>been pretty happy lately
>check my old Twitter (used it for a couple close friends in DM)
>my best friend/only friend from middle school is on there going on about some vidya shit
>hadn't spoken to him since I was 12 because we randomly grew apart
>found his twitter a few years ago because I googled him out of boredom
>mfw my old best friend is now posting furry porn and going on about coming out as trans to his parents
>mfw he's a terrible shit now
>mfw my best friend doesn't even remember me and is basically gone forever
I miss my old friend, /r9k/.
>cum on my cat
>it runs away
>right into my lap
>get chewed out
>get threatened
fml op I didn't even mean to nut on my cat
>>29513848
into my mom's lap*
>been losing mind for a year now
>crying like a little bitch
>random anger
>too much anxiety to even buy groceries most days
>mfw failed a uni class and normie teachers have to decide if I'm dropped
>anxiety & anger get worst
>can't even read about anything school else start sweating cold and crying
>>29513873
>>29513848
It really makes me feel degenerate when I'm fapping and my doggo walks in and stares. This must've been shit.
>>29513882
I feel bad for you, anon. Hope things start to get better.
>>29513884
it was terrible senpai, worst feel ever tbqh
I want to start doing youtube videos so I can actually have an opportunity to express myself but I'm too anxious to do it, and paranoid since I think people will hear me, like my neighbors or something. Someone will hear me. I can't talk when I'm alone it's so weird. But I need a way to get my ideas out there and I think I could find similar people to me that way it'd be a big accomplishment to do it imo.
>>29513935
I just use recording software and pretend I'm talking to a future self with amnesia.
>get gf
>think everything's gonna change for good
>it actually does the opposite
>think all day that she's fucking other guys
>try to improve myself in order to be enough for her
>realize that, by doing this, I'm becoming less desirable, since girls like guys who don't give a shit about them
>go back to not giving a shit about her
>nothing else to give a shit about
>tfw she's probably fucking someone else as I write this
>mood up and down pretty exhaustingly
>smoking weed to cope but that brings some of it's own shitty feelings
>feel spacey and physically uncomfortable
>want real drugs, but no access to them
>nothing seems really interesting, and I have barely any energy anyway
>feeling ungrounded
>work and school feel distant and unreachable, not that they're even desirable
>can't stop thinking about the amount of suffering in the world
I just want to relax and let go of everything.
Normie. Life not bad, just too horny.
i actually started talking to a girl, but she's fucked 6 guys CASUALLY and that makes me uncomfortable because that's a clear indication she doesn't want anything romantic. i really thought i had a chance too. thats what I get for being an optimistic retard though i guess
>>29513996
You can't win, anon.
There is no winning.
There is no off this ride.
>>29513777
I don't want a girlfriend
I don't want to be anywhere near women
I don't want to eat
I don't want to go to work
I don't want to talk to my old friends
I don't want to talk to anyone
I don't want to go smoke weed with my old friends (that's all they do)
I don't want to see my parents
I don't want to play vidya or watch movies
All I want to do is sleep masturbate and mindlessly browse 4chan
>>29513777
I've been "pretending" to work from home for a while now, I just don't have to motivation to actually work and I fear I'm gonna get fired.
>Coming down from xanax, pot, and alcohol
>suddenly remember I don't like people or myself
>No longer want to do things with people
>Staring into my screen with a blank expression
>Still waiting for a bloodclot to kill me.
>>29514229
Benzo's get me so fucked up mentally. Every time I binge, I end up hospitalized.
i've been pissed all day due to this
>help someone load up van with music equipment for a gig because his back is fucked up, takes about an hour to tear down his practice room, drums, speakers, stands, cables, guitar amps, keyboards, keyboard stands, mixer, mic stands, mics, more stuff i'm forgetting, and put it in the van
>right as i'm done loading it the singer calls and says he can't sing because his voice is messed up
>wow
>spend 30 minutes taking it all out myself because can't leave that shit in a van in this heat, plus he had to call the rest of the band/owner of place he was playing to cancel it
what a fucking shit show, 85 degrees out, i got home completely drenched in sweat.
