Who here /nopassion/? My life is horrendously fucking boring.
>>27684083
Iktf
>Feels like my life has no meaning
>Everything I do is just so time passes
>No passion for anything, even though Ive tried pretty much everything
>So bored nowadays I watch porn just for the heck of it
>Tab out and in 4chan all day long, no threads/boards I find amusing
The fuck is this shit? Im a bit depressed due to boredom but come on
Am I having an existential crisis? Someone HELP
Everything is negative around me.
Try being positive, nope someone is there to give me negative things such as discussions or actions.
I don't give a shit anymore.
>bee yourself.
Yeah but nothing good came out of it. I can't wait to die.
>bad at everything
>don't care enough about anything to get good
>even my non-productive hobbies are getting boring
>no motivation to do anything
>don't want to work
>don't want to live
>just want to sleep
being a heroin addict doesn't sound too bad
>>27684402
This, except I have tried to get good at numerous things, but there's something wrong with me, no matter how long I stick with it, no matter how my approach I'm still shit at whatever I try to improve at. I don't have any "real" hobbies, I like anime and hentai but that's it. Until recently I couldn't even muster the motivation to watch anime, and I'm too depressed to fap again apparently because I haven't felt like actually pulling it out and fapping in weeks.
I don't want to work, I want to stop living but I don't want to die, because I am frightened, and it's not as easy as it seems without a large amount of pain.
>That feel when your dad yells at you for being without any sort of ambition or passion, implies you're going to get kicked outSorry for rambling
when i was a kid I thought my choices in life where kill myself or become successful and famous, mfrw I did neither
When I think really hard there are actually one or two things I kind of have a passion for.
I'm just too lazy to stick with a gym routine and I can't figure out how to capitalize on PC building. Also I'm scared to show my worthless lazy hide back at that gym. It's only proper gym around here.
>>27684083
So then change it
>>27684556
Holy shit, are you me anon?
Literally exact same scenario for me as well
Same here,i'm not even a robot but everything is dull.
The only thing keeping me feeling good is listening to Burial.
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>>27684556
Same here. I tried many things to get into it. But I lose very interest and motivation after at least two weeks for it. Everything becomes boring. Nowadays I don't even want to try out new things, because I already know they are boring, and when I actually do it, they become boring in less than 3 days. I have literally nohting in life that I enjoy.
I'm in university, physics major. But that shit fucking sucks. Just living to pass my exams, but I fucking hate it to be honest. I thought my 'interest' in physics is enough to study it. Nope, it sucks actually. That was my last hope in finding something I can really enjoy my whole life.
Vidya and anime just became a chore now and are just there to pass the time. But I can't even motivate myself to open up the stream, lay back, and actually watch anime. It's too much work for me.
But then, I also don't want to work and be a wageslave.
had sex once. Sex is fucking overrated. Nothing I crave for.
Have some actually good friends, but even meeting up with them, having some drinks, and chill out feels like a chore. Can't even enjoy that anymore.
I don't know. It's done guys. Living makes no fucking sense for me anymore. I just find everything boring. I actually don't want to live anymore. But killing myself is too much, too.
Same... I think i'm like an asexual or something. I have no interest in work or sex or love or friends or anything really. I started drinking heavily and trying some hallucinogens to alleviate it but those got boring too.
>make $60k salary at a job that requires little actual work but is unfulfilling as fuck
>literally get paid to sit in a cube for 8 hours and breathe the stale office air
>unfireable as long as I do the bare minimum amount of work
>the entire past year seems like it just disappeared
>staring at the clock every day waiting for my life to go by so I can drive home
>took a week off over Christmas and that one week relaxing felt like 8 weeks at work
>daydream of quitting and actually doing something I enjoy
I think I'd rather try to start a business and fail than continue to deal with this bullshit. All I need is like $24k/year net profit to cover my living expenses.
I have a few beehives and people will pay a lot for local, organic honey. I could also make candles, skin products, candies, and mead. The only problem is I would need to quit my job and take a leap of faith at this in order to expand to that point. I would also probably go a couple of years not making any profit at all due to startup costs of expansion.
I dunno. I'm socking away like $1500 per month right now. So every month I work is roughly a month I could spend unemployed trying to build my business. I dunno. It's just so much more appealing to fail on my own terms than to play on someone else's.
I just want to find something in life I can do that sticks, and someone in life I can stick to.
I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I'm very sticky. You are rubber, I am glue.
>>27685107
Listening to music is literally the only thing giving me joy these days.
