ITT: Stories from your childhood that made you into the robot you are today.
>me and dad get into argument because he kicks me off computer
>tell him to fuck off
>he tells me to go hide in my room and jack off like I always do
didn't even say anything back ;_;
>Dad beat me anytime I questioned him
>Anytime he had work to do on the house or something it meant my brother and I had work to do on the house
>If the work ever got tough he'd start cussing and would immediately default to blaming my brother and I
>My brother would basically deal with his attitude the same way my mom would: just accept it
>I'd usually get pissed off because the way I saw it I was doing him a favor by helping him and I didn't need the attitude that came with it
>After years of rinsing and repeating this obviously it wore down our relationship
>My 18th birthday on father's day my dad asked me to go outside and throw the football with him, refused and stayed inside to play vidya with friends
>Pretty sure he realized he was dead to me, would still ask me to help him do shit and would get angry all the time but that was about the only contact we had
>Would still talk to mom and brother all the time, occasionally overheard dad bitch to mom that I never did anything with him
>Tried to guilt me into going to an NFL game with him a few months before I moved out
>Have no relationship with him to this day
>Brother still calls me and sometimes drops the "Why don't you talk to dad?" card
>Never answer it because I know dad is just trying to talk to me through him
>Mom still sends me cards on my birthday and on Christmas and signs "Mom and Dad" on them even though I know my dad doesn't even know when my birthday is or how old I am
>was once spanked for swearing
>didnt swear
>was never abused but took punishments hard
>once flinched when my mother raised her hand in the corner of my view
>mocked for it
>was told girls like nice guys
>just be yourself
>integrated these lies into myself
>literally nothing happened
>so i became passive
>have little above average IQ and EQ
>have no interest in things other kids are into
>boom! the story of our lives robots
>dad beat me
>mother was depressive, never really loved me because if that
>leaving huge hole In chest which only womanly love can fill
>hence why I sperg out completely around girls and obsess as soon as a girl shows interest in talking to me
>theres a dance at school
>teacher forces all of us to dance
>end up dancing with my oneitis
>its too embarrasing, we barelly touch during the dance
>after dance i hear her crying
>this has diminished my self esteem, and ability to approach wfemales despite years having passed
I was already kind of a shy/anxious kid up until this point:
>About grade 9
>Have to split into groups
>The teacher is assigning who goes with who
>"And anon, you can go with anon2 and femanon"
>Femanon: "ewwww, I'll go with anyone except him!"
>Whole class laughs
>Something in my brain "clicks"
>Never forgot that moment
>Now I am 24 years old and socially inept, fat and depressed
There was a bunch of shit between then and now that happened too, but that was definitely the "trigger" moment. The worst part is I never even did anything wrong, I tried to be a nice person.
I think it was mostly my Dad that made me into a robot.
Here's one story:
>be 9 years old
>come down stairs to go to kitchen
>walk through living room where my dad is
> he looks at me then just gets super angry
> starts shouting that he hates me, I'm not his son etc
>just run back to my room
pretty much avoided him for 3 days after that as every time he saw me he would get angry.
My Dad always said stuff like this but this is the most extreme incident I can remember.
And my Dad wonders why I'm a robot and my sisters are sluts.
>>28911999
>be like 10 or something
>sister doesn't have birthday party on her birthday because its the weekday
>day of my actual birthday is when her birthday party is held
>all of her friends are invited over, entire day is about her, she gets all the presents and I'm shoved on the sidelines
>aunt tells me it's fine because i don't have any friends anyways
And that's the day i stopped caring about my birthday.
>>28912049
Lmao he kinda rekt you
Got bullied a lot, literally burned alive twice by classmates for being nerdy fat kiddo autista and having a judge mom (criminal kids hated me for it, small town so everyone knew) when switched from private to estate school, hatred made me strong, then I was feared, almost any bad thing was blamed on me, girls would try to hurt me in the feelings since they couldn't hurt my body anymore, betrayed by fake friends, became cold and bitter, always analyzing others, had to become the strongest just to survive down there, never trusting, finally made it out of there, got a gf, dumped me a week later, worst time on my life, starved at a corner of my room for 3 weeks straight just with bottles of liquor, finally snapped and gave birth to an artificial persona that I use to this day, developed full-blown crippling depression as a result but manage to appear happy on the outside and blend in the common rabble, may make people laugh and joke around, but on the inside I can only think in the lack of purpose of everything and the glooming thought of myself being no worthy additive to the life of enyone and the other way around too
>>28911999
>be only child
>discover masturbation at 6
>discover internet porn at 7
i never stood a chance
>>28914015
>aunt tells me it's fine because i don't have any friends anyways
what the fuck, how could someone say that to a kid
If I weren't too autistic to get a wife I bet I would make a great fucking dad since I know all the mistakes parents do due to own experience an /R9k/
Also lots and lots of unspent love due to being alone all the time
>>28914205
She was a horrible person. Bitch died a slow death back in 2011 from ALS. She withered away slowly and painfully. Tbh i wish it was a slower death.
>>28912326
You sound like a little bitch to be honest
Go spend time with your dad
>>28913510
hey me too all of em
>>28914304
No, you're the little bitch anon. What's the matter? You unloved? No friends? Kill yourself.
>>28914366
>What's the matter? You unloved? No friends?
No fucking shit, were do you think we are faggot
>>28913915
if it just started from that point on, he may have found out your mom was a ho
>8 years old
>in swimming practice changing room
>am really sick
>shit myself
>waddle to the bathroom, covering the shit lump in my speedos
>for whatever reason instead of just depositing it into the toilet decide to smear it all over the fucking walls
>spend ages in there
>finally leave, rejoin class after who knows how long
>no one ever found out it was me
It didn't actually do anything to make me into who I am now, but looking back it makes me realise that there was always something fucked about me.
>be in middle school
>hottest girl in school keeps bullying me
>knows I am shy and awkward as fuck
>uses this to embarrass me
>keeps openly "flirting" with me to make me feel embarrased
>refers to me as sexy "my name" (she wasn't very creative) in front of everyone
>they always burst out laughing
>constantly interrupts the class to make lewd jokes at my expense
>openly threatens to rape me in front of everyone
>even the teachers find it hilarious
>teacher pulls me aside after class
>"you know she is just kidding around right, don't take it seriously"
>decide that every woman who shows an interest in me is just fucking with me
>QT girl 2 years older than me takes pity on me
>starts hanging around me all the time
>introduces me to her friends
>runs up to me and says hi every time she sees me
>decide she is probably fucking with me
>one day she comes up to me
>I tell her to fuck off, and that I hate her
>she looks visibly upset
>starts crying and runs off
>I immediately regret my decision
>she never speaks to me again
Fuck you Jenna you whore, you ruined my life
>>28914565
This has to be fake. How can anyone be so stupid.
>>28914608
Who are you saying is stupid?
Me? What did I do?
>Mom called me an unfortunate accident after hitting me one day
>>28914629
you are a literal retard. Please just off yourself.
>>28914629
You spent so much time with a girl then suddenly decided she was faking and reacted with out looking into the subject.
Maybe it's just my nature to observe but I can't imagine making an impulse decision like that.
>>28913646
:(
what's EQ stand for?
>Dad really wants me to play soccer, bought little soccer shoes and everything when I was born
>Turned 6, didn't want to play soccer at all, tried it once but didn't even slightly enjoy it
>Father completely ignores me for years
>Be 9 year old diagnosed autist
>Father beats me because I "have a big mouth"
>Constantly belittles me because I'm not the son he expected/wanted
>Lock myself in my room whenever I sense a beating coming
>Eventually just stop talking
When he gets old enough and becomes dependant on me I'll get my revenge. I'll put him in the shittiest retirement home his own money can buy.
>>28914717
Eh, she was just taking pity on my anyway
Typical roastie behavior, hang out with the loser so people think you are a good person
>>28914782
I guess so. I personally never had to experience that because I figured out how normies act and several years later they still think I'm one of them.
>>28914782
That's why she cried you fucking retard , go apologize
>>28914476
oh sweet lord above
>>28914831
>in middle school
It was over 10 years ago retard, why would I apologize?
Also she cried because she got blown the fuck out, not because she liked me
>>28912326
>also had a dad that beat me
>he drank a lot and also verbally abuse me for getting poor grades and failing at sports
>I remember when I was young I didn't want to eat dinner because I felt sick this one time
>he forced fed me while I cried and video taped the whole event
>dad would play that tape to visitors so show people how much of a little bitch I was.
>he use to tell me my dick wouldn't grow because I was a us less piece of shit
>dad even stripped infront of a mirror a few times and would say "look at the fat piece of shit"
>whenever I had work around the house I would do it while being verbally abused
>he would then claim he did all the work to my mother
>mom wasn't around all the time to see this shit
>years of abuse later I turned 17 and I had a mental breakdown
>moved out of home and never talk to my dad again,
>talk to mom on the phone sometimes
>heard my dad got sober
>but he says he doesn't remember any of the events that happened to me
>I still don't talk to him
>hear dad has cancer now,
>don't give a fuck.
>>28914903
damn son
Was about to make fun of you for being a huge cuck, but that is pretty messed up
>>28914608
the second girl is worse than the first
>>28911999
More crying laughing Pepes, please.
My parents were always there but they hardly ever interacted with me, and I've only known a handful of people in my life so I have no social skills
The only people I actually know and talk to are my brothers who grew up the same way
>>28915538
>More crying laughing Pepes, please.
here you go buddy
>>28915419
how so?
>>28915577
Thank you, friend.
Here's one you can have in exchange if you don't already have it.
>>28915577
>how so?
misplaced or uninformed empathy is more destructive than open cruelty, and the first helps enable the second
women aren't capable of real empathy, especially for guys
it's even weirder since she was older than anon. she probably had no friends her age or had just gotten out of an abusive relationship
> 8th grade gym
> "hey guys lets play touch football"
> sure.jpg
> whenever I try to cross the line of scrimmage, this dude just knocks me over
> repeats for the rest of gym, never catch a ball
> walk away crying, teacher sends me to the principal for disrupting class, get send home
>>28911999
>attracted to girl in middleschool
>she identifies me as a beta, shy, autist who is bad at talking to girls
>intentionally tries to embarrass me and make me feel uncomfortable in school
>best friend at the time finds it funny and eggs her on
Kek I wouldn't stand for shit like this nowadays though.
>Be me
>Be 8
>Father constantly belittled me and abused me
>Be 10
>Father started sexually abusing me
>Be 14
>Father leaves, mother becomes alcoholic
I embraced my fembothood a long time ago.
>>28915795
For once, please don't take the bait guys
>grade nine be 6.5/10
>crush on qt 3.14 in geography, have never spoken a word to her
>unhealthy obsession activated
>read a bunch of garbage pick up advice
>go up to her after school
>"hey you're really attractive, we should be friends"
>in front of all her friends
Fuck highschool
>>28915833
What bait?
>>28915795
Fucking whore. Get off my FUCKING BOARD.
>Be me
FUCKOFF
>>28915860
Stop samefagging
No one is taking your shitty bait
>>28914565
>be me
>primary school (British version of whatever school Americans go to before the age of 11)
>shy as fuck
>always nervous around girls
>the joker of my group, always fooling about
>girl tells me I'm ugly when I smile
>I stop smiling
>get to secondary school (ages 11 - 16)
>go through school being bullied
>even more shy
>even more serious
>still smile sometimes
>friend says something funny one say in IT class, I smile
>girl next to me says it's the first time she's ever seen me smile. I'm 15 at that point
>It just reminds me not to smile
Girls fucking ruined my life before I even had a chance.
>>28915921
Have you tried not having an ugly smile anon?
i was always quite kid
>had a friend lived in the next neighborhood
>he would come over
>over the past years of maturing he didn't
>he turned into a ass
>he broke crap of parents
>getting made fun off at school and home
>>28915907
lol implying
>literally took a shit in the corner of the classroom in grade 3
I thought i was cool for doing it. How wrong I was.
>>28911999
Ages 6 to 12, raped by my mothers father
Finally told a teacher, mom and her dad went to jail
Some pictures and a video are still online
Went into foster care, got beat the crap out of by my alcoholic foster parents, told again
lived from 14-18 in a state facility, I am pretty small, got abused by the other boys I lived with
Currently getting SSDI and existing in a rent controlled coffin size apartment
Try never leaving my place unless I absolutely have to
Have a gun
No one will ever hurt me again
Won't let anyone get close enough
Really want to get my GED and get a job saving children from abusers, take the somewhere we can all be safe
I realize I have a lot of problems
>>28915941
The thing is, I actually don't. Plenty of people since then have said I should smile more because I have a nice smile.
But I believe the experiences and memories we have when we're younger have a profound impact on our growth.
I think being made fun of for being happy, for showing it, has definitely impacted me for good.
>>28916012
male or female?
How much I care depends on your answer
>>28913646
>robots
>above average emotional quota
This is delusional if anything.
>>28916012
>finally told a teacher, mom and her dad went to jail
call bullshit
women don't go to jail, especially if they weren't even the ones doing the abusing
she'd just tell the courts her dad was threatening her too
>>28916151
i think robots happen when slightly above average IQ coexists with severe emotional retardation
>4th grade
>be fat kid with bad acne
>tfw early bloomer
>girls come up and say one of them lost a bet so they had to go on a date with me
>lost a bet
>they never did date me btw
>>28911999
>developed rheumatoid arthritis
>intense pain, can't run, walk, lie down, climbing stairs without suffering
>feeling like a freak while being in pain although friends and families are supportive
>pain has gone with new med but I feel really empty inside
>in formative years, transitioning from adolescence to puberty
>parents pick me up from school one day
>say goodbye to my friend, a girl as they pick me up
>the whole ride home it's all "ooooh, is that you girlfriend anon?" "I'm going to dance at your wedding anon" "When can I meet her parents anon?"
>don't like being teased
>never talk to my parents about girls again
>in turn, don't get any advice about girls from my father
it's their fault i'm like this
>>28914608
fuck off you fucking faggot, a lot of people end up like this. you think you're smart and it wouldn't happen to you, but trust me that's not the case.
>homeschooled
>fucking hated it
>parents promised i could decide for myself when i got to high school, then threated to kick me out of house when i brought it up again
>started college at 16
>same month i found out that my dad wasn't my bio father and took it extremely hard
>straight a's first two years of college, dropped out the third
>just can't integrate into society due to growing up at home with angry dad and bitchy mom
>if i could kill (without repercussion) mom i probably would
>see people always walking with friends or eating out together
>never felt comfortable like that with my few friends
man i should just kill myself. i'm about to start school again and a new job and i'm dying of anxiety, can't barely even leave the house. this'll never end.
