Any 30 year old robots here?
I've been neeting for 10 years until I got this low-tier accounting job for an american corporation two years ago, finally became financially independent, can afford modest living in a rented apartment.
I'll be thirty in two months and its slowly getting to me, how much time I've lost, I work with people who are five years younger than me. I kinda like this job because its autist shit involving lots of numbers and spreadsheets so I'm pretty good at it, even got promoted to a specialist but the third decade is getting to me big time.
No gf, five friends who are all getting married and earn way more than I do and worst of all the realization that now its all downhill - in 10 years I will actually start getting dumber.
As a NEET I thought I have all the time in the world until I woke up one new year morning heard the clock ticking and went into full panic mode, thats when I got this job.
I'm seriously thinking about suicide, not now, not in years but probably when I'm 40+, I'm gonna be that guy who blows his brains out.
I am now realizing how important family is, that normies will die in the warmth of their own home with families and loving grandchildren. My parents probably have 10 years of life left and they are all I have and love.
How you handling this shit robats?
>>26866299
>he has a real job and education
>>26866299
Im in worse shape than you OP, and I dont think it is going to get better. I would like to hear some success stories if any older robobros have them.
Anyway, things are not going well. Im almost half way through 28, and life sucks.
I went to a crummy state college in a poor area of California, graduated with honors, but I earned a worthless BA in political science, so Im back home, and have a near min wage job in the hospitality industry. All my coworkers are 18-22. I make $11/hour, so I can't even afford to have much of a life.
I never had many friends, and now I have none. My high school and college friends have all moved on, and now they're all back packing around the world, getting their law degrees, or making $60+k a year. I just can't seem to move into a half decent job despite my good marks.
>TFW no gf
is also pretty hard to deal with to when you're a 28 year old khv. I know there are a lot of people in shitty relationships, but I really wish I couldve had fun or some sort of half decent relationship in my 20s.
>>26866299
I'm almost 30 as well and the crushing realization that I will die alone hit me like a fucking brick.
I want to kill myself but I'm too scared to do it. Every time you wake up you go a little more downhill. It only gets a little worse.
>>26867660
OP here you know what hit me the hardest?
I have a cute girl at work, she's an associate, 22, a few rungs down from myself but I enjoy her company. She's smart, she's doing well at the job (some people just don't, we sometimes fire chads and stacies who think they are hot shit but they are just crap at accounting and cause fuckups repeatedly), doesn't act slutty, has a fun personality.
So we're talking one day in the kitchen and someone had birthday so we always have a small party when that happens ( I never do these because you say a speech and shit) and she casually asks me how old I am and I said 29.
She was stunned by this, and not like I wanted anything with her because she's way out of my league but her stunned expression hit me like a freight train - it told me she considers people my age to be old and that she's planning to be way ahead of where I am at that point and that this is not possible in any remote way.
It really got to me, I think that was the first moment when I realized I am in fact getting old, that there's an age gap between me and young people now.
I'm the kind of robot that is generally liked but not good enough to ever score.
>>26866299
31, newly single, but shit career. I'm going back to school for a year. At this point it's wgaf
I turn 32 in a couple weeks.
I make a little over 81 base, but my gf doesn't want to have kids. I love her, but my dad died in 2014 and I could see in his eyes that his great comfort as he slipped away was the love of his wife and children. I don't want to die alone, and I worry sometimes about whether my gf's on the same page.
>>26867851
damn anon wish you the best
>>26867851
man 40 is about the cutoff age for kids so you still have time
give it a year or two and if she's still not down dump her. You really need kids and family, its hardwired into people.
>>26866299
Honestly I'm 32 and never had a gf. It's been my dream to have a big family and lots of kids. It feels like an uphill battle sometimes. I don't know how this comes so easy to some people.
I also went back to college last year. Surprisingly I'm never the oldest in class.
I am only 26, but on the same road as you, OP.
Far worst for me is that only guys I work with are either really young people who are working here while on university (I couldn't never afford that) or really old ones before the pension.
What is worse, that this is Eastern Europen. I earn nearly three dollars/hour. Three. Shifts are 12 and 14 hours long, so no life whatsoever.
I currently see only solution to fix my teeth and leave for the French Foreign Legion
How the fuck did you a low-tier accounting job after ten years of NEETdom?
