Why do people cut themselves? I never understood the point in doing so(aside from wanting attention).
>>28598012
Endorphin reIease
>>28598012
It makes the unspeakable suffering inside become physical.
When I cut my arm, the sting and the fear and the feeling of ripping my own body open takes my body's self-defense resources and directs them to the wound and to my own muscles doing the cutting. It says "STOP. STOP. WE ARE BEING HARMED."
It's these self-defense resources that are usually directed at the internal pain. The fear, the self-hatred, the shame, tfwnogf, all of that shit hurts so much that I can't get up, I can't move, I can't eat right, I can't look for work, I can't answer the phone...
But then just a few bloody slashes and I just feel sort of... exhilarated, like I fell off my bike and all there is to do is get back up. Just get back up and move on. No more internal dialogue screaming "STOP STOP" at my own mental processes.
It's the only way out.
>>28598121
are you joking? that sounds autistic as fuck.
To fool the brain.
emotional pain is redirected to body pain.
basically is a redistribution to cope with the moment.
>>28598195
It can sound however you want. That's how it works. I cut my arm when the feels are too heavy. It makes them lighter.
I'ts easy to figure out "I have a cut on my arm".
It's not easy to figure out "I am unhappy."
>>28598249
why not just smoke weed? cutting yourself leaves permanent on your skin while weed doesnt. or just get a fucking hobby.
>>28598121
Why not turn to artwork instead? Allocating frustration into something productive is very satisfying; plus it's something you have that reflects the way you really feel and can share with others. The greatest works of art come from fucked up places.
>>28598012
I never got it either, and like 4/5 girls that I dated were meme cutters.
Although when I was at the peak of my emo phase I did put out a couple of cigarettes on my shoulders.
>>28598306
I have a large number of well-developed hobbies. I am a mid-level guitarist and a decent singer, I have an 8-year running spiritual practice, and I study occultism in my spare time. I also have diverse and specific interests like acting and voice acting and writing. I currently get paid to ghostwrite tech opinion pieces.
smoking weed makes me freak the fuck out. Even a little bit of it is like hell to me. I start seeing myself as this greay, hideaous monster full of nothing but sin and hated by everyone i've ever known even though I know it's not true. That's just how I feel about myself and it comes out when I smoke.
What you don't understand is tha tI have to self harm BEFORE I can put effort into my hobbies and my career. If I don't self-harm, then I'm constantly emotionally overwhelmed by self-hatred and I can't do anything. I can't focus on my work and I can't push with my muscles when I work out (I lift also, I have developed muscles.)
You cannot "just b urself" your way out of mental illness. I am a fucked up person and I have to do fucked up shit to feel normal.
>>28598012
Practice for the inevitable suicide. Once you've gotten used to the pain of slicing up your skin you should be able to fuck up the veins in your arms EZ.
Also it makes psychological pain real. How often do you hurt yourself in your head night after night and wake up with no scars and nothing to show for your struggle? Making the pain real will force you to do something about it.
>>28598334
please see this post
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>>28598392
>>28598415
if you need to practice suicide, you're either retarded or just a pussy. killing yourself isn't rocket science.
>>28598466
we're talking about women here, m8
>>28598392
maybe you should get some kind of medication for that then instead of cutting yourself. sounds like you're schizo or something.
i've sometimes been so angry i did it out of need to hurt something, that's about it
>>28598557
I have tried 7 pharmaceuticals. All of the cures are worse than the disease.
For me, it's a sexual thing.
>>28598012
I bite myself.I also used both hands and scratched down my face in a rage flash. I have scars now.
>>28598915
>I bite myself
why
>>28598012
I ate a spicy chicken sandwich todayto see if I still feel...
>>28598973
To prevent screaming.
>>28598012
It gives people a sense of relief. Comes from an underlying problem in their psyche.
>>28598997
how long have you had angry problems for?
>>28598012
Endorphines mine bretherbro
>>28598012
It's an attention thing, real emotion isn't paraded around or shown to others. People cut themselves to appear sad and depressed and for attention
>>28599107
Over a decade. Went to an institution, saw specialists, and took prozac for years, but it only made me worse.
>>28599144
i thought so too, but people in the thread are saying it's for endorphins. honestly, i dont understand why they dont just ride a bike or something if they want to release endorphins.
>>28599201
Because they can get attention and pity from others irl and over the Internet by doing that instead of running or some shit which is productive and more effective
>>28598012
I think it stemmed from me being smacked often as a child as punishment. Now when I fuck up something in my life (or getting overwhelmed) I feel empty and guilty unless I'm disciplined with pain. It's not for attention, I do it in places where nobody would see.
If you're young seek help so you're not doing this into adulthood like me, 22 with the marks of a 15 year old.
>self harm
>instantly get mad at myself for self harming
>discipline myself for it
>INFINITE LOOP
>>28599305
>tripcode
Why are most cutter female? Is it an attention thing?
>>28599369
I think it's because girls can't handle emotion well like guys, which is one of the reasons why we shouldn't have a female president.
There I said it!