>Middle school
>Had a pretty big circle of friends and was even friends with a few Chads
>Chad named Matt was fucking a Stacey named Jenna, she had huge tits for a middle schooler but somewhat of a butter face
>Talk to her a few times, nothing ever really comes of it
>Eventually wind up fighting one of my friends in school because he wouldn't stop making fun of me, dropped him on his ass
>Get detention
>Meet Jenna inside, she is shocked to see me there because she thought I was a good kid (which I was)
>We talk a good bit
>Fast forward a month, Matt stops fucking Jenna and moves on to a new Stacey
>Jenna out of nowhere starts talking to me, Matt greenlights me on her and says "Yeah man I don't care, it'd be cool to see you have a girlfriend." (Matt was pretty sympathetic to betas, somewhat of a self-aware Chad)
>Thinking I am finally going to have a gf and since she is a Stacey maybe I could enter the normie hierarchy
>Dad out of nowhere tells me we're moving that exact day, he put in a fucking request to move with his company without consulting my mom, brother, or me
>Had a few months left to the school year, fall into depression and lose all desire to pursue Jenna
>When we move I never make any new friends, never get a gf, and pretty much become a shut-in
>Still to this day blame him for my antisocial tendencies
>>28916700
>>28914565
Fucking jennas man
>>28911999
>parents are anti-technology retards
>no video games
>no computers
>no internet until I was like 17
>be absolutely fascinated with the forbidden fruit of vidya
>start being "friends" with the most autistic kid in my class because he lives nearby and has vidya, so I can play a few minutes every week when I hang out at his house
>eventually find another kid with better vidya
>hang out with him instead
>eventually hang out at our local arcade by myself with my allowance and shit
>never learn to make friends properly because of that, just learned to temporarily exploit other betas and autists until something better came along
a few years later
>sort of lose interest in vidya for a few years since I could only afford used consoles & games from previous gens
>practically a normie at this point
>years go by
>see "The orange box" on sale at a store
>also buy ps3 on a whim around like 2010
>video game sensory overload
>immediately start shunning whatever little social life I had, abandon all hope and plans and motivation for the future, even get fired from my job, just wanna play vidya games yahurr
>never learned self-control and moderation with vidya as a kid
and thats how I've been a NEET for a couple of years now at 30 years old.
>>28914903
You should visit him on his deathbed, and make sure he knows how much you hate him and that he failed as a father.
>>28916790
let's get a list of stacy/bitch names going
>jenna
>ANY name with a double "s" - jessica, alyssa, tessa, marissa, melissa
>>28916843
don't even both visiting him, just send him a poorly written note
>>28916790
if u only knew, that damn beautiful name jenna.. shit
>>28915921
The opposite of my problem, people tell me I actually have a nice smile. The problem is I never have anything to smile about.
>>28916700
willyama?
>>28916571
similar story
>manage to date a few girls
>dad never offers any advice over anything
>get broken up with
>don't bother running the rat race of dating for a few years
>dad walks into my room one day
>just stands there being awkward "so...."
>wonder if he's going to ask about my 5 year plan again or some bullshit
>"yes?"
>"*ahem*.... son... are you gay? Because it's okay if you are"
>"..."
>"..."
>"...are you asking because one time you walked in on my sucking a dick? Because then that would be a reasonable thing to ask"
>"OH JEEZ LOUISE ALWAYS WITH THE SMART-ASS COMMENTS WHY CAN'T I JUST HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH YOU"
>"YOU'RE ASKING ME IF I'M GAY. I'VE BEEN IN NOTHING BUT RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS SO YOU TELL ME WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM WITH THIS"
>"I...... it was your mother! She put me up to this"
>go ask my mom about this gay witch hunt
>she denies knowing about it
>tell my dad she doesn't know about it
>he denies it as well
>go back to my room and lock the door
and that was the last day I ever talked to them for longer than a minute or something. I've also been single forever since.
>>28916860
>Marissa
That reminds me.
>High school
>Knew girl named Marissa
>She made some joke about how she only fucks black guys one day in class for everyone to hear
>The next year she becomes a vegetarian, some guy publicly humiliates her by saying "You're a vegetarian and you won't eat meat but you don't flinch from eating dick."
>It was well deserved because apparently she was a major whore
>She starts dyeing her hair and starts experimenting with other girls
>She winds up fucking the only other lesbian at our school which was a landwhale
>She started having visible slash/cut marks on her arm
>Still remember to this day when even a nigger looked at her and said "Uh, fuck man gross." to one of his ape friends
I guess the moral here is if she fucks niggers avoid her like she has the black plague.
>>28917010
What? Is this supposed to mean something?
>>28917094
You know what they say - Burn the coal, pay the toll.
>>28917128
Its latin for your a faggot
>>28917035
Your parents don't sound bad. I never spoke to my dad because he was an abusive piece of shit, at least your dad talked to you. My dad would've fucking shot me if I ever cursed/shouted at him even though he did it to me all the fucking time. My dad once lost his shit just because he felt like I was telling him to do something, a literal control freak if you ask me.
>>28917035
Wew, that's pretty funny. Reminds of the one time I managed to bring a girl home.
>bring qt 8/10 home
>just chilling in basement watching inglorious bastards
>parents come home
>invite her to stay for dinner
>during dinner Dad asks her what ethnicity she is
>says she's half Lebanese
>he says "Salami Alakum"
>Fucking Salami Alakum
>just stare at him
>girl leaves
>she never talks to me again
>>28917273
>Lebanese
Your dad did you a favour
>>28914476
Same. Looking back, there's definitely something wrong with a little kid loving the smell of pissy urinal cakes in the mens room and shoving pencils up his ass.
>>28916860
reminds me
>be working shit fast food job
>shift is just about to end, like 20 minutes to go
>someone else than the person scheduled walks in for the following shift
>her name is Tiffany, goes by Tiff
>15 minutes early
>nice
>humble
>friendly
>wants to work
>is smart, iirc she was studying psychology before switching to nursing
>briefly end up talking about literature and movies
>shift is over
>get changed and get my stuff
>as I'm walking out
>"really nice meeting you Tiff! With that name I was expecting a dumb bimbo!"
>see those words fly out of my mouth
>let that autism linger in the air for a brief moment like a rank fart
>"uhm..."
>"HAHA JUST KIDDING WELL AS YOU CAN TELL I'M QUITE THE JOKER HAHA RIGHT WHOOPS GOTTA RUN MY BUS IS AROUND THE CORNER HAHA LATER"
>literally run out
>thankfully never see her again for the rest of my life so far
>be a good, quiet kid all through elementary and middle school
>buy myself an ipod touch one day as I'm graduating from grade 8
>find out about porn and become addicted to jacking off
>it stops feeling as good as it used to so I move on to more extreme fetishes
>tfw you just masturbated to a lesbian scat orgy with piss play on the side
>shame.png
>go away to camp for the summer before highschool
>leave ipod at home like a dumbass
>it doesnt have a password on it because nobody ever tried to take it from me before
>mom looks through it while I'm away
>come home
>both parents absolutely flip the fuck out and scream at me about how much of a sexual perverted disgusting pig I am
>so embarassed I thought I was going to pass out
>hardly ever speak to parents from then on out
>never speak to other girls
>shut myself in my room for days
>depression creeps in
>years later and absolutely nothing has changed
>>28917306
I read and experienced that embarrassment vicariously bro.
I've definitely been there also.
>>28917202
>he was an abusive piece of shit
Oh but he was as well, but as he got older I guess he felt bad and he tried to raise us kids when we were in our early-late 20s and some of us already living in their own place.
He used to beat me for something that my brother did. That was the routine for a while actually.
>older brother is a high school shithead
>pothead and doing other drugs
>parents had him go to private school
>dad ends up taking a job in another city after getting fired from his old job
>only comes home on weekends
>mom is a pussyfart with no authority
>brother takes advantage of that to skip class multiple times a week, come home high as shit, steal from us, play his shitty nu-metal music as loud as possible all the time, etc.
>all my mom can do is be like "oh just you wait until your father comes home mister!"
>dad comes home
>mom tells him about how much of a shithead brother has been
>"JESUS CHRIST WOMAN IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOU AND THE KIDS WHAT BOUT I ALSO HAD A ROUGH WEEK"
>he starts slapping her around
>I ask him to lay off her
>he slaps me around
>meanwhile brother was smart enough to not even be home for weekends when our father was around
>brother was also abusive, after he called our mom a cunt I told him to stop being a shitty person and he threatened to break my neck
This went on for a while until my parents noticed that butcher knives were missing and I told them that I kept them under my mattress because I didn't feel safe at home both because of my brother and my dad.
I guess my dad agreed to stop beating the shit out of me and my mom, he confronted my brother, they got into a big fistfight and the police were called by two neighbors. No charges or nothing and my brother went to rehab and my dad stopped being slightly less autistic and a ragetard.
Oh and when all this was happening for like a year and a half, our older sister was like "lol fuck this I'm out fags" and moved out with some guy like 10 years older than her.
>be newborn
>parents let doctors mutilate my penis
>be permanently scarred both physically and mentally
>>28917452
I'm actually kind of glad to have grown up just before the internet became mainstream and had parents who were anti-technology so I didn't have internet at home until I was 17. I would jack off with Sears catalogs and black & white Archie comics and Marvel comics trading card and shit like that.
But the trade-off is that I had NO IDEA what a vagina looked like until I reached that age.
most likely being bullied and neglected by my dad which made me more aware of body language and subconscious motives
>hanging out with friends
>if they joke around about stuff i think they subconsciously mean it
>now before i talk i must analyze everything i say so i dont reveal my subconscious motives
>dont end up talking at all
>no friends
>>28912049
That actually sounds painful
>>28913898
jeez man
girls are always assholes for no reason even when they are young
>>28917605
Best one yetFUCK YOU BOT
>>28912049
You should have been like 'YEAH OKAY I'LL DO JUST THAT" and move the computer into your room.
>>28917452
>>both parents absolutely flip the fuck out and scream at me about how much of a sexual perverted disgusting pig I am
People really do stuff like this.
I understand it's a terrible idea, and could cause a lot of problems, but I think you should need a license to breed.
>at grandma's house because dad can't watch me during the day
>mom is there, rarely ever see her because dad has full custody
>raging around completely drunk
>clothes undone, unkempt, slurring words
>harassing grandma to give her a lighter for her cigarette
>grandma thinks she will drop it and burn the house down
>holding my stuffed rabbit, sitting on couch crying loudly, beyond terrified of my mother
>mom walks into living room, so does grandma
>mom snatches lighter from grandma, sits next to me and lights her cigarette
>grandma yells, "Michelle, look what you're doing to your son!"
>mom turns, blows smoke in my face and says, "I don't care."
I suppose that's why I am here, alone on my birthday, posting on /r9k/.
I love you guys.
>Be 11
>Hanging with cousin
>We met with a group of girls thah he knows
>they pretty much ignore me
>go to.cousin's house later.that day
>fucking around with msn
>The same group of girls is having a sleepover
>we talk with them over msn, they know I'm there
>they say they will put the webcam on so my cousin can see them in their underwear
>but only if "you faggot cousin leaves the room"
>cousin.tells me.to leave
I used to think that family had to look for eachother
>>28917730
reproducing outside of marriage should definitely be illegal at least
>>28917734
iktfb
I barely knew my grandparents, both my grandparents actually, but they seemed like better parents than my own parents.
Which makes me wonder how they managed to raise such fuck-up retards. Although most of aunts and uncles are happy normies so who knows.
>>28917734
was dad any better?
>>28917541
Your dad sounds like mine. My dad never hit my mom though (as far as I know), but he was never shy to hit me. I actually got really pissed as a kid because my dad got angry at my mom for hitting our dog once, meanwhile he would hit me the second I challenged him on something.
Your sister and brother turned out fucked up because of your piece of shit dad, you seem to have turned out ok (though you are here, so there is that). You obviously had a moral compass since you stood up for your mom even against people you knew would immediately resort to barbarism, so there is that.
I'm not sure how my brother is not as fucked up as I am, or maybe he is and I can't tell. My brother once told me when I was a kid I fight with my dad so much because I am like him, which I don't see at all. That really terrifies me as well, if I am even remotely like him I never want to have kids. The closest thing I think I have to him is my temper, the difference being I can control mine, my dad like yours just goes into a complete rage when he gets angry and defaults to violence if it involved me or my brother.
>>28917815
>which makes me wonder how they managed to raise such fuck-up retards.
degeneracy flooded media and society in the 70s and 80s
good parents can only do so much to counteract things
>>28917815
Glad someone else knows this feel.
>>28917822
My dad is an angel on Earth. He still apologizes to me frequently about the time he trusted my mother to drive me to dinner so we could all act like a family again. She of course snuck into his liquor cabinet and got so drunk, then we got in a car crash when she tried to drive us to dinner to meet him.
I'm lucky to have him.
My mom is the definition of JUST. I could go on all day about how bad she was.
>>28917853
Home school, monitor what your children consume, don't let them near niggers or leftists.
>I was born
origiinalirio holy shit fuck off robot
>>28917853
>degeneracy
has nothing to do with my post senpai, my mom is a catholic and my dad had that good old fashioned "beat my wife" WWII attitude, and they were in their 20-30s during those decades.
How fucking young are you that your parents were raised in those decades?
>>28917734
I recognise you from that picture. You are the guy who makes Silent Hill threads, and did those videos right? I am sorry to hear about what happened to you. If it's any solace your videos are comfy.
>>28917875
Any other stories you wanna share anon?
>Made a best friend in 1st grade
>Said friend started to bully me in 4th grade and I had to start going to a cheap-ass private school
>Make two best friends in middle school
>High school rolls around, they join this group of douchebags and start bullying me
>I can't figure out why they're abandoning me for two years
>Bear with the bullshit for those two years before one climactic moment
>They're making fun of me, I ask them "why the fuck do I even sit with you guys, you're all jerks!"
>Moment of silence, before: "We don't know honestly, we figured you would have left like, a year ago."
>Tears, run away, spend next year mostly in the bathroom or nurse's office crying
>Eventually make new friends
>They make fun of me too, but I've acknowledged it as a fact of reality that I'm weird
>>28911999
Parents told me to finish college before I even think about dating. I'm about to finish college but they've been nagging me to get a girlfriend every chance they get.
>>28917833
thanks for reading my blog senpai.
and yeah the whole "becoming your parents" thing is scary, especially when both my aprents were such opposites. The ragetard who handled stress by hitting things and people like a fuckin ape, and the womanchild with the strength of a wet mop.
My sister, even though she hated our father, is a lot of like him because EVERYTHING completely sets her off. She's never hit her kids or anyone but like she'll start screaming if something doesn't go her way immediately.
Meanwhile my brother who exploited our mom ended up inheriting the manchild from her and like rolls around on the fucking ground and makes baby noises when he hangs out with our sister's kids.
Hopefully I can be my own person and not just a copy of one or both of my parents, that would be nice.
>>28917950
My mom desperately trying to reconnect with me a few years ago on Christmas by trying to get me a guitar which I had expressed interest to my father in getting.
>was around 12 or 13
>dad asks what I want for Christmas
>tell him I want to learn guitar, ask for a guitar
>he is happy to know what I want, says we'll see
>wake up Christmas morning
>open presents with just him and my brother, since mom doesn't live with us
>he got me a guitar, it's awesome, my favorite color, everything I ever wanted
>I hug him and thank him
>later that day, brother and I head to grandma's for Christmas with that side of the family (mom's side)
>she is there
>can tell she is progressively getting more drunk through the day despite not visibly drinking booze (must be in her diet coke cans)
>when we open gifts, she breaks down crying while drunk
>apparently it had gotten through the grapevine of my dad's mom, to my mom's mom, to my mom, that I had wanted a guitar
>she didn't know my dad got me one
>she had worked overtime in an attempt to get me a guitar, but couldn't afford it on a waitress's money (she used to be a psychologist but too many DUIs means she can barely get a job as a waitress now)
>cries and apologizes she couldn't afford a guitar
>I reassure her and tell her dad got me one
>she just stands up, and runs to her room (living with my grandma at this point, and still) I assume because she felt useless and inferior
>Christmas just ruined and made really sad for me
Otherwise they're all just unexciting and even more bleak and depressing. Those two or three stick out though.
>>28917941
I've got to stop using Silent Hill images because now everyone recognizes me. I guess that's my fault. Thank you very much for the kind words though.
