so you better bring your smartphone with you)
And you have the added pllus of when you get home there is no internet so you have separate times and places to browse the Internet and do something else
>>28607025
>young love
orginal
>>28607147
That's because you are stupid. If you get the internet taken off you won't be forced outside you will just play videogames Nd slewep more.
It's surprising to me that THIS day and age there are no therapist specialist on Internet addiction.
What someone has to do is trike a deal with you like no internet for two hours a day and you get it back if during those two hours you do something else and then slowly begin getting you outside and being more active
She comes back in 5 hours. Anyway what do you guys suggest?
I honnestly want to improve. I'm kinda out of anime to watch and i'll never ever watch any moe "cute girl" stuff. (remember, i actually want to improve,no offense)
I stopped played video games as soon as i started university, i used to play video games all day long and browse internet all day long (i somehow figured both were a waste of time and greatly reduced time i spent on internet + i stopped playing games).
So i don't think playing video games will help me improve.
Before she took the rooter,my plan was simple. Gradually spend more time out and gradually spend less time home but when i'm at home,i'll stay in my room in my computer. Improving myself was quite simple
I don't know if you understand what i mean
>not having downloaded hundreds of GBs of films/TV shows just for a situation like this
>not having downloaded dozens of E-books
>not having dozens of vidya which consume a lot of time to complete
its like you want to be bored faggot
>download assloads of all the things the internet was distracting you from
>watch that chinese cartoon you never got around to watching or finishing
>read that book
>read that malaysian picture book
>(download beforehand) and play that vidya
Losing the internet can be a blessing for anyone with a backlog sometimes tbqh famalam
>>28606164
My parents tried pulling shit like this on me in high school. I just started smoking weed in my room when they were home. Told them "you can take away anything and everything, but if you do I'll smoke weed every single day and never attend my classes" they ended up giving in.
>>28607389
this desu
I want to finish my backlog all the time, but 4chan keeps distracting me
I just can't stop coming to this shithole and arguing with you autists
>>28606358
not white nor asian nor indian
>>28607317
Everything she does is a nuisance. I'd be in fucking pharmacy right fucking now in a dorm in another town fucking happy with my life if it wasn't for the major fucking bs she created out of nowhere in 3rd semester for fuck sake.
>>28607349
lol alright. Do you know a site i can use to download whole volumes of manga instead of 1 chapter at a time?
Or whole seasons of shows or whole seasons of anime?
While i want to have something to do when she's here i don't want to stuff that will turn me into a pillow loving weeb if you get what i mean.
I don't want to play video games 10 hours a day like i used to before i started university.. I guess i could download some emulator and play a bit of chronno trigger and ff6 or something
If i just figure out a way to pass my time when at home (with mom) while gradually improving myself and getting back to the state i was when i started university (best period of my life btw).
>>28607317
Buy a bike and cycle? Gym membership? Maybe try going /out/ or do some /diy/
>>28607441
Christ, that is such a little fairy bitch thing to do.
Fucking loser.
>>28607614
>kat.cr
for all your general torrenting needs
>animebytes
for all your anime needs
>>28607643
Can't do physical activity cause of medical condition. Like serious medical condition.
I have an "extreme allergy" to my sweat. It'll feel like needles stabbing my whole fucking body and makes me scream like crazy (It's related to the drama that fucked me up during my 3rd semester)
I used to go to the gym all the time before i got that medical condition. So physical activity is a no-no.
+ I already go out with friends more and more often. I'm looking for stuff to do when i'm at home and my mom is here
Diy would recquire me to step out of my room right? want to stay in it as much as possible
Thanks for the suggestions tho
>>28607682
Love you bro, getting started now!
>>28607768
>wants to 'improve' but doesn't wanna leave his room to do it
Sounds like it's time to torrent some vidia then my dude
>>28607614
I don't watch anime or read manga. I'm not a faggot
If that's your only choice of entertainment then you should suffer and burn you weeb homo.
>>28607768
I love you too Anon.
The captcha of this post is Water POUNDS. This comment is original.
>>28607237
I browse 4chan at work without issue. I just chromecast from my phone to the monitor and turn of images to save on bandwidth/full screen goatse. You sound like little cuck bitch rebbitor.
>>28606352
Mine takes the router, but doesn't realize that i can still connect myself with a wire with the modem. She must not learn that or else i'll be under her retarded control
>>28606440
Damn, did your social anxiety get any better?
