>be me
>15
>inb4 underage b& I'm 18 now
>Advanced algebra class
>friends with a fellow robot in the class
>he's friends with this girl, E.
>16
>pretty physically unnatractive
>short ass hair, very manly, has thickish peach fuzz across her lip, extraordinarily small tits (but also extraordinarily hot small tits)
>really funny and cute personality, very smart, and mature as hell. She was confident, and rather boyish in personality.
>didn't know I liked manly chicks back then so I kinda just thought "wow a cool girl I can finally be friends with without falling in love with and having to be super embarrassed when she rejects my mildly autistic attempts at flirting"
>She has a boyfriend who browses 4chan (lol).
>The three of us do a group project together, so I get to know E pretty well.
>Fellow robot comes out as bi, but assures me he doesn't find me attractive
>I say why not lol
>we all laugh
>E says she thinks I am very attractive due to my facial symmetry and high cheekbones
>off to summer where we don't talk again til next school year
>Next year we meet again somehow (don't remember the details)
>start talking more
>apparently she used to smoke alot of weed and do lots of psychedelics (mostly illegal, some research chems)
>be very new to drugs
>only smoked weed like 3 times
>I ask her to introduce me to her dealer because I didn't know any
>we start smoking weed together all the time
>People assume we are dating
>she has a different boyfriend now
>didn't think I was attracted to her sexually so I didn't care
>one day she wears a collar to school
>Don't find her physically unnatractive at all anymore
>erectasfuck
>still think we are just friends though and have no inclinations to change anything about our relationship.
>she becomes my best friend, sober or high.
>not really going to go into the shit we did while sober because it was usually just walking around and talking
>come to think of it that's all we ever did sober or high (I guess we played some videogames too)
>One day she is over at my house smoking weed with me
>She asks me to take a bath with her in my huge ass tub
Ok... don't punch your monitor but...
>I refuse
>On account of her having a boyfriend
Holy fucking shit I want to kill myself
>next day
>"yo why did you ask to take a bath with me what the fuck?"
>"IDK it wasn't a sexual thing"
>
>"Well hit me up if you break up with your boyfriend"
>"Ok"
>fast forward quite a few months
>we still hang out together as much as possible
>many sexual innuendos and jokes
>I bet you she talked to me more than her boyfriend, who lived out of town
>Ask her for nudes on my phone one night because I wanted to jerk off to someone I knew
>She refuses (I found out wayy later [from M lol] that she was with her sister M that night, and M convinced her not to send them)
>start falling in love with E, think about her every night
>being with her is the only part of my day that isn't shitty
>I find out one day that she has found a mushroom connect
>We trip that weekend
>The entire time is just me being paranoid that she is having a bad time
>her pores breathe in a way that "looks" like love feels, we both feel moist to the touch (we are tripping balls)
>after a couple hours of hanging out she feels really inspired to write her college application essays
>she leaves to go do that
>I start feeling incredibly lonely, so I just go hang out with my best male friend (A) and smoke some kush
>next day E says how paranoid she was that I was having a bad time and we exchanged a laugh when I said the same thing
>apparently doing college apps on shrooms in front of her parents sucked (no shit)
Ok sorry for rambling. Just fast forward some amount of time now I guess.
>one day we hung out in a park, sober, and talked for a few hours
>bunch of philosophy conversations
>we interact at an intellectual level that I have yet to experience with another human being
>she drives me home
>As we round the corner to my house, I say "I have to tell you something" really quiet
>"what?"
>"nothing"
>"no tell me"
>"I fucking love you"
>"I love you too, but..."
>"break up with your boyfriend"
>"...platonically"
>start crying as soon as I say that I love her
>She said that she used to have a crush on me but just assumed I wasn't interested
>"If only you had said this before I started dating (boyfriend)"
God damn it I fucking couldn't have because we didn't talk over summer. Why didn't we talk over summer? FUCK! I loved her this whole time, how come I couldn't see it sooner? FUCK! Fuck me for being blind, fuck her for not talking to me over summer, and fuck her for not fucking me.
Fuck me for not fucking her.
Oh, and while we're at it: FUCK YOU
>Everything calms down.
