So after over 2 months of waiting I got my psychiatrist appointment on the 24th. I would like to gather some stories. My biggest fear is that either he is a dick/incompetent or something or that if I say too much he might lock my ass up or put me on a list. I don't think telling him about my severe homicidal tendencies is a good idea. I might tell him about suicidal tendencies or do you had bad experiences with that too? How did your first appointment go and were you completely honest? Just dump your experiences. Also, please keep the shitposting and made up stories to a minimum, please.
I've come to the conclusion that complete honesty will only lead you to having more visits because they really want to drain you of cash. The same is probably true of lying though. Fuck em all. Just take the MMPI-2 and test for things you might suspect. Don't take anti psychs because they'll leave you actually drained with minor but annoying pressure headaches.
>>28720467
Psychiatrists tend to not do therapy at least where I am from
So they will just give you meds and direct you to a psychotherapist/psychologist
>>28720467
Why would he lock you up?
>>28720467
I've been disappointed with my psychiatrists
I've had two going on three
One a college psychiatrist the other some random recommend both women
Didn't connect with either the only positive came from the second one when she had me do breathing exercises a form of meditation
First one was bad tried to recommend me going to a church as a social activity and I was just telling her my problems and crying
I at first just told them my suicidal tendencies but after several weeks finally told them about my homicidal intentions
Can't believe I got away with telling the college psych I had a plan to shoot up the place and not be committed
Don't tell them about homicidal intentions they seem to care more about that or at least the first one did
>>28720616
>>28720665
My doc already prescribed me two antidepressants, but I refuse to take them. The list of side effects is huge and I can't swallow pills, no matter how small.
>>28720734
Because I'm a potential thread to society, I guess?
>>28720758
The psychiatrist I'm about to go is male, but I have huge trust issues, I guess. I'm afraid if he asks me what's wrong with me I might just say "Oh, nothing really." and just up and leave. But yeah, I keep the thing about homicide to myself then. Some "social training" in a church might be just the right thing for me, but I doubt it'll just come to me.
Also does anyone was in a sanatorium once?
>>28720878
>I can't swallow pills, no matter how small
Next stop suppositories
>>28720878
SSRIs are easy though. Try benzos.
And yes, I've been locked up twice for about 12 days each in the past year and a half because my insane need to have correct definitions being applied in the psychiatric world has made me worse. I'm in a literal catch 22 and nothing can help. Except maybe getting off my lazy ass and doing the tests like I recommended.
I've had only one truly incompetent psychiatrist. I've had at least one psychologist/counselor that was a true shitlord. Female. The other ones, mostly female, have been fine, the male one, he's been fine.
The problem is I don't know how honest I can be with them. Over the past DECADE I've become more open, but it's still difficult. At my last visit to the psychiatrist she asked if I was thinking of hurting myself or others and it's like "no more than usual." Not meant as a joke necessarily, but it's like I don't like lying, but I'm honestly afraid if I tell the truth about most of it they'll send me to the hospital. And not a paranoid fear mind you, I have literally been sent to the hospital by a psychiatrist over saying I want to kill myself.
In reality, the violent tendencies they hear plenty about. It's not "common" for people to talk about them, but really, you want to run people down in traffic, mothers are literally concerned with strangling their kids a lot, it happens. The sexual urges, they're still like 100% subjective on it. Older doctors ironically tend to be less discriminating, while the younger ones can go fucking apeshit that not everyone is 100% normie.
I know from personal experience, that psychiatrists, especially ones visited at an emergency ward, WILL write shit about you in your records. If a doctor goes off your records (they usually don't to be honest, it's expensive and time consuming), they might go off false information.
I really wish after my emergency visit that the next doctors paid more attention to their report. The first record was saying that I seemed disillusioned, angry, depressed, but was otherwise intelligent and well meaning. The next reports were that I was a narcissistic delusional computer and porn addict for not wanting to be around normies.
>>28721014
P.s. records are not some global thing, they're always kept in some fucks office or basement, and are only available upon explicit consent with a fax. Doctors are lazy cunts too, so they won't ever support mandatory record sharing.
I only have my records because I applied for disability, and the doctors may not have had the ability to say no to the government.
>>28720878
>but I refuse to take them.
Well you are a retard
SSRIs are far away from being really bad drugs
>>28721216
They aren't really drugs, though. They only start working after two weeks or something and you don't get high, feel great, have a trip or something immediately. The only thing you get immediately are headaches, a dry mouth and the ability to get a boner.
>>28721316
*disability to get a boner.
Damn SSRI's fucking me up again.
Psychiatry is a fucking meme, don't go unless you need a proper diagnostic for retardbux.