>>28606458
I have one but can only use 600 mb of internet a month(unless i have access to a wi-fie). I already used 500 mb and need to wait 20 days before it resets
>>28606505
Broo i fucking swear that i'd be in medschool or pharmschool in a fucking dorm right fucking now fucking happy with my life.If it wasnt for all her fucking bs man,this makes me fucking rage but i just want to stay away from her and do what i can do to better my situation,it's the only way out for me
>>28606694
that's what i planned to do bro. I was gonna live in a fucking dorm as soon as i got in medschool or pharm......
>>28607317
I like the gym. I don't know what your health situation is like but if you get swole enough you can whoop her ass and she'll be afraid to take the Internet from you. In my neet days I spent 3 to 4 hours a day in the gym, did freelance writing to support my roids habit(way cheaper than you'd think, a week of test, deca, and adrol is like $3 or $4 on the high end, drop orals and it's half that, cruise dose is under $2/month).
Reading is always good. I don't have the energy to power through anime or movies anymore for some reason. You could try showing her your khan Academies so she jnows you use Internet to study. My mom did this bullshit to me and took Internet away for 4 months, she said I had to friends and should get out more, never mind me lived on a fucking dirt road with nearest neighbors, a senior couple 1.5 miles away. Dialup was my connection to the world. Wouldn't you know when I came back my forum of only friends went down so I had nothing after that. Don't let it happen to you. It's been 14 years and I'm still bummed out over it. Totally uncalled for to take away my only friends forever because she thinks I don't have enough friends. The second time she tried it I put on an autistic as fuck presentation justifying my runescape addiction, went over how it got me into math, statistics, and programming, showed her a couple shitty calculators I wrote, showed her my stuff on economics, international relations, and talked about the historical and literature references. She was either impressed or knew I was hopeless at that point and saw the fear in my eyes because she didn't take my runescapes.
Nursing really isn't bad. Flight nurse is 6 days a month, mostly sleeping and 4chan, psych nurse is like working at a zoo, watch the show and 4chan. Anesthetitist is even good. 160k and while it's a little more work all the ones I shadowed mostly played on their phone and occasionally would give iv shit if vitals starting looking wonky.
>>28608182
I used to be swole before i got that medical condition llol. Hope you were joking about the whooping ass part,would not fall that low
Are you a nurse? How is it?
but hey thanks alot for taking time to give me that much info
There's another reason for the which the idea of becoming a nurse really irritates me, it's in the thread i made 2-3 weeks ago that had 5x more details on my whole situation. Tell me if you want the link, it would give you a better understanding of why the idea of becoming a nurse pisses me off
Starting to torrent my stuff. what's the best torrent app? bit torrent? is there any difference?
btw thanks alot for the replies r9k =) i appreciate it
>>28607841
you don't understand. I already go outside. I just need something to do WHEN i'm at home and my mom is there
I can't be out with friends all the time
>>28606698
fucking jews/kikes
Download movies and vidya to play when you don't have internet access
If you have a 4chan addiction, get a data plan for your phone.
>>28606440
>there is a world outside the internet
That's some bullshit if I've ever seen it.
I forgot, i usually like reading some /tv/ threads, game of thrones threads and all. But when i
I tried to open like 15-20 threads. It's fine at first but if i go out and come back like 5 hours later and try to read the threads, it refreshes and i can't have access to it anymore.(since no more internet connection)
Any way to prevent that from hapenning?
>>28608491
you'll never guess my race or you won't believe it. I never took the stereotypes seriously and never cared for them neither I just laugh at the constant racist comments. You'd have to be dumb to actually believe it
As i said, extremely successful academically (no affirmative action in the place i live), every member of family was always at the top of his classes.
In any case, none of that matters anymore. If they don't cancel my semester (then obviously they won't cancel my entire year), i won't get in med school or pharm school anymore. Doomed to settle down for something shitty.I had fucking potential for fuck sake.
>>28608694
>you'll never guess my race
North-Korean
>>28608349
The way I see it either you run the show or food helper does.