Never related to so many reaponses in my life. I have no passion, my dreams died a long time ago, I dont go out and chase pussy or stay home and hone a craft, I just drift down the river of life. Smoking meth and risky behaviour get me going every now and again but Its not something I can do everyday.
>>27685455
Give Burial a try dude.I enjoy staying late at night when everyone is asleep in my flat with some dim lighting in the room listening to Come Down to Us.
yea well, it's worse when you do have a passion and realize you can't do anything worth a shit with it and all you know is how mediocre you are compared to others at it, and you will never be anywhere near their level.
>not good at anything
>have been like this all my life
>don't know what to do with my life
>can't stick to any routine like going to the gym even though I like lifting
>have never felt true success in anything
My only goal in life as of now is to get better at shooting. That's it.
>>27685138
>mfw menial tasks start to become a chore
>>27685414
>I have a few beehives and people will pay a lot for local, organic honey.
In my town growing up, there was this old man that had bee hives and made honey candies and sold a shit ton of them at local schools.
It was soft honey inside a hard flavored shell. One of my favorite candies, but no big candy mfg sells those.
I had a college professor that mfgs candies like old fashion flavored gummies and caffeine infused chocolates. He had those distributed regionally in walgreens.
>>27684083
Just find someone who suits you OP. You don't need to befriend with anyone, or having so many skill, just try to be a friend with that 'right person'.
For example, if you're an INFJ like me (if you're into that MBTI thing), befriend with an INFP or ENFP person.
It usually helps me a lot, makes me a lot happier and positive in life.
I just wish I had money, then I could find some passions in life. But I have no drive or confidence in my ability to find and maintain jobs.
Maybe that's just the thinking of a poor person, as when I'd get the necessary funds, my thinking and lifestyle will change and new problems will arise.
>>27684556
You being kicked out will help you, hopefully your dad cares enough to do just that.
>>27684083
iktf too well, everything is boring and I can't find anything I love besides vidya, nothing constructive
Heres a song for you anon's
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN-vbMeJBHA
Pretty much every Sunday for me
>>27685575
>get better at shooting
You know it's not that difficult to shoot yourself, right?I feel exactly the same, anon. Why the fuck can't I feel motivated to do anything?
>>27684083
>tfw want to get into outdoor activities like fishing and camping
>pale as the dickens, allergic to everything natural, and hate being outside
rekt
>>27685519
Wannabe-filmmaker here.
>born without money or connections
>self hatred turns to doubt in everything I ever try to make
>not even an American
If someone gave me $100,000, a camera and some ways to get decent actors I would make something hopefully great. Why the fuck couldn't I have been passionate about drawing or writing for fucks sake.
I was just like that for something like three or four years, but luckily I think I found a chance to grow out of this limbo. It is possible, so keep trying.
>>27685988
What type of stuff do you want to make?
The world could use a decent horror film
>>27685988
too bad that you don't live here, I could become an actor for your sake
>>27686050
A horror film would be great, I have a few ideas brewing inside my head that would make for something pretty good. What I would never want to be is just another Tarantino-like "pulpy" indie filmmaker.
My dream is to make a small cult hit that people admire so I can have something to be proud off. Just one would do, I'd be fine going into wageslavery after it.
>>27686051
I really wish I did. I'm a Britfag (who should really get the fuck to bed, I've got work tomorrow and it's 1am) and fucking hell if your aspirations are any greater than "run your own handyman firm" you're out of luck.
At least you Americans have a little actual opportunity, we have jack-shit. We're this entire thread if it manifested itself as a country.
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original comment also
living is just so tiring
there's nothing that makes me want to keep going except fear of death
if I could live permanently in a dream or something I'd do it
>>27686168
Sorry, by what I meant with "here" in this particular instance isn't America either, since I live in Sweden. By the standards on /r9k/ though, it could be worlds apart.
>>27686325
Ah, I see anon. I'm pretty sure it's better there than here, anyway.
>>27685929
>live in Miami
>want to get into things like biking, climbing, shooting on public land
>not a fucking mountain in sight
anyone else not afraid to talk to girls, but literally has nothing to talk about?
all i do is go on 4chan and go to the gym and dude weed. i struggle to make a conversation go past a few lines
>>27686676
it's a combination of both
I'm afraid because I have nothing to say
>>27684083
I tried so many things because I hoped that spark would come. At first new things are fun. But then, as soon as I get the basic gist of it, I think of it as "done" or "solved". I'm definitely not a craftsman. As soon as I figure it out I'm done with it.
I still keep going because I secretly hope that there's some kind of job for people like me, that one day the curtain will lift and someone will tell me "ACTUALLY, we are desperately looking for people like you". But I also know that such positions will only be accessible to people with advanced education and connections.