>>29513777
My old male friend is now a feminist and leftist
It's a good thing we didn't keep in touch appearently
>>29513882
I think all your problems stem from school. Probably not putting in enough effort. Take a semester off regardless if you aren't kicked out. Find a job and it'll give you a chance to start over. Hang in there buddy it gets better
>>29514366
at least you got a nice workout
>>29514425
>Probably not putting in enough effort
no kidding
>Find a job
no jobs for eurofags
>Take a semester off regardless
With what money
Thanks for the supportive advice but if I'm kicked it's 200eu/mo neetdom.
>>29514439
that stuff isn't really heavy, just awkward to hold onto. the only heavy thing is the drummers hardware gig bag, idk wtf he had in there but it was like 40lbs
>Twitter existed when he was in middle school
Underage get out.
I had a dream last night that was about some girl telling me she liked me or something like that. I've had these dreams before not a big deal normally but when she told me it the first thing that came out of my mouth was "why?"
It's stupid i know but it's been really bugging me.
>>29514536
It's completely plausible that OP is over 18.
>>29514602
i had a dream last night where i made hillary clinton blueberry pancakes and she got angry with me for some reason that i don't remember
>>29514640
maybe she wanted normal pancakes
Similar story
>really bored
>go on facebook
>childhood friend added me
>I add him back
>we caught up, seemed like the same old guy
>pretty happy about that
>a week later, he posts a bunch of minions memes
>mfw
>mom starts telling me to grow up and I'm retarded and have no life because I didnt get her ear plugs
>I usually don't say anything but this time it was really late and I was tired so I said something really mean
>I feel bad because she didn't even beat my ass or anything, she just sounded actually offended, which is retarded because she's always doing this to people and just doesn't expect anyone to fight back
>mfw my mom will never love me and I don't love her anymore either
I just want a nice mom who likes me
I wouldn't of said that mean thing if she wasn't always making cruel comments.It hurts to admit but some times I really hope she just dies. It makes me really sad because I used to love her so much but she doesn't love me at all
> try my hardest for my daughter because her bitch mum just ditched me for anoyher rich guy
> take care of her myself. Pay for everything
> work 12 hours a day
> still dont get enough money to keep our life stable
> mum takes care of her while im working for free
Then guess what. My daughters bitch of a mum. Comes into MY LIFE, and starts criticizing me about OUR daughter and how im an unfit parent.
> she's most likely going to tell dhs
> the kids most likely getting taken off of me
> if that happens I have no reason to live
> told her mum this she still dosnt care
I just want to die man. I can't handle living anymore. It's too much for me.
>>29514602
>why
too real
My ex messaged me again out of nowhere the other day, hoping she had some nostalgic thoughts about us or still thinks about me on some level.
I know she definitely doesn't and I want to be in the ground because of it. Haven't gotten any in years and I still think about her at least every couple days while I know she's happier with other guys.
>tfw half-black and bisexual
>can't talk to a woman to save my life (when I actually start up a conversation I sperg out)
>traps aren't attracted to me, if they are it's due to BBC (which I lack to be honest)
>I'm not even too interested in sex, just love and cuddling
Who's gonna become /celibate/ here?
>College student with no friends
>Normally spend Friday nights alone
>Tonight I went to a concert with my dad and one of his college buddies
>I've been spending more time with my dad recently
>Positive feels
>Hit me harder that my dad in his 50s has friends and spends a lot of time with them when I don't have any
>They're telling me stories about college including freshman year in the dorms
>I will never experience that
>I will never again be 18 years old and a college freshman
>I won't be able to experience college like I could have
>I won't meet a group of close friends and become lifelong friends
>I will never get back the last three years of my life
>>29514061
Fuck her then drop her like she's meant to be used. Don't be a faggot. You'll be posting here three years from now wondering why you didn't just pump and dump this whore.
>earlier today
>coworkers talking about relationships
>they ask how many girlfriends ive had
>it's none, but wanted to give an answer I would think a normal person would have at my age (18)
>say 2
>fucking 2
>they laugh, becomes joke of the day
>have to sit through a 7 hour shift with giggling normies repeating the number 2
>realized how fucking pathetic and stupid I am
>>29515852
I don't get this at all. I was a complete normie in high school and I had 2 girlfriends at 18. that's a completely normal number
>spoke to a guy from /r9k/
>e-relationship
>It ended
That small taste of a real relationship is driving me nuts.