Being srs though, I'm not a nurse yet, currently in school with lots of fine ass hotties and working at a hospital where I've cozied up with management and directors best I can. They help me out so I've seen a lot of the hospital, but it's small. 6 bed icu, 25 bed psych, 10 bed druggies, 20 old folks, ER is basically a walk in clinic, and 99% of surgery is outpatient. I don't know how big radiology or pacu is, I'm mainly interested in psych and icu shit. Despite being a small hospital It's still cool.
I would like to check out your previous thread. Now I'm all emotionally invested in the story, it's like soap opera for autists. Borderline mom hurts autist son, no matter how many times we have the thread I must watch every episode.
>>28608694
turk or poo in loo detected
>>28607768
What exactly is your condition? is it by any chance Cholinergic urticaria?
Anyways, the sweating problem will keep you from doing activities and your mom is taking away the wifi. Try to strike a deal with her / convince her to let you use the wifi.
>>28608798
Thanks for the info bro. looking for the archived thread right now
>>28608868
>>28608792
You won't be able to get it for obvious reasons. I don't think i should have mentionned my race tho, i want all the help i can get
>>28609069
Mah nigga, you got it right. At first when i got it it was no big deal.But then it grew out of control. Just going outside would make me scream like a bitch.
At a certain point, just laughing could produce enough heat to make me scream like a bitch and bring me on my knees. This condition gave me the worst pain i ever had of my whole entire life
My mom is not someone you can talk with. She doesn't use logic.
Some day at the start of my 3rd semester, my condition was 3x more painful than usual,i was screaming out of pain,she was singing joyfully 1 meter away from me,i asked her to stop while i was in pain because it was irritating..SHE REALLY DIDNT TAKE IT WELL-->IT CREATED A HUGGGGE DRAMA,ALMOST GOT KICKED OUT,ETC
>>28608798
https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28211829/#28211829
some of it isn't that clear (some words missing in a sentence or using the wrong word) because i didn't double check before posting, Only wrote my frustration and posted without checking if every sentences even made sense. But you'll be able to understand 99% of it i believe
This is not ALL the details, there alot more details that made things way worse. But this is the main stuff i guess
btw i'd like to talk to you more, do you have a skype or something?
>>28609222
>Trips are acknowledged
It's all that fucking diseases fault. If you never had it, you could be physically more active and could make it back to school.
dont let this thread die
originalllllity
>>28609525
Well what part? Did you read the thread i linked?
The first year, i had to endure 20-30 mins of pain every morning just to go outside and to attend classes.
Honnestly i was strong willed, i just dealt with it.
Then the 2nd semester, when my health issues started. Everytime i had to do my extremely painful cardio (It's a werid concept,it's like i had to suffer all the pain at once so it won't hurt when i'll go out but it'll hurt again if i do exercise few hours later), everytime i did my painful cardio it worsened my crazy ass fucked up symptoms.
sleeping 1-4 hours a day (5-6 if super lucky)+ worsening fucked up neurological symptoms+ difficulty to eat+ having to do my painful and tiring routine every morning+a shit load of other stuff-> Insane fatigue building up on my body->fucked up my cognitive functions,my health,my mental and moral state. Took me a while to get back on my feet
As soon as i got back on my feet my mom decided to be a MAJOR FUCKING HUGE kunt
>>28609648
what do you find original? there's often threads about people describing their situation
>>28609916
>Continued
Then i was about to get kicked out,disowned (by the person i respected the most..cause of mom making up shit),torn appart, my new medics were fucking me up pretty bad,always lethargic,cognitive problems.
Tried my best to stay strong and to endure it all but no matter what,i just couldnt get shit done (cognitive problems),time was passing,exams were approaching but with all that bullshit, got shitty grades, still have to endure that 20-30 mins of pain (feels like needles are fucking stabbing you) with all that bullshit + other bullshit fucking me up physically and mentally (see the part where i started thinking i was developping an addiction to pr0n but it was actually my medication).
At that point, this disease became too much to deal with. All of the bullshit mixed together fucking me up
Sure i can take some of them at the same time and stay strong
why dont you just fucking move out you fucking loser
>>28610083
>Continued
I could handle the drama with getting disowned,getting kicked out, having to deal with my painful daily routine + having to study 4-10 hours a day + maybe the "addiction" that came from my medics.
Sure. But add in the health issues, the constant fucking lethargy,the huge cognitive problems,the feeling of powerlessness, failed exams,people starting to look down on you,toxic shit at home, becoming more and more isolated + other stuff+ KNOWING THAT YOU WENT THROUGH A FUCKING SOUL-WRECKING HELL WITH SOUL WRECKING NEUROLOGICAL symptoms during my 2nd semester and JUST got back on my feet few weeks before from it.
