(OP here)

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>be 18, aspiring MtF, sub/beta, bi, live with parents, still closeted and look boymode. education and income both questionable
>live in most uninteresting suburb in america
>talk with friend who is dom female, who raves about okcupid
>decide to sign up, what the hell
>make 100% honest profile and start to fill out questions
>"Are you a virgin?"
>click yes
>three days in - hardly any messages besides a creepy dude dtf
>decide to shell out money for it like the tool that I am
>get advanced membership - get special search parameters etc
>search for someone who likes subs/shy people who isn't a creepy old dude dtf
>find one
>asian nonbinary girl
>polyamorous
>asexual but likes to give other people sexual experiences
>has soft spot for "cute transfemmes"
>send message
>"hey what's up" etc etc
>expect the worst
>get message back
>some small talk and then..."you're a virgin?" followed by "are you looking for a trustworthy relationship?"
>yes and yes
>more small talk then "would you like your first time to be with me? another nonbinary person?"
>accept and we exchange numbers
>next night I'm nervously driving to a coffee shop in the city to meet her

>take tiny swiss army knife with me in case I'm going to get jumped
>reach destination
>text "I'm here"
>nearly jump out of my skin when I hear my name
>turn around
>she's just as her profile said
>I'm so shy I can barely speak, which she finds cute
>we find out the coffee shop is closed
>share a laugh, and sshe invites me back to her place
>jump again when I hear someone else in the apartment
>think "Jesus shit oh god I'm going to get mugged and die"
>it's just her roommate
>roommate leaves so it's just me and her
>asks me if I need anything
>nervously ask if she has any green tea so I can calm down
>relax over green tea
>talk for a bit, she's too sweet
>she asks me if I'm up for anything tonight
>I timidly nod
>she leads me back to her room
>we sit down, she takes her top off
>I'm shaking with nervousness
>she reaches over and initiates first base
>blush so hard
>realize this is the first time I've made out and I don't know what to do
>she guides me through it
>eventually the clothes come off, she gives me oral and then puts a condom on me and we start the main course
>when I enter her, I work up the courage to jokingly say, "in this moment, you are without a doubt the best person I've ever had sex with"
>she laughs and we keep going
>my mtf meds have made it tougher to keep it up but she's patient
>bow chika wow woooow
>I'm so completely immersed in the moment, so close, everything is incredible
>finish round 1 and she asks if there's anything I would like to try
>I nervously ask her about 30 minutes in if she would be willing to tie my hands
>she agrees, we come up with some shoelace or something and do the tying
>bow chika wow woooow
>after an hour or two we move to the cuddling/pillow talk
>she holds me in her arms and tells me I did a great job and that I'm really cute
>blush so hard I can feel my face turning hot
>we make a post sex dinner together of ramen
>eventually my mom starts to worry and I have to go
>she gives me a kiss goodbye
>happiness
>is