tell me about your childhood, /r9k/
I don't remember. That's distressing on it own. Just some vague point in time. I can't even really piece together a coherent memory at this point. Dissociation fucking sucks
In Short: if I somehow got a superpower from it i could write a mean comic book.
>>28850504
Grew up poor with fanatically religious parents.
I'm a damaged human who no person will ever love.
Dad died. Hated the world.
>mfw my childhood was ruined as it started
I was orphaned. My dad died during birth and my mom died after she was bit by a bird
Bland. That's the only way I can describe it.
>I was never able to make friends with the boys in the neighborhood. They didn't hate me either.
>At elementary school, I felt that I was never part of the pack, because all my classmates knew eachother, they were friends or neighbors among themselves. I was like a outlander. They didn't hate me either. I had a crush with a tomboyish girl, but she transferred to another school. I still miss her to this day.
>Kinda the same on middle and highschool, my classmates knew eachother since elementary. I was the outlander there aswell. Again, they dind't hate me either. There was a dude that admired me for some reason, even without really knowing me. He transferred to another school pretty soon.
>I tried to make friends, but never succeeded.
>>28850792
I forgot to mention, when I started middleschool, I went with two dudes from elementary, but they betrayed me on the first week by transferring to another class. They left me alone.
>Back then (early to mid 2000's) I found solace on vidya and watching anime on TV.
Sadly, after highschool, most of my favourite TV channels closed doors so I was left with nothing to watch.
>>28850792
>>28850865
sounds like me, even today
my friends never invite me to anything
i tell myself its because they've all known each other since they were kids but deep down I know its because I don't put myself out there enough because I'm too afraid of them not liking me
>>28850504
Dad found out his first wife was cheating on him after 40 years of marriage and a daughter so he left her and went on a pen pal dating service where he met my mom.
My mom was a spinster and 40 year old virgin who was living by herself in apartment and hoping to find a husband to have a child.
They fall in love but it's discovered my father has cancer. He has an operation two weeks before the wedding.
I'm born a year later and while my mom is taking care of me he's getting worse. He dies a week after my 5th birthday and the day after Father's Day.
So I was raised by a extremely religious woman who had almost no concept of how sex worked(dad was a protestant so he was pretty repressed to) and was not from the USA so she did not anything about US culture, despite having lived in the US for 10 years before meeting my father.
Both sides of my family were too old to come visit and my dad's side of the family is so far away it's easy to forget that I even exist.
I was born too late.My sister got a quiet life in an English town with a mom and dad and I got a stubborn spinster, a dead dad and no family.
I spent most of it laying around and playing video games with the single "real" friend I ever had in my life. I used to ride my bike to his house two miles away to play video games all day. Then we found out Runescape and played it for two years until WoW came out and we spent all of our waking hours playing it.
Great times. Its really fucking me in the ass right now.
>>28850504
>Mom found the cum candy wrapper
Some ups and some downs, but holy fuck, being a fat child is such a shitty handicap for childhood that it's amazing there's not more things to prevent it. You're ostracized by default from peers and doubly so whenever there's physical activity, during recess or PE. I was even teased on a church trip for christ sakes.
Other than that it wasn't so bad.
>>28851705
have this oc atleast
I was born in a small town outside of a major city in Texas. When I was 1 my parents bought a house close to the city and we moved in. I was 3 when my parents had my sister. Shortly after she was born my Dad took to working out of state. He did so until I was 12, occasionally visiting but not for very long. He made enough money so my Mom didn't have to work and she fell into some pretty bad alcoholism and pretty much neglected me and my sister. Once my Dad came back he was, different. He loved my sister but thought that I was out to make their lives shitty and try to undermine their marriage. Eventually I wised up and just started spending all the time I had in my room. Fast forward 8 years and I'm still doing it.
Played a lot of Video Games and Sports. Failed Chad in all honesty. Socially awkward, no friends. Exceeded in Maths, History and Economics.
I was the type of kid who came up with good comebacks 3 weeks after the argument. I also got made fun of for being fat and liking cats.