>>28916826
>yahurr
I lol'd
>dad dies when im 11
my mom is an enabler so i just devolved into sitting on my computer all day. my dad probably would have forced me to do a sport or have a hobby or at least something.
>>28917853
This actually makes sense to me.
>Mom has admitted to me she did drugs and partied as a teenager
>Dad's mom and dad were abusive
Both my grandparents from both my mom and dad were always nice to me, but I noticed my dad's sister was just as fucked in the head as my dad is. My mom's brothers were both rich and extremely nice.
I guess my mom turned out to be a drug abuser when her brothers turned out to be extremely bright because she is a woman. My dad turned out exactly as his mom and dad programmed him to through years of beatings and verbal insults. Just like my dad tried to program me.
>>28912326
june 19th birthday bros?
>>28918084
Jesus Christ
This is one of the most depressing things I've seen on here.
>>28918109
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpsbj0OoeNo
I wonder how many newfaggles don't even know about this classic song
>>28916860
>tfw oneitis is in this list
>Be about 12
>Random classroom activity where we had to write something on a piece of paper, give it to someone and then they would read it.
>No specifications on who to give it so it became an unintentional test of popularity.
>Fairly large group, about 30.
>Nobody gave me anything to read.
>Clearly remember some guy got more than 12.
I always knew I was deferent but it was on that day I understood I wasn't just different, I was forgettable.
It's in those little things, that people don't think too much about where real honesty arises.
>>28912049
Kek i was so edgy and mad at life that once when i was 15 i punched my dad in the face for telling me to get off the computer and he was being a slight asshole about it.
I will never get over it. Fuck my 15 year old self, fuck. I've never been able to connect with my father since.
>>28918078
>thanks for reading my blog senpai
I don't think it is a blog post, I'm OP and I make these threads not just for robots to share war stories but to actually talk about them, too. I've always felt like talking about my abuse makes it better, and I think everyone to a degree feels that way.
>Hopefully I can be my own person and not just a copy of one or both of my parents, that would be nice.
Yeah, that is where I'm at with myself. My mom was also exactly like your mom, although she never stood up for me or my brother and allowed us to get beaten. She occasionally would tell my dad to stop if she felt he went over the line, but saying something to my dad when he is in a child-like fit of rage did nothing as I'm sure you're probably aware what with your dad and brother. I don't know if I'll ever have kids or not, I mean I am a robot after all. I just know that if I did have them I wouldn't want them to have anything to do with my father.
>Gets Cancer 2 years ago
>Diagnosed with Muscle Dystrophy
>Many relatives die during this time
All in all seems like i'm doing OK.
>>28918215
accept your cards anon and fold.
>>28913898
>yfw children are stupid and this dumb, emotionally stunted tater-tot probably harbored some attraction to you
>mother was literally crazy
>learn later in life that she was guzzling anti-depressants
>would flip out screaming over fucking bullshit like primary school homework
>pulled insane guilt trips constantly
>made us eat dinner at like 5pm so I'd be hungry late at night always, made "lunch" for school which was literally frozen bread sandwich with peanut butter so I had cold wet soggy sandwiches 5 days a week
>didn't iron my clothes or even make me a lunch after I was 14
>told schools I had aspergers so I got stuck with teaching aides who'd try to sit with me in class making me look like a freak
>would go from laughing to enraged to weeping at the drop of a hat
Holy shit looking back on it I was basically abused, my dad was good though but my mother's insanity made me not realize it until I was about 18
>Spend 6 years crushing on a girl
>Finally confess, get rejected
>Spent 4 years crushing on a girl
>Finally confess, get rejected
That's all that was needed to make me a robot.
>>28918084
Fuck me man
>tfw pretty normal parents
I wish I could share them with others tbqh
>>28917965
Fuck them anyway
>>28918348
I was lucky to have a dad that wasn't normal, he was exceptional in every way. But thank you for the sympathy.
>>28918137
I'm pretty numb to it honestly. It hurts more as I get older though.
>>28918123
July 17th
>>28918270
Thanks robro, it's like therapy but free and also not condescending coming from someone who's known nothing but a perfect life.
but I think that my brother was the source of our family falling apart and my dad becoming an autistic hulk. When I was a little kid I remember him bouncing me on his knee when he got home from work and singing nursery rhymes and kissing my mom before going to work and when he got back from work and bringing up us to the local pool and throwing us up in the air and playing with us. As soon as my older brother became an edgy numetal cunt and got into drugs in high school it was all downhill fast I think it was right at the same time my dad lost his job too.
as far as kids go, eh why not. I used to be an edgy "people suck lol humans r a disease" fag up until my early-mid 20s but I would kind of like to try and raise a little person and give them a better life than I had. My sister has kids of her own but for now I'm still just 'the weird uncle who lives at grandma & grandpa's house" lol
This thread is probably a gold mine for any therapist trying to get a look inside the psyche of an average robot.
>>28918391
Just remember we robots are always here <3
>>28918416
oh yeah. i forgot father's day is a fucked up holiday.
it is on june 19th this year though iirc
>>28914903
>>but he says he doesn't remember any of the events that happened to me
Textbook narcissism right there, basically blotting out memories that make them look bad.
>>28918467
Thank you anon, I love you very much.
You're all always so kind to me.
Here's a nice song to be the thread soundtrack:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9T0GSsnxHt4
>>28914608
Normie detected get out This SAME Thing FUCKING RUINED My ABILITY To CONNECT To REAL PEOPLE
>>28918465
Therapists are such bullshit, man.
Normies tell you to seek help when you do something freaky and when you get that "help" you realize it's absolutely pointless.
>>28914476
Oh shit. I remember something fucked.
>be me
>be me in the third grade
>never wipe ass
>>skip to a random day in the life
>sitting in class
>bum gets all itchy inside
>feel the crusty poop betwixt thy cheeks
>ask teacher to go potty
>wipe my poopy butt
>look at the now shit-crystal-encrusted boxers
>toss them in toilet
>flush
I will never know of the consequences.
I also have another storyabout me pooping in the urinalif anyone should care to hear it.
>>28918084
Lying figure... had a hard life
>be me have friends and shit age 13
>all of sudden they all start living, two of them died
>my friend group is now completely gone
Never really recovered, I was known as that weird guy without friends. I just wished I could of gone with them. They were like brothers to me
>>28917885
>home school
no
the only way this could work is if you were in a network of several other families who homeschooled, so your kids wouldn't feel like prisoners and outcasts
>monitor what your children consume
kinda hard to do past 14 or 15, again without making them into literal prisoners and outcasts
even most adults are too stupid to be trusted with free access to all media
>>28917937
20s are still formative years, and the degeneracy really started in the 60s
i'm early 20s, parents were early 40s and early 30s when i was born
>>28918084
>she used to be a psychologist
this is great
anyway, you can't be a robot if you had such a stable father figure growing up
unless you're gay or something
>>28918545
>could of
I wish you would HAVE gone with them, you piece of shit.
>>28918084
Family is fucking weird
>Uncle is drunk every day, though somehow still employed.
>He got divorced 15 years ago because caught wife cheating
>His daughter got teen pregnant soon after the divorce
>We're Chinese so this means she's basically taboo to mention and just in general ignored
>Grandma hates her guts
>She's 15, no job, mother is a whore, in China, guy who fucked her wasn't even her boyfriend
>She gives birth to a daughter in 1999
>He still marries her, but commits suicide a year later because he didn't love her and was a weak beta shit
Saw her again after a 10 year period, she raised a cute little girl all by herself and has a stable job. Feels good, though grandma still hates her
>>28918511
Obviously you have to tell us now
>>28918511
Tell us the story you MadMan
>>28912326
>call your dad randomly on a day that isn't your birthday
>"hey dad it's my birthday"
>h-happy birthday son, how are y-
>FUCK YOU DAD ITS NOT MY BIRTHDAY
>then start going off on why you hate him and how he's been a shitty father to you
>end the conversation saying you're killing yourself in the best 20 minutes because of him
>hang up the phone
>yfw he doesn't call back
>>28915567
I felt the need to reply.
>>28918616
Hot damn. Anymore traumatic stories?
>>28918576
Jesus christ my man, family is weird huh?
>>28918444
>but I think that my brother was the source of our family falling apart and my dad becoming an autistic hulk
Every problem with a child can be traced back to their parents and the way they raised their kid, or the lack thereof. I also have memories of my dad caring for me when I was a little kid, one in particular of when he taught my brother and I how to swim, or how he taught me how to ride my bike in the rain. Then suddenly before you know it he was slapping me, shoving me, and subjecting me to more verbal abuse than I can recount.
Nothing just happens, it is all connected. Your brother didn't just one day wake up and decide he wanted to be an abusive faggot who threatened his siblings and mother. I'm no professional, but my theory here is your dad moved away for his job and your brother felt ignored so he fell in with a bad crowd looking for the attention he didn't get at home. Same with your sister. My dad was always abusive, I just looked up to him as a kid because when you're young your dad is the equivalent of superman to you. When I grew up and started thinking for myself I started realizing he was just abusive and was trying to make me submit like his parents made him. I never disobeyed my dad for the sake of being rebellious, I did it because I always felt like he took me for granted. Always ordering me around, calling me names and beating me when all I ever did was help him when he asked me to. Then he has the nerve to act as though I'm the one who chose to cut off ties with him. He made the decision for how we'd stand together, not me.
this thread is really triggering awful childhood memories of "family vacations" where our dad would wake us up at like 5am stressed as shit already to throw us into a poorly-packed car to drive 3 hours to a shitty camping spot where he would just beat us and yell at us and our mom would cry so he'd yell at her and slap her around instead. The burnt pancakes that smelled like propane, having diarrhea in the outhouse, other families who would stare at us in disbelief, wondering how those kids' lives were and if a happy family would ever adopt me.
>>28918324
basically me with some details changed
>be me week before I turned 15
>go to summer camp for cross country with my high school team
>have crush on girl who's also going on the trip
>she was really sweet and cute, very pure and innocent
>whatever
>I'll just stare from a distance like always
>mind my own business until day 4 of the camp
>thursday
>get woken up at 6 by my friend
>"anon it's oneitis and her friends, they want to play truth or dare with us"
>cool
>it's a bunch of chads and stacies and then me and my two friends
>friend 1: couple inches shorter than me, blond, really cool guy, had multiple gfs before
>friend 2: native american, my height, also a really cool guy, had kissed before but no gf
>me, never kissed, no gf ever, unofficial leader of my group of friends
>t&d goes along for a while
>"oneitis I dare you to kiss anon!"
>I freeze
>she has a weird look on her face
>don't think much of it
>she walks up to me, stares really intensely, and then pecks me on the lips
>feelsgoodman.jpeg
>then she grimaces and starts wiping her mouth
>normies are laughing
>her friends are laughing
>"EWWW she kissed anon! gross!!"
>oh
>I was invited out with them for this
>mumble an excuse
>go back to tent
>cry until lunch, then stare at the cafeteria wall until it was over
>everyone stares at me
>can hear muffled laughing and whispering
>develop intense paranoia about people and their intentions
>never have contact that close with a girl again
>now a wizard
>>28918465
therapy is a fucking joke
any kike or cunt can pull a degree out of his ass and charge faggots or shitty parents $100+ to ask a bunch of stupid questions
>>28918762
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cSg3ucrwYvQ
tfw
>>28918465
Therapy is bullshit, how the fuck is some normie supposed to diagnose a robot? Some suited up bitch who came from a pampered house just sits there charging you by the hour and then pumps you full of medicine playing 20 questions. They have no idea what lies behind the abyss of the inside of a robot's mind.
>>28918803
>>28918853
can confirm
>be the anon ITT who had the drughead older brother who threatened me and stole from us and turned my dad into a ragetard
>mom somehow convinces everyone to go to family therapy
>therapist blabs about how this a judgement free zone and etc
>too scared to speak out because of what would happen to me when we got home
>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
>>28918853
the men are even worse
women are supposed to have stupid jobs like that
men who become therapists add this weird kind of authority to what is the gayest job ever
>>28918923
>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
sorry, i just had to laugh at this
>slid down the pole
>landed on my balls
>bruised balls and inner thigh
>dad rubbed ointment on my balls
>>28919000
same, luckily all this shit is behind me and I can laugh at how ridiculous everything was.
>>28919028
what
were both your hands in casts as well?
>>28918923
>>therapist decided that I was a major problem for being too reserved and a real buzzkill on the family dynamics, unlike my charismatic brother who was just misunderstood
MORE
MORE THERAPY STORIES
blease resbondd
>>28919028
oh that really #triggered some vague memories senpai
>be really young kid
>go to indoor pool with family
>have to shower before getting, and also shower afterwards
>grown adult hairy penises EVERYWHERE at eye level of little anon
>naked dad in the shower being all naked and shit with other naked men
>shower with my bathing suit on
>"what's wrong son? You don't shower with clothes on at home now do you?"
>"t...this isn't home papa"
I don't know if that was better or worse from when I was even younger and it was my mom who would bring to her the women's changing room with elderly tits that looked like they could fall off and fall to the ground at any moment.
I was always a quiet kid and sucked at telling stories.
>middle school in 7th grade
>was that kid that sit alone and shit
>guy befriends me and introduced me to his clique
>end up dating a chick named Bailey for the rest of middle school
>too young for tits and an artist, extrovert, Stacy
>highschool starts
>all middle schools in the area combine into one highschool
>which means new people everywhere
>relationship was already going to shit
>Bailey joins cheerleader team and starts talking with football team
>I share a class with a player. Already get bad vibes from him
>he literally tells me "Im going to steal your girlfriend"
>fast forward a few months
>Bailey breaks up with me, starts getting chad
>I lose all my friends and get labeled as an abusive pedo throughout the school
>highschool was just drifting with different groups and walking around aimlessly
>after graduation
>log into normie book and see Bailey married Chad and left the state with him
1 year later I'm still a neet with 0 friends
>>28919070
I second thisfugg le bod
>have zero interest in anything kids are interested in
>have anxiety inherited from both parents
>never make friends or talk to anybody after age 4
>piece of shit mother and very busy/constantly stressed father turn me from no social skills to counterproductive traits
>be useless despite greatly developed in loneliness skills due to anxiety, negative social ability, and lack of any expensive paper
>sister abuses me
>mom doesn't care because she's an enabler and also an alcoholic
>learn to hate mother
>cut off contact with both
>strong relationship with dad
>he says no woman will get between our friendship
>he marries this whore from a bar
>she doesn't want any kids
>she abuses us verbally/him physically
>he tells me he still loves her and they're gonna make it work
>barely talk to dad anymore
>he tries to act like he's still a good father
i just block everything out and i'm fine
>Mom and her boyfriend fighting late at night again
>Mom comes into my room gives me the phone and tells me to call the police if I hear her scream
>Have to stay up listening for screaming
>School night
>Mom and her boyfriend come home drunk at like 3am
>It's a school night again
>Get woke up and told to help my mom get into bed
>Mom tells me to grab her purse
>Starts calling me a faggot and making fun of me the entire time I help her get to bed
>Go back in my bed and cry myself to sleep
>Police forcefully entered the front door
>Mom on her 3rd or 4th DWI charge
>Sister and I get to watch her get wrestled to the ground, arrested, and taken away
>Mom's boyfriend told us my dad was the reason the cops showed up
i have problems with narcissism and I am also extremely paranoid and it's destroying my life and making me unable to form any sort of relationships with people.
>been betrayed by everyone throughout my life
>had a very interesting father
>one day he brings you back treats, takes you fishing
>next day he beats the shit out of you, takes away your computer
>(sometimes it wouldn't even be a day difference, it would happen on the same day.)
