What are some of the things that keep you going?
>>25884352
I want to go (almost) full Gravity Falls and have a shack in the middle of the forest (that I built myself) filled with all sorts of retarded memorabilia.
I want to have a sailboat, sail into the Pacific and just drink until the morning sun rises.
I want to be able to go into a bar and make friends, not sit there quietly.
I want people whom I've done work for to look at my work and approve, call me again if they need anything, recommend me to people. Not for professional reasons (although obviously that too) but so that I can take pride in myself and know that I'm an outstanding craftsman.
I want to have a bar, not a professional bar, but a well-stocked bar in my crazy-man Oregon shack. Whether I have friends or no, I want to be able to sit at my own bar and drink until I can laugh at myself without getting sad or mad.
>tfw drunk is almost the only time I'm ever not mad at someone for something, major or slight
>tfw I never asked for this
>>25884352
Math
the possibility of a loving relationship
Music
That's it really to be quite honest senpai
Hope for fully immersive vr and/or sexbots
I want to know the glory of sniffing and tonguing a cute teen girl's pink butthole.
Music, books, TV, games, newspapers, drugs
>>25884352
I can truly never know what's going to happen tomorrow so the possibility tomorrow can be the greatest day of my life keeps me waking up and walking every day.
My mother is still alive and she would not be able to recover if I killed myself.
I like living and I'm afraid of dying. I wanna try to do the things I like the most and avoid dying so life has some sort of meaning. And I think I wanna fuck with bitches and have relationships and cheat on girls with sluts just to hurt them. Yeah that keeps me going.
My oneitis
No regrets
>>25884352
Fear of death
Dreams (I get sick on purpose and deprive myself of sleep in order to have really vivid dreams, feels good man)
Drugs
The mostly buried hope that things will get better and I'll get to cuddle with someone one day (they won't, and I won't)
Lately I've been in kind of a shitty place, but Jameson and thrash metal have been keeping me as uplifted as possible.
>>25884352
movies, anime, games, my dog, beer, books, titties, guns
>>25884352
not thinking about what I would want to keep me going
The only thing that keeps me going is the hope that "this" time will be different.
It isn't, for the record. It never is.
>>25884352
a fear that my parents will die happy
Lexapro to bee quite honest fampai. Ever since I started this drug, I just feel like shit is going to be okay, even though logically I know it's not. I just lost a loving relationship a few days ago, and I tried my hardest to be sad and cry, but I literally couldn't. I lost that ability and it feels wonderful to not have my emotions rule me anymore.
>>25885379
I like that outlook, though giving hope to a man like that is a dangerous thing.
>>25884719
> IDKTFB
Drunk is the only time I am erratic and angry, I'm not charming, The only time I think in absolutes and generalisations.
but being sober is so boring.
You seem like a cool guy tho
>>25885237
basically me as well f.a.m.
Knowing that summer is coming and that means festival season. I can go escape reality by tripping on acid and doing molly for a few days with a ton of really friendly people.
Memes keep me going
Iced coffee and lifting weights. Only things keeping me sane.
>>25886166
>Not a single black guy in the crowd
Where on earth is that?
>>25885437
same here bro,
how long have you been going for?
I just built a new PC and have been playing all the games I've missed out on this current gen, FOR FREE. Well not really free since this computer cost a shit load but I don't regret it. getting my money's worth you can bet on that.. God I love pirating. Plus street fighter 5 comes out soon.
God I have fallout 4 (which kinda sucks but who cares I didn't buy it) to play, witcher 3, gonna download shovel knight. Fuckin resident evil. I'm gonna pirate so much shit
>>25886166
Literally normie the image.
I just hope she nessages me back soon but our date isnt until saturday.
>>25886247
Since it says Ruhr there it is probably the Ruhrgebiet in Germany.
>>25886247
I think that pic is from an event in Germany.
I want to go to one in South Africa
>>25884352
The desire of creating something.
I have this incredible urge to create something, anything, but for the most part that creative energy concentrates itself in creating stories and art. I enjoy writing and I enjoy drawing. I wish to one day be good at both of them to work in animation even though I'm going to college for computer engineering.