Now i get more another round of shit? And after getting wrecked for a whole you,your family (mom and someone else mentionned in the other thread) just SHIT ON YOU instead of showing any support
That year of powerlessness fucked me up
>>28606698
opie is a poo in loo
>>28610141
To go where?
Best case scenario would be a miracle but if by miracle the dean decided to be extra kind and cancelled my entire year. This is what would happen:
Go live at my dad's. Get perfect gpa and start medschool or pharmschool in 2017. No care if mom or eldest bro (i talk about him in the thread i linked explaining the situation in details) cut contact with me, i'll be happy with my life and will be heading somewhere
Or
Stay here for the time being, maku sure to never interact with my mom to make sure nothing makes me lose focus. Make sure to get perfect gpa, start med or pharm school in 2017, live in a dorm in another town, away from anyone's bullshit. Becoming my own own man like i always wanted to
If i decide to work and rent a place with a roomate or something, i might not be able to perform well enough at school to get a perfect gpa. It would be risky
But honnestly,it's kind of my fault too..
>continued next post
>>28610314
i'm not indian but my family is like the educated indian families (5 children? all in medicine,pharm,dentistry,optometry,engineering, etc) no affirmative action( in my province at least) or anything which 4chan would be incapable of believing.
eldest bro as married to an indian doctor from a rich indian family ,he's a neurosurgeon tho
From what i saw on pol, indians also hate my race =)
>>28610340
>Continued
it's my fault for staying because eldest bro threatened to disown me if i went at my dad's
Look at where i am right now, he already pretty much disowned me. . The rare times i see him, he will not look at me or reply to anything i say.
Should have told him to go fuck himself back in the 3rd semester. I'd be in pharm or med right, skyrocketing and fucking happy with my life
It might not be too late to get back on tracks but fuck my family. Is it too much to ask to show a little bit of support? Even if you don't support someone, don't make things 10x worse for him
>>28606164
Months ago an anon posted a thread about wanting to end his life due to health issues and lost track on the uni.
He also was applying on the medschool and had brothers that were related to his carrier.
Just for curiosity, are you the same anon?
>>28610633
https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28211829/#28211829
TC is obviously black.
>race everyone on 4chan hates
>was buff
>Canada
I can't believe I am the only person not blinded enough by racism to see this.
>>28610633
Maybe? When was it?
I read like 2 stories kinda similiar to mine. I'm not sure if it was here. If the anon was asking if anyone had dealt with similiar problems and still managed to make it in the end and how they coped with all that shit.
Or if the anon asked "Anyone had potential for a bright happy life before losing it all to stuff out of their control?"
Then it was me
i was still a mental and "emotional" wreck at that point (as gay as it sounds, dealing with all that constant wrecking bullshit for a year with 0 support+ being isolated+ seeing your life go to wreck. when you had potential and didn't mess around..+family shitting on you instead of letting your recover).. i was very far from getting back on my feet.
I'm feeling way better nowadays (strongly hope they accept the medical paper and cancel my semester,shit makes me anxious,the dean has been back for 10 days and i still don't have any news)
Did you talk to me back then?
>>28610704
You seemed so determined to end your life on that thread.
Glad you didn't do it.
>>28611089
The thread was about an anon that improved his life and got health issues that drove him in a suicidal estate because he didn't wanted to go back to a mediocrity.
>>28610844
Yeah, come from west africa
In the past i thought all that "nigger nigger" stuff was just anons messing around just like me calling my best friend a phaggot as a joke whenever he does somthing retarded.
Then the nigger hate threads, they never offended me. I always disliked ghetto blacks and even called them "niggers" when i was in college. Some friends asked me if i was racist lol
Then i realized i'd be no different than these ghetto blacks if my family had immigrated to a place with high crime rate,shitload of drug dealers and addicts,street gangs (like detroit?) instead of immigrating to canada.
As you may see,english isn't my main language,I understand it well but my english vocabulary and the way i write in english sucks (learned from forums,games and shows),i live in a french place. It might still be possible for me to get in med or pharm in other places of canada but it'd be impossible with 0 support.
