I don't know brobots after immigrating to a foreign country from where I spent my childhood I just don't feel "right". I've lived here for three years now and in my first year I did pretty good in high school. Then the next year and I completely fucked it up and dropped out (which was my last year), went to university and dropped out fucking twice in the span of another year. As a result I went through your usual NEET and depression for about 6 months and afterwards I pulled myself out of it, got a part time job and have already decided to go back to college (since I'm 20 already) and major in accounting, marketing or international business or something. Everything sounds good right?
Except it isn't. I still feel fucking dead inside. Apart from the usual m8s I have, I haven't connected personally with anyone since I was 16. Additionally my boss uses me as his personal verbal punching bag at my shitty job.
Something tells me to keep saying to myself the standard "it gets better, move on etc" but at the moment I just feel so resigned. I feel so powerless and emotionless to anything now. Even though I was taught to "get an education and make some money" and even though I am doing/going to do these things I just feel exactly the same as when I was a NEET, now only richer and less free time.
As of late I've just been smoking the ganja, listening to tons of emo shit, getting wasted occasionally and reading edgy comics like pic related. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a different timezone and am powerless to change my attitude.
>inb4 do it faggot
>inb4 furry. I'm not okay, found this on /co/ and I love it
>inb4 stop whining
TLDR: I've got the suburban blues.
Posting because I wouldn't want you to have this thread die. I know how shitty it feels when you're trying to reach out and there is literally zilch responses.
I also kinda know what it's like to have that depression stage after failing the shit out of university (well, it was more like having a depressive state near the end of the semester and I essentially just gave up). I told my parents that I'm just taking a break from it (even though my GPA is technically <1.0) and that I'll go back eventually. I honestly hope I do since I would like to do something in either a science or social science.
I had all these things planned on what I was going to do during my break. I did literally NONE of them. Except... I incredibly lucked out. Turns out a family friend (who I basically view as an aunt) was a manager at a Casino, and now I've been working as a Poker Dealer for 3 weeks now. This job has given me meaning again and it's a job that is CERTAINLY waaay more interesting than stocking shelves or something.
I suppose the only thing I can suggest is perhaps trying to see who all your possible contacts are. If you have a family member who can recommend you to do a better job, I suggest maybe doing that instead. I'm sure it beats your current job.
Also, I never read that comic, but who gives a shit what other people thinks. Read what you want.
Please destroy whatever that comic is.
>>27673014
ahhaa it's my fault for typing a goddamned essay on 4chan.
Anyway yeah thanks for the reply. I appreciate it. The thing is with my job I'm kinda debating whether to keep it for more than 3 months because when I go back to uni (in maybe 2-3 months) It'll basically be full time and my parents are all "if you're studying full time we'll support you financially" so it's unnecessary to put extra stress especially on first year.
So with your job, after a dayshift/nightshift do you come back feeling "accomplished?" The thing is I do but it lasts for a very short time and I'm back to the story above. My greatest fear is going back to uni and doing an actual course and feeling exactly the same as now with my part time job
>>27673042
it's pretty good. If you substitute animal people for actual people it's still pretty real and geniune
>>27673092
That is literally my biggest fear too. I'm almost debating just settling down with my current job for quite a while since I don't want to just ruin it all by going to university again and failing. Have you heard of websites like Coursera? I think if I just learn as much as I can there first while I'm working, it'll drastically reduce the odds of me failing university. I believe if I know a bunch and have a strong first year, then it will continue to motivate me to finish the rest of the years. I'm thinking about doing Computer Science and perhaps have a social science for a minor (like Psychology or Anthropology).
>>27672850
I'm gonna be honest with you, the biggest problem that Robots have is that we are crippled by introspection.
Sure some introspection is good, but we take it to extremes, we obsess over our feelings and get drawn into a spiral of feeling shit but not being able to do anything because we feel like shit, then we feel worse because nothing is getting better and we are not doing anything.
Meanwhile people who are not that smart and have zero introspection are killing it IRL because they spend all their time doing things, working and making friends. They have money, a good career, wives and children and we look at them and think why the fuck are they succeeding and we are not?
The best advice a Robot can be given is to get out of your own head as much as possible, do something which is real and constructive.
Hit the gym during your time off, continue your education and find a hobby. Try and make your exercise, education and hobbies and hobbies synergize in some way and make you some side money.
The human body and mind is just a fleshy machine, don't over complicate things, if you spend your time improving it you will feel better about yourself.
I'm actually more okay with furries than the body mod scene.
I've never tried to go out for a cup of coffee and had to get served by someone in full disgusting fursuit.
