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aka Attention Whore General
>why did/do you do it?
>how did/do you do it?
>do these threads help you?
>>28380470
>>why did/do you do it?
Originally did it because I saw it on tv and my friends were doing it I was like 14. 27 now, not practicing for about 2 years. It's annoying when ppl call me emo because style wise and thinking wise I'm the opposite of a emo, I try to stay positive and I like bright colors, I guess the style thing doesn't really matter though.
>how did/do you do it?
Take razor blades out of shavers.
>do these threads help you?
No, why would fucking threads on r9k help me?
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>>28380561
>why would fucking threads on r9k help me?
There's always something you can take away a thread
Just be positive
Just be yourself
I did it because my childhood friend has been doing it since he was like 13
it was a combination of curiosity and an obligation I believed I had, to share his experience
The first thing that comes to mind when I see scars like that is the Nameless One.
Came back from the dead so many times he was more scar than man.
My girlfriend did it to cope with memories of sexual abuse from an uncle and from a former lover. She used to cut herself.
>>28381034
Damn I hope my childhood friend didn't start cutting cause of me, cause I did it since I was 12 and we grew apart shortly after and haven't had any contact in years.
i cut skin off my body and keep it in my drawer wrapped in paper sheets
mostly from my feet
no blood tho
AMA
>>28380470
i really think this kind of mental probles can be solved with a strong smack in the face
I'm sick in the head and used to do it in my teens just because it gave me mental relief.
Luckily for most of my teens I also only had access to blades that could cut, but not deep enough to leave those big scars or to risk accidental suicide.
>>28381306
Post pics, fuccboi
It's one of the most vivid memories of my life.
>In college
>I had already been feeling a little depressed
>my friends got together with some qts to play board games and didn't invite me
>it was night time and raining
>locked my door, light was off, tv was on, Children of Men on HBO, volume off
>lit candles and started listening to music
>got buzzed on some beer and Alize (all I had in my closet)
>Us and Them by Pink Floyd comes on
>Overwhelmed with feeling; sadness, anger, it's so intense
>Carved up my arm a little bit with a buck knife
>It felt so good, seeing the blood, feeling the physical pain. Maybe it was the adrenaline and sympathetic nervous system activation
>There's something about my sadness that night to where I look back on it fondly, like I'm glad it happened
>Because I never felt it quite that strongly ever again, and even though they were negative feelings, it felt good to feel so strongly about something
Nobody ever saw the wounds. I think the only people to ever see the scars were my workout buddy at the gym and a QT grill in my physiology lab when she was checking my pulse.
>cut up my arms
>put on a jacket
>go out and get some junk food
>my arms are bleeding and nobody even knows
Who else here /mischief/?
>>28381453
yesterday's foot
>>28381698
foot skin deposit
i've been doing this for uhh
3 years now
>>28381698
All righty then.
>>28381306
>>28381698
>>28381720
>concerned
>>28381758
satisfying as fuck desu
i don't feel any pain, i'm not into that
it's just really satisfying to cut skin off your feet, i use large scissors and then pull it with my hand intil it rips
pretty satisfying t b h senpai would recommend to any robot out there, it's just dead skin bro
>>28381810
yeah the only downside is that my feet get blacker and blacker in the places where i cut it and it looks really gross,
>just ate taco bell a ben and jerries pint smoked three spliffs and just fapped
i am killing myself help
>>28381839
i need pics of that shit
this shit is gettin saved
>why did/do you do it?
I was molested and it was a way to distract myself from thinking too much. So I just caused pain myself to distract myself from other pains to be fair.
>how did/do you do it?
Razors from my fathers tool shed
>do these threads help you?
Nah not really.
>>28381339
3 options:
1-You don't
2-You are underage
3-You are retarded
Fucking far from defending attention whores but c'mon man, don't autism it up.
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CRAWLING
[spoilerIN]MYSKIN
Fucking gosh dang attention whores
>>28380470
>>28380933
>>28382345
it isnt real just for those wondering
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>>28382387
She's really good at makeup!