I don't get the 4+ hours of studying a day thing. I am in pre-med classes and I study like an hour or two before tests and do whatever homework abd still get A's, occasionally a B. I don't read the textbooks, just form or find study guides and take notes in class.
People are like "omg I studied 20 hours this weekend and just barely got a B!" What? I would be a god damn expert if I spent 20 hours studying. I am not even trying to pretend I am a genius, not even fucking close, but I feel like I blow off these classes and still do great.
>>28606164
Read a book nigga. huwe
>>28611324
Dude don't take the retarded shit you see on here to heart. Its a bunch of shut in keyboard warriors that shit themselves if they go outside long enough to actually see a black person with their own eyes. They will post all these biased infograms and spout a bunch of retarded memes about niggers being violent monkies when all they actually have to go off of is The Wire and cuck porn.
You should just feel pity for them, if they honestly think the strife of the black man is genetic and not a product of their socio-economic situation then they are beyond reproach.
*brought to you by a white conservative living in the south*
>>28611387
I never needed to study 4h+, I could have studied wayy wayy wayyy less and still get A+'s. It was more then that
It was me wanting to build a perfect work ethic and wanting to become disciplined in every area s of my life. Since i was heading for medschool and pharm school, becoming disciplined in my studying was a priority
+ i wanted to make sure it would become an habit to work hard and study for long hours. Like a second nature, i didn't want to studying to become a painful chore, i needed to get used to studying long hours
+I wanted to make sure that i would get 100% in med school or pharm school so i needed to be at the top of my promotion
+I also wanted to make sure that i'd stand out from the rest in pharm school and med school. My bro's friend was a straight A student in medschool and could study for 10 am to 10 pm (don't know how many breaks myself to study,
>>28611497
It is definitely not socioeconomic. This has been proven over and over again. It is all genetic. America got the shitty blacks, the good ones stayed in Africa. Africa still has plenty of shitty ones, but they have good ones too, unlike America where they are all bad.
t. /pol/tard who wants to go to Tanzania one day
>>28606164
Why are you spoiling the greatest show in the history of television. Do you really have to be such a fucking piece of shit. I hope she takes away your wifi, computer and kicks you out. Fuck you.
>>28606164
NEETKEKS BdaFO
>>28611387
>>28611623
>Continued
+ if you reas my other thread, you'll see that i had fucked up symptoms fucking up my productivity during the 2nd semester. What i used to do in an hour could take me 3-6 hours (usually 3-4).It was fucking hell but i was fucking strongwilled back then
And i still managed to stand out and even managed to get the best grade 90%+ for some exams everyone fucked up. All that while i was sicker than ever and shouldn't even be in school. All these people who were struggling, i can't imagine what they'd do if they had my issues and needed 3-6x more time to get shit done
You know what allowed me to do that and study in these horrible conditions? The work ethic i had built. Studying for 8-10+ hours had become something i was used to. Spent all my fucking time studying non stop. Still managed to stand out,gpa only dropped 0.13 points, normally i should have gotten a mediocre 1.0 gpa or something if it wasn't for that insane willpower and work-ethic
>>28611803
It is not genetics, theres absolutely no concrete proof of this. The studies suggesting it are biased trash, just like thre hyper racists of this site.
If you take a black baby from the ghetto and put them in a household of an upper middle class white couple the kid will be well adjusted, do well in school and go on to have a successful career. If you put a white baby into the home of a welfare queen in the ghetto with no dad he will be no better than any other black guy around him.
>>28611952
Do you have aspergers? Original conment
Download some books and read during the week. If you don't want to read scientific and philosophical texts you can always go full nerd and read shit like GoT and the Pathfinder series. You will literally never run out of books to read.
>>28608090
>600mb a month
holy shit what kind of jewish data plan did you get?
mine is the cheapest one avaliable here in Brazil and its 2gb a month
>>28611803
Don't derail the thread with your "proof" please. I honnestly don't believe them and i don't care much about them or what people may think. I just live my life,that's all there is to is (at least that's how i used to think,but i'll get that way of thinking back soon enough)
>>28611387
>>28611952
>Continued
So yeah, it was not that i needed to study 10's of hours to get good grade. It was more about the resillience and work ethic i was building.
You know, i used to have 0 discipline in the past, i had 0 discipline during my previous semester during wrecked mental state.