>I tell her we shouldn't hang out anymore
>She is really sad
>She hugs me
>Smoke the most weed
>Depressed as fuck
>Make it like two days before I call her and we start hanging out again
>slowly I start always being the one providing weed
>slowly she stops paying for her own meals
>I don't notice for a while
>honestly I have no problem dropping money on her as long as she isn't asking for it or it isn't a condition of us hanging out
>We dip out of school at lunch all the time to a burger joint across the street
>I offer to pay usually
>One day her boyfriend comes to school with her to sell MDMA to us
>He's at the table I sit at with all my mates trying to peddle his shit
>$5 dollar a pop for unknown dosage of molly in a clear unmarked pill
>lol
>fuck off m8
>nobody buys shit because we get pressed pills of 200+ mg pure MDMA whenever we want for like $15 and we are not fiends
>E asks me over to talk to her away from her boyfriednd
>Kind of excited because I don't know what to expect
>You wanna take me to (burger joint)?
>lol
>fuck off m8
>tell her to piss off with her drug dealing boyfriend
>don't talk to her for a couple months
>eventually I forgive her
>Start hanging out again
>Wrote a relly cringey poem basically saying how she is like an apple that is just out of the way of your fingers on a tree in a deserted island
>pretty damn eloquent though (much more eloquent than this peice of shit writing, because I was sober and took like two days making it)
>She thanks me for it for some reason
>Always get really mixed signals from her
>She always leans into me when we walk
>To the point where she has driven me off the sidewalk
>God damn I love this girl
Why does everything hurt?
>Eventually when we sit next to eachother I try to kiss her
>She leans away but I didn't know what this meant at the time (despite being 16 I had only ever kissed one other girl, and she didn't wan't to date me either. A good chance she would have fucked me though if she didn't get grounded for taking heroin)
>Kiss her on the cheek
>She freaks out
>I desperately try to get her to break up with her bf
>She says we can't hang out
Ouch. I am a terrible person
>Have a panic attack in my graphic design class which was right after that lunch period
>nothing is real
>everything is shit
>there is no point to anything
>get excused from class because I am on the verge of tears and freaking out
>Start crying
>heart pounding
>claustrophobic outdoors
>go home to lay down
>hit pillows
>slam head into bed repeatedly
>FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
My memory gets a bit hazy after this point. I started smoking weed every morning, dipping out at lunch to smoke more, going over to A's house after school to smoke bongs and hash and dabs, and after eating dinner with my parents I would go into my room and smoke more. Sometimes I would smoke weed at school too.
I also started taking way more psychedelics, including DXM, mushrooms, LSA, DPH, MDMA and shitty street acid (probably an NBOMe). I popped a tab in homeroom. Popped caps whenever anyone had them. Took E on the morning of my finals.
Artificial love
Artificial everything
>Eventually decide I should keep drugs and school separate
>Went from all As and Bs to failing everything but history (which was my hardest class lol)
>I needed drugs to do school, but by the time I realized this I had stopped giving a shit about doing school so I just took drugs and also didn't do school
>Get an intervention from my English teacher
>Sit in a room surrounded by adults who don't know what the fuck they are talking about
>Literally every single one of them is below average intelligence other than my history teacher
>English teacher suggests that maybe if she let me read her stupid fucking books on a kindle instead of paper I would get better grades
>uwot
>connectingwithtodaysyouth.html
>Bitch I have the highest reading level in your class and we both know it. The reason I am failing your class is that I DON'T GIVE A FUCK anymore. What is the point of doing your assignments if I already know everything they are teaching me?
>Proceed to tell everyone to fuck off and I'll get my GED
>My history teacher says something insightful and relevant
>Everyone ignores him and continues to blather on about how "different" I am
>Get a paper back with "areas for concern" on it
>Literally "differently minded" was one of them
>holy shit fuck you
>I'm pretty damn different that's for sure. Also fuck you again. Please remind me why I come here?
>Oh yeah because I am legally obliged to. And that's it. I learn about more advanced topics at home on my computer while high as fuck than at school.
>I was even high as fuck last semester and I got all As and Bs without actually doing any of the homework.
>There is no point in exerting effort because the difference between straight As and Fs is not effort, but caring enough to turn in fake homework.
>Write in a bunch of stupid shit on the worksheets because TAs are lazy as fuck and sleep through class, but still pass all the tests based on my own knowledge.
>inb4 you accuse me of being a self-centered twat
I actually am pretty smart despite being a retard.
>Fast forward to summer.
>E starts asking to hang out again
>fuck it my heart is ice cold anyways why not
>Still dating this same guy
>Ok whatever
>You are cute but I'm not falling for that shit again
>still fantasize about her sexually though
>realize that she is actually too old for me.