>>28852745
josh? pls reponsd
>>28851705
That's pretty shitty man. Did that make you a robot?
>>28852780
Mike, sorry.
>>28850504
tl;dr I'm wasted potential
>bright innocent emotionally and physically frail boy
during primary school molested by sister who was molested by father who beat mother who remarried a man who grew to hate me and whose daughter and nieces I would later molest
>basically a sexual deviant
>middle school forced to work all throughout and never socialize after school
>fractured spine
>secondary school edgy asf jerking to cheese pizza and trolling
>jumped by many people
>always horny, depraved, edgy, spiteful, working, disoriented, in pain, and sleepy tired
always managed to have friends though i truly have a magnetic personality
>probably because i reflect people
>>28850504
i just remember playing DOOM for hours
oh, probably zelda too, but mostly DOOM
Too much to write in one post but I'll sum up the important parts
>mother never matured past adolescence
>molested me, dated me and wanted to get married
>full on sex, BRRAPP facesitting and a pregnancy scare
>dad hates me and wanted me to die
>sisters don't speak to me because I'm red pilled towards women from years on /r9k/
>girlfriend doesn't know about my mom
>used to be addicted to pills but not anymore
>contemplate suicide daily
>have jerked dick to the point where I've surpassed death grip and actually improved my sexual ability somehow
>skated through highschool
Anything else OP?
>>28850504
Well I don't remember anything 'till I was 5, then my parents got divorced, had a decent time in school 1-4th grade though
Who else jerked it to cheese pizza from 13 years and up, thinking it was okay because the kids were your age? I vividly remember losing most of my friends in 4th grade when they were all talking about Sasha grey and Alexis Texas when I opened my autistic mouth and mentioned underage girl models
>>28853045
thats the exact age i started jerking on /b/ to loli and eventually hard candy all the way to tor.
never ran into problems though many guy friends have the same fetish and those who don't still love pedo jokes
>that was highschool though, don't really mention any of this is uni
>>28853084
>girls walk by
>haha what are you guys talking about?
>anon watches porn with girls like you
>....
End me senpai, I wish I had friends who liked it too, but I guess it's good I don't or I would never quit it
>very normal childhood
>was content with solid Bs throughout schooling
>had good amount of friends as well as a small group of tight-knit best friends
>spoke well to other children my age and was told i was easy to get along with
>today
>20
>neet since high school ended
>find it very nerve-wracking to speak to someone in public
>need to hype myself up in private for a couple minutes before engaging someone in conversation (even to ask one question)
>no friends
>reclusive
every day i ask myself where it went wrong
>>28853004
What do you do on a daily basis?
Originalos
>>28853153
Play vidya or watch anime with mother, learn guitar, college work, sleep, or write short novels
Someday I'll change it up and take a trip somewhere but I've mostly stayed inside lately
>>28850504
Ehh it was alright I guess, my adolescence was an improvement.
>>28852827
I've always unconsciously felt different then other people because of my odd upbringing and a bunch of other things.
Examples:
My father owned the pre-school I went to, and when he decided to put it up for sale because he was dying, a rumor spread around that all the teachers were getting fired so the teachers started taking it out on me. They would hose me down if I had an accident and would mockingly tell me that my father wasn't going to own the school for long.
I was in a private school in kindergarten and taken out at the end of the year. I started showing signs of hyperactivity shortly after my father died so the kids in public school thought I was annoying. I had one friend all through elementary up until about 5th grade.
In 5th grade I had just started to get my own little group of friends when I was informed by my mother that I would be going to a magnet school on the other side of the county for 6th grade. I lost contact with my new group of friends.
In middle school I started to gain friends as the class clown and got my little niche. These are the closest friends I've made in my life up until this point. We were buddies, but we couldn't hang out as much because I lived one hour away. Oh my bus trip was 2 hours every day by the way.
In high school I got into a magnet program that all my friends were going to, but was kicked out because it was discovered I did not have the math requirement. I was always pretty good at all subjects, but math is not my thing. I'm moved to the largest high school on the county, where I know no one.