>"Oh hey son, let's go fishing!" in the afternoon
>beating the fuck out of me in the evening and taking away my computer.
>same thing with my friends at school
>best pals during monday
>everyone is against me on tuesday
Also constantly betrayed throughout my childhood (I am not whining, it is just obvious that It made me into a person I am today)
>be the youngest kid in the yard (5 yrs old)
>everyone gathers up
>everyone decides to kick me the fuck out of the group because I was "too young"
>gives me some candy so I don't cry and they have an excuse to not feel like assholes
>I didn't cry, I was just confused like "W-why did you do this to me? I thouht we were friends?"
Here I am, emotionally-desensitized sociopath that is also paranoid and it's not just your regular "hihi, oh they're talking shit behind my back" paranoia it's looking through your shutters paranoia (paranoia only intensifies when I smoke weed)
I can't form any normal relationships with people because I am 100% sure they're talking shit behind my back or they're out to kill me. For example if someone is being too nice and is inviting me to their place im 100% sure they wanna lace my drink and fuck me up the ass or murder me.
I've also been alone pretty much all of my life, never felt loneliness I've just been alone a lot. That's probably because I think people are out to kill me or have something behind my back. I am very charming at first (Superficial charm, I know what people want to hear) but I can't maintain it in the long run.
>6 years old
>went to family gathering with family as well as family friends and l never spoke more than a few words to anyone
>everyone gathered in yard near swimming pool
>Family thought I was retarded since I never spoke
>had to take a shit but too shy to ask to go in house to use bathroom
>went into Fisher price playhouse and shit on the ground in grass
>older boy found the turds
>announced it to everyone
>I was found out to be the culprit
>the father (unrelated to me) got pissed at me
>everyone expressing disgust at me
>my dad and mom sat sat there not defending me
>dad finally said that I had loose poop
>other father said I was just like a dog and wondered why the fuck I didn't speak up and ask to use the toilet
>I cried and tried to find a way to kill myself
>climbed a tree and told everyone I was going to kill myself
>dad and uncle talked me down
>went home and pissed the couch that night
>got the shit beaten out of me in the night when my dad walked over to discover that I had peed again
>had to sleep outside in back porch with dog
>>28919492
actual autism, no buzzwords
>>28919413
>>Mom comes into my room gives me the phone and tells me to call the police if I hear her scream
fuck
>got enough courage to ask out my middle school crush
>got rejected
>told her that I knew where she lived and I literally said "a restraining order will not stop me from raping you"
After this I realized I was too autistic to be around other people.
Fuck this shit! Just spent 10 minutes documenting my childhood traumas and accidently hit the back page button on my phone.
>kills self
>>28918545
>all of sudden they all start living,
What!?? What did he mean by this?
>>28919725
whacchu mean exactly?
> be me unsupervised 7 year old
> at grandparents because single moms always working
> grandparents have awesome pile of sand in front yard
> also have fatass female pitbull name baby that likes to hump me
> decide to go dig a sand tunnel one day
> didn't shore up the walls properly
> waist deep in tunnel baby walks over the tunnel collapses on me
> can't breath sand crush my small body
> stuck there for what feels like a eternity screaming for help
> deaf grandpa doesn't hear shit
> some how manage to wiggle my way out
Almost suffocating at 7 was what probably what traumatized me the most
>>28918545
>chatting with friends
>suddenly they start living and rise from their graves
>mfw I sacrificed too many goats to lord Satan
>5th grade get 1st gf, we are best friends, always hang out. Break up at end of year
>6th grade have a few gfs, nothing special just kiddie shit. First major sexualized encounter happens with older neighbor girl's friend, we make out playing truth or dare and end up making out all night and I grab her ass. I think she was in 8th grade. End up making out with 2 more of her friends throughout the year
>7th grade start dating arguably the hottest girl in the school, blonde blue eyes. Make out on the reg, heavy petting, etc. Still make out with neighbors older friends regularly.
>8th grade still dating same girl, end up losing v card to each other on my 14th birthday. Have sex every chance we get from then on.
>9th grade still dating same girl, end up getting her pregnant but she loses the baby. Break up with her because she is too needy when she calls me to tell me she miscarried
>10th-12th grade take virginity of most of the girls in my friend group. Have sex with my older sisters friend who had already graduated and my friends way older sister. Finger/make out with tons of underclassmen.
It keeps me up at night sometimes when I look back at how much pussy I missed out on, but can't dwell on it I guess.
>>28912326
>being this much of a little bitch over a bit of psychological abuse from your father with an obvious mental condition that he obviously feels bad about
My dad used to beat me every fucking day and if he asked me to do a single fucking thing with him and it meant we could bond in a nice way, I would literally kill a man for that opportunity. Little fucking cunt, I hope you die soon tbqh.
>be in middle school
>think I have a chance
>think i'm moderately popular
>some kid makes an online quiz to rank the most/least popular kids
>~300 votes
>I wonder who the least popular are
>I'm number two after a gay kid who was caught sucking dick
>The reality hits
>HARD
>everywhere I go I hear their laughter
>I used to laugh
>I used to have friends
>I used to be happy
I hope the guy that made the quiz dies of cancer
Honestly I had a pretty normal childhood but in middle school I became a robot and haven't been the same in the 10 years since
>>28919928
This turned you into a robot?
>>28919757
>hear her scream
>do nothing
seriously, if you feel sorry for the mom in this situation you need to leave
it's her fault for being a whore who chases abusive guys
>>28919883
probably meant "leaving"
>>28919928
thought this would end with you developing an attraction to dogs
>>28920010
nah, what shocked me was that she'd put her kid through that just because she wanted some dick
what is going on in this world
>>28919658
You are no better than a dog.
>>28911999
Every shirt I owned was stretched out of shape from my father picking me up by the collar of my shirt and shaking me. One year on christmas he picked me up and threw me across the room into the tree, which fell over on top of me. That became known as "The Year Anon Knocked Over the Christmas Tree" in family lore. Likewise, he threw me across the room onto the couch and I landed so hard that I shattered the wooden cross-beam and it sagged in the middle forever after. It became known as "The Couch That Anon Broke."
>>28911999
Uh my life did
>dad finds out first wife is cheating on him
>gets a divorce and goes looking for someone new at 60 and now diagnosed with cancer
>finds spinster living in USA through ma in dating service
>they marry two weeks after major surgery is done on him to get rid of a tumor
>im born a year later
>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
>reportedly tells my mom his death would "make me stronger"
Instead it made me grow up without a father figure and a 40 year old mother who knew barely anything about sex and American culture in general(Puerto Rico, refuses to integrate even after 20 years.)
My half-sister got a nice life in a quiet British town with a mom and dad who loved her and a family who had lived there for centuries. I got no family and my mom as my mom. At least she's not a whore like my sister's mom.
>>28919963
>people will unironically bite this
>>28920069
Nigga don't you know about dick?
>>28914565
I'm glad i'm not the only one this happeened to
>>28920085
>"The Year Anon Knocked Over the Christmas Tree"
>"The Couch That Anon Broke"
That's really fucked up.
Are people aware of what happened, or do they just not care and go along with the "joke"?
>>28918084
Damn famille, you made me want to play Silent Hill again. After I finish my current backlog game I'm going to actually attempt to finish Silent Hill 3 and maybe replay 2.
>>28920098
Is it bait if it's the truth?
Forgot to give back story of 5th grade gf, met her in 2nd grade and always liked her, one of my friends liked her too but I won
>born
>realize my soul has been trapped in yet another vessel
>this is our 276th cycle
>depressed since
and I still have no idea how to escape
>>28920165
My parents had very little self-awareness. I think everyone sort of knew and pretended not to know. For instance, I remember at one extended family dinner, as people were cleaning up, my father said, "Don't bother, just tip the table up into anon's mouth. He's a human garbage can." My parents laughed like they thought it was hysterical as everyone else stared at them in shock; my parents never even noticed.
>>28920088
>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
So your dad died twice then?
>>28920225
He died the day after father's day, which was 2 weeks after anon's birthday you fucking retard. No wonder girls won't fuck you.
>>28918511
>Pooping in the urinal
Do you go to a certain HS in Manhattan by any chance?
>>28919966
>My dad used to beat me every fucking day
probably because you were a delinquent little shit.
>>28920258
>>28920258
I mean, if your reading comprehension is good enough, you'll realize that what he said implies his dad dying twice.
>>28920303
How many friends do you have?
>>28916328
>bad acne in 4th grade
and I thought acne in 6th grade was extremely early
>>28920346
if you weren't autistic you'd realize it doesn't
i guess you get a pass if english isn't your native language
>>28920411
But it does. "dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday AND day after Father's Day."
You have to be blind to not understand that this Implies two deaths. Otherwise, anon could have used "or" to better convey what he may have meant.
took AP calc bc exam in eight grade and got a 5
people thought i was genious in highschool
all that attention fucked me up
now friendless, failing all my classes, manlet...
pls kill me
>>28918476
textbook wannabe psychiatrist here
>>28920512
>genious
are you sure
>>28920485
No, you dick licking, piss drinking, donkey fucking, child molesting dipshit. All it implies is that his birthday falls two weeks before the day after father's day.
>reading /r9k/ board on my iphone
>read some funny stories about anons not realizing they are robot
>classmate turn around and say " first time I see you smile anon, i thought you are a robot"
>>28920551
So if I said "my dad died yesterday and the day before my birthday", he died yesterday and not a day before my birthday? Or did he die twice?
>>28920551
>dad dies two
This implies there was a death sequel, meaning there was a first death
>weeks after 5th birthday
Which would be five years old
>and day after father's day
Second death
>>28920607
It means that today is your birthday
>>28918347
>having a crush on anyone that long
whew there
>>28920607
That only leaves phone.
>>28920634
Using humor to escape. Classic abuse victim
Joined a school project after 5th grade which msde you skip one year of school within 4 years. Class was ofc full of the brightest students. Everything went fine until puberty hits and I didnt grow as fast as the others. Also I didnt get cool clothes because we were poor.
Hierarchy ensued and I was at the very bottom. This was where I learned most of my character traits. 25 today, trying really fucking hard to not be that guy anymore. I am making some progress but it is hard as fuck. Everyone is trying to improve their situation and theyre quite content with as many people below them as possible.
>>28920666
I'm loving those trips, my man .
>>28912326
You pass the "Why I am a Robot" quiz.
>>28920607
>>28920611
i really hope this is trolling
but who am i kidding
>>28913898
Isn't it horrible how one callous remark like that can be the match that sets off the gasoline.
>>28916860
My mom's name is melissa and she was a total stacy, fuck.
>>28920761
It's not our fault you don't understand basic English. When you read it, you ASSUME that he means his birthday is after fathers day. The sentence means that he died twice.
*cough* *cough*
>>28913803
I feel you bro, I had similar experience myself.
>elementary school
>school dance coming up
>everybody is assigned a partner
>girl I was assigned to obviously wasn't happy about it
>day of the dance
>girl I was assigned to was dancing with someone else
>felt lost
>asked my teacher what to do
>ended up sitting next to my teacher's husband with the other parents watching everyone else dance
This fucking song still haunts me.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PzwxxCcyIME
>>28920761
If they're the same day, why make it so complicated? What's the significance?
>>28914015
That is harsh.
Why did your parents have two kids so close together, anyway?
nothing too sad or anything
>come from abusive impoverished background
>mom is a high school dropout who sells drugs to make ends meet
>too poor to afford to do anything, so no clubs or sports
>just me and mom watching movies and eating junk food most of the time
>become mommas boy
>mom decides to go back to school late in her life
>is never around anymore
>still barely making ends meet
>to afford anything nice, have to babysit for family
>have to basically raise my younger brother
>inbetween babysitting, raising brother, and deprived of relationship with mother, become messed up
>have no opportunity to socialize
>no money to do anything after buying game console
>weeks and weekends become about school work, which mom doesn't help with, playing games, watching kids and/or brother
>too much responsibility when I should've been out there being stupid and shit
>too much time wasted on games
>miss my whole early teens
now I live with mom, playing games, eating junk food
we all kind of hate each other. brother hates me, mom still ignores, and I've basically given up on life. I think I could've been a normie under the right circumstances. I even had girls that liked me. alas, i'm a total beta loser. never did anything about it. all the knowledge I have now is completely useless to me. I do want to kill myself but have no means and am a coward. plus my dick is on the small side. so even if I got into a relationship, i'd never be able to make it last.
just waiting to die really
>>28916860
Jenna here
>>28914189
That makes you more of a /b/tard than a robot
>>28911999
In middle school I was bullied by a girl who told me to kill myself everyday. It made me depressed and she was seen as the victim. I was the most hated guy in middle school because she spread rumors about me.
>>28921165
Oh that just means she likes you. She wants the D
>>28915996
/b/ tier, not /r9k/
And, how many people can say without doubt that their whole 3rd grade class rememberes them??
#likeabro
>>28920735
Fuckin' aye man. The hierarchy of life is dicks
>>28921258
That was 10 years ago, but her sister told me that she was anxious when she saw me at the store like 5 years ago.
>>28920894
>elementary school
>school dance
fucking jews i swear
>>28919658
Do you still shit outside like a filthy fucking Indian?
>>28921388
>its the jews fault that i am antisocial
kek
>>28916860
Is there a Jenna in the world who is not a bitch? I think the one who won Survivor in season 6 is the epitome of them.
> I have a cousin who is cool with that name, but she spells it Jena
>>28917291
Verily. Who wants sand-nigger babies, even 1/4 ones. Imagine what your in-laws would have been like.
>>28920900
>>28920225
>>28920258
>>dad dies two weeks after 5th birthday and day after Father's Day
You're both wrong clearly the birthday is also the day after Father's Day.
>>28917452
>>tfw you just masturbated to a lesbian scat orgy
aka 2 Girls, 1 Cup
>>28921600
lebanon has the highest percentage of christians in the islamic world
especially the ones who immigrate, for obvious reasons
>>28917619
Agreed. I had to get my porn from my Dad's Playboys or sneaking peeks at other magazines in the back of in the newsstand. (when those existed)
>have a big brother and 2 sisters
>mom loved sisters and father loved brother
>went through my younger years being completely alone
>celebrated birthdays until I was 6 and then no more
>got bullied in school from grade 2 to 7
>learned not to care anymore and just studied so I could pass my classes
>move out after getting a decent paying job
>no one helped me move and they were happy I was leaving(not the good kind of happy)
>arrive at new place and realize I literally have 0 happy memories with my family
Guess being ignored has its perks. Can't remember bad memories if you neved had em to begin with.
>>28919725
I work with people with autism. This isn't autism
>>28918576
None of this has squat to do with you except that you're a Chink
>>28920485
Let's suppose anon's birthday is Dec 20th.
"Dad dies 6 days after Anon's birthday and the day after Christmas".
Capiche?
