ITT: Stories from your childhood that made you into the robot you are today.
>me and dad get into argument because he kicks me off computer
>tell him to fuck off
>he tells me to go hide in my room and jack off like I always do
didn't even say anything back ;_;
>Dad beat me anytime I questioned him
>Anytime he had work to do on the house or something it meant my brother and I had work to do on the house
>If the work ever got tough he'd start cussing and would immediately default to blaming my brother and I
>My brother would basically deal with his attitude the same way my mom would: just accept it
>I'd usually get pissed off because the way I saw it I was doing him a favor by helping him and I didn't need the attitude that came with it
>After years of rinsing and repeating this obviously it wore down our relationship
>My 18th birthday on father's day my dad asked me to go outside and throw the football with him, refused and stayed inside to play vidya with friends
>Pretty sure he realized he was dead to me, would still ask me to help him do shit and would get angry all the time but that was about the only contact we had
>Would still talk to mom and brother all the time, occasionally overheard dad bitch to mom that I never did anything with him
>Tried to guilt me into going to an NFL game with him a few months before I moved out
>Have no relationship with him to this day
>Brother still calls me and sometimes drops the "Why don't you talk to dad?" card
>Never answer it because I know dad is just trying to talk to me through him
>Mom still sends me cards on my birthday and on Christmas and signs "Mom and Dad" on them even though I know my dad doesn't even know when my birthday is or how old I am
>was once spanked for swearing
>didnt swear
>was never abused but took punishments hard
>once flinched when my mother raised her hand in the corner of my view
>mocked for it
>was told girls like nice guys
>just be yourself
>integrated these lies into myself
>literally nothing happened
>so i became passive
>have little above average IQ and EQ
>have no interest in things other kids are into
>boom! the story of our lives robots
>dad beat me
>mother was depressive, never really loved me because if that
>leaving huge hole In chest which only womanly love can fill
>hence why I sperg out completely around girls and obsess as soon as a girl shows interest in talking to me
>theres a dance at school
>teacher forces all of us to dance
>end up dancing with my oneitis
>its too embarrasing, we barelly touch during the dance
>after dance i hear her crying
>this has diminished my self esteem, and ability to approach wfemales despite years having passed
I was already kind of a shy/anxious kid up until this point:
>About grade 9
>Have to split into groups
>The teacher is assigning who goes with who
>"And anon, you can go with anon2 and femanon"
>Femanon: "ewwww, I'll go with anyone except him!"
>Whole class laughs
>Something in my brain "clicks"
>Never forgot that moment
>Now I am 24 years old and socially inept, fat and depressed
There was a bunch of shit between then and now that happened too, but that was definitely the "trigger" moment. The worst part is I never even did anything wrong, I tried to be a nice person.
I think it was mostly my Dad that made me into a robot.
Here's one story:
>be 9 years old
>come down stairs to go to kitchen
>walk through living room where my dad is
> he looks at me then just gets super angry
> starts shouting that he hates me, I'm not his son etc
>just run back to my room
pretty much avoided him for 3 days after that as every time he saw me he would get angry.
My Dad always said stuff like this but this is the most extreme incident I can remember.
And my Dad wonders why I'm a robot and my sisters are sluts.
>>28911999
>be like 10 or something
>sister doesn't have birthday party on her birthday because its the weekday
>day of my actual birthday is when her birthday party is held
>all of her friends are invited over, entire day is about her, she gets all the presents and I'm shoved on the sidelines
>aunt tells me it's fine because i don't have any friends anyways
And that's the day i stopped caring about my birthday.
>>28912049
Lmao he kinda rekt you
Got bullied a lot, literally burned alive twice by classmates for being nerdy fat kiddo autista and having a judge mom (criminal kids hated me for it, small town so everyone knew) when switched from private to estate school, hatred made me strong, then I was feared, almost any bad thing was blamed on me, girls would try to hurt me in the feelings since they couldn't hurt my body anymore, betrayed by fake friends, became cold and bitter, always analyzing others, had to become the strongest just to survive down there, never trusting, finally made it out of there, got a gf, dumped me a week later, worst time on my life, starved at a corner of my room for 3 weeks straight just with bottles of liquor, finally snapped and gave birth to an artificial persona that I use to this day, developed full-blown crippling depression as a result but manage to appear happy on the outside and blend in the common rabble, may make people laugh and joke around, but on the inside I can only think in the lack of purpose of everything and the glooming thought of myself being no worthy additive to the life of enyone and the other way around too
>>28911999
>be only child
>discover masturbation at 6
>discover internet porn at 7
i never stood a chance
>>28914015
>aunt tells me it's fine because i don't have any friends anyways
what the fuck, how could someone say that to a kid
If I weren't too autistic to get a wife I bet I would make a great fucking dad since I know all the mistakes parents do due to own experience an /R9k/
Also lots and lots of unspent love due to being alone all the time
>>28914205
She was a horrible person. Bitch died a slow death back in 2011 from ALS. She withered away slowly and painfully. Tbh i wish it was a slower death.
>>28912326
You sound like a little bitch to be honest
Go spend time with your dad
>>28913510
hey me too all of em
>>28914304
No, you're the little bitch anon. What's the matter? You unloved? No friends? Kill yourself.
>>28914366
>What's the matter? You unloved? No friends?
No fucking shit, were do you think we are faggot
>>28913915
if it just started from that point on, he may have found out your mom was a ho
>8 years old
>in swimming practice changing room
>am really sick
>shit myself
>waddle to the bathroom, covering the shit lump in my speedos
>for whatever reason instead of just depositing it into the toilet decide to smear it all over the fucking walls
>spend ages in there
>finally leave, rejoin class after who knows how long
>no one ever found out it was me
It didn't actually do anything to make me into who I am now, but looking back it makes me realise that there was always something fucked about me.
>be in middle school
>hottest girl in school keeps bullying me
>knows I am shy and awkward as fuck
>uses this to embarrass me
>keeps openly "flirting" with me to make me feel embarrased
>refers to me as sexy "my name" (she wasn't very creative) in front of everyone
>they always burst out laughing
>constantly interrupts the class to make lewd jokes at my expense
>openly threatens to rape me in front of everyone
>even the teachers find it hilarious
>teacher pulls me aside after class
>"you know she is just kidding around right, don't take it seriously"
>decide that every woman who shows an interest in me is just fucking with me
>QT girl 2 years older than me takes pity on me
>starts hanging around me all the time
>introduces me to her friends
>runs up to me and says hi every time she sees me
>decide she is probably fucking with me
>one day she comes up to me
>I tell her to fuck off, and that I hate her
>she looks visibly upset
>starts crying and runs off
>I immediately regret my decision
>she never speaks to me again
Fuck you Jenna you whore, you ruined my life
>>28914565
This has to be fake. How can anyone be so stupid.
>>28914608
Who are you saying is stupid?
Me? What did I do?
>Mom called me an unfortunate accident after hitting me one day
>>28914629
you are a literal retard. Please just off yourself.
>>28914629
You spent so much time with a girl then suddenly decided she was faking and reacted with out looking into the subject.
Maybe it's just my nature to observe but I can't imagine making an impulse decision like that.
>>28913646
:(
what's EQ stand for?
>Dad really wants me to play soccer, bought little soccer shoes and everything when I was born
>Turned 6, didn't want to play soccer at all, tried it once but didn't even slightly enjoy it
>Father completely ignores me for years
>Be 9 year old diagnosed autist
>Father beats me because I "have a big mouth"
>Constantly belittles me because I'm not the son he expected/wanted
>Lock myself in my room whenever I sense a beating coming
>Eventually just stop talking
When he gets old enough and becomes dependant on me I'll get my revenge. I'll put him in the shittiest retirement home his own money can buy.
>>28914717
Eh, she was just taking pity on my anyway
Typical roastie behavior, hang out with the loser so people think you are a good person
>>28914782
I guess so. I personally never had to experience that because I figured out how normies act and several years later they still think I'm one of them.
