>no will and reason to live
>no way or reason to die
Is anyone else stuck in this sea of despair?
>>26057939
Sea?
Sea's usually aren't infinite and at least have the occasional shore for waves to break on to.
>>26057939
Yup. Dying is retarded and living is pretty boring. I look forwards to the nice things in life but fucking hell is everything boring, every person I meet is just a distraction. Nothing feels real, it never did and probably never will.
>>26057983
>I look forwards to the nice things in life
What if I can't see them? I can literally not think of anything which would make me feel different. Not even the thought of a loving relationship, which everyone on here seems to long for, makes me feel good. On the contrary, it only makes it worse by making me feel ungrateful for wasting this life.
>>26057969
Sorry but my metaphors and vocabulary aren't up to the task of describing this.
>have the occasional shore for waves to break on to
Complaining about my situation on here helps a bit.
Yup. Though, I wouldn't call it despair. At this point it's more like a sea of indifference.
I would've already killed myself if it wouldn't hurt the few people who still care about me.
>>26058117
Yeah I know, relationships hurt bad if you roll your dice wrong. Loving someone is painful but actually feeling loved is the only thing that has ever made me feel happy. Then again I've only felt it for a brief moment compared to the rest of my life, but that feeling is the reason I want to keep on living just to feel it again one day.
That's because in reality this world itself is the limbo. The empty nothingness where you're forced to wait and suffer until eventually it consumes you entirely. You either break or you fade away.
>>26058179
But don't you get those horrible anxiety attacks that you're wasting your life but not doing anything to prevent it?
>>26058200
Did you try to get them to help you?
>>26058117
Something about your writing makes me like you.
>>26058236
Something about you liking someone else makes me somewhat like something about you.
>>26058204
Only /r9k/ can provide a stream of 0's and 1's like this.
>>26057939
if you have no will or reason to live then it wouldn't matter if you just died right? if you just died you would be free of all your problems.
>>26058381
Well you'd get a new problem: Now I'm dead.
>>26058229
thats pretty accurate
>>26057939
Indeed OP. Just part of being robot. Welcome to the cuckfest.
Just think of all the really good horse porn that hasn't even been recorded yet and tell me if you still have no desire to live
>>26058282
r9k is my most visited board. Shit it's influencing me too much, I'm becoming a robofag.
>>26058381
Just dying isn't possible. Nature made it so it's hard to pull it off. Couple that with this >>26058200 and it's even harder.
>>26058401
why would that be a problem? you wouldn't exist anymore to recognize it as a problem
>>26057939
Not even despair anymore. Just endless bleak apathy.
>>26058482
I guess it's our survival instinct. Even with nothing left most people always want to live, to survive. Sure some people are hurt and damaged enough that they simply don't want to feel the pain anymore and off themselves, but we still live without anything to keep us happy, we only kill ourselves when there's enough shit bothering us, when living is harder than dying. Sorry for my ingrish I'm not native.
I don't really want to kill myself desu
I guess i want to suffer though, punish myself for ruining everything
yeah
i didnt ask to be born but neither did anybody else, so i aint gonna hurt anybody by killing myself, like my parents
but i dont care about life, the only thing i want to be is a nice person. If i could live working a 9-5 job in a factory, sure. I dont care at all, i dont want to find the point of life because there is none, it's just a shitfest of subjectivity