I WANT A BF
>>29515905
lol for real
if you have ever had a relationship you are a normal
>>29513777
I thought by losing weight I could look somewhat feminine, like I did before. Now I see that I can never go back to looking even remotely like that ever again. I just had to be born with 'chad' genetics. I'm going to get so much hate for this, and I've been here a long time. My life is shitter than most of the peole here.
I JUST want to be average height. I JUST want to have less fucking body hair. But it'll never happen. It is the ONLY thing in life I have EVER wanted, but I can NEVER have it. And don't give me the hormone route, I've tried it, and I don't want fucking boobs thanks. I fucking hate women, and I don't want to be one, I just want to be submissive and take care of a guy, be nice to him, and whatever. But I can't, because I was born inn-able to change myself.
I've also never had a friend, my meds stop me from crying, but always keep me on the brink of it, my head feels fucking empty half the time, and I will never love anything. But I can't die, because I CANT get angry anymore. I've never been able to get angry. All this? It's a sick imitation of what I think people feel when they're angry. I've never felt anything real, and I have no idea if it's even how people are supposed to feel because I've never had a FUCKING friend or family member I can talk to.
That's some of it.
>>29515916
are you a gril?
not a homo?
>>29515953
Depends desu, I'm a tranny so either is correct I guess
I don't even know why I keep going, man. I'm always miserable. I'm never happy. I hate being alive. I've got nobody and the high point of my day is coming home to my computer.
>>29515991
It'll never happen. Back out of trannyhood before it's too late. Suppress it like me.
>>29516025
Its not me being a tranny that causes problems, its being a cunt.
>>29516069
Well then maybe you should stop being one. It's a fucking obvious solution.
>In relationship
>Sometimes feel like I'm being taken for granted
>Turned out to be insecurity
>Mfw I'm a needy, insecure little boy
>Almost had a fight
>Conflict got resolved Wednesday morning
>Now I'm back to my previous issue
>Sex
>She wants it once a week
>I want it once a day
>She's willing to get me off on other days, but I don't know how it's going to last
>I fear that her sex drive may decrease in the future
>About two weeks ago, our sex life was about to return to normal
>She wanted sex every morning, apparently
>I slipped my penis in a wrong angle and she tore and bled
>Couldn't have sex
>Now her sex drive has returned to...once a week
I hope we're going to be okay.
>>29516084
I'm trying, should be starting DBT in the next few months and I've got muh crazy pills to keep me going until then
BUT I WANT A BF NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
>>29516102
You need someone to match your sex drive. My previous boyfriend complained to one of our mutual friends about how I was "too sexual" and that is not the shit I need in my life tbqfh
>>29516121
I think you have a hole in your soul that can't be filled.
Welcome.
>>29513777
>find out i have disease that will cause me pain for the rest of my life
>find out that the one parent who loves me is dying
>no friends
>no one to talk to
>basically don't exist
>tfw no feeling at all
i need to work harder.
i already work hard and do well, but i want to really overcome all laziness. i have a serious investment that depends entirely on my own will to just work, and work, and work until i break. it's all for nothing if i end up greentexting about failed chances, and then what?
death. death fit for a glutton, never being able to support a family, i can't live like that, i need an out. it's legit scary.
>>29515389
what'd you say to her, anon?
My life has been going pretty well over the last few months. Doesn't seem to help the depression though. Trying to be less of a fat slob might help.
>>29516129
My problem was that it did match until her meds changed and we had a second pregnancy scare. At one point, she was hornier than I was. :/
>had girlfriend first year of high school
>somehow managed to attract a girl who liked vidya and anime, wasn't super hot but wasn't ugly at all
>lost my virginity to her
>we were together for half a year
>her psycho mom decided to move
>I tried to get CPS to separate them because she was getting abused
>she lied to CPS to protect her mom and moved at the end of the school year
>spend all summer texting
>I save up enough money to buy a plane ticket to somewhere literally 1000 miles away
>have an absolute hell week with her, her mom treats me like shit and doesn't let us have practically any time to ourselves
>lash out at her
>she breaks up with me a week after I got home
>said my depression and anxiety were too much of a burden for her
>she ends up becoming a lesbian and we eventually cut contact
>instead of getting worse I work hard to improve myself physically and mentally
>6 years later
>still think about her all the time
>know I'm not attractive enough to ever get another girl
>somehow still alive
Call me a normie all you want, but you don't know suffering until you know what a woman feels like and then have it taken away from you.
