Eating Disorder Thread
>God-tier Anorexics
>bulimics
>over exercisers
>ED-NOS
>binge eaters/over eaters
even feeders can join!
come talk about your food/weight issues with other anons.
I'm bulimic. I personally worship anorexics. I've been both but bulimia makes me feel like a disgusting fat pig while anorexic queens starve themselves perfect.
i just want to go back to my happy weight so i'm restricting like crazy
>>29256361
what weight are you at and what's your happy weight?
>>29256373
im currently 110 lbs, 5'2"
my happy weight is 90
Does 1 meal a day work? I'm fat as fuck from antipsychotics and sick of it.
>>29256413
Shit do antipsychotics cause significant weight gain?
>>29256516
Yeah, it messes with your metabolism.
Guys, I've been dealing with anorexia and bulimia for a while, will I ever get back to the point where I have a normal person's relationship to food?
>>29256406
90 seems healthy for 5'2"
I'm 5'4" and 90 is one of my favorite weights. 110 is actually the thinnest end of the "healthy" weight range for 5'4"
>>29256413
I would instead choose a target caloric intake for a day. Find out how much your resting metabolic rate is, that tells you how many calories it takes to maintain your current weight. You're only supposed to go 500 calories under that for healthy weight loss, but if you cut down a lot of calories, you will lose faster.
So, select your caloric intake. Calculate what kind of meal you might make. I used to make soups with lots of veg and some protein, then divide it evenly and eat it throughout the day. That way you will feel more full. Drink lots of water, eat slowly, and split up your intake. Track everything and double check the math, always.
>>29256765
maybe, but at this point it's like addiction so in 30 years you'll still be in recovery but it might not consume your thoughts anymore, you know?
>5'4", 85 lbs
>not trying to be anorexic, I just don't like eating
>can see my ribs clearly, have lanugo, hate how I look
JUST
>>29256953
That's my height at my goal weight! Post pics of your pelvis?
>>29257029
Lightings not great, sorry
>>29256233
That one girl on YouTube. She's so fucking delusional.
I'd hatefuck the shit out of her. Pick her up with one arm, twist and contort her in any way. It'd be god damn awesome.
>>29257203
aww, your tummy is so cute.
What's your body shape? my hips are so wide I'm jealous of how yours go in like that, I bet your thigh gap is perfect
>>29257332
I'm just really slim all over, I have no tits or ass ;_;
This is with my ankles touching, idk if this is a nice thigh gap or nah
>>29257419
that is a glorious thigh gap. You also do have wide hips. Your body is really nice. I don't look anywhere near that cute when I've been at that weight.
You're so cute. Will you post your collarbones?
>>29257419
>ywn have a body like this
;___;
I met an anorexic girl in the psych ward. She was cute. Ran a succulent arrangement business.
Out of curiosity, how many of you anorexics here are into some variety of sadomasochism.
>>29257419
>>>/lgbt/
/r9k/ is not your tranny board, you mentally ill monster.
>>29257522
Thanks!
This is from when I was like 95 lbs, I'd take a new one but I'm in class right now
>>29257919
ana/mia op here, I'm very deeply sadomasochistic, emphasis on the masochist
>>29258013
you are a goddess.
>like a little bit of meat
>gf potentially developing eating disorder
>tfw no anorexic gf
>>29258357
the world is crawling with fat piggos who can be your gf
>>29258439
I only want her and I don't want her to hurt herself or otherwise cause damage to her body by starving herself.
>glamorizing mental illness
Fingers crossed you never have any type of gf
binge eater here, went from 265 lbs to 175, now i'm back up to 211.
>>29258467
>>glamorizing mental illness
Most of what people call "anorexic" is nothing approaching it. e.g. >>29257419 though I can't see for certain.
>being a salty bacon lover
Fingers crossed you drown in a vat of lard.
>>29258467
well, there's two sides to this. There are the proana/mia people who Want this. We choose it. We are caught in the grips of illness like others, but we crave it and it means more to us than health.
And there is being too sick to be able to get out. If she's just developing a problem now, and hasn't been this way forever, she can really use support and a reminder that her actions affect others and while she may not care how it affects her, she might consider how fucked up it is for the people she cares about to watch her deteriorate.
Once you're caught up, you begin to isolate and nothing matters quite as much as you ED. Talk to her.