>She is 18 now and I'm 16 (almost 17)
>I'm a late bloomer though so I'm more like 15 at this point despite being really tall (6'3").
>She's really mature and more like she's 19 than anything.
>I understood then that relationships work better when parters are of similar maturity levels.
>I actually went on a date with a different girl, but didn't call her back because she was too immature despite being 17
>nicely brain damaged though, she would have been a hotty in bed. I bet she would have let me choke her.
Wow that was off topic. Fuck it. I'm leaving it.
>Go over to smoke weed at E's house
>While there I meet her little sister, M.
>All I knew was that she was in middle school.
>God damn she was hot as fuck (not really by traditional standards, she was also very boyish, but at this point I am starting to realize that I am not 100% straight so that turns me on even more)
>I felt like such a pervert then, because I didn't know that she was actually 15.
>She smelled the same as E but stronger.
>Constant fleeting eye contact between the two of us
>Like, we are always catching eachother staring
>She is super shy around me
Wow it feels good to type that.
All of this really. I don't care if anyone reads this, it's such a rollercoaster to write.
Fuck I've been stoned all day.
Fuck.
>I go home and jerk it to the thought of M, and E, and various others.
>Fast forward to August. I am almost 17.
>Trip on the most mushrooms I've ever done
>1/8th of an oz of REALLY potent shrooms soaked in lemon juice to convert the psilocybin to psilocin for double potency.
>Home alone on a Friday night on skype with A
>Trip fucking balls, go into my own head.
>Can't see the world around me, only the visions
>I am a child volunteering with my mother in Louisiana after hurricane Katrina.
>This is a real memory, and I relived portions of it.
>Lots of shit I don't remember now happens in the trip, but I end up "falling through time" (time = doors and a window)
>break my window and slice open my wrist on broken glass by accident
>parents come out at like 1:00 am and start crying
>I am tripping balls and don't know where I am
>go to emergency room and shout nonsense at random people
>TIM AND ERIC MUSHROOMS LSA
>YOU AREN'T REAL AND EEL LEEL
>FAGGOT
>Get out of emergency room
>not allowed to smoke weed or be unsupervised anymore
>go to psychologist
>I have ADHD, depression, a processing speed of 80, an iq of 139, and a verbal communication score of 149
>No wonder I feel like I am surrounded by buffoons. The difference between me and a normal person is greater than the difference between a normal person and a clinically retarded person.
>I am also pretty slow myself. Borderline retarded processing speed wise.
>I'm like an Intel processor. Under clocked, but superior ;)
>fast forward to a week before school starts
>I hang out with E and M again
>Still straight edge for now
>I find out that M is 15 and going into her freshman year at my school
>At the end of the day E says "Wow you guys are like the same age"
>I blush
>M asks if E is insulting me or complimenting her
>both
>I get M's number and ask her to hang out the next day
>Yes
>Fuck yes
>I text E and ask if I'm good to date her sister
>she says yes
>I ask her for advice
>"just hang out and wait for it to naturally happen"
Lol what?
Fuck that shit. That only works if you have a cunt.
>Next day I hang out with M
>She has mild psychopathy
>I love that shit
>Honestly nothing turns me on more than emotional distance
>I always wished that one day I would meet a girl with blunted effect or psychopathy
>I hate emotional people
>She tells me about the squirrels she kills
>I ask her if she wants to start going out with me
>She says yes.
>That day she also told me about how she told E to not send me nudes.
>I said fuck you.
>I meant it kind of
>I also didn't mean it
>She didn't get mad
>I didn't get mad
>We hung out all the time.
>She was like a cooler version of her sister when it came to everything but sex
>I couldn't even make sex jokes without weirding her out
>She said she thought sex was gross
>I said I was looking forward to it
>She said we wouldn't talk about this now
>OK
>I don't need sex right now just a person to be close(r) to emotionally and physically
>One day I'm at her house
>All day we have been trying to freak eachother out
>surprisingly she can freak me out, I'm not really used to that but it's very hot
>we are sitting on her bed after talking for a while
>Dead silence
>Oxytocin, dopamine, and serotonin rush
>She feels it too
>We start leaning in
>I ask if she wants to make out
>She stops, and gets pissed that I had to ask I think, but says yes
Wow I almost fucked it up. Luckily she is as autistic as me.