> parents are both passive-aggressive as shit
> nobody ever raises their voice, just stomps around fuming if angry
> I thought this was normal
> would be at a friend's house and his mom or dad would yell at him or a sister about something--totally freaked me out
> I now know that would have been healthier
> decades of bottling up everything and never expressing direct confrontation
> Mom was self-centered and chilly in nature, not motherly. Too worried about what her country-club friends would think
> Dad tried to do things to make me happy but was so absolute Normie that he couldn't understand my high-IQ, Aspergery, gay, introverted self
> at least he never forced me to do anything like sports
> School was happy in first 4 years
> start 5th grade with best friend, even voted to be class representative for student council
> have nigger for teacher
> parents will not have it
> she was a good teacher, I was happy
> parents will not have it
> move me to another classroom on a flimsy excuse
> suddenly I am "the new guy in class" despite going to that school for 3 years already
> I trace my entire social downfall to that switch in 5th grade just because my parents were racist
> Also 5th grade is when boys are supposed to be in/good at sports (Sports 2, Anon 0)
> go from being actually kind of popular to being made fun of and mildly bullied
> get to middle school, bullying is more overt and regular
> parents still too worried about their friends at the Country Club than my mental health
> Mom actually "scolds" me for not having more friends or being popular, as if I was deliberately choosing to be bullied. At that moment I realized she had been a major Stacey in her day.
TL; DR: had comfortable upper-middle class upbringing but parents who basically ignored my emotional needs even as I became more and more made fun of and harassed at school for being a sissy Aspie nerd.
>>28911999
>11
>parents divorced when i was very young
>meet dad for the first time in a couple years
>we take a trip
>everyone else is treated better than me, half siblings, even the fucking tards his second wife was taking care of
>basically treats me like i'm not even his
>his second wife goes and gets ice cream
>makes it a point to not get me anyI know this sounds petty, but she went out of her way to say "oh, i forgot you were here"
>forces me to stand outside in 100 degree weather because i said something in "a rude tone"
>meet back up with my mom a week later
>blow up at him right in front of her, calling him a horrible dad, saying he's married to a horrible person, all that
>dont talk to him for years
>try to patch things up before i go into senior year
>looks like it works but it doesnt, always forgets my birthday, didn't come to my graduation, never even sends a card or calls
>find out he posted a pic of him, his third wife and her family, and my half siblings on kikebook
>said "the whole family's here!"
I don't understand. I'm his first born, the one he decided to give his same fucking name. Why doesn't he want anything to do with me? I'm not a criminal, I've never done anything that would have made him hate me.All this shit's basically killed my trust in people.
>first friend was a girl in 1st grade
>spend every recess doing shit
>second grade
>get told "i dont want to look like your girlfriend, bye"
>>28922620
my dad remarried a jap and he hasa 6 year old daughter
>>28922761
This piece of shit has 3 other kids with 2 different women. He's had three wives. From what I hear, he doesn't talk to the two he had with the second one anymore. How can someone just completely remove their kids from their lives?
He never beat me, because i lived far away with my mom. Probably the worst part isi'm starting to look like him now
>>28915921
>>girl next to me says it's the first time she's ever seen me smile. I'm 15 at that point
>>It just reminds me not to smile
oh god i hate this. I always forced myself to never smile because people always liked to loudly point it out and make me the center of attention, which i hated.
>>28922812
>from what I hear, he doesn't talk to the two he had with the second one anymore
you can't really know the dynamics of a family you aren't even part of
>>28914189
very similar to mine
>be youngest brother
>discover porn at 5
>start fapping at 7
fuck
greentext oregano
>start sitting alone in school on this bench thats pretty much in full view for normies
>teachers on recess duty notice im sitting alone
>always bother me, asking if im okay and trying to get people to sit with me
>occasionally people come over for brief moments, leave when they realise i dont offer any progression to their attempts at conversation
>eventually get sent to headteacher allocated to our year group
>"is there something wrong at home, anon?"
>no
>"why do you sit alone"
>i dont have any friends
>"why not"
>i pushed everyone away
>"why"
>i dont know
>nods, looking at me like a mental patient
>lets me leave
>as weeks progress she constantly badgers me asking if i want counselling
>"are you SURE, anon? they wont tell anyone anything you dont want them to"
>go to this emo girl who i'm pretty fond of, one of the few people im comfortable talking to
>shes your run of the mill "i cut for attention", and puts her scars on show for everyone to see
>ask her about counsellor
>"they tell your parents everything"
>lying teacher cunt
>continue to reject offers of help
>slowly crawl further into my bubble
>crawl further and further as i progress into adulthood
>in the present its gotten so bad that i get really aggrivated by the sounds and company of other people outside of the internet
tl;dr lonely
>>28922870
What did you fap to? Ever get into black cock?
>>28912049
i was and still am a shut in and i'd always be at my dads throat when i was a teen. he gets disability and doesnt work so he was always around and it was infuriating. now we discuss sports and act normal.
>at table with "friends" in middle school during lunch
>laugh at joke "best friend" tells us
>say "i'm gonna tell everyone i know that"
>he mutters "that's not a lot of people"
>realize I'm actually a loser who knows no one and has no friends
that's it for me boys
>get jumped in 7th grade
>had to go to hospital
>nearly got blinded in one eye
>got suspended for "being in a fight"
>people made fun of me for it all the way up until high school graduation
I hope that piece of shit dies horribly, scum of the earth deserves incurable cancer
>>28922879
fucking cunt normies and their "help"
>3
>remember waking up in the middle of the night crying in pain
>remember knees felt like they were shot
>apparently the doctor just said it was "growing pains"
I'm 22 and it still happens. It's more tolerable, but sometimes it forces me to limp
>>28913898
This happened so many times in high school, I just can't mentally accept the idea of a woman being attracted to me. I'm less hideous than I was in high school, so girls occasionally (very occasionally, like a couple of times a year in a good year) show interest, but I never realise until way too late because it just doesn't occur as a possibility. I've been so well-trained to believe I'm a completely unlovable monster that it's just second nature to me.
>Car accident when preteen
>Damage in one eye, childhood dream of pilot is ruined
>Parents find this hilarious and to this day point out random stuff and ask me if I can see it or not.
>have brain tumor
>have seizures
>have take meds everyday
>have meds make you go crazy
>have more seizures
>>28918220
Go apologize to him.
>>28922586
>losing a good teacher and healthy social setting because parents are racist
the world is a shitty place
>family is poor for a time cause dad got hurt (im about 10 years old)
>living in hotel rooms
>aunt says come live with her in her one bedroom apartment
>do this for a few months
>comes home high one night and screams at us as we're sleeping
>mom and her get into a fist fight as dad is breaking it up
>sitting outside in the snow crying
>drive around all night with literally nowhere to sleep
this was 15 years ago but wowee did i learn something about trust that night
I watched NOVA one day. That turned into months, then to years. Now I am a stem major in a research uni.
I read too much as a little boy. Played to many video games alone.
Always called out for being ostentatious by girls. Still get called the same thing, but I could care less this time around. I suppose I just enjoy analyzing more than other people, that doesn't mean that I think I'm better than you.
Date that quiet girl in high school, break up, have an existential crisis. Literally lie to every person I have a relationship with, I can't love any of them the same way that I loved her. I lost a beautiful fembot. Sick of all these typical people.
Dad is drunk, but cool. He beat would beat me a lot. Half the time I deserved it
Mom, is a conservative Christian, I don't really mix with conservative Christians. I feel like she's the all seeing eye.
>youngest of 6
>mother killed her first son, 2 months old
>five older sisters
>raised self
>severe emotional trauma at age 3
>probable sociopath
>mother unable to live with herself, I am her dead son
>father was barely a father, his idea of parenting was 12 hour work days
>spent 6 weekends a year cleaning our household garbage
>parents invited another family to live with us
>their children pissed and shit in my bed, in my toybox
>have not felt a home since age 11
>moderated parental conflict(s) for 5 years
>cannot believe in love
>strike first without warning
>daddy issues edition
>My birthday, 7th grade
>Short, fat, babyfaced boy, had a speech impediment and an overall idiot with social interactions, but painfully oblivious to shortcomings.
>Had a crush on somewhat trashy, redneck qt3.14
>Tell effeminate friend about it
>Morning goes alright
>At lunch
>qt3.14 keeps looking at me, completely flush in face
>Realize what happened and get angry at friend
>Friend just shrugs it off
>End of day, feel compulsion to act
>I proudly walk up to her as we are leaving to board the buses
>ask her out
>She forms a smirk that comprises itself of pity and novelty
>She is a head taller than me
>She pats me on the head like I'm a blind dog
>says "Awww, that's cute but no thank you. Better luck next time!"
>My soul weeps
>told my mother I asked out a girl but made an excuse that wasn't outright rejection
>I will never forget that look,
>>28923305
The first heartbreaks are the worst.
>feels
>>28911999
When i was 8 years my dad kill my mom with a knife in front of me and my brother and sister. I am now 21 and got nobody to Talk .0 frinds. Still virgin. In 6 days is my bday .
>>28919278
>>he literally tells me "Im going to steal your girlfriend"
>"tell me how my dick tastes"
ezpz
>be me
>have physically and verbally abusive father
>be 6
>he slams my head onto kitchen table and i get bruise
>terrified of telling anyone
>teacher notices
>social worker comes
>he lies that my mom is a prescription addict
>social worker never comes again
>be 12
>dad gets fired from shitty trucker job in july
>hes home every day for the rest of the summer until august
>over the summer he made several death threats, nearly killed my mom, and beat me whenever i questioned him
>turn 13 in august
>he doesn't tell me happy birthday and only lets me buy cheap clothes as a gift
>be 13
>get sent to mental hospital for 4 days because of suicide attempt and ideation
>get out
>move with mom to domestic abuse shelter full of trashy heroin addicts and bad ghetto moms
>be diagnosed with major depression and anxiety + ocd
>buy skateboard
>learn to skate
>my only friends are my internet friends and 3 skater friends from school
>skating is the only thing i do besides vidya (mostly counter-strike) that i enjoy
>not that good at it, can only do one simple trick (ollie)
>be less confident
>go to the skatepark a lot less
>develop extreme internet addiction
>grades fall, barely talk to irl friends anymore
>highschool
>only 1 irl friend who skates
>all my other friends are my internet friends
>ghetto chad bullying me
>fight ghetto chad and get beaten up
>miss school every friday for therapy since 8th grade
>depression and ocd get worse
>continue to cultivate internet obsession
>lose hours of sleep because of internet addiction and develop medical problems from sleep loss
>>28918616
>call dad the day after my birthday one year
>he doesn't even realize it was my birthday
>blow up on him on why he's shitty and that he couldnt even tell me he got married once again
>tells me "who i marry is none of your concern"
>just tell him to never talk to me again
>>28918853
>tfw know therapy wont help but it might have to be a forced thing if i want neetbux
what do
Holy fuck you people are making mountains out of molehills. Grow a backbone for fucks sake
>>28923676
suck it up
out-jew dr. shekelstein for those neetbux
Cliff notes: I looked up a girls number in a phone book in 10th grade
>>28923741
>tfw it might take me months or years to start getting money
how quick is this normally?
>>28923752
idk
an anon made a god-tier thread about this whole topic a couple months ago
haven't seen the guy since though
from what i remember it was around 3 years to optimize your benefits
>>28923763
how about just getting literally anything to start? i'm pretty sure i qualify anyways
>>28914189
>internet porn at 7
How fucking old are you?
>>28913898
>Tried to be a nice person
>Did nothing wrong
Pick one
>>28922896
You should be disgusted with yourself
>>28911999
>offered cookies by friend's mom
>ate all the cookies
>chastised for being a fatty
thanks for the crippling food guilt, mrs woodcock.
>playing megaman
>dad comes home
>sustain sneak attack from rear
>dad yelling that I ate his sandwich
>it wasn't even a sandwich that kids like, it had pastrami and roast peppers and shit
>mom says she took it
>dad doesn't apologize for beating me for no reason
thanks for the hypervigilance, dad
>10 years old and watching families break up
>mine seems okay
>Dad goes through midlife crisis and buys a dirt stock car
>cant race for shit but he seems happy
>11 years old
>Dad goes to Georga to race
>never comes back
>my mind shatters
>suicide attempt 1
>try to go see him after messt divorce
>Mom files chapter 11 and he wont help
>He has a new Family with 2 boys my age and a daughter
>He turns me away
>Suicide attempt 2
>refuse to go school as I cant handle anything anymore
>2 psych hospital stays
>Dad wants nothing to do with me
>Put in special school for troubled youth
>grandpa dies and mom gets cancer
>pulled out school to help
>Dad wants to be friends but wont help mom
>mind shatters worse
>his health turns and he cant hold a job
>grandma dies and my Mom is alone
>the constant guilt of my actions that my mind tells me I did grinds me against the stone daily
>completely block out dad still
>he passes away without having spoken to me in 10 years
>some times Mom drops that I have a brother
>I can never handle it
I'm 30 now. I still live with my Mother. I hate it. It fucks with me daily that I'm a burden.
>Be me
>5th grade
>On the playground
>See people playing basketball
>Ask to join the team since it's 7v6
>"No one wants you here anon"
>Fast forward to 7th grade now
>Be me
>Wanting to know as much about the world as I can
>Ask a shit ton of questions in some of my classes, mostly English
>Chad gets annoyed that I'm asking too many questions and throws a paper ball at me
>Everyone laughs
>Teacher says "What a great idea! Every time anon asks a question, we throw a paper ball at him!"
>Isthisajoke.png
>Later in the class accidentally ask a question
>Mistake
>Entire class starts pelting me with paper balls and laughing
It didn't hurt or anything, but the mental pain fucking sucked. I still think about it to this day.
>>28918295
Get wrecked, faggot.
>mom drunk and raving again
>she just sits on the coach and starts talking to me
>"you betrayed me, anon"
>I vomit (guess because I was just really sad/feeling weird)
>say something like "I wouldn't betray you"
>the next morning when my cousin was over cleaning the house she said "I see your mom puked again"
>"nah it was me"
>"huh"?
>"nevermind"
that wasn't even the craziest thing that ever happened but I think it's really weird how I reacted to her saying something like that. Looking back on it it seems really weird. My mom also cleaned herself up eventually (dad didn't but that's a different story). I can't really blame my ma since my dad was pretty awful, but I can't really hate him since I think they both loved me a lot. They just had their vices, and are too depressing to live around.
>>28919966
>my dad beat me every day
>p-please dad let's bond in a nice way
>someone else is a little cunt
literally lmao my man
prolly the hippie mum making me move schools for my entire and spending my 18th in a ward is the case
>>28916119
can you be anymore pathetic?
>>28917734
Happy Birthday, anon. At least you have the chance to make something of yourself, unlike your mother.
I realize i am a whinny bitch but i want to share this one anyway.
>be about 6 yo
>have recurent nightmares every night.
>every night i wake up crying
>every night my mother comes to calm me
>One particular night ihave another nightmare
>I cry
>i cry
>nobody comes
>i cry louder, starting to realize i'm not that afraid anymore
>I stop
From this day on i understood you can only rely on yourself.
I don't know if this is a blessing or a curse.
>>28924031
should've went on a killing spree tbhfam keheheh
I kinda feel you on some points.
My dad was similar in the sense that you would never know what to expect from him.
Never kind though but either neutral or angry.
As a result i always looked down and tensed my body when i had to walk in front of him.
What disgusts me is that one day ( i was 13) as he tried to hit me, i blocked his hit and looked at him straight in the eyes.
I don't know what he saw but never hit me again.
What a fucking coward. I would feel way better if i had the chance to hit him back even once.
>>28919966
>My dad used to beat me every fucking day
>if he asked me to do a single fucking thing with him and it meant we could bond in a nice way, I would literally kill a man for that opportunity.
You are actually retarded.
>>28912326
Are you me? I still live with him but I sincerely hate him, everyone in my family is standing behind him and i feel left out... Only ones I have are two friends who I won't be seeing for a long time or maybe ever soon...
>>28918295
Sorry to hear that brobot...
>>28911999
Nothing too bad compared to these posts which is actually making me very depressed.
At least you people can point at things and say this is why I did end up bad.