I digress, most people feel shitty and dead inside, there's not actually anything wrong with it.
>>27673190
>I'm thinking about doing Computer Science and perhaps have a social science for a minor (like Psychology or Anthropology).
Go for it. This might sound cheesy af but I kinda believe in the whole "if your heart is into it and you try hard enough you can do it" type and while it's not always true I feel like if you see something that's in your capability and decide to do it, your heart and mind must be in as well to give you the drive to accomplish. I first realised this when I was back in high school. I hated French, maths and IGCSE in general but passed as an A- or B+ student and got C in french so not bad.
>Have you heard of websites like Coursera?
nope. maybe I should check it out. I dunno I'm the type of person who doesn't like to burden myself with information before I start something. It's just how I function and I don't know if it's a bad thing. I'm sort of just like "here's the information, complete it by this time"
>>27673206
My brother once went to a park and found two furries doing their usual saying hi to people being cute etc.
He said they were bro tier but as always, just weird as fuck
>>27673191
this. Honestly first impressions matter A LOT and if you fuck it severely you will never get another chance.
Also I always find it frustrating in shows where they focus on the painfully awkward/shy character, trivialise it and make it seem cute. In reality no it's not. Shying away from something means you are missing out on an opportunity and 99% of the time no ones gonna back your ass to partake in it again. But as always in the shows or whatever there is no major consequence. I feel like since it's so easy to let things slip by when shy people ignore it builds up and only after a long time they realise they've fucked up and wasted all that time running away when they could've been productive
>>27673288
I found that during my two semesters of university, I hit that dead feeling once I was super behind and I felt like there was no point in catching up since I didn't know the material. When I was upgrading my high school courses, I got >90% in ALL my courses. It was such a fantastic feeling, a feeling that I was hoping I was experience again at university. I found that there was nothing more motivating for me than consistently seeing A+ marks from all my tests coming back and striving to see them again. However, I believe that a major part of those high marks are because I've taken courses similar to them before, so that's why my marks were so high. That's what I'm thinking Coursera will help me with. I'm hoping that if I learn the stuff in Coursera first (which is free, by the way), then when I take them for real at a university, seeing those higher marks will give me that boost of motivation, thus preventing that dead feeling that I got.
Just so you know, Coursera is a website full of really popular high school and university courses, many of which are actually created by prestigious colleges and universities. You can take all courses for free, but you can also pay for the course which will then allow you to get a certificate at the end of the course to prove that you've essentially completed the course. The courses do have deadlines for their assignments, but they heavily stress on the fact that deadlines are more like guidelines. They won't fail you if you don't finish in time, allowing you to work on your own time (something the real world doesn't give).
I perhaps may have been projecting myself too heavily in your shoes since I don't actually fully understand your point of view on your apathy during university, so I answered on how I planned on fixing mine.
>>27672850
you're lazy. take adderall
>>27673608
ahaha no problem. Again if you feel comfortable with your approach of how you plan on solving your conundrum then by all means. By the sounds of it, you sound lightyears ahead more planned out and organised when it comes to your college life. The problem with me is I'm very black and white.
As a result when I rocked into university I was all like "whatever, I dunno what I'm doing" and so wasted it being aimless and not getting anything done. The problem is at the beginning I was like "Yeah! I'm gonna accomplish the shit outta this!" but then gradually I just lost interest. I feel like with you doing the coursera thing it's kind of eliminating that doubt feeling you know what I mean?
You will never belong.
This is why multiculturalism will never work.
All the people in that country were born there, raised there. Even total strangers have their homeland in common. They might not know each other, but they are countrymen.
You will never be apart of the club.
>>27673713
It certainly does feel that way. Even though I'm a white motherfucker, I grew up in Papua New Guinea and even though that place is a complete shithole, I still feel very at home at that place. I can speak the language (very easy to learn btw) and virtually all my good memories were there. Now I'm in another white ass country and I feel no different than a Somalian refugee in Sweden. I want everything to be like back at home and I want everyone to be like me
>>27673669
drugs are a no no. I become so unproductive
>>27673697
The problem is that I've started my Coursera courses 3 time now. Every time I haven't actually even finished the first units. I also plan on taking correspondence so it's actually possible for me to have a Science Major, but the last time I took correspondence, I had my brother do all my work just so I could hand it in in time. Whenever I do ANYTHING that requires self-discipline, I blow it. I've constantly tried working out many times in the past, but I could never keep it up longer than a couple of months.
