Hi, i don't want to live anymore. I lost my job, my best friend died and i lost my home, all in the span of a month. I'm terrified of the world and i dont want to be outside and i feel like a waste of a human for being so worthless and living with my parents. I cant work, i cant even move sometimes because I'm so scared. I just want to die but I'm too scared.
The worst part is how bored i am. I'm so tired of knowing. I know that i will eat. Or drink. Or sleep. I know what i will watch, i know where i will be. There's no surprise, there's nothing new. I will never improve in life professionally enough to get out from under all of the debts and shit i have to escape the basic monotony of life. Nothing is worth living for.
>>29806241
Those are some awful feels, I'm sorry man.
So basically, you are bored because you know what will happen, but you are afraid of doing the only thing that could give you what you want (acting) because you don't know/are scared of what will happen.
see if you can get medicated for the depression I'm assuming you have and enjoy your time as a NEET by fapping, shitposting, watching your favorite tv shows, and playing vidya, all while the days melt away in weeks and months
get rid of your fear of death
kill all your desire and you kill your suffering
all suffering is desire unfulfilled
>>29806241
Don't do it! There's still a sequel to guardians of the galaxy that you would 've missing!
Live stream it faggot and make it good. Try something original
Sounds like those are some perfectly rational reasons to feel bad anon.
You shouldn't beat yourself up for feeling bad.
think of it this way OP, now you get to grieve all 3 at once, maximum efficiency
that shit could have happened over the course of 3 years and you would have been miserable for 3 years straight
now you'll be back to normal in like 6 months
and always remember how much life can change in just a month, it doesn't always get worse, sometimes the amount of good shit that can happen to you in a month is equally amazing
>>29806309
Fuck that for a joke. Buddhists are boring as fuck. I'd rather be dead than contented. Embrace the absurd. that's more fun
oddish, if this is you, don't kill yourself
>>29806677
Double dubs checked and this is an original post
