Who else /BrainGoneToShit/ here?
>always straight A student in HS
>good grades in Uni before I dropped out sophomore year
>just tried to read a book
>15 pages an hour
>trying to learn a language
>relearning the same intro stuff every day
>every time I learn a new concept I forget an old one
I feel you brother.
Five years ago I used to be a straight-A student on track to become a doctor. Now I sit here and just jerk off, play vidya and work a dead end job. I hate going to sleep because I have to think about what happened. People say I'm too young to experience this kind of regret but what do they know.
Well that's my rant over. How are you coping with this new life OP?
>>25295365
Im working a dead end job slightly above minimum wage. I was trying to start reading just so that I could feel smarter than people in some way, but I honestly think I became retarded.
I always thought ADD was BS when kids in school were always taking adderall, but maybe I have it now. Its like I cant even listen to a full song without getting bored halfway through, I cant even escape with video games without losing interest after an hour.
I watch a lot of porn because its all that can hold my interest, and sleep 12 hours a day to pass the time.
>>25296027
All of your screen time has reprogrammed your brain.
>>25296122
Not him but now I understand me parents werent memeing when they said spending the whole day behind a screen is bad for you.
I wish I had listened :(
>>25296122
>>25296122
I guess so
Should I just kill myself you think?
I've ruined my brain with drugs and alcohol. I'm not stupid now, but I am not as sharp as I once was. I wish I could have the direction I have now with the intelligence I had 5 years ago, but it took the drugs and alcohol to make me who I am.
I'm 26 now, I used to be smart until highschool, now I fuck up my sentences when I talk and periodically blank out when I'm doing stuff. Life sucks. At least Im OK at meeting chicks.
>>25296158
Reprogram your brain. Start with the book Prometheus Rising by Robert Anton Wilson. There are other helpful resources. You could slowly try meditating to get back your concentration.
LOL I fell for the "psychedelic drugs will not do any long term physiological damage" meme
Now, even though Ive been clean for like a year
I get lost driving home from work and "snap out of it" pulling into random superstore parking lots or after Ive driven like 20 minutes down the highway past my exit
Every time a shadow in my house flickers I get scared thinking its a rat, when Im driving at night im constantly hitting the brakes because shadows look like dogs or cats running into the road
the "hue" of my vision randomly flickers and the world sometimes looks more red or yellow(just like a wes Anderson movie)also I dont know if its related to muh mental damage, but for the last two years Ive really wanted to fuck a trap, I never had this desire before
Me too and it's the worst feeling in the world tbqhwy familia.
>straight A student until college
>live in a country where college is almost free and have rich parents
I've been going through the motions since I entered college 7 years ago (yes), living with parents all this time and getting dumber everyday. This semester I literally didn't step into a classroom. I'm trapped into this nightmare. I'm useless. I'm not even officially an NEET but I'm one of them.
And to think I had a top tier brain in terms of processing and mental calculation. Really, I was a prodigy wih numbers.
Now I feel like youtube with a shitty internet connection... Buffering... Buffering... Buffering... With simple calculations like money transactions. It's scary how living a braindead life can fuck you up, your mind is just like the rest of your body, it needs exercise just like the muscles or it will wither.
This world is shaping up to create people with no brain power for mental calculation. We started using calculators too early.
Being in front of the pc shitposting and memeing really fucked up our brains and attention span. I can't read either, keep repeating the same page and can't focus. I was never successful at socializing and having friends, but hell I was highly intelligent and proud of it. now I just want to die...
Thoughts?
>>25296395
>Prometheus Rising by Robert Anton Wilson.
already read it
pic related
>need to divide two numbers the other day
>forgot how to do it
feels bad family
>>25296497
>Thoughts?
You've said it yourself. You have to exercise your brain too, like any other muscle.
I still can't put myself to it though. It's a vicious cycle.
The same thing will happen to you anything just from growing old. My dad used to be a genius mechanical engineer and now can't do basic calculus for shit. He's 60 now, so obviously.
Sounds like OP needs to take a legit class with actual students and professors. The idea is that if you're forced to use it, you won't lose it.
>>25295190
I found that I've been getting REAL DUMB, but I think it's because I left school and haven't been using my brain much.
It's like your body, you can let yourself go and become a pudgy limp wrist even if you were an adonis in high school.
>>25295190
take supplements
i couldn't concentrate for shit until i took st.johns wort, now i actually enjoy reading and exercise, r9k seems boring in comparison
>go through school as the resident genius kid
>ace all classes effortlessly
>140+ IQ
>fast forward to sophomore year of college
Know that one class that had a professor that didn't explain anything well, but expected the most out of you, and gave grueling assignments that were insanely hard just for the sake of it? That was three of the six classes I was taking that semester. I had a mental breakdown and still haven't really recovered. I find it hard to focus on anything for over 20 minutes. I can't read anything more than a paragraph because my eyes keep going over the words without me reading them. I can't hold a conversation because my focus blinks out for a few seconds and then I have no idea what we were talking about. Words don't come to me easily and can't express any complicated ideas.
I feel like this is all fixable but I'm too stupid now to try and figure out a way to fix it. I feel like half a person now.
Grades aren't a real measure of intelligence. You were probably always dumb.
>>25296895
You just sound too lazy. High school is easy for most people unless you are incapable of doing homework or so stressed out that you cannot function (think.. constantly suspended bad high school students). Those people aren't actually "dumb", just unfocused on school.
Now you actually have work and can't finish it, it's not the professors fault. You're always going to run into professors that are less engaging than others. You just don't seem to know how to study and do actual work. Considering that after you finish school, it means you'll be constantly working, you better figure out how to fix that fast because work means continual "studying/research/learning more about your field" and applying that new knowledge constantly to move up.