>>28914782
That's why she cried you fucking retard , go apologize
>>28914476
oh sweet lord above
>>28914831
>in middle school
It was over 10 years ago retard, why would I apologize?
Also she cried because she got blown the fuck out, not because she liked me
>>28912326
>also had a dad that beat me
>he drank a lot and also verbally abuse me for getting poor grades and failing at sports
>I remember when I was young I didn't want to eat dinner because I felt sick this one time
>he forced fed me while I cried and video taped the whole event
>dad would play that tape to visitors so show people how much of a little bitch I was.
>he use to tell me my dick wouldn't grow because I was a us less piece of shit
>dad even stripped infront of a mirror a few times and would say "look at the fat piece of shit"
>whenever I had work around the house I would do it while being verbally abused
>he would then claim he did all the work to my mother
>mom wasn't around all the time to see this shit
>years of abuse later I turned 17 and I had a mental breakdown
>moved out of home and never talk to my dad again,
>talk to mom on the phone sometimes
>heard my dad got sober
>but he says he doesn't remember any of the events that happened to me
>I still don't talk to him
>hear dad has cancer now,
>don't give a fuck.
>>28914903
damn son
Was about to make fun of you for being a huge cuck, but that is pretty messed up
>>28914608
the second girl is worse than the first
>>28911999
More crying laughing Pepes, please.
My parents were always there but they hardly ever interacted with me, and I've only known a handful of people in my life so I have no social skills
The only people I actually know and talk to are my brothers who grew up the same way
>>28915538
>More crying laughing Pepes, please.
here you go buddy
>>28915419
how so?
>>28915577
Thank you, friend.
Here's one you can have in exchange if you don't already have it.
>>28915577
>how so?
misplaced or uninformed empathy is more destructive than open cruelty, and the first helps enable the second
women aren't capable of real empathy, especially for guys
it's even weirder since she was older than anon. she probably had no friends her age or had just gotten out of an abusive relationship
> 8th grade gym
> "hey guys lets play touch football"
> sure.jpg
> whenever I try to cross the line of scrimmage, this dude just knocks me over
> repeats for the rest of gym, never catch a ball
> walk away crying, teacher sends me to the principal for disrupting class, get send home
>>28911999
>attracted to girl in middleschool
>she identifies me as a beta, shy, autist who is bad at talking to girls
>intentionally tries to embarrass me and make me feel uncomfortable in school
>best friend at the time finds it funny and eggs her on
Kek I wouldn't stand for shit like this nowadays though.
>Be me
>Be 8
>Father constantly belittled me and abused me
>Be 10
>Father started sexually abusing me
>Be 14
>Father leaves, mother becomes alcoholic
I embraced my fembothood a long time ago.
>>28915795
For once, please don't take the bait guys
>grade nine be 6.5/10
>crush on qt 3.14 in geography, have never spoken a word to her
>unhealthy obsession activated
>read a bunch of garbage pick up advice
>go up to her after school
>"hey you're really attractive, we should be friends"
>in front of all her friends
Fuck highschool
>>28915833
What bait?
>>28915795
Fucking whore. Get off my FUCKING BOARD.
>Be me
FUCKOFF
>>28915860
Stop samefagging
No one is taking your shitty bait
>>28914565
>be me
>primary school (British version of whatever school Americans go to before the age of 11)
>shy as fuck
>always nervous around girls
>the joker of my group, always fooling about
>girl tells me I'm ugly when I smile
>I stop smiling
>get to secondary school (ages 11 - 16)
>go through school being bullied
>even more shy
>even more serious
>still smile sometimes
>friend says something funny one say in IT class, I smile
>girl next to me says it's the first time she's ever seen me smile. I'm 15 at that point
>It just reminds me not to smile
Girls fucking ruined my life before I even had a chance.
>>28915921
Have you tried not having an ugly smile anon?
i was always quite kid
>had a friend lived in the next neighborhood
>he would come over
>over the past years of maturing he didn't
>he turned into a ass
>he broke crap of parents
>getting made fun off at school and home
>>28915907
lol implying
>literally took a shit in the corner of the classroom in grade 3
I thought i was cool for doing it. How wrong I was.
>>28911999
Ages 6 to 12, raped by my mothers father
Finally told a teacher, mom and her dad went to jail
Some pictures and a video are still online
Went into foster care, got beat the crap out of by my alcoholic foster parents, told again
lived from 14-18 in a state facility, I am pretty small, got abused by the other boys I lived with
Currently getting SSDI and existing in a rent controlled coffin size apartment
Try never leaving my place unless I absolutely have to
Have a gun
No one will ever hurt me again
Won't let anyone get close enough
Really want to get my GED and get a job saving children from abusers, take the somewhere we can all be safe
I realize I have a lot of problems
>>28915941
The thing is, I actually don't. Plenty of people since then have said I should smile more because I have a nice smile.
But I believe the experiences and memories we have when we're younger have a profound impact on our growth.
I think being made fun of for being happy, for showing it, has definitely impacted me for good.
>>28916012
male or female?
How much I care depends on your answer
>>28913646
>robots
>above average emotional quota
This is delusional if anything.
>>28916012
>finally told a teacher, mom and her dad went to jail
call bullshit
women don't go to jail, especially if they weren't even the ones doing the abusing
she'd just tell the courts her dad was threatening her too
>>28916151
i think robots happen when slightly above average IQ coexists with severe emotional retardation
>4th grade
>be fat kid with bad acne
>tfw early bloomer
>girls come up and say one of them lost a bet so they had to go on a date with me
>lost a bet
>they never did date me btw
>>28911999
>developed rheumatoid arthritis
>intense pain, can't run, walk, lie down, climbing stairs without suffering
>feeling like a freak while being in pain although friends and families are supportive
>pain has gone with new med but I feel really empty inside
>in formative years, transitioning from adolescence to puberty
>parents pick me up from school one day
>say goodbye to my friend, a girl as they pick me up
>the whole ride home it's all "ooooh, is that you girlfriend anon?" "I'm going to dance at your wedding anon" "When can I meet her parents anon?"
>don't like being teased
>never talk to my parents about girls again
>in turn, don't get any advice about girls from my father
it's their fault i'm like this
>>28914608
fuck off you fucking faggot, a lot of people end up like this. you think you're smart and it wouldn't happen to you, but trust me that's not the case.
>homeschooled
>fucking hated it
>parents promised i could decide for myself when i got to high school, then threated to kick me out of house when i brought it up again
>started college at 16
>same month i found out that my dad wasn't my bio father and took it extremely hard
>straight a's first two years of college, dropped out the third
>just can't integrate into society due to growing up at home with angry dad and bitchy mom
>if i could kill (without repercussion) mom i probably would
>see people always walking with friends or eating out together
>never felt comfortable like that with my few friends
man i should just kill myself. i'm about to start school again and a new job and i'm dying of anxiety, can't barely even leave the house. this'll never end.