>>29256233
i'm more into fatty chicks desu senpai
skellies don't have big boobs or big ass
im 177cm and 55kg and ive gained so much weight these 2 weeks of summer i literally want to kms but also want to live a happy life and not worry abt my weight because hardly anyone cares FU CK
>>29258545
>Most of what people call "anorexic" is nothing approaching it. e.g. >>29257419
well, if she weighs what she says she does at that weight and also meets two other symptoms, she is clinically diagnosable as anorexic. Nonetheless, I support your shitting on this dumb anon.
mental illness is sexy
>>29258570
Thats big time under weight
I'm 179cm 75kg
>>29258545
>a BMI of 14 isn't extremely dangerous
Visually they don't look so terribly bad from that specific picture but it just seems wrong and frail to me- and then their other pictures become outright disgusting
>>29258640
i was 50kg before june and i was always really scared of going over 55 :< (im not a pro ana though, im struggling hardcore)
>>29258632
I've never met a person who feels like mental illnesses are desirable who doesn't culture and prop up negative thoughts and tendencies to be able to assert complete control and dominance over another human being who, in reality, needs help and therapy.
>>29258632
girl in pic obviously sucking in, stretching also helps.
>>29258675
Wait is this a girls thread?
>>29258741
anyone can have an ED. im a girl, personally
>>29258772
Thought you were a guy because your height but still 55kg is fucked up anon you must be a skeleton
>>29258683
neither have I, but people who don't culture and prop up negative thoughts and tendencies in a person with mental illness are... boring. You normies and your boring ass "get help" bullshit are no fun. You know what helps? Helping yourself. For some of us, that means wading around in the shit and the muck that is our psyche, finding someone fucked as we are and drowning in it all with each other until the breaking point, where you either break or resurface. Going through this much shit makes us strong. We don't break unless we want to break, and it's addictive. It's a high. It's not fucking boring like life on meds and therapy and routine and bullshit. It's intense and addictive and I'd 100% rather fuck hard and cry and shatter inside over and over again and be held by the person who beat me and told me my worst fears were true and all the bad things are the reality than ever have to deal with trying to be the healthy thing someone like you would rather have me be, because I cum so hard it breaks dimensions and I love insanity and I can handle it no matter how it hurts.
Everything else is mundane. Find healthy people to be what you want people to be. Leave us to our madness. If we're not already gutter-tier, we're probably going to find a way to make it, that will likely never conform to the typical idea of a "healthy" lifestyle, but we don't give a fuck.
at least... I don't.
>>29258703
this one isn't.
>>29256233
i dont think i have an eating disorder, just bad eating habits like eating 1-2 meals per day
>>29258919
whoops, wrong pic but still beautiful
>>29256256
I found a new fetish.
LESBIAN KEKQUEEN PORN WHEN?
>>29258957
how is this real? this is disgusting, she was probably on the verge of dying, or probably already is dead
how do people find skin on bones attractive? eat a fucking burger!
5'4
about 100lbs
do i count as an underweight/anorexic? i don't starve myself. i eat a shit ton actually, i just have a hard time putting on weight even when i try
>>29256233
GOD TIER
>anorexics
OK TIER
>ED-NOS
>over exercisers
>bullimia+anorexia combo
SHIT TIER
>binge eaters
>bullimics
>>29258957
Most beautiful anorexic in the thread so far
>>29259435
You count as underweight yes.
You don't count as anorexic unless you are doing it deliberately. Otherwise you are just like all the skelly males that inhabit this place
>I eat a shit ton
liar
5'3" and 115lb trying to get down to 98. I've been gaining because some guy I met on here is ignoring me and I am pathetic
>>29256233
>tfw not purposefully trying to be thin, just too lazy to cook or eat
as a result I am like 90 lbs
don't even care enough to eat and gain weight
oh my god I've been waiting for a thread like this forever
trying desperately to get to 80-85 but I also ike whiskey
UrggGGGGggHHhhh
>>29259746
Exact same size over here!
>>29256233
Bulimia is not good, I'm ok with anorexia but bulimia is just stupid.
Ex-anorexic here. Summer is coming along and I'm 10lbs over my comfort weight and 20lbs over my goal weight. I wish I had the motivation to keep myself thin again. A good relationship led me to gaining a bit of weight out of comfort and now I can't stand myself. Did the "eat healthy and exercise" meme actually work for anyone?
>tfw having to put alarms to remember to eat and drink water
>>29256256
Is there source?
largfdfdgs
I used to had ed-nos when I was in high school. Never got confronted about it or diagnosed, a bit proud to say.
Never purged, but I restricted pretty heavily. I'd aim for 300 calories a day, the occasional 500 to decrease chances of fainting. Never went above 1,000 calories at my most gluttonous. At my lightest I was 110 pounds at 5'11". I was usually at 115, though.