>We tongue fucked eachother's mouths for a bit
>She tasted so good
>She is sitting on my lap with her arms around me
>She lays her head on my shoulder
Fuck
>A week later she told me we had to break up.
>She was raped by her cousin about a month ago, and thought she could handle a boyfriend but couldn't
>FUCK
>FUCK THAT GUY
>I didn't cry, but I felt like shit.
>I walked her home
>I went home and cried
>How could someone rape their 15 year old cousin what the fuck
>Why did it have to be her?
>Later that week I made an incest joke because I'm fucking smart
>It went over really well as you could probably imagine
>She yells at me
>"What the fuck is wrong with you?"
>I don't know
>we stop talking all together
>Get straight As last semester
>Get a 2290 on the SAT
>Don't give a fuck
>It's all drivel rearranged
>Start smoking weed again
>I see M all the time
>Cringe everytime
>It physically hurts how shitty I feel
>I'm pissed at her and me both
>Mostly I'm pissed at the guy who raped her
FUCK ME
PUT ME ON MY FUCKING FACE AND GAPE MY ASS OPEN YOU FUCKING CUNT
Fuck you
Let me take a hit brb.
what is this poorly worded mess
why do you type like a retard?
>>26692572
>>fuck it my heart is ice cold
This is me, with out the Hang out part. Everyone was cut off and even my "friends" could catch a magazine at any time if I went off the deep edge. So I became a loner more depressed and more Cold.
>>26692675
I'm high as fuck sorry. I've been smoking weed since this morning
>>26692592
>>I'm like an Intel processor. Under clocked, but superior ;)
If I met you I would kill you.
>>26692776
Sometimes I don't think any of my friends are real friends (but A), but at least I have fake ones who are useful to me.
>>26692810
UMAD AMD?
>>26692820
None of them are of any use too me and most of them(very few) only really come around when they want me to fix their fucking PC's(I dont do it). Last time I fell for a girl I ended up quiting my job.
>>26692841
>UMAD AMD?
No, i5 4590 but that line is so fucking cringe worthy I would fall into a short lived psychotic rage.
>Months later
>I see M at (burger joint)
>We make fleeting eye contact
>I ask her if we still aren't talking
>We're talking
>A couple weeks later she sneaks out of her house to mine
>Calls me at 11:00 to sneak out and chill
>We drink red wine and smoke some nice weed
>Later she asks if I still like her
>Yes
>"Really, still?"
>backpedal
>"platonically"
>She asks if I want to be fuckbuddies
>OF COURSE
>No kissing or intimacy though
>Fine by me
>Not really but I'll take it
>>26692908
Fuck off normie fucking chum slum scum licking boot munching faggot.
>>26692898
I know, that's the joke sorry I wasn't clear.
I was being facetious.
I'm facetious all the time irl too I hate it. I can't escape it. It's like self aware autism and only me and like 3 other people total know I'm ever joking.
>>26692933
I'm not a normie I can't talk to normie girls. Luckily my school has a lot of freaks so I actually have peers.
The only difference between me and a full blown autist like yourself is self awareness combined with not caring about anything.
>>26692948
You know what really sucks... having females actually finding you attractive but like the autistic blithering buffoon you are you spill rigatoni and look like an idiot or you say some shit that makes it seem as if you were totally uninterested,and 2 years later you become a less attractive fat fuck
>>26692986
hahaha lol
I know that feel.
>>26693009
I would literally look the same as I did when i was more attractive if I were to lose weight and do something to my hair.... but I'm too much of a lazy fuck and frankly I stopped giving a damn. It no longer matters nothing matters.
>Spend next few nights planning via text how we're gonna fuck
>she says all her kinks (showers, dark rooms, lace, traps I think)
>and me all mine (choking, bondage, pegging, dressing like a trap, showers)
>she's down with choking
>eventually she says she isn't sure she can follow through
>say no problem
fuck
>eventually she comes over when I'm home alone
>We go out for a movie with a giftcard that my mom gave me
>come back and I'm pretty horny
>she has to go home in a bit
>we are hanging out in the kitchen for some reason
>she turns on the burner and starts threatening to burn my face on it
>she grabs my head and jokingly pushes it towards the flame a couple times
>I grab her neck and say "I'mma put you in the oven bitch"
>I start to put her in the oven
>I stop and we both start laughing maniacally
>She pushes me up agains the wall and tickles me
>this reminds me of my stepdad who used to tickle me against my will
>I repressed this memory
>Still hot as fuck though
Christ, OP. No one is going to read all of this.