>Middle school
>Had a pretty big circle of friends and was even friends with a few Chads
>Chad named Matt was fucking a Stacey named Jenna, she had huge tits for a middle schooler but somewhat of a butter face
>Talk to her a few times, nothing ever really comes of it
>Eventually wind up fighting one of my friends in school because he wouldn't stop making fun of me, dropped him on his ass
>Get detention
>Meet Jenna inside, she is shocked to see me there because she thought I was a good kid (which I was)
>We talk a good bit
>Fast forward a month, Matt stops fucking Jenna and moves on to a new Stacey
>Jenna out of nowhere starts talking to me, Matt greenlights me on her and says "Yeah man I don't care, it'd be cool to see you have a girlfriend." (Matt was pretty sympathetic to betas, somewhat of a self-aware Chad)
>Thinking I am finally going to have a gf and since she is a Stacey maybe I could enter the normie hierarchy
>Dad out of nowhere tells me we're moving that exact day, he put in a fucking request to move with his company without consulting my mom, brother, or me
>Had a few months left to the school year, fall into depression and lose all desire to pursue Jenna
>When we move I never make any new friends, never get a gf, and pretty much become a shut-in
>Still to this day blame him for my antisocial tendencies
>>28916700
>>28914565
Fucking jennas man
>>28911999
>parents are anti-technology retards
>no video games
>no computers
>no internet until I was like 17
>be absolutely fascinated with the forbidden fruit of vidya
>start being "friends" with the most autistic kid in my class because he lives nearby and has vidya, so I can play a few minutes every week when I hang out at his house
>eventually find another kid with better vidya
>hang out with him instead
>eventually hang out at our local arcade by myself with my allowance and shit
>never learn to make friends properly because of that, just learned to temporarily exploit other betas and autists until something better came along
a few years later
>sort of lose interest in vidya for a few years since I could only afford used consoles & games from previous gens
>practically a normie at this point
>years go by
>see "The orange box" on sale at a store
>also buy ps3 on a whim around like 2010
>video game sensory overload
>immediately start shunning whatever little social life I had, abandon all hope and plans and motivation for the future, even get fired from my job, just wanna play vidya games yahurr
>never learned self-control and moderation with vidya as a kid
and thats how I've been a NEET for a couple of years now at 30 years old.
>>28914903
You should visit him on his deathbed, and make sure he knows how much you hate him and that he failed as a father.
>>28916790
let's get a list of stacy/bitch names going
>jenna
>ANY name with a double "s" - jessica, alyssa, tessa, marissa, melissa
>>28916843
don't even both visiting him, just send him a poorly written note
>>28916790
if u only knew, that damn beautiful name jenna.. shit
>>28915921
The opposite of my problem, people tell me I actually have a nice smile. The problem is I never have anything to smile about.
>>28916700
willyama?
>>28916571
similar story
>manage to date a few girls
>dad never offers any advice over anything
>get broken up with
>don't bother running the rat race of dating for a few years
>dad walks into my room one day
>just stands there being awkward "so...."
>wonder if he's going to ask about my 5 year plan again or some bullshit
>"yes?"
>"*ahem*.... son... are you gay? Because it's okay if you are"
>"..."
>"..."
>"...are you asking because one time you walked in on my sucking a dick? Because then that would be a reasonable thing to ask"
>"OH JEEZ LOUISE ALWAYS WITH THE SMART-ASS COMMENTS WHY CAN'T I JUST HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH YOU"
>"YOU'RE ASKING ME IF I'M GAY. I'VE BEEN IN NOTHING BUT RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS SO YOU TELL ME WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM WITH THIS"
>"I...... it was your mother! She put me up to this"
>go ask my mom about this gay witch hunt
>she denies knowing about it
>tell my dad she doesn't know about it
>he denies it as well
>go back to my room and lock the door
and that was the last day I ever talked to them for longer than a minute or something. I've also been single forever since.
>>28916860
>Marissa
That reminds me.
>High school
>Knew girl named Marissa
>She made some joke about how she only fucks black guys one day in class for everyone to hear
>The next year she becomes a vegetarian, some guy publicly humiliates her by saying "You're a vegetarian and you won't eat meat but you don't flinch from eating dick."
>It was well deserved because apparently she was a major whore
>She starts dyeing her hair and starts experimenting with other girls
>She winds up fucking the only other lesbian at our school which was a landwhale
>She started having visible slash/cut marks on her arm
>Still remember to this day when even a nigger looked at her and said "Uh, fuck man gross." to one of his ape friends
I guess the moral here is if she fucks niggers avoid her like she has the black plague.
>>28917010
What? Is this supposed to mean something?
>>28917094
You know what they say - Burn the coal, pay the toll.
>>28917128
Its latin for your a faggot
>>28917035
Your parents don't sound bad. I never spoke to my dad because he was an abusive piece of shit, at least your dad talked to you. My dad would've fucking shot me if I ever cursed/shouted at him even though he did it to me all the fucking time. My dad once lost his shit just because he felt like I was telling him to do something, a literal control freak if you ask me.
>>28917035
Wew, that's pretty funny. Reminds of the one time I managed to bring a girl home.
>bring qt 8/10 home
>just chilling in basement watching inglorious bastards
>parents come home
>invite her to stay for dinner
>during dinner Dad asks her what ethnicity she is
>says she's half Lebanese
>he says "Salami Alakum"
>Fucking Salami Alakum
>just stare at him
>girl leaves
>she never talks to me again
>>28917273
>Lebanese
Your dad did you a favour
>>28914476
Same. Looking back, there's definitely something wrong with a little kid loving the smell of pissy urinal cakes in the mens room and shoving pencils up his ass.
>>28916860
reminds me
>be working shit fast food job
>shift is just about to end, like 20 minutes to go
>someone else than the person scheduled walks in for the following shift
>her name is Tiffany, goes by Tiff
>15 minutes early
>nice
>humble
>friendly
>wants to work
>is smart, iirc she was studying psychology before switching to nursing
>briefly end up talking about literature and movies
>shift is over
>get changed and get my stuff
>as I'm walking out
>"really nice meeting you Tiff! With that name I was expecting a dumb bimbo!"
>see those words fly out of my mouth
>let that autism linger in the air for a brief moment like a rank fart
>"uhm..."
>"HAHA JUST KIDDING WELL AS YOU CAN TELL I'M QUITE THE JOKER HAHA RIGHT WHOOPS GOTTA RUN MY BUS IS AROUND THE CORNER HAHA LATER"
>literally run out
>thankfully never see her again for the rest of my life so far
>be a good, quiet kid all through elementary and middle school
>buy myself an ipod touch one day as I'm graduating from grade 8
>find out about porn and become addicted to jacking off
>it stops feeling as good as it used to so I move on to more extreme fetishes
>tfw you just masturbated to a lesbian scat orgy with piss play on the side
>shame.png
>go away to camp for the summer before highschool
>leave ipod at home like a dumbass
>it doesnt have a password on it because nobody ever tried to take it from me before
>mom looks through it while I'm away
>come home
>both parents absolutely flip the fuck out and scream at me about how much of a sexual perverted disgusting pig I am
>so embarassed I thought I was going to pass out
>hardly ever speak to parents from then on out
>never speak to other girls
>shut myself in my room for days
>depression creeps in
>years later and absolutely nothing has changed
>>28917306
I read and experienced that embarrassment vicariously bro.
I've definitely been there also.
>>28917202
>he was an abusive piece of shit
Oh but he was as well, but as he got older I guess he felt bad and he tried to raise us kids when we were in our early-late 20s and some of us already living in their own place.
He used to beat me for something that my brother did. That was the routine for a while actually.
>older brother is a high school shithead
>pothead and doing other drugs
>parents had him go to private school
>dad ends up taking a job in another city after getting fired from his old job
>only comes home on weekends
>mom is a pussyfart with no authority
>brother takes advantage of that to skip class multiple times a week, come home high as shit, steal from us, play his shitty nu-metal music as loud as possible all the time, etc.
>all my mom can do is be like "oh just you wait until your father comes home mister!"
>dad comes home
>mom tells him about how much of a shithead brother has been
>"JESUS CHRIST WOMAN IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOU AND THE KIDS WHAT BOUT I ALSO HAD A ROUGH WEEK"
>he starts slapping her around
>I ask him to lay off her
>he slaps me around
>meanwhile brother was smart enough to not even be home for weekends when our father was around
>brother was also abusive, after he called our mom a cunt I told him to stop being a shitty person and he threatened to break my neck
This went on for a while until my parents noticed that butcher knives were missing and I told them that I kept them under my mattress because I didn't feel safe at home both because of my brother and my dad.
I guess my dad agreed to stop beating the shit out of me and my mom, he confronted my brother, they got into a big fistfight and the police were called by two neighbors. No charges or nothing and my brother went to rehab and my dad stopped being slightly less autistic and a ragetard.
Oh and when all this was happening for like a year and a half, our older sister was like "lol fuck this I'm out fags" and moved out with some guy like 10 years older than her.