I can't remember names and shit like I used to, I think this is damage from alcohol.
whatever though.
Basically. I went from getting a 30 on the ACT to have a 2.6 GPA after the first year. I worked full time but that still doesn't answer how fucking awful my grades have been. It should be even worse but it didn't count two classes I failed since each semester was at a different college. I'm at the point where I want to just drop out and give up.
>brain fog
>get exhausted if I need to actually critically think
>catch myself stumbling on my words at times
fuck this
>>25296501
Have you done the exercises?
Check out his introduction to Undoing Yourself by Christopher Hyatt.
>used to be a straight A advanced learning student
>be in special programs because I'm like a grade or two above my age
>read books for F U N
>never used computer, allowed to play on it like once a week or two to play a locally installed game, more if it was shit like Math Blasters
>eventually allowed to use the computer more because I was a perfect student in school anyway
>discover Runescape
That was probably the EXACT moment in my life where everything went to shit for me.
>>25297075
>it's not the professors fault
The man put questions on the test that weren't covered in class and knocked out points for literally no reason,
>You just don't seem to know how to study and do actual work.
I actually did. Before I could absorb information effortlessly and draw original conclusions from them. Now I can't even follow a paragraph.
>Considering that after you finish school, it means you'll be constantly working
I'm already out. My work is completely thoughtless and just serves to numb my mind, making the problem even worse. Now I can't even remember what I did last month.
>>25297255
That sounds like me except I got sucked into Black Ops 2. I would play it every moment of free time with my friends. I would play games and all before that but I put 800 hours in in a semester and have been gaming so much since then. That's probably what has killed my grades.
>>25297255
>>discover Runescape
Stop it, you give me feels.It's where mine changed too :(. Great game though
>>25297316
this make me feel old
shit
>>25297255
Are you me?
I wish i could decide what i feel interested in. I want to be interested in the material from my classes but I just can't concentrate on it for long enough. When I force myself to read and study my brain goes on "auto mode" and I just instantly forget what I just read 5 seconds after.
Meanwhile, I can go full autist mode on old obscure electronic music, vidya and drugs for HOURS.
>"absorb information"
If you are having trouble with reading comprehension in college, it just sounds like you aren't caught up with the material at all. Did you not pay attention in your early classes and study a lot during your first year? Your brain isn't like a sponge or something, you can't just gloss over books anymore and expect to understand what it meant.
>>25297394
I will admit I'm only 18. I'm on my second year of college though. This semester I'm not going to work and will take out federal loans(low interest rate) so that I can focus more on schooling. I also sold my CS:GO skins since that's been my recent time sink.
Has anyone else given up hobbies because they are no longer capable of doing them? I used to be big into electronics but now its like I've lost the brain power required to enjoy it.
Even vidya confuses me these days.
>>25297422
You seem to be stuck on saying I'm lazy and fail when I actually have to try. I was performing perfectly fine until I broke. I read adult science texts for fun when I was a kid. Now I can't even read at a middle school level.
>>25297491
Yes, I lost all my hobbies.
>was really smart until hs
>got lazy, but got enough grades to get into good uni
>started putting in an effort freshman year, mainly because of all the horror stories i read and here and on /sci/ and /lit/
>when I begin I am incredibly slow and dumb
>in literally two weeks of constantly reading and studying I'm back to a quicker brain and studying becomes 10x easier, removed that mental fog that has blocked me for four years
>that has stayed with me since I graduated uni (double major in CS and Philosophy) and got a great job
i was just really, really lazyit's prob the same with you senpai
>>25297588
I doubt that, I even get headaches and sleepy when thinking about things.
>>25297505
How old are you? Have you visited any doctors about this?
>>25297657
20 when I broke. 23 now. Doctors are only in it for profit, and will just shove pills down your throat and call it a day.
>smart without effort until uni
>suddenly just scraping passes because I've never had to try before
>final year of uni figure out I won't enjoy a graduate job because it takes over your life and I dont need the money with my lifestyle
could be worse, Im happier now than the last few years.
All of my skills have diminished in recent years. I can't even concentrate long enough to do anything other than shitpost and play Dota. I couldn't read a newspaper article the whole way through if my life depended on it.
yeah my attention span has really
>>25297941
I see what you did there, well memed
Yep I feel this. So much potential wasted...
>>25297941
Most of my posts look like this too, incomplete and all out of context if you don't read the exact posts I've read beforehand.
>>25296206
Same, ruined mind with drugs, alcohol and virtual escapism. The few things I have put time into, I'm incredibly lackluster at and someone with any motivation could get to where I'm at without very much effort
>>25297711
Well to be fair, adderall could probably help someone like you. It builds white space in your brain.
>>25297255
>runescape
If you are going to ruin your life because of a game, at least pick a good game.
I always laughed at the kids playing runescape that thought their game was good, while I was playing Vanilla WoW and BC.
>>25297316
>800 hours
Try 800 DAYS played on WoW over the course of 10 years. I play around 5-10 hours a week on private servers at this point but, the damage over the past decade has been done
The internet allowed me to escape way too much. I think just having a family PC in the living room like when I was a kid would have saved me from going to far down the rabbit hole.
Getting my own PC back when I was 12-13 was the final nail in the coffin. I got swallowed up by newgrounds and this place.
Get into RP. Play WoW and RP in it. You can keep your magic brain powers and waste your life at the same time.
>>25298114
My days of gaming are all but over, I lost all interest a few years back. I will always treasure the memory's though.
>>25298114
I never quite understood RP, the 1 time I played on an RP server for a few weeks, I made a character named Rickharrison and just low-balled people in trade chat. There was only ever 2 people who understood the reference and weren't offended by my shitty offers