>>28720878
I also have refused to take anti depressants
Try managing your pain in other ways first
I know it's hard I've been depressed for ten years but I've never taken any pills and have only visited a psych in 2014 for half a semester and then lay year for a summer
My depression is result of bad situation caused by my choices and lifestyle of no exercise not going outside and being naturally shy compound this over years
Exercise is key I felt the best after I had been working out for two years and had gained ten pounds of muscle
>>28721316
>drug
>noun
>a medicine or other substance which has a physiological effect when ingested or otherwise introduced into the body.
>"a new drug aimed at sufferers from Parkinson's disease"
>synonyms: medicine, medical drug, medication, medicament; More
>>28720467
I've been to an overwhelmingly large number of psychiatrists and psychologists, OP, so I'll try to condense my experiences
>stay away from females at all costs, have never benefited from their services
>do not fucking trust anyone without a doctorate, no exceptions
>never admit to having a plan or intent to harm yourself or someone else
>but it's completely okay to discuss homicidal and suicidal thoughts- in fact, if that's the main thing that's bothering you, you should be discussing that first and foremost
>be very cautious about taking medication. do your research. do not take SSRIs unless you are diagnosed as depressed AND ONLY DEPRESSED, and then start with the lowest dose possible. SSRIs can make many different mental illnesses worse but they can work for depression
>if you feel you need more therapy, or better therapy, either tell your psychiatrist you want to see a psychologist, or find a new provider
>never be afraid to ask questions
I'm currently seeing a psychiatrist every three months, a psychologist twice a week, check in with a forensic psychiatrist about twice a year. Have seen dozens of social workers, therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, everything. I'd be happy to answer any more specific questions that you have, OP.
>>28721782
What's wrong with you anon? I think I'm going crazy. I find it hard to describe, I can't think straight recently, I'm perceiving things that aren't there and sleeping so much, I feel like I'm jumping back and forth in space if that makes sense
Went to a shrink twice and it was awful
I was on the brink of Killing myself and he was Talking about non relevant stuff
Horrible stuff i hated Talking about myself like this
>>28721848
I've got OCD, bipolar type 1, sexual sadism and paraphilia NOS (necrophilia). The overwhelming intrusive thoughts and compulsions about attacking, torturing, and killing people and making love to their dead bodies are bad enough, but I've also got a history of violence because of aforementioned compulsions and the bipolar disorder's mania reducing my control over my impulsiveness. There were hallucinations for awhile, but those went away after I was properly medicated and the stress went down considerably. I know how you feel man, it's absolutely terrible.
If you can, find a shrink that you can trust. Test them by slowly confiding in them. Make sure that they won't react adversely or report the sessions to anyone else. When you're sure it's safe, talk to them about the homicidal issues. If they're worth their salt they'll do everything that they can to help you. There is help out there, man, and while it may be very hard to find it's absolutely worth the trouble. The shrink I'm seeing right now is legitimately saving my life (and others, too).
Medication can go a long way towards helping with the depersonalization and derealization. Use caution when trying new meds, but don't be afraid of them. Psychiatrists are there to help you. So long as they aren't trying to cram SSRI after SSRI down your throat, they'll do what they can to get you on the right meds and get you feeling as normal as possible. It can make an enormous difference.
It's absolutely wonderful that you're open to getting help, OP, I wish you the best of luck.
>tell psychs about my regular panic attacks and inability to do normal shit because of anxiety. diagnosed with agoraphobia.
>they keep prescribing me nothing but ssris and other antidepressants that do nothing
how the fuck do people get benzos?
>>28722197
In order to get anything other than SSRIs you have to "take" the SSRIs and tell your doc that they're giving you horrific, inexcusable side effects that you can't tolerate. Only then will they consider different classes of medication.
>>28722212
i've been on 7-8 different ones and have told them they haven't helped but they don't seem to listen or care. anxiety completely dominates my life. i think next time i see a doctor or psych i'm going to sternly tell them what i need.
>>28722251
also, i forgot to add that they keep prescribing newer and much more expensive antidepressants when they know i can't afford them. dickheads
I had Delirium Tremons mistaken for schizophrenia by a Pajeet female doctor at the VA.
I didn't know any better and trusted her opinion, my life was pretty fucking miserable for a few years after that.
>>28722251
>>28722269
Stop seeing whoever you're seeing IMMEDIATELY. Find better psychiatrists, they do exist, although they're hard to find they are out there. Do your research before you see someone else, find someone with at least a decade of experience and TONS of published papers and good reviews. Make sure that whoever is providing you with your care is as competent and learned as possible. The jokers you're seeing now are just shills for the pharmaceutical industry and couldn't give two shits about you.
Stop taking any SSRIs you're on by gradually reducing the dose, lower it about .5mg every week until you're completely off of it. Stay off of them. They are poison.
>>28722372
i stopped seeing them awhile ago. unfortunately i'm limited to whoever my insurance covers. i really hate the US healthcare system especially when it comes to mental health. thanks for responding, i'll stop complaining now.