>be newborn
>parents let doctors mutilate my penis
>be permanently scarred both physically and mentally
>>28917452
I'm actually kind of glad to have grown up just before the internet became mainstream and had parents who were anti-technology so I didn't have internet at home until I was 17. I would jack off with Sears catalogs and black & white Archie comics and Marvel comics trading card and shit like that.
But the trade-off is that I had NO IDEA what a vagina looked like until I reached that age.
most likely being bullied and neglected by my dad which made me more aware of body language and subconscious motives
>hanging out with friends
>if they joke around about stuff i think they subconsciously mean it
>now before i talk i must analyze everything i say so i dont reveal my subconscious motives
>dont end up talking at all
>no friends
>>28912049
That actually sounds painful
>>28913898
jeez man
girls are always assholes for no reason even when they are young
>>28917605
Best one yetFUCK YOU BOT
>>28912049
You should have been like 'YEAH OKAY I'LL DO JUST THAT" and move the computer into your room.
>>28917452
>>both parents absolutely flip the fuck out and scream at me about how much of a sexual perverted disgusting pig I am
People really do stuff like this.
I understand it's a terrible idea, and could cause a lot of problems, but I think you should need a license to breed.
>at grandma's house because dad can't watch me during the day
>mom is there, rarely ever see her because dad has full custody
>raging around completely drunk
>clothes undone, unkempt, slurring words
>harassing grandma to give her a lighter for her cigarette
>grandma thinks she will drop it and burn the house down
>holding my stuffed rabbit, sitting on couch crying loudly, beyond terrified of my mother
>mom walks into living room, so does grandma
>mom snatches lighter from grandma, sits next to me and lights her cigarette
>grandma yells, "Michelle, look what you're doing to your son!"
>mom turns, blows smoke in my face and says, "I don't care."
I suppose that's why I am here, alone on my birthday, posting on /r9k/.
I love you guys.
>Be 11
>Hanging with cousin
>We met with a group of girls thah he knows
>they pretty much ignore me
>go to.cousin's house later.that day
>fucking around with msn
>The same group of girls is having a sleepover
>we talk with them over msn, they know I'm there
>they say they will put the webcam on so my cousin can see them in their underwear
>but only if "you faggot cousin leaves the room"
>cousin.tells me.to leave
I used to think that family had to look for eachother
>>28917730
reproducing outside of marriage should definitely be illegal at least
>>28917734
iktfb
I barely knew my grandparents, both my grandparents actually, but they seemed like better parents than my own parents.
Which makes me wonder how they managed to raise such fuck-up retards. Although most of aunts and uncles are happy normies so who knows.
>>28917734
was dad any better?
>>28917541
Your dad sounds like mine. My dad never hit my mom though (as far as I know), but he was never shy to hit me. I actually got really pissed as a kid because my dad got angry at my mom for hitting our dog once, meanwhile he would hit me the second I challenged him on something.
Your sister and brother turned out fucked up because of your piece of shit dad, you seem to have turned out ok (though you are here, so there is that). You obviously had a moral compass since you stood up for your mom even against people you knew would immediately resort to barbarism, so there is that.
I'm not sure how my brother is not as fucked up as I am, or maybe he is and I can't tell. My brother once told me when I was a kid I fight with my dad so much because I am like him, which I don't see at all. That really terrifies me as well, if I am even remotely like him I never want to have kids. The closest thing I think I have to him is my temper, the difference being I can control mine, my dad like yours just goes into a complete rage when he gets angry and defaults to violence if it involved me or my brother.
>>28917815
>which makes me wonder how they managed to raise such fuck-up retards.
degeneracy flooded media and society in the 70s and 80s
good parents can only do so much to counteract things
>>28917815
Glad someone else knows this feel.
>>28917822
My dad is an angel on Earth. He still apologizes to me frequently about the time he trusted my mother to drive me to dinner so we could all act like a family again. She of course snuck into his liquor cabinet and got so drunk, then we got in a car crash when she tried to drive us to dinner to meet him.
I'm lucky to have him.
My mom is the definition of JUST. I could go on all day about how bad she was.
>>28917853
Home school, monitor what your children consume, don't let them near niggers or leftists.
>I was born
origiinalirio holy shit fuck off robot
>>28917853
>degeneracy
has nothing to do with my post senpai, my mom is a catholic and my dad had that good old fashioned "beat my wife" WWII attitude, and they were in their 20-30s during those decades.
How fucking young are you that your parents were raised in those decades?
>>28917734
I recognise you from that picture. You are the guy who makes Silent Hill threads, and did those videos right? I am sorry to hear about what happened to you. If it's any solace your videos are comfy.
>>28917875
Any other stories you wanna share anon?
>Made a best friend in 1st grade
>Said friend started to bully me in 4th grade and I had to start going to a cheap-ass private school
>Make two best friends in middle school
>High school rolls around, they join this group of douchebags and start bullying me
>I can't figure out why they're abandoning me for two years
>Bear with the bullshit for those two years before one climactic moment
>They're making fun of me, I ask them "why the fuck do I even sit with you guys, you're all jerks!"
>Moment of silence, before: "We don't know honestly, we figured you would have left like, a year ago."
>Tears, run away, spend next year mostly in the bathroom or nurse's office crying
>Eventually make new friends
>They make fun of me too, but I've acknowledged it as a fact of reality that I'm weird
>>28911999
Parents told me to finish college before I even think about dating. I'm about to finish college but they've been nagging me to get a girlfriend every chance they get.
>>28917833
thanks for reading my blog senpai.
and yeah the whole "becoming your parents" thing is scary, especially when both my aprents were such opposites. The ragetard who handled stress by hitting things and people like a fuckin ape, and the womanchild with the strength of a wet mop.
My sister, even though she hated our father, is a lot of like him because EVERYTHING completely sets her off. She's never hit her kids or anyone but like she'll start screaming if something doesn't go her way immediately.
Meanwhile my brother who exploited our mom ended up inheriting the manchild from her and like rolls around on the fucking ground and makes baby noises when he hangs out with our sister's kids.
Hopefully I can be my own person and not just a copy of one or both of my parents, that would be nice.
>>28917950
My mom desperately trying to reconnect with me a few years ago on Christmas by trying to get me a guitar which I had expressed interest to my father in getting.
>was around 12 or 13
>dad asks what I want for Christmas
>tell him I want to learn guitar, ask for a guitar
>he is happy to know what I want, says we'll see
>wake up Christmas morning
>open presents with just him and my brother, since mom doesn't live with us
>he got me a guitar, it's awesome, my favorite color, everything I ever wanted
>I hug him and thank him
>later that day, brother and I head to grandma's for Christmas with that side of the family (mom's side)
>she is there
>can tell she is progressively getting more drunk through the day despite not visibly drinking booze (must be in her diet coke cans)
>when we open gifts, she breaks down crying while drunk
>apparently it had gotten through the grapevine of my dad's mom, to my mom's mom, to my mom, that I had wanted a guitar
>she didn't know my dad got me one
>she had worked overtime in an attempt to get me a guitar, but couldn't afford it on a waitress's money (she used to be a psychologist but too many DUIs means she can barely get a job as a waitress now)
>cries and apologizes she couldn't afford a guitar
>I reassure her and tell her dad got me one
>she just stands up, and runs to her room (living with my grandma at this point, and still) I assume because she felt useless and inferior
>Christmas just ruined and made really sad for me
Otherwise they're all just unexciting and even more bleak and depressing. Those two or three stick out though.
>>28917941
I've got to stop using Silent Hill images because now everyone recognizes me. I guess that's my fault. Thank you very much for the kind words though.
>>28916826
>yahurr
I lol'd
>dad dies when im 11
my mom is an enabler so i just devolved into sitting on my computer all day. my dad probably would have forced me to do a sport or have a hobby or at least something.
>>28917853
This actually makes sense to me.