>>25886338
make a child
>>25886485
Oh god no senpai. I ain't fit to be a parent.
alcohol, weed, music, a record label. mostly those
>>25884719
>I want to have a sailboat, sail into the Pacific and just drink until the morning sun rises.
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I want people whom I've done work for to look at my work and approve, call me again if they need anything, recommend me to people. Not for professional reasons (although obviously that too) but so that I can take pride in myself and know that I'm an outstanding craftsman.
>I want to have a bar, not a professional bar, but a well-stocked bar in my crazy-man Oregon shack. Whether I have friends or no, I want to be able to sit at my own bar and drink until I can laugh at myself without getting sad or mad.
man, i feel those all too well.
>>25886518
the desire of creating something is just chemicals in your brain and body telling you to produce and raise offspring so that humanity has a greater chance of survival
>>25886541
Too ugly to pass own my genes senpai.
I don't believe there's any kind of afterlife, so even if life isn't always sunshine and roses (as a matter of fact it rarely is) I want to live for as long as possible because it's all I'm going to get. I also have family members who genuinely love me, which is nice. I try not to take that for granted.
>>25886558
how did your ugly genes get this far?
hmmmm
you can do it
>>25886616
Stroke of luck. Not leaving my room.
INTERTIA!
>>25886000
It can be, but it all depends on how he or she uses that hope. All thoughts and emotions have the potential to be destructive, it all depends on how you use them in life.
There's some classic vidya I haven't played. I like dank food I'm gonna want to eat more of that. Maybe I might bet laid again that'd be cool. Maybe a few more concerts. I dunno I'm probly gonna checkout in 5 years or so still
>>25886000
How many MG's are you on I've been on 10 for a few weeks and 5 a few weeks before that. I'm not sure if it works it might i dunno
I dunno. I'm not going to kill myself, but I don't have a reason to live. I'll see just how pointless this life can get
Online friends, really. I was friendless in real life for over a decade, still am. I had people I talked with online occasionally but they came and went so I never formed any attachments, they were more like distractions which I used to ignore my mom's drug use problem and lack of friends.
However one day one of those people managed to convince me to play a game with a group. I've played with that group ever since, gotten over my fear of voice chat, sent Christmas presents to each other and generally bonded pretty well. They're the best friends I've ever had and I don't know what I'll do when they eventually move on with their lives and leave me behind.
Killing myself would inconvenience me. I don't want even have time anyway. I go to work, relax for a few hours, try to sleep, repeat.
I've got no time to kill myself
>>25886541
Group selection is an outdated model. Selection happens at the level of genes. It's not about the survival of humanity but of genes.
Despite all the bullshit I've read on this board I still want a wife and kids. Or at least a life partner to stick with me through the thick and thin.
the fact that i might make my friends sad for even a second, the few that i have that might care i mean
that's pretty much it
It's pathetic but the NHL team I follow. I just want to see at least one championship before I die.
Frankly my parents. They are both good people dealt a shit hand and tried their damn hardest for me. I'm a broken sack of shit that shouldn't exist but I need to at least out live them and show I'm good.
>>25884352
my waifu
my anime backlog
Weed, music, Ancient History Wiki-walks, and pirated cartoons.
I have entered into a living death.
>>25886910
This is always that bothers me, just the idea of not having enough time even for such things like suicide, kinda funny if you think about it
Benzos work wonders.
>>25885451
I do this too and obsessively record them
>>25884352
the hope that she will come back to me. since she left me half year ago i did almost nothing expect of drinking, crying, and looking at my phone.
the worst part is that if i would have improved myself i KNOW i whould have had a chance a few months ago. but at that moment i thougt life is over, so i did nothing. now its too late.
but is still have hope that she will come back... you know why? because it would kill me if she doesnt. and i DONT want to DIE.
we have been together for 5 years. best years of my life. now i am just a piece of trash.