Puberty happened and I started experiencing anxiety for the first time. I had no support network so I spiraled into depression and spent the next two years sparatically going to class and then walking home early since I lived like two minutes from the school. I decided to leave and got my GED when I was 16.
>>28853456
This led to 2 years of complete isolation. I laid in my room thinking how bad my life was until one day I realized I was okay. I had grown accustom to being by myself, and it had no power over me anymore.
These last two years I've been slowly putting myself back out there. I want to enjoy my 20s and not let the same level of isolation happen to me ever again. I refuse to be sad and I refuse to feel sorry for myself.
>>28853290
please greentext a story of you fucking your mom
>>28850504
>Had an abusive father
>He was constantly abusing medications and alcohol
>Tried to kill my mother twice
>Tried to kill himself twice
>Has beaten me or would scream in my ear and verbally terrorize me while I'd do homework telling me to do it faster or he'd take the belt and beat my butt with it until my ass bruised and turned purple
>If I ever stood up against him which was plenty he'd hit me immediately sometimes with whatever was in his hand
>remember one time we were in the car
>parents had divorced
>tells me I didn't do a good enough job mowing the lawns so he's going to sell the house since me and mom don't appreciate it enough
>basically was going to stop paying my mom whatever money he owed her every month
>tell him he couldn't do that
>tells me he can do whatever the fuck he wants
>tell him he's wrong and that he's acting like a bully
>goes on a rampage about how me and my mom are bullies
>I release a fucking verbal assault on him on how he's wrong and remind him of all the psychical and mental abuse hes caused the family
>he calls me a little shit
>I call him an alcoholic and tell him to go kill himself
>he grabs my face and slams it in the window a couple of times
That was at 12 it was weird.
The weirdest one being when I was 8.
>Christmas time and all the cousins are gathering
>It's 50+ family members
>we all go into the backyard since that's where everything is happening at
>there's a trampoline
>brother and I want to play wrestling/who can do the coolest flips or stunts
>do stunts for a while
>decide to wrestle now
>i'm a massive 8 year old and overall a bretty big guy
>easily overtake 6 year old brother plus other kids my age and a year over
>brother however gets really mad that I won
>runs to dad and tells him "ANON hurt me"
>dad is furious
>walks to the trampoline
>look at brother like "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE"
>brother is frowning at me and crossing his arms it's cute that he was "mad"
>dad on other hand is taking this seriously
>>28853668
>"Anon come her right now!"
>Aunt so happens to be there with my dad while this is happening
>Walk up to him and he immediately grabs my collar and pulls me in
>Slaps me both ways across the face
>Pulls me in close and whispers in my face "don't you ever hit your brother again do I make that clear?"
>brother starts crying
>aunt looks at dad
>everyone stops
He just fucking acted like no one would notice or care either it was insane.
Everyone apparently talked to my dad or said something to him nasty. I'm high af btw so this isn't coherent.
>>28850504
it was the only time in my life when i was truly happy
>>28850504
basically grew up in solitary confinement and am now at the point where i could barely be considered human. no personality, no intelligence, no looks, no skills, no nothing. it was pretty shit honestly
>mom took care of me great. dad was sort of there, but not a parent
>mom kept me clean and well dressed and kept up with my school work
>her cancer came back and she died when i was 7
>my dad drank a lot and watched tv
>i basically had to raise myself
>raised by my friends and teachers. left to my own devices all day
>dad would lose his temper every week or so and scream at me for minor things. expected me to act like an adult and be responsible and would lash out at me if i wasn't
>was molested by teen boy next door and it gave me an addiction to sucking dick and getting fucked which i have to this day
>mom wasn't there to take care of me anymore and i didn't know to shower or brush my teeth or change my clothes so i stunk like my own shit
>hair was greasy, teeth had black gunk all around them, skin was dirty
>any time i talked to a girl and got her to like me i'd start pushing her away because i feared intimacy with any girl because i had abandonment issues from my mom dying. not that many were into me because i stunk like shit
>never dated or fucked. got obsessed with anime girls.