>she will never fall asleep with her head nuzzled into my chest again
>>29514640
probly because she deleted everything off her blackberry and democrats are retarded so black and blue mean the same thing to them
>Wife pregnant
>Gives birth to baby six weeks early
>Baby is in NICU for at least the next week because she is premature
>Baby has to be fed through a tube in her nose
>TFW you have to watch your daughter in an incubator, getting tube fed
>Just want to bring her home
Get on my level faggots.
>tfw three different men have crushes on me
>tfw I had crushes on two of those men before they started interacting with me
has the gaybot struggle ended?
>>29516144
Someone somewhere will fill it!
>>29516195
She's just a shit person for saying that you anxiety and depression aka things you can't fucking control are too much for her. Don't even fret. She's a bitch
>>29516169
I said at least I didn't graduate college when I was 50 and her being mean is why she doesn't have friends anymore
i'm really debating on moving back to my hometown. i've lived in my current town all my life but i feel like i should be near family so i can build some sort of relationship with them. plus i could use the change of scenery.
>>29516220
You'll get one and you'll never quite be satisfied because there's always something missing. Whether it's your self image, or just your inability to love them properly. There will always be doubt.
Been through it before. Good luck though.
>>29516230
I forgot to add that she had developing schizophrenia. I'm pretty sure she's on meds now but she wasn't before.
>>29515916
If youre a grill atleast 6/10:
Come to Canada and live in my home. Im 22 /fit/ and attractive. Here's the catch though, I work in a granite mine which is in a very secluded area, I own my own house but its in a forest and my closest neighbor is 5kms away. Im lonely and just want someone to come home and cuddle with. Its a lonely life and im tired of meaningless sex. I spend my days looking at wolves and moose in my backyard while drinking whisky.
>>29515852
>they ask how many girlfriends ive had
what an odd question. i don't think i've ever been asked that.
>>29516295
same but I have had people who just assumed i've had sex before.
>>29516152
I can't relate to the first two but the rest is all me.
>>29516291
do u liek hiking, camping, etc
>have few people i care about
>one of those few people starts distancing themself away from me and acting like they're pissed off at me all the time
:/
>>29516206
>Get on my level faggots.
had sympathy for you up until that. i mean, i still do; but this isn't a misery dick measuring contest you utter faggot.
>>29515389
My mom is nice to me, but only because it strokes her ego
She basically is constantly complimenting and doting on me to the point of making me sick, but it's always because "she raised me" and I'm "her son" she's just fucking proud of herself
>she didn't teach me shit as a kid
>ANON, I PLANNED TO TEACH YOU HOW TO BECOME A SELF LEARNER
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Ever since I got a samsung Ive realized just how much i hate apple emojis, so fucking smug.
Samsung is so much more cute desu and less like sarcastic or something
I always feel like im getting egged on by apple emojis like this one, but on samsung it just looks like a cute kid
>>29516339
Of course, I do a lot of fishing and hiking. Between work, im either playing guitar, fishing or lifting.
>>29516341
I think what I meant was that all these guys complaining about not having girlfriends is really not nearly as significant as looking at your child hooked up to machines, and with tubes coming out of her.
It's been a really hard week for my wife and I.
>>29516206
>>29516518
You're not alone, man. I had a baby girl. She spent most of her life in hospitals, and she died in front of me. She thought I was some sort of superhuman who could do anything and I let her down. Dad powers can't beat cancer, you know?
>feeling as though my depression is getting worse than it has in the past few years
>still unsure as to when my father's disease is going to get worse and potentially kill him
>worried about stability of my parent's marriage due to this/financial hardships
>22 and still live with said parents
>best friends are moving from my town to a big city nearby, going to school, and getting their lives together
>i won't be back in school for another half year, doing a program on addiction's and mental health when i'm most likely an alcoholic with mental issues already
>been working the same job for 6 years, starting to take it's toll on me
idk at least i have cider.