>Mom has admitted to me she did drugs and partied as a teenager
>Dad's mom and dad were abusive
Both my grandparents from both my mom and dad were always nice to me, but I noticed my dad's sister was just as fucked in the head as my dad is. My mom's brothers were both rich and extremely nice.
I guess my mom turned out to be a drug abuser when her brothers turned out to be extremely bright because she is a woman. My dad turned out exactly as his mom and dad programmed him to through years of beatings and verbal insults. Just like my dad tried to program me.
>>28912326
june 19th birthday bros?
>>28918084
Jesus Christ
This is one of the most depressing things I've seen on here.
>>28918109
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpsbj0OoeNo
I wonder how many newfaggles don't even know about this classic song
>>28916860
>tfw oneitis is in this list
>Be about 12
>Random classroom activity where we had to write something on a piece of paper, give it to someone and then they would read it.
>No specifications on who to give it so it became an unintentional test of popularity.
>Fairly large group, about 30.
>Nobody gave me anything to read.
>Clearly remember some guy got more than 12.
I always knew I was deferent but it was on that day I understood I wasn't just different, I was forgettable.
It's in those little things, that people don't think too much about where real honesty arises.
>>28912049
Kek i was so edgy and mad at life that once when i was 15 i punched my dad in the face for telling me to get off the computer and he was being a slight asshole about it.
I will never get over it. Fuck my 15 year old self, fuck. I've never been able to connect with my father since.
>>28918078
>thanks for reading my blog senpai
I don't think it is a blog post, I'm OP and I make these threads not just for robots to share war stories but to actually talk about them, too. I've always felt like talking about my abuse makes it better, and I think everyone to a degree feels that way.
>Hopefully I can be my own person and not just a copy of one or both of my parents, that would be nice.
Yeah, that is where I'm at with myself. My mom was also exactly like your mom, although she never stood up for me or my brother and allowed us to get beaten. She occasionally would tell my dad to stop if she felt he went over the line, but saying something to my dad when he is in a child-like fit of rage did nothing as I'm sure you're probably aware what with your dad and brother. I don't know if I'll ever have kids or not, I mean I am a robot after all. I just know that if I did have them I wouldn't want them to have anything to do with my father.
>Gets Cancer 2 years ago
>Diagnosed with Muscle Dystrophy
>Many relatives die during this time
All in all seems like i'm doing OK.
>>28918215
accept your cards anon and fold.
>>28913898
>yfw children are stupid and this dumb, emotionally stunted tater-tot probably harbored some attraction to you
>mother was literally crazy
>learn later in life that she was guzzling anti-depressants
>would flip out screaming over fucking bullshit like primary school homework
>pulled insane guilt trips constantly
>made us eat dinner at like 5pm so I'd be hungry late at night always, made "lunch" for school which was literally frozen bread sandwich with peanut butter so I had cold wet soggy sandwiches 5 days a week
>didn't iron my clothes or even make me a lunch after I was 14
>told schools I had aspergers so I got stuck with teaching aides who'd try to sit with me in class making me look like a freak
>would go from laughing to enraged to weeping at the drop of a hat
Holy shit looking back on it I was basically abused, my dad was good though but my mother's insanity made me not realize it until I was about 18
>Spend 6 years crushing on a girl
>Finally confess, get rejected
>Spent 4 years crushing on a girl
>Finally confess, get rejected
That's all that was needed to make me a robot.
>>28918084
Fuck me man
>tfw pretty normal parents
I wish I could share them with others tbqh
>>28917965
Fuck them anyway
>>28918348
I was lucky to have a dad that wasn't normal, he was exceptional in every way. But thank you for the sympathy.
>>28918137
I'm pretty numb to it honestly. It hurts more as I get older though.
>>28918123
July 17th
>>28918270
Thanks robro, it's like therapy but free and also not condescending coming from someone who's known nothing but a perfect life.
but I think that my brother was the source of our family falling apart and my dad becoming an autistic hulk. When I was a little kid I remember him bouncing me on his knee when he got home from work and singing nursery rhymes and kissing my mom before going to work and when he got back from work and bringing up us to the local pool and throwing us up in the air and playing with us. As soon as my older brother became an edgy numetal cunt and got into drugs in high school it was all downhill fast I think it was right at the same time my dad lost his job too.
as far as kids go, eh why not. I used to be an edgy "people suck lol humans r a disease" fag up until my early-mid 20s but I would kind of like to try and raise a little person and give them a better life than I had. My sister has kids of her own but for now I'm still just 'the weird uncle who lives at grandma & grandpa's house" lol
This thread is probably a gold mine for any therapist trying to get a look inside the psyche of an average robot.
>>28918391
Just remember we robots are always here <3
>>28918416
oh yeah. i forgot father's day is a fucked up holiday.
it is on june 19th this year though iirc
>>28914903
>>but he says he doesn't remember any of the events that happened to me
Textbook narcissism right there, basically blotting out memories that make them look bad.
>>28918467
Thank you anon, I love you very much.
You're all always so kind to me.
Here's a nice song to be the thread soundtrack:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9T0GSsnxHt4
>>28914608
Normie detected get out This SAME Thing FUCKING RUINED My ABILITY To CONNECT To REAL PEOPLE
>>28918465
Therapists are such bullshit, man.
Normies tell you to seek help when you do something freaky and when you get that "help" you realize it's absolutely pointless.
>>28914476
Oh shit. I remember something fucked.
>be me
>be me in the third grade
>never wipe ass
>>skip to a random day in the life
>sitting in class
>bum gets all itchy inside
>feel the crusty poop betwixt thy cheeks
>ask teacher to go potty
>wipe my poopy butt
>look at the now shit-crystal-encrusted boxers
>toss them in toilet
>flush
I will never know of the consequences.
I also have another storyabout me pooping in the urinalif anyone should care to hear it.
>>28918084
Lying figure... had a hard life
>be me have friends and shit age 13
>all of sudden they all start living, two of them died
>my friend group is now completely gone
Never really recovered, I was known as that weird guy without friends. I just wished I could of gone with them. They were like brothers to me
>>28917885
>home school
no
the only way this could work is if you were in a network of several other families who homeschooled, so your kids wouldn't feel like prisoners and outcasts
>monitor what your children consume
kinda hard to do past 14 or 15, again without making them into literal prisoners and outcasts
even most adults are too stupid to be trusted with free access to all media
>>28917937
20s are still formative years, and the degeneracy really started in the 60s
i'm early 20s, parents were early 40s and early 30s when i was born
>>28918084
>she used to be a psychologist
this is great
anyway, you can't be a robot if you had such a stable father figure growing up
unless you're gay or something
>>28918545
>could of
I wish you would HAVE gone with them, you piece of shit.
>>28918084
Family is fucking weird
>Uncle is drunk every day, though somehow still employed.
>He got divorced 15 years ago because caught wife cheating
>His daughter got teen pregnant soon after the divorce
>We're Chinese so this means she's basically taboo to mention and just in general ignored
>Grandma hates her guts
>She's 15, no job, mother is a whore, in China, guy who fucked her wasn't even her boyfriend
>She gives birth to a daughter in 1999
>He still marries her, but commits suicide a year later because he didn't love her and was a weak beta shit
Saw her again after a 10 year period, she raised a cute little girl all by herself and has a stable job. Feels good, though grandma still hates her
>>28918511
Obviously you have to tell us now
>>28918511
Tell us the story you MadMan
>>28912326
>call your dad randomly on a day that isn't your birthday
>"hey dad it's my birthday"
>h-happy birthday son, how are y-
>FUCK YOU DAD ITS NOT MY BIRTHDAY
>then start going off on why you hate him and how he's been a shitty father to you
>end the conversation saying you're killing yourself in the best 20 minutes because of him
>hang up the phone
>yfw he doesn't call back
>>28915567
I felt the need to reply.
>>28918616
Hot damn. Anymore traumatic stories?
>>28918576
Jesus christ my man, family is weird huh?