I've gotten pretty lax because of friends and the exercise drills I do now in martial arts. I'm normally around 125 pounds now. I feel bad about it sometimes, but I forget to eat enough that it's not too bad.
>>29260698
Geez fattie do you have to be such a lard ass?
>>29259389
>eat a fucking burger!
god bless americaaaaaaaaa
I don't know if this even has a name, but I basically don't eat normal food, just crap like cookies, doritos etc. The most "normal" things I eat would be bread and dairy products. I can't eat things like vegetables, meat and whatnot, the smell and taste make me puke, every time I tried to eat something like rice, potatoes, beans, chicken etc I've puked.
I also just dislike eating in general and just nibble on tiny amounts of the "food" that I eat whenever I feel hungry, I'm slightly underweight too.
No matter how little I eat, I don't lose weight. I'm currently so fat, 6'2" 175lbs, but the weight won't come off. Any tips?
I'm bulimic and I wish I had the self control that anorexics do
5'10" 209lb chubby here
Should I do less weights at the gym and focus on cardio to cut more?
Heaviest right now is 250lb 4 sets of 10 on Leg Press
Anyone else have vomit cups? I sometimes don't dispose of them for days.
>dropped 20 pounds this past March due to extreme stress
>could not force myself to eat, throat would close up and the smell of food made me nauseous
>did not have enough body weight to support that to start with, hit 85 at my lowest ever since puberty
>constant fatigue and had double vision and vertigo episodes
>spent five hours puking one day because I felt sea-sick
>gradually working my way back up, have plateaued at 95 but feeling a lot healthier and energized
I was worried I would end up developing a body image disorder because I was so invested in staring in the mirror naked and hopping on the scale several times a day. I still don't have any muscle to my body but at least my ribs and sternum aren't showing through.
I've been dieting for the last three weeks. Lost 26lbs so far.
>Feeling pretty good.
>>29261595
Exercise is exercise. Eat less exercise more
>>29256233
I'm not white or a faggot, so i don't actually believe in eating disorders but i eat maybe once every 48 hours.
>eat as much as possible
>can't exercise
>5'11
>42kg
FUCK I HATE MY HIGH METABOLISM I CANT GAIN FAT OR MUSCLE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>>29260345
are you a girl, senpai? we should be friends
I don't have an eating disorder, but I am pretty damn bony. My ribs stick out all the time in my chest and above my abdomen. I have smaller breasts and my hips look bony too.... can I join?
>6'0
>110 pounds
GAIN CONTROL
LOSE WEIGHT
LOSE CONTROL
GAIN WEIGHT
>>29261486
I can relate to that anon. Especially the meat part. I think eating meat is disgusting and even the thought grosses me out.
I'm a finicky eater too. I ate 2 rollos and a couple of tortilla chips for lunch. Just make sure to take vitamins!
>want to kms because i'll never be cute and lithe like pic related
I want to not wake up
>>29262542
If you are a fembot and super thin then you are a qt
>>29256233
T-t-thanks Mrs. Skeletal
>>29262621
>will never be lithe
I'm the only fatass in this thread. I'm here for inspiration.
>>29262621
I think she's probably not thin because she wants to look like the girl in the image.
>>29262670
If you're such a fatass then why don't you get up and do some exercise?
Eat, but just don't eat a bunch of crap. Get enough vitamins and protein and you will lose weight.
>>29262717
I exercise but not enough to see any significant results, and I eat too much. It feels really good to eat. Any time I try restricting for a week I give up because I get too stressed out because even if I lost the weight I doubt I'd look like a qt like pic related, so its like why bother
>>29262758
>it feels really good to eat
That right there is your problem. Next time you eat think about how terrible it tastes and how you wish you didn't need to eat. Don't take any joy in eating and you will not be a fatass.
>>29262821
you can't coach someone into an ED, she's obviously just going to stay a fat ass.
>>29262821
It doesn't taste terrible, it tastes great and gives me a happy feeling, which is rare because of how shitty everything else is.
Even when I fast for the day, and then have something small the next morning... I like feeling how light I am in the morning but I like the food too. It feels comfy especially if its been a bad day. >>29262894 is right. I will probably stay a fatass. Not like it matters because I don't have the right proportions to look like the qts I admire, so I probably wouldn't even look good thin either. So I guess I'm not losing too much.
>>29262758
If only we could trade.
I treat eating like a chore and do it as little as possible
I don't think I have a disorder, but everyone tells me I do. I feel like I eat enough -- being skinny isn't the goal. I don't give a fuck what I look like in terms of muscle/fat.