Does this mean I should actually be applying for associate accounting positions despite not having the exact training or credentials? (I've taken accounting classes in college).
>>26867820
I feel you. That's kind of what I was trying to say at the end of my post.
At my job, I get to see the 18-22 year olds getting into these summertime romances each year. There's all this hooking up going on, and I'm not even on the radar.
I recently talked to my supervisor, and got another dose of bad feels. She's the same age as me, and not aging well. She's nice and cute (despite a horrible ankle tattoo), but I feel emasculated whenever I see here because she makes like 5 times as much as I do even though she went to a similar school and majored in English literature. I also really feel like all I get to look forward to now is 30+ year old single moms and used up sluts. And that's if I somehow get a good job and move out.
It's painful.
>>26868202
Yes. HR people are fucking retards. They write job postings in the same way children write Christmas lists. Go for it
>>26868202
I'm east european and western corps have been outsourcing here like crazy for the past ten years
I got hired because my english is decent, they also required some math and excel tests, being a sperg I'm good at these
I work with americans every day and I really think you should look into it as the low level positions don't really require education. Just don't even apply to Accounts Receivable or Collections, that shit is for chad and stacy.
I just googled it and an american Accounts Payable analyst earns 45k a year and you probably get promoted within a year or two for better pay. General Ledger is even better for autists but they are likely to require education there as its a bit more complicated than the other two branches
>>26866299
>low-tier accounting job
What's the job title specifically? I've been trying to get one of these for months and I keep getting rejected.
>>26867820
Fucking hell man this post is exactly how I feel...
I feel like I've somehow missed an important part of my life by being in coma or some shit and I've recently woken up with a slap to the face.
>>26866299
30 here. KV. I'm an auditor for the government. Most of the people I work with are older than me (I started out of college at 23) so I don't really get that "outta time" feeling, but I hate it here and plan on killing myself once my parents die. The work is easy but it zaps my brain. the money doesn't really mean anything, but if I didn't have the job I'd be out on the streets in a year or so. I fell for the "mortgage and new car" meme and have payments to make, otherwise I'd go neet. wagecucking is horrible and it will be the death of me.
>>26866299
Getting older only starts to fuck with you if you're lagging behind your peers in terms of achievements.
I'm 28 and until I three years ago I was overweight, working shitty jobs, college dropout and still living with parents. Then things started falling into place and I'm doing much better. I plan to have my own house by this time next year.
It also doesn't hurt that since losing the weight I now look ten years younger than I really am. I flirt with college qt's all the fucking time now.
>>26868601
How did things start falling into place?
I have a worthless degree and several years of shit job work experience, but a lot of the places I worked at went under, or the staff changed, so I dont have any references. My struggle has gotten me nowhere.
>>26866299
The suicide epidemic is being driven by single, white men about 30 years of age or older. The only reason half of suicidal people don't kill themselves is because they know the people that count on them will feel bad about it. When they have no one who depends on them, well, there's really no reason not to do it.
>>26866299
Yeah but I work on and off low paying jobs and go to free college programs but I am usually NEET.
I am 29 turning 30 in a month. I have lost all family and relatives besides my mother.
>>26868214
>tfw 32 years old
>never had gf
>*finally* get girls interested in me. FUCKING FINALLY.
>they're ALWAYS single moms, or divorced moms with children
ARE YOU SHITTING ME, UNIVERSE?
LITERALLY WHY
29 here.
Had a job with decent wage and rented an apartment. Lost job and had to move back home with my mom who's driving me fucking insane with her own problems. It's been around 9 months and I can't get a fucking job. I have an interview tomorrow. I'm hoping I won't bomb it.
Most people I know are getting married and buying homes. I don't talk to much people since everyone is busy with their own shit and I don't want to be the token loser friend.
I've also thought about killing myself. Tbh, I didn't even think I'd live to be 29 since I thought to myself I'd probably kill myself by the time I'm 27. Everyday feels like I'm closer to gassing myself.
>>26868479
I'm an Accounts Payable analyst, basically we oversee outgoing funds transfers and make sure people get paid.
AP, AR and GL are all heavily outsourced in america, at least by the fortune 500 companies but there should be plenty of lesser companies that still hire stateside.
With the bigger corps, look into Purchasing or Sourcing, these are good jobs too and mostly US based.
>>26866299
27, feeling the same, quarter life crisis hit me like a truck.