>>28382649
Wow, you could almost think it was real if you didnt look too closely! The thumbnail almost got me!
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>>28382908
CGI gets better every day
>>28381698
>>28381720
get help anon
ocsee
>>28382941
She must be great at photoshop!
Really wanna know what her family is like both for how she ended up like that and how they react to it. Imagine seeing your daughter and pretty mush all of her is disfigured and scarred
>>28381720
>>28381698
i do this too. for some reason it's comforting, i guess.
what do you use? i can't stand blood or the sensation of slicing my own skin so i always take a nail clipper and cut off the thick parts of my foot skin (back of the heel, bottom of big toe, etc. places where calloused skin happens because of walking so much) little by little. it's very methodical and comforting.
BUMP
You should all cut yourself to be happy and pretty
I think self harm is gorgeous to look at and I wish I could find more
>>28380470
>why did/do you do it?
So I could post in this thread.
>how did/do you do it?
Slapped my cheeks gently.
>do these threads help you?
Not really.
Am I pretty yet?
I've only done it once, while very drunk, 2 years ago.
I put a bunch of matches out on my inner forearms.
At this point, some marks are completely gone, but some of them have left some nasty scars. I fucking hate them so much. I hate tattoos but I've considered getting tattoos just to hide them. I don't know.
Do scars ever to away?
mild but I have more somewhere.
I hate myself and would have killed myself years ago if it wasn't for the guilt of leaving my family. my life isn't particularly fucked up either, things are technically okay, which is what makes me feel even fucking worse for being melodramatic. haha :-)
>>28384186
yes, you are pretty
blood mmm yummy yumm
>>28383930
When I was twelve, my parents got a new knife set. I took the biggest one into the bathroom, and cut my arm open to obtain blood for Satanic rituals.
The shock was intense. In an instant, I went from being pure and untouched to scarred. It would be whiney of me to complain about it, since I walk around in shortsleaves and no one mentions it.
Since then, Spice has torn from me any sense that my flesh is sacred or different from stone. One time at work, I was running cat5e cable in a parking garage and the smell of the concrete brought me ego death.
The impulse to cut is caused by the desire for control. Cutting is bad only because cutters don't have any goal in mind. The ability to chop your own arm off and replace it with one grown from stem cells is certainly evolutionarily adaptive.
I want to cut my entire ugly body off, to the pont of infecting myself with rabies and dissolving myself in HCl.
>>28384500
do the Satanic rituals work?
>>28381698
i would kindly ask if you would delete this
>>28381720
can we see your foot please?
sdfasy4r34543
I occasionally full on punch myself in the face.
There's nothing romantic about it, I just get frustrated with my own inactivity or stupid behaviour and need to jump start the ride.
>>28383046
iirc she started doing this after being raped. Ive read into her periodically for a few years. She changed tumblrs a few times then vanished. Dunno where she is now.
>>28384232
Bamp.
Has anyone here gotten tattoos over self harm scars?
Did they do a good job of hiding them?
1. I was removed from school and locked in isolation in my bedroom for a number of years. I would become bored and do this, very similar to understimulated animals engaging in self harm. I also used it to stay awake, when I did not feel safe to sleep.
2. Cutting with an old razor i found, knives, a compass, broken glass or plastic, etc. Razor used to cut/carve off chunks (that were then eaten). Embedding objects like sewing needles and paper clips. Burning with open flames or cigarettes. Branding with wire or silverware heated over an open flame. Salt or alchohol into wounds. Head bashing on walls, slamming head between doors.
3. No.
>>28384888
Jokes on you
The thread was never meant to help
>>28384582
Yes, but it took fifteen years for it to manifest.
I quit Spice last year, and during the withdrawl (Not that bad, no relapses) I had a dream where I'd cut myself. My dad was telling me to hold my arm up, and I could feel the coagulated blood in my flesh. I'd hidden the trauma from myself for fifteen years, and I could only feel it after I'd turned myself into an Earthshaker who feels no pain.