>>29516564
I've never felt so powerless in my entire life. Looking at your child, who you have fallen in love with, sick is the worst feeling in the world. I want to cry every time I walk into the NICU. Hopefully, she should be able to come home in the next two weeks, if she starts eating on her own.
>moving to go to college
>gay friend helps me pack
> after were done he gives me the gay look
>say i'm not gay
>gay friend punches me
he also stole some of my money
>>29516610
Hopefully, yeah. It's not something anybody should have to go through.
>Somewhat seriously ask a woman out
>She says she doesn't want to be with anyone currently but we should still have lunch
>smile as I know we're never going to have lunch
>>29515389
>Live at home because >rent is bullshit unless you're with someone
>Mention something at work
>Mother IMMEDIATELY starts talking about herself
>>29516638
Going through this kind of thing really puts your life in perspective.
I've never felt love for someone that I feel for my child.
>>29516689
Me neither. I love her mom, but not as strongly as I did her. Only knew her a few years, but they were the happiest I'd ever been. She never even got a chance at a normal life.
>>29516733
Man, talking about your children is an emotional topic.
I am very sorry for your loss. I mean that.
>want a gf
>go on tinder
>match with a nice girl
>speak with her and she seems nice
>talk to her, get her number, snapchat, nudes all in a few days
>jerk off
>no longer want gf, avoid contact for a week and cancel any plans I've made
>get lonely again
>repeat for the last two years I've had tinder
Being a good looking autist is suffering
No one actually gives a shit but I'm just going to vent
>Barely graduate high school 2014
>Have NVLD everyone thinks I'm dumb
>Always have had a rough time in school not exactly autismo mode but not good in social situations constant anxiety, depression, bad grades, etc.
>Dad lives with his sister and isn't right in the head not seriously mentally ill just very off...
>Mom suffers from depression and spends all of her time working or chain smoking and browsing Facebook
>Been working off and on for the past two years still haven't really done anything
>$3 in savings
>0 college credits
>small group of friends probably sick and tired of my self loathing and depressing shit
>After a large acid trip my job seemed increasingly worthless and I just stopped showing up.
>Been a NEET for the past 4 months feel like a complete piece of shit
>Have no direction in life no guidance feel empty inside
just FYI all of the mental shit listed above isn't self diagnosed bullshit I was even hospitalized in 2013 it was hell on earth.
>Supposed to pay student loans for the month
>Was unable to do so because I only have a few bucks in my account
>tfw I'm worried I'll start to get phone calls asking for money and get thrown into jail
>tfw I don't have a job so I can't just wait a while to get the money
At this point I'm seriously considering killing myself. I'd rather suicide then get butt fucked by Jamal in prison.
>have church tomorrow
>dont want to go
>didnt go last week
>whenever I dont show up, I get calls from 4 or 5 people asking if I am ok
please just let me disappear existence and die
>>29513777
>kicked out of school on the last year 2 weeks before graduation
>Not a clue what are my plans for the summer oh shit there are only 2 months left of it.
>In a drunken rage i might have destroyed all relations with the only girl who could have ever given a shit about me. We were never gf/bf, but at one point we were actually really good friends, but at different times one wanted more than the other so yea shits fucked up and i killed it.
>Weed is not fun anymore.
>Video games are not fun anymore.
>Depression is coming in huge fucking weaves. 2 weeks ago i cried through my sunglasses on a public transport.
>It's so so so so fucking hard to genuinely care about anything at this point.
>Oh, also, at this point i have like 5euros to my name. Five. Im absolutely broke.
Someone tell me it can't get any worse than this.
>>29516907
>Don't want to go to Church or simply don't bother going
>My parents react like I just buttfucked a dog
>Tell them that you don't have to go to church and it doesn't say that you do anywhere in the bible
>B-but m-muh community!
And that's one of the things I hate about my parents. They treat church like a social event, only a place you go to make friends and talk to them. Not, you know, worship god.
I've been thinking about death more than ever lately. Not in the normal in going to kill myself way, just the concept.