I am nothing.
most of the events that scarred me happened in primary school. that's one of them
>be me 9 years old
>we had a football (soccer for you amerifats) court on the schoolyard we usually played on between classes
>the court had a little, like hip-high, wooden fence next to it that covered a huge kind of flower bed
>due to its position, many guys had completely run down or destroyed that fence over the years while playing and it has always been fixed up
>it has never been a big deal then, really, the janitor patched things up and it was dealt with, simply as that
>one day I was pushed into that fence while playing
>a single bar loosened up from its screw and was like dangling there
>"geez, anon, you really love to destroy things for fun, do you?"
>in the meantime, another one got the teacher who scolded me like I had beaten someone up
>"anon, what is wrong with you, you can't destroy things like that, I will speak your parents"
>took me out from break and placed me inside some empty storage room where I should "reflect on my actions"
>never got a chance to justify myself
>my parents had to pay up for the fence
It's like they ram the thought that you are a bad person into you until you actually believe it yourself
>never knew my father
>one time when i was 8 he called my mother to finalize the devorce they had
>she asks if he wants to speak to me
>he says no
>spend the rest of my childhood/teenage years watching her getting smacked around by all her various boyfriends and being absent every weekend to drink, leaving me to raise two kids she had with another man who i deeply love as brothers but it still bothers me that they from a different father
>by the time i was 18 i could barely feel anything
Why are we here? Just to suffer?
>>28925345
There is no why, my man.
>>28911999
since everyones sharing legitimate personal stories ill contribute aswell
>enter starting year of HS
>no friends day one
>meet a guy day 2 who plays runescape, instantly get along with him
>become good friends with him for couple years
>we get verbally abused, me in particular him not so much as he was abig guy (literally)
>closing towards senior year, he starts coming to school less
>verbal abuse only directed towards me
>every single class with two people in particular they would have a go at me for absolutely anything
>friend eventually drops out
>senior year, lost my RS bud, barely play rs at this point, people having a go at me every single day
>literally told to kill myself followed by a group laughing at me the second I walked through the gate in the morning
>proms coming up, dont want to go in the first place
>fall for family saying shit that ill regret it forever, people who always bully insisting that I go
>ask a gril who is definitely out of my league out to prom
>she says yes
>tell family, soon after people who always verbally abuse me find out
>they proceed to message her, asking if im her cousin, abusing her over the net even though they've never met her
>a week before prom she tells me a reason why she cant come, fully understandable, im glad aswell
>avoid prom like the plague even with retards telling me I can sit at their table (same people who always talk shit about me)
>play runescape on the day of prom
>still playing runescape to this day
why can't normalfags realise what they say actually has impact, also got randomly beaten when appropriate, that rarely happened as I never had much reaction due to eventually thinking maybe I just deserve it.
>>28925581
Normies lack empathy for anybody that isnt like them, in a way not even considering them to be human. So they wont even think twice about doing this to people like you because it doesnt even register to them that you are a human with emotions and weaknesses.
>>28924031
>"Oh that's a great idea, this kid totally won't be mentally fucked up in the head for the rest of his life or anything"
This is why we need to fucking teach people not to encourage shit behavior like that
>7th grade math class
>taking notes while Mr Yonan teaches
>classroom is near the road, can hear stuff sometimes
>motorcycle passes, very loud dirty sounding exhaust
>teacher looks at me "anon! Keep it to yourself" or something like that implying I farted
>class fucking loses it, laughing while looking at me.
>I must have looked obviously upset because the teacher kneeled down by my desk and apologized right after and said it was a joke
>too fucking late asshole the damage was done
>14
>school trip to water park
>I forgot my boardshorts
>nobody has a spare
>eventually some 12 year old says that i can wear his swimming briefs he has on under his shorts
>no, i refuse
>they tell me it's the only spare swimming costume available unless i have like, $40 for one of the water park's, which i don't
>either i wear it, or i'll be the only one who misses out
>after a bit of cajoling, i agree
>pic
>fucking
>related
nicknames i had for the rest of my school years
SpongeKnobSquarBalls
Sponge Dick
sponge balls
Square Cock
the kid who's obsessed with spongebob
the kid who masturbates to spongebob
spngeboner
add to the fact that it was so tight you could fucking see everything when it was wet, and literally more than half the day was spent in lines or outside of the water, and it is to this day the most humiliating day of my life
yes, there were photos of me in it, in two different local papers.
no, i will not share them, i do not have any copies
I was raped by an older buy in school, his name was David, he was a lot older than me, 3 or 4 years
I tried to tell the priest, but he said because they didn't take my clothes off they weren't doing anything wrong. Fuck you Father Ryan and David whoever from Nagle College, Bairnsdale.
>>28926191
Fuck, what a ridiculous response from the priest
>>28926104
>SpongeKnobSquarBalls
holy fuck I woke up the missus from laughing so hard
>>28922222
fucking checked
originaalalalalalalalalal
My homemade toiletpaper pads would fall out of my pants onto the school hallway (or gym floor, more commonly) so people harassed me accordingly.
Each occurrence is burned into my mind. The ones I didn't know about? Would probably kill me.
>>28927207
>homemade toiletpaper pads
what
>mommy started drinking
>throwing "parties" with her new bum friends every day
>i was like 8 when it started
>hard to sleep
>she gets a new boyfriend
>beats her every other day
>live in fear
>move away from my mother at 11
>move from place to place (go to 7 diffrent schools)
>get harder and harder to make new friends every time i move school
>give up on it at my last school
>dindt say a word to anyone the whole year
Accepted it now. Live with my mommy. 19.
Hope ill get to move out soon.
>>28913898
I can relate
for me it was when my crush and (at the time I thought) best friend said behind my back when someone asked her if she liked me that she 'had higher standards', I wouldn't have minded if I hadn't been good friends with this girl for like 2 years
>>28917452
>tfw all my mom ever saw on my phone were female solos
>tfw its all I can fap to
It's a non-degenerate kind of feel
I have a few stories but I remember this one the most
>always wear a black beanie
>there is this event where almost everyone goes camping and fishing at a place. almost everyone from school is there with their families and shit
>im like 14 at the time and my age group had started drinking
>they have their own tent
>im with my family and our tent but it is close to their tent
>mom keeps telling me to go socialize with them, I keep putting her off because I don't like them, never had friends the same age as me
>finally give in to mom and go to them
>one guy takes my beanie and starts throwing it around with his friends so i have to fetch it.
>dying on the inside and almost crying (might have cried dont remember)
>get my beanie back and go back to the tent and mumble to mom that i did not feel like being with them.
>cried myself to sleep
>>28914295
at least it wasn't quick
>>28928957
The only thing I got going for me is the fact that my parents love me
and now im a trap
>>28915846
i hope for your sake that is bait
>>28919658
Are you a serial killer now? Lots of serial killer were bed wetters
>>28916012
You can find voluntary work with disabled children and use that to get experience that will let you work with abused children.
>>28917776
>I used to think that family had to look for each other
i think that only really applies to parents and siblings, cousins are often the exception.
>>28926104
I would just kill myself at that point
>>28926104
>SpongeKnobSquarBalls
fuck dude i can't breathe
>Be 11
>England win the Rugby World Cup
>Become completely obsessed with rugby, draw pictures of it daily, pretend I'm England players in the backyard
>School won't start a team because it's too violent
>Realise local club is just down the road, they're advertising for young players
>Beg my Dad to take me there so I can join
>'They won't want you son, they'll only want experienced good players'
'B-b-but it says players of all abilities'
'YOU WONT BE GOOD ENOUGH IF YOU WANT TO JOIN CALL THEM YOUR SELF'
>Shaking like a leaf crying because I've never made a phone call before and don't want Dad to hear
>Can't do it, put phone down and never play sport again until I'm like 15
>In the following years parents would make fun of me for being small and skinny, calling me 'Mr Muscle' ironically and shit
Has fucked me up massively because 1) Im still scrawny and could have gotten fit/socialised as a teen and 2) it's fucked up my body image so badly, part of the reason I'm a virgin is I won't consider undressing until I'm perfect aka 200lb+ of muscle with no bacne.
Why didn't you let me join Dad, it would have changed everything ;_;
>>28917273
Why was she offended?
I'm Italian and I would expect Ameridumbs to mispell every sigle Italian world like they always do, like BUONGEEEEEEORNO, kinda of annoying really but it's not something that would offend me, it's clearly an attemp to socialize and be friendly, what a retard that girl was.
>>28929666
>world
word
>>28917734
Happy Birthday anon, hang in there.
How the fuck is this not original?
>be me
>be 500 yo
>be me again
>xDD
>nigger
>lol
>girl is mean
>girl dies
>roflmao
>be me sad now
cont ?
>>28917937
You do know that someone born in 1970 could have a child at 28 and they would now be able to post here right? It isn't the fucking 60s anymore grandad.
>>28913510
Shir, the first one is me. My entire childhood was spent being punished for things I didn't do. Usually for stuff that proto-Chads blamed on me and the teachers all believed them because they were friends with their parents or Chad played sports
>>28929666
how's living in your ruthless, directionless, migrant ridden country mr trips?
>>28922222
C H E C K E D
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Nice pents, boy
>>28929953
>ruthless
What do you mean?
>migrant ridden country
In my hometown there are barely any, but I lived in Milan for a year and it was definitely ridden with nigs and muslims.
Anyway our society is profoundly different from yours, almost no one works before finishing University, and most people don't even move town for Uni.
Anyway I fucked up the only chance I had and now I'm suffering the consequences.
>>28919966
What a retard you are
>>28919788
Kek, alpha as fuck.
>>28923070
Weed bro
I don't know if there was a specific event that caused it, but I felt at home when I first came here.
>>28925267
>It's like they ram the thought that you are a bad person into you until you actually believe it yourself
I know this feel way too much
>>28911999
Checkkerino, triplerino, originalo.
>fall
>break hip and part of leg
>spend 2.5 years in a wheelchair
>>28930490
I wish there was a tube system for this site, like a bank drive thru. I'd like to send a teddy bear
>group of friends decide to drop me as a friend the summer between middle school and highschool because I was chubby and I guess wasnt cool enough
>one of the most important summers of a young persons life I literally spent inside playing dreamcast and masturbating
>friends eventually apologize to me like year later but the trust issues and damage are done
>every girl I ever asked on a date or to hang out with rejected me in middle school
>never really tried in high school but the few times I did LOLNO
>in college one time I got close but she got back with chad and got pregnant literally the next month
>generally overweight but not ugly
>i could probably fix this by losing weight but I don't even know how to go on a date, let alone fuck and I am 27
>>28916790
kek m8 we had a jhenna
she was a stupid fucking slag
>never bullied
>never touched
>just ignored
Sometimes I wish I would've been beat up so I could have a reason to act out
>>28925581
is this story a pasta or what? seen it like four times in the past week
Once I hit puberty I was well aware I was not very good looking, but at least average. I used to hang out with this chad in highschool, girls always approached to him and completely ignored me every time. "That's ok, he is more handsome is obvious, but someday it will happen to me".
One day walking on the street I passed near a bunch of girls, the older one, probably the older sister of the bunch said to me "hey this girl right here wants to say hi" inmediately the girl said out loud "noooo he's so uglyyyy". The people passing by heard and turned to look at me wuth their stupid grins.
I don't talk to people much since then, because people are fucking heartless if they want to for no reason.
>>28918347
Almost the same since I was 12yo I had a crush on some grill till I was 16yo. In the last day of school I take some balls and stand in front of her alone. But I never said nothing she just was raging all over screaming that she didn't feel nothing for me i was a creep a weirdo. But anon you have to keep trying now my gf its like 10times better than that shit, you only lose when you give up
>>28914565
>>QT girl 2 years older than me takes pity on me
>pity
no relationship is better than a relationship based on pity. You did nothing wrong, anon.
> used to be a Chad
> ask girl out
> things go good for the first few weeks
> get invited over, no else home
> things get romantic, she says she wants to improve it with some music
> plays never gonna give u up
I rick rolled outta there. Been a robot ever since.
>>28916700
>Had a few months left to the school year, fall into depression and lose all desire to pursue Jenna
come on anon, in those few months you could've fucked that bitch everyday, lost your virginity and become sexually experienced. Heck, you could've even cum inside her on the last day and by the time she realized, you'd be in another state.
I was born an only child. Does that count?
>>28929724
Continue it faggot
Sure I do not mind sharing.
>Dad left my mom when I was 3
>Mom was a meth addict
>Mom dated a pedophile that molested me when I was a kid
>Mom dated an abusive guy who beat the shit out of her.
>Mom dated another meth addict, who actually had a job. We moved in with him.
>This new dad was an ex nam vet. Was nearly twice my mom's age.
>Step went clean after a few years, but my mom was still at it.
>Step dad got our lives together, moved to small town in a trailer.
>Step dad became abusive of me, and constantly threatening to break up with my mom (They were together since I was young, still together now.
>As the years progress, the punishments get worse and worse.
>Have to do marine training as punishments.
>Sexually harasses us (makes sexual jokes, and does things like crabbing our nipples. I was fucking like 10 at the time).
>Eventually tried to train us to be literal slaves.
>Forced to do all the chores, and not allowed in our bedrooms for anything but sleep.
>Not allowed to sleep at all, unless it was time for bed.
>Not allowed to watch TV, play video games, or do anything unless they were gone.
>Not allowed to eat when we were hungry unless my mom fed us.
>Not allowed to sit on the couch, had to sit on the floor like an animal.
>Forced to do things like rub his feet, massage his back, and put on his shoes. Fetch anything he asked for.
>If taken anywhere, we always had to walk behind them or hold onto the cart.
>Not allowed to talk at dinner, or pretty much anytime ever.
>Had to get up at 3-4am every day. Even on school days, to help my step dad get ready for work.
>Had to get good grades, or grounded.
>Got grounded forever anyways, so it didn't matter.
>Never allowed to go anywhere, but when he was at work.
>Forced to do labor, even in the middle of the summer with no water.
>Punished with a 4 foot paddle, with a 2cm diameter with holes drilled into its compressed plywood body.
>If I cried, I was sent outside for one hour.
Pt 1/2
No specific event happened, I'm just a broken human being. If I had to say it was anything physical it would be that from Kindergarten through 10th grade I had to see psychiatrists and therapists and take psychoactive drugs that made things worse and I was followed closely at all times in school by an aide I didn't need, so no kid ever wanted to go near me. Never had any friends, never learned to socialize, can barely hold a discussion with another person. And to break it all off I had to take an IQ test and those fuckers wouldn't even tell me what I got so I'm probably also retarded
>>28932223
2/2
>If I cried, I was sent outside for one hour (even in the middle of winter)
>My parents loved to treat us like pets, and made us do tricks.
>Told if I do something humiliating, I was allowed less punishment. Such as run naked down the driveway and back, or run barefoot in the snow.
>Parents always teased and humiliated me in public.
>Mom got more heavily into meth, began stealing from our own house.
>I was getting older, and entered high school.
>I was completely and utterly socially retarded.
>Found salvation in video games.
>Did labor around my village for money to save up for a game boy.
>Mom steals it, and pawns it for drug money.
>This happens over and over again, I even tried to hide and or get extremely paranoid over my belongings. My mom already pawned all the movies and power tools from our house.
>Mom would beg me for money.
>Mom would steal and pawn things she got me for my birthday or Christmas.
>Mom would steal things I borrowed from friends at school.
>I can't trust
>I cannot talk to anyone.
>I cannot relate to anyone.
>In high school, I eventually get onto the internet and try to educate myself.