>>27686676
I know how to, but I am unable since my hobbies are not very popular and I don't want to talk about them (anime and games).
Also, I'm not very funny and I can't banter for shit.
This is why I do drugs
It's not the reason why I started doing drugs, I was just a curious teenager,
but holy fuck my life would be soo fucking boring if I didn't have drugs to lighten up my day
My life is boring too but I feel alright about it. I'd be perfectly fine if I could just take it easy everyday.
>>27684402
Heroin sounds good now but wait til you're broke living in a cardboard box and getting fucked up the ass for drug money
>>27686952
ideally I'd just take enough to kill me
>>27684083
I have never known passion. At best, I know obsession. I will squeeze until there is nothing left.
>>27686315
>if I could live permanently in a dream or something I'd do it
Same
Not that much related, but, often being bored I did mushrooms, and it actually made me feel like I could find a passion in growing shrooms, any kind.
But then again, I still don't have enough motivation to get started.
>>27686862
>play some games
>can't even talk about them because it's autistic games you would be embarassed if they even knew them
I relate to almost every post itt. What's fucked up is I'm young as hell too, just turned 19. I don't know where the hell it changed, but sometime I just stopped caring about everything. Just completely apathetic and unmotivated. Not sure what to do really.
Only reason I haven't just offed myself is because I wouldn't want to fuck up my parents life. That might change though, I can only live like this for so long.
>>27687755
How do you "grow" mushrooms anyway?
They don't really have seeds so do you just sprinkle some spores in a damp dark box of soil and let them grow that way?
Growing different plants sounds like fun, maybe even "growing" minerals over time
Most hobbies like this are just as obscure as vidya though so I doubt it would enrich your social life much unless you found some other people that do it locally
>>27687960
Not that guy, but I have grown them before. You get spores online, they come in a syringe of water. You make a substrate for them to grow in. When I did it it was with brown rice flour and vermiculite. You sterilize the substrate in some jars, then inject the spore water. Then wait a few weeks and the jars will have colonized with mycellium. Then you take em out and put them in a container. Keep the humidity high, and refresh the air once a day and boom, mushrooms. It's pretty easy, just have to be really careful to keep everything sterile. The conditions that mushrooms grow well in are also ideal for mold.
bored of running
bored of vidya
bored of manga
bored of gunpla
bored of tv
bored of music
bored of everything
bored of boxing
bored of lifting
bored of painting
bored of vydia
bored fapping
bored of music
bored of school
bored of eating
bored of sleeping
bored of life
>>27687960
Yeah, but could still be good to lessen boredom.
>>27688760
>bored of music
Nigga what? I find new shit everyday. Unless you like rap, then I can see how you can get bored (since its always the same shit [monotone lyrics about the same shit]).
>>27687916
I learned something the other day that helped with this
You need to have something that you go do that you sometimes feel like its a chore
Before for me it was high school, dreaded going but still persevered
Its the action of going against this resistance that builds willpower and motivation, kinda like building a habit I guess
Recently been waking up not wanting to go to college classes and the more I force myself through the resistance of hating it gets easier every time
This probably sounds like bs or rambling, I suck at explaining shit but if you get it I hope it helps
>>27684083
You need to keep trying new things. How the fuck are you going to find a new hobby if you don't go searching for one?
Buy a violin off eBay for $80, gives you the case and all. That's what I did last year and i'm glad. Or buy a piano keyboard, maybe one that lights up for super easy mode.
>>27689722
Not him, but it makes sense indeed. Currently I'm working on a three page essay due tomorrow that I had two weeks to do. I'm noticing that if I pull this one off today the other assignments I receive in the future will seem way more feasible.
>>27689809
Got pretty good with essays
I just do a paragraph a day, really easy to focus if I know it will only take me about 20-40 minutes a day
Introductions and conclusions are cakewalks as well and that just makes it even better, anything less than 2000 words is pretty small to me now
I have a paper due end of this month that I haven't started yet though, I need to get that running soon
>>27689789
Been considering getting into soldering or calligraphy, anything that I could use to steady my hand
An instrument like a piano would be something I could get behind as well but I don't know a single bit of music theory/can't read sheet music or notes
Shit this thread is gaping a fucking hole in my heart. It hurts too much.
Recently ive been on amazon shopping for books trying to find something interesting to get into.
>learning korean books
>herbs
>apothocary books
>fantasy
>outdoors stuff
i feel like living in a communist country wouldnt be so bad because id just be given a job and id be happy with it.