It happens mostly at night. I'll be trying to fall asleep and then it just hits me. One day everyone in my family will be dead. I can deal with that feel but it still makes me sad.
The one that gets me the most is that one day I'll just stop existing, and given modern medicine and the career I'm choosing I'll most likely know weeks in advance my date of death.
The fact that I'll just not exist is just crazy. On top of that, I just feel like life is just so awful for like 85% of people, but they just keep clinging to life. The fact that the next 40 odd years of my life will be dedicated to work is baffling. Why did humans agree to this? I'd rather be some Stone Age hunter barely surviving than be constantly bored with only minor distractions like vidya and anime, which even now I'm losing interest in.
Side note, call me an autist, but one of the worst feelings I have is that I'll most likely go on some grand adventure in my life. Even traveling the world seems like a 6/10 at best.
>posting in another thread
>got 3 replies from the same anon
>must be love
Last night I had a really long and vivid dream. I can't remember most of it, but toward the end, my fictional friend and I tried to kill the history teacher who failed me last year.
I have nothing against the guy in real life. I like him better than most of my teachers, he just assigned too much stuff for me to handle because I suck at time management.
I aimed a rifle at his head and my gun misfired twice. There was chaos and smoke everywhere and I escaped the classroom and left the school, and it was nighttime, and I looked over my shoulder to see my teacher running after me.
It was like I was walking on the moon, taking these humongous, ineffectual strides, trying to run away. I jumped on top of a building and saw my teacher passing on a nearby street, looking for me. He saw me on the roof and asked me how I was doing and we talked about what it means to be a man. Then he walked away.
>>29514602
I had one dream where my oneitis told me she loved me and I just kinda said "cool" in a nervous tone and pretended that didn't happen. Tfw can't even find love in my dreams
>>29517024
>It's tradition, anon
>>29513777
Your post just made me check twitter
>live in Ireland
>American dude i met in random bar at a game of thrones quiz in 2013 just messaged me 5 hours ago
>he's coming back to Belfast and wants to meet up for a drink and talk wrestling again
Genuinely delighted someone would remember me like that. Its lifted my mood massively. Thanks OP!
>>29513996
Improve for yourself mate. Don't worry about women, they're a meme. Just improve for you.
>>29517848
I'm pretty conservative, but even I'm not stupid enough to think just because a bunch of people did something in the past, that I should too.
>>29513777
>wake up at 1pm and decide to be productive
>decide to go pick some mulberries so I can make some mulberry mead later
>bike 20 minutes to a set of mulberry trees that back onto a golfcourse
>People give me weird looks as a pick berries that are growing through a chain link fence.
>eat a couple, damn they taste good.
>2 hours later Im back at home examining my stash of berries.
>notice 30% of the berries are infested with fruit fly larvae
>sort through them purging as many bad berries as possible.
>decide there is no way to tell if I have separated all the berries containing maggots.
>throw them all away.
>mfw I should have just bought a 5$ bag of frozen berries
>tfw I wasted the entire day picking and sorting berries
>tfw I probably ate fruit fly larvae
I hate this
>>29515771
>be somewhat competent at photography
>my dad is turning 50 this year but still plays football
>wants me to take pictures at his football dinner for Facebook etc
>surewhynot
>surrounded by Normie's with their slutty yet oddly beautiful gfs
>realise I will never understand or participate in this camaraderie and brotherhood and subsequently long for it
>smile and take the fucking pictures anyway
Pic related. Can you see the sadness in my eyes
>had good night out with friends
>get home
>comfy
>hear cat mewling outside
>go to check on it
>it's just a kitten in the window
>suddenly realize i don't really remember going out here
>dissociation
>remember i forgot to take my meds
>manic
>go back inside
>10 minutes pass
>still haven't taken them
>stumble around
>realize i'm manic
>want to go camping
>swallow pills
>waiting for them to activate
fuck me
>in love with best friend
>going on naked bike ride tomorrow
>meeting up with him
>he knows i like him
>can't stop thinkin bout that tight bod
why
>>29517971
but protein bro gainz bro
>hurr just BE YOURSELF U GOTTA TRY XD
>get so fed up with my loneliness I go out in public and tell random girls within my league that i like them and ask them out for coffee
>10 minutes in I'm rejected 5 times already, the adrenaline is surging and IDGAF anymore
>i'm plowing down the street going through girls
>my standards getting lower, I'm asking ANY sexable girl who I cross paths with
>they all look at me like a creep even though I groomed well and put on my best clothes
>no bites, my age gap getting wider
>after 20 rejections, this southern 4/10 milf patronizes me with a conversation
>gives me her # with a pitying look
>excited as FUCK since I just bagged a cougar, even if it'll only be a pity fuck
>mfw she completely ignores my text
there's no hope
>>29517987
Are you left? Because left is quite cute.