I'm 5' 8" male 112 lbs. Everyone misjudges my age by ~10 years. So it goes.
>>29262983
I mean I used to have similar feelings, I'd ignore hunger pains, dizziness, etc. I wasn't even thinking so hard about losing weight, it was just physically hard to eat. I'd only eat if I was starting to feel like I was going to pass out. I don't know how I got here, it's shameful.
>>29262962
Weak minded then I suppose.
Why would you fast? You need food to survive. Just eat less calories than you burn.
>>29263056
I feel like I have to punish myself for being lazy and inept.
I am 245 lbs... I always have to do a double-take when I read that number, since other people describe themselves as being fat at much lower weights than this and yet I don't feel fat particularly. I'm very active and don't struggle with anything besides chub rub starting forest fires between my legs.
Nontheless I am losing weight and doing regular exercise. Funny how I used to be anorexic as a child and then I just went totally the other way. Has science gone too far?
>>29263080
That is very silly. You should get psychiatric help.
why would anyone develop bulimia? it makes your breath horrible and your teeth rot and screws up your digestive tract. it's much simpler to just not eat.
that being said,
>tfw home for the summer
>tfw parents are already suspicious that I have eating problems
>tfw being forced to eat actual meals instead of just replacing them with coffee or water
it's stressing me out so much
>>29260698
Rare Gondola
>>29263105
I have, it's more complicated than that.
>>29263027
I feel this on a deep level, 2bh. I wish I could live off green tea lattes and bananas.
>>29263117
Kek
5'2" 100 lbs here and I feel disgustingly fat. I got down to 90 last winter and looked decent. I'm really tired all the time too
>>29263181
How do you think I feel at 110? Morbidly obese.
>>29263223
yikes, I can't even imagine being at that weight. drink lots of water and coffee and you'll lose weight no problem
what is your diet regimen right now?
Who else /anafeedee/ here? I've psychoanalyzed it perfectly.
>was severely underfed as a child
>also just hated living in general since childhood
>now 6'3" 130ish
>don't even purposefully restrict that much
>stomach probably fucked from never getting enough
>want to feed girls to make up for the pampered fat loli childhood i never had
Body pic because I always get asked. (At least on /fa/, I've never seen one of these threads here before.)
>>29263283
Well I'm down from 115 which was hell. I try to stay around 1000, but I know I need to go lower. When I was 90ish I was eating 500/day, usually less, just a cup-a-soup an apple and maybe an egg.
>>29263373
1000 is a good balance, I try to stay around there as well. it's no use having no energy, you have to think long-term and if you're down to 500 or less per day you'll be more prone to binging
>>29262280
yes fgt. gib to me
>>29263312
I am saving your picture and shooping of your weird belly mole.
>>29260419
the worst I've ever done unintentionally was 3 days without eating. I only remembered after finally getting hunger pangs
>>29257919
ana here, does hardcore guro count
>>29257919
I'm pretty masochistic, haven't managed to find any long term partner that's willing to put cigarettes out on me or choke me until I pass out
>>29263312
I have a similar type fetish where I want to be starved (save for his... milk) and fall back really deeply into anorexia (currently bulimic, bleh) and he'll jokingly tease me about how chubby I'm looking, stuff like that. He'll be sweet about saying mean, kind of cutting things that would hurt the anorexic in me. That way it perpetuates itself and I just want to starve more and more... so, as a form of torture, he would tie me down and feed me things, making fun of me for being such a little piggy and saying teasing stuff about how hungry I must be because I'm eating so much. He's forcing me and he's being mean, but he's sweet about it and I get dizzy from the food and fear and anxiety and disgust and sadness and I cry and cry and beg him to stop and he only stops when he decides to... stuff my face with, you know, him. So he'd put it in when I have a gross mouth full of food (pref something sweet like whipped cream or similar) and then it would be over when I've finished him and cleaned him up.
If I did a good job, he'd let me throw up but if he was feeling mean (or if I legitimately needed to keep food down and he didn't feed me Too much) he'd not let me and instead lay me down and rub my belly and call me good girl and then later he'd let me go on a jog together with him and he'd piggy back ride me when I got too exhausted because he'd have so much more energy than me.
>tfw no psychologically abusive bf </3
also, you have a cute bod. Very cute.
>>29263312
I hope that one day I will be able to achieve a comparably skeletal form. Looks very good.
>>29256413
>>29256670
>>29256516
No antipsychotics increase your appetite
>>29263542
Which one, the one on the right or the one on the middle?