>I eventually graduate (first in my shitty family) and get a job.
>I cannot function around people.
>I get frustrated and snap at everyone all the time, always get suspensions but my boss wont fire me because my uncle is the owner.
>To this day, I still work shitty wage slave jobs and live on the internet. I cannot function as a normal human being.
>I will die alone.
>Have been bullied,insulted and stepped over by everyone around me my whole life including my father,"best fiend" and girls
>I just wanted to play vidya and be a fat piece of shit
>Dedicated my life to lifting and becoming as Chad as possible
>Now close to Chad mode and hate everyone with a burning passion and really really want to spend all my money on steroids and some martial art and become a killing machine fueled by hate and rage
>>28914189
Here, have a laugh
>Discover porn at 12
>never occurs to me to try fapping til 16
I'd say I'm lucky I'm not really a robot, but holy shit I have not grown up into a normie.
>>28932418
Don't take roids, bro. It will ruin you. You won't live for just the next few years. It will come around and bite you hard in the ass.
I can definitely relate with the hating everyone part. I'm also half a Chad.
>>28914304
this desu fampai
2 sec ban yall :O
>>28917815
Iktf
My grandparents are really sweet people and my aunts and uncles on both sides are decent, fully functioning people. Somehow the degenerate black sheep from both families managed to get together and make me
>>28932418
I want to f that -udou akira
>>28916571
If it makes you feel any better, I got plenty of advice about girls from my dad and wished I hadn't. Dad grew up in a wealthy family, going to a rich-kid school, was tall and athletic, and is SO BAD at romantic advice. Like, "just go up and caress her lower back, works every time," and he just can't comprehend why what was easy for him doesn't work for me.
>>28922586
gay high iq introvert here. Only my dad does the passive aggressive thing. I know some of those feels...
>>28932407
we all will die alone, the best you can do is giving you parents the worst of the worst time when they become older. i wish you luck, and make them suffer.
>>28916826
I can sympathize. I grew up with little TV, just some computer and no vidya at all. I got my first console after college, a 360, and it was so mind-blowing I just wanted it to be my life.
But I didn't, because that'd be a terrible waste of my life.
But hey, just dismiss this as some unsympathetic comment from a normie who couldn't possibly understand. Just keep being a NEET.
>>28917035
What a shitty reason to ruin your own life. Maybe your dad is awkward? And he was trying to be a good father, with zero experience or training? Fuck you robots get me mad sometimes.
>>28917640
>>28917640
>>now before i talk i must analyze everything i say so i dont reveal my subconscious motives
>>dont end up talking at all
>>no friends
top kek, me too
>>28916012
post oregano video
>>28913646
>Have way above average IQ and very below average EQ
>>28915996
You should team up with this guy>>28919658
>>28917734
happy birthday anon, I really hope your life will get better
>>28924031
>6th grade
>literally 1 regular desk short in this classroom
>a chair and a little table Is set up in the corner of the room facing a wall
>a different student Is at this table each week
>my week is here
>sitting at this table doing school work from a different class
>teacher apparently had a sore throat and can't speak well and is writing some shit on the white board
>focused on work, can't hear her writing and am facing a wall in the back of the room
>as opposed to walking her fat ass to me and tapping me on the shoulder to get my attention, she opts to launch a white board eraser at me to get my attention
>she fuckin domes me
>class explodes into laughter
>very pissed off but can't do shit cuz lol6thgrader
>tell my parents about it that night at supper
>mom goes to the school the next morning and rips that teacher a new asshole
>she apologizes to me that day
Fuckin bitch.
>be 9
>mom's father is abusive and alcoholic
>my father is dead
>walk in on him humping her while she's screaming
>save moment in my head like a gif
>fast forward 20 years
>still jack off to it
>>28918720
Damn.... that's horrible
>>28914658
much love, robot
>>28914901
>still this delusional after 10 years
jesus you're retarded
>>28922739
How can something from 2nd grade affect you this much? You are just making excuses.
>>28934627
it's just one of a lot of stories, alright?
>>28919413
wew m8E 1234124321234321
>grade 7
>friend shows me some weird porn on his phone at school
>go home and look up grossest things i can find
>later that day i go snowboarding
>forget to close tabs
>mom finds lesbian triple fisting porn open on my pc
>kinda embarrassing t b h
>>28919966
Not everyone has to be a bitch like you who wants to suck his father's cock.
>>28916700
Your father's career is fucking important enough to dismiss your vote in this.
Also, sure it's shit to move away and lose your old friends but starting at a new school totally gives you a chance to make a new better impression on new people and to perhaps become even popular.
>>28919658
fake and gay, not even trying/10
>>28919966
you're a big ol' fag, aren't you????
>be 5
>diagnosed with aspergers, IQ of 150, doctors call me a genius (taught myself to read when I was 2)
>parent kept telling me i was able to be a doctor and stuff like that
>be 6, elementary school
>always getting the best grades
>heavily bullied, beaten up by the other kids and one of the teacher for 5 years
>teacher got away with it despite my parents telling the police
>middle school
>still convined i'm a genius, because my mom told me that when i'll be an adult i'll show them all so it doesn't matter if i'm bullied
>get used to never work and still getting the best grades although they're slowly getting lower over the years
>bullying continues, i have literally only 2 friends, aspergers too
>vidya is preventing me from killing myself
>4 years later, high school
>chose one in a city far away from where I live so people wouldn't know and bully me, but have to sleep there too
>always depressed, getting shittier and shittier grades by the day
>bullying stopped at least
>slowly realise that because of what my parents told me 10 years ago I'm ruining my own life
>got a gf, almost had sex with her but she laughed at me and dumped me when i told her I had aspergers
>at least she didn't tell anyone
>barely get admitted to college
>skipping to now
>be 20
>code monkey paid half the minimum wage
>parents obviously disapointed in me
>mfw remembering what the doctors told me years ago
I skipped a shitton of things because i could write a book for each year
>>28923494
I had an easier time than you but didn't get v-card til I was 25, don't give up, most people won't hurt you that bad
Plenty of small things compiled into one, really. I guess i'll go down the list, but it's They're not major, but they all pretty much add up.
>elementary school
k - 5th grade
>was fat ever since birth and parents never really pushed me to lose it
>was made fun of literally every day
>parents eventually sent me to karate school to help me lose it
>was still made fun of since the concept of a fat kid doing karate is hilarious
>my 4th grade teacher fucking despised me since i was a general fuck up in class
>i became sick for two weeks
>when i came back she probably saw the error of her ways and treated me nicely for the rest of the year but now that i think about it i shouldn't have bought that bullshit
>i also shit myself in class that year and it became a running joke up until the end of middle school so that didn't help things
>middle school(probably the worst of the worst)
>got into a few fights because i just couldn't stand people ever
6th grade
>kid next to me farted HARD and blamed me for it and since he was a popular guy, everyone believed him
>outfits was often made fun of since my mom had a very skewed sense of what was fashionable for a boy at the time
7th grade
>dad fucks up my haircut one time since he halfassed it
>had to go to school with a hat on
>principal says to take it off anyway despite me saying it's going to cause me issues
>pretty much laughing stock for the rest of the day
cont
>>28919969
If this happened to me I wouldn't of even been included in the quiz, count yourself lucky
>>28935298
Why because you didn't go to school?
>>28935251
>later in the year run into a chad in the hallway and he just cracks his typical joke about me
>chad's lackey, james(since i can't think of a better chad lackey name) laughs like an absolute faggot and i started swinging at him so he can shut the fuck up
>get sent to office
>another chad who was in that office laughs at me the whole time
>gets suspended
>8th grade
>ends up with most of my 7th grade class so social stigmas are still in tact
>third day of school
>new hamplanet girl i shared mutual hatred with
>she starts a poll that asks every girl in the class if i was ugly
>they all said yes with every single one of their names written on the paper
>get stomach virus at one point
>i was slouched over in great pain
>some people were asking if i was alright
>chad in the class goes "hey anon maybe you ate too many cheeseburgers"
>everyone laughs while i continue to writhe in pain
>recess during lunch
>i didn't feel like going out to play that day even though i usually do
>lunch attendant aggressively tries to force me to go out
>i eventually go
>behind my back she mocks me in front of everyone at the lunch table and everyone laughs
slightly cont
>>28924664
yeah, you are a whiny bitch
>>28935419
I would go into high school details, but it's more or less the same and to be honest, this became boring to type.
Add all of this on top of the fact that my parents never allowed me to hang out with anyone when I was younger, and you have me. I graduated high school 6 years ago and I have no idea what I want to do with myself since I never really experienced anything interesting when I was growing up outside of vidya. I want to do things, but there isn't jack shit for me in this town.
>get in some argument with my dad
>anon you don't have to be a shit all of the time, just be a shit 75% of the time like you usually do
How the fuck have I not defooed yet? Jesus I have seriously internalized my powerlessness.
>>28911999
>be me, 12, 7th grade, few friends, new school every year
>get bullied by a black girl
>Indian student says he'll chop my dick off
>start crying and skipping class/school
>parents tell me i have legit autism and that's why I'm being bullied
>refuse to go to school and get a tutor and only have to do one hour of schoolwork twice a week
>stay home and watch star wars everyday and play vidja for the rest of the yr
>return to school next year to find out the black girl was put into special ed and then kicked out for bringing a knife to school
>by that point the damage was done and I never bothered to apply myself anymore and instead played vidja all day and skipped class
>somehow graduated and have been a proud NEET since
>>28933780
>mom goes to the school the next morning and rips that teacher a new asshole
Damn sasuga mom
>>28927228
if a girl is too embarrassed to buy pads or tampons, she can just use tp. like a filthy animal. women are disgusting.
>father hit mother over stupid autistic shit like ' BITCH YOU GOT ME THE WRONG PART FOR MY ELECTRIC MINI CAR YOU WHORE FUCK YOU'
>He hit me because i was an baby doing baby stuff
>he always wanted that me and me sister 'crawl' him.
We needed to sit on his back and crawl his back when we wanted sweets or something from the toy store, was normal back then, but now, What the fuck.
We needed to crawl is sticky fatty back and sitting on his arse while doing it.
This was the only thing my father did with me, no cool father adventures in the wild, no learning how to drive bycicle, my grandpa did this, no swimming, nothing. He just had his weird fucking autistic hobbies like small helicopters with remote controll, chameleons, reptils, and other autistic stuff.
If i or my mother ever disagreed with him he outraged like an fucking autist, god i hate my whole genetic line, please kill me.
>be 13
>walking down stairs
>mom and dad looking through old pictures
>have a lot of ugly moles and pimples on face
>Overhear them talking
>"Anon looks so much better in this picture you can't see his spots"
Call me weak, but that really stuck with me
>>28922945
thats horrible mate I really feel for you
>>28923148
source? She looks cute
>>28919492
PTSD. Everything you are experiencing is a result of PTSD formed by your father abusing you.
>>28912326
go spend time with your dad you whiny little bitch
>>28919492
first time i could relate to a post on /r9k/
i've had extremely similar experiences and i think we're fucked for life because of our somewhat conflicted narcissism
>>28911999
>real dad left when I was like 2 months old
>mom got pretty cool carpenter boyfriend, they told me he was my dad
>she breaks up with him when I'm like 6 because he beat her up on christmas eve
>she has a coke relapse and mental breakdown and I live with my father for the rest of my childhood, at this same time I find out that carpenter dude wasn't my dad at all and my real dad left when I was 2 months old
>also separated from my half-brother when he goes to live with his dad, (same mom different dad)
pretty angry bout' it
I feel now no more that much depressed, cause my life is better then yours.
You are a bunch of fuckin loser nerds. Get rekt faggots.
Sincerely
Bernd
> sexual abuse from dad from age 1 > 5
> broken family after duh
> legit autism diagnosis
> non /partially verbal until 11
> more abuse in primary school
> fucked up relationship with now diagnosed BPD girl in secondary school
> mother becomes emotionally abusive due to brother's drinking
> retreat to room, code and game
> informed of non remembered sexual abuse of father -explains stuff in my life, reactions etc
> fucked up friendship with BPD girl in college
> fucked up physically and sexually abusive relationship with another
> seizures
> get to uni after coding and gaming my way through intense social isolation and abuse
> breakdown in uni
> put on meds for anxiety
> another uni place, in performance art
> wut?
> still code and game
> no longer in abusive relationships and interaction
> terrified of everyone and agoraphobic
>>28937872
I guess it's important for us to set a goal and go for it. Something to keep us occupied so we don't do something "funny" if you catch my drift.
>>28922222
You don't use "and" like that. You would say "Dad dies 6 days after Anon's birthday or the day after Christmas".
Capisci?
>>28934861
>Your father's career is fucking important enough to dismiss your vote in this.
Actually, no it is not. My dad was an office jockey for the Coast Guard, we were required to move every 4 years. At the time we lived in Commiefornia, my dad literally only requested to leave because the people he worked with had different political ideas than him. That was fucking it. Instead of living there the full 4 years and getting to move anyway, he requested to leave early and made us leave. Never asked my mom, never asked my brother, never asked me, nothing. Apparently we didn't have lives outside of our contact with him and his happiness was all that mattered. Stop trying to justify bullshit, when you are a parent that is your number one priority. Everything else should come 2nd, even your own happiness. If you don't like that, don't have kids.
>starting at a new school totally gives you a chance to make a new better impression on new people and to perhaps become even popular.
That is bullshit and you know it. I went to a mostly black high school, I am white. It sucked ass.
>>28913803
>dance at school
>really socially awkward
>sitting with some of the "cool" kids at a table
>they all knew I was a sperg but were cool to me
>girl I liked tries to drag me out onto the dance floor
>spaz out and clutch chair
>she drags me and the chair onto the dance floor
>in front of everyone
>blush and awkwardly drag chair back to table and sit down
>it turned out she was trying to get me to dance with her friend
>one of the normie guys sitting near me tells me, "Next time that happens be a man. Grab the table instead."
>>28936139
>Indian student says he'll chop my dick off
Being scared of the poo in loo man is supreme beta
>up until age 15, by older brother and I would share a room with a TV and a games console in the evenings
>he would always have more time on the games console than me, because he was older
>he would always choose what was on TV, because he was older
>when we eventually got a laptop, he would always be using the laptop, while also choosing what was on TV
>whenever we played multiplayer games, he would always choose what we played (FIFA unfortunately)
>he could play any games I bought, but I wouldn't be allowed to play anything he bought
>he would always stretch out on the sofa while I was bunched up on the end
I know it's not abuse or anything, but 15 years of this wears you down.
>at 15, I build a PC and set it up in my room to get away from him
>play games and browse the internet all the time
>start watching torrented anime instead of TV
>never get invited to parties
>never drink, smoke, so drugs
>Suddenly I've missed out on the normie stuff you're supposed to do in your teenage years.
And here we are.
>>28914565
>refers to me as sexy "my name"
my sides are in orbit
>>28912326
Lol how much "housework" did you have to do over the years of your childhood that was difficult enough for ur dad to cuss at you?
Sounds like you being a little bitch wanting to stay in and play vidya instead of learning some things from your old man.
Typical faggot r9k poster blames parents blames others for their problems, only wants to fap to hentai and watch weaboo shit and when people say why dont you do something about it you just defer to "hurr durr muh childhood scarred"
fucking faggot go to a game with your dad, throw the football with him, or you could KYS
>>28916151
>>28916272
what is a slightly above average iq? 110?
I don't know why I'm this way...
>>28935164
Can relate in a way. Best of luck to you, anon.