>>28918444
>but I think that my brother was the source of our family falling apart and my dad becoming an autistic hulk
Every problem with a child can be traced back to their parents and the way they raised their kid, or the lack thereof. I also have memories of my dad caring for me when I was a little kid, one in particular of when he taught my brother and I how to swim, or how he taught me how to ride my bike in the rain. Then suddenly before you know it he was slapping me, shoving me, and subjecting me to more verbal abuse than I can recount.
Nothing just happens, it is all connected. Your brother didn't just one day wake up and decide he wanted to be an abusive faggot who threatened his siblings and mother. I'm no professional, but my theory here is your dad moved away for his job and your brother felt ignored so he fell in with a bad crowd looking for the attention he didn't get at home. Same with your sister. My dad was always abusive, I just looked up to him as a kid because when you're young your dad is the equivalent of superman to you. When I grew up and started thinking for myself I started realizing he was just abusive and was trying to make me submit like his parents made him. I never disobeyed my dad for the sake of being rebellious, I did it because I always felt like he took me for granted. Always ordering me around, calling me names and beating me when all I ever did was help him when he asked me to. Then he has the nerve to act as though I'm the one who chose to cut off ties with him. He made the decision for how we'd stand together, not me.
this thread is really triggering awful childhood memories of "family vacations" where our dad would wake us up at like 5am stressed as shit already to throw us into a poorly-packed car to drive 3 hours to a shitty camping spot where he would just beat us and yell at us and our mom would cry so he'd yell at her and slap her around instead. The burnt pancakes that smelled like propane, having diarrhea in the outhouse, other families who would stare at us in disbelief, wondering how those kids' lives were and if a happy family would ever adopt me.
>>28918324
basically me with some details changed
>be me week before I turned 15
>go to summer camp for cross country with my high school team
>have crush on girl who's also going on the trip
>she was really sweet and cute, very pure and innocent
>whatever
>I'll just stare from a distance like always
>mind my own business until day 4 of the camp
>thursday
>get woken up at 6 by my friend
>"anon it's oneitis and her friends, they want to play truth or dare with us"
>cool
>it's a bunch of chads and stacies and then me and my two friends
>friend 1: couple inches shorter than me, blond, really cool guy, had multiple gfs before
>friend 2: native american, my height, also a really cool guy, had kissed before but no gf
>me, never kissed, no gf ever, unofficial leader of my group of friends
>t&d goes along for a while
>"oneitis I dare you to kiss anon!"
>I freeze
>she has a weird look on her face
>don't think much of it
>she walks up to me, stares really intensely, and then pecks me on the lips
>feelsgoodman.jpeg
>then she grimaces and starts wiping her mouth
>normies are laughing
>her friends are laughing
>"EWWW she kissed anon! gross!!"
>oh
>I was invited out with them for this
>mumble an excuse
>go back to tent
>cry until lunch, then stare at the cafeteria wall until it was over
>everyone stares at me
>can hear muffled laughing and whispering
>develop intense paranoia about people and their intentions
>never have contact that close with a girl again
>now a wizard
>>28918465
therapy is a fucking joke
any kike or cunt can pull a degree out of his ass and charge faggots or shitty parents $100+ to ask a bunch of stupid questions
>>28918762
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cSg3ucrwYvQ
tfw
>>28918465
Therapy is bullshit, how the fuck is some normie supposed to diagnose a robot? Some suited up bitch who came from a pampered house just sits there charging you by the hour and then pumps you full of medicine playing 20 questions. They have no idea what lies behind the abyss of the inside of a robot's mind.
>>28918803
>>28918853
can confirm
>be the anon ITT who had the drughead older brother who threatened me and stole from us and turned my dad into a ragetard
>mom somehow convinces everyone to go to family therapy
>therapist blabs about how this a judgement free zone and etc
>too scared to speak out because of what would happen to me when we got home
>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
>>28918853
the men are even worse
women are supposed to have stupid jobs like that
men who become therapists add this weird kind of authority to what is the gayest job ever
>>28918923
>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
sorry, i just had to laugh at this
>slid down the pole
>landed on my balls
>bruised balls and inner thigh
>dad rubbed ointment on my balls
>>28919000
same, luckily all this shit is behind me and I can laugh at how ridiculous everything was.
>>28919028
what
were both your hands in casts as well?
>>28918923
>>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
MORE
MORE THERAPY STORIES
blease resbondd
>>28919028
oh that really #triggered some vague memories senpai
>be really young kid
>go to indoor pool with family
>have to shower before getting, and also shower afterwards
>grown adult hairy penises EVERYWHERE at eye level of little anon
>naked dad in the shower being all naked and shit with other naked men
>shower with my bathing suit on
>"what's wrong son? You don't shower with clothes on at home now do you?"
>"t...this isn't home papa"
I don't know if that was better or worse from when I was even younger and it was my mom who would bring to her the women's changing room with elderly tits that looked like they could fall off and fall to the ground at any moment.
I was always a quiet kid and sucked at telling stories.
>middle school in 7th grade
>was that kid that sit alone and shit
>guy befriends me and introduced me to his clique
>end up dating a chick named Bailey for the rest of middle school
>too young for tits and an artist, extrovert, Stacy
>highschool starts
>all middle schools in the area combine into one highschool
>which means new people everywhere
>relationship was already going to shit
>Bailey joins cheerleader team and starts talking with football team
>I share a class with a player. Already get bad vibes from him
>he literally tells me "Im going to steal your girlfriend"
>fast forward a few months
>Bailey breaks up with me, starts getting chad
>I lose all my friends and get labeled as an abusive pedo throughout the school
>highschool was just drifting with different groups and walking around aimlessly
>after graduation
>log into normie book and see Bailey married Chad and left the state with him
1 year later I'm still a neet with 0 friends
>>28919070
I second thisfugg le bod
>have zero interest in anything kids are interested in
>have anxiety inherited from both parents
>never make friends or talk to anybody after age 4
>piece of shit mother and very busy/constantly stressed father turn me from no social skills to counterproductive traits
>be useless despite greatly developed in loneliness skills due to anxiety, negative social ability, and lack of any expensive paper
>sister abuses me
>mom doesn't care because she's an enabler and also an alcoholic
>learn to hate mother
>cut off contact with both
>strong relationship with dad
>he says no woman will get between our friendship
>he marries this whore from a bar
>she doesn't want any kids
>she abuses us verbally/him physically
>he tells me he still loves her and they're gonna make it work
>barely talk to dad anymore
>he tries to act like he's still a good father
i just block everything out and i'm fine
>Mom and her boyfriend fighting late at night again
>Mom comes into my room gives me the phone and tells me to call the police if I hear her scream
>Have to stay up listening for screaming
>School night
>Mom and her boyfriend come home drunk at like 3am
>It's a school night again
>Get woke up and told to help my mom get into bed
>Mom tells me to grab her purse
>Starts calling me a faggot and making fun of me the entire time I help her get to bed
>Go back in my bed and cry myself to sleep
>Police forcefully entered the front door
>Mom on her 3rd or 4th DWI charge
>Sister and I get to watch her get wrestled to the ground, arrested, and taken away
>Mom's boyfriend told us my dad was the reason the cops showed up
i have problems with narcissism and I am also extremely paranoid and it's destroying my life and making me unable to form any sort of relationships with people.
>been betrayed by everyone throughout my life
>had a very interesting father
>one day he brings you back treats, takes you fishing
>next day he beats the shit out of you, takes away your computer
>(sometimes it wouldn't even be a day difference, it would happen on the same day.)
>"Oh hey son, let's go fishing!" in the afternoon
>beating the fuck out of me in the evening and taking away my computer.
>same thing with my friends at school
>best pals during monday
>everyone is against me on tuesday
Also constantly betrayed throughout my childhood (I am not whining, it is just obvious that It made me into a person I am today)
>be the youngest kid in the yard (5 yrs old)
>everyone gathers up
>everyone decides to kick me the fuck out of the group because I was "too young"
>gives me some candy so I don't cry and they have an excuse to not feel like assholes
>I didn't cry, I was just confused like "W-why did you do this to me? I thouht we were friends?"