>>29515531
You're a good father and I'm sorry this is happening to you. Keep hanging in there and fighting for your daughter.
>>29516206
>>29516564
>>29516610
>>29516638
>>29516689
>>29516733
>>29516803
Reading this exchange has invoked all sort of feelings, mostly of sympathy but also anxiety. I love my son so much that I can't imagine seeing him on machines or losing him completely. I feel bad for both of you, and hope things get better
>>29518165
Try hotter ones, anon. They usually don't get to ask out because guys are too scared to talk to them randomly on a street.
If it won't work out, go to the bar. It's very tricky to ask girls out randomly, their decision might be based on: how their day was, whether someone dumped them recently, etc.
>>29518165
uhhhhhhh as a fembot i assume any man approaching me in public will try to murder me ^_^ its just the way of the world anon
try the bar dumbass
>just took some bread out of the freezer
>going to be at minimum another 20 minutes before i can eat my sandwich
nothing ever goes the way i want
started hanging out with this 9/10 cutie from work who flirts with me and has admitted that she has a crush on me, but i found out a few days ago while hanging with her that she has some douchebag drug abusing bf. He will probably end up taking her virginity even though he treats her like shit apparently. She was the first girl that has shown interest in me in a long time and I honestly thought I had a chance with but when I found out she had a bf I pretty much gave up. She was basically perfect in my eyes and I thought I was gonna make it, turns out I was wrong about that so I guess it's back to sitting in my room being depressed all day. I'll probably never get a gf and if I do she'll eventually cheat or break up with me because even though I'm apparently good looking, unfortunately I'm a beta bitch. I want to kill myself
the only thing keeping me happy was drugs
ran out of money for them
no job
can't get my own place
friends from high school have slowly stopped talking to me
spending all day playing vidya and mindlessly scrolling through 4chan
want to kill myself but it would destroy so much of my family and i'm not giving my mother the satisfaction of never having to deal with me again
am I doomed to become a neet?
>in past 2 years lost 100 pounds and my virginity, started having a life after a couple years a shut in and got my own apartment
>year anniversary of relationship coming up soon
>started slanging darknet molly xans, and other narcotic pills cause the few people I was friends with where connected and I was money hungry, so added stress and paranoia but insane profit margins a well managed bankroll and foolproof system
>getting 12.50 an hour now at my construction job which I basically consider my weed/snack money
>stopped playing vidya only really watch animu or other stuff instead
>drifting away from non drug connect friends because I dont have the time to really chill with them but at the same time getting deeper into the game than I ever thought I would
>possibility of my wonderful new life crumbling sinking in deeper every day but the money from my job aint enough to support me
>got a moderate gambling problem with sports betting and dice, but I have enough money the only time it really changes my daily life noticeably is when I go on a winning streak
I feel a lot better than I was a NEET
>tfw people only tolerate you
>tfw you will never be needed
>tfw you will never be wanted
>tfw you're just a useless waste of space that will never be truly loved by anyone
>>29519101
People only tolerate me when they need me.
My pc fan is broken and I have to read books until new one arrives. And all mu vacation plans are ruined as well.
>>29514536
twitter launched 10 years ago friend.
>get insomnia
>had problems with insomnia in the past
>think it's because of overtraining syndrome
>deload
>still fucking have insomnia
P I S S E D
>>29516195
>she will never fall asleep with her head nuzzled into my chest again
Fuck off man.