>>28722434
No problem m8. I hope you find someone who can help you. Good luck.
i've had a bipolar one dx for a decade now, went a while without care. hasn't been fully under control for several years now but we're making constant progress.
it's almost like going to a mechanic now. none of the crying or personal journey or them being powerful and heavy handed. i go in and describe my status and symptoms, he asks questions to get a full picture, and we decide if there needs to be a medication adjustment or any lifestyle changes.
i like him better than my previous psychiatrist only because that one was convinced i had a tardive diskynesia and wouldn't prescribe me seroquel, even after a neurologist said i didn't. now i'm on seroquel (as i was years ago) and it's been very positive. i have no movement disorder.
>>28722372
>The jokers you're seeing now are just shills for the pharmaceutical industry and couldn't give two shits about you.
Most psychiatrists seem like drug dealers with a God complex to me.
I think their treatments are usually worthless too, honestly I've never met a single person who claims psychiatry improved their lives other than fools who've tried 10 different antidepressants over a five year period and bleat " ya gotta find the right one dey totally work" because their depression eventually remitted.
Have any of you guys ever spoken to a doctor/psychiatrist about dysphagia or globus before?
I've been getting it more and more frequently in these past few weeks, and the doctor says it may be related to an anxiety disorder and it might be alleviated with antidepressants.
>go to therapist
>sends ambulance to my house unexpectedly
>go to hospital and take medicine
>get discharged
>pretend to be changed
>stop seeing therapist
>nothing changed
>>28722633
>i've had a bipolar one dx for a decade now, went a while without care. hasn't been fully under control for several years now but we're making constant progress
Are you able to function, do stuff like work, education, romantic partner?
>>28722683
Since I have bipolar disorder, psychiatry has saved my life. Initially I was put on SSRIs by idiots who misdiagnosed me with psychotic depression, and the medication only made me worse. Once I started seeing competent shrinks, though, and they put my on Lithium, my behavior and mood changed so dramatically it's fucking unbelievable. Without the help of proper psychiatrists I would be in jail or dead. There absolutely are doctors out there who genuinely want to help you, it's just fucking difficult to find them.
>>28720467
>>28720616
Gf is a mental health counselor, they abide by the same rules during therapy
- You can only get locked up or in trouble if you say you wanted to kill yourself or if you make the psych/therapist/counselor aware that a child, animal, or other person is in danger. Emphasis on children.
>complete honesty will only lead you to having more visits because they really want to drain you of cash
- This is rare and is considered unethical. My gf and counselors she knows will terminate when a client has overcome their trouble or if no progress is being made. However, there are some counselors that see it as a continuing thing and want you to come in perpetuity. Watch out for that and ask them during your first session what their thoughts are on the subject.
- Counselors/therapists/psychiatrists go into the business because they want to help. Don't be scared or skeptical. That is the person's job and chosen field, they will spend time learning about you and figuring out how to help you overcome your difficulties. They really care and they really are interested.
>>28722735
i have a job. i just got employee of the month, bb! i have a couple good social relationships. couldn't really do a gf right now.
i'm on leave for mental health reasons from a mildly impressive grad program. i could definitely manage a career like school teacher or low level accountant, even the way i've been these last couple years. but i'm aiming high. as of a couple weeks ago i'm out of my most recent episode and feeling stable and optimistic.
>>28722683
i think antidepressants can be helpful in certain situations but i don't like how freely they're given out. i'm not sure how useful they are for people like me who have dealt with chronic depression over a decade. i think at best they "take the edge off" or help people get out of bed in the morning. good therapy and support is probably more effective, but even then it can take awhile to find a therapist who's compatible with you.
>>28722842
That's awesome brobot, I hope everything works out for you.
I mostly just go for the prescriptions at this point.
I don't end up paying much for the sessions & medication at all because I have a medical condition that qualifies me for an "increased reimbursement" from my insurance. (I'm paying <5 euro per session, once per month)
I'm not 100% honest all the time because I don't want to get hospitalized.
Took years of patience to get through all possible ssri's and other types of anti-depresssants. I only noticed unpleasant side effects from these.
I was even on antipsychotics at one point even though I was never psychotic. Started to feel like my brain was a chemistry experiment.
I'm currently prescribed benzos to take as needed for anxiety, they're the first med he's prescribed that helps me in any way. I'm quite aware of the addictive potential though.
does anyone else always avoid hospitalization?
i have always lied to avoid it and never got caught with my pants down so to speak. i'm glad my current psych doesn't take my lack of inpatient experience as a barometer of anything.
i'mi terrified of eveyrthing to do with inpatient and would maybe rather die.
>>28723567
I've read of reviews about psych wards and all were really shocking, we're talking 1/5 stars. Naturally, I too avoid hospitalization, because there's only one in my city and it's reputation is horrible.
Also are you from Germany?
>>28723787
no im in the us where they're probably even worse by and large.
>>28723567
I avoid it at all cost desu. It's never happened to me but I've heard some horror stories from people who've been there.
Avoid mentioning any specific plans to harm yourself or others.