>shoved random objects up my ass before i graduate to dildos
changed my life around in my 20's but i'm still basically the same guy just with a new exterior that kind of allows me access to normie-type things
continuing to try and improve my life and be able to have a gf and a normal sex life one day, but i'm planning on getting a gun and shooting myself if that doesn't work out
Mom died when I was in sixth grade, just late enough to remember her. I was raised by my widower father whom I learned to hate from my mom. I'd hide everything from him out of fear of him getting mad and did terribly in school. Dropped out my senior year of highschool after he had an annyuersm and a stroke. Went to a group home for a week after a big fight involving me putting him screaming at me on Myspace for sympathy
>>28850504
>single schizophrenic dad
>cut off from all family and only one friend til age 12 because he was a full blown recluse + can't socially interact properly and don't even realise there's a problem when I'm being a fucking meathead
>get to intermediate school (middle school for confused americucks) and try to make friends because only friend decided to go to different school and not tell me to get rid of my autistic ass
>all the other girls hated me because I was chubby and had terrible hygiene bc dad never made me do anything and never checked up on me, severe social anxiety/10 because of this to this day
>cant even muster up the femballs to ask to go to the bathroom so guess who starts to literally piss themselves like a fucking animal on the regular
>don't brush teeth, don't wash hair, only shower like once every 3 days, just wipe myself down with a damp cloth in-between showers
>call my once-friend every friday at 4:30 like clockwork, has become a stacy since she moved and wants nothing to do with me because who would
>too stupid to pick up on this and do it for so so long
>reach last 10 weeks of 2nd year intermediate and start to clean my act up literally
>by the time summer break finishes and high school starts v clean and trying my best to act normal, still minor incont problems because fucking swine but (I like to pretend that) no one really noticed bc (I think) I got good at covering it
>started to get friends bc dyed my hair red at this point and wore makeup to best imitate stacys in my area to try and assimilate
>start to realize I have nothing in common with these people and feel super uncomfortable all the time
>eventually get kicked out for dumb shit and move schools, people know of me from last school and heard rumours I was a real whore (female KHV at this point) + cant speak to anyone because of anxiety, dads in jail for meth at this point and everyone knows about it
>>28854064
>cont
>people used to throw rubbish and open drinks at me daily and cuss me out
>sat alone in all my classes
>didnt talk to anyone but teachers for the first 3-4 months there
>eventually get set up with small group of middle to lower rung female friends by my dean who tried their best to be nice to me even though I could barely look at them or speak to them
>stuck with them til I left, haven't been in touch with me since, never spoke to me outside school or tried to get in touch
>lifes shit and can't go outside most days, living in my mother's sleepout playing solitaire waiting for my dad to get released so I can crawl back and probably revert to something closer to intermediate school me
>probably just gonna killmyself.jpg soon
it was lonely and weird to me
>I could never understand schoolwork
>parents would get frustrated and sometimes beat me with objects because I couldn't understand my schoowork
>got shit grades because see above
>kicked out of the school because see above
>would come home and just go to my room
>no friends to play with
>no siblings to play with at the time
>go to mexican school
>got beat up at the sandbox within the first week of being there
>everyone hated me because I couldn't speak Spanish
>almost every day I was picked on because of it
it continued up till high school. For a while, I thought I was legit stupid because I was never able to grasp concepts at school like everyone else and when I did, it took a while.
>>28854118
God speed, anon. Die well.
bump for childhood stories etc
>>28853456
>>28853487
did anyone actually read this
>>28855376
I did. I'm the last bumper.
I just feel so sad sometimes. I guess my childhood was kind of fucked up but I don't even think that's why I feel so bad. I don't know.
I don't understand things like normal people do. I don't really know how to take care of myself. When I was a kid I was in special ed because I had trouble with school and other kids, but I wasn't diagnosed with anything because my mom didn't want me to be "labelled."
She married some guy when I was about 5 or 6 and he started fucking me on the regular. He told me it was alright for him to do that and I believed him.
At school they basically taught me to be as passive as possible so I would be easier for them to handle.
Do what you're told. Don't say no to grownups. Good girl.