Around the same time, I began to merge with my environment and gain access to my genetic memories. I saw the nucleoside worlds - the green fields bounded by the hexagonal nitrogenous base, which itself connects to the phosphate chain that shines like a Sun upon the estates of my ancestors.
The scene converted me to Buddhism, and I've stuck with that since. I mix it up with my own brand of panpsychism, which is mostly informed by drug trips, childhood memories and family traditions.
The plan is to cover my neurons in marker molecules which prevent the binding of HCl, or fill them with fluoresent molecules so a computer can tell which cells not to vaporize with a laser. The neurons would then be infected with a virus that produces an inclusion body, and has a molecule on it's protein sheath so that it binds only to neurons. Then, dissolve the marker molecule or burn away the neurons, leaving only the inclusion bodies.
Then, use a culture of GMO acantharia algae to produce strontium bones, aerographene muscles, and fluorine skin over the inclusion bodies.
Once I succeed on myself, cutters, furries and NEETs will be the first people I give this to.
Please tell me I'm pretty
Please
>>28383681
>>28385615
That's pretty fucked up desu senpai
Wow you people need help.
>>28380470
Tried giving my cat a bath
>>28384186
eh, maybe a few more on the wrists and hands?
>>28380470
I'm not a mod and I certainly don't have any meaningful impact on this site, but if you can afford to it would be kind if you didn't post self harm pictures. I went to a mental hospital and knew a girl covered in scars like a zebra, and another BPD girl I talked to would disassociate and feel a compulsive need to cut herself whenever she saw her. A lot of people here are mentally ill and continually relapse into cutting themselves, posting stuff like this reminds them and makes them more likely to do it. >>28384186 doesn't turn up any google image results and hasn't been posted on 4chan before, it's very possible you got somebody to do that to themselves. I don't mean to shame you, but if you care about other people here it would be better not to do it again.
I know I'm a faggot for caring about this.
>>28388575I'm the OP and that personI make these threads so people (including myself) will hurt themselvesWhen I asked "do these threads help you?" I meant it to be taken either as helping cope or helping cutI want everyone to sufferKill yourself
>>28388707
That's vile. Like most people with BPD you're a petty, self absorbed, black and white thinking shithead.
I hope you get better anon.
>>28388707
if you feel so compelled to cut, maybe you should drink simultaneously. ethanol is a blood thinner and would make things more fun
>>28388797
Stay mad, beta bitch
>>28388846
Mixing drinking and ibuprofen is a good diy mix. The only downside is that you shit blood and will have an unsettled stomach for a few days.
>>28389126
>Mixing drinking and ibuprofen is a good diy mix
Your liver will quite possibly fail if you do this very often. Maybe you're ambivalent about dying, but if it gets bad enough that you need medical attention you will not be indifferent towards the pain. Have you been to a psychologist or psychiatrist?
>>28389191
I binge drank and mixed with codeine, paracetamol and ibuprofen for years. It's too late to care now.
I've been in and out of the psych ward for this past month. Nothing they do helps, I can never be fixed, death and failure is inevitable
>>28389255
Are you on any medications? Have you tried DBT?
>self harm
does intentionally sabotaging your life by being a lazy piece of shit count?
>>28389255
You should kill yourself just to maintain the integrity of this fine board
Fuck off, childish attention whore
>>28389255
liver failure is pretty painful for like one night, then you shut down, someone finds you, and then youre in the hospital for a week. it won't kill you quick. it's not a good pain, and it's not even graceful. if you wanna mix shit for the high, ok. just get drunk and pop xans or ambien and hope you OD, but dont fuck with that tylenol APAP shit.
>>28388707
be my self harming bf
we can cut together
pls
>>28389273
kek whenever i hear DBT i think of CBT
>>28389408
DBT adopted several things from CBT. I'm not sure why that made you laugh though
>>28389442
he's thinking CBT = cock and ball torture, not cognitive behavioral therapy.
>>28382941
she ever posted a pic of her face? wanna see what a psycho's eyes are like
>>28389289
>integrity this fine board
hownu.ru
>>28389283
Yes
>>28389273
I'm most likely going to be starting this week or the next. The problem is that they couldn't get an accurate diagnosis. I'm just all over the place because I'm a unique and special snowflake
>>28389403
Did you do that with a paperclip? I did something like that the other day when drunk.