I hope you find it cathartic to type it all out, but understand that this is far too long and too jumbled to hold anyone's attention.
Just start a tumblr or a fucking blog Jesus Christ mate.
This is an actual mess of shit.
>>26693154
yeah pretty damn cathartic brah
sorry for organization I'm too fucked up sorry
>>26693154
I read it all.
jesus i got 3 posts in expecting it to be over since im a fast reader but christ im not reading all that shit OP
someone summarise real quick
>>26693192
OPs a sperg
Couldn't get ugly hairy tom boy girl he found unattractive at first
ends up falling for her sister
makes incest joke around sister right after she got her cunt pounded by her cousin
stopped talking
they become friends again
They become fuck buddies who don't even fuck.
>The other day we are hanging out again
>This time we just smoke
>No physical contact
>I show her this list of warnings on my new antidepressants
>It's huge, like 4 8.5x11 papers together with tiny ass text
>We are both laughing our asses off
>She's talking to herself more than usual though
>We are having good conversations
>She says she can't do this anymore
>She can't have a boyfriend
>WTF we aren't even dating
>This is the last time we talked
>about 3 days ago
>she said she was asexual
Fuck guys thanks for the laugh
Any thoughts?
Fucking normie. Real robots stay home in their rooms doing hard drugs all alone
>>26693224
nice summary thx
btw E said that she forced M to kiss her once. E doesn't know that M was raped.
Also I had to report M to E because she had an illegal gun and I thought she was gonna shoot up the school
>>26693253
Do you or any of those bitches listen to rap OP?
>>26693167
How's your evening going?
>>26693253
>ratting on a homicidal psychopath waifu
Faggot
nobody fucking cares you fucking dumbass, this board is not your fucking personal blog, just get the fuck out of my /r9k/, stupid normie
>>26693265
Occasionally.
I prefer Neurofunk DnB and Beats though
Oh and I forgot. M used to run drugs. That's why she had the gun.
>>26693282
M sounds pretty fun. I'd love to get spun with her.
>>26693282
You should force her to listen to Rest in Piss, Siccmade and Return of the baby killer over and over again until she starts a kill spree.
>>26693271
I know I feel bad about it now. She wouldn't have done shit. I was just worried about my personal safety at the time.
Also she has another gun already anyways I'm pretty sure.
>>26693292
Where does she keep getting guns illegally? Are you guys niggers or something?
>>26693229
you're a faggot
you are really dumb
you're a normie
this thread is pure cringe
kill yourself faggot
>>26693310
IDK man probably drug dealers. My other friend who dealt coke (15M) had a 9 mil so it's obviously not that hard if you are moving a lot of product.
I only ever dealt weed but I never needed to carry a gun because I was dealing on school property so nobody is gonna pull shit. Also it was shwag.
>>26693340
Oh yeah, you and your kiddy friends are "moving a lot of product". You're so fucking hardcore bro.
Holy fuck you are desperate for people to think you're smart.
>meet girl
>do lotsa drugs lol hardcore
>weed weed weed
>but I'm smart though
>do dank weed
>love this girl
>but I'm getting straight A's guys
>weed 420 do MDMA and shrooms
>so in love
>but I've got a 139 IQ
>>26693366
>dude weed lmao
ops whole post.
>>26693366
this
why does every druggy think hes the next Steve Jobs or some shit
>>26693366
kek that greentext is like a rap version of ops post
GOD DAMN OP HOW CAN YOU TYPE SO MUCH ABOUT LITERALLY NOTHING
FINISH THE GODDAMN STORY
>>26693366
Hahaha yeah you are totally right. I am pretty smart. I'm also high as fuck. Do you have a problem?
Also organization fuck you]
\
anal alien
>>26693459
Because I like to type a lot and I didn't expect anyone to actually read this
Also I haven't been on here in a while so I'm a little out of touch with the culture atm
continue with the story ffs, im enjoying this
>>26693496
Bitch when was it ever acceptable to type walls of text whining about your obviously dike not girlfriend?
>>26693154
I'm reading all of it. U upset lil virgin.