I didn't find out I was autistic until I was 19. I've never had a relationship, but I want a family so badly, a real family. I don't really think I'm good enough to be somebody's wife, since I'm not clean. I feel so alone and so disgusting, used up. Probably can't handle that kind of intimacy anyways so it's better this way.
I'm a huge burden on the people I have. My brother is my best friend but he gets frustrated with me a lot because I don't understand things and I'm not good at communicating with him or anyone else and I get really clingy. He's all I got so I cling to him pretty hard.
That's kind of why I got a dog I guess. He's always really excited to see me and he doesn't mind getting squished on.
But I still want a family, I could have been such a good wife. The best mother. But my brain doesn't work right and I'm not clean and I don't know what to do.
>>28850504
childhood was great, it went downhill at 15 though. father died and I just stopped giving a shit about everything
my mom was an alcoholic and my dad was all kinds of fucked, mostly heroin though
it could've been much, much worse
>>28850504
>Looked up to my dad as a young child
>As I got older I stopped looking at him like he could do no wrong and started realizing he was a cunt
>Was abused by him a lot, both verbally and physically
>Became more isolated as I got older, I only wanted to talk to my friends since my dad was a cunt and my mom constantly supported him
>Eventually my dad puts in a request with his company to transfer without asking my mom, brother, or me how we might feel about it
>Forced to move across the country and leave friends behind
>Never made any new friends and just sat alone in school, when I got home I'd stay in my room all day
>Added on to my resentment of my dad
>Now 18
>Desperately trying to find a job just to move out
>Finally think I have a chance to get one at a grocery store
>If it doesn't work out I'll probably join the Navy just to get out
>>28855766
i'm actually joining the navy to get the fuck out of my parents place too
have you taken the asvab?
My sister taught me to cut myself when I was 9
>>28855775
Yeah, I took it a few months ago. No idea what I scored though, if I were a betting man I'd say not well since I guessed on almost all of the math section.
>>28855792
why did ya have to guess?
i really didn't find it that hard and qualified to get into their nuke program which seems pretty nice
you should try to take it again and do good
>>28855806
>why did ya have to guess?
Because I'm really fucking stupid, man. I don't know that I did bad, like I said I didn't ask them for my information. It is a fallback plan for me, I'm only doing it if I can't get out any other way.
I was the typical cool kid that everybody liked, tons of friends and fun, also had a gf.
Then I got a computer and internet connection and became a socially retard.
I was born in a small village. I was still a child, when we were raided by soldiers, foreign soldiers. Torn from my elders, I was made to speak their language. With each new post, my masters changed, along with the words, they made me speak. With each change, I changed too.
Best time of my life. Lived in my own fantasy world and had 2 great friends which was all I needed. Parents spoiled me all the time. Got everything I wanted. It was gr8. Would relive it again.
>>28856059
I already dislike you.
>abusive father
>bullied at school
Short version
>>28850504
>tell me about your childhood, /r9k/
It is what it is
>>28856295
>>28856059
same. Parents probably pay for his college and car too.
>>28853565
It's a little personal and I write like shit but okay anon
>be me
>13 years old, 4.5 inch dick and very tall
>nothing to brag about but I was a robot anyway so it didn't matter
>browsing /s/ for some classy porn
>hear a knock on my door
>my mom is the only one who knocks
>"anon are you okay?"
>I was jerking it pretty hard so she must've heard noises
>"u-uh yeah I'm fine mom"
>"...are you doing it anon?"
>oh fugg she knows
>my mother has a fetish for catching me in the act and helping me finish
>hear the knob twist but it's locked
>"anon let me in, let mommy help you"
>hear her unzipping her pants and giggling
>no, not anymore. I'm done with this
>she keeps knocking and it makes me lose my hardon
>hear a crash
>"ANON HELP"
>run out with nothing but boxers on thinking she fell (she was very clumsy)
>she was waiting on the other side of the door half naked and grabbed me
>pulled me inside and locked the door
>"anon sweetie, don't hurt Mommys feelings like that..you make me feel like I'm not pretty anymore
>"I'm sorry mommy, you know your really pretty!"