>>29514536
>being this much of a faggot about being under aged
Seriously though just fill the bathtub with water and slit Yo wrists vertically
>Holidays start
>Have already wasted 1.5 weeks doing nothing but vidya and shit
holidays never work out for me
Been single for 5 years, not counting couple of one night stands. Finally got a gf, almost two months together, younger than me, she is starting uni in a few months. Was a virgin until me, tight as fuck. Face is 6.5/10, average but in an okay way. Slightly overweight, mostly hips, ass and thighs which I am okay with. She gets me hard and gets me off. Literally up to try anything in bed, no typical teenage drama, not clingy, literally everything you can asks for, within reason, in an 18yo chick.
However there is another girl. I talked to her a few times, she lives near my workplace. She is super nice, far hotter than gf. But more importantly, when we have those brief talks she makes me feel physically like I'm about to cum. I get all tense, I get turned on mentally, I just know she could make me cum with her eyes only. And it makes me fucking depressed because I am a shallow little shit. I finally have someone who makes me feel happy, but still doesn't make me feel tingly like this other girl does. Problem lies in the fact that there is no way to look up this girl because I dont have a normiebook, and there is no way to set up some kind of accidental meeting. So all I can do is wait for next random seeing and literally be direct as fuck and explain my situation to her, sans the gf part obviously.
Other than that, I've been pretty good. Not feeling >tfwnogf is such an immense weight off my shoulders. Sleeping next to a tight young ass in a thong does wonders for one's psyche and mental state. Keep trying robots, put active and conscious effort. Don't be yourself but lie if you have to. There is hope.
>make friends with robot
>flirt a bit
>get good response
>talk lewd
>imply emotional attachment
>get dropped
Third time this year, ffs
I had a nervous breakdown
Developed OCD
Went on fucking Abilify
Now I'm tired all the time
But I'm not a slave to my thoughts anymore
No more checking the car doors 12 times and banging my head into walls like an autist
>>29515650
What about men?
>inb4 "i only like traps" prison gay
>be out
>girls say "ha ha anon you look like a pedo"
>me "ha ha" brush it of
>tfw fapped to delicious you know what
>tfw they can sense it
>>29522059
They are just jealous of your superior taste, my friend.
>>29514114
jesus, kekeded
>>29513777
Is there anything worse than being a self-aware robot? I so fucking angry at myself but isn't anything I can do about it. I rely on my family to send food to my house and they haven't but I'm living alone to begin with because they're scared of me and I have healthy problems mental and not that stop me from working, my body is oddly proportioned, I'm ugly, I'm weak even when I work out, I can't grow facial hair but a pube mustache and pube chinstrap, my teeth are rotting out and I can't get them checked because I'm fucking incompetent having to rely on my worthless family, I'm too stupid to learn anything enough to do anything but just aware enough to know that almost everything is fucked and that I'm worthless and unable to to anything about it, and I'm not even getting started yet.
Why. Why is it that almost everything in my life that could've gone wrong went wrong? I want to scream and hit things but I'd just be risking my health if I got so worked up.
Fuck everyone from my old school.
Fuck their mental games.
7 years later and I still hate them.
>>29522059
nice, babe
>>29522076
>>29522198
thanks m80s
origamitsu
>>29516206
i'm trapped in bed due to my health and am basically retarded
fuck your nigger baby, you cuck
I've come home from uni and my mum is doing my head in.
>Its brought up that I can't get signal on my phone
>she gives me a long winded run down of networks my brother's are on and how they couldn't get signal
She spoke for about twenty minutes and shes asked me about five times today if I've managed to call someone yet. I told her yes, then she asks me if I've managed to call anyone else.
I'm afraid to ask her anything because I literally won't be able to fucking get away from her.
It's like living next to a construction site that's working for twelve hours every single day.
>>29521989
male or female?
why are you flirting and talking lewd with a "friend"
>>29522021
Sorry for the late reply. I don't mind men either, just depends on age.
>>29518196
I am. That's me and my dad. And trust me its just good angles and lighting.
ive been actively attempting to get a career job for just about 2 years now.
working night shift at a warehouse is not how i want to spend my life
the job search is draining the remains of my will to live
i could just give up and kill myself but i refuse to just yet, maybe a couple more weeks
