>be constantly checking myself out in reflective surfaces, sometimes i'll use car windows and pray that nobody was inside their car as i walked by

>>29018974
I know that feel.

I think it's mostly just being reminded I have a tangible physical form that bothers me. I've gotten to the point where I wish people couldn't perceive me.

>New laptop
>Everyone I watch an anime/video game cutscene and it fades to black, my monitor reveals my face
>I spend the next 20-40 second contemplating on my looks

>>29019164
>get in the shower
>watch the water drizzle down my fit body
>feel like a fucking pussy slayer
>get out
>first thing i see is my repulsive acne ridden eye bag face in the mirror
>mood instantly drops

>>29018974
>body looks and feels good with a hoody on, really fills my body out. (Skinny fat, belly, 18)
>have lots of hair to make my head look bigger
>take shirt off for shower, almost lull myself but make it though
>come out of shower, hair is matted down and I'm ugly

Fuck

>>29019859
Also, substitute sweatshirt or hoodie, not sure what's up with my spelling right now

>look in mirror when lights are dimmed
>looking patrician af, full fucking slayer should model
>turn up brightness
>acne/blackhead ridden untermenschen reveals itself
>go watch francisco lachowski vids
>go watch barbara palvin vids
>feel chronically depressed to the point of physical illness
>go vomit in the bathroom
>go take a swig of vodka
>mum asks if i want to watch schindlers list
>say fuck no
>gets angry at me for taking it out on her

kinda feel sorry for my mum 2bh

>>29020579
Go hug her for me, anon

>>29020586
>can't hug your own mother because autism

I have a different problem.

>look at myself in a mirror
>7/10

>see a picture of myself
>3/10