Anyone else feel calm about the fact they will kill themselves soon? I realized there is no reason not to and I won't be around for the fallout. It makes me happy to know it will all be over soon. No more worrying about the future, etc, just darkness now.
>>26594394
>feel calm about the fact they will kill themselves soon
I'm sort of calmed about it, but I realise I don't 100% want to die. If I did, I'd have already killed myself. I'm waiting on one last thing. Something I've worked so hard for for years. If I get it, I live. If I don't get it, I'll kill myself.
So I'm definitely not calm about shit that's related to my goal, but everything else I am. Someone smashed into my car the other day, really dinged the fuck out of it. Didn't give a fuck. Actually have no problem talking to people now, who cares if I make a dick of myself, I'll be dead soon. Fucked a hooker in the ass a few weeks back because I always wanted to try anal and if I get caught, fuck it, who cares.
>>26594428
how much did that anal cost?
I feel you, anon. Couple months ago my car had a catastrophic engine failure. Pulled it off the rode and walked home, no fucks given. These things just don't matter in comparison. People in my life wonder how I got to be so confident. A few different people at my college commented on how optimistic and confident I am. One said I was very extroverted.
lol. I have spent the previous 3 years agoraphobic in my parents house. Full on NEET. I'm 30 and haven't made a friend since sunday school class at 5 years old. I know no one likes or talks to me unless they see a use in me and I resent that so much but can't help needing that little bit of attention.
Truth is I just don't care about a lot of things when I know I'm going to kill myself sometime soon.
>>26594838
>how much did that anal cost?
$170
>A few different people at my college commented on how optimistic and confident I am. One said I was very extroverted.
Yeah, that's the best way I'd describe it. The only other time I was like this was when I was about to leave the country and go live overseas (at the time, I thought that was a permanent thing). Would have no problems asking a girl out because, fuck it, I'd be gone in 2 weeks time. The second I moved I was back to my old self.
But now at least I'm back to that confident self again.
>survival instinct always kicks in when you try to do it
every fucking time
have to drive without a seatbelt myself
I've decided that by the time I turn 25 (currently 21) and I'm not happy with my life, then I'm going to kill myself. I'll likely do it in a quick and painless way.
>>26594838
>Truth is I just don't care about a lot of things when I know I'm going to kill myself sometime soon.
I feel the same way, but it's because I know I'm going to die eventually so why give a fuck?
>>26594394
The only thing keeping me alive currently is following a women's college basketball team. If they don't win the championship this year, I'm done. My favorite player recently got into the starting lineup due to an injury to a starter but now she's back as a reserve. She gets 20 minutes per game though.
If by 2017 i don't get a gf or even a kiss from a female i'm killing myself
>>26594893
Try hanging yourself
>buy a solid rope to hang yourself
>tie hands and legs
>put your favorite music in yiur earphones
>push the chair
>close your eyes and accept your death
>>26596006
Where do I hang myself from? Asking for a friend
>>26596110
If you don't have any strong exposed beams, I recommend getting a hammer, climbing onto a step ladder, and making holes in your ceiling until you find one.
>>26596006
>>tie hands and legs
how the fuck do you tie your own hands and legs?
>>26595630
ill kiss you anon, where you at?
>>26596827
he probably means females without dicks