The discipline i needed to go from "getting fucking uncomfortable after studying an hour straight" to-> "becoming perfectly fine with studying 8 hours straight" was a shitty mental struggle for me. As weird as it may sound, it have me some kind of mental strength. I could now easily transfer that same amount of discipline to other stuff. That meant alot to me,
>>28612089
Nop,i'm a normal dude
>>28612175
mine too, and i am in portugal,fuck the jews.
there as some people on the brazil gov trying to limit internet acess right? i saw that on the news.
>>28612260
yeah those fucking telephone kikes are always trying to pull their jewish shit on us.
basically they put on a limit on household internets just like a data plan.
I pray my congress bros bolsomito and his gang of based guys sort that shit out before i start trowing my piss jugs at the telephone jews.
>>28611150
Thank you for caring mate
>>28611312
Yep that's me lol, As you can see i was really falling back into mediocrity. Spending all my days depressed,suicidal,aimless,unmotivated,in a toxic place,browsing internet mindlessly non-stop from the time i was awake to the moment i passed in front of the computer
>>28611845
Sorry lo, i really didn't think about that. + i thought that any fan would be up to date,it was 2 episodes ago. Nevertheless, i chose the picture for the MGSV vibe and "back from the dead" thing, since i was hopeless and suicidal a while ago but i'm better now
>>28611497
Figured that out lol. At my lowest and wrecked mental state, it kinda pissed me off how dumb they were (guess i became immature and unable to think normally). Then as i got better and better, i started thinking the same way i used to before all that bs wrecked me
Pitying them is the way everyone should naturally react to them
>continued
>>28611497
>Continued
But pitying them actually recquires you to pay attention and to read their bs and laugh at it. Which is a dumb waste of time, they'll always come up with new shit and new theories and get triggered at everything a black person does
Becoming totally indifferent to whatever racist people (or other dumb nuisance such as sjw's complaining about random stuff) think or believe while spending all your thoughts and efforts into improving your life is the only way to go. That's how i used to see things,it was pretty good. That+ many other mindsets kinda got me rid of my social anxiety
>>28612306
godspeed, i hear that guy is good at least dilma got rekted.
>>28606164
>>28606183
I see what's happening here. You did well in the intro classes, and now that you're doing poorly you blame it on your mother.
Pretty sad.
>>28611497
>Continued 2
Kinda reminds me of some asian guy looking at me non stop with a ("smug" i'm looking down on you" face on the subway. I was studying for an anatomy class on my cell and noticed he kept staring me. Looked at him, he kept his "i'm better than you" face
(please not that i have many close asian friends. My social circle is made of asians,arabs,blacks and white people, mostly friends from university or college)
I told myself " He's probably thinking:"
>Look at a fucking nigger, he's probably gonna do nigger stuff and rob some good people tonight
Laughed at the idea, went back to studying my anatomy class and forgot someone was even looking at me. Don't have time or energy to waste on that shit and nobody should.
Nobody should waste their time arguing on pol and calling them retards or whatever. Just ignore them
>>28612695
>>28612695
lol wat. i didn't even take most intro classes. The difficulty of the classes did not get any harder, they actually became easier.
But you're trolling.The post you quoted clearly says that i went from studying 4-10 hours a day (first year) to 4-8 hours a MONTH (last semester). If you can't see how that "might" impact your grades....
Okay i download 6 movies for today, i'll download more stuff tomorow. Mom is coming in 1-20 mins. I might go in a starbucks to download more stuff (never downloaded huge stuff outside,how slow is it?) or talk to some anons that may have suggestions to help me
>>28607682
Thanks but i can't access animebytes. Any other similiar site?
Is there one for manga volumes?
I'll download self-discipline e-books and audio books too
I fucking hope they cancel my semester (my year would be a miracle i'd be forever thankful for),it would allow me to get my life back together and have a bright future once again
>>28610557
I know you probably already plan to, but whenever you can, cut your mom and older brother out of your life. Your mom is a toxic person, only causing harm to others, and your older brother is enabling it.
>>28612997
>went from studying 4-10 hours a day (first year) to 4-8 hours a MONTH (last semester). If you can't see how that "might" impact your grades....
Yeah, just what I said. You did well in your intro classes, and now you're doing poorly. I understand that it hurts know it's your fault you won't get into med school. It's just kinda pathetic you're blaming your mother, but whatever you gotta say to make you feel better.