Here I am, emotionally-desensitized sociopath that is also paranoid and it's not just your regular "hihi, oh they're talking shit behind my back" paranoia it's looking through your shutters paranoia (paranoia only intensifies when I smoke weed)
I can't form any normal relationships with people because I am 100% sure they're talking shit behind my back or they're out to kill me. For example if someone is being too nice and is inviting me to their place im 100% sure they wanna lace my drink and fuck me up the ass or murder me.
I've also been alone pretty much all of my life, never felt loneliness I've just been alone a lot. That's probably because I think people are out to kill me or have something behind my back. I am very charming at first (Superficial charm, I know what people want to hear) but I can't maintain it in the long run.
>6 years old
>went to family gathering with family as well as family friends and l never spoke more than a few words to anyone
>everyone gathered in yard near swimming pool
>Family thought I was retarded since I never spoke
>had to take a shit but too shy to ask to go in house to use bathroom
>went into Fisher price playhouse and shit on the ground in grass
>older boy found the turds
>announced it to everyone
>I was found out to be the culprit
>the father (unrelated to me) got pissed at me
>everyone expressing disgust at me
>my dad and mom sat sat there not defending me
>dad finally said that I had loose poop
>other father said I was just like a dog and wondered why the fuck I didn't speak up and ask to use the toilet
>I cried and tried to find a way to kill myself
>climbed a tree and told everyone I was going to kill myself
>dad and uncle talked me down
>went home and pissed the couch that night
>got the shit beaten out of me in the night when my dad walked over to discover that I had peed again
>had to sleep outside in back porch with dog
>>28919492
actual autism, no buzzwords
>>28919413
>>Mom comes into my room gives me the phone and tells me to call the police if I hear her scream
fuck
>got enough courage to ask out my middle school crush
>got rejected
>told her that I knew where she lived and I literally said "a restraining order will not stop me from raping you"
After this I realized I was too autistic to be around other people.
Fuck this shit! Just spent 10 minutes documenting my childhood traumas and accidently hit the back page button on my phone.
>kills self
>>28918545
>all of sudden they all start living,
What!?? What did he mean by this?
>>28919725
whacchu mean exactly?
> be me unsupervised 7 year old
> at grandparents because single moms always working
> grandparents have awesome pile of sand in front yard
> also have fatass female pitbull name baby that likes to hump me
> decide to go dig a sand tunnel one day
> didn't shore up the walls properly
> waist deep in tunnel baby walks over the tunnel collapses on me
> can't breath sand crush my small body
> stuck there for what feels like a eternity screaming for help
> deaf grandpa doesn't hear shit
> some how manage to wiggle my way out
Almost suffocating at 7 was what probably what traumatized me the most
>>28918545
>chatting with friends
>suddenly they start living and rise from their graves
>mfw I sacrificed too many goats to lord Satan
>5th grade get 1st gf, we are best friends, always hang out. Break up at end of year
>6th grade have a few gfs, nothing special just kiddie shit. First major sexualized encounter happens with older neighbor girl's friend, we make out playing truth or dare and end up making out all night and I grab her ass. I think she was in 8th grade. End up making out with 2 more of her friends throughout the year
>7th grade start dating arguably the hottest girl in the school, blonde blue eyes. Make out on the reg, heavy petting, etc. Still make out with neighbors older friends regularly.
>8th grade still dating same girl, end up losing v card to each other on my 14th birthday. Have sex every chance we get from then on.
>9th grade still dating same girl, end up getting her pregnant but she loses the baby. Break up with her because she is too needy when she calls me to tell me she miscarried
>10th-12th grade take virginity of most of the girls in my friend group. Have sex with my older sisters friend who had already graduated and my friends way older sister. Finger/make out with tons of underclassmen.
It keeps me up at night sometimes when I look back at how much pussy I missed out on, but can't dwell on it I guess.
>>28912326
>being this much of a little bitch over a bit of psychological abuse from your father with an obvious mental condition that he obviously feels bad about
My dad used to beat me every fucking day and if he asked me to do a single fucking thing with him and it meant we could bond in a nice way, I would literally kill a man for that opportunity. Little fucking cunt, I hope you die soon tbqh.
>be in middle school
>think I have a chance
>think i'm moderately popular
>some kid makes an online quiz to rank the most/least popular kids
>~300 votes
>I wonder who the least popular are
>I'm number two after a gay kid who was caught sucking dick
>The reality hits
>HARD
>everywhere I go I hear their laughter
>I used to laugh
>I used to have friends
>I used to be happy
I hope the guy that made the quiz dies of cancer
Honestly I had a pretty normal childhood but in middle school I became a robot and haven't been the same in the 10 years since
>>28919928
This turned you into a robot?
>>28919757
>hear her scream
>do nothing
seriously, if you feel sorry for the mom in this situation you need to leave
it's her fault for being a whore who chases abusive guys
>>28919883
probably meant "leaving"
>>28919928
thought this would end with you developing an attraction to dogs
>>28920010
nah, what shocked me was that she'd put her kid through that just because she wanted some dick
what is going on in this world
>>28919658
You are no better than a dog.
>>28911999
Every shirt I owned was stretched out of shape from my father picking me up by the collar of my shirt and shaking me. One year on christmas he picked me up and threw me across the room into the tree, which fell over on top of me. That became known as "The Year Anon Knocked Over the Christmas Tree" in family lore. Likewise, he threw me across the room onto the couch and I landed so hard that I shattered the wooden cross-beam and it sagged in the middle forever after. It became known as "The Couch That Anon Broke."
>>28911999
Uh my life did
>dad finds out first wife is cheating on him
>gets a divorce and goes looking for someone new at 60 and now diagnosed with cancer
>finds spinster living in USA through ma in dating service
>they marry two weeks after major surgery is done on him to get rid of a tumor
>im born a year later
>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
>reportedly tells my mom his death would "make me stronger"
Instead it made me grow up without a father figure and a 40 year old mother who knew barely anything about sex and American culture in general(Puerto Rico, refuses to integrate even after 20 years.)
My half-sister got a nice life in a quiet British town with a mom and dad who loved her and a family who had lived there for centuries. I got no family and my mom as my mom. At least she's not a whore like my sister's mom.
>>28919963
>people will unironically bite this
>>28920069
Nigga don't you know about dick?
>>28914565
I'm glad i'm not the only one this happeened to
>>28920085
>"The Year Anon Knocked Over the Christmas Tree"
>"The Couch That Anon Broke"
That's really fucked up.
Are people aware of what happened, or do they just not care and go along with the "joke"?
>>28918084
Damn famille, you made me want to play Silent Hill again. After I finish my current backlog game I'm going to actually attempt to finish Silent Hill 3 and maybe replay 2.
>>28920098
Is it bait if it's the truth?
Forgot to give back story of 5th grade gf, met her in 2nd grade and always liked her, one of my friends liked her too but I won
>born
>realize my soul has been trapped in yet another vessel
>this is our 276th cycle
>depressed since
and I still have no idea how to escape
>>28920165
My parents had very little self-awareness. I think everyone sort of knew and pretended not to know. For instance, I remember at one extended family dinner, as people were cleaning up, my father said, "Don't bother, just tip the table up into anon's mouth. He's a human garbage can." My parents laughed like they thought it was hysterical as everyone else stared at them in shock; my parents never even noticed.
>>28920088
>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
So your dad died twice then?
>>28920225
He died the day after father's day, which was 2 weeks after anon's birthday you fucking retard. No wonder girls won't fuck you.
>>28918511
>Pooping in the urinal
Do you go to a certain HS in Manhattan by any chance?
>>28919966
>My dad used to beat me every fucking day
probably because you were a delinquent little shit.
>>28920258
>>28920258
I mean, if your reading comprehension is good enough, you'll realize that what he said implies his dad dying twice.
>>28920303
How many friends do you have?