Low motivation and attention span here. I've been diagnosed with ADHD but honestly I stopped believing that shit exists. Everyone can be a bit ADHD at times, and prescribed stimulants would help E V E R Y O N E.
Anyways yeah, I wish I could focus more on learning languages or something. That's /one/ thing I've always been interested in. I just struggle immensely and give up easily. The most I've done was learn the Korean alphabet, but that's super easy.
Who here /tired of these tumblrinas/? Why do you pathetic piles of garbage insist on ruining our board with your depression threads? Tumblr exists so that autists of your calibur can go wallow in their depression together. I'd figure you'd guys get tired of this and go to the site that's already been predetermined for your kind.
>>27691782
>shitposting an hour after the thread died
kek, forgot I was in this thread
>>27691895
I like to call it sloppy seconds.
I wish I had something to work toward. I have no goals or dreams, not even a job that interests me that I could pursue. The only thing that keeps me above the depression cloud is the hope life will get better and something will interest me.
>be 8 years old
>people ask "what do you want to be when you grow up?"
>have no idea, nothing interests me
>that's okay, I'll figure it out before I'm a grown up!
>12 years later
>I'm a grown up
>still don't want to be anything
>>27692003
>that picture
gondola is the absolute best meme of the past year holy shit I'm crying
Why do some of us lack the passion for life shit. Back when I was kid, I would always love to watch discovery channel, read wikis for hours straight. Even video games don't seem like a chore back then. Life was all about discovering back then. But when college happened, shit went down hill. In restrospect, I guess I was too heavily invested my time into playing videogames and manga instead of planning out what's my next step in life is going to be. Sorry for the blogpost but I just want to share my anecdote
>>27685107
Ahhh shit Nigga
We're you the one that posted that favorite album rate thread? Sorry if I big you lol I just have some burial shit
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WxsSb-YjMYM
>pick up a hobby
>sometimes spend money on it if it requires it
>lose total interest after a few weeks
>rinse and repeat
>>27684083
I was like you anon, but then I got a job.
And then I started playing DnD.
And then I started buying whores.
Then I got sadder.
I'm too scared to go to university. I can't think of a career that would hold my attention. There's just nothing I care about, I'm a fucking loser.
>>27692117
I can relate to this on so many levels. If the internet of today existed in any form back when I was a kid it would be literally impossible for me to be bored. Now as an adult all the internet can do is distract me in short bursts from how dull my life is.
>>27684083
Who here /neosporin/? Anybody around here use neosporin? I use a whole shitload of it are you kidding me? I use it to wash my hands I use it to wash the insides of my ears, I use it for many things. Anyone else here?
Nostalrius was the only thing I cared about for the longest time.
Guess it's time to kill myself now.
>>27693416
I have the same idea. It was all I had to make me happy. Feel bad.
>>27684083
I literally (LITERALLY) don't care about anything, I failed 3 out of 5 classes last semester and when I looked at my grades I didn't care at all. I used to care back in junior highschool, maybe even a little in highscool but I just stopped at one point.
It's been 4-5 years that I've gone without any friends at all, I've spent pretty much every single day either at school or in front of my pc. It goes without saying that I've never had a gf either, I've never even had the nerve to 'approach' a girl in my life, I still can't comprehend how some people do it or that some people are having sex right now and it's normal/routine for them. Still, I care about none of that, I have no drive to go and make new friends and even if I did I wouldn't know how.
I can't see my life changing in the future, unless someone else changes it for me but that only happens in fiction
>>27685138
>ad sex once. Sex is fucking overrated. Nothing I crave for.
Thats normal for your first time, it gets amazing once you get good at it
>>27685107
Does he still make music?
>tfw listening to archangel
>>27691782
I can't handle how new you are
>>27684083
Mind follows body.
Time to find a new routine buddy
Why can't children appreciate the still and quiet?
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>>27685575
My god I'm relating so heavily right now.
Except the last guy with the shooting
>>27694651
This too. Christ.
Honestly are we people that are destined for suicide? You always hear "Those that are just meant to be alone", and I can only imagine we'll all end up snapping and killing ourselves.
>>27694758
There is none. You have to go to school, then have to go to work so you barely have time for yourself and can't enjoy a thing. Then you retire when you're too old and so used to wageslaving that you literally don't know what to do with free time.
Life is a fucking joke...
>>27685421
Haha goddamnit
>>27687916
Same here anon. In my experience you you have to just start doing something, even if its not productive. Any sort of movement helps me think
Fucking pussyass white boys lmao, kill yourselves