>>28610557
>no affirmative action
>doesn't think ontario has affirmative action for nonwhites like himself
>>28610844
It might have been a mistake to answer the race stuff,some people who might have helpful advices might not reply to this thread because of a deep hatred they have towards blacks
>>28613336
Don't live in ontario. There's only affirmative action for native american in the place i live and for the universities i applied to
>>28613181
You're an idiot or a troll or someone who didn't read the thread not the link to the archived one.
In any case it doesn't matter
>>28613181
SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU FUCKING NORMIE I'M A 4.0 STUDENT YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS BECAUSE IM BETTER THAN ALL YOU SHIT NERDS
>>28613501
>>28613484
Depression isn't a viable excuse for blaming your mother your your own shortcomings.
Stay mad, though. I genuinely feel sorry for you.
Download language learning stuff, it'll be fun I swear
how the fuck can you finish university classes without the internet?
>>28613576
>Depression isn't a viable excuse for blaming your mother for your own shortcomins.
Read the thread or the archived linked one. You clearly didn't read anything
Feel sorry for yourself and your retarded "trolling" instead of feeling sorry for others
>>28613484
People make a distinction between Africans and African Americans. It's genetic, not SES. Op is alright here. If anything it puts an end to poo in loo, which no distinction is made between the ones in or outside their country.
>>28613664
>implying his mom cares about that
You have a lot to learn about borderline my man. I honestly hope you never do though. There's no reasoning with them. You hear borderline you run for the border. They want nothing more than to make life hell for everyone around them. They are evil incarnate.
>>28614057
wat
ORIGINAL
>>28614387
African American detected
Lmao@urlife
>>28614510
wat
SES?
what are you on
>>28611996
4channers don't care whether it's true or not lol
>tfw my ma stays on the internet enough that she'd never want to take away the wi-fi
wew lad. That's a very good thing for me. I'd be pissed if she did that.
Although I have prepped myself just in case she does that. I not only have vidya games, but I also downloaded a ton of comics and cartoon shows just so that I don't get bored.
>>28607650
It's like you don't even smoke weed faggot
>>28608415
I use transmission, every version comes with a web interface and its not spyware.
Anyone knows sites to download whole seasons of anime or whole volumes of manga?
not for moe "cute little girl" stuff please
>>28615176
bump on that
>>28611324
>i live in a french place
>Black
Bonjour Montreal
>>28606164
>>28615176
>>28615424
I want all normalfags and kids to get the fuck out
>>28615045
>>28615424
www nyaa.se/?cats=1_37
www bato.to
Those are for anime and manga respectively just at the dot and search with the full name of the series(to use batoto you to register though)
Don't forge to seed.
>>28614603
Have you never heard of google? SocioEconomic Status. It's a very common abbreviation used when talking about social bullshit like poor little niggers and poor little women who don't have enough PP(Privilege Points).
>>28606183
I understand what you're going through excpet I didn't have any family to support me. Just me and my mom.
>in STEM doing well in my classes
>so happy I'm going to pursue my dream as a cuckgineer
>I set up networks and supportive friends so even if I take time to learn how to be social in college I still have people to remain relatively normal and get help from
>mother however can't stop acting like a fucking womanchild
>always being an attentionwhore always calling me lazy and saying i'm ungrateful or undeserving of anything because I focus on my education more than anything
>mother can't stand the sign of me being home, if i'm not working even at mcdonalds then nothing I do matters
>i never smoke, do drugs, never commit crimes, never ask for anything
>first semester is great and planning to go 5 full courses next semester so speed up the process and get ahead.
>shit at home really hits the fucking fan
>this woman has slapped me bloody after I've won extracurricular competitions because she couldnt go to her friends party and grounded me on the week I was graduating top of my class
>gets mad when i have angry messages i didn't delete because it was in a messaging app that I stopped using months ago
>mental state completely destroyed after threatening to be kicked out and other verbal abuse
>now she's telling me to "go back to my major" and trying to encourage me after everything is fucking ruined especially my GPA
Women, I fucking hate them.
>>28612695
high quality b8
>>28616007
Thanks mate!
>>28616609
Fucking shit man.... nothing more than doing fucking well then someone keeps trying to fuck it up
What do you do now?
can you still become an engineer?
hope the best for you mate
>>28616744
bump on this
>>28617525
rebump.....original