>>29263755
This sounds really hot though I don't know if it would get me off unless she actually gained weight. Also thanks.
>>29263851
I'm sure you will! Thank you!
>can't stop a loved one's eating disorder
End my life
>5'3
>meds made me get back up to 102
>lowest weight was 93
>got prescribed wellbutrin
hopefully i can get to the 80s now. my max is 500 calories and allow myself to go up to 1000 calories once or twice a month
i really honestly hate being like this, having an eating disorder makes every single thing about your weight and how it will effect you...i truly feel insane at times
>>29264034
>can't stop a loved one's desire to stop my disorders
end my life
>>29264550
Why would you want that? I understand it being hard to think better, but why would you actively be uncooperative?
>>29264573
I just want them to stop wasting their time on something that I'm aware that neither they nor I can solve. I just want them to realise my disorder cannot be fixed, it's not that I'm uncooperative. I'd love to fix it too.
>tfw no anorexic bf to starve to death with
Maybe some day
>>29264612
>that I'm aware that neither they nor I can solve
That's a lie. That's a lie that's easier than the truth.
>>29264827
I don't think you understand quite enough to be aware of what the truth is, don't speculate on things you don't fully understand pls
I binge eat all the time. I don't even know why.
>>29264034
> can't force my loved one to have an eating disorder
>tfw 6'3 122lbs
where can i find a skeleton wife
it's all i want
I am spoopiest of all
>>29265959
Oh wow, is that the assgap girl?
>>29266334
No that was a girl called Erika, this is Ashley
>>29266572
Ah, right. I haven't been on lolcow in forever. Is Ashley even still alive? She's been on her deathbed for years.
>>29265959
how is this person standing
how they alive
Used to be underweight, I'm normal weight now though. I miss being small though and occasionally fast. It's very slow, but I'm steadily losing the weight.
>>29263576
I know I shouldn't belittle people's issues in mental illness threads, but 3 days is your worst? Man, I don't even have an eating disorder and even I've unintentionally gone by without eating or drinking for that long. But to be fair, I suppose the main difference between people with and without eating disorders are that those who have it intentionally abstain.
>>29263904
Thanks for clearing that up, fampai.
>>29261538
How long have you kept up your current diet and exercise schedule? Also, describe them in detail and I'm sure someone could give advice on what to change.
>>29263695
I'd do it all the time for you if you told me you loved me, but I have a really nurturing personality so I would probably hesitate, go easy on you and chicken out the first couple times. Sorry.
>>29268082
She's usually in a wheelchair
I'm in a weird state. Whenever I see a person with an eating disorder post their stats, I feel superior to them whether they weigh more than me or not.
If they weigh more than me I'm like 'heh, fatty'
If they weigh less than me, I'm like 'thank god I'm not as far gone as them, I can still recover'
>>29270333
whats ur stats?
what occupies you guys so much that u forget about eating???boredom is my only fear as thats when i binge the most
>>29270879
5'5" and 88lbs
>>29270907
I just don't feel hungry any more, so I forget I have to eat. If I felt hunger, I'm sure I would eat more
>>29270998
fuck that's so low, are u a girl?
>>29271097
Yeah. At least I'm not Isabelle Caro thin yet
Haven't lurked r9k in some time, this general is new since the last time I've been here.
Is there really any reason to encourage this? I blame my bulimia among other things for me being a robot, and anyone that has a poor relationship with the food they eat is going to have serious mental issues that bleed into all other aspects of their life.
Binging and purging was exciting for a long time because it allowed me to binge eat without any noticeable consequence. Now, some serious medical issues are coming up after a year of living like this, not to mention it lost its glamour after maybe the first month. All it does now is remind me how much of a fucking pussy I am for not being able to just put this to rest and killing myself
This shit will kill you, and not just bulimia. The slow death, where your quality of life just blows even more than it does now, and your organs just give out one day. We're better off just biting the bullet and shooting ourselves now if we have no intention of getting over these eating habits.
Fuck all of you for condoning this.
6'2" , 220 lbsmanlet bots make me laugh every time
>>29271271
Cool blog.
Not all of us are condoning/encouraging eating disorders. We're just kind of comparing notes and whining about how hard life is.
>>29256233
>>29271097
>>29271136
>>29271271
>>29271371
want to eat this?
It's not really much of an eating disorder, but I eat whenever I feel like it howevermuch I feel like eating. Small portion sizes coupled with the incapability to feel hunger pains and food making me feel awful mean I barely eat.
>>29270333
A healthy superiority complex is needed to survive