>>26693505
Sorry it's over
I haven't talked to M since my last greentext, so nothing new to add
I'm thinking I'm not likely to be virgin all my life though. At least now I can talk to girls a bit even if they are dykes. Dykes are my people
>>26693508
Idk mang some people are liking it. I thought everyone would hate it too I just don't really care about quality
>>26693505
>Be future me hanging out with future M
>blaze blaze 420 xdddd
>we talk about fucking again and don't fuck also
>15 y/o pussy too dank
>marijuana
>I have social skills kind of
You're fucking stupid, your story is stupid, and I hate you
this isnt a blog for underage faggots go fuck off to facebook
>>26693714
>>26693728
Insecure much? Just don't look at it if it triggers you so bad.
I had a sex with a girl, multiple girls, actually.
That doesn't make me not a robot, I honestly feel like.
I don't how I managed to get laid. Every time, I would be a beta orbiter friend of the gf to someone. They'd cry on my shoulder about their big and bad boyfriends. This is when I'd start gently manipulating them before I'd put it in their ass.
I'm completely incapable of "socializing" with people. A club or a house party is a place of dread. I would prefer to get fucked up on opiates and spend my evening on r9k. Opiates make me feel like a normie, though it's only a feeling of confidence, it doesn't increase my ability to cool among today's kewl youth.
I don't feel like I associate with other people well. I dread the concept of money and Mr. Sheklestein.
I'm not a truck loving, Carhartt wearing and tobacco chewing ideal hurr durr work hard play hard man all these white trash bimbos love. I'm not your regular white person drowning in Abercrombie apparel. Nor am I a fresh as fuck, cool bro in his early 90s Civic racekar.
Who am I? Am I failed normie? What's the term?
In a forced social situation with my peers, meaning people my age, I drown in silence. Everything they talk about and find interesting is stupid as fuck. I feel like they're victim to the "make people dumb" conspiracy or something. Anything serious I say goes straight over their head. Any attempt at humor causes bone shattering silence.
I feel like I belong here like no other place on Internet. When I tried posting on reddit I'd get downvoted into oblivion, I still don't understand why.
>>26693784
>I had sex
GTFO right now fucking normal fags on this board FUCKING IT UP
YOU ARE A NORMIE AND SHOULDNT BE HERE
>I had a sex with a girl, multiple girls
>>26693784
no what you are doing is incessantly and repeatedly talking on and on about yourself when in reality noone gives a flying fuck about your childish 'problems' not on reddit or on here
tldr - fuck off narcissist
>>26693784
I get ya man.
>>26693829
OP here (the guy you replied to wasn't OP).
My dad had narcissistic personality disorder so I probably am a bit of a narcissist. Get over it. Some people actually like themselves despite hating themselves. It's irrational and cocky and it sucks.
Also fuck you,
\
NIGGET
anyways OP here Imma blaze this one more joint an go to bed so goodnight its 4 am, and i have to go to class tomorrow fuck
>>26693871
im not sure if you realize how much you sound like a whiny fifteen year old right now like holy shit what the fuck are you talking about
>some people actually like themselves despite hating themselves
???????????? oxymoronic to the MAX
>>26693898
no ur an oxy moron lol
I don't fuck w/ oxy
>>26693916
this reply was all it took to confirm youre underage as FUCKoxy is bretty good tho
>>26693937
Ok fine I'm 17 fuck it whatever
Ban me and prune the thread idgaf
>>26693916
>iq of 139
[citation needed]
Also
>underage b&
>>26693950
>he finally reveals his dark secret
>>26693784
I also struggled with extreme panic attacks due to intrusive thoughts.
I guess my parents raised me with some sort of morals and when these crazy thoughts started coming in I couldn't handle it based on the perception of who I thought I was.
I ended up getting on SSRIs and benzo.
I thought I was legit going crazy. I thought I'd end up in a psych ward. I would have if I shared my actual thoughts with a doctor.
Eventually I came to terms with being a little crazy and the thoughts subsided.
That was the greatest struggle in my life. This is, ultimately, what caused me to lose all my friends. I'd be depressed to the point of not preforming normal tasks, I wouldn't do anything but look for ways to stimulate my brain in a way that I wouldn't have to think but my thoughts were thought for me.
Even opiates would fail me.
I'd either hide in the closet or run out of my house to hide from everyone, this is in my mind allowed be to not hurt others.
Even after panic attacks left, the crippling depression went for another 1.5 years.
I lost my good job, any ability to socialize and respect from my parents. They're Christian and my dad thought that I let the devil into my heart, which is why all of this happened.