>>25889991
feels in my heart
I'm still a social awkward loser but therapy it's really helping me to enjoy the little things in life, to focus on my creative hobbies and make something worthy out of them, but for most part, it's helping to enjoy time alone and to realise that in the end no qt will ever make me happy, only I can.
The idea of having sex (seriously how can I kill myself before I experience one of the highest pleasures possible for humans)
good books
>tfw reading Nietzsche is giving me confidence in my solitude
>tfw reading Kafka reaffirms my view of society and the people in it
>tfw reading Camus and Sartre reaffirm my view on meaninglessness and gives me confidence to cope with it
good music
maybe being a good drummer someday
to make my mom proud of me someday
>>25885397
this desu
also my sister. it would ruin their already fairly shitty lives.
Persona 5, masturbating on weed to hentai, and I really want to try lsd
I honestly don't know, I just keep going.
dank memes, by dark means, my friend
>>25884352
Math and programming tbqh.
Force of habit I suppose
I want to build a school where I could teach people Stoicism and improve people's lives
I want a manse built on a cliff overlooking the ocean where I can be left alone
I want to master a stringed instrument.
>>25884352
Half a year of high school left
My mom and dad
Persona 5 and kingdom hearts 3
God will finally unfuck my shit life
University will be better
and FUCKING MANNING GETTING MY BRONCOS TO THE SUPER BOWL AND WINNING
>>25884352
sci-fi and death metal
Medication, tbqhfm
the feel of packing up a freshly ground, perfectly cured, seedless, frosty nuggie to smoke in my glass pipe
>>25887373
You realize it has nothing to do with what you read on the internet, the fact is that is never going to happen. People in real life can tell you that. Life partners worked when people didn't really have the right to leave, whether due to gender or religion. It just does not work now.
>>25893553
Whatever you need to tell yourself, buddy.
>>25884352
>I'm going to be old enough to buy booze in a month.
>They might make another good elder scrolls game some day.
>Cape shit and cape shit movies.
>Good food.
>Pictures of beautiful women i collect of the internet.
>Emperor Trump might unfuck this gay earth.
>>25886268
Let's see, like 4 months now.
The weird thing is my infatuation with her is dying out. She's everything, everything I could ask for in a girl and it's dying out already. She seems to be pretty keen about me, messages me at least once per day, maintains to conversation. She's also a sperg, which I am too so holy shit what a coincidence. And she's a virgin, which I shouldn't know, but I'm stalker as fuck and figured it out. Oh, and of course she lives 2 states away from me. She doesn't know what I look like, so I'm worried once I send her a picture she'll stop caring. She's alright with meeting up soon. But that spark is dying for me. Please don't, I rely on her way too much emotionally.
/wall of text
How long have you been going?
>>25890733
Maybe you should do a group suicide! It'll be fun for the whole family!
the hope that i will one day get a girlfriend
video games, literature, porn, anime, manga, movies, tasty food, sports and anal sex
The fear of death. I'm so scared of even trying to kill myself. But I fucked up so badly and now I'm gonna have to spend the rest of my life as a NEET in my parents house, or as a wageslave with a shitty job.
Tomboys and reverse traps. 2D, of course
>>25884352
>math/science/computer science interests
>literature
>music
>drugs
>film
>anime
>shitposting
>fear of death
there are plenty of reasons not to off myself tbqh
>lifting
>my dog
>vidya
>reading
>music
>beer
>soft, fragrant, gentle girls in summer clothes
>>25884352
The possibility that even though life isn't what I want it to be, it may very well get better some day... I just need to be here long enough for it
>>25885437
Oh my god, no one cares dude, relationships by definition are fleeting
>memes
>new vidya
>new anime
>friends still around for now, although they're all disappearing one by one
>addicted to masturbation
>fully VR waifu could possibly be mine in the near future
>want a dakimakura and onahole/fleshlight
>the possibility that 20 years old isn't the point of no return and I could still experience sex
>want to travel
>alcohol
>scared of failing suicide
>forget about nihilism sometimes and give in to the meaningless chemical reactions inside my brain that make me experience "pleasure"
Pic related: just kidding, it's not related. This post just felt empty without a cute anime gif.