I thought working in something i liked would make me more motivated... it didnt.
all my heart wants is a nice girl that puts up with my shit, a feeling of being wanted by someone.
i coulnd give less of a shit about sex at this point . . .fuck
>>26868700
Just marry a Vietnamese girl or some shit. They'll hop on you just for being American.
Your only problem, OP, is that you're having a sort of quarter-life crisis 5 years late. You're letting this age thing get to you and so you're 'caving' to the world's demands (which only exist because people pursuing the wind want to convince you to do the same so they can feel better about their belief that they happen to be relatively better at this game than you).
'Achievement' and 'status' are absolutely empty things. The only reason to pursue them is to impress others, others who will also face death eventually. Just find a way to make your life as meaningful and happy as it can be. Adopt a pet or a boy (most unadopted children are boys because of preference for girls) and show them your love if you REALLY need a relationship with another human for now.
We have everything to look forward to come the resurrection of the dead.
>>26868763
Look at this bitter, entitled virgin who demands women! You fucking misogynist pig, you're the reason the patriarchy still rules us.
>>26868763
>That moment of happines when you achieve it.
>That very quickly returning feeling of emptiness and being purpose-less.
>That moment when you are alone again and now with the knowledge that being with a woman will not fix it.
This society sucks as no society before it. With all our luxury, all our possibilities, all our fun, we lack one most important thing - reason to live, to help build something bigger than ourselves. There is nothing to live for, to fight for. Hell, there is even nothing to die for. That is worst.
>>26868700
This is what hurts the most about still being alone past your mid 20s. Once you get old enough, every woman around your age is going to be jaded with men and raising another man's child(ren).
It's fun to turn the table on dating sites and reject all the desperate, post-wall single moms desperately looking for providers but that doesn't do much to solve the crushing loneliness.
>>26868656
Please explain to me how a person who isn't planing on killing himself can be suicidal
>>26868843
God Emperor Trump gives me a reason to get out of bed and improve myself a little every day. That's my reason to live.
>>26869000
They are, they just don't go through with it because they think about their parents finding their corpse or some shit.
>>26869062
I looked up the definition and you are full of shit
>>26869154
Fucking kills yourself nigger
>>26868410
True true. I ised to fee real bad about not being qualified for anything, so my dad let me look at the ad his company put out for a job that I actually did work with over a summer. I read this description of a job I've done AND DID NOT EVEN RECOGNIZE IT, it sounded like some rocket-science level shit from the description and demands on knowledge, experience, etc. Job itself was actually a fucking breeze, though.
>>26869183
I'm not the suicidal 30 year old virgin here
Except you are not even suicidal at all are you?
You are just looking for attention
>>26868650
tbhfam, I tried to join the military when I was 25 and failed miserably. But those 10 weeks of pain did something to me where now I'm a fully functional member of society and not a spoiled fucking brat.
I've had both co-workers and family walk up to me and tell me I'm a completely different person since trying to enlist.
I guess the only way I can describe it is they beat some sense into me.
[spoilers]or brainwashed me. Several recruits in the discharge unit laughed at me and said I was a sheep. but they were niggers so who cares[/spoilers]
>>26869370
and apparently I can't into spoiler. fuckme
I turn 30 this year and... I just don't know. It's like at this point my life can either become awesome or go to complete shit and I have no idea how to control it. I'm working part-time as with customer support and have basically zero experience at anything else, and people around me are either old loser women in their 50s or young people in their early 20s doing their first job. I'm doing a PhD at the same time, got a fee waiver but make no money from it (hence the job), but I had to take a break for a while because I can't deal with it due to my crippling depression. Tried killing myself last week and wound up in the hospital. Second attempt, first was last year. I have a gf but our relationship is shit, she's a complete bitch sometimes and honestly it was her crap that pushed me to try to kill myself. She's depressed to, though, and I dunno sometimes she's a completely different person, very sweet and supportive and kind. Two weeks I had no money to buy food or pay rent and had to beg the goverment for NEET-bucks but was denied cause I don't qualify due to technically being a student. Two days ago I got big grant, and am set economically for the rest of the year. It's like life can go from disaser to awesome and back to disaster in a matter of days, it's like the world's worst rollercoster. And if I don't complete by PhD and get a job from that I am fucked...
>>26869400
>highlight whatever you want to spoiler
>ctrl + S