My dad has always taken it upon himself to let me know when I do something wrong, remind me about it and make sure I understand why it's wrong.
I have no friends, sometimes I feel lonely about this. I have a SO, she's been with me through my going crazy fiasco and drug use and it forever damaged our relationship.
One good thing that did come out of this is me caring less and less about what anyone thinks of me.
>>26693967
oxymoron - a person hoo doos alot of oxy and is dum
btw i hav a good iq don wurry
>>26693829
I never said that I'm a selfless martyr.
Listen up, retard. The sole purpose of this board is doing what I did. This board is created around interests and not identity. It allows people to do whatever they want.
You don't do anything different here.
I shared something I went through, it makes your virgin pussy upset, that's ok.
But you're not the special snowflake that you think you are, so untwist your panties and relax.
goddbye numero dosed a j
silla mi comprendo no tango me gusta
verry good marijuana
goodnight
>>26694063
10/10 post
bonjour and silencio
omg capchas are fun now! I like that theres a game to it
you honestly sound really, really stupid
that 80 "processing speed" is prolly closer to your true iq than whatever the fuck your psych told you it is
you also have a big case of unwarranted self importance and I think you're a fucking faggot
kpeaceoutbye
>>26694079
please do not reproduce.
>>26694083
Yeah man I agree. I really do. That doesn't mean I can't post here.
>>26694101
Yeah, you can do just about anything you want, that doesn't mean you should
>>26694091
Don't worry. Children are worse than STDs in my opinion.
>>26694083
All of you claiming to be robots have unwarranted sense of self importance. You lil bitches contradict yourselves in everything you say.
>>26694063
please refer to the message you are quoting
>noone cares
>at all
>>26694106
>I can post condescending comments on 4chan for no reason
>I will post condescending comments on 4chan for no reason
>>26694136
The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude.
I can understand how you couldn't recognize my very obvious reason as you admitted your IQ is borderline retarded
>>26694156
>your post
thank god I thought he was gonna fuck up up for a second
>your being a huge faggot
oh god no
no
>your
>o
>u
>r
>>26694131
oh yeah, sure, u don even kare. 4 sure my nigga family. u don't kare n u let me kno bout it 2. well play, ice
kill yourself, you lying ass hoe.
>>26694175
LOL
you're even stupider than I thought before
YOUR being, as in YOUR state of existence, not YOU ARE being
fuck, I hate having to teach highschool dropouts simple grammar rules
>>26694189
This has to be bait. No one is this stupid, even if they did claim to have an iq of 139.
>>26694189
>LOL
>you're even stupider than I thought before
^capitalize m8 ^you forgot the more in front of stupider
>YOUR being, as in YOUR state of existence, not YOU ARE being
getting mad is improper form and would be docked by any reasonable highschool teacher
>fuck, I hate having to teach highschool dropouts simple grammar rules
omg man u frgt to capitalize wtf
>>26692446
>Cant work due to seemingly incurable anxiety
>try to work anyway
>get fired or forced to quit every job
>got fired yesterday
What do I do with my life?
>>26694189
wouldn't that be your being is a huge faggot then?
>>26694189
>The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude.
The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude. The reason is your post and your being a huge faggot, dude.
>ass hair
Gross. What the fuck?
>>26694231
As in short hair on the head not the anus.
>>26694237
It's too bad that op was dropped on his head, and not his anus, as a child.
>mfw 3 of the same image in that captcha
>>26692446
Had similiar experience a few years ago. Qt3.14 became a dude. Crushed any normie left in me.
>>26693530
Im pretty jealous. You are obviously an exceptionnal human being, super smart and stuff. You are living a way more exciting life than most robots here, and you will end up in a better situation (Financial and sentimental) than all of us.
Genius always make it.
Good luck though, even if you are probably one of the luckiest person here.
>>26692522
Post poem
who /manic depression/ here?
I'm much more fucked up than my psychiatrist knows and cant seem to tell him. How do you do it? I just cant.
>>26693896
DUDE WEED LMAO I'M A DRUG LORD
Grow the fuck up asshole
>>26693898
Naw bro just 2DEEP4u bc you don't have a 139 IQ lolol Facebook told me so
>>26694022
Yeah n i'n sooooo psychopathic n deep lol my soul is a black hole u guise
is this thread still up? for fucks sake this needs to be prunned soon.
This is one of the longest most uninteresting greentext stories I've ever seen