>"show me anon, show me how pretty I am.."
>grab her D cups and start to suckle on them
>pale, veiny breasts with small nipples
>she leads me to the bed and I'm on her lap breastfeeding for a few minutes
>she starts touching the tip of my little penis softly, rubbing circles with her pinky
>occasionally sucks on her pinky and slides it in my dickhole
>I move from her breast to her mouth, tongue kissing her and mixing in affectionate kisses too
>I realize tonight is gonna be all of her fetishes as she lays on top of me and forces me to lick her armpits
>>28858450
>this was one of her high school things that never went away
>she was slightly sweaty but tasted sweet
>starts grinding her pussy on my dong
>it expands the best it could at 13
>feel little pre cum dripping
>at this point we're both sweaty and I can still taste her milk
>she slides down and starts nibbling the head of my dick
>I know what comes next and lift my legs up
>she mixes my pre cum with her spit and puts it on her fingers
>she slowly rubs my asshole and starts putting them in
>this on top of the blowjob makes me toes curl, it's so much sensation
>can't hold it any longer and cum in her mouth
>she goes up to my face and shows me as she gargles it before swallowing
>we make out and I realize how much I missed feeling her full, luscious lips
>she spoons me and holds me tighter than I thought you could ever hold someone
>we hold hands and go to sleep like that
One of many, many experiences anon
I could tell more or a less sexy but interesting story
If it helps you with immersion, my mother is 5'11 with really long blonde hair and and long legs
Imagine someone like R.Mika minus the suit obviously
Although I would be diamonds if my mom dressed up like that one day
As a child I always thought my dad was a superhero. Now that I have my own kids I understand he never really cared about me. Ignorance is bliss i suppose. I didn't have a terrible childhood because everything was given to me with a silver spoon but my father spent zero time with me and taught me absolutely no valuable lessons on how to dea with this cruel world.
>>28850504
Was raped at an early age, was raped at an intermediate age, was raped as a teenager, am getting raped daily now
>>28858612
This is the worst upbringing, I feel you.
It's like my dad didn't do anything wrong...but he didn't do anything right either.
>tfw no father figure to teach me how to fight
>get cornered once by bullies
>no idea what to do
>swing with all my force with thumb over knuckles
>a wet cracking noise as I fuck up my hand for what would be months of recovery
>biggest bully stomped on hand and raped me
>couldn't even tell dad, say it was a jihadist
>he pays police to kill the jihadist I pointed out
>Always lived in fear of retaliation
>worry I won't be a good father to my children now
Silver spoon does not equal happy childhood, remember that my poor anon friends
>>28858638
>daily
Wut?
>>28858650
More so when you turn 18 and they expect you to fend for yourself. You wouldn't believe how many mistakes I made because I lived a sheltered existence with no knowledge on how to take care of myself. He didn't even teach me about credit cards had to start building up my credit at age 25 living in a measly apartment barely paying the bills as it was. Don't even get me started on relationships and the horrible mistakes there. Believe me my son is going to be fully prepared to embace this hellscape we call earth even if I cant afford him a cushy lifestyle. At least he will know I played legos with him everyday as a child and taught him how to be a real man through his upbringing.
>>28858487
Post moar anon thank you
okay
>parents divorce when I was four years old
>clear memories of watching them fight and trying to get them to stop
>forced to live with my mom after
>every time I see my dad he is too depressed to do anything with me
>never learn how to be a man
>made a few friends in school but I was always on the bottom of the totem pole (they would often "forget" to invite me somewhere, would often speak over me etc.)
>don't know how to talk to girls, farthest i ever got was a pity hug
>get depressed around age 14
>tell a few of my friends
>makes me hate myself even more because I made my problems theirs
>cut all contact with them
>basically just stay in the library for the rest of high school
>just wish a stray bullet would pierce my skull
>>28859250
>kierkegaard
Are you scandi?
>>28859277
No, I just really like Kierkegaard
>>28859225
Soon m8, keep lurking