>>28599305
i guess i could somewhat understand that...? i was abused as well, but still never cut myself.
i have a low pain tolerance an severe depression i dont cut but i do burn my skin with matches as a more tangible thing to focus on
b4 any of those just play a game or go outside, i have tried to do anything else but the pain is so intense and immediate it really helps
i would burn myself i worry over my skin, treat the burn and by the time i have calmed down i would be less upset or rather less fixated on life
>>28599572
>i have tried to do anything else but the pain is so intense and immediate it really helps
I mean you could just play csgo and have people shittalk you about how shitty of a person you are. It'd probably do the same thing and take the same amount of time.
>>28598012
Because it makes my emotional problems go away temporarily. It is a way to punish myself and attack myself because I hate myself. Some of my friends did it to deal with their problems. When I tried, I got addicted to it. To the endorphins. I had to cut deeper and deeper, I got the urge to cut everyday. I felt like its the only way to feel better. And when I cut, I felt euphoric. Now its been about 3 months since I last cut, but I still think about it everyday. I have many scars on my arms and legs that'll never go away. Its a horrible choice to make.
It's what normalfags do when they get dumped.
>>28598249
>>>/reddit/
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>>>/soc/
>>28598669
Of course the sexual one ends in a 69
you can chug hot sauce. endorphin release plus pain. stupid cutcucks
I am somehow unsurprised that all the cutters posting ITT are autistic as hell.
>everything else hurts and there's no way out! I literally cannot sit down and think about things for 5 minutes!
>>28598392
Especially you, you fuck.
>>I have an 8-year running spiritual practice, and I study occultism in my spare time.
You've been studying occultism and spirituality for 8 years and you haven't discovered a way to deal with your shit outside of destroying your own body?
>>28598107
>>28598121
>>28598415
>>28599117
>>28599305
>>28599724
Cutting is exclusively for attention whores. You can self harm in ways that no-one ever finds out about. I've been doing it for years. But oh no it has to be cutting at well exposed areas like the wrist.
Just kill yourself already faggots.
> hate myself
> burning, crippling sense of self loathing and worthlessness
> becomes so overbearing I just spend all time outside of work just laying on the floor
> eventually after a couple days of this, burn myself with wood, lighters, incense, or slash myself with a knife
> just so I can feel something other than internal pain, so I can make it physical and be reminded I really am alive
> feel the surging pang of more self hatred
> go outside on a walk for air, feel inferior to all these apparently happy people and their fulfilling lives
> end up hiding somewhere by the river where I can cry and paw at some plant, confused by the glorious spectacle of the universe and reality in juxtaposition with my pitifuly awful, reclusive, fear-wrought existence
> go home and jack off
> remember I won't ever have sex or feel intimacy
>>28598121 has it spot on
> cry again
>>28600508
literally get a hobby
>>28598012
I never understood drug addiction until I went to the ward
I was pretty fucking dumb and it made realize how ignorant most people are on most issues.
Normalfags will never understand self-harm
>>28600445
No you don't. You just say that you do to try and make yourself seem tough and as if you're truly suffering in this pissing competition of who has it worse.
I hate myself and burn, cut and hit myself
I do it when I'm really mad and I feel like something was my fault. When I was rejected from a job I really wanted i spent 2 days burning myself with a lighter and cutting and starving myself because I thought it was my fault for losing that job since I'm an Autist.
I'd rather hurt myself than break expensive shit in a rage.
>>28601016
why dont you just kill yourself instead?
>>28598012
I had never cut myself before and then last weekend I got piss drunk and went through my box with all my funeral service things they give you. I started balling my eyes out and for some reason grabbed a razorblad and cut the fuck out of my arm several times. I've had to wear long sleeves all week becaus of it and i don't even remember if it helped. I think it's just an "I'm in pain" type of thing idk.
>>28598415
>>28598466
>Practice for the inevitable suicide
This is why I did it. I wanted to see if I had the guts.
I didn't, but I knew I could get there one step at a time, cutting deeper into the skin and making longer gouges every day, even if it was only by a bit.
Ironically, this taught me the power of daily incremental action and things got better when I diverted some of that effort into bettering my appearance, which was the crux of my insecurity and self-hatred.
And now I have the guts to kill myself whenever I want to!
>>28601043
Tried twice but failed
>>28601080
how the fuck do you fail killing yourself?
>>28601137
I was like 10 the first time and 15 the second time so I probably wasn't going to succeed anyways
I had tried last year but no one I knew would drive me to the gun shop.
>>28601226
so the first two time you weren't really trying. there are so many ways to kill yourself. you dont need a gun. also, why can't you take yourself to the gun shop?
>>28601312
I can't drive and the nearest is a state away.
I was thinking of methylene chloride but I live at home and don't want my mom to find my body or put her in danger.
I also could jump in front of the train behind my house but that's kinda a dick move.
>>28598012
It is done purely for attention
>>28601366
>I was thinking of methylene chloride but I live at home and don't want my mom to find my body or put her in danger.
>I also could jump in front of the train behind my house but that's kinda a dick move.
why does it matter? you'll be dead anyway. from what i can tell, you're pretty much just making up excuses.
>>28601393
He probably has still some hope, that things will eventually be better someday. I'm in the same boot tbqh.