A major problem that I have with myself is that I know EXACTLY what to do and how to do it, but I NEVER go through with it. I actually have had experience essentially being people's life coaches, helping people get through courses of their own and I've even helped someone get a girlfriend once. But then there's me, the hypocritical coach, the one who doesn't even follow his own advise.
That's why I really enjoy this job. It isn't 100% about self-discipline. It's WAAY easier to do things when there are people telling you what to do and having MANY eyes on you making sure you don't fuck up. Even though I have a terrible track record for attendance, which is essentially the only major self-discipline thing there is for me.
>>27673891
> Even though I have a terrible track record for attendance, which is essentially the only major self-discipline thing there is for me.
I guess maybe since you personally know the boss they might be a little bit more light on you? About a week again I was I think 2 mins late and my Korean boss berated me for ten minutes. He has very VERY high expectations.
I'm sorry I can't relate to your "being passive about your coursera thing since I've never been in a position in my life of bossing other people around. I've always been bossed by other people.
>>27672850
You should see a therapist.
If you're broke and live in America and can't afford it wait until you get enrolled in school and use the school therapist. That empty feeling is a symptom of depression and the same feel I had last year.
>>27672850
how many languages do you know, get some meme business qualification, learn a programming language and businesses will trip over each other to employ you so they have someone who can communicate with the natives in nonamericaland
>>27674007
I did when I was in uni but then my counsellor disappeared....it was very very strange
>>27674018
only 1 that's important
>>27674034
Do it again to see what happens. Perhaps talking to a professional will help you out. Here's an online website where you can talk to someone for free http://www.7cups.com/
And look up some mindfulness/ depression/ anxiety workbooks and go through them.
>>27673979
Holy shit, whoops. Sorry, I'm a little drunk, so many of my sentences may be totally fucked up. I meant to say that despite my terrible track record for attendance, I've NEVER been late or absent or anything for my work. The only thing that I actually need self-discipline for I'm actually succeeding in.
And really? I'm not quite certain what you mean by "bossing other people around", but I'm going to extrapolate that as "making decisions to do things yourself as opposed to having someone tell you what and how to do something".
If you take university, no one holds your hand and watches you study and make sure you learn the correct information. To go back on my hypocritical coach analogy, I've read TONS of how to be a successful student at universities so I know how to do it. Just that because it even requires an ounce of self motivation to do such a thing, I fuck it up hardcore. I don't want to go back to school for that very reason but I also desperately want to since I love the idea of being an academic.
Daily reminder that first generation integration is impossible
>>27674144
>http://www.7cups.com/
phew! I thought you were gonna bait me and send me CP or something.
The thing is I'm not in uni atm so I can't get free counselling and paying $44 for a consultation psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssh.
thanks for the website though.
>>27674211
elaborate pls I'm itchingly curious?
>>27674173
Oh i get it. You have a plan set out but actually DOING it is the hard part for you. I see.
>despite my terrible track record for attendance
> I've NEVER been late or absent or anything for my work
If your track record for attendance is bad, how can you say you've never been absent? for attendance you're either present or not
>>27674299
No problemo! It's a fairly solid website overall.
You can still get workbooks from torrents, and once you get back in school you can get yourself in to see one. Good luck and good feels brobot.
>>27674379
thanks. it means a tonne
>>27674316
All I mean is that it's impossible to truly become part of any given population if you're not born there (especially if you are a racial minority), and even the second generation will be inhibited by their parents. In most cases it takes a number of generations to successfully become part of a nationwide identity. The growing ennui of many western countries is in part due to both to the growing population of immigrants who are becoming less and less inclined to make an effort to abandon their past culture, along with the dilution of the culture of the former majority because of this same growth.
>>27674690
Ah I getcha. It's just sort of funny because I grew up very westernised but I don't feel New Zealander (that's the cunt I'm in btw). I mean I speak english, I like Star Wars and Nirvana, one of my favourite books is The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, I shitpost on 4chan etc but I just don't feel like I belong. I feel like even if I go to similar western countries like USA or Ireland I'd feel the same.
My home country isn't any help either. I didn't grow up there.
I basically a gypsy
>>27674368
I say I've been late to school more times than I have been on time. I try to hang out with my friends every weekend and I'm well known for being the one that everyone waits on. It is a bad habit that I've slowly been recovering from and it's definitely been vastly improved over the years. And I suppose I lied when I never said I was late for work. I was late twice in a row, but I have decent reasons for both of them. That still doesn't make me scared of falling into old habits and less.
Anyway, it's now the morning. I best be going to sleep now so I can wake up in the evening for my nightshift. Jeez, my sleep schedule is so backwards, haha. It was nice talking to you!
>>27675001
sleep tight fellow brobot