>>28916328
>bad acne in 4th grade
and I thought acne in 6th grade was extremely early
>>28920346
if you weren't autistic you'd realize it doesn't
i guess you get a pass if english isn't your native language
>>28920411
But it does. "dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday AND day after Father's Day."
You have to be blind to not understand that this Implies two deaths. Otherwise, anon could have used "or" to better convey what he may have meant.
took AP calc bc exam in eight grade and got a 5
people thought i was genious in highschool
all that attention fucked me up
now friendless, failing all my classes, manlet...
pls kill me
>>28918476
textbook wannabe psychiatrist here
>>28920512
>genious
are you sure
>>28920485
No, you dick licking, piss drinking, donkey fucking, child molesting dipshit. All it implies is that his birthday falls two weeks before the day after father's day.
>reading /r9k/ board on my iphone
>read some funny stories about anons not realizing they are robot
>classmate turn around and say " first time I see you smile anon, i thought you are a robot"
>>28920551
So if I said "my dad died yesterday and the day before my birthday", he died yesterday and not a day before my birthday? Or did he die twice?
>>28920551
>dad dies two
This implies there was a death sequel, meaning there was a first death
>weeks after 5th birthday
Which would be five years old
>and day after father's day
Second death
>>28920607
It means that today is your birthday
>>28918347
>having a crush on anyone that long
whew there
>>28920607
That only leaves phone.
>>28920634
Using humor to escape. Classic abuse victim
Joined a school project after 5th grade which msde you skip one year of school within 4 years. Class was ofc full of the brightest students. Everything went fine until puberty hits and I didnt grow as fast as the others. Also I didnt get cool clothes because we were poor.
Hierarchy ensued and I was at the very bottom. This was where I learned most of my character traits. 25 today, trying really fucking hard to not be that guy anymore. I am making some progress but it is hard as fuck. Everyone is trying to improve their situation and theyre quite content with as many people below them as possible.
>>28920666
I'm loving those trips, my man .
>>28912326
You pass the "Why I am a Robot" quiz.
>>28920607
>>28920611
i really hope this is trolling
but who am i kidding
>>28913898
Isn't it horrible how one callous remark like that can be the match that sets off the gasoline.
>>28916860
My mom's name is melissa and she was a total stacy, fuck.
>>28920761
It's not our fault you don't understand basic English. When you read it, you ASSUME that he means his birthday is after fathers day. The sentence means that he died twice.
*cough* *cough*
>>28913803
I feel you bro, I had similar experience myself.
>elementary school
>school dance coming up
>everybody is assigned a partner
>girl I was assigned to obviously wasn't happy about it
>day of the dance
>girl I was assigned to was dancing with someone else
>felt lost
>asked my teacher what to do
>ended up sitting next to my teacher's husband with the other parents watching everyone else dance
This fucking song still haunts me.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PzwxxCcyIME
>>28920761
If they're the same day, why make it so complicated? What's the significance?
>>28914015
That is harsh.
Why did your parents have two kids so close together, anyway?
nothing too sad or anything
>come from abusive impoverished background
>mom is a high school dropout who sells drugs to make ends meet
>too poor to afford to do anything, so no clubs or sports
>just me and mom watching movies and eating junk food most of the time
>become mommas boy
>mom decides to go back to school late in her life
>is never around anymore
>still barely making ends meet
>to afford anything nice, have to babysit for family
>have to basically raise my younger brother
>inbetween babysitting, raising brother, and deprived of relationship with mother, become messed up
>have no opportunity to socialize
>no money to do anything after buying game console
>weeks and weekends become about school work, which mom doesn't help with, playing games, watching kids and/or brother
>too much responsibility when I should've been out there being stupid and shit
>too much time wasted on games
>miss my whole early teens
now I live with mom, playing games, eating junk food
we all kind of hate each other. brother hates me, mom still ignores, and I've basically given up on life. I think I could've been a normie under the right circumstances. I even had girls that liked me. alas, i'm a total beta loser. never did anything about it. all the knowledge I have now is completely useless to me. I do want to kill myself but have no means and am a coward. plus my dick is on the small side. so even if I got into a relationship, i'd never be able to make it last.
just waiting to die really
>>28916860
Jenna here
>>28914189
That makes you more of a /b/tard than a robot
>>28911999
In middle school I was bullied by a girl who told me to kill myself everyday. It made me depressed and she was seen as the victim. I was the most hated guy in middle school because she spread rumors about me.
>>28921165
Oh that just means she likes you. She wants the D
>>28915996
/b/ tier, not /r9k/
And, how many people can say without doubt that their whole 3rd grade class rememberes them??
#likeabro
>>28920735
Fuckin' aye man. The hierarchy of life is dicks
>>28921258
That was 10 years ago, but her sister told me that she was anxious when she saw me at the store like 5 years ago.
>>28920894
>elementary school
>school dance
fucking jews i swear
>>28919658
Do you still shit outside like a filthy fucking Indian?
>>28921388
>its the jews fault that i am antisocial
kek
>>28916860
Is there a Jenna in the world who is not a bitch? I think the one who won Survivor in season 6 is the epitome of them.
> I have a cousin who is cool with that name, but she spells it Jena
>>28917291
Verily. Who wants sand-nigger babies, even 1/4 ones. Imagine what your in-laws would have been like.
>>28920900
>>28920225
>>28920258
>>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
You're both wrong clearly the birthday is also the day after Father's Day.
>>28917452
>>tfw you just masturbated to a lesbian scat orgy
aka 2 Girls, 1 Cup
>>28921600
lebanon has the highest percentage of christians in the islamic world
especially the ones who immigrate, for obvious reasons
>>28917619
Agreed. I had to get my porn from my Dad's Playboys or sneaking peeks at other magazines in the back of in the newsstand. (when those existed)
>have a big brother and 2 sisters
>mom loved sisters and father loved brother
>went through my younger years being completely alone
>celebrated birthdays until I was 6 and then no more
>got bullied in school from grade 2 to 7
>learned not to care anymore and just studied so I could pass my classes
>move out after getting a decent paying job
>no one helped me move and they were happy I was leaving(not the good kind of happy)
>arrive at new place and realize I literally have 0 happy memories with my family
Guess being ignored has its perks. Can't remember bad memories if you neved had em to begin with.
>>28919725
I work with people with autism. This isn't autism
>>28918576
None of this has squat to do with you except that you're a Chink
>>28920485
Let's suppose anon's birthday is Dec 20th.
"Dad dies 6 days after Anon's birthday and the day after Christmas".
Capiche?
> parents are both passive-aggressive as shit
> nobody ever raises their voice, just stomps around fuming if angry
> I thought this was normal
> would be at a friend's house and his mom or dad would yell at him or a sister about something--totally freaked me out
> I now know that would have been healthier
> decades of bottling up everything and never expressing direct confrontation
> Mom was self-centered and chilly in nature, not motherly. Too worried about what her country-club friends would think
> Dad tried to do things to make me happy but was so absolute Normie that he couldn't understand my high-IQ, Aspergery, gay, introverted self
> at least he never forced me to do anything like sports
> School was happy in first 4 years
> start 5th grade with best friend, even voted to be class representative for student council
> have nigger for teacher
> parents will not have it
> she was a good teacher, I was happy
> parents will not have it
> move me to another classroom on a flimsy excuse
> suddenly I am "the new guy in class" despite going to that school for 3 years already
> I trace my entire social downfall to that switch in 5th grade just because my parents were racist
> Also 5th grade is when boys are supposed to be in/good at sports (Sports 2, Anon 0)
> go from being actually kind of popular to being made fun of and mildly bullied
> get to middle school, bullying is more overt and regular
> parents still too worried about their friends at the Country Club than my mental health
> Mom actually "scolds" me for not having more friends or being popular, as if I was deliberately choosing to be bullied. At that moment I realized she had been a major Stacey in her day.
TL; DR: had comfortable upper-middle class upbringing but parents who basically ignored my emotional needs even as I became more and more made fun of and harassed at school for being a sissy Aspie nerd.