I really wish I was kidding
>be in freshman year of high school
>get this girls number, oh shit I think I like her
>she dressed very modestly, make a joke about her being a "hussie"
>she actually laughs, I'm in
>ask her to school dance, she accepts
>get to her house, she's in a dress with makeup
>really really REALLY fucking nervous
>"What's with the makeup? You look like a skank"
>trying to make another joke but say it absolutely deadpan
>see the most crushing look of despair on her face, she runs off crying
>her brother yells at me that he'll hurt me if I ever talk to her again
>go home and wank
>never get a date for any other high school dance again
I really wonder how my life could have been
>>28913898
Similar story here.
>ninth grade
>split into groups
>Stacy looks at me and says "your brother is hot, I don't know what happened to you!"
>Stacys friends all start laughing
Fuck women, man.
>>28933827
fucking yikes bro
>>28912049
I saw this thing earlier today.
>>28942157
yeah dont make joke, thats not your fortes, asshole.
>dad always called me retard, idiot, useless, lazy whenever I didn't do the things he wanted exactly the way he wanted even though I did all he asked for
>end up believing I'm a retard, idiot, useless and lazy
>dad is surprised when I have emotional problems and turned out retard, idiot, useless and lazy
>>28942966
narcissistic parents are the absolute worst
most robots probably have them
>>28918123
I had an old friend from high school whose birthday was June 19. Haven't heard from her in 4 years now.
>>28914565
I always assume any complimentary statement made about me is sarcastic or a joke.
That way, when that's exactly what it turns out to be, the defense is already there. I can't be hurt if I assume it's mindfuckery from the start.
>>28933468
>low IQ
>and
>low EQ
>mfw
>>28914748
fuck that, just let him waste
>>28917734
Original content here robot let me post you fucking piece of shit I don't need this just let me go back to Africa FUCK!
>>28921727
browsing /mlp/ doesn't count
>>28916272
>>28913646
>>28933468
>I'm lonely because I'm smarter than the rest
Please let this meme end. Besides the fact that believing this statement is a robot/beta test, it's pitifully pretentious.
>>28913915
>sisters are sluts
>not giving us their nudes
You are a selfish anon
>>28930776
tfw i'm on that lonely path
what does original mean???
>>28918084
Anon can I have a link to your videos?
>>28925345
you're here to kill
seriously, it should be your instinct to kill those literal bastards
>>28916571
Lel
>be 12
>Mom and aunt are talking about some girl because they think she's ugly
>Tell mom I won't let her know any girlfriend because she and the whole family are cruel with other people
>be 23
>be kissless virgin
>mom thinks I've had many girlfriends
>lol, she will never know the truth
>>28926104
spongebob is an alpha
your piece was clearly big
it's your fault for fucking this up
>Be 10, start to get a little chubby
>Be 13, I guess I am officially fat
>From 14 to 15, puberty hits
>Get taller, and lose a lot of weight
>Everyone at school looks at me differently
>Girls are interested in me
>Never get a girlfriend at school even when I knew that almost 10 girls liked me, and half of them where pretty
>ffw
>now I am 23
>kissless virgin
>Everywhere I go, there's always a girl that likes me
>never do anything about it
Why am I like this?
>beginning of high school
>friends start turning into chads and eventually ditch me
>crawl to the feet of the nerdiest kids in school looking for friendship
>hang out with them until i start smoking weed and fall into that crowd
>all the people i thought were my friends were just using me and i lost them all
>alone again, crawl over to this friendless aspie asshole i knew from class
>constantly calls me an idiot and berates the shit out of me at lunch
>put up with it because i thought it was better than being alone
>now i cant trust anyone and fear what other people think of me
>cant form relationships
>bipolar disorder
>shut in
>suicidal
just fuck my shit up
I'm in the same fucking boat, excluding the weight loss part.
>>28938837
>when you are a parent that is your number one priority. everything else should come 2nd, even your own happiness
no
>i went to a mostly black high school, I am white. It sucked ass
yes
>>28945742
Minus the first couple of parts, sounds just like me.
>>28911999
Nice trips
>Be me
>Move to new school
>First day of English class
>Faggot starts throwing pieces of paper at me
>Does it all class
>Get up and walk passed him
>He smiles like 'yeah you got me lol' so I think yeah whatever
>WRONG
>Keeps doing this every English class for 6 months
>Finally throw a piece back at him
>Stops and stares at me for the rest of the class
>Literally doesnt blink, get up or nothing. Just stares at me like hes seen satan
>He literally cannot believe Ive retaliated, being a manlet how dare I
>Bell goes off, pack my shit. He waits, doesnt move.
>Take a deep breath, could walk around front of class room but decide to man up and confront him
>Scared shitless but compose myself
>As I go passed he stands up, hes tall as fuck, huffs out his chest
>I do the same
>He just laughs and goes 'HAH?! WTF?'
>I walk out
I ended up having to tell the teacher to get him to stop but he never did it again after that. My dipshit parents made me go to the counselor, thinking it would help. Instead of teaching me to man up and defend myself like it was the right thing to do from the start.
That was 04, Im 27 now and it still haunts me.
>>28914366
He's a big man isn't he
>Me be
>Poor as fuck -10/10 neckbeard loser
>No friends, girls think I'm creepy teachers hate me
>Everyday bullies beat me up
>Mom is bipolar psycho, Dad is alcoholic NEET
>In grade 10 teacher bullies me so bad I drop out of school to pursue NEEThood
I never stood a chance
>be me in 7th grade
>class field trip to the museum
>get divided up into groups with a chaperone for each group
>our group's chaperone is the mother of this girl that I've known
>kids in my grade and in my group goofing off, being loud, doing normal kid stuff in a museum
>I've always kept to myself, always been quiet and not outgoing so that's how I am throughout the field trip
>at the end of the field trip my chaperone says to me "anon, are you a new student here?"
>tfw I've went to the same school my whole life and I'm practically invisible to everyone else around me
This basically set me up to be a social failure
>>28946000
>nice trips
13243535
>>28918084
This is very fucking depressing anon
>>28946321
my version
>new girl
>her mom is a news reporter
>proto-nice-chad best friend talks shit about new girl & her mom, but they don't seem so bad
>trip to museum
>new girl's mom is nice to me
>now i realize she was just approaching me for being a fucking sperg
>to this day i have a thing for assertive older women
anyway, reading this thread makes me realize i'm not nearly fucked up enough to even be here
>>28921450
Jenna Fischer is pretty nice.
>>28939252
>Suddenly I've missed out on the normie stuff you're supposed to do in your teenage years.
I'm going into my second year of uni coming this autumn. I still haven't drunk or went to a party. I haven't kissed a girl yet. How screwed am I, guys?
>Bunch of kids saw me killing a cat near my house
>Ostracized from everyone i know as "that creepy kid"
I guess i just got used to no one talking to me and it kinda stayed that way.
>>28912326
I got a call from my sister a few hours ago telling me my dad had a massive heart attack and hes in surgery right now
Talk to your dad.
Born in Russia.
>>28946841
why did you kill a cat
you deserve everything you got
>be me
>be 15
>make a school shooting joke with a date, everyone laughs at the lunch table
>all of the sudden i get called into the office like months later when i forgot
>police come, every official in the god damn school comes
>search my bag, find a school map with two x's where my locker is and my friend's was
>think it's a hit list
>get 20 days in juvie
>six months of probation
>used to be popular and funny before
>now i'm an autistic NEET with social anxiety and a stuttering problem
TL;DR post-9/11 and columbine zero-tolerance policies fucked my life over
I had behavioral problems in Primary School and Nursery that no one ever called me out on. When I got to High School shit didn't fly and by the end of the first year I had learned to just keep quiet instead of say the wrong things. Eventually I was known as the "weird quiet kid" instead of the "annoying cunt" and that stuck until eventually I couldn't take it and I dropped out. In my last few years I was nothing like how I used to be but I just couldn't escape my reputation and no one would ever go near me.
I'm not even repulsive, I'm 6' with a decent dick and yet a girl that isn't related to me hasn't voluntarily spoken to me in years.
My family were always dysfunctional, they were happy to leave me up in my room alone for years on and, and now it doesn't seem to be changing.
I've been NEET for a year and have a couple of close friends online, they're all I have.
>>28946616
stacy jew cunt
but aside from that, pretty nice i guess
>>28946866
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
that's all really
i'm always original
I don't even know,i just gave up.
>>28917734
nice pasta faggot kys
>have water day at school with waterballoons, slip n slides, etc
>everyone's getting into their bathing suits
>6 year old me takes his shirt off
>whole class, including best friends point and laugh at chub
>>28946967
it's not that bad, is it?
at least you don't have amerifat traditions and genetics
>>28924031
>>28925913
>Teaching my class but constantly interrupted by anon asking stupid questions
>Falling behind schedule getting sick of anons shit.
>Chad makes a suggestion we throw paper balls at anon whenever he asks a question.
>Allow it because Im sick of his shit.
>Anon asks another dumb question
>Everyone throws harmless paper balls at him
>We all laugh
Not my best teaching daysbit naybe he'll shut the fuckup with those dumb questions.
P.S
I too fell for the "all questions are good questions meme" anon.
Its just normie lies.
>>28920966
>brother hates me
jeez thats rough after basically raising him, what happened there?
>>28948676
>what happened there?
single motherhood
>reading this thread
jesus christ
thread theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7yzdkdOjZhc
>>28911999
>only child, raised by mentally ill father, other relatives never gave a fuck
>never had friends (apart from imaginary ones and a short lived phase with internet ones)
>always seemed a natural bullying target at every school I went to
>developed love for autistic hobbies only (anime, vidya)
>father tried to kill me, ran away a couple times
>kicked out at 18
>poor on govt bucks until late 20s when a job finally decided to take me in after applying for the millionth time
>currently living mediocre life in tiny apt, gave up on the idea of having friends, generally dislike people
>born into well off respected family (by east eu standards)
>have whatever I want materially, good conditions, nice family
>disgusted by most of stuff in modern world (a bit old fashioned)
>just want to continue doing family jobs on agriculture or military
>forced by society and family into white collar jobs thinking they do me a favour
>college I apply to doesn't accept me
>forced do do what I despise for the rest of my life
>extremely disappointed in life
>my only satisfaction in awful life that's getting more corrupt by days is old music
>on job application get told I can't be hired because of my permanently and heavily damaged hearing
>wut?!
>all doctors I visited have the same diagnosis and say I can't be around anything loud anymore (parties, guns shooting and similar) and my hearing is going crap
>fml
>find out about tolkien, lefebvre, evola
>become an anarchist reactionary extremist
here I am bois
>raised by grandparents, visited dad one weekend mom next weekend alternated
>love both parents deeply
>love never left, but over years start to realize the pain my dad has inflicted on the family
For a long time he struggled with alcohol and would quit off and on. That's just what I saw. He's also struggled with drugs including crack.
I remember one time he had come over to pick me up and my grandparents weren't letting him take me and I was really pissed at them for it. Looking back, they probably had some good reason.
>prescribed ritalin/adderall through school
>dad always fights with grandparents about it
>causes massive rift in relationship
>dad starts to get into "Christianity" hardcore
>lot of fire and brimstone stuff, always talking about demons, very hard to handle
It got to the point all I could do was sit and nod. Disagreeing with him isn't really an option. One time he was being hard on my brother, I spoke up for him and we all almost fought. That was nearly 10 years ago.
>Be March this year
>working 2 jobs, running a side business, going to school full time
>dad comes over pounding on door waking me up from much needed sleep
>>recently, he had been terrorizing the family, including my grandmother, for instance, blaming her for his short stature because she had premarital sex(??)
>"You don't look happy to see me!"
>I respond "who the hell is?" and confront him about what he said to grandma
>he cocks up and sucker punches me, twice to the jaw before I fight back
>bloody his face on the first punch
>we go at it for a few minutes, I crack his rib, we both have concussions
We haven't spoken since.. it's hard to explain how I feel about it all. It felt good to not back down after he hit me, but I still feel bad about it. I wish he wasn't so aggressive about his religious views. If he got to know me a little he'd know that I am religious as well. He can't stand that I play video games though. Pretty much all media is demonic
>>28942157
thats some fucking second hand embarassment I'm feeling right now, jesus christ anon
>>28911999
>Be 16, anti-social shut-in from all the bullying at school
>Play vidya all day. skip school
>Skip school for 1 month , sent email to my teacher from my moms computer
>Mom finds out, goes ragemode, confronts me
>Idgaf, i just want to play vidya, i hate school
>She confronts my stepdad, says its his fault
>Starts beating him, screaming, throwing things
>Its all happening in my room
>Stepdad pushes her, shes bursts into tears, screeching and crying
>Goes berserk, beats me, calls me names, should have taken that abortion.fuckyou
>Stepdad calls police
>Mom spends the night in police station to calm down
>She comes home, doesnt say a word, moves out, divorces my stepdad, becomes a alcoholic, bitches at me fulltime, hates men
>i'm 22 now
Have two little brothers that i take all the shit for, they are not gonna be on the receiving end of this bullshit
>>28942825
Me too
In fact I see this a lot
Why is everything repeating
Am I going isane
this thread sucks.
I thought I would be reading some relatable loner stories but it's all dumb child abuse stuff.
>>28946841
You deserved it you sick fuck.
>>28949297
>>become an anarchist reactionary extremist
Stopped reading there.
>be 7
>go to school everyday with dad because he works nearby
>he is a nutcase 90% of the time and shouts at me about stuff and calls my mom names
>people don't like me at school, bullying etc.
>get home
>mom calls my father names
>dad gets home
>they argue
>I play vidya to forget about it
>dad drinks
That went on for four years and suddenly it stopped when I changed schools.
ITT: Dad beat me
>>28914658
Kinda same here, my mon alluded to it once
>I didn't want a child at that time but your father insisted
>>28949598
thanks for listening to my story to the end anon
>be 8, at a restaurant with family, super social kid with friends
>time to order and everyone does,
>as mom and sis do, only dad is left, im still struggling to decide between the soup or the salad for entrance
>dad orders its going to be my turn soon
>start getting nervous
>mom "anon have you chosen ? "
>i'm still trying to choose, absolutely not ready
>start panicking and sweating, waiter gets concerned
>" I... I"ll have the soup"
>"The soup, excellent choice sir !"
>immediately regret my choice.
> I feel something click inside of me, I realise i'll never be the same because of this,
>I'm 30 now, kissless virgin, scoially inept and filled with regrets
If only I had taken the salad that day , I would have never turned out the way I am today
>>28946967
>Not turning to cyber crime
>>28922930
Father is also on disability, only from mudslime land. Not mudslime ourselves, christian actually. Whole different dna and the works but yeah. He was always home either sleeping or tv. When we got a computer he fap'd a lot since no pivacy to fug. Still does all of this as I am a 30hkv and still living with them. Yells a lot. Politics, religion, racism related. History. etc etc. Life is shit.
>>28911999
sure thing, brah; it was a story that made you who you were in the first place and not your retardation that lead you to the story in the first place.
>>28919413
This
>mom marries some nigger
>never took a liking to him, mom made him gimme moneys and shit
>it was coo
>one day at friends house up the street
>mom texts
>"come home anon fagit stepdad is being a nigger again
>get home, mom is cry & Neck is red
>timetogutanigger.gif
>grab huge kitchen knife
>stepnigger flees when police are mentioned
It turns out he got in a car chase with the cops and ended up hitting one, so he locked up for 20 years
>>28950017
0/10 story apply yourself
>>28917306
This was a rough read.
>>28949671
You're welcome baby