Use a razor, it's much more clean.
>>28389491
>Did you do that with a paperclip?
a really shitty pair of scissors.
usually I would use my box cutter, but my parents took it and either hid it or threw it out the last time I was admitted to the psych ward.
yeah, I was drunk when it happened. they're kind of shit but I don't have many pictures, I don't think I have any of the deeper ones.
>>28389699
How did you end up in the ward?
>>28388707
You need help.
Maybe you can transition out of your habit and use what little good you've gained from it to pursue a hobby that you'll be good at
I'm sure you have an insanely high pain threshold. Try getting into boxing or a martial art. Everyone that would spar you would never be able to deliver the pain that you've put on yourself.
Once you work hard and get good at it, then you'll start to feel good yourself
But please man, get some help. Talk to somebody, anybody. If there's nobody around then use s hotline and talk to somebody there.
>>28388707
Where do you live sexc?
>>28382941
How has she not died.
>>28384759
She's probably dead.
I can't see how she could sustain her body for much longer after all the high chances of her exposing her self to an infection or inducing heavy amounts of shock on her body
Or she's in a psych ward
>>28380470
I compulsively tear the flesh from my toes/finger tips and eat it. I don't know why I do it. I don't know if it's out of anxiety, depression, etc.
I am a pretty depressed person and anxious individual but I've done this for as long as I can remember, and it kinda sucks now that I am going out into public with it.
It's also hard as fuck to stop.
I used to cut myself with excato blades on my inner thigh. Nothing ever that deep, it just helped calm me down if i dissociated.
I'd also scratch at the skin on my wrists for hours until they scabbed, then do it again
I did this >>28390354 too. I'd rip my toenails off as well.
Honestly OP i hate these threads. I havent self harmed in over a year, but these make me crave it so hardcore
>>28389885
which time?
last time, the people I'm living with found me cutting when I thought everyone was out of the house.
the other two times have been one cutting, one pills.
>>28390195
back off, I called him first.
>>28390395
>I havent self harmed in over a year, but these make me crave it so hardcore
The worst feeling is when you clean up after cutting and feel like you didn't go deep enough.
Why am I such faggot?
>>28390712
pls be in Australia
We can drink each other's blood... i-if you want t-to
>>28391029
fuuuck I am not in Australia
come to America and you have yourself a deal, babe.
>>28391045
Sorry, I'm looking for IRL friends
>>28391045
Which state? Cali?
>>28391111
damn boy those quads
nah though, the midwest
where NOTHING and NO ONE is.
>>28380470
i can't believe she's still alive doe
My only friend has a friend that cuts herself
She told me she was worried so I take this opportunity to help me help her help her friend.
Maybe it's beyond my ability but I want to at least make her feel like she helped her friend even if it doesn't work.
Also stop harming yourselves senpais, you are hurting the people around you too
>>28389478
Yes, here
With her bf
>>28391029
Enjoy your prion disease
>>28389403
laughing heavily at this. those look like fucking paper cuts tbhfamilasenpai.
>>28384500
>>28385615
What the literal fuck are you on about you autistic fuck
>>28390209
This. How do you not die doing this?
>>28392865
Post something better then faggot.
My deeper cuts are all from being drunk, stupid and dragging a steak knife across my arm until I opened up. It'd be a lot more difficult to slowly drag scissors across myself while sober.
>>28389699
Your parents took it?
What are you? 10?
>>28393301
Hey, you leave my wife's daughter alone
>>28388707
A cutter turns out to be nothing more than an edgelord attention whore.
WHAT A FUCKING SURPRISE
>>28385615
nice, spice is one hell of a drug lol
It just feels so good
I started doing it when I was a little kid, I used to pick at the skin on my hands until I bled out of anxiety. Then I moved onto cigarette burns and razor cuts as a teenager. I only really do it when I'm drunk as fuck nowadays
